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I didn't think I had a problem.
I just thought I was able to drink more than most people and say using drugs.
The destructive path that I've been.
On and the things that I'd done were always coming back to haunt me in my mind.
That was like the first time that someone had pointed out that I had a problem and I just looked back. I was like, jeez, am I really that bad?
Hi guys, welcome back to another episode of Hope Israel the Podcast, Season three. I cannot believe that we are here, that we get to do yet another season of incredible, inspiring stories from people all around the world. It's honestly such an honor and a privilege. So thank you guys for listening. First of all, I'm so stoked that you're
here and that you're here for today's episode. Now, if you're on TikTok, you would have absolutely seen this family, especially Australia New Zealand side Kat and Jonathan Clark, Deja Clark, Letitia Clark, the Clark family in general have blow and
up all over our social media feeds. And I was lucky enough a few years ago to meet Kat and Dasia and Letitia and Jonathan at the TikTok Awards where Cat one Creator of the Year, I won TikTok for Good and ever since we've been able to kind of hang out and chat and kind of share stories around I guess what our lives have become like. Kat has been very open about her story with the things that she kind of struggled through, and she was on the
last season of this podcast. But today I'm really really excited for you guys to hear for potentially one of the first times that he's really spoken about this Jonathan story. Jonathan, I guess, is kind of more in the background of a lot of these videos. He's the man behind the business.
He kind of keeps that family going, and I've always looked at him with complete and utter awe at the way that he's been able to really keep this family together, and as someone who grew up kind of without that father figure in my life, seeing you know, a lot of people will know that he's not Letitia's biological father, but that he came in and he chose to be that father role and kind of step into a role where Letitia's biological father hadn't been, and he is a
pillar of strength, and that has not come without his struggles. He has fought a very long, tough battle with addiction, which he has been so transparent and so honest about and really kind of delves into I guess the realities of what it was to be living like that, the reality of, you know, kind of mixing it of this was actually like a good time and I didn't know at the time that I was doing anything wrong. What was his turning point? What was it that made him
decide to go sober? Changes life around, and I guess become the person that he is today. So Jonathan's story is coming up right after this. Jonathan, Welcome to Hopah's All the podcast. First of all, how are you doing.
I'm doing well. Thank you for having me, of.
Course, I'm really excited to have you. I remember sitting down with you Kat and Daisia while you guys were
in New Zealand. We had brunch somewhere and I think it was Koee and beginning to hear like the tiniest little snippet of your story and being like, I haven't heard this before, Like I think you've You've talked about it so briefly online and just hearing kind of the very brief version that I heard, and seeing the person that you are now and the father that you are, and just the way that you and your family are absolutely bossing the businesses, and obviously your whole family just
kind of rocketed to this crazy level of fame. But your story is one that I know, especially as a man, is now it's so hopeful, and I think it's so incredible to see this change, and so I'm so glad that we could have this conversation and to have you sharing this. So I'd love to literally go all the way back to the beginning. What was your childhood like?
Ooh, so childhood was I always just thought my childhood was just a normal, normal childhood. Grew up in a immigrant family, so I was born in South Africa. My parents obviously were born there as well. We came here in the early eighties. I was two years old, and yeah, just grew up in a small, underprivileged sort of upbringing. My parents were working class, worked twelve forteen hours a day, and yeah, they worked hard.
To send me to a private Catholic school and grew up in that sort of environment.
And I had a younger brother who was who was three years younger than me, So it was just us two pretty much, and my parents went around a lot. They were working a lot, so we learned to fend for ourselves pretty early. So yeah, that was that's basically my childhood were.
Yeah.
Yeah, I love it, and I think obviously you've there's been. I think it was a video I actually saw about Christmas time that you were doing it. It may have been like two years ago, I think where you were saying how that used to be such a big time for you and trying to say no. In regards to your your addiction story, I would love to know where where did that start for you? Like where did it go from? Was it ever like something that was socially
and then it just turned into addiction? Do you have like a key moment as to where that started.
I always think so.
