Episode 198: audacity & Foolassery

Can you find out? So um, thank you guys for tuning in to this week's episode of Hocially Awkward. If this is the first time joining us, I'm I could properly introduce myself. I'm hosting favorite holtivational speaker, MEMI me me someone hundred or comer walker if you nasty. I am joined by my co host as always, we got mister tone deaf ed classic man, our producer over here producing shit, getting our visuals ready for this evening.

See, I never send them in advance because I'd be wanting real time reactions and I'd be wanting everybody to see shit at the same time. So I don't be wanting him to cheat and see it, and then you know, I want us all to watch it as a unit. We also got got because he came on my post on some bullshit to that he got the narcissist nigger the post. It's the same every week, every week. Every week. It is every week, I know, but so I'm the only one.

I called it. The holes not rejoice in my name. Narcissistic. It is not man. It is not like there's a whole kingdom of post. So are you like the bowser of homes that ship no bowser begetting beat and then all these houses like yop, since we're talking about homes got hit with like something that blew my fucking mind. Hold on real quick so I can introduce these two first, and then we jump into that because we do that a lot were cut into the intros and shit, and then motherfucker's that's

new. Probably be like, so who are our other motherfucker going for? Start with them, because when you get to us, we we just like we in the right. We also got the beautiful Sida joining us. Gone ahead and plug yourself, darling, and don't forget to listen to me on ninety eight point three, that's what she said. Hey, can we get that over here too? Maybe Okay, I just need to know these things, okay. And of course we got mister essential Tomas is in um now

wait wait wait wait wait, can I have some of your delicias? Yeah? So I made him wait to ask me on er because when I came in, like I said, I was like I would have been like on time time, but I had to stop at the liquor store. And then he's he was ah see with the black bag. Then I pulled out. You know, my reader, she's like I thought she has some real dreams, can have something. I'm just really good. I'm just saying like it's

got something in there. I thought it was cute her bringing in some drink. Very fine, but thank you me me, I look hot. Look, it's been a long it's been a long day. Not hi, because that's it's not a whole hole in the middle. It's like that little filter a baby cap on it. Yeah, just to make sure the drunks don't, you know, spill. It was probably what's good n look at you? Yeah, I made sure. Now I did not go to the shelf. It's for everybody. It's for everybody passed around, Dina said, be

smarter than the bottom Tommy. Hey, um so, before we even get started, I want to go ahead. I'm gonna wait for wine to pour up so that he can go ahead and hop on the buttons kid by you man, hey reader, you and them to the show. Um So, before we get started, I want to let everybody know an update from our last show. You know, we were not in last Sunday because it was Easter. Um so it's been you know, good two weeks. But because you were here Thursday. Yeah, right, didn't. You didn't miss nothing,

right, y'all didn't. It was just easter then. But I got the job, y'all. So if you did not see my Facebook posts, I did get the job. So yeah, yeah, yeah, when you find out about all your ship, uh they said two weeks. So was it the day that you It was the day after. I feel like your your application process was like the fucking Hunger Games. That was the foref interview and they said they would let me know in two weeks. But I left everything on the table. I was like, hey, I'm the man for

your job. Really slattered yourself out, yea, hold myself out? What's up? Because though you ain't wrong, Hey, thank you, thank you, thank you. Yeah. But I can tell y'all that UM appreciate it. I can tell y'all that I am really, really really excited. So I will actually I'll be starting next week Monday. Damn. Yeah. They And that's what I'm saying, like, this is the fastest I have ever like the whole process from you know, applying, interviewing, testing, getting

hired and all of that shit. So now no, because I'm drinking this um unless y'all want me pooting like I was when Rapping was here. No, but um it's going to be nice. Um. I did go ahead, Remember I told you I was kind of struggle on if I want to

do the full time of the part time. I did go ahead and decide to just do the part time for now because I feel like, one, that's the reason why I apply it in the first place, and it'll give me the opportunity to really get my feet wet in the position and see if that's even something that I would want to do full time. And then from there, you know, I can always I try to push forward. But the main thing that pushed my decision was because you know, both of my

babies are graduating this year. Ree is graduating high school on May thirty first, and then Jellybean is graduating from eighth grade on her way to high school on June fifteenth. And because of how training is structure, you know, you can't miss training, and they're talking about this shit like four four and a half five months of training and ship and you have to be there.

I'm not missing my babies graduations, and as a single parent, I have to be there the full day to help them get ready and get situated and all of that shit. So you know, there's no in hell I would have been able to work a full shift and then be able to get them and myself ready for graduation. So I just went ahead and went with the part time. But it's all good as long as my foot in the door. Yeah, I'm sure it was put back recommendation, you know, I

know, listen, listen, listen. I was like, yes, do you feel like you can sell your recommendation? I think so. I think I can't too, because the same people every time somebody come to me, they always get the job me too, always. Ye, I'm gonna keep that in mind. Oh, don't have them call me. Oh that's it's a it's a rap. It's a rap. I'ven't played a whole like, um, what's your last name again? Oh? Yes, yes, aly Man, I'm so sad to see your goal, like I'm going to miss

herndon going to miss her. But let me tell you, let lemonade is my favorite drinking the entire world. I'm definitely gonna with you. My pockets been a little hit right now, y'alling up between me being injured and ship. But now that I'm back on the workforce. I got you. Hey poo said, you got the munkeys and ship. Thank you, thank you,

thank you for all the congratulations. I am like, I'm I'm excited because it's it's been, you know, a couple of years since I've had a regular job, and my main thing is because of the fact that I have so many health issues. It's hard working for people because employers don't give they don't give a fu don't know. I got so many it's hard to exactly. Kiva Kiva said, Uh, once you in there, you can move on up exactly. No, I definitely got you. Anybody that needs

references, I'm man. Let me and if you truly truly know me, like not like just Facebook know me, Like, if you truly know me, you know how I write shit like I turn that shit on I'm a hood right on Facebook. But outside of that, nigga, be like, I literally I literally referenced every sound like hey, I sound like sereda on Facebook and referenced everything that I witness you do here. Man works. The

job is done. She's consistent, very thorough, and hear love and beyond because we definitely don't envy, buts two hours, very thorough with a research. Hey, man, blame them. They be interacting so much that people be drawing the ind Hey, good shit. Just let me know if you ever put mango in anything, because I am allergic to mango and I'm not trying to seize the pineapple on me. So the mang on the pineapple.

Now we just sucking up bought an island shit over here. Wow that sounded so yeah saying that mango tight seem That's why I'm glad you've been watching camera so fucking childish brother. If y'all, if y'all have not seen like it's called, it is what it is, it is what it is camera And like I didn't watch a full show. I only called two clips on on Twitter. I took a break from porn Twitter and I've been on a regular

Twitter. Look there's there's a regular Twitter. Because I bit because I logged into my uh my mimis some one hundred page my regular page instead of my commer walker page. And I was like, dog this shit, it's fucking wild. Like they went not a dog mace one giving no fu went in on PEP. He was like, joke you out pat I know choking like this ship, because what made me even click on it was the person that retweeted it and then caption and that was like Ken was trying to apologize to

Pat bad Mason was like, no, fuck that. I was like, I gotta watch this. He was like, oh, he was like, oh like that. He was like, and it's like you sounding like murdering, I'm sounding like killer. He was like, yeah, you're right. I don't like the side. But when they talked about, um, Charles Barkley with the soap in his ass, oh c D. He said, can went in on Charles Barkley. Yeah, so if y'all haven't go look, please watch it. Watch the whole show. That's some of the funniest

shit. Keep it talking about. She don't know how she ended up on porn Twitter, but she'd be seeing stuff. Yeah, that was definitely cooking chucked, you know, management like like that ship was wild as fuck. But um, yeah, that that was like one of the funnier things that that I saw on Twitter. Now, Um, for our women that are in the comments, I know some of y'all like that. Uh it's from what I heard is pronounced she in, not she it is she in and

what that that's the name of the compan like she In. I don't know why, but yeah, it's it's she In instead of she So yeah, yeah, So there is UM some controversy surrounding them, and of course it's gone now attention was brought to a twenty four hours ago. But you can go ahead and put that first one up. So when you go on UM as of yesterday, if you went on their website, UM trying to shop for jump suits, like, you know, searching for jumpsuits on their site.

You know how most clothing sites, it breaks things down in the categories like okay, well you know, sizes, patterns, colors, blah blah blah blah blah. Um. So when you went and looked up jumpsuits and saw the color black, there was something that popped up. So you got you know, you're playing your neutral spaghetti strap black. Now from this you probably can't tell what that is. Oh I sent the regular one. You don't got a zoom? Yeah? Oh a monkey on a bunch of bananas

for black? How do you get out of that though? Right? Like, like, how do you use my bad dest one? You know, white people? Let it go? Damn? Hey, my bad brother, you can't they let her do that? Nope, How do y'all pronounce the story? I damn sure, don't call a galaxy. That's what I call cost that. I don't know how to say that word. I don't never word. I just say gallas. I've never heard anyone say that word. Most words you getting here? I used to work there. How do you

say, yeah, there's gas, it's a monkey. But dude, and let everybody call whatever bananas you know to come shot here? Right? Absolutely, that's a that's definitely a monkey, kind of might actually be a gorilla because proper representation, that's definitely a chimp. Like I don't think we chimps. I can't be like a simperma, you know, I'm not. I wouldn't even want to be one. Sees was that nigga? He was a chimp? Was yeah? Seeson ran Ship the white one. That was that

big albino motherfucker the fuck out here? Seeing you already biased against albinos, I bet that was like, get your ass nigga for you, wasn't it? But I'm not biased against albinos. Let's stop putting that out there so

you make one. He should makes a good point, she said, the fact we're keeping them in business though, the fucking audacity see, and that is why tonight's episode Audacity and food Lastery, that is the name of tonight's episode, because, believe me, there's a lot of that shit going on tonight. So I got a question to the ladies and sent a comment, what's the y'all? What's y'all in car right now? Say? Now, why the fun would they do that? Some dresses? I want to know

what's in yr machine cart right? A bunch of sun dresses? You said, A whole suit for forty five dollars is hard to ignore. Yo, can't we really be bad at this? Monkey? Because these prices, so go to the just the screenshots. But but you know these prices. Obviously there are people that agree these prices as motherfucker. So, I mean, you can't pass them forty five dollars, these are that huh No, it makes it pop out. I mean, imagine getting getting getting high end jumpsuits.

These are just some of the tweets under the person that brought attention to it, because you're not they screening. It was like, dude, what the fuck? And they tagged them on Twitter? Um, so you know, obviously there were people that were like commenting under it, um sho got distracted its head trying to find this. Now my card at four hundred dollars said right, let's be real, I'm gonna just oh you know what. That's why because this one wasn't first. Yeah, it was so basically the

of what was that? Oh that was a video? Yeah, yeah, that was the first one. So the first chick was basically like, I'm still go order from there, but you know, shaking my head. Yeah, you can't respect, you can't not not mad at the honesty. But it's the fact that when you look at how they're acting about this, go ahead, you see the next one. I mean, yeah, oh shit, we're not these these prices are low. We're not monkeying around. I'm

house said in my brother's house. He's supposed to be coming you being for me right now. But that's the kind of text menthy you might get from their ass to right. Kayla said she got too much shit in her card right now. Prices prices solo, we're not monkey, and one said we gotta do it like girls used to doing songs. They ain't talking about me. Price is so back she bout the oscars. Kiva said, damn, I literally just submitted the order to she. She said, I just act

like I've never seen this because I'm an order from them. Later then somebody else said, I can't see I'm blind. I guess I can't say. I guess my main thing we're here now it's too many people that actually prices lower than n You gotta think about the ridiculous where you can get like your whole weekend wardrone for under sixty bucks. They not, They're not gonna walk away from that, Kiva said, are safe for a later section? O c as fuck. I guess my problem is this? So you got plenty

black women in the comments. It's like shit, it is what it is, nigga. I'm still gonna shop there my card and I ain't giving it up. You know whatever. These persons are brananas, you know what, Just go ahead dropping for you, Just go ahead, dumbass down. I think I found the joking. Won't let it go? Um, Kiba said, I mean I could boycott if I wasn't already a frequent shopper for hell, how long I've been there before? I never knowed No, this was

new that just happened. Yeah, this was new and then they took it down right away. Um, everybody't even up twenty four hours before somebody, you know, I think somebody did that as somebody got fired and that's what they did. Is they going out? No, I guess, like my big this thing is the fact that so many women because it's obviously it's black women. You don't see no white women under there because they don't gotta give

a fuck. But all of the black women that are under their like when I'm still gonna shop and I'm still this and I don't give a fuck about that or whatever, And it's like y'all being so dismissive about the blatant disrespect and racism, bragging about the fact that you feel to go place to order right fucking now. But I guarantee you bitches are the exact same ones that we're talking about. See this why I don't shop black that's because black people

ain't racist enough. Like I bet that I would bet one of my long ass titties your prices so it would be like, let's see, this is exactly why I don't shop around support black business because you feel like, oh, well, they took too long for shipping. Their motheruckers don't get you your ship in two three fucking business days. That's because you be monkeying around

with the prices. Your shit ain't your shit, ain't banas he trying to make it land to Median be out there working on a material and then they go back to the previous joke because they thought it was funny. Oh god, that's what you're doing, y'all gonna laugh. I definitely gonna catch these jokes. It's okay. Yeah, we definitely need to cut his fucking mic off key because he bowned it. Yeah, I don't think I should remember this nigga is terrible. Yeah, no one no laughing laughing at you.

Cales said, I finally got my sizing right with them and they do this ship on to the next place. But yeah, and that's my thing. That's like, y'all will really talk about black people don't have custom service skills and got attitudes, but they call you a monkey in your face and like submit payment like bro. And I've never arched anything from that same thing with h and them though when they had a little right, I do act like

a nigga sometimes, the self admitted Yeah, I was. But you know what, I can't really say that I'm surprised because it's black women, and black women are the same ones that would take lousy ass niggas back because their friends up. So can I? So can I really be shocked this nigga can cheat still and do all of this ship and it's well, it's a different type of love. But you mad at your friend and cut her off and be like, bitches ain't loyal because she couldn't make your birthday party.

