I Can't Even Explain The Type Of Fear That I Felt

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Listener discretion is advised. Right when I opened the door, this person had grabbed me around the neck and put a gun to my head and said, do anything stupid, I'm going to blow your head off. Real people. Just imagine a car coming at you, a pickup truck coming at you on the highway. Now just imagine that to be the size of Mount Everest. Who faced death.

He turned around with a screwdriver, and he started to stab me. He stabbed me once in my forehead. He stabbed me once in my chest, and he tried stabbing me again in my neck. And lived to tell how. He had a... evil grin on his face. And he looked at me and said, what would you do if I pulled this trigger? This is I Survived.

It's June 1994 in Lake Havasu, Arizona. 19-year-old Lisa and her best friend are at a dance club. My roommate and I were best friends, inseparable, lived together for a year and a half. Our plans were to drive to Lake Havasu and go out to a club. We left the club about 11 o'clock in the evening and decided to go to walk down the street to another bar.

And they were doing karaoke. So we were singing karaoke, having a great time. At 2 a.m., Lisa and her friend got a ride back to their car. We were dropped off at her car in the parking lot. The parking lot was fairly... fairly big and there was not very many cars there. I was standing outside the car waiting for my friend to unlock the door from the inside and I happened to glance over and about 20 feet away from me

I noticed a man walking our direction. But there were other vehicles in the lot, so I assumed that he was going to his car. So I turned my head back to the car and opened the door. And right when I opened the door, this person grabbed me around the neck and put a gun to my head and said, do anything stupid, I'm going to blow your head off.

The second that I felt the gun press to my head, I was in shock. I was numb. He shoved me in the front seat and he forced himself into the back seat. He told my friend, to drive exactly where he tells her to drive, not do anything stupid, do not make any harsh turns, do not do anything erratic, or he will pull the trigger and he will kill me.

So with absolute terror and fear within myself and her as well, I'm sure, she began to drive. We pulled up to the stoplight and there was a police officer that actually pulled up. right next to us. And I remember glancing at the police officer and he didn't even look our direction. But I wished so much that we would have been pulled over at that moment. I looked in the side view mirror.

and noticed the lights from the city getting more dim and more dim and pretty soon nonexistent and the fear set in. I can't even explain the type of fear that I felt.

at that moment i know that i contemplated jumping out at the moment many times but in fear for what would happen to her one can feel feel absolutely helpless as i saw the last streetlight And the last light turned into nothing. Lisa tried to talk to her kidnapper. I wanted to gain his trust because I felt that if I could gain his trust, that I could live, that he'd let us go, that he'd have a heart.

But he shut off, instantly shut off when I was getting too close and turned ice cold all over again. At that moment, he had taken the gun off of my head. and had told me to remove all my clothing. We kept driving. My friend still faced forward while I was removing my clothes. And at that moment is when... He began to sexually assault me with his gun. He had an evil grin on his face, and he looked at me and said, what would you do if I pulled this trigger? I just, I sat there shaking.

scared to death, not knowing if he was going to pull the trigger or not. But I had no choice. I was numb and waited till he was finished with his game.

You see your life flashing before your eyes. You see everything in your life played out like a movie in front of your eyes. It feels like it goes on for a half hour and it's only flashing in your mind for... a second i can't explain the type of fear that i felt because if nobody's been through it you don't know but it's a type of fear that i never want to feel again he took the gun

away from me, he sat back in the seat and he had told my friend to pull the car over. He had me get out the passenger side outside the vehicle to go around the front of the vehicle. to the driver's side and she was to switch over from the driver's side into the passenger side and proceed to take her clothes off. So when I got out and went slowly in front of the vehicle and I'm shaking to death.

I stood outside the driver's side door trying to get in, but the door was locked. And the gunman was in the back seat, and he was shuffling, trying to unlock the door with his hand. while I was pulling on the handle trying to get in. And that's right when I had three seconds, three seconds to think, am I going to stay here?

and who knows what's going to happen or I'm going to run. And within that three seconds, I ran faster than I've ever ran in my life. No direction, not knowing where I was or where I was going, but I just ran.

I heard the gunshot and I just instantly started crying because I thought that he had just shot my friend. I wasn't sure if my friend was shot. I wasn't sure if she was even alive, but I knew I had to get help one way or another. I had to get help. I kept running so fast. And all of a sudden... My right foot had hit really hard into what felt like a cement barrier and I fell over it right onto my face. But I got up after two seconds and I kept running.