I always think I had that tendency for addiction, And if I think back to my early times of starting to use alcohol and things like that, I always I think that it was always there where it sort of turned was where it became a part of my time my life, where it was where it turned tumultuous. But I always think that I often always think that it was there from the from the very beginning. I started drinking at a very early age. My mother is an alcoholic,
her sister is an alcoholic. My grandfather is an alcoholic. So my grandfather and my mom's sister both died of alcoholism. My mother's had a stroke, and I had a lot of difficulties around that. I would say my mom's marriage.
Broke up because of her alcohol. Alcoholism and alcohol sort.
Of during my younger years, and family life was just always a normal thing, and my parents drank a lot.
They drank often.
It was just part of the part of the landscape. So for me, drinking was just a normal thing that I did, and then that sort of graduated to other illicit substances later on. So I went into smoking cannabis, marijuana, weed, whatever you want to call it, very early, I would say, in my late teenage years, see sixteen, fifteen, sixteen, and then that became a daily thing. From about seventeen eighteen onwards until my early thirties, it would have been pretty much almost every day, and then.
That grade you graduated from there into you know, okain.
I holy of other things that pretty much I had. I had the I had the attitude that I would try anything as long as I.
Didn't have to inject it.
And for me, it was just a normal thing, just having fun and doing what I wanted to do. And I never really saw it as a problem or that it was something that was affecting my life until it Until you know, you reach that sort of precipice where everything's falling apart and the rock bottom as most people call it.
What do you think you were if you can remember like your behavior was like during that time, Like what kind of person were you to be around?
So I think it's really a yin and yang.
So like one part of.
You is the normal, the part of you that's just who you are, like loving, caring, nurturing, empathetic and really wanting to excel in life and take opportunities and do the most that you can, what I think is inherent in most human beings, just.
Wanting to thrive and survive and do well.
But then on the other hand is the dark side where and a lot of the time it's the side that you hide from from everyone, and it's the selfish ego driven just really.
Wanting to get what you need to get to get your fixed or.
To get you know, the fun or whatever you want to call it, and at the same time trying to still be that caring, loving, nurturing human being that wants to strive and survive and do well and succeed in life at the same time.
So, yeah, I think if you knew me, you.
Would you would you would think, you know, I'm a I'm a.
Normal person, just loving life, doing what I can do my best.
But then if you know, if you went out with me, you saw me, you know, you're one of those people that hung around with me who did the other things, you.
Would see that I had that other side in.
Me as well. And I could be violent, I could be angry, I could be selfish, I could be Yeah, anything you wanted under the sun, anything you can think of. I was.
I could be that at the same time.
So it's I think I'm part of a couple of fellowships.
And I think we call it the masks.
We wear many masks depending on which environment we're in, and we're social chameleons. We just adapt to the situation that we're in there. If we're in if we're around those people that we need to be a certain person who can become that person pretty quickly and survive in that environment and just not only survive, but excel in the bad things and also the good things.
Do you think there's like a moment that you can remember where it switched from like, oh, this is just something that I'm doing, like drinking socially or whatever it may be, to this is a problem. Was there a moment that they sweached or was it kind of always from the start you knew that it was a problem.
I didn't know.
I didn't think I had a problem. I just thought that I.
Was going to continue living my life like this and succeed in the best way that I knew. And you know, drinking was just normal to me. I just I was able to drink. I just thought I was able to drink more than most people. I liked to drink more than most people. And same with same with using using drugs. I was I was able to consume a lot and
just function and do my stuff. The catalyst for me was I went through maybe a ten year period where I thought I had depression, And when I think look back at it, I probably did have depression, but it was introduced by a lot of other things in my life, and I went to different counselors, shrink psychologists, anything you can think of under the sun, when on many different treatment plans and all the rest of it.
And then one day I went to a psychiatrist.
So I wanted to be medicated for the depression that I did I had, and I thought, the only way to do this is to go see a psychiatrist subste because they can prescribe medicine. And I sat down with him and we went through the evaluation, and he asked you the normal questions, how often do you drink, do.
You use drugs, how often do you use them, etc. Et cetera.
And by this point I was getting to a point of my life where things were really started to fall apart. And I'd gone to counselors and those types of people before psychologists, and I would try and just tell them what I thought they wanted to hear or what would get me the help that I needed, and I wouldn't really.
Tell them the whole story.