She was, what do you expect? It might be a good reason to cut your friend off, But nigga beating your ass and cheating on you and getting somebody else pregnant and a good reason to cut him off. They really do be taking a nigga who get somebody else pregnant? I've never let I've never did that. I don't know. Like, imagine you sleep in the side chick, bring your doorbell, but now you manage your friend. He

don't talk to her no more, I don't. I'm not finding And then they used the excuse that the friend told you to leave the nigga because of the side chick as why the friendship ended. Bro. See, look, keeping something use them at me next time meet me because I say that sometimes. See like, how y'all gonna be like, Bro, I ain't never supporting black businesses to get this. This is why I don't fuck with black people. Oh you monkey? Hey, bro, you got that in the

large? What the fuck? Like? Let me get a medium too, because I want to try it on? Like what's the return policy again? Okay? Black people for you? Hey? All I know is I'm still waiting on my old man from Coffee Makes You Black from twenty thirteen. I'm still hey, good food for you? Ain't that the slogan fuelcast lower you? I was want to say, if you just kind of squeeze the bottle, it comes out a little fast. It come out chunky though, no

like you'd be like it comes in slashes ship. Nobody wants chunky drink. I need to take them chunky monkey is okay? Can't we say that you because that's what it's called chunky monkeys cream? I know, but we know why you said you said, well I said it the other monkey. What Yes, long titties. I am not a shame because guess what when they get sucked? He pull one of these like he lift them. It's like elevator. How did we get here? And you can put them together?

Yep? How how did we get It's easier to suck when him on top two because they just dangle right in his face. That's the greatest. That is the greatest. Want big perky, big perky ts. And he gott strained his neck to suck them while you on top. They appreciate it. A little dangle, just hanging his face like Christmas ornaments, like a baby bird. I didn't do this man, we get here no alco without the label. Yes, it holds a crav on, strawberry margarito. This is

fire. Yeah, but he was talking shit, a strawberry line, a strawberry line. It's about to be gone. That's the only reason why I said something. You can for me because I'm over here working. Anybody hacked them? Who you talk about? The backyard aget. This is how they are when they get together. No, Kna said that she and said that somebody somebody got fired and they did that on their way going out the door.

Now Kia saying she don't do that part like about to cutting the friends off keeping then no, but I'm saying like that that is a huge thing, especially especially with our women, like you will see them cut their friends off for the slightest fucking reason a while taking ship from a nigga for years and I mean the worst of the worst from a fucking nigga, all types of disrespect, physical abuse, mental abuse, and everything, and they stick

through it. One little disagreement for a friend and bitches ain't real. That's why this, This is why I'm by myself, and that's why I don't hang with fuck up for people that be like I ain't got no friends. I want y'all to know that's not a flex. You are weird of that.

I just just not a flex. And I'll tell them I don't have as many friends as I used to because as I grew, I realized I had a lot of associates, you know what I'm saying, but like the people that I do have, like I cherished the funk out of my people, like ile no quality over quantities. Yeah, I think it's a flex. If somebody's calling you their friend and you just say you don't have any friends, you obviously are more valuable than them than you heard they are to

you. It's kindle. You're telling me that you don't like anybody or nobody. I'm here but to but to what Timmy said, I will say, you have to you have to watch people like that because there were people that I can see, like we have friendships at the moment, but it's like when you have somebody and y'all gotta buy y'all do all this shit, but then you always saying them talking about how they loaners and they this, and they this, and they don't be like you know what I'm saying, and

they're like real dismissive of it. Take that as you're cute. I didn't and I should have, so like now moving forward, when I see that, I'm like, oh, bit, you want to be by yourself? You could be by yourself. I can show you what it is to not be your fucking friend since you feel like you don't have nobody. Yeah,

sometimes it's fun to go outside by yourself. Now I'm not talking about that, though, I'm saying like, when you have people that you know have never turned their fucking back on you, have always been there wherever you whenever you call, and even when you didn't call, just because they knew you that much to know that, damn I know they need me right now. But then you always talking about how you by yourself. You don't got no friends and you were loaner and shit, and it's like, hey, perfect

example, perfect this perfect face. Remember y'all know I always go back to movies and shit. Remember straight out of Compton when they when they first told Q they was distening to me. He was like, I adn't say shit about all right, and then he went off, that's me, that's me, that's me. God damn, y'all set it off. I have a

small circle of friends. How about that. It's still like, now you already hurt my familis, this is this is a this is family though not friends, um Dina says shell maker shell maker ski either though see in this now he's talking about like why chicks cut off friends instead of that niggas And he's saying basically like, well, it's easier because he has sex with her.

And it's like, this is one of those reasons why I tell you bitches that feel like it's weird to masturbate, that's why y'all end up in situations like that, because y'all don't know what self pleasure is. So you have to rely on this nigga to pleasure you to where you have to let him disrespect you and treat you like shit. And you're like, well, damn, I can't let him go because he makes me feel good physically. Look, I will motherfucking who's that, Jimmy Hendrix, No, no,

all on this motherfucker. Okay, I will print computer blue solo all over my pussy, myself all through it, kiss my ass. If anybody at my door unannounced, it's not gonna be a nice exchance. You know. That's one thing that I never had a problem with. Just know that if you ever pop up at my house unannounced, you probably gonna be out there for a while because I don't be having on clothes. But no, but

this is this is the thing. Only people only The only people that know where I live aren't the people that I wouldn't mind if they was like, hey, meet me, what you're doing? All right, I'm around the corner, open the door. Them not only people I know where I live at anyway, So I think that's probably why I'm different and don't really care about people popping up on me, because motherfucker's don't be knowing where I live.

At unless I really really fucked with you like that, And if I really fucked with you like that and you're in the neighborhood, shit stopped through. Yep, Now I'm be doing shit, don't. That's why we used to record at her house because she wasn't doing en you know what, technically chicken but the fun Timmy going small claims for it? What you do you? Oh for my my oatmeal from you can't talk about small? Don't trying to make sure you ain't. Tommy ordered oatmeal. D nobody hate non friend,

he's ignorant. Oh, my bad job. The monkey dog is terrible man who's more terrible than people that are still gonna shop? Or my bad monkey job. Yeah, you're a little bit of a little bit of be a whole lot of sea. Yes, he wears a headband with his dreads every week. He doesn't like his eye. Don't reach his fucking eyes and keep it, replied to him. She said, big baby, you're batting out your headache, you know. And keiba case, she said. She

says that she doesn't make friends. Well, so you know if you got in. But she's a loaner and can go and do places a loaner and I feel away. No, I I do that myself, Like I'm not a person where I have to have people with me in order to go places. I go out to eat so much by my fucking self, like especially without my kids, like mainly without my fucking kids, because I just want

to get away from everybody. I got to the bars by myself because um I usually, you know, I might do that shit tomorrow because it's m night. But um I do. I like to go places and hang out by myself. But I don't have a lot of creams anymore. I do got a couple, you know what I'm saying. And the friends that I do have, I definitely appreciate them, like I got all you gotta Amazon,

bro oh God. That same day every week, that same day shipping cool Friday, we took a mental health day and we went to out back and they paid for their own food. He said, what me and the girls went to out back and they paid for their own food. What kind of allowance do you give your kids? Here's the crazy part. The allowances don't come from me. It'd be from their grandparents. They just be dropping money and they green like cars. Now they know not to like come up

to my door and like ring the doorbell. They'll sit in the car and they'll call me and be like, hey, you in the crib. You you know whatever you did, And I'd be like, give me a minute, because yeah, even when y'all used to be like and I think they knew automatically it was like, bro, what is that? It's some show that came on ABC that the father would come home and you take his fans off right when he came in the house. Some sitcom that was it was

based on this dude's real life situation. Apparently his father got off work and come on take his plans. Y'are always welcome to y'all watched Beef yet I started it. I think it's just funny because it all started over bad driving from two Asians. Ali Wa, she's funny hel too. Yeah. You gotta watch her both her stand ups because she pregnant on both of them, and she pissed as fuck on the second one. She pregnant. See, and I don't I saw a beef, but I instantly thought of, like,

remember them hood videos. They used to had the Hood DVDs and ship the beef videos. That's how you knew what rap beef was going on. This is not about rap beef because that's how you learned about rap. I'm just sad like that would It's funny the first thing that came right. Yeah, Um, shout out to Montrey sipping the tea with Monty because from now like because of him, I'll be calling Dick a beef bullet all right time. You know how to go ahead and work these things. Go ahead,

turn the radio station off. I'm out of here. Make sure y'all a tone different now. Blind spiders popped up, Um when I finished one show, and then you know how it automatically tries to like turn into you're talking about blind Spoders? Are blind Spotting because there's a show on Stars called blind Spotty. Okay, mate, maybe it's different than because I'm talking about blind Spotting. That pops up because the light skinhake with the husband and I don't

know, it just pops up after power goes off. Yeah, that's blind spot that's how new Because you said Stars. Yeah, it's funny as hell. She didn't have on pants one day in the preview. I think, yep, but the mom hit the crypt killing with no pants because I was gonna watch it because of that. I'm like, hey, this should look funny. But then I never got into it this second season. Oh yeah, she's talking about the same one, she said, because it came on

after us. She was watching Power, Thank you, said, out of all the shit I do, that's the final straw for you. Tone. What about leaving? Yes, you, I have not paid attention to meat. Leaving, like several times already part of the routine in the script. Bullet is crazy, but it's it's so it's I'm like, damn, I can't stop calling it a beef bullet. Now. How many times have you told that light skin bastard, bring your beef bullet here? Pause? That's a new one. You are, was ab said the meat giver outer.

Yeah, calling the niggas the meat give up right? Tone fake quit every show meat provider, butcher, the meat provider, the butcher, beecher, butcher. That's a whole different meaning now, sausage slangy. If two homosexual men get together, we're not doing called the butcher. I see, mind is better one, it was better. Mind was better. You don't know what mind is better? Because who didn't get it? Right? Now? About ten twenty minutes later when they mind their business, they're gonna get it.

Oh here, because I don't think I sent you to you never sent me the tweet, all right, everybody that you're getting responses, see you want they're coming too. Don't got to relax, heyself, Um, I just sent it. It didn't don't mind. So, Um, I'm going to start something new community. I've been doing that, my mamm. I'm on pay management. I'm just playing. No you're not, I am no. Um, what about the bucks? Right? You know what? It was not the fun. We lost your honest and like the first two minutes,

it wasn't good. So it was the struggle it was, you know, speaking of Jamie Fox is okay and prayers up to him. Um. It looks like he was said to have a stroke, um that he's recovering from. And you know, only this time. Like in all of these years of Jamie Fox's career, I don't think I've ever heard of him being involved in any type of scandal whatsoever. Well, he did marry Tom Cruise wife. You don't think Jamie Fox game whoa. So I've actually heard some

things about that. I ain't talking about that. I'm talking about like problematic shit. No, sucking a little wee wee, that's I suck we we Now maybe it's just me because smoke a lot of weeks. Lord you know, said not to be that guy. But I feel like it was dirty coke. You were just like put two and two together like when shit started. Like, look like remember when Tank was just doing these radio interviews talking

about like all the gaits. He was talking about all these things that he likes to do about sexual right, and then it was like and then I watched him he ain't a scandal though I'm not talking about scandals. I'm just asking if think Jamie Foxx is game No, he's b sexual. And then like I think him would take to be fucking whoa because all of the things that Tank was out here saying. Then I watched these two niggas do a podcast and this is one thing to like be friendly with your dog. This

is a little true friend. It was, I mean, it is Hollywood. So I just think tank. Would Tank be describing all these game encounters he had, I believe they were Jamie Foxx. I'm one man with an opinion that's some that's some wild shit, because like if they harmonize into each other. That's nuts. Can I go home? Man? During sex? Before he was singing, Lord, lay ahead on my pillow, but what was at my house? So it was my pillow whispering and Jamie FOXX talk

about when you said to him too see that's see. He was probably trying to be funny in the moment and you just destroy his humor. But this is my house. Oh Lord, Dino said, all them Hollywood niggas and edictrious, Yeah that's funny. Yeah, he would say gay like I got nothing against I mean you with your left right. At the same time, these two, these two niggas are a little friendly. Let him be you

know, that's cool. Yeah, but I mean that's I mean, he was getting the nigga job like, that's gotta be his babe him on the road. He let Tank be his background singer. You know, I harmonize him. What having the sex of the gab of RIETI it's crazy. He'd be blowing his back out singing to him, is what please do? Remember when Jamie Fox and that chick was going back and forth for the little jingle

off right, Jamie Fox singing unpredictable. Oh I can't imagine high notes when he first put in to do something you never done before, baby, not the usual, telling them nigga that this is not the usual. It's great, you're gonna get unpredictable, just a mother g Van Dross this, let's getting take Luther Van draws crazy, y'all are terrible people. This is why y'all have to come on Sunday nights. Most people are gone to bed.

Luther Van draws for the game for like people that watch Power. So Kiva said, So, I've been trying to understand how come on Power when you Drew begin crack? How come he always on the bottom? He gives bottom energy? Though? My thing is, how come Drew is the only one getting some ass on this show to be getting as? We don't know that though it is definitely fucking effict. No, no, no, no, What I mean is we don't see it happening. No, Um, what's

the white boy name? He was getting some asks five abouts to go to another level? Wait to the mushrooms? What episode is this? I stopped counting a while ago, right, so you're supposed to be keeping track? What's that position is called? Because where they wings that note? No just something I'm going on. We ain't near two hundred yet, I tell you that much. We are near two hundred. It's like when you were like when I told it was like one eighties, we were definitely six nights.

Oh shit, damn told you all right, some two weeks telling me two weeks because I because I'll be hired by the end and I gotta worry about no drug testings. I'm good. How could they test for shoots anyway? Drug testing on the jobs that were real talk, I bet you're gonna get drugs testing. I don't either, don't think because they didn't because usually whenever I get hired, they were like, they give you yo, drugs information

before you even accept the offer. So yeah, that way they can disqualify you because yeah, yeah, yeah, I thought that working where I worked out with the all kind of tests. Look, I believe it. If you don't, don't. Some places don't. Some places they actually recommend you do it because you need a d stressor yeah, and get jokes about it at work. I'm like, I ain't jumping in your jokes. I ain't count you me saying shit, right, you're correct? Yes, oh,

and definitely have tons of jokes. I am so interested in seeing like glory holes up close, like I really want to. Like, Okay, so here's the thing. Some niggas are very like some niggas are very unfortunate looking, right, I don't want to call them ugly. Some niggas are just very unfortunately. Where are you going with this? But I got something to follow up on leng their their their facial features were not um ideally placed,

right, okay, but they got a nice slab on them. But if that's what it says, what it does, maybe want to come out like this just like this whatever. But you know, he got a like slab on him, But I can't get aroused by it because I've already seen his

face. So it's like, you know, you got this big just big being held by niggas like so now it's like I can't because it's just like so as ca Okay, So you know the gloria would be a benefit for you, right because then it's like he's behind this wall and then you just have this big, beautiful dick out that I'm not biased against because I haven't seen his face. So then it's like, man, I can man,

you know, but if I see his face. First, I be like, yeah so so yes, So scrolling through Facebook today while trying to get shows together, it was dropped on somebody's timeline if they have made Milwaukee based pages. Again, so there's Milwaukee bad bbls. T Hunt not in the group, but he made a big Backs page. Yeah, there's like big Back, Milwaukee Back, Milwaukee little Dicks, Milwaukee stinky pussy like for somebody reasons, Milwaukee Big Backs. Yes, there is like five or six random

ass pages where they just talking about people. How do you somebody just they sing they I don't know what it is, but I guess chicks or niggas are sending the photos up. This bitch is this and this and they got photos and they just go to town river. Can I can I draw a big bag bitch real quick and you put it on the screen because your jewels are unfortunately so immaculate. Gohead. You doing just like being a heavier size person in life. You minding your business, but you're on the heavier side.