I saw some lights in the distance, and I kept running for them. I kept running in that direction. The first house I came to... It was exhilarating. It was such a rush of relief that I felt. I hurried over to the sliding glass door, which is by the pool area, and I started banging on the sliding glass door.

all my force and all my might, and I was screaming, please help me, please help me. We've been kidnapped. I panicked. I just wanted somebody to answer that door. And the stained glass door came open probably about three inches. enough to get a hand through and it was at that very second that the hand that reached through was holding the handgun pointed right in my face and just begged for my life please don't shoot.

Please don't shoot. I need help. My friend's been kidnapped. Please don't shoot. And I dropped onto my knees and just cried. And that's when... A gentleman that was at the door, an older man, opened up the door and saw me naked and bleeding. And he called out to his wife, please call 911. hurry and he picked me up and held me in his arms and just said you're gonna be okay I collapsed in his arms so grateful and so relieved

And I knew at that moment I was going to be okay. Police were on scene within five minutes of the phone call. And I was transported into an ambulance. I wasn't questioned about anything right away because I needed medical attention. I had big pieces of rock, big chunks of rock removed from my knee. My right foot was broken. The toe was shoved back into the middle of my foot.

I had to get stitches in my chin. The police had come in and questioned me. I gave them the best description of the car that I could, and they sent out a team to our location. and did a search in the area for a vehicle and for my friend, and what seemed like hours went by. One of the policemen came in. And said, we found your friend. And she's okay. And she's being transported to the hospital. Lisa's friend was released by the attacker after being sexually assaulted. And it was the best feeling.

to be able to hold her and to know that she was okay. And I kept apologizing, saying, I'm so sorry I left you. I'm so sorry I left you. And she had told me not to be sorry. It wasn't until the next day that the law enforcement got a hold of us. The car was located about a block and a half away from an elderly lady's house. who was beaten, bound, and raped. They're assuming it was the same person because our car was found near her location. Lisa's attacker was never found.

I survived because I'm a fighter. I was 19. I had a life to live. I had a future of having children to love. I had a husband to adore, and I had friends and family to laugh with still. my whole life ahead of me. I came into this world swinging, and I'll leave this world swinging. And no one's ever going to take my life from me.

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It's April 2011 in Tuscaloosa, Alabama. Chris and his wife have just moved to Alabama. I'm from New York, and my wife decided she wanted to go back to school. And she got accepted to the University of Alabama. And we moved to Tuscaloosa. I became a commercial artist again, freelancing. So I'm working from home every day. Chris's wife was at school, half a mile away from home.

That day, my wife called and let me know there's bad weather coming. I put the TV on to follow the weather, and there were storms everywhere, and it seemed like clearly there was some big, big front coming. in our general direction. You know, what are you going to do? I mean, the whole storm is like half a statewide, so there's no reason where you're going to go. But you just, you know, just kind of waited on it all day.

And the weather got progressively worse, you know, as the day went on, but, you know, it didn't seem dramatic. You know, I was just on the phone with my brother, you know, just telling him, like, you know, it looks like there's, you know, some bad weather coming our way and, you know, power's probably going to be out. On the TV pops up this graphic. There's a huge tornado outside of Tuscaloosa. And, you know, there's a graphic of overlaying the streets. Giant tornado. Big arrow pointing to...

15th and McFarland, which is the corner I live on. So I'm on the phone with my brother, and I step outside to look in the direction that the graphic indicates that the tornado's coming from. And I realize it's right there in front of me. I told him, I said, this huge tornado came right at me and I dropped the phone. And that was the last my brother heard from me. Immediately, there's just a sinking feeling that this is going to go poorly.

You know, just imagine a car coming at you, a pickup truck coming at you on the highway. Now I just imagine that to be the size of Mount Everest. Split second I saw that I started making decisions about what to do. The first thing I did was I picked up the dogs and tied them to me, tied them around my waist. I grabbed a motorcycle helmet and, you know, I threw it on and grabbed the sofa cushion because they say, you know, you know, get a...

mattress over you if you can and there was no time for that. Already at that point the ground started to shake and it wasn't like shaking it was it was violent it just started to like shake like the whole world. And at that point, I knew we were going to get hit because the house just started to rattle and it was immediate. It was just like everything just was vibrating and shaking violently.