And this time I thought, well, up until now, it hasn't worked and I haven't got the help that I needed. I'm just going to tell this guy, like playing symbol, exactly how it is and he was really nice, like he gave that aura of accepting and he had seen it all, just just lay it all out for me. So I laid it all on the table. And the first thing he says said, before I treat you, have you ever thought of going into a rehab or detoxing?
And that really just blew me away. That was like the first time that someone had said to me that, Like I pointed out that I had a problem, and I just thought back, I was like, geez am I really that bad?
Do I really need to go?
Because at that point I was thought, there's no way I need to go to a rehab or a detox or anything like that.
And yeah, when he said that, that was definitely the catalyst for me.
From that day on, I researched and I went to try and get into a rehab and due to detox because I wanted to get the help that I needed because my marriage is falling apart, my life is sort of falling apart, and I just wanted to get the help that I needed.
That was definitely because for me, once you.
Said that, it was like a briek hitting in the face. It was like, holy shit, do I really have a problem.
Wow, it's crazy that it can go for so long. And I've talked to a couple of people on this podcast now that have battle with addiction and, like you said, just kind of believing that you don't have a problem, like this is just the way that you're living life.
And I think it's really interesting that you talk about the link with that to depression because a lot of the stuff that I see in the system here in New Zealand, and I'm pretty sure it's a reflected kind of globally, is that a lot of the times they don't treat both. So if you've got mental like if you're struggling with mental illness and then you have addiction, they'll choose one to treat, but often they do coincide.
And I think especially like did you find or do you think that the drug part for you was just having fun or do you think there was part of it that was trying to numb anything else that you were feeling, or like what do you think that was for you?
So when I was actually in my addiction, I didn't think that it was I thought it was just fun. It was just I knew that I knew that I was at a point where I needed certain things to function the way that I do.
I needed to because.
When I didn't have them for a certain period of time, I turned into a different person and nasty, selfish, so seeking, bigotistical type person.
And yeah, for me, I just thought that was normal.
But when I think back, and once I've gone through, you know, different treatments I've I was trying to quieten the voices in my head. So I would have a really overactive head and I would lay in bed and just think and really destroy my own self esteem with my own thoughts, just like how much of a piece of shit are you?
How could you have done that? What you know and all that.
You know, what's going to happen, if this happens, and all these sorts of thoughts and voices that go inside your head. And for me, the only way to quieten those was to to you and to get out of that sort of state. So I would need to use to get to sleep, I would need to use to go out party and have fun. I would often need to use to go to work. All those sorts of things that got to that point where it was those things, but a lot of it. But I think when I
think back. It was it was the destructive path that I'd been on, and the things that I'd done were always coming back to haunt me in my mind, and I didn't want to have to deal with them face on. I wanted to just master them and get those thoughts out of my head so that I could get to sleep.
And get on with my day the next day. Does that make sense?
Yeah, yeah, it does. How long between that psychiatrists appointment that you were talking about and then your decision to go sober? What was the time frame between.
There so the next Like, as soon as I got home that day that week, I had a chat to my wife to cat and I think she was sort of relieved.
That I'd come to that realization.
And it was pretty much straight away I was ringing rehab Steve toxes around the Gold Coast trying to get admitted.
We weren't in.
A financial position where I could afford to go to one. That was that I had to pay a lot because a lot of them are quite expensive, and there are a few around the Gold Coast that will take you in depending on your depending on how sick you are and their situation and if they've got any free beds or available space and at that so I did pretty much went into that straight away. I tried to get into one like immediately.
Wow. And that process for you going into rehab, what was that experience like, because that would have been was it kind of cold turkey for you to go from?
Yeah, well I didn't actually get into one.
So at the time there was none available, and on the Gold Coast there was one.
They said there might be a bedcoming available in like a month's time or a few weeks time.
And I said, Okay, I don't want to wait that long. I want to because for me, waiting I would have to use to get to that point of going in.
That's in my mind, that's what it was.
And it was like, I'm in the headspace now where I want to stop and I want to get help right away. So I don't want to wait, and we couldn't afford to do it, so what we just decided to do it at home. So I just took some time off work and just went through that pull tap detox period at home and I had a friend, met a friend And when I think about it, was like divine sort of intervention or however you want to look
at it. I've met a friend about say, six to twelve months before that time, and we'd been out drinking and partying, and he wasn't drinking, he wasn't doing any.
