S4 E03: The End In The Beginning

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So, whose murder was it that you wanted me to solve? What? People see you. You're picking up the phone. I'm not dead. But I'm gonna be murdered in like about three weeks. But here's the kicker. We're not sure who's gonna do it. Oh no shit. And I'm pretty sure by the time I figure who did it, it'll be too late to tell anybody except you.

And why can't you just get a security detail or leave the country or something? That's not how it works. You've got presumably enough government resources to want to protect you. dr spacer just stay in a room until someone gets caught dr spacer sorry that was it i wasn't gonna say anything else this is crazy you can't know you're gonna be murdered just like you can't talk to ghosts

What are you saying? I'm not allowed to answer any other questions till you say yes. Dr. Iris, well... You just want me to hang out with you for three weeks. She's got plenty of work for you in the meantime. The fuck does that mean? Jeez, okay. Yeah, I'll... I see what I can do to help, but just get me out of here now. Cool. It'll be a couple of days. A couple days? Sit down. But I need to get out of here today.

I don't think even Iris has that kind of pull. Better figure out how to last your final hours in here, John. Great. And if I get killed, maybe you can solve my murder.

For yelling at you. For ignoring your questions and telling you to leave. Don't you? I didn't. I just wanted you to say it. I didn't know you were feeling like this. You think I should have just done my time? I don't know. You don't get it. There's a guy. He visited yesterday and said he could get me out of here.

Is that who you were calling? That's what you're curious about. Not how. Just trying to figure out why you're in a better mood now. I was shocked yesterday. You were trying to get out. Why did you leave me all alone? Until they found out what you did, I didn't take him seriously. And now you do? How did you... How did you kill yourself? How did you do it? I don't know. I put the sheet around the bars. Yeah, but did you struggle or? What the fuck, John? Where are you going? I'll do that.

Another phone call? Hey, what is your problem? What's yours? I'm dead. So you see why I can't be talking to you then, huh? But you can break into the medical bay? I'm not breaking into anything. You okay? What do you need? Where's Dr. Clark? Back at the hospital. What do you need? To talk to him?

About? About something that if I could tell you, I wouldn't need to talk to him. Anything you can tell him, you can tell me. It's about a crime we solved last year, so unless you know the details of the case too... Get out of here or I'll call the guard. This hole. John, you're being stared at. It's fine. John Spacer. Do I need a reason? On Isaac. On me? Isaac, your cellmate? Why would I conduct an autopsy on him? Because I don't think it was suicide. John? You never... I mean...

We didn't get to talk about how things went down last year, but you know my closing rate. I was good at this. The last time we worked together, you told me about the silence, remember? On those drives home, and now you move further away from the hospital. I don't get that experience. There's always someone with me after they die, and I know you don't have to believe me about that right now, but trust me, being trapped in here... Nathan, I feel like I have no purpose anymore.

Doc. What the fuck? I was just working on it. Because he's getting impatient. It hasn't even been 12 hours. You get to tell him that you're the one that just delayed it even more. He doesn't want you skipping out on the deal before you're out. What do you mean? Well, it is. You're on short time. According to who? I don't know. It's true.

You're supposed to serve ten. I'm not going anywhere. Why does you know he's got people on the outside? Doesn't matter if you're in or if you're out. They can still get to you.

Do you want to talk all day or can I get back to doing the thing that you're supposed to remind me about? Oh yeah, Doc. I started that book. Get out of here. What the hell was that, John? What the... Hell no. What? Hey, no way. Calm down, Spacer. You can't move. Someone else is in my room already. We need the bed. I don't care. I don't care that you don't care.

Calm the fuck down. So put me in solitary. Get out of your damn mind. Move. I'll hit you. I swear. Go for it. Give me a reason to hit back. Pussy. It wasn't even you personally. My last cellmate just died and they already... Hey, I'm talking to you. I'm crying. Um, why? Because someone will see. I don't care, but you don't want to act soft here. You'll get taken advantage of. God. What's your name?

People call me Doc. Have you gotten a tour yet? Look, when I first got here, I was a fucking mess. Crying all night and afraid of everything. I barely slept, but it's not that bad. People can get used to anything and eventually it gets easier. I thought you didn't want to look weak or whatever. No offense, but I'm not really worried about you. I killed somebody.

Might want to work on that delivery if that's supposed to sound intimidating. I killed somebody. I didn't mean now. I killed him. I killed him. It's not a good thing, okay? It doesn't ever feel like a good thing, no matter how many times you say it. People that carry it around like a badge of honor, they're lying. Ending another person's life. indirectly or not, it takes a toll on you. That's the way it works in here or out there.

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Is he cute? Shut up, Isaac. I'm just saying, the way you were talking to him. He was in pain. Yeah, that what you do now? I'm in pain. Fuck, where are you going now? Yo. Hey, Max. Can I talk to you? What's up, Doc? Get it? I don't need you to get me something. What you need? A prescription. Right in. Sheesh. Workable?