It was a minding business, right, you take a big person minding business? Is why the big like why sender eating their chicken minding their business? Like because I automatically because I automatically pictured your mind and their business was eating something something. Right, are we trading like that? Right over here? Think about that chick that bigg ass panel asia that she checked back to the room. Usually noodle's gonna be sliding all over the place. She's better

get in the bed with a fucking noodle. A panelis on how do you get because usually when I'm minding my business, I'm probably mind your business. Well, I'm saying, you wake up to a bunch of notifications and they got you in this big backpack, like everybody know my back being friend, that's like outside of my friends, it's been like the five hundred and fifty six people that knew me already that was cool. But now but just like

tick came up there. But it's funny because lately they've been making these polets you can't unbig your back, And I'm like, how did we get here? I had people with big bags that wear like little shirts and big the grocery store, and I was like, yo, her like her back was big, and what she looked like boser Like her back was big, her arms was a little. She had very smart titties. You know what she was built really big back and smart. They really be built like panguins.

Wow, so did somebody say, y'all fat built like pancus. We're the bad guy you are. And it's crazy because when you see him from the back, like the back of the head, always sit on that that hump of meat back there because they're just a regular big back. It's a hump of meat like right here at the top. Like they got a fucking one of them fucking airplane pillows and they shut like a linebacker from the eighties. You know, you know, you're nothing decorative pillows and ship that women like

right in the front on their bedroom set. Ye, that's right across the back and the bootes be sucked then, oh no, it's like that two of the ground beef that that people get that audies like they just stay with that motherfucker right across the back and it just it's just there. And then they didn't go in. I feel like, I feel like we're shaming people.

I was like, what't nigga's minding their business a minute? But I'm saying, just you're waking up niggas, Like you're waking up the niggas like you right now for no reason I would not be talking about anybody's back. One you just literally sat was a hypothetical person. I don't know whose back is this big seven that white lady. I saw a white women back there big. Her back was big, the big they all big. It's no in between you with that. Her back was big, her butt was like

non existent. Imagine drawing and then taking a bottom thumb like that you discussed. I mean just not in but like the damage the picture of the heart, like that's what it looked like. It is crazy. It looked like a bad cut of beef tender like you ever see the tender steak that look like better? Say, you're definitely working badly cut that. You know what, all my state lovers knew what I was talking about because as soon as one of the bitches pissed me off in the comments and I'm like you Chuck

Ro's back, bitch. No, it is really bitches that be built like the meat that I put on the ship and like relaxed black angers. Why does Chuck Rose sound fatter than any other ro sharp frost guy? Really fan when Charles Roast bitches be built like top third one. That's that's absolutely And they always be with a black dude, right, the one that we don't want. So I'll be like, you couldn't find no one else we didn't want him, and the black dude is you couldn't find nobody else gonna come

up him. She'd be driving and I'm just praying my picture that needs groups come on back and tad bigger than it never been. And look, and I'll be watching cuts to say you're not proportion with. They'd be like, that's why I was in the middle of trying to draw, but I got distracted because one suck no like do because it's like, okay, so this this is the wideness of the back, right, but then it's like it narrows out being the legs do this shit and that's actually the legs they built

like ice cream. And it'd be like, yeah, they built they definitely got that Cops double scoop action. This just be built like soft sir. Do you do you disagree? Hey? Speaking to make flurry that strawberry shortcake joint. I with it and had a couple Hey, I wonder you think they got that. They don't. They don't even got it on a regular McDonald's app. I was pissed because I was trying to use my uh my code for it. I had to actually go and ask for it through the

speak. I want to go this. I want to start going to like McDonald's Windy to start ordering these fast food items that ain't and coolers are back at Colvers Yo's Fire. Absolutely, I can't get the strawberry mango anymore. That sucks. I can only do it strawberry. But but the the every April, I can't wait, Covers brings their fruit coolers back and then they stayed throughout the summer. I said, they always bring them back at April

because it prepares a spratorious season. But when do the peach shakes come to that all I want? Probably not until like June too late. It's like June because they just came out with the watermelont lemonade. See, and I'm not a fan of watermelon flavored stuff because I love the actual watermelon fruit. And nothing ever tastes like fucking It never tastes like watermelon to me. It's like artificial, artificial. It's a completely different thing. I prefer, uh,

but I don't and I don't like mint. So that's why I was actually surprised because I had that that the simply the little mixers that they have now simply mixology or whatever they're uh because I don't like men, but that it was good, exactolutely good mascot mules, ginger beer. Do you know what saying? My question is how the fuck their legs be that then?

And they're carrying around all that way? That's what I don't get, and begin pull all the black man peach shake said already how I really don't want? No, I don't know, but you know how you that's my ship. I don't know what you mean. You don't want You don't even know if you're just than this guy. You never had a conversation. It's just a look so fat white woman be buying a man like six rings of Mexican

Jordans. I can't not at all. I don't like that. I mean, you're gonna say that fat ugly white woman, at least make that betch values in retro, please. So I took a gamble at pot of why to me right, it was one hundred dollars. It was one hundred dollars gamble. I lost, but I'm okay with it because I was up so much that it wasn't my money, it was Poto's money. Um. I only took a chance because I know how desperate gamblers get, and I was like, in the off chance that this is legit, I'm gonna just go

ahead and I'm gonna give it to him. If it's not, then I'm not mad about it, because again, this is money that I do that I want. And even with me giving him that, I was still up hundreds of dollars, so it was cool. Um. But I was at Poto and there was this foreign guy that came up. He was from Dubuying Ship. Now I had seen him over there at the tables and ship when I walked in to the slots. I had to go to the slots I

have walked past, and he came in and I was over there. You know, Like I said, I was up, I was doing good. I didn't want to get off my machine, so I'm going I didn't even have on my pink hare that day. I had. I had on my short red curly one. Um, he comes up and you know, like he produced himself and he can tell. He is like, bro, don't ask me to pronounce that ship. I'm just gonna call him. I think you're gone. Who needs my family of my head? Let me buy you.

So he comes up and like he's he's drunk as fun, and I'm like, I saw the NIKEA gambler on the tables when I first walked in. He's fucking lit and he's talking to me, and it's like that's you know, he's talking about a liar, you know whatever, you know,

yeah, no, but but he's telling me. He's like, but he's telling me how like how he lost how he lost ten k on the tables, right, And because I'm in paddle so much, I know that that is not far fetched because niggas that play the tables well way more money than us on a slot, Like they will literally lose tens of thousands of dollars playing black jack, Roulette and craps. Good yeah, shut up, I keep telling you about to have my wig on, bitch, I was.

I was at that because because it was a because it was a Friday night. Like if I'm in there on a weekend, I like to kind of go undetected, so I switch my other wig on or I just have on my hat. But um, yeah, so you know he was talking about like the money and stuff that he lost, and he was pulling up his bank stuff and was like, I can't you know, I can't get any more money out of the ATM. I'm like, you own good. I'm like, He's like, you know, I just you know, I really

really, I like, I don't want to gamble no more. I lost, I lost, I lost, tinkerd you know, do you want to go back to So he's asking, I hate this nigga so much. Job. This is why I can never do my stories y'all because wine is immature. Wine is always fucking up when I'm trying to tell y'all something. So when y'all being like, damn, why the pie so long, It's because I can't get through my shit. Oh my god, I have no more money picking up, I'm gonna shoot you fucking remoded your glasses. Oh got

real life here? Oh my god, Cat help for your time. You and me both, cayleb you and me fucking and I hate the show. Oh god, I'm not easy. Emose you from the iPhone like I I can't even blame Rabbi. This week, Dina said, Marguerita's activated clearly, nigga. Oh my god, I got more. I'm ready to him turn one mic off you dog, Okay, I told you I didn't have my pink wig red. We can't send him home because he don't fucking dry send

them to the car. Oh my god, I so so anyway, so I poost it down and he, you know, so he talking like about the money he lost and ship, and he was like he just really wants to get drinks from the bar, like he don't want to, you know, gamble. So he got bro legs on and like a bunch of jewelry and ship and he like, you know how you know a motherfucker from here? Like you know, we know it's Miami. What no Florida. He doesn't pronounce it Florida. He's like, no Florida, Florida, Florida.

I don't know. Do you know how to drive? Mm hmm, ok look over I can. Then we're not being Funny's liking, yeah, I know not everytimes I'm taking this and it's literally the only reason why you don't fail. I remember one time I took that motherfucker duh, Like, do you know what it's like to do everything right? And the motherfucker on the side of you not saying nothing. They ain't frowning up. I'm like, bro, I was killing me. He ken of trying to send us home.

She said, thanks for you man Ac episode three, playing two as a team until next time. I gotta go, Like, Bro, I was out there killing that ship, like like I practiced parallel parking like one time. I was like, I hope they'll ask me do that shit. This is like I get you parallel whip that motherfucker. Like I did everything right and didn't imagine you get in there, you thinking you for the pastor ship and above was like, bro, we ain't safe here. You ain't

checking your blind spots properly. Black bitch, we made it back? Who was that? Like, you need to unbate your back, bron. The fact that that is why it's not as funny as when Tone said why he wasn't even smiling. It wasn't you better pick you up all the time. And I get highly upset that that's the only reason why you ain't got your ell because you can't look over the seat like I think you're just you. Probably you probably just not taking your tests in the big enough vehicle that gives

you you Probably just too fucking restrict you like whiting big Hamster. That's not the same. Bro. You can get with this, or you can get with that. You can get with or you can get with that, or you can get with that sc like tone never laughed. I'm gonna get my sho. I tell y'all how I got scammed in the casino. What I'm saying, So he was a scammer. He was a scammer. You should have known all that. But like, but like I said, it's like

and goodness, the event that he was really really that fucking desperate. It's like it's gonna be a win or lose because either way it go. I was probably gonna put that hundred dollars back into machine. It was the same thing, hundred dollars. So thank you, pink. I think the only reason you're pissing me off is because I told you my hair wasn't pink that night. It was redd. You sound like, oh round hole, run, come give me money. Show your boy what you drinking? Not checking

your bind spossible wearing glasses is wild? Check saying anything is wild or it's crazy. And it's funny because I know how difficult, like because I hate like if I got like a crooking my neck and I got and I have to drive, and I know how that stiff shit is, so I can only imagine, bro, like I get it. It's just funny because mine goes away and you just be like, Bro, I just I can't do this. I really do think that it's just the vehicle that you're driving.

Maybe I'll take your shit in the van, something that like the seat actually scoops, because like, yeah, and then Paula is considered big nigga friendly, but you're not, like you taller than Monte and you're a little bit bigger than them, like Monte, it was different. But you I think you need like an actual truck or just something that lets the seat go all the way back, because um, like the fone fifty seat, then motherfucker's go all the way back and all the way front, like all the way

to the front. I ain't never seen no ship get give you that much room in the back seat because they screwed up that fucking far. So yeah, I think that's all it is. I think once you find a vehicle that gives you the room to be able to push back and be comfortable enough where you can just because it ain't it ain't like you turning your whole fucking body around just look at me. Why don't move your body to look over

your shoulder? Yeah he could do. Yeah, that same example. They want you to over exaggerate it to guarantee you look so they want you to. I felt like that, wanted to fully turn around and my eyes off the road in front of ye because you are supposed to take it off the road in front of You're supposed to be looking at me. Here. I saw it back there to know there wasn't nothing coming for me to merge into this language. Is what the fuck you asked me to do? All right,

let's tell you what. How about you kind of fake it a little bit, all right, you're a big guy, so you turn your head just kind of fake look at your shoulder a little bit and make it give the illusion like you turn. So man, my test, and that's what it was, because because my body position is staying the same right and I'm looking. But then it's like, see, I look like I turned further, but I didn't, just because he puts effort in, go ahead,

do that shoulder shimmy shoulder, shimmy it out. So back to this niggas one doing you out of some money, because he definitely did. Um. Yeah. So and I'm sitting here and I'm playing, and it took him a minute, like a long time because I'm like, bro, I'm hot right now, and I'm like, I'm like, I don't know shit about Drewelry. I don't even know if that's real, bro, Like I feel I feel like you addressed like Ali j oh. Did he me have him like up a hat on or like a dude rag or something, be like

like part of you were you were a black dude rag. Sometimes he got on this stupid ass yellow jog and sup Okay, I think yeah, but no, he wasn't. Um, you're dress like tigers. It was like silk shirt, middle Eastern taco meat. His taco me was velvet. They here be so smooth. Look at what I'm saying. He spoke proper English when he tell these people how he got you that he probably did black like give me money, he works a bitch. Yeah. But but it was for a minute because like I said, I was, I was on the

run. Joan sitting there, he talking the whole time, and he's talking to me about so he takes his change off and he's like, uh, he put it in my hand. He like he folds it up like this, and I'm like, I said, I don't want you. I said, I don't know nothing about jewelry. I don't know if this you know, I don't And he was like no, l look, he was like,

um like. So he's so he's talking to me about like the jury and the ship, about like him and his family and like the ship or whatever, and I'm like, damn, like I don't I'm like, bro, I said, I don't know about jewelry and nothing. So I don't know if this was I'm sitting here and I'm like, he's talking. I'm sitting here. I'm literally still gambling, like pushing the buttons and shit.

So I go on the bonus around this nigga rooting for me and shit, I'm like yeah, bruli shit and I'm like yeah, what then was no hand job? So he like he pulls out his sponge and he opened and he opened his galloping and ship and I'm like and I'm like, bro, I don't want to see me because I'm thinking that you've been to like to show a dick pick or something look at the penis. Look at the penis. You're like, it the big dick, And I feel like it would

have been so bushy. You're like a little I should have don that niggau made me musty, you know, said, y'all definitely got to relax during Ramada. No fuck him, he scammed me. Fu the man a holiday. Ain't that like a week long? Because he put that ship. He put that shit on his guide and he lied no, but um so he so he so he grabbed his phone. He pulls his phone and he pulls

up his gallery and I'm like, that's what I'm like. So I'm like turning my head and I'm like to make sure that I can only see the screen. And then he taps you, and I'm like, yeah, he was like no. Look he was like, he was like, we own

we own jewelry stores, and we blah blah blah blah blah. So I look and you can see him in there, like you see all the money and ship the jewelry day, behind the counters and all of that little shit, like not actually like at the counters, but like behind the counters, like you know, people that were on it would be So I'm like,

all right, cool, and I'm sitting like I'm still gambling. I'm like, it got to it like once I was up so far, I'm like, if this nigga is truly that fucking desperate, it's not go hurt, it's one hundred dollars because I've seen niggas do that. I told you one week when I was in here, when I said, when a motherfucker h was at the ATM and left, they received how much they had over and

they accountant shit. But niggas were really fucking gambling is like crack. What crack is for some people, Like I know y'all have seeing like them stories and like videos and shit like motherfucker's literally in the hallway crying in Vegas because they've they've lost every fucking thing. Oh I don't not in a system, not in a sense where I'll lose everything, but it's like I'll be up up, but it's like I'm bored. I don't want to go home.

