Step into the world of Brolapse, the unfiltered podcast hosted by the one and only HungerFF, a trailblazing fisting icon who's been redefining adult entertainment since 2007. Every Friday at 8 PM, HungerFF takes you behind the scenes of his personal life, sharing his thoughts on everything from fisting technique, etiquette, and consent, to candid conversations with influential creators and figures in the adult industry.
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In Episode 86 of HungerFF Presents: Brolapse , Ryan James sits down with a true pioneer of modern fisting culture — Jeff Carter, also known as Dyn0, co-founder of StudFist.com. What starts as a long-overdue reunion quickly turns into something deeper: a candid conversation about growth, accountability, and the evolution of an entire subculture. Ryan opens with a heartfelt acknowledgment of their past, setting the tone for an episode rooted in honesty and mutual respect. Jeff takes listeners back...
art two picks up right where we left off with Chris Wydeman — and this time, we go deeper, looser, and way more unfiltered. Ryan and Chris dive into how the scene has evolved from underground and niche to something far more visible and accessible, especially among younger generations. They reflect on the shift in culture, the changing dynamics at events like FistFest and IML, and what it feels like to now be the “veterans” that others look up to. The conversation gets personal as they unpack the...
Episode 84 of HungerFF Presents: Brolapse is here—and this one goes all the way back to the beginning. In Part 1 of this two-part conversation, Ryan James sits down with longtime friend and collaborator Chris Wydeman (@wydemanxxx) to unpack the origin story behind one of the most respected names in the scene. What starts as a conversation about curiosity and self-exploration quickly evolves into something deeper—touching on connection, discipline, and the mindset that separates experience from i...
This week on Brolapse , I sit down with one of my longest-time friends, FFalconPunch, for a conversation that goes way beyond where it all started. We get into his origin story — from a spontaneous first experience that changed everything, to the unexpected moment he landed on the name “FFalconPunch” and how it stuck. What starts off funny and chaotic quickly turns into something deeper: a look at identity, growth, and how we find ourselves in spaces we never expected to belong to. We also talk ...
Max Muscles joins Brolapse for an honest, funny, and surprisingly thoughtful conversation about how curiosity turns into confidence—and how pushing limits isn’t always what you think it is. What starts as a simple story about a weekend hookup quickly becomes something more. Max walks through his first experience, how it shaped his perspective, and how that moment opened the door to a whole new side of himself. From there, we dive into his evolution—from shy and private to confidently creating an...
This week on Brolapse , Ryan James sits down with a true icon — Chi Chi LaRue — for a conversation that spans four decades of gay porn history, creative evolution, and what it really means to stay relevant in an industry that never stops changing. After stepping away from directing, Chi Chi returns behind the camera for the first time in years — and opens up about why the set has always been her “happy place.” From her early days in the 1980s working under pioneers like William Higgins to becomi...
This week on Brolapse , Ryan James sits down with UK creator PeteLDNFF for a conversation that goes way deeper than you’d expect. What starts as a story about discovering fisting turns into something much bigger—growth, resilience, and learning how to trust your body. Pete opens up about his early struggles, from painful setbacks and injuries to nearly giving up altogether, before finally finding his rhythm during lockdown. Like a lot of people, COVID became an unexpected turning point—but for h...
This week on Brolapse , Ryan James sits down with Sofftpaw for a conversation that goes far beyond a typical guest interview. Sofftpaw is the founder of the Fist Council — a nationwide forum made up of leaders from over 35 fisting clubs and organizations. What started as a simple idea—connecting event organizers—has evolved into a powerful network focused on collaboration, education, and building safer, more sustainable spaces for the community. The episode begins with Sofftpaw’s personal journe...
In this episode of Brolapse , Ryan James (HungerFF) sits down with Belgian creator Pup Davey for one of the most wide-ranging and honest conversations the show has had yet. Davey opens up about discovering fisting long before he ever saw it in porn, experimenting as a teenager and realizing early that anal stretching and depth play were going to be a major part of his sexual identity. Puppy play came later through Tumblr’s aesthetic kink culture, where a cheap hood from Amazon eventually led to ...
In Episode 77 of Brolapse , Ryan James (HungerFF) sits down with Chicago-based creator Grayson Howell to talk about the unexpected path that led him into content creation, kink culture, and the world of fisting. What starts as a conversation about a viral scene with Wyld Rider quickly turns into something deeper. Grayson opens up about his past working as an LGBTQ addiction counselor, the burnout that came with that career, and the moment he decided to finally take a leap and start posting adult...