I mean, it needs to be legit. What the fuck good is a fake prescription? Hey, you never know. But alright, I gotcha. Give me a few days and I'll see what I can do. I don't have a few days. When do you need it? Tomorrow. Sheesh, you want one of my guys to kill a doctor? No, fuck. No, just steal it or something from a dead doctor. God, look.

Can you get me into the medical thing? Air shaft or shit pipe? Neither. I got nothing for you. Cause a distraction. I ain't taking a hit for it. It's more expensive than the prescription. Fine. I'll cause a distraction. You sneak in and get the pad, okay? Or your library card. Why? The doody mats. I know they keep them in the back. We don't have... Fine. Whatever. Here. Say when. You'll know when. I'm a train. Damn, newbie. You got a nice job. I killed a guy. Oh, you hear that, boys?

He killed a guy. So if I, fresh meat, sat down there with my hands, you'll probably hit somebody with a car or some shit. Leave him alone. Oh, this your new boyfriend, Doc? Cotton, can you step out of line? But... No. Thanks. You little shit. Guess you got what you wanted. Did it on purpose? Jesus, you scared me.

It's dark. How long did they give you? Two days. Have fun. Isaac. Now you want to talk. There's no more scheming to be done. Nobody else you can talk to, so you figure you might as well stop pretending I don't exist, huh? I won't ask you to stay. Yeah, well, I'm fucking gonna. So, fuck. I am gonna miss you. I just said I'm staying. After you die, ghosts start going through this sort of decay mentally. You can't stick around forever.

I didn't say I was gonna stick around here forever. Especially not when I can get the hell out of here, idiot. I got family. Have you ever thought about what happens to you if this guy's just some loon who can't actually get you out? All the people you pissed off? Bridges you burned? Maybe I'd take a bed sheet to my neck. That's not funny. It wasn't meant to be. You really feel like you have no purpose.

Like you sit on the phone? Do you? Do any of us in here? We're trapped away with nothing but time. What the hell am I supposed to do when I get out? I can't be a doctor again. You don't have to be a doctor to have a purpose. I do. You don't get it. A career isn't who you are. And if it was, then that's sad. I bet nobody's ever actually said that to you.

Focusing on my career with this was the easiest thing to do. Then stop doing stuff that's easy. Seriously. Fuck the career. Fuck talking to ghosts. Just go be happy. That's the pot calling the kettle black. I didn't think you were crazy. Someone else won't. We're a little light on the suitable dating pool here. You lucked out that I'm just a little crazy. I love you, John. Just shut up and come speak to me. Will I feel it? No. Will you feel it?

There's a few more days. You're the only prisoner I know who wants more solitary. Trust me, I'd kill to be alone. It's not up to me. You're out of here, Spacer. Not just solitary. Apparently, we got notice. You're being released. Seriously? You gotta get medically cleared first. I'm fine. I thought you wanted to talk. Dr. Clark? You should let me take a look at that. Ow. Ow. You started a crawl. Getting punched in the face seemed like the easiest way to pass the time.

They said you wanted to be put on protection. Do you really think Isaac was murdered? I got told as much. Bye, Isaac. Bye, Frank. You have the uncanny ability to get people to make stupid decisions for you. You know that? Here. These are my preliminary findings. Asphyxial death with patechial hemorrhaging on the neck. I don't know how anyone can fake that. I didn't say he wasn't hanged. I said someone else did it. Without signs of struggle? What about here? It was his own sheet, John.

You're thinking someone took the time to rip Isaac's sheet and then what? Stayed awake until he came in? Why? There are, sadly, easier ways to murder someone. And Frankie is in here for life! Why would he care about keeping it a secret? I don't know, just... I'm sorry, Johnny. I don't see any reason to continue with a further examination. Head back to Genpa, please. Why did you even bring the file? I... I considered Dr. Gatz to be a friend. What she did...

What you both did... I don't know if I could live with a world view of accepting that everything we experienced together was just an act. You can't hide all the good about yourself. See you tomorrow, Dr. Clark. Goodbye, Dr. Spacer. What happened? I... I think you just called me a friend. Is this it then? Yeah, in a minute. So, it's true.

You realize you can't escape a death just by running away. I'm not running. Here. What's this? Dr. Clark's prescription pad. Write yourself whatever fucking prescription you want and do it quick. He'll probably notice later today or tomorrow at the latest. He's on top of his stuff. You stole from your own? Good for you. I want something else, too. You want to only get...

Not their favor, my old doctor friend. Hey, I could have taken one page. I got you the whole pad. Hmm, I'm listening. I want your guys to watch out for cotton. Newbie? You hardly know the kid. Yeah, well, people are apparently big deep down or some shit today, so just keep them safe, all right? Sure, Doc. Whatever you say. I can go. And that's it. I just walk through the gate. Mm-hmm.

I'd tell you to put your bags in the trunk, but you know. Get comfy. We got a long trip ahead of us. This is Eugene. Agent Squires. Interpol. Interpol doesn't have agents. Ah, well, pick another agency, and we can pretend I work for them. Eugene's here to try to make sure I don't get murdered. Which, I'm telling you, isn't gonna help. But... Since I can't drive, he does come in handy. And where are we going exactly? Springfield. Oh, another Springfield at least. Great. That clears things up.

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