I really blame my family for the fact that I lose my money back, because if they were tolerable, I wouldn't mind going home. And I was like, oh, I'm up and going home. But the fact that they get on my fucking nerves. We like, I'm not gonna go home, and then I just sit there and keep gambling. So then by the time I go home, I'm mad because I gotta go home and because I got

my fucking money. So now I'm double pissed. That sacript it is because if you just win the money and didn't go somewhere else should be cool. Like, yeah, my ex told me that. He told me I haven't addictive personality, and I believe that because how many songs do I put on repeat? Like the smallest things. It's like, yeah, like I will. We could ride somewhere and listen to one song the entire time, Like,

so I do I have a very addictive like I will. It'll be a jam though, Like it'd be some ship that you don't mind listening to over and over again. Yeah, but I will listen to that motherfucker back to back and not think twice about it. If she listening to that now she was listening to this bullshit, I would, I would say, because you should probably check the song. Give me an example of a song, then that's worthy of that case intentional well married blise, that's what ship I

could get a few specs. I do um right now, okay, it's right now. I've been listening to Joda see Um on repeat because you know, crazy and you know and you lose this fucking shirt in the first thirty seconds of the song. You know, That's never been one of my ones that I put on repeat, like I'll listen to it, but I always, like, even when i'm like playlist sing, I'll never that's one of

my one. That's one of my ones I put on whatever kind of vagina that he was described, that's too happy, that wasn't sinking like they wanted pussy. I know what I'm saying, Like that wasn't one of my things. He should say. She's ashamed to how many times she could listen to us song my money, my house, my house, and my car. That's favor. Oh no, Jesus, And yeah, who's that when he saw the stars, the moon, the mountains, and the rivers, saw

heaven. But right right now, like as far as like when I get in the car was cued up to play My heart belongs to you, okay, ye, mynd belongs to you whatever you need. No, you know that is very like I have a very very very addictive person like this, Like, look, look how easy it was to me for me to get addicted to cheaperhood after that one sandwich. I'm meant to tell y'all when the cheaperhood nigga, I don't know what the fuck I got That ship was fire.

I didn't heal that motherfucker. That's what I got that. I felt guilty. I walked by Oak heroes like I'm loving that. But you know what's so funny about that for me to like, I can acknowledge that I haven't addicted personality, but when it like guys with good dick, that doesn't happen. I don't know, not because you have no because you haven't. Like we've talked about being digmatized before, and even with me having that type

of personality, like I've never just been the line's been drawn. Yeah, Like literally the the only person that I've ever been like anything with, like Beata's not Bay. But it's not because of sex. It's because of everything else outside of that. I think you consciously make that not be an issue though. But Dick, yes, I think you have a block, like a dick block in your head. He would not let whatever. But that's

what I'm saying. But the fact that I don't try to do that but everything else is like, oh, such thing, because that's how I got addicted to like slots in the first place. So me and my ex um, it was my birthday and he was like, I don't want to see you sitting in the house. Come on, let's let's go down the podole. Let's go play Bengo. I was like, oh, I always wanted to play Bingo, So we go. We play beingo not didn't wear nothing. He was like, you want to go downstairs. I'm like, all

right, cool. So money that I had that I didn't, you know, spend that Bingo, went downstairs, putting in the slots, putting in the slots, I start hitting and I was hitting good. I'm like, damn all right. And then ever since that night, like that's what kicked it off. I had never went and pottle to gamble like that before ever, never been in there. And then from that, that's what kicked it off. Thinking like twenty it's like twenty fifteen, sixteen, yea, even

there a few times, and I would never go back. It's not like I don't have to go back and stand like that's that's been my thing. But I do like I get hooked on shit so fucking easy, just not Dick. And that is so crazy to me looking at all the women that get hooked on Dick around me, and it's like, damn, how the fuck do I have? It's such an addictive personality. But that is the one thing. And they'll just be like, you can go byland because you

can. You can take care of yourself. So that's a part of it. Yeah, I just be like Dick's dick. You'll be all right, there's another one. They're like us. But when it's them slots. If I lose, I'm like, bitch you from giving this back. And then I'm at the ATM you can. I was minding my business. He came up to me because you wanted to give me your money, Tray said.

I memory playing the same song every day for months. Big Kenna said she needed to be in the desert and leather, singing the power desert and leather walking on but just like Jesus walking on water, brabb my ear holding the waste while singing the Coochie. Those were the time M these great r and B Drake. I've said this on the show before. But I just I don't think Drake can fuck Drake. Drake is black adjacent, but I don't think he got a nigga stroke. I think Drake got that brad stroke black.

Yeah, I don't. I don't think Drake. I don't think he'd be dropping dick off. No, I think you have. I think that you have to fuck Drake. I don't think Drake can fuck you. And when he does, I feel like it's weird and like off rhythm and ship which sucks because it's just like, how could the nigga that sings be off rhythm? But I just feel like it's just he can't help it. He makes love. Drake gives me little dicky vibes when it comes to sex.

The rapper rapper dude, Yeah, yeah that's funny. Yeah I do. I just, I just I don't feel like Drake can drop dick off on nobody. Drake seemed like he takes his pants off and just like he still leaves his T shirt hanging over his dick before climbing the bed. All right, thank you for another edition Awkward. Make sure you check us out on all should you check us out on all streaming platform. Drake said, he go starts sweating and want to stop me a way to clean up this Monday

said Drake looked like he said, whoa, that was wild? Come here? Oh man, I just I feel like when it's over, like he'll sit there fanning and stuff like who you had? Right? Yeah, Drake? Really? He just I don't know because who's black Drake dad? Yeah? Okay, now when right? But when mixed dudes have a black dad, they typically have a chance of having black that's usually their best chance of having black dick. So Drake might actually have one of those big dicks that's

like darker than him. Because the only time I really know, like the only mixed guy that I've known that had a pink dick like it was lighter than him, it was the dad was white and the mama's black. I've never had a mixed dude with a black dad that had you know, um fucking you know little pit bull thing. Everybody else been like, you know, they had men dingo. Still what oh I can tell Drake got shirtless picks, don'ty If it's nipples brown, he's dick brown. Yeah. Yeah,

if he got pink nipples, his dick is pink. Let's let's take a look real quick. Yeah, if he if he got brown nipples. M hmm, can we leave in YouTube? Stay? Yeah? Absolutely absolutely, he could be packing, but he would annoy me in conversation and turn me off. Yeah, that's what I'm saying. Like Drake is just he's not a person, and I feel like like having sex with he got brown dick, Yeah, jim nipples, his stick is brown. Haven't got enough pink meat? Yeah, we just look Caleb. You know, I got

a house in Calabasas. He just said, ain't no sex appeal? Yeah, Like, ladies, I'm talking to y'all for a minute, Like, just imagine, especially because we're filthy, if y'all wouldn't, y'all wouldn't be here. Can't you imagine nigga like Drake trying to like actually talk dirty to you during sex, like trying to talk dominant to you during sex. I mean, he is a scorpio though, but he October scorpio. So that's

where it kind of falls off. As Jesus said, the fact that no one has leaked his nudes, it's trapped black woman because he goes he goes black women honestly, for for the for the male celebrity news that get leaked. I don't think bitches be leaking them anyway. You know, you know, bitches be weird now we want to share anyway. I really think that if niggas be leaking their own ship, and that is what we like to call a call back my friends, y'all terrible. Trace said that ain't gonna

be in my mirror after sex fixing your hair. Before I get there, he'd be putting his hair upon. She said, Drake, remind me to do that giggle up for every friend. I feel like, does does it feel good to you? To feel good to you? He's gonna be a Madison may night, but I'm scared to stage trash, you know. And this is the thing, like you think Drake kind of nigga? Mm hmm? He said, what kind of nigga? And he famous, what?

Oh? I go imagine walking into an industry party just from I don't know, but Drake seemed like the zipa nigga, Like if I let him come over my crib to fuck, he go wear my hoodie home. He just like a whole as nigger to me, I feel like you're talking wraps and then not only does he go whar smiling and grinning and ship, I'm sorry, sorry, who I mean? It's just October scorpions came scorpios we having to me. I'm assuming that October ones don't. Okay, so listen,

who determines me by the month of the version. Actually a November scorpio, my my favorite scorpio to have sex with, was actually born in October. Like he's on the more dominant side, like he knows what to say but to touch, like we're talking to you, like he has everything down. The November scorpios that I've had sex with a real just yeah, remember speaking month a man, I got my butt eight though, I'll just busting like

you're ready to get your ass eight tone. I was like, yep for the get out to the grass up quick, whatever you like, at least look at you see asked because they came in. I told Nigga, I said, I got something to do it give me a minute, give me a head start, because we was I think we was at BW Three's and I was like, all right, I gotta run to mate. You know, I'm gonna go home. Give me a minute, and mante he had

the keys to my crib. Um. Oh yeah. So before before I moved in the house, um, I was in like a townhouse style apartment. I say style because it didn't have a basement. It had upstairs and you know all of that, but it didn't have a basement. Nope. And I that was perfect for me because I don't like basements. I had a laundry room, you know when you walk in the back doors, the laundry room here, but all my storage and shit. And then you had

the kitchen. So I was cool with that because I don't like basements. But um, when you walk in the back door, as soon as you step in, you know in the kitchen is right here. You can see right in the living room. So I was getting my butt munch storm on the full time. And I mean he was like full spread, right, And I told them to give me a minute. Bro didn't clear it with me, like all right, is it safe to come in? Like you

know whatever. So niggas coming the back door and he heard the door and he thought that it was like I don't know if he thought it was a boyfriend, husband, baby, daddy or what, because you're like, well, who the fuck else? Well, you know, like have a key. So he got and he took off and he hauled ass and ran out the front door and like left, and I was sound. I don't think

we ever heard from that young man again. I know I did remember that Facebook post that I made when I was like, what happened if a duce nort coke off your booty and he eat it after? Did that mean that the senior system? Yeah, that was him for you out here getting Wolf of Wall streeted. I never saw that movie. That's literally one of the opening You never seen that. That's just wild ad. Hey, look, I don't judge folks like you know, because he is actually he's he wasn

smarting, you know he was, but he doesn't now. But that sound like you know, driving trucks and all that show, like dude off. No, it was like it was on the cheek. But then he like ate my butt right away. He was like motor boating it a little bit. And I was like, damn, I wonder like coke residue like it because you know, shit absorbs faster through your button. So I was like, damn, like did I technically do coke? And I know it like it is int my sister now because he got you know, nos residue in

my booty hole. Like I didn't know what was going on, but it was. I was so high I couldn't check out the next day. But no, no, no, but it wasn't that, No, he had um. I had never had weed and liquid form, and as you know, when I tried weed and new forms, I tend to overdo it because I'm not used to it. And we all know Mimi loves what fucking lemonade. It was weed lemonade, So I don't know how to fucking gauge.

I don't know how to gauge fucking weed lemonade. And who the fuck's just Oh, I'm thirsty, but I'm gonna stop drinking because it's fucking drugs in here. Like I killed that shit. So between that and you know other shit that was going on, like I was so high, like I could not check out that day. So that night costs me like an extra two hundred dollars because I couldn't check out. But he was so cool about it. When I was like, I said I couldn't leave like I was,

so he was like, how much did it cost you to say? So he actually he cash shafted me the money for me having to stay because he knew I was fucked up. Whatever you want, you know what I'm said, coke residue from getting your ass eight. It's crazy, but I did it. Yeah, I went on because Okay, So I knew that he was gonna have weed because he like and his weed be weed weed. It don't be that huffass ship that niggas we had. Like, he's a real smoker. So when he got this shit, it's like, damn, nigga,

you just getting off the elevator. I smelled shit in my room, like got weed weak. So I was getting edibles and shipped from him because I knew his ship was gonna be legit sudden he was like, hey, I got this lemonade, you know, blah blah blah blahm alright cool, and then I junk it and I forgot it was weed lemonade and something like damn. And you really don't taste it to the end either. So that's

the other things. So if you're sitting there drinking and drinking, often he stopped, he'd be like, oh shit, too late, because he was like he was like, you mind if I used the bathroom when the fun would. I be like, no, you can't go pee, but you know, I hate when people asked that. But he come back and he was like, he's like, you drunk that whole thing. I was like, I was thirsty, it's hot in here. He was like, and I felt like that was kind of a but you know, but we made

it. But no, it was really the fact that he was like, you know something, you know I've been wanting to do blah blah blah. And I was like what he was like, he was, I don't know how you gonna feel about it. And I was like, nigga, what I was like, an'ta don't He was like no, he was like he was like and he poured it out of his pocket and then he asked me like if he could snore the line off my boy. I was like, I don't care. Then you did it? You down for whatever because in

dress, but I didn't. I didn't know that it was gonna go from It was like one fluid motion and I had no time to react and I was like, yeah, it didn't because I was like, you know, but then it's like I kind of like propped myself up, like I'm like elbows a little bit more like give a little arch. I was like, oh shit, like you know, he didn't have no time to like you know, so I know it was you know, I'm like, dang, yeah, mushroom class. Did he come in with like fly out of college

like college. Did he come in with like a shirt opened up to his chest with his college alway out to his shoulders? Oh? No, no, he Actually it's funny because he's like he like one of them, Like what do you call like the cool nerds Tommy. That's why I asked. That's why I actually told call him. I knew he would know. I don't know, I'm lot key cool nah man. But that was that was a very fun night. Kayla said, I was the chaser, right, it's given super fly right. No, he was not born He was not

born in the seventies. He was born in the eighties. He only because I was born eighty four. He probably at most he's probably like eighty one Jaine. You you know, cocaine was very popular. The hell of a drug. Hey, y'all can see the outline from my opin when I was drawing the fat Bitch that's gone no on the street. No, not on the I mean the outline like through the grease and ships light. Nah they are oh um, so y'all know, like speaking of the nigga that scamming

somebody bought his jury from Florida. Ship Um. The only this is probably I want y'all to make a note of this, Okay, Like I want y'all to really really soaked this in because this will probably be the only time that you will ever hear me say on this podcast or otherwise that Florida got something right. So Florida lawmakers are pursuing the death penalty and child rapes. Yeah, and I am so for it. Oh, I'm so forth of all the things that they fuck up, that is probably the only thing that

they have ever proposed that it is actually fucking smart. Um, Like for there to be so many different like child crimes and shit like that, Like, I was actually happy to see. I'm I was shocked though, to see that Florida was like the one to have that out there. You would think it would be somewhere else and then they might be like, oh, yeah, all right, that's kind of a good idea, We're with that.