And I just knew we were in for it. Chris jumped into his bathtub with the dogs. My dogs were just completely freaking out, you know. And I held both of them by their shoulder harnesses. And I was trying to just keep them pushed down into the tub.

because I know you're supposed to stay low. It suddenly occurred to me, I'm in this bathroom, you know, with no windows, you know, and the room had no windows whatsoever, and it had this inkling that, you know, I'm going to get trapped in this room. The idea of being trapped...

you know, just really freaked me out and I leaned back out of the tub and I pushed open the bathroom door. And as soon as I did that, the whole front of the house flew away right in front of me. The roof flew away, the living room flew away, the porch flew away. The house just absolutely just disappeared up into the right. And a semi-truck, just cartwheels through my living room.

like a big 16-wheel white truck, you know, that they would use to make deliveries, you know, like a big, big truck, you know, to see that, like, tumbling through, you know, like a Matchbox car that somebody just chucked. You think of a tornado as wind, and it's just not. It's dirt, and it's glass, and it's twisted metal, and it's broken trees, and it's parts of cars, and it's signs.

And just like in The Wizard of Oz, I'm seeing everything just fly by. The dogs, I was hanging on to them, but I just couldn't. They were just ripped right out of my hands, and they were flying like kites on their chains.

The bathtub, which was the only thing standing, you know, it started to buck. It tried to take off like three times. It just violently bucked and like it was trying to lift off. So at that point... i thought you know we're gonna we're gonna lift off we're gonna go flying i just thought this is the most ridiculous way to go you know it's just so stupid you know it just seemed pointless i moved you know 1200 miles

to pick this house. It was totally surreal. And that was my lingering thought right there, is that this is just a stupid, stupid way to die. All of a sudden, you know, the wind, you know, stopped. It was immediate. You know, as soon as it had come, you know, all of this went on in six seconds maybe. And then, like, it was over.

At that point, the dogs fell to the ground, and the house fell on me. I was buried at that point. The dogs were out in the yard, but my head and my right arm were out on the grass. And so I was literally able to crawl out from the rubble in just a few seconds. I occupied the one square foot of my home that was survivable. Everything else was gone.

360 degrees, there was nothing left. You know, the houses were gone, the trees were gone, the gas station was gone. You know, I couldn't see anything standing in any direction. It was just, you know, it was... It was just rubble. My whole neighborhood disappeared. This is the point that I really thought that we were going to die. Because in my mind, we're now in the eye. And we're going to catch the back half. But now there's nothing.

to protect us. We're just in rubble. There's debris everywhere. There's nothing structurally left. And now what we just went through, we're going to catch all over again. There's no discernible sound. It's not even sound anymore. It's like a tangible thing that passes over you. And then when that stopped, straight out of the sky, like flat.

A pickup truck, just a white pickup truck, just falls flat out of the sky and lands about eight feet to my right and lands on all four wheels. Just, bam, and bounces and sits right there. You know, my dogs must have been missed by three feet. Maybe 15, 20 feet ahead, some kind of sedan fell and just plomped into the yard. And so looking up in that direction, you know, directly in front out into the backyard, I could see the wall of the tornado crossing the street.

and then moving into the yard, moving into the mall across the street. To see it that close, literally, to see the inside of it, to see it pass, to see it go across the street, take out everything and watch what it's doing. You know, buildings just flying away.

There was a burger joint there, just, you know, it picked it up, flew away. You know, the parking lot was full of cars and it would just, they shot into the air like, you know, like when a kid, you know, flings a rubber band. When you see the homes and everything, you know, you know.

There's probably people in there and they're just disappearing. It just, it didn't seem right that we were still there. The National Guard arrived and Chris helped them search for survivors. We're all standing out in this rubble, and there's no clear idea where the street is or where the yards are. It's just rubble. It's everywhere. It's trucks. It's boats. We're nowhere near water.

I was just trying to give them directions of, don't waste your time with this. There's no one in this house. I know it. There's a young couple here. There's four college students sharing that house. And every house is demolished. But, you know, also at the same time, I know there's another tornado coming. I was like, you know, you got to look quick, but then you got to go. We have to get out of here. I wanted to get inside again.