Sorts of that sort of stuff.
But he was with us and we were just you know, being crazy, partying, drinking, doing whatever we did when we went out, and he wasn't doing any of that. But he was a great time with us, and I exchanged and others with him, and we became friends.
And he sort of alluded.
To the fact that he was that he'd done that before, but he doesn't do it anymore, and all that sorts of stuff. And I believe in passing. You mentioned like, you know, if you ever want to talk or you ever want any advice on what I do or how I did it, let me know. And I didn't think anything of it, left it. But then when I couldn't get into a rehab, I rang him up and I said, he remember when I when we spoke that time, I said, I think I'm ready to do what I need to do.
What do you suggest?
Do you have any do you have any advice to me? Basically, and he just took me under. You said meet me at this place tomorrow and will we can get started, So that.
The fact that you were able to do that without going to rehab is phenomenal and also shows that lack of support that was around, the availability that was around for you to not be able to go and when you finally went, I need help and I can't do it like this anymore. I'm so thankful that you had that friend. And I think that really shows like just the impact and the power of one person and their ability to help kind of change the direction of your life.
And obviously you have to be in the position to be ready to do that, and you were, and I would love to know and kind of all of this. How old were you when you met Kat?
I was, jeez, two thousand and five, so I was twenty three.
Oh my gosh, how did you guys meet just.
Turn twenty three? At a pub?
It was R and B Night And we used to go to this pub before we went out to the city, usually to go clubbing for like pre drinks, and there was R and B night and we just used to just go there, have you know, five or six drinks, get warmed up, and then catch a cab into town because Obviously, clubs didn't get really good until late late that night. So yeah, Kat was there that night, and yeah, I was having this back when you could smoke in the pub.
Both we both.
Used to smoke, and I was having a cigarette and I saw her from across the room and she came, like walked all the way over and asked me for a lighter. And yeah, I saw a walk past like five other people who were smoking, and I was like, well, she could have asked any one of those people for a lighter, so she.
Must like me.
And she grabbed I lit her cigarette, and then before she left, she said, if you want to dance, come and see me. So that was it.
Well that's really cute. If you want to dance, come and see me. Ah yeah please. And obviously you guys then you started data. How long after that did you start seeing each other?
Pretty much straight away, So I didn't go out clubbing that night. The rest of my friends went, and I stayed at the pub and danced with Kat and got to know where. I got a number, got to know her friends who she was there with, and yeah, I think the next day I texted her and yeah, we went.
Out for a date after that.
Then there was another date where she said she had to tell me something and that's when she told me that she had Letitia.
And yeah, we've we moved in like with.
Each other about three months after that and we haven't been separated since.
Dang three months. And you guys, how many years have been now since you've been together?
Seventeen? No, so nineteen together, was seventeen married?
Oh my gosh, that's that's a really cute story. It kind of feels like it was like a little bit of a love at first sight situation. Do you feel like that's what it was?
Yeah?
It was.
Yeah. What was your response when you found out that she had a kid?
I was actually relieved because I thought she was going to tell me something really bad, like she couldn't be with me because she was married, or she had a boyfriend or.
I don't know that.
There was all the million things I were going to through my mind, but none of them were that she's got a child. And to be honest, I'd always when I was a kid, I always wanted to be a dad. And when she said that, I was like, my response, I was like, Oh, is that is that all coool?
And I was like I was actually really happy that she had.
A child and met Tisha and fell in love with her and sort of became an instant father, which was pretty cool.
How what was Latitia when you meet her?
Two?
Oh my gosh, oh baby. One of the things that I've really really loved about, you know, slowly getting to know your family. And I think the first time I meet you guys was the Tech Talk Awards. However, it was actually on Dage's birthday. I think it was the first time I meet you, and I'd been with Kat and Latitia the day before. I think it was her birthday at the awards.
Two years ago.