But to see that these motherfuckers was like, hey, we need to offer these niggas is out here touching kids, Like, well, it take so long. Florida is fucking weird. Not even I mean, we can't even say it's Florida because right the whole nation is like, oh, we just labeled him and tell everybody and put them in the house, and right that the kid, your name's going like Jericho the list. That's it.

Niggas is going on to the list. Elementary school is the worst, though, put it on the board, your name on the board, shit, right, check check mark out for the extra recess. Yeah, teacher ever put the word recess on the any Raci's letter. Yeah, and we don't got no letters this night. Terror we got laugh But you know it's crazy about that, Like I understand the concept of it, right because you know, it's it's kind of trying to make your class accountable for each other.

But they don't realize that shit got niggas folded up because if because if you were that nigga, if you were that nigga that got that last letter took away, you was getting shredded. I ain't gonna lie. I helped tune a couple of niggas up. I definitely did. Did you like the real gangster about it? Too? Black? Right? Right? And it's crazy

because they were staying there for a minute. They already knew they was taking the letter, but they want as many eyes on them as possible at the time that they finally decided to erase it because they want to drive that shit home. So if they got to go two thirds in the classroom, swipe, man, we told you man, and then they try to act like men don't get about going outside. Man, I don't on site, you like, you go care nigga. As soon as that three fifteen, we're

beating your ass, nigga. So it was like I said, I got it. But at the same time, I don't think they truly realized unless it was kind of like a power play. Yeah, like maybe they knew exactly which kids. I was like, I can't stand a little motherfucking I know he's gonna sucking. They gonna beat his ass. So it's so it was kind of a set up in some way, and that help it being

an asshole in the class like you just you just knew. Uh. So one of the main, main, main, main mains that I wanted to talk about you don't care about replace no more because they made the fucking scroll on my look, go on my page, push search and hoctially awkward and then to come up you, um, what's up? First of all, I've never had a set time frame. The only reason why I was timing

myself was before the Lives. And then I thought about it. I'm like, now they can see the Lives regardless, But um, okay, if it's only four minutes, well if they if they are on time for the Lives and actually watch the Lives, then they don't have to worry about a replay that you're incentive to have your ask her on not getting a replay on Monday the little kids. No. But I saw a post and of course

it was a chi um because you know how they do. And she was like loud with it, like she put black women like in all caps and she was like, black women are single because they want to get paid for being in a relationship. Where are your thoughts on that? Because I know mine, I can see that POV from the way the world, the date the world is right now, why agree or disagree that want to be paid? That black women are single because they I don't think that's the main reason

why they're single. But I can see Sera is a black woman, I would saying no, so I don't fall into that category. Songs for need to be paid. I do not think they want to be paid, eat, but they what I have I have, I don't I don't think they want to be paid, but they don't mind somebody showing them that they are able to take care of them. So my take provider the meat provider, but the butcher girl you don't know, but I did. I can't see a woman being arousing. I can't see it. I just can't see.

If I wore panties I take them off. I just can't see her going, Oh I like that. I like I really just broad conversation with somebody and we were just talking and talking about I don't forgot what we were talking about. And she said, yeah, I want to get fucked. That has changed the whole name of the conversation. I mean, so it worked for me. From her, I was like, oh, well shit, let's get that. What's your next question, like, are you offering no?

It was it was that was Keshia saying she disagrees, and Dina said, most definitely want to get paid. Y'all may be different though, so it's not necessarily that I'm different. Um, yes, is there more context to this situation or that that's literally that was her post word for word, black women not women. Black women are single because they want to get paid

for being in a relationship. That was her exact post. There is a lot of representation online where his financial status it seems to matter more than what how she feels about him. So I can see that person thinking that you know of women, like all of y'all are single because y'all want to get so right now, I'm between blessings and I have actually let women know like, hey, this is where I am, and then it has not been an issue. It hasn't been an issue at all, Like this is what

I am. I mean, I can't do this, I can't do that, and it's like, hey, that's all right, this natural season, but you know that ain't gonna keep me from my china. You know, do what we gotta do. And it's funny because so many black women are actually like that. It's very rare that I have been in company of,

or have seen personally women that weren't like that. Um, So it would be killing me when niggas that don't even got that much fucking money in the first place be making posts like women are all about money and gold diggers because it's like, make up your mind, because the same niggas that will say that will get mad when a bitch that they like don't like them and then get to talking about, Oh, I guess I got to be a bum that stay home and play PlayStation all day and I had no job and I

pay no bills because you're mad and she didn't use you. But my taker is that that's absolute bullshit because it's not that black women want to be paid for being in a relationship. I feel like black women are just the only ones that are vilified when they want that standard of a lifestyle because white, white, white and foreign women becoming trophy wives having nothing to offer but a smile and what they call it a tight ass that has been not only fucking

except but encouraged it for the longest. Like when you look at celebrities and shit like you look at motherfuckers like doctor Dre or anybody like and you were like, bro, that's what he married. Like the strong face as white woman, they don't even have to be cute. They don't have to offer anything, they don't have to have anything on the fucking table. But whenever it's us, then it's some more. Yeah, but can you could? Can you clean? You gotta have more than this, You gotta have more

than that. But when it's one of the mother and motherfuckers, one of them pale ones, something gott to justify your back, they just gotta be a fucking just bullshit, bullshit because because they love spicy Hispanic bitches. So I don't want to hear that they fetishized that they love when a Hispanic bitch because them out they love that shit. I'm anna stab you, poppy bus she could she clean? Large? You're done? Kids? Is good?

Like yeah? So why is that gotta all be me? That's but you know, because of the lifestyle that you want, this is what you gotta do to have it. If you don't do it, if you won't need to go out here and make all this money and you don't have a care in the world, why you can't do that? But the crest, actually that's more of a job than anything. Because actually they just did a study. I believe they said, if you're a stay at home mom. You

should be paid at least one hundred and eighty seven. Why is it more of a job. And it's just not the role you chose. You chose to be a stay at home mom. You chose to want to live his life. I chose to want to go out here and get it. So if I want to give you this life that you chose to live, this is what I gotta do. So this is what I'm asking you to do. Yeah, I means you had enough money that then you couldn't actually have us having made no, no, we're not having you want to stay at

home to take care of kids. But but that's the funny part, right, So niggas that don't even make as much fucking money in the first got damn place the ones that should actually be complaining about having to spend money for a kept bitch. They can't keep a bitch because they don't got the money

to keep a bit. But it's like you look at it, like I said, like, because niggas don't be having celebrity money, but they always fucking talking like they have celebrity money to fucking live off of in the first place. But you have a celebrity right, and he has all of this money. This bitch has absolutely nothing to offer him but pussy and being arm candy. It ain't about well, can you cook? Because she got you paying for a fucking a chef. Y'all got a private chef? Can you

clean? She got you paying for a fucking maid all of the ship that she should be quote unquote doing because she's staying at home. She got you paying for somebody to do that shit. So she is literally just at home spending your fucking money. And these are not even the niggas that's complaining as a nigga, As a nigga who would love to have that type of lifestyle that I could trick. I would love a trick. I would love to be able to do that shit, and most niggas would. So the niggas

who are talking shit are the niggas who don't have. No they don't have. I definitely pay for convenience. It's convenience something I would pay for. I would pay for everything I don't would if I don't have to claim my house. Definitely pass A real nigga just not complain about what money he's spending on his lady, because that's what he want to do. That's that's what he's gonna do. You want, right? I like taking care. I

like taking care of motherfucker. Like when when the shoes on the other fun. No, Because for as for as many niggas who complain about how women like what we're just talking about, who don't have rapper money, there's a bum ass bitch that won't rapper qualities from your normal nigga that goes to work every day that's a nine to five. And then she frowned her face upon the end of that line. I don't day broke niggas m so like it's all one of the same. No, But but that's my point. It

that only falls when it comes to us. When you got white bitches that's literally bread to marry niggas for money so that they don't have to work for nothing. It's fine for them, but when it's us as bitch, how dare you? How how dare you want me to take care of you? And you're not bringing nothing to the table. These bitches don't have to do nothing, and nobody blinks the fucking eye. They can't. They can't fucking

boil water without burning a pot. But you want us to cook fucking goddamned soul food movie meals seven days a week, clean up the house, take care of the kids, and still go half on bills. To you talking about niggas who don't know how to be men, so they sit there and

bitch online all day because men who could do it. And I feel like some of that should be relative to what you say, Like if you grew up in a in a way where you watched your pops get that ship and take care of your mommy, your mom don't really got to lift a finger. Your mom may work a part time job, but you're always home with you and your little brother, Like when you watch your father do that shit

for your mama. When you grow up and you get your own family, you now have your father's mentality to a degree where like this is what I've seen my dad go out there and get that shit and make sure mom's cool. So now my wife, I gotta go out here and get that shit, make sure my wife is cool. Some niggas grow up watching their mom do everything. So now when you get a girlfriend, you like, well, my mama did this, Why you can't do that? And I got

my half? You got your half what's probable I have. I have made a post and I share it whenever it's that time of year, and I've said so many times, you're that yeah, because you know, Facebook memories pop up share to tell him that I feel like women are definitely, definitely majorly responsible for breeding some of the biggest suckers out here because the way that they coddle their sons and take care of their sons and their brothers, their

nephews. Like I've dated a nigga where he was surrounded by women, the only the only brother that he had. The nigga was always in jelly. It would have been the same thing for him, but his mom, his sister, his aunties. Then he had female cousins. The only other males that were indeffant like they were his sisters kids and they were younger than him. So his entire life, it was always women man coming to the rescue,

billing him out, never holding him accountable for anything. Whenever he did some shit wrong, it was always like, you know, it was always something to where it took him a very, very very long time to be able to stand on his own two feet as a man because he didn't he didn't know what the fuck to do. He had motherfucker's always cooking for him, he had motherfucker's cleaning for him, he had motherfucker's doing his laundry and

all of this type of ship. And it's like single moms of sons get mad when you tell them, like, stop colining your son so much. That's not telling you not to love your sons. That's not telling you. Yeah, that's not telling you not to show them affection. Yes, love on your fucking babies. If anything, they need that so that they quit grow up growing up being fucking terrorists and hating us for no fucking reason because you didn't give him a fucking hug when he scraped his knee. Bitch,

they had nonna do with me. Why are you upset with me? Right? I feel like we just say fucked me for But I've always hated that because when it comes to black women, we are not only expected to seek and accept struggle love, we are expected to fucking be grateful when the nigga offers us struggle love. The thing I think that's crazy with all that, though, too, is that like I came from a householware, just like

how you said, like my dad was taking care of things. My mom worked part time, but guess what, she was also a nurse, so she still was making you know, decent money, is working part time as well too, and then still making sure that you know, home was okay and taking care of And so then when I raised my son, my son is capable of doing everything. That's the one good thing benefit because of him being like a seven is seven years between him and my middle one, and

then ten between him and my youngest, okay. And so by the time you know, I'm having my younger kids, he up doing everything himself. So like you need men make you something to eat, You need me gonna throw that stuff in the wundry, you need me gonna do whatever. Cool, And now he on his own. He stayed with his girlfriend, but he did the same thing where he makes sure stuff is taking care of in

the house, and that's she okay. And she worked too. And I love that because in so many situations of friends and family that I've seen like grow up, even when the girl is not the oldest she becomes responsible for She's basically a fucking substitute mother for everybody else. So she didn't have time to really be a kid. Because she had to step up and fucking parent everybody else, even fucking older brothers, because she was forced to be more

responsible because they were so used to fucking everybody doing everything for them. So I don't feel like that is something that they need to be going around saying like it is not the fact that black women want to be paid for being in fucking relationships. That is not what it is. Motherfucker is just tired of always being expected to accept fucking struggle love And why are we the only ones that get talked down on for that ship for having standards that we are

literally the only ones. I don't never see them talking about fucking Becky or Consuala for that shit too. Got to have a job. My thing too is like with me is I'm yeah legacy because it and that goes to what um Serida said too. She said how we are raised plays a big part

how we act in relationships. And that's another thing um with me and bad, that's not bad no matter what like I said, like even like we haven't talked in a couple of d he you know, moves twins period, But even with me not talking to him and him having because we'd be cool and then all of a sudden, it be as soon as I get that blue fucking message that pops up and said, can I ask you a question? Like, Bro, we ain't gonna talk for like five days. I

already know because I know it's going to be some bullshit. And then it's like he'd be on the road too much with his thoughts, driving the trucks late at night. He ain't got nothing to do but think, and now it's going to be some bullshit. But even with that, if I was to call or text him right now and be like, hey, I need

you such as such, whatever, he would look out right. And because of how he was raised, like he watched his dad take care of everything, So even when we were younger, like in our early twenties, that was the kind of mindset that he had whenever I needed something or anything was going on. I didn't have to ask him twice if I had to ask at all, If he knew something was going on, yeah, you're good, you got gas in the car, you're good, you know, jelly

being all right? Like I didn't have to because that is what he saw. And I've said that um on my Facebook post. You know, a couple of times. How it was completely different my experiences dating men in two parent households where you know, because their dads were not only involved, but they were very dominant in the household and handle everything, versus dating guys with single moms, especially when they had very troublesome relationships with their mothers. Ye

like that shit is a completely the contrast. It's crazy. Yeah, I see, I haven't had the privilege of raising an ain't raised girls, So yeah, I feel stuff saying he ain't Bay. Y'all just weird Bay. That ain't Bay. God damn it. That's what I said, Um, Ray say, y'all need calling. We used to fucking have him when we was on a block talk that was a topic on these two Nigga show earlier, and was talking about how all of this started. Do what call in?

I mean technically it's here you're talking about when you do the join the live thing. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I just don't want to do it. No, you need to lay down because start something probably prepared. We don't have enough infrastructure in our community that supports relationships and families. That was a season. You know, she had to get deep with it, and no, that's true. It's true, Caleb. Both my relationships came

from two parents homes and they were horrible, very active dass. And see that's a crazy part with me. Like with me and my ex husband, his mom was more dominant with everything that she was doing, and I could tell. And then when I was done with crazy controlling, it doesn't matter. He was in a single you know family household was just his mom. So that was another one too. Now with what I'm doing right now somewhere with how I grew up. But see, and I have to worry about.