And at that point, there was a steakhouse that was just calling people over. Everybody come here. Everybody come in. And they took in 40 or 50 people. And we just all crowded into the kitchen area in the back. and put the emergency radio on and waited. We're just waiting for something to hit, or we're waiting for word that things are okay. And I think we waited around for maybe 20 minutes.

And, you know, but nobody really had an idea if this was long enough, should we go out? You know, and it was just kind of people just started to trickle out, kind of look around and think, well, maybe it's okay to leave. Chris took a risk and ventured outside to look for his wife. I started hiking to my friend's house. And when I got there, his place actually had been hit too, but it was structurally sound.

And, you know, when he saw me, you know, I'm walking up to him, I got too many dogs, bloody dogs. covered in mud, grit, gristle, and I'm bleeding. And I didn't have any words to say. I just kind of looked at them wide-eyed. And you got to keep in mind, after a tornado like that passes through, there's no electricity.

you know there's no phones and there's no phone service for anyone cell phones you know there's no internet you know it's getting dark now there are gas leaks everywhere you smell them every 15 20 feet He doesn't know where his wife is. I don't know where my wife is. And so we make a decision to lock up our pets and then let's go venture out into the rain and look for our wives.

I couldn't find my wife whatsoever. We couldn't find anyone that even had phone or internet. And there was no word of where she was, if she was okay. You know, a day and a half later, I still hadn't heard where she was. Eventually I found a stranger, you know, and I gave them, I think I gave them my Facebook password.

because he said he had internet access. And I asked him if he could log in and just post that I was okay and that I was out looking for her. I got word that, you know, some kind of firm confirmation that she was... at a professor's house, and they were okay. I survived because I did everything right. I made the right decisions. I did them in the right order.

I didn't do anything wrong and I got tremendously lucky. The tornadoes killed over 200 people in Alabama. We're in Alabama for two more years until my wife gets her PhD and then we're moving. to the most trouble-free city in this country. And I don't know where that is, but that's the criteria for moving. It's where there's no earthquakes, there's no mudslides, there's no floods. That's where we're going.

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It's June 2003 in San Jose, California. Nine-year-old Jeanette is on her way home from school. I wasn't in a good mood. And as soon as I got off the bus, I started walking home. And I remember just looking at the ground the whole time. I was just frustrated. I was just not having a very good day. And so I wasn't really noticing my surroundings. I was just thinking to myself.

Jeanette's mother and brother would not be home for another hour. When I came home, I noticed that the screen door was open.

three to four inches and i didn't think much of it i was like my mom probably left it open she was probably watering the plants or doing something outside and she probably didn't close it all the way and so as i stepped inside and walked into my room i noticed that my window was broken like somebody had shattered it and so that made me feel like something's wrong something's a little off there was a man knocking on the door and i didn't know what he was doing there was like what could he want

And when he was asking me questions, he was kind of peeking inside, trying to see who was in there with me. And that started making me feel really uncomfortable, and I started slowly closing the sliding door. And he put his hand in the way, slid it open, grabbed me. took me to my brother's room. He started to rape me. I was trying to get away. I started kicking him. He kept grabbing me, but I couldn't do anything, and I was just scared, and as soon as he was doing what he was...

doing to me, I started to cry. I was in pain, I was scared, and it was just the most horrific feeling I could have felt. After he had raped me, he had gotten up and I was crying and I... And he told me to stay in the room, not to move. And if I moved, that he was going to hurt me. And I remember just sitting at the corner of the bed, and I was just crying. And I was thinking to myself, I don't even know what I'm going to do. He was gone for probably like five minutes.

And in those five minutes, I didn't even try to run. I didn't even try to do anything. I was scared. He told me if I had tried to run, he was going to hurt me. He was threatening me, and I was just in pain. I couldn't even move, and I didn't know what to do. I was just crying. He started to tie my feet together and he handcuffed me and he had picked me up and taken me into the garage. Jeanette was stuffed into a box and thrown into the back seat of his car. When I was in the back of the seat...

He was trying to open the garage door, and when he was pushing the button, the garage door would only go up and down, up and down, but it would only go up like three or four feet. I seen the tires to my mom's truck, and that's when I had known that they were home. I immediately started to panic, and I started yelling and screaming, but I guess they couldn't hear me. And as soon as...