I think it was, yeah, And I just remember like watching you guys as a family now and seeing specifically your relationship with Letitia. It's just so it's so incredible because like, statistically here, I don't know what the stats are in Australia, but in New Zealand there's two hundred
and seventy thousand families living in a fatherless home. And I think there's just so much hurt and so much pain for these kids that are growing up in these situations, and that kind of abandonment that can come up in those feelings of like there's something wrong with me and that's why they left, and to see you step into this role and also like kind of break some of the bad stigmas that are in around like step dads.
Obviously you are who dad now, but like you know, there's a lot of there's some negative stigmas that can come with that. But every time that I see you, guys are just I'm so happy to see that you're such a role model and evidence as well that one men can be good but too how much having a father figure to step in can also kind of help with pain that your own met father may have caused. And so it's been really really cool to see that. And obviously then a few years later you had another child.
Yeah, it was five years after I met Kat. We had Yeah, five years after we met had Dasia. So yeah, Kat actually didn't want any more kids when I met her, and I was actually I had come to a point where I was content with that, because there was I wasn't I try to convince her that, you know, I wanted to have another child. I really wanted a son.
And yeah, there was a sort of a catalyst that's another story, and what sort of changed cat's mind to have Desiah and then yeah, we ended up having Desia five years later.
So during this time, if I've got my maths correct, is this when you were you were still struggling with your addiction At that time, I was.
But like you call it, a functioning addict, like I was still okay, I wasn't. It wasn't destroying my life and it wasn't detrimental because I think at that time I was still young and I was still you know, making having small successes and small wings in my life that there wasn't There wasn't enough bad things happening for me to take a step back and go, hey, they
made an issue here. For me, I was just having fun and I like to have a bit more fun than most people, and that that was the end of it for me.
Well, your kids are part of the reason that you wanted to get sober.
It probably sounds really selfish, but they weren't.
And it really has to be for any addict to want to stop, it really has to be a selfish thing. It really has to be one hundred percent for them, because if it was for them, I would have done it a long time before ictually did it. And you know, we will always say that you have to be selfish to be selfless, like I had to put myself first,
And yeah, it sounds bad, but it wasn't. They weren't the reason that I wanted to stop because, like I said, I didn't think that I had an issue, and when it came down to everything falling a part of my life that again, they weren't the catalyst. So it as bad as it was. That that's just how bad addiction is.
It's like you don't really give it. You don't really give a crap about what you're doing to other people's lives, and they can push you and talk to you and screaming you and want you to do whatever they want you to do to try and stop and change your life around. But until you come to the realization yourself and want to actually change yourself because of you and the turmoil that's going on with inside yourself, then there's no change that could be made.
Do you think that your experiences have impacted the way that your parent now, Like do you feel you're a lot more aware of like that path being like something that you're trying to steal your kids away from, or like does it impact at all your parenting.
Yeah, definitely. So after I got clean and sober.
Yeah, it going through that process, it really opened my eyes to watch out for the telltale signs and what and just to be aware of when a certain person is going down that path. And it's made me aware of not just in my parenting, but just in life in general. I can see, I can see it within certain people, but I don't obviously know because of what I went through, not on how to approach that with certain people. I've Yeah, it's it's made me just more aware on what to look out for in my kids.
And it's sort of I've always had the the opinion not to try and hide the greediness of that sort of stuff with your kids, and not to try and sugarcoat or shield them too much away from drugs and alcohol and white people use them and why it's such an acceptable part of society and why people go down that path. So I've always been really open, like I've always said to my kids that you know, drugs and alcohol, it feels great, So that's why people that's why people
start to do it. They don't if it felt like crap, people wouldn't get into get into addiction. They wouldn't keep using, they wouldn't be buying alcohol every.
Every weekend, and they wouldn't sell it in the shops.
It feels great in the beginning, and I've said that to them because what I didn't want and what sort of happened to me is that I was always told you, this is bad, that's bad, don't do this, don't do that, whether it came to drug, sex, alcohol, any sort of taboo type subjects. And then when I inevitably ended up trying these things, I was like, well, that's not right, this is great. What are they talking about?
You know?
And then you feel betrayed and you feel like, oh, what do they You know?
This is billy, Like they don't know what they're talking about, and then you just stop listening to those people in your life.
So I didn't want to. I didn't want that to happen to my kids.