But but that's why I was specific and saying with two parents and two parent households where the dad was the dominant one and handling everything, That's exactly why I was specific, because every two parent household, like it's not the same. Because that's like even with me, like I technically like even after my dad, like once my mom, because my mom has been with my stepfather since I was graduating eighth grade. That was nineteen ninety eight. This

is twenty twenty three. But then again had ship. You are owned ship, he didn't you know mom? You know, my mom was the fucking the sour dough, the honey wheat, the multi grain, whatever fucking type of bread you got. She was the bread winner. You know, this was the nigga. He cooked all the meals and shit and you know, fix whatever run like. That was his way of contributing because he had a fucking money. He's in all of these years, I can literally only remember

him having two legit jobs. And this was before I graduated high school. This nigga singing to le Quod the Margharitas have kicked in or Tomas. But there's also somebody that I dealt with from a single parent household. But the difference was his mother was older. I've also noticed that dating guys were like older parents. That makes a difference too. So with his mom being up there, you know, she fucking sixty whatever you're like, she don't play

that ship, and she set a certain standard for him. So even though she was a single mom and he came from a single mom household, again completely different because of how she was, because she was old school with ship. So she raised her son not to be like his father. So let me see, Kayla said, I hate I'm raising my son alone. I feel absolutely horrible about it. We're in very important years and he's literally being

moded by me because there aren't any men present. I pray every day he don't end up messed up or caused some turmoil to a woman as I help you, bro, I got some aggression, like we could stump that and got out because it's like, I really don't understand how you're gonna have a whole child out in the world and be like, I really don't. That's a lot of people that are like that, though I don't understand it either.

That's triggering right now. Yeah, But like because I've talked to Kayle about this, like on her on her post um because kayleb post you know, sometimes she'll put up stuff about, you know, interactions between her and

her son. I am not a boy mind, but there are certain things that I understand, like when you have boys, just because of the type of people that I've dated and seeing what it was, it's like, please, please, please do not cater to these boys in every single way because you ain't doing shit but making like you're not building them up to be the men that understand reciprocity. You're not building them up to be the men that

understand being providers. You're building up entitled, fucking brats that are going to be looking for women to fill your shoes. That's all you're doing when they they want a women like their mama, not because oh well, my mom was wholesome and she was into the church, and you know when she cooked meals and she did this, and I saw how she treated my dad. And this is why I want to know. They want to replace the fucking maid that gave birth to them. That's literally all it is. I said,

I'm definitely not Jesus Christ. I hope not my mom's I love her to death, man, fucking annoying love her, though, I mean, and that's the thing, nervous and and and here's the thing. And I can say this about Wine's mom, I can say this about Wine's grandma because I can say this about my mom. Something with Dincin's women is fucking off. And that is like I stopped the cycle with mine. I don't treat

mine like that. And it's like their parenting style sucked in the way of even when they did a lot for you, you would wish they fucking didn't because they make you. It's it's like getting in it's like getting in the bed with a loan shot it's forever day. Yeah, for every day, remember that day I gave birth to you, right, Like, man, I mean, you chose to do that shit like I didn't. I was like, that was on you. I used the one I wanted to get

that the same shit I'm doing now is what you let you? He said, some nice shit. You was like, let me take these draws on. I do all the time. I said, some nice shit, but just take their pennies on. That's what happened to. Tray said, Yeah, that's the one thing I can't do. What are you talking about? As far as I with being a boy, mom as easy to say, damn me me, Tray said, I tell oh okay, she said she

tell him every single day. I ain't know made Yeah. Um Keisha saying my ex told me all this shit is mom did for history as dad. One flag I ignored. Yeah, but that's something that I have learned to like maneuver around. And I mean it's it's not a fucking foolproof system because

people turned out how they turn out. I just know a huge red flag like when the nigga was raised by a single mom and their relationship is shitty, or he was raised by a single mom, and he was like, because they're there are two different kinds of mama boys mama's boys, would you agree, Yes, I feel like there is the mama's boy, where they have a very healthy relationship with boundaries, and then there's the mama's boy, where this is a grown ass man with his mama titty and his mouth rum.

One of my relationships where I thought that shit was sweet with us, ended up like it was intolerable because it was mama's boy with Titian's mom. So it's like, even though he had one of those older moms that you know, taught him all of this ship and he knew how to treat me, he knew how to provide and all of this kind of shit, it was like it was always a wedge because it was always with my mom my mom my, mom my mom. And it's like, who are you fucking

here? Bro? Like I'm like, you know, and and it's nah, because it's because some shit is real weird, you know, it's like borderline ancestral. So you're kind of like, okay, and it's like and I and I look at the same way about when I look at certain ship that boy mom's post on Facebook and it's like, bro, that's not your man, that's your son, right. I hate that. I hate passion, but I didn't seeing Kelly said one thing I ain't doing is clean it alone. I'll cut all this shit off, right, um my girl,

and I couldn't wait. And that was the thing. And it was like my mom didn't like she didn't want us choosing a washing machine because she thought she I was like, man, I really like I wanted to do my own ship, Like I wanted that extra independence. I wanted to be able to show that I was responsible and able to do my own ship. So it was certain like I just wanted to learn I couldn't actually keep me out of cook because we had this conversation, heard that apron and fucking Salisbury Steak

and Grants biscuits. Wre to go fucking cut it. But you know what she did when she could Tracy he makes his own food, cleans his room, et cetera, and Tristan being there helping because he liked to follow his brother. I still love on my boys though, And that's the thing, like I said, a lot of women get offended when you bring that point up to them because they think that we're telling you to just stonewall your fucking son, like, don't show them emotion, don't hug gum, don't kiss

them, don't tell them you love them, just fucking ignore them. No, give your boys all of these things because they need it. They fucking need it. They need to be able to not only show love, but to be able to feel that shit. They need to know what love feels like when they are coming up. That's what some people are not teaching. I'm lucky to have not I'm just looking to have the children I have because I hear what people go through and the struggles that have. I keep looking

at Timmy here because his shit is popping the day. Can't y'all can't see the definition? I camera here right find hold on very defined. That's saying hold on, hold on. I got to use it as twenty two pro can for this. And I'm posting this in the group like the butters it's shiny baby, I'm posting this and a host butters like I was saying, I have a very privileged to have had girls that I did not have any problems with whatsoever. So this whole like like twenty six years of having children,

I've never had to run into know like bitch ass nigga behavior. I mean, they do what they're supposed to do. They clean up when they're supposed to clean up, they come home when they're supposed to come home. They I mean, I've never had any issues with them, So I think I've just been blessed. So I feel bad. I feel bad when people have like bad situations with their children and find out that they are growing to be hole ass niggas and shit like that. And I don't think I was

supposed to have boys. I don't think I was supposed to raise That would break my heart to look at my son. But like you really your fuck nigga, right, like you really That's how That's how jelly Bean's dad talks about I mean, jelly Bean's granddad talks about her dad awesome. He wasn't

raised like this. But it's like, Okay, you say that, and I understand where you know you feel like, well, I was always there for him, but it's like you wasn't in the same state as him, Like you know, y'all had a relationship to where you know, if he come visit and whatever, like you've never turned your back on him. But at the same time, you weren't a constant presence in his life either. Not to say that's you know either, you know, y'all split, you

and his mom split. She wanted to live here, you wanted to live there. It is what it is, but you weren't a constant in his life to where it's like, well, every day I get to see my pops, like, hey, with my pops or whatever, like y'all had huge gaps in between because y'all had to schedule time between. All right,

well, he got school in Mississippi. He can't just come out to fucking California, and when he do, you know, it's fucking nine months in between because he got the school year, all right, Well he out here for the summer. Like so, I don't know if maybe that's a thing that kind of makes him feel like, all right, well, she can live without me, because you know, I used to have to live without

my dad for you know, so much months at a time. Like I don't know what it is, but it's like you feel like you didn't raise him to be the kind of father that he is because you were always available as a father to him, but you weren't always present as a father to him. Two totally different things. But imagine being present and doing everything right for your kids and teaching them right for wrong. You go to basketball games, give them the love and to teach them everything, and he'll grow up.

That's crazy to me. The one thing that I may have done, because my oldest is single still is probably how old is your oldest? Twenty six? That ain't got anyhing to do with you? No, she didn't ran some whole as niggas and she like, I'm just gonna chill out. My friends are saying, made me be happy. Maybe her standards are just way too high, or her standards are normal people can't right, right, I mean, yeah, I recognize that because the dating pool got shipping there

at this point. No, I don't think of that, because I mean I may have spoiled them to the point where the expectation of that, Hey, you know you can do better a father, that's literally your job more need to do. And I feel like her being twenty six and single, it's okay, you can stay with me. Yeah, like no, but that whole situation, I'm actually happy to hear it, because you know what

that says to me about your daughter. She's not fucking settling, and so you raised her to have a standard enough, So she was like, look, I know what this feels like to be loved. I know what a man is supposed to do in my life. You're not gonna come here and short change me, right, So fuck you. I'd rather be by myself.

So for her to be not even thirty years old and already have that realization and standard for herself, when a lot of women they got to be fucking thirty five before they're really damn man, I wasted all my twenties on this fu niggas. You know what, from this point forward, no more fuck niggas. She already has that down. Yeah, I hope so about it. And the good thing about it is is she don't have to stay in a situation. She don't have to because she knows she can always come

to her daddy house no matter what. Fuck you, nigga. That's why I don't understand why people be so mad at Lorie Harvey. She said on an interview a long time ago that her daddy told her she it, don't ever forget she is the prize. Don't don't ever forget that. So if she ever ends up in a situation where she feels like it's no longer serving her and it's not you know, it's not for her. Leave it.

You do not have to stay in no situation. I applause everything she do, all this, all these fun niggas who talks about her being a whole whatever nigga? What cause she move around like you definite? Yeah, yeah, there's a lot of broks. This is probably shot because my dad just kind of you know how when you're reading the clothes captions and they'd be like nervous chuckle. That was my daddy. When I told him, I said, I said, I said, I feel like my love life is Joe

Karma. I said, I feel like I'm being punished for yo see him sometimes. I told him that, I said, I said, sometimes I do. I feel like, you know, all of the stuff that you did and like stuff that you put my mom because my mom and dad were like they were together since high school and out of all of those years, they didn't even get married until I was already in the third grade, after being together since high school, so they were together for a very long time.

Um, and it's like out of all of that, I feel like, you know, as your firstborn, Carmen was like dice and I crapped out and I ain't even hadn't it, bro? First of all, I wasn't even supposed to be here. Bro, I was on an abortion docket, nigga, I was penciled in. She was sitting I tell y'all all the time. I tell y'all all the time. My mom's was in the paper gown ass out reading the jet mad and dad was, please don't kill my baby, please, And he talked her out of that ship just to

leave her to be a single mom in the end. So I know, so you know, and sometimes I feel like, because don't get me wrong, my mom a thousand percent when it came to being a provider, taking care of business, pa like, she never dropped the ball. But when it came to being a nurturer and like a mother, she didn't know how

to do that right. And it's like, I'm turning thirty nine this year and I still have to kind of wrestle with myself, like, Bro, you gotta forgive her for that, because it's like, Bro, she didn't even want to be a mom, you know, she didn't like she wasn't ready for it or even toil what you're saying. And like my mother was not raised by her mother. She was raised by her father and her grandmother. So same similar thing where my mother did love her everything, but she

didn't have that maternal instinct. Yeah, so she didn't know how to do those things. So like I was overcomp and saying I could tell with my kids where I was always telling them because I probably nine. I was like in my late twenties thirties, that's when I finally heard my mother said I love you. I never heard that my father. I never heard my father say I love you until my son forced him to do it when my son was two, And that's the first time I've heard my father say it.

So stuff like that, when you look back and recognize you, like, damn, I'm the one that had the basically like change that standard in the family. Black. No, I'm loving all my kids and everything. And my son now he's six three, two fifty, you know, and I'm still that's my baby. And it's like their words, I'm not in this business. He got his own house. He got his own house old so he and a month and I have conversations with my kids because I am not

if I ever get this book out, like I really need to. I really need this book done. But um, i've you know, I've talked about this before, like I don't consider myself the perfect mom, broybe a long shot. Um, there are a lot of things that I went through

as a kid that kind of molded my personality. And it was hard having kids and adjusting that part of my personality, like my mom not being like having that maternal instinct, like she didn't you know, spend time with me when we were when I was a kid, like I even had like you know, my foster sister, Like my mom didn't take us and just oh, you know, let's go have s five days and let's you know, go to the movies or let's just go out Like I didn't have those moments

with my mom. My mom was a homebody. She didn't like to do anything. Like she get off work, she come home, she you know, go in the room. And that was kind of you know, she stayed put unless she came out like cooked dinner or something, she's back in

her room. And I found myself being like that. And it's like when they come in there, like like I interact with them, or it was like, hey, you know, y'all want to sit down and I want to watch this movie and stuff like like so I try to do some things with them, Like I said, like, you know, even if it's just hey, y'all want to sit here, just we watch watch a bunch of Marvel movies together, watch Harry Potter movies, or you know, if it's something that they wanted to you know, it was hey, man,

can you watch this? And it's like it ain't complete bullishit like but I'm not gonna watch see when Universe get on my face. I'm gonna watch this YouTube and watch but you know, but we but we can, you know, do stuff. So that portion I had to learn from because it's like I knew how I felt when I felt like my mom was kind of like secluding herself for me in the house. But it took me a minute because I was feeling like, well, I do shit with them outside the house.