He was trying to open the garage door, and my brother went under the garage door, and he looked at me. He saw me in the back car. He was smiling, and as soon as he saw me in the back seat and I was yelling, his smile just immediately disappeared. a question mark face like who what's wrong and the man walked towards my brother and my brother walked towards the man and the man started beating my brother hitting him and my brother was only like 15 or 16 at that time and

When I was watching my brother get beat, I immediately, like, I lost it. I was like, he's going to kill him. I told him that, and I was screaming at him. I was like, please don't kill him. Take me. Let him live.

He picked up my brother and took him into the kitchen. And all I heard was, like, fighting. Like, I heard pans flying and my mom screaming and my brother yelling out to my mom to run. And it was like... a big commotion in less than one minute and after that it went it got quiet and i see the man rush out of the kitchen into the car

And when I seen blood on his face, I was like, did you kill them? And he just started laughing, and I just started to cry. I was like, I didn't know if he had killed them or if they were okay. I just didn't know what was wrong with them, and I started to cry, and he fled off with me in the backseat.

When I was in the back seat, I was trying to figure a way to get out, wiggle my feet out of the rope that he had tied me in, but I couldn't. He had, like, knotted it. really tight and he had wrapped it around my feet so many times I just couldn't possibly get out and I was handcuffed. I seen my mom rush outside, she was screaming and that's the last time I had seen her.

The man drove off with Jeanette in the back seat. I don't know where he was headed to, but he was like dodging cars, swerving. And I was screaming, trying to yell out to the cars behind me. And when I was trying to yell at the cars... He turned around with a screwdriver and he started to stab me. He stabbed me once in my forehead. He stabbed me once in my chest and he tried stabbing me again in my neck.

I immediately, after I felt like warmth going through my body and like blood coming out, I just like slid down the box. And when I was laying down there, I was like, I'm never going to make it out of here. I'm going to die. The man pulled up to a house and drove into the garage. He took me out and I was leaning against the car and I was trying to hop my way out and as soon as I was hopping...

He grabbed me and had picked me up, had thrown me over his shoulder, and he had taken me into the house and upstairs to a room where you needed a key. The man threw Jeanette onto the bed, turned on the TV and watched the news. I was just seeing that they were looking for me. They had said that there was an abduction. I had been kidnapped, and that's when I got hope. I was like, OK, they know that I'm gone. They know that I'm missing. He started raping me again.

I was just, I was crying at the time. I couldn't even fight it. I just felt hopeless. I was just like, I'm not going to make it out of here. He's going to hurt me. After he had raped me, He had asked me if I wanted to take a shower, and I had said yes. And when he walked me into the shower, he left the door open, and he was telling me that I could take a shower, and he watched me change out of my clothes.

Like I started to break down and cry and that was my only safe place was the shower because Every time he left me in the shower was when he didn't touch me. He wouldn't hurt me or he wouldn't rape me After the first night I remember I couldn't even sleep. He slept right next to me, and he had his hand on me. And every time I'd move, he'd immediately wake up. It didn't even take him.

two seconds to roll around and just look, he would wake completely up and look at me. The man threatened to kill Jeanette if she tried to escape. In the morning, he was watching the news again. He had turned on the TV. My cousin was talking to me through the news. She was saying, Jeanette, if you can hear us, just know that we're looking for you. Be strong, girl.

Wherever you are, just know that we're trying our best to find you. She was like, just don't give up. That gave me hope. That gave me the strength. Either I'm going to fight to get out of here or die trying. A fan of forensic crime shows, Jeanette collected evidence. He would put the handcuffs on me only when he would step out of the room, like when I asked him for water and he'd go downstairs.

But you could take the handcuffs off. There was like this little switch that you would slide to one side and it had a little button. When you click the button, it just unlocked the handcuffs and I would take the handcuffs off, collect. Anything that he had touched, put it in my pockets. And as soon as I put it in my pocket, I put the handcuffs back on before he had time to see what I was doing.

Honestly, why I was doing it was to grab whatever I could and put it in a safe area where I knew the cops or someone could find it to know that I was there. At some point in that day, I had told him that I was hungry. and he gave me his cell phone. He had a cell phone with him, and he made me call for pizza. The pizza guy had asked me for the address, and I asked the guy,

For the address, he gave it to me. He asked me, the pizza guy asked me for a phone number. He gave me his phone number. I wasn't even hungry at that point. I didn't even eat the pizza. It was just there. And after that... He had raped me. And after he had raped me, he asked me again if I wanted to take a shower. And I told him yes. And when I was in the shower, that's when I was thinking to myself, how am I going to get out of here?