You don't want to tell them that this is bad and that's going to feel like crap, and et cetera, et cetera. I just wanted to be open and honest and say, hey, if you end up trying this, you're
going to you're probably going to love it. You're probably going to enjoy it, but this is what can happen, and this is what that can lead to, et cetera, et cetera, Because I don't think there's a way you can really ultimately stop anyone from doing anything, because if someone really wants to do something, or they get into a situation where they're going to try something, then they're
going to give it a go. So I think giving them an honest opinion on what that reaction is going to be like, so then when they do try they're like, oh, I feel great.
This is what dad said. He said, it's going to feel great.
Yeah. I really like that you're having those conversations so honestly, because I feel like a lot of the times parents are so afraid to have those conversations because they think they're going to plant the idea. But like you said, like they're going to grow up and eventually they're going to probably try that things. And so the fact that
you've had that honest conversation is really great. And obviously your lives kind of blew up, like everything exploded for your family with social media and kind of suddenly all these eyes were on you or on your family. How did how how did you guys manage that as as it started to really kind of kick off for you because obviously you went from being kind of this normal family to do all these eyeballs and now on you all the time.
Yeah, I get this.
I get asked this a little bit, and I really I don't know how we manage it. I think I think by having the experiences that we've had throughout our life and having the turmoil and having been in the depths of really tough situations in our lives and coming through them.
You know, we've had a.
Lot of judgment and a lot of people, you know, look at look at us when we were young and think that we were stupid and we did know what we were doing, and we've always had to stick together and just.
Go and move forward.
Anyway. Cat and I've always had a similar sort of thrife for success, but really wanted to be successful in our lives and really wanted to be wealthy and build wealth for our family and really have a successful life and show our kids a life that we were never able to have. So, you know, having a lot of judgment, you know, we would you know, Kat was a single month. She had a lot of judgment before I ever met her, and she overcame a lot of that sort of stuff,
get an abusive, an abusive relationship. You know, I left home when I was sixteen, seventeen years old. You know I was doing things that you know, people were looking at me and saying, you know, you're never going around to anything. You know, you're doing the wrong things, et cetera. We got married when we were in our early twenties. Everyone told us, you know, it's not going to last. You know, we've went through so many different stages. We started a business when we were in our mid twenties.
You quit my job, started a business. You know, Kat came home from work and was working her own businesses and things like that, and people are telling us financially security, you should be doing this, you should be doing that. So we've been through a lot of that sort of judgment and people looking at us thinking that we're crazy if
we don't know what we're doing. So I think that's built a bit of a strong foundation for coming into a bit of a linelight phase of our life now where those sort of things don't phase us, and we've got a lot of morals and an outlook on life that we don't, it's sort of it doesn't penetrate. Does that make sense?
Yeah, And I also think that you can see that just through your family unit as well, and how strong you guys are like that when things are heading you're just all in it together, which I think doesn't often happen. When people kind of blow up, it might just be
them individually and not their whole family. And so to see you guys kind of be so tight and how all these life experiences, I think if you hadn't had those, all of that hate and all of the other stuff, Like I know, for me, I would just sit there and bare my eyes out all the time if I hadn't had the life experiences that I'd have. So, you know, it feels like it kind of set us up for
having people critique everything that you do. And obviously, you guys then win in and launched your business Collade, which congratulations it's been I see it everywhere all over my for you page all the time, and it's been so cool to see the success of that and of your family in general. And I would I would love to know what advice that you would have for I'm going
to go two different groups of people. Firstly, for people that are in the middle of addiction and are struggling with that, what would you say to them.
It's hard because people that are in the middle of the middle of addiction probably unaware that they haven't is have a problem. Well, what I would say is that when you do get to a point where you do well, you do think that you have an issue, seize that moment and don't let it pass and try and get help as soon as you can. Try and find someone who has done what you want to do. Don't go to someone who who has lived a sheltered, proper life
and hasn't experienced that. I felt the most help that I got was when I went into the rooms of the fellowships and sat next to people who have been through exactly what I've been through, have felt the things that I've felt, have had the desires and the wants, and all those in a turmoil that I've that I went through, and then have beat their addiction and now I'm living in complete sobriety and having a successful life
with all the blessed things that come with that. Once I sat in those rooms and listened to those people and spotted all the similarities that I had with them, then I was open to getting the help that I needed. So yeah, I would say, just to seek out the fellowships that respond to whatever addiction that you're in, and just do the work getting there, and do the work. Look for the similarities. Don't sit in those rooms and
look forward the differences. Don't listen to their stories and go, oh, well, I never did that, I never injected that drug, or I never did that to my parents or etc. Listen to the similarities and when they tell their stories and go, hey, that sounds a little bit of what I was going through or I've done that or I s felt like that, and grab onto those similarities and then just do the work.