In this raw and deeply personal episode of Brolapse , Ryan James sits down with one of his closest friends and former roommate, Josh Mikael , for a conversation that spans decades of history, hard truths, and unconditional love. Josh shares his fisting origin story—one that began earlier than most—and reflects on it now with the clarity that only time and experience can bring. What starts as a wild, chaotic introduction quickly evolves into a broader conversation about consent, growth, and the r...
This week on Brolapse , HungerFF sits down with Ian Greene for a long-overdue conversation that spans years of crossing paths, shared experiences, and personal evolution. Ian opens up about his fisting origin story — from early curiosity and pushing his limits, to training his body and discovering what he was truly capable of over time. What starts as a pursuit quickly becomes something deeper: a journey rooted in patience, self-awareness, and learning to listen instead of force. The conversatio...
In Episode 74 of Brolapse , HungerFF sits down with John Thomas for a conversation that goes far beyond the surface of porn. John opens up about his fisting origin story, growing up with religion, guilt, and desire colliding early, and how kink evolved from curiosity into identity. From London sex clubs to navigating HIV, relationships, and self-acceptance, his journey is deeply personal—and unexpectedly relatable. But this episode doesn’t stop at the origin story. The two dive into the real...
In this episode of Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with Chicago-based creator Wyld Ryder for a candid conversation about confidence, kink, and the slow burn of becoming fully yourself. Wyld opens up about his journey from a quiet corporate life to embracing his deviant side online, how fitness and self-acceptance became the gateway to content creation, and why piggish desire was always there—just waiting for permission to surface. Together, they unpack how fisting moved from fantasy to reality, w...
Episode 72 completes the two-part HungerFF Sound Initiative . Following last week’s introduction, Part Two leans fully into execution, featuring four complete track drops that expand the project’s sound, humor, and erotic logic. Recorded as an audio-only episode, this installment blends commentary with music, allowing each track to stand on its own while remaining part of a larger arc. This episode includes “Schlop Schlop,” “I Cleaned Out for This,” “Assgasm,” and “Built to Fist.” Together, the ...
In Episode 71, HungerFF steps away from traditional interviews and introduces a new music-driven project that blends kink, humor, masculinity, and AI-assisted production. Recorded as an audio-only episode, Part One features full track drops and commentary, giving listeners a guided introduction to the Sound Initiative and the creative mindset behind it. The episode includes complete plays of “Fisting in the Moonlight,” “All Men Love Rosebuds,” and “Cunt,” along with a preview of the upcoming ind...
In a candid conversation, Rocco Steele reflects on his decision to step away from the adult industry, driven by a serious health scare and a desire to prioritize his personal life and marriage. He shares the mental and physical toll of maintaining a public persona, the importance of protecting his sobriety and chosen family, and the journey of rediscovering his true self after years in the spotlight. The discussion also touches upon aging as a gay man and the broader impact of growing up online.
For Episode 69 of Brolapse , Ryan James does something different. Instead of a guest, this episode offers a first listen to Deeper —his forthcoming memoir—presented here in its unedited author’s version . Ryan reads the full prologue, No Safe Words , followed by the first chapter, Impact , giving listeners an intimate introduction to the book’s voice, structure, and intent before final editorial revisions. Deeper is not a traditional memoir. It rejects clean arcs and easy redemption in favor of ...
In Episode 68 of Brolapse , Ryan sits down with Brogan for a rare and deeply thoughtful conversation from the perspective of a fisting top—a voice we don’t hear nearly often enough. Brogan shares his unconventional journey into fisting, from spending years unsuccessfully trying to bottom, to discovering that topping opened an entirely new sexual and psychological path for him. Together, they unpack how intuition, responsibility, communication, and consent shape truly connected sex—especially in ...
It’s the very first Brolapse Holiday Special 🎁 — and we’re flipping the script. Inspired by the UK tradition of Boxing Day (a day rooted in role reversal), Dolan Wolf returns—this time as guest host —and puts me in the hot seat 😅🎙️ We get into the real stuff and the fun stuff: ✨ what the holidays mean to us (and what we can’t stand) 🍽️ favorite holiday foods + gift/collectible obsessions 🐶 what a “non-sexual day” actually looks like when your brand is HungerFF 🧠 burnout, work-life balance,...