Jeanette had been held captive for three days. He told me, I have to get rid of you. And as soon as he said that, I remember turning towards him and I asked him, what do you mean? And I started getting scared. I was like... I knew what he meant. That whole afternoon and morning, I was trying to get in his dress. I thought, OK, maybe this could work. So when he had told me that I got scared, I was like, now he's going to kill me. He started to smother me with the pillow, and I was kicking.

I was trying to scream and I was trying to get an air and I kept turning my face and I couldn't, it was hard for me because how Taiyi had the pillow over my head. And I finally got the chance to turn my head. and get some air and as soon as five seconds later after I got some air, he pulled the pillow off and he asked me, do you want to take a shower? I was just basically thinking to myself, like as soon as I get out of the shower, he's going to kill me. I had light.

I thought to myself, this is it. I tried all I could and I'm not even going to get out. But as soon as I had gotten out, his mood had changed once again. He wasn't trying to kill me. I didn't even bring it up. I didn't even ask anything. I just sat back on the bed where he was watching the news again.

He was quiet. He was just into the news, and he wasn't trying to kill me and nothing. So to me, it was just like, I don't know if he's going to kill me today. I don't know what's going to happen. Just to me, I was scared. I lost hope. As soon as it got dark, it was late and he was watching TV again and he heard someone come and he turned off the TV and he told me to be quiet. Someone knocked on the door.

He put his hand over my mouth and he was like, be quiet. We were sitting in the room for a while and afterwards when he heard that it was all quiet, that's when he took me downstairs into the garage. It was all dark. I just remember like everything was dark. Nobody, I don't know if there was people home or not. I just remember that everything was pitch black. Jeanette's kidnapper forced her back into the car and drove away. I was just crying. I was thinking to myself.

Maybe this is it. Maybe this is what he meant, but he had to get rid of me. It was like a long drive, and the car had stopped, and as soon as he stopped the car, I got up, and I looked around. I was like, where are we? And he was like... I'm letting you go. And as soon as he said, I'm letting you go, I was just surprised. And he grabbed me by my hair. And when he grabbed me by the back of my head by my hair, he pulled me towards him. He was like,

If you ever tell anybody what I did or who I am or anything about me, I will come back for you and I will kill you and I will kill your family too. Jeanette jumped out of the car and ran to a nearby store. The owner recognized her from television newscasts and called 911. The police arrived five minutes later. Like, draw it out. I wrote the number of the house on the picture. And at the very bottom, I put his phone number.

I gave the officer the picture. He was like, what's this? And he pointed at the number at the bottom, and I told him that's his phone number. He was like, you remember his phone number? You know it? And they just... All looked at each other like they were amazed and they were just shocked. And he took the drawing and he showed it to someone else. And he was like, okay, you're very smart. A female officer looked after Jeanette until her family arrived.

I told her I have evidence and I got up and I started taking everything out of my pocket and she was just like, what's all this? And I told her it's everything that he touched, everything that was in the house. She just told me... You did a good job. They took me to a car and they said, are you ready to see your family? And I said, yes, I want to see my mom. And when they opened the door, I seen that my brother and my mom were in the car.

And I immediately, like, sat in the car and I hugged my mom and I hugged my brother. And they were crying and they were just, like, happy. And I seen, like, my brother's face. He had bruises on his face. Like, his face looked swollen. And my mom was wearing glasses. Like it seemed weird to me why she was wearing glasses and he had beaten my mom so bad that her forehead split open and her face was so bad like she didn't even look like my mom.

With the evidence Jeanette provided, police arrested her attacker at his home. Enrique Sosa Alvarez dated the mother of Jeanette's friend. He was convicted of multiple crimes, including kidnapping and sexual assault. He was sentenced to 102 years in prison. It was a long process for me to get better, but I healed throughout the years. I didn't heal within a month. I didn't heal within a week. It took years.

It took years for my family as well. I survived because of my family and the hope and just watching them on TV. And I survived because I helped myself out with him. I'm a lawyer like the old TV show. I do love a mystery. NCIS Origins. Watson and Ghosts. What the hell? This is the most amazing sight I've never seen. All for free. The CBS shows you love this month only on Pluto TV. Stream now. Pay never.