Do exactly what they have done to get where they have because it's a system and it works, and you can have an amazing life if you can get through that and get through the work.
And you're obviously your evidence of that and your life is evidence of that, which is why I'm so thankful that you're willing to tell the story, because I think you just stand as proof that if you can have those conversations and you can get to that point of accepting I need to get help that things can change. And the second group of people that would love for you to speak to is people that have loved ones that are struggling with addiction and they just don't know
what to do. They don't know what to say, they don't know what would you say to them.
That's a really tough one because I still struggle with that myself, even though I've been through it myself.
It's probably one of the hardest things that that you have to deal with. So I would say to really protect yourself because you can't do anything. Nothing, nothing you say, is going to make that person change. All you can do is be in their life as much as you can to the point that it's not going to affect
your family and your well being. But then just put up those boundaries and really look after yourself first, like be selfish in that situation and don't keep going back to get beaten down, because that person needs to make the decision and to get to help themselves. No matter what you say, and no matter what you do, it's
not gonna it's not going to help them. And then the second thing was just to maybe just to keep make sure that they know that when they are ready or when they do come to the point that they need help, that they can come to you and rely on you to help them.
Get the help. That's probably all you can do.
It it's pretty tough to have I loved one in that situation. And they are also fellowships that actually help people who are children, spouses, friends of people in addiction. So they have a specific program to help you deal with that situation. Because it sounds easy to stay just put up a barrier because you know, and don't let them into your life or just protect yourself. But some people are in a situation where that that's just not possible.
They have to be in the house, they have to be in the marriage, or they have to be in the country, or you know, there's so many different situations where they just can't get out of that situation. So there are fellowships that deal with those specific situations, and I'd just say this, go and go to those people. Go to those fellowships, and just the same as any other addiction fellowship, there's work to do in those because
it's tough. So if you really wanted to get the help, just get in there, get the work done, and you can have an amazing life as well.
Yeah, I think that's thank you for saying that. I think it's really important for people to hear. And I mean myself, I've got a lot of my very close loved ones are struggling with addiction and have struggled with addiction, and I think it's really hard to step outside of like a superhero complex. To put it in a simple term of going like I have to be the one to save them. I have to like and you can't.
And I think everything that you've said and that really sums it up of like, it wasn't anything else externally or any other people that made you make that decision to go and get so, but that had to come from you. And I think that's really helpful for people to know that they like their job is to be there, to love them, to point them in the right direction as much as their abilities allow them to, but that at the end of the day, that decision is with
that person. And just to close out the last question that I want to ask you, I asked just everyone that comes on obviously this podcast is called Hope is Real, And I would love to know what the word hope means to you.
Oh, hope to me means that's a tough one. It's a really it's a good question whether there's.
A tough one.
Hope to me means.
Never giving up and having the faith and confidencing yourself that you can do whatever you want with your life and you can overcome whenever you want to overcome, and that you have of the power within you to be the person that you want to be or that you aspire to be.
I love that. That's really cool. Hey, thank you so much for taking the time. I know that you guys are so crazy busy at the moment with all the twelve million things that you and your family are juggling, So I really appreciate you taking the time to come on and to chat through your story. And I know that it will inspire people, that it will encourage people.
And I also think, just like I said, I know that you'll have the same impact on other people that you have on me, even just meeting you and being around you and knowing that men can be good and that fathers can be good, because I think that a lot of the time people can take that for granted because it's not what a lot of us grow up with. And so thank you for showing us that that can be the case. And yeah, again, thank you for taking the time to come on. I really appreciate it.
Thank you very much for having me.
Well that you have it, guys, thank you so much
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