HungerFF reconnects with Alex FFire, a professional fisting top and content creator, for a candid catch-up that covers how Alex first got into fisting, why reassurance and praise are central to his “body worship” style, and what it means to be a rare fisting top in today’s scene. They dig into identity (poly, non-binary), navigating frail masculinity, and the generational shift around filming sex, shame, and power. Alex also talks FistFest nerves vs. comfort, finding the right kind of play partn...
Ryan James is in Fort Lauderdale , bringing in a guest from Mexico City for a Brolapse episode that turns into a full-on “wait… WHAT?” moment. Masked FisterX reveals that his first-ever fisting session was with HungerFF —after a Grindr message in Puerto Vallarta—where Ryan literally gave him the starter instructions (“go file your nails” 💀) and helped set the tone for how he’d approach fisting content from that moment forward. The wild part? The mask didn’t even exist yet. From there, we get th...
This week on Brolapse , HungerFF sits down with Andrew Phoenix (@AndrewFFoeniXXX) for a raw, funny, and deeply honest conversation about finding himself through sobriety, kink, and community. Andrew opens up about being raised religious, getting bullied, and having early partners shame him for loving fisting — only to discover, in 2018, a community where he finally felt accepted exactly as he was. He talks about how sobriety reshaped the way he plays, how being fully present made his connections...
In this episode of Brolapse , HungerFF sits down with BottomGuyNYC —NYC bar manager, shameless fister, and proud red-hanky flagger—to talk about why, for him, fisting isn’t sex… it’s a sport . They dig into what it means to “train” for play, why a hand in someone can feel less intimate than dick-and-butt sex, and how he balances a 21-year open relationship where his husband is his emotional home—but the kink happens elsewhere. From nervously sitting in the car before his first Fist Fest to organ...
Manchester’s own Jake Rockard joins Brolapse for a raw and revealing conversation about fisting, chems, workaholism, and the underground networks that shape the UK kink landscape. Jake opens up about discovering fisting young, how early experimentation shaped the way he plays today, and why he rarely engages in casual fisting in the UK outside of camera work or international travel. We dig into the Manchester scene — a tight, clique-based ecosystem built on private invites, house sessions, and c...
For episode 61 of Brolapse , Ryan sits down with solo-named stunner Ridick (one D, like the Vin Diesel character) to trace how a shy model with a pushy best friend turned into a full-blown creator brand. He talks about being dragged onto Instagram, getting scouted for the Box Menswear tour across Texas, and what it felt like to be the 35-year-old with a real work history surrounded by chaotic twenty-something boys on the road. That tour, plus a jump to OnlyFans, blasted him from Dublin obscurity...
This week on Brolapse , I sit down with one of my favorite people in the entire industry — performer, lawyer, and author Blue Bailey (@bluebaileysf) — for a raw, unfiltered conversation that goes deep into everything from porn ethics to chemsex recovery. We talk about our first wild shoot together in a sleazy San Francisco hotel, the infamous Viral Loads era, and how Blue turned his lived experience with addiction and HIV into the powerful memoir Blue Movie . From discussing the realities of con...
Vienna’s own PUP-HULKY sits down with Ryan James (HungerFF) for a candid, funny, and unexpectedly tender conversation about kink, discipline, and identity. He shares how a dare became a persona, how years of dance and bodybuilding shaped his ability to listen to his body, and why chastity flipped a switch—focusing everything on “just butt and muscle.” We get into consent, aftercare, and how collaboration with trusted pros made exploring BDSM feel safe and real. This episode is about making curio...
After an unforgettable 37th birthday trip to Paris, HungerFF returns with a raw and personal storytime unlike any other. From an airport nightmare with Air France to a terrifying pulmonary embolism that nearly ended his life, Ryan James (HungerFF) opens up about the chaos, humiliation, and heartbreak of a week that changed everything. What started as a celebration became a confrontation with mortality — and a forced pause on his long-awaited colostomy reversal surgery. In this brief but powerful...
This week on Brolapse , Ryan James sits down with Italian creator Blue Eyes XXL for one of the most honest and vulnerable conversations of the season. Known for his mix of elegance and edge, Blue Eyes opens up about leaving the fashion world for adult entertainment, finding freedom through exhibitionism, and building a brand that’s equal parts nasty and sweet. They dive deep into the art of fisting, body potential, and the trust that turns physical intensity into true intimacy. From learning fis...