Then my mom didn't do. I take them skating whenever Marvel movies come out. Where we're at, we're the first one. We're in the movies. You know what I'm saying, We're going bowling we go, I take them out to eat. It was a point where when I was working two jobs, I still make sure I'm like, all right, well, bowling every Thursday or you know, skating every Wednesday, like little stuff like that. Like I was doing shit like my mom. She never did that with

me. So it used to piss me off when I felt like my mom used to like try to criticize my parenting and It's like, how the fuck can you criticize me? Do you know? I felt like Eddie, I like, what the fuck are you to put me on trial? Like I got mad? Um? And this might be news to you know some of you, but if you've been friends with me on Facebook for a while,

you probably already knew. But there was a point where, like Bree was having mental health issues back in twenty eighteen um, and I had to, you know, put her through a program um she was, you know, suicidal thoughts and everything, and I'm like, I've been through that. And my mom wasn't the nurturing type to be like whoa, you know, what help do you need? How can I help? You know, talk to

me? You know this and that, And it was kind of like, well, what you want to do you know, like I gotta get back the work type shit like that was her thing, and it was like for me, it was being a lot more proactive than being involved. Like I talked to my kids all the time. I asked them how they feeling every single day when they walk in the door. How was school today? I

work today? You know like today? Like and I was. I was proud and cracking up at the same time because Ree finally had her you know, y'all know she just started sucking work and what did she do? She when she was like, somebody pissed her off and get the hell out of her face off. It's like she eighteen now, but no, um. But she was talking to me about how, you know, how annoyed she

was because at work she's doing her ship. Don't just come assuming because she feels that they are looking at her and underestimating her or they basically like they're looking down at her. Like she she was like, I know how to fucking read it says this, I'm making it this way. Don't come fucking on my ship because you think that you know, I made it this way because the customer said, no this and you come, oh, well this is supposed to come with this on it and then just dumping on my fucking

sandwich. I didn't put it on there for a reason, right, And then I guess one of her managers was like, oh, well, when you're wrapping a cold sandwich to go, you're supposed to put it on this, and she's like, I just look at and I kept doing. She was like, because it was a it was a for here order. So then the lady repeated like, um, I don't see the same when she was like, well, that's fine, but this is an order for Oh

well, why didn't you just say that? Why are you over here fucking with me like I can't read us on the screen, right, because you could have easily started out, is that order for it to go? Okay? Well, if it's to go, then make sure that you blah blah blah blah blah. You just came over here, assuming I didn't know what the funk I was doing, so, you know, being able to just vent to me about shit like that. Jellybean every single day she getting the

car and she's how was school to that? Oh? Well we did this, we did that. I hate kids blah blah, like you know, because they were pressing. It sounds like we're parenting similar children. Definitely. Yeah, But um, that's something that I had to learn based off of what I knew I was missing. And I tell people all the time, no, I am not a perfect mom, but all of the areas that my mom went wrong with me, those holes that she had in her parenting,

I plugged them in mind. Ye I knew where she went wrong. So it's like, now I feel like so many parents are parenting out of guilt instead of parenting out of love. And parenting out of guilt means that you were going to be too worried about appeasing your kids and I pissing them off instead of telling them what they need to hear and doing what's best for them, or the perception of reality people who don't give a fuck that you're a good parent. Yeah, so like we're re We wanted to go to

Riverside. That was going to be her first choice on you know, her high school selection. I was like, oh, that's fine, arts, but my arts you only want because because no one was at Riverside? Right? Where was no Ad? Oh? No, it was that Golden Who the fuck Jonathan was at Riverside? Was it Jonathan? No, no, no, I'm talking to wind uh his nephews son. I think that was Jonathan was at Riverside, but it was Jonathan. And then it was like a couple of her friends and you know, I want to go to No,

because there's no there's no reason for that. And imagine she wanted to go to Riverside because they had volleyball. But I told you all how bad she sucked that volleyball. So just so just imagine had had had I not vetoed that decision and like, oh well, yeah, you can go there, and then she got to play fucking volleyball and she goddamn sucking m So now what So now we are sitting here but no opportunity whatsoever because I let you do what you wanted to do versus me doing what's best for you as

your mother. Ye, because I didn't give a fuck if I pissed you off or not. So she was mad at first, like, oh man, yeah, go do about in your room, Go slay me, go right about me in your journal, go draw me as a hangman. I don't give a fuck. You're going through the arts. And now look what's happened in that time, thirty seven out of forty thousand dollars paid for for her freshman year because of scholarships herself during that time frame, too, right,

And it's like different if it was riverside. Oh yeah, yeah, she meant the cheaperhood. Oh we listened out on comments. We can we can we getting yoll that in the comments, y'all try said, it's the balance she had to learn. Um. Dino said, I'm proud of y'all for changing your family structures. No bullshitkay, let's say yep. I had to learn to be affectionate with my son because my mom wasn't. Now she hugs me, and it feels weird because she didn't do that with us,

as kids complain it now. Just a disgust though, too, because I know it was like that initially my mom. And then we had that conversation about that because I said there, I was like, look, I said, don't try to do this now out of guilt, the conversation about it, and then after we did, we were good. Out of guilt. Yeah, it was, she she told me it was. Dino said,

we were still learning every day. There's no concrete parents and mangua at all and there was a thing with my mom that some of y'all may not know. But um, when when I first, like while I was locked up, I had you know, I signed over rights to my mom to be able to handle everything so they didn't have to contact me for nothing. If anything happened, my mom was able to make all the decisions. And knowing my mom and how she likes to control shit, I dated it until because

and I put my release date there. I got it notarized, sent it up. So anything that she did, whether it was doctor Poyman's or whatever, she she had this document. Um. But my mom like really tried to take over with re Read, like jelly Bean was she wasn't even thought of at this time. And my mom spent so much time re Read and she's been away more active and involved grandmother than she was a mother. And I always felt like that was out of guilt because she she wasn't like that

with me. So when re Read was a baby, and then even you know, when she got Tyler and jelly Bean was born, her and my stepfather like they always had my kids always, and I didn't think nothing of it because I mean that's that's how I grew up. I was always at my grandpa house, my grandma. Like that's what grandparents fucking interacted with their grandkids back then. So that's a tradition that I expected to carry on because, like I told you, like me and Wine, we grew up in

the same house because we lived where with our fucking grandmother. Like granny house was open at all, so it was like my mom and me living there, his mom and him living there and this, you know, it was room for everybody type shit. So it wasn't out of the ordinary for my mom to want to spend so much time with my kids. I didn't dump

my kids off on her. I can be at home and they come pick them up, and I'm like, well, shit, when Nigga's on to night, next thing you know, I'm in the whole dress, I'll mixed

because the kid's gone, I'm gonna I'm gonna enjoy it. And then it's like yeah, and it's like I would literally like through the week my mom was at home, I'm spending the fucking school week with my grandmother and shit, because my grandmother lived closer to my school, so may Mark, she was like, well, no, I don't want you to have to, you know, worry about that. I'll get her up, I'll get her ready for school, you know. So I was basically raised by my grandmother.

And then it's like even on the weekends, Brian going home on my friends in the hood. You I don't know nobody el We're in a fucking apartment building up there, and nigga can't bounce no ball over there. I'm staying at Granting house. So I was always at my grandmothers house, so that wasn't something that was foreign to me. So for me to find out that my mother was feeding to my kids, like, oh yeah, mama

just want a party all the time. So she leave y'all like she made them feel like I was jumping them off on her when that was a voluntary decision for her and my stepdad to pick them up. And me and re have had this conversation. She was like, I'm not gonna lie. She was like, I felt the way about you all of these years. She was like, but finding out that that's not the case, she was like, now me and Granny not close no more because I don't like how she

did that. So now my mom feels the way because her and Reid's relationship has suffered, and Reid's not as close to her because they got the same birthday. But she was like, she really made it seem like it was this way and we didn't know no better. Yeah, because you did that. So I'm like, because we was talking one day and I'm like, we really gotta you know, I had to sit down and I'm like, all right, so I don't punch you in the forehead. What is your

problem? You know? And when she was I was like what, I was like, No, I said, your granny was just fucking come get you. I said, I didn't even have plans until after they decided they was go throw y'all in the back of the fucking car, like you know,

because I wasn't. I didn't plan shit like that. So after having that conversation with her, her whole perspective of me as a mother chance because she was like damn this whole time, I'm thinking, like damn, like she ain't Vonnus or something, or she just didn't whatever, like because we always at her granny house and I'm like, no, nigga, that was your granny's fucking I did. I used to be at home board sometimes and she's like, damn man, she go get my kids, you know.

But because of the fact that I always felt like my mom was trying to make up for not being a mother like that to me, I let her have those moments. But when I bought the house, I'm like, they ain't coming over there. So I had to break that and keep my kids

at home. And then she started seeing like she started feeling bad, like because you made my kids really think that I was just fucking dumping them off on you and didn't want them to fucking be at home because I wanted to party, when me partying was a result of y'all just fucking coming and get them. Or we went over to visit and I'm putting their coats on. Oh you would just leave them here? You sure? Well, shit, it's already you know such and such they and ate already, just you know,

we I give them a bath, put them whatever. Sucker in my heart, shit, you know, because that's that's how I was used to growing up. There were literally times where and even now I can't tell you what the fuck I ate last week, but I can tell you times when I had on my little fucking Carabar pajamas and being sleep and filling my body doing this ship and it's my mom lifting me up and sneaking my coat on, picking me up to take me home in the middle of the night.

And then my granny like, well, why are you taker? She was like, Wellma, you was you know, you had her all week. You know, I just brought her home. Yeah. So that it's something that, you know, I've wanted to talk about the fact, like me having my kids, it took a longer time to build that foundation with them because my mom broke a trust with them, making them think that something completely

off the map was how I felt about them. So even with that, it's like me and my mom, like we fell out for a long time behind that. Yeah. Yeah, So I'm happy now that they have a full, you know, understanding of the situation. And I explained to them like, well, you know, your granddad ain't shit, but this is how I grew up with his dad. You know, I was always over there. I was always at my granny house, or I was always I

was literally never at home. It's to a point where what kids don't stay home on Christmas Christmas Eve, I would go spend a night at my cousin house and my mom and dad would sneak presence to my aunt and uncle like here, you know, put these under the tree for her, because Santa was still a thing then, so that I would think, well, how Santa no I was here because he real he knows where all the kids is that type shit. So I'm not even staying home on fucking Christmas night because

I'm I'm staying at other people's house. But I didn't look at that as something wrong. I didn't look at that as being fucking neglectful. I wanted to be where it was fun at I was the only child at that time, Like I didn't have foster siblings at that time. Like I didn't want to be at home. I was by my fucking self. It was lonely at granny house. My cousins and ship was there and I want to go

kick it. So that, you know, that was a huge thing that I had to learn from from my own childhood, like how I felt about my mom and feeling like she was avoiding me and shit because she really didn't want to be a fucking mom. Like I didn't even know about the abortion shit back then. But like as I I older, I'm like a lot of shit makes sense because you probably liked bitch as Nigga left me in the house with this fucking kid that I didn't even goddamn won't. Now I'm taking

care of everything. He was fucking dead beating. She just here like, you know, hey, it'd be like that sometimes. Held on reality. Keisha said, you got a seriousness, break it up and get all the back. Dino said, kids learned from adult examples of how to do shit from talking to morals. Yeah, my girl bounced back like a player though. What Yeah right, Oh, Keisha, time about her boss. Time on TERRB. Throw that home the grill. Yeah, my school, she

went to the better school. Uh, y'all leaving us out in the comments. Sorry, not bad. When we get to talking, I know right, it gonna be way behind. Wasn't paying attention. I think I gotta start like rotating, like keeping the laptop in front of me. Comments. Uh, saying my grandma always had us, raised me my whole first year. And that's the thing, and it's like and it works and black households

like back then, like grandparents were very very very important. Now grandparents ain't done being young, so they still want to party and ship because and I don't that nineteen. I don't, but no, because I mean, you were me and we are twenty years apart. But my mom was always like from the very beginning, my mom has always been an outstanding fucking grandmother. I will never take that away from her. But she has spent way more time with my kids and she's ever spent with me. And I'm twice re

fucking age. She was still growing up with you. Uh no, she said, we're the same person, literally child. Oh my mother in law. I said, maybe your grannie did the same to your mom. Sorry if that's the first, Oh, no, that that and and I think that's the thing that hurt me so bad about it, because my grandmother has never ever ever treated my mom the way that my mom has treated me. Like my grandma's demeanor and just everything is completely fucking different. My mom was

the baby of all of my grandie's kids. Um My mom was number nineteen, twenty and twenty one, was twins, but they didn't they didn't live too long, so my mom was the baby. She was number nineteen, instant favorite, and shit, you know about it, I was kind of like the favorite grandchild. And shit, I didn't have those problems, like

my my Grannie didn't she wouldn't like that to my mom at all. Actually, the house that I grew up in UM with my grandmother, me and Juan, she actually ended up like she signed that house over to my mom, and people were mad about that, and she was like, well, Brenda worked hard, she do you know, like she did everything from my

mom because my mom was a type to do everything for herself. You're so lucky to have your grandparents in your life, however, and on my dad's side, and I think that's what hurts me so much about my um, my dad and his side of the family, like they're not active with my kids. And I grew up with all of my grandparents except my mother's father, and that's because he passed when she was nine. So on my dad's side, not only did I have his mother and his father, I had

both full sets of my great grandparents from both of his parents. So I was going to Louisiana every summer and I was seeing both sets of my great grandparents. So yeah, and then we shoot over the little rock. Uh. Motherfucker said I was crazy and she would never help me again. After I had the cop call the cops on her for keeping Tristan story for another day. If you want to be a quote unquote parents, start with the ones you had and stopped making it seem like I'm a bad parent. Yeah,

that's wild. Uh, it'd be so hard because like I can't just scroll with my finger. We almost side of here, y'all, tone being weird, like he don't know my shows being on the everybody tell you started nine, y'all, I got so much anger. Now I'm in therapy to get over all that shit. Um. I can attest to that because when I started therapy, my mom was mad. Um. I didn't realize how my mom was the root and like the trigger for a lot of my issues.

And then once I started addressing ship, my mom was like, well that bitch just trying to turn you against me, and she a lot because I'm actually addressing. Yeah, that therapy definitely helps. Um. Yeah, I can said to my granny, my mama, and my mom's be hot about it. They'd be like that child, you know. It's funny.

Um, for those that know about like my relationship with Marvin and his mom, um, my girls are like they've always been like super super close to her, like she doesn't have any biological grandkids because her daughter passed I think twenty fifteen, and then Marvin doesn't have any kids yet. And me and her relationship was so close because she has mothering instinct. Like I said, she's older, she's in her sixties, and she has that nurturing to her.

So when I was sick, like she's making me homemade soup and she's making sure I'm okay. And if I spent the night over there and had to go to fucking work the next morning, she here, I made you breakfast and here, you know, take this for lunch. Like she you know, she just that's the kind of person that she was. She would

call and make sure I'm good. She's a type day you know, when you come in give her hood, like she slides you twenty dollars in your hands, like you know what grand And I was like, my mom wasn't like that. So my mom would get mad because I had to go in install you know, like one of the little nest things and that up for I'm like, she doesn't make me feel like I'm obligated to do it. You make a motherfucker feel like they're obligated to do something for you because you're

my mom. Even though when you do shit for me, it always comes with a price. It's always going to come up later. It's always going to bite me in the ass. You have been living here with me, rent and build free for all of this time. But if I were to ask you for something that's a problem, it's it's gonna bite me in the ass somehow how, because that's how Dinkins mothers are. And I don't know where they got that from, because my granny wasn't fucking like that, like

not at all. Like my granny died with motherfucker's like depending on her and ship um. My grandma always tell my mama that I was her cold and she didn't care what my mama said. Like your own kids, I'm barely fuck with you, but you want to make up for it through my kids. Have a good fucking day, ma'am. Your show's therapy today second half

is man therapist therapy saved my life last year. I love my therapist for myself because of the two she gave me to release reset and when shout out to that coming ready to go lately, you know, don't like that he always becoming ready to go. He do, though, I gotta be here since like that is not my fun because who moved me? Who moved me to Sundays because they said, well, you can do Sundays because that way nobody's on after you, and then we don't have to worry about you.

Russian who put me on Sundays because I was on Tuesdays. I was on Tuesday, I was on Tuesdays. I multiple days, I remember, I remember now initially I was after Scales, and Scales used to be here sometimes and end up making me late. I moved and I moved her to Mondays and moved Keyana to Tuesdays, and then Keyana almost killed. We have a very respectful lineup of shows now that we honor each other's time. I appreciate that. Yeah, really, except for except for me. Don't come on,

I do what the four minutes I'll be like nervous chuckle. I appreciate the man. And we ain't even hit three hours yet, and he complaining, no, it's a podcast, you know who You start to get like that that other podcast across town that go forever in a day. People listen and they usually listen to me at work too, so that helped them get through because they had their jobs. One thing I appreciate. There's no dead horses being beat here. No, it's topic after topic after topic. It's

true, it's no waste space that you want. But but that's for a minute. The monkeys that hair get a joke out gonna you know what that one that one character on a black TV show who's just there to be funny and sometimes a joke don't land, but he don't give a fuck because he's still gonna check. That's why I look, man, you miss that's his whole career. One of the motherfucker jompers going swish. Don't do that in the playoffs though, Bro, Yeah, that's been time trying. Not news,

damn. But if if you you know, I've been in a similar situation, trust me, I get it. And that is definitely some shit that you really really really got to work through because how many times have we heard people, you know, talk about breaking generational curses, but they've never actually broken generational curses. And I haven't broken all of them, you know, but I've done my absolute best to make my kids feel loved, because growing up I knew my mom loved me. But it's like I didn't necessarily

feel that from her. It felt more like an obligatory love. Yeah, it's an obligation because the thing is that they weren't emotionally available to you, so they didn't know how to provide that emotional support to you. Like I try to have a conversation with my dad about that, and he went off on me and I said, you know what, you're not ready for this conversations. My mom never gonna have this. I said, but that's okay because now I know where you stand and I know where I stand, and

I'm good. That's why she got to snapping talk about my therapists, and you know, because you try to sweep it was like, well, I going to church. I said, what's that got to do what we're talking about right now? My wife got to bring the church into it. I said, I want to bring the church into it. I'm parts of feelings because they think they can pray everything away. And I've talked about that with

my therapist as well. Um, but with my mom it was crazy because it's like I told y'all, when you know, Ree was going through her suicidal shit and everything, and it's like I'm calling my mom and like Brian to this lady like she was in Alabama at the time, because it's like, this is my first born and she's going through this, and it's like, even though I know that I know how this feels like at the time, I don't know exactly how to help her write in this moment other than

you know, bringing somebody else in. And the first thing that she did was blame me. Yeah, blame me for refiling this way. It didn't have shit to do with me, but she automatically that that was that was the direction that she went, like when you know, this is your fault because and I'm like, I just hung up on her. Yeah, yeah, as it should um, But it was like that that was a difficult, difficult thing, not being able to talk to my mom about real shit

like that. Me and my mom have always had an openation ship, but it was never about like the heavy hitting and emotional shit right that I needed to be able to talk to her about. We've always had an open relationship where I was able to discuss bullshit with her, or sexual shit with her, or you know, just day to day shit where I didn't have to filter things with her. But when it came to actual emotion and love and nurturing and like meeting her to be an actual support person that was not there.

So me being able to provide that to the girls is something that you know, I am. I am proud of because me being able to notice patterns. Okay, I know that when I was this age and I was acting this way or I felt like this, this is what was going on. Let me step in, let me have a conversation. How can we fix this? So RhE is like a complete you know, one eighty for what the fuck I was as a kid, because I was able to be there for her emotionally and mentally more than my mom was for me. Like

I said, I can't say that I didn't drop the ball. Sometimes there was a point where I was working two jobs. I'm getting off one job, going right to the other, I'm going to school, I'm doing all this shit, and by the time I might come home, like Nigga's getting ready to go to bed, I wasn't able to spend that time with them.

So you know, I did feel guilty about that because I'm like, bro, you're turning and say your mom like you, You're not able to give them that time and shit that you wanted from your mom at that time. There wasn't really anything that I can do about it, because financially, that's what needed to be done. But all I can do is let them know, like, you know, I do love you. I'm just you know, this is what Mommy got to do right now. You know, I hate that, you know, we can't do this and do that,

but I don't want y'all to think that I'm avoiding you. And that was something that I also had to talk to them about when I was dealing with my own mental health issues. I have my points where I still spiral sometimes and they haven't understanding, like you know, Mom, we understand you know

you dealing with you know shit. But I've had to talk to them about that, like because when I'm in those modes where I'm depressing, my shit is all out of wrack, like I want to be left alone, and I have to tell them like I don't ever want y'all to feel like it's y'all. Like I don't want y'all in my space. I don't want to

be bothered with y'all. I don't want nothing to do with y'all. Is just mommy's having a difficult time right now, and it's hard for me to really be engaged and interact with y'all how I would like to, because this is affecting me. And now I've gone to this, I've gone through similar

as well too. I've had to have those same conversations with my kids, and like my younger, she takes it because, like I said, I feel like we probably parent with the same kids, But like my younger, she takes it very literally, like she thinks it's her and I have to constantly sit down with her and be like, look, you didn't do anything wrong. Yep, you didn't do nothing. I said. You're doing the best that you can. You're doing good. I appreciate everything you're doing.

It's that I'm having a hard time right now. I says, a lot of things going on and it's over your head and it's not something that you can do anything about. All I can ask for you to do is just to be supportive towards me, just like how I'm supportive towards you. Yep, we're gonna go ahead and we're gonna work through this together. And that's

all I can do. Yeah, I get it, and it is, and it's like a lot of times just like they'd be kind of like stay out of grown folks business type ship, and you have to have those conversations with them because if you're not talking to them about it, it's gonna internalize some shit and they go get to like, damn, man, my mama really don't like me right, like you know, and i'd be feeling bad,

like damn read chill up. Like she'd be on her friend on the phone with her friendship like, oh shit, I don't know about that. Mama ain't like that. Like, bro, you know, you don't gotta say it like that, but like she'd like she'd be reason you know how scorpios are, but she she'd be kind of like just kind of out of her mouth with it, Like I don't think she thinks twice because I know she'd be kind of like damn, I'm glad I don't gotta deal with that.

But it's like, bro, day in the middle, like venting and feeling away and it's kind of like, you know, it's just like whoo kind of suck for you. Yeah, Like I told like with her turn of eighteen, and you know, they were basically like projecting on her, talking to her like, oh girl, you're gonna be eighteen your mama And

she was like, she's like I got one of them. Yeah, she was like she was like, my mama said nothing about me moving out, Like and look, she's starting falling to college and starting college in the falling. Where the fuck is she fing to be? Write in her bedroom, like nothing happened. She just going from fucking the high school to college at this point, Like, I'm not at a point where I want to make her feel like she has to leave when she leaves, I want her to

be fully prepared. Now, that's one thing like with my mom, I was always able to go back home, but she always made me regret it, right because it always seemed like there was an obligation attached to it. There was always some kind of terms or stipulations, like something was always held over my head for it. And it's like that is one thing that I'm actually kind of glad that my mom did because that showed me how not to be with my kids. So no matter what my kids do, like it's

you're not obligated to me for anything. You did not ask me to be here anything that I am doing for you. It is because I want you to succeed and I want you to be better than I am. It's not because I want you to owe me. Like Reid's working now she's eighteen. How many black households because she is eighteen and working even if she wasn't eighteen, because she started working, start playing some of these bills now, Well, you gotta have to start giving me some on the light bill or the

water builder. No, you gotta pay your phone bill now, or you gotta do something else. Like even when my son, my son moved out when he was because he's twenty three now, who moved down when he was almost twenty one? And that's just because he was like, my I'm I'm doing my own thing with some of the stuff that I'm doing dad, you know, tripping on me or whatever. And I'm like, well, you can come over here. Sometimes I said, you can't be here all the

time. I'm like, I'm like you can. I'm like, you can still be here if you want you, Like now, I'm gonna get my own place, okay. But it wasn't something that was forced on him, like you have to go do it so Olive Reese paychecks when she gets paid, they go right into her account and reads cheap, so they go stack that nigga do not like to spend no fucking money around. Look at you like so, But I'm happy for that because she knows how to save money.

And one thing that even with one, there was a point in time because I know how our mothers are. I tried to help one. I had one to move in with me so that he can get a job and actually save his money. I knew that I would be able to cover my rent without him being there. Save your money within a slight little shit like, all right, at least just put some tissue in this motherfucker something. You know, you got a lot more ass than I do. Bro Put

some put some on a charm in my nigga. So my daughter, my daughter had came came home during the pandemic. She had already graduated, and she was staying with my uncle. And my uncle was older, and you know, back then they were like elderly people were more susceptible to the COVID And she was trying to go in and out the house, and they had this conversation where you're like, hey, you need to be still and She's like, I probably just need to go home. I was just come home.

So she came home and stayed with me, and she didn't stay with her mother. She could stay with me, and the stipulation was come home, get yourself. Freddie even decided going to go to grad school whatever, just you know, just stay with me to you figure it out. I ended up dating somebody who had an issue with the fact that I wasn't making her pay for anything like that wasn't the agreement I had, Like, I'm

not gonna renig on the agreement, and and uh, that's projecting. She was probably projecting whatever might have happened to her aunt you because she had to deal with whatever that was. Because the argument on social media is always parents feel like they have to charge their kids to live with them, to teach them responsibility rights. She got like fifteen thousand dollars stage she knows how to do it. She got a cardinal I co signed in the car. She's

she's paying the cardinal. I've never had to worry about that shit. And I gave her her cell phone bill, like you pay your cell phone bill, and she has favorite car assharance. Yeah, she's And I think that was the only thing that I said I might have restart doing, and it's spectrum. It is twenty nine ninety nine a month, just so that she can get used to like paying having a study bill and put somebody on the charman. Oh no, if anybody got to put some on the scharman,

it's fucking jelly. Being the smallest ass in the house, shoes is the most Why hey, I said, the little girls eat tissue. The smallest ass in the fucking house uses all the tissue. Yes, I agree,

yeah, but I do. I really, really really want to be able to provide a foundation for my girls to be able to build off of and be successful and not have to keep looking over their shoulder like, damn without my mama, now, my mama now, without my mama now, or let me hurry if I'm trying to get this money together so I can get out of here, right, because that's how I was because baby on my hip out the house. Um, my mom's sister. She ain't my auntie

no more. Her um every every Christmas, every Christmas. Her Christmas gift to us was fifty dollars savings bobs every Christmas. So I wasn't obviously allowed to spend those I had to let them, you know, acimulate yea, to mature. But because Ship was so bad, like to the point like when my mom like I with my stepping and sh and I'm like, bro, I'm not gonna stay here, like something that I could still been saving

and invest you know, letting build for my future. And ship I took out, I shouldn't cash it in just so I can get my fucking security depositing ship for me to be able to move the fuck out. Yeah, And and I didn't even do it as soon as I turned eighteen, like it just it was it was super I'm like, I can't live here, but like the money that I was making, I'm like, I need my security deposit so that I fucking cash my shit in to get my security deposit.

And then I moved out, ye and then gets who ended up pregnant with re read ended up backfucking home anyway. Yeah, I'd already had my son, so he was just a little bit over one at that time when I moved out, and I was like, I got to get out here. I'm like, y'all just doing too much. Yeah, so I don't want her to feel that she has to leave if she ever gets to a point where it's like, bro, look, I really just want to walk out with my coucie out and have my girlfriend here. I gotta move.

It is what it is. I get it. And that's because I own this. I own this, motherfucker. I can't even walk out with my coucie out with my nigga, you know, just hey, I'm gonna get it quickie by the toaster. I can't do nothing of that because it's always a house full of people here, and I paid for the house. So I think about having joined cust go home right now and just walk around the

way I feel and be okay with it. Ia is responsible. God I'm so jealous, but yeah, uh, hear your traumas, man, so you don't pass them down to your kids and and really really really try to like do better by your kids and your parents did by you. Look at the support that you need as well too, because I'm there are people like myself with our coaches, and that's what we do. We work with people and we are able to assist you with your traumas and things like that as

well. So to go ahead and plug myself no, see, see he'd be put out. Yeah, he rolling the fucking tissue off into the shower and ship, said Chris, and rolling the rolls right into the shower. And if we saw its fuck then he rolls in the balls and chew on it or it's all over the tub and y'all know how hard like wet tissue and ship you got to really scoop that shit up because it'd be sticking. Yeah. So our takeaways from today, like our little therapy session, boy

moms, stop fucking hiding them from responsibilities and accountability. Okay, you can love on them, you can provide them with affection, you can be supportive, but there is some point where you have to realize he has to be a man without me taking over everything. Oh, I mean or douchebags. Don't be a douche No. So one of our Facebook friends, she acts like, what is the white equivalent of bitch ass nigga? Now? I said, cracker ass cracker Now. Unfortunately, I don't know if anybody else

has noticed this, the cracker emoji is no longer available. I noticed that. Yeah, I think because the context in which we were using it. Then the Castrolians. Yeah, so so now we no longer half the other cracker emoji. It might be a castle rowdition pad bucko. You are people you don't call, don't say listen here there's a buck there's a castro. What's what white people love? Buddy too? Oh yeah, I was gonna say that. Look at here, buddy, there it is castle row look

like a burger on the laptop. Yeah, because because if you because if you type, if you type cracker now it brings up like one of them Japanese cracker with seaweed on it. It's a rice cracker, which technically tone calling the rice skin it rice crackers. It's still white people. I told my favorite m h, well, um, we're gonna go ahead and get out of here because I'm tired of these bitch ass niggas fucking crying, like why put me on Sundays for me to do my show my way and then

complain about me doing my motherfucker show my way. So anyway, if you were not able to catch the full show, we will not have a replay, but you can always go on my page and then just scroll and look for tonight's episode Audacity and Full Assery that will be available on my page, or you can always stream on all of your favorite platforms starting on Tuesdays at ten am every single week, well every week that we actually have a podcast, because you're not. So before I go, I'm gonna say I want

to say one more thing about these bitch ass niggas rushing me. Right. Tone said before we came in here that he already knew that it was gonna be a long show because we had to skip last week because the Easter. But yeah, he's still rushing me, So fuck these niggas until next time we got a hope. It wasn't rushing. I was just bitching and moaning. It's different, Well I got rushing. You would I would have kept trying to close the black on appointments. I'm