50. The Blackberry Lemonito Mix-Up

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find some of that goodness little bit better , and I hope that you're able to find some of that goodness . Anywho , I digress . Today's episode oh , it's episode 50 . Oh , I wrote that a while ago so I forgot . It is episode 50 . Or number two , if you're just starting to listen , with season two . But episode 50 , that's a BFD .

Awesome , yay , yay , yay , thanks for making it so that I get to do 50 podcasts , everybody . Okay , season two , episode 50 , accidental Cocktail Okay , so I do not drink . If you'd like more info on that , you can listen to season one , episodes nine and 30 . Go pretty in depth into why I don't drink . Okay , so it was a couple of weeks ago .

Paul and I my husband Paul and I are out with our dear friends celebrating one of their birthdays , and I are out with our dear friends celebrating one of their birthdays . We're at a kind of nice , fancy-ish chain restaurant .

I'm not going to name the name of it because some of you are so fiercely loyal to me that I'm afraid you'd go like try to burn them down if I told you the name . So I'm not going to do that , okay , so we're having birthday dinner with our friends and I ordered something called a Blackberry Lemonito . It's listed as , I think .

I think they call them driving drinks , as in you can drink this and also drive . So my drink was called a Blackberry Lemonito and it consists of lemonade , mint , blackberry puree and Sprite .

Now I knew that I was going to like this drink because when I was drinking , I always ordered the alcoholic version , which is called a blackberry mojito , which is Bacardi , limon , mint , blackberry puree and lime . So my mocktail drive-in drink , blackberry limonito , comes out and it was stunning .

It was a stunning drink , like the colors were beautiful and it was served in a martini glass and you know I do love me some festive drinkware . So , yeah , we're drinking and we're eating . And yeah , and my girlfriend says , hey , could I try your drink ? Because if I like it , then I'm going to get the alcoholic version one . So she tries it .

It was like this is really good . I was like I know right . And the waiter comes back over and asks us if we want to order more drinks and my girlfriend says , hey , I want a 21 plus version of what she's drinking . And he was like what do you mean , 21 plus ? Do you love reading as much as I do ? Then you will love Bookshop .

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And she or I . Somebody said I'm having the non-alcoholic version , she wants the alcoholic version . And he said oh , you wanted non-alcoholic . And I said yeah , and he goes okay , that's the , even drinking the alcoholic version . And I said well , that explains why I'm getting a little bit warm when I have alcohol .

My cheeks , just , they just get flushed immediately . And this poor waiter he is apologizing profusely . He feels horrible . I don't want him to feel horrible because I know that he made I know that he made a mistake .

It's a pretty freaking big mistake , yes , but I know that he made a mistake , you know , and so I'm trying to like sort of lighten the mood and and he's like I'm sorry , I'm sorry , and I'm like , oh , that's okay , I'm not going to have the rest of this and I'm going to call my sponsor right now . Well , he didn't think that was funny .

Well , that's okay , and I don't have a sponsor . So that was just a little joke . So I had gosh three fourths of it . There was maybe only a couple of sips left . So , basically , I had an entire cocktail . Really , honest with you and tell you that I did not notice the taste of alcohol in this drink .

I noticed that it was like a little bit bitter , but I thought that the bitterness was coming from the lemonade . So there was never a moment that I thought is this alcohol ?

I did notice , however , that I was feeling really down , whereas when 30 , when you know , 30 , 45 minutes ago , when I came into the restaurant , I was upbeat , peppy , happy , and now I was just like really low energy , kind of wanted to go home . So he brings me the non-alcoholic version of the drink , and then I noticed the difference .

I was like oh , these are two completely different drinks . They do not taste the same at all . Anyway , all of our drinks that night were comped , so I'm going to say yay to that server . Thank you for making it right , kind of you know , like .

Like he did what he could , I do wonder if it was a different person besides me , if it would have been a bigger issue . Anyway , we had a great rest of the night . You know , I have a little story to tell now . So we say goodbye to our friends and as soon as we walk out the door , I burst into tears , which I was not expecting .

I just I just started tearing up , I started crying and because in that , in that moment when we left the restaurant , I thought do I have to start over ? Do I have to go back to day zero ? I know you love to give unique gifts and my husband , paul , and I have just the solution for you Introducing the Pretty Great Merch Company .

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What does it mean that I just had a drink , but it was accidental , it was unintentional and it was a mistake . And you know , just as soon as I started crying , I stopped Because I realized wait a second , this is a non-issue . It's a non-issue . It's not his fault . Well , it was his fault .

It was his fault , but it was an accident and it's not my fault , so it's a non-issue . I'm not going to restart my counter . It's an honest mistake . I'm not mad at the server , I'm not mad at myself . And by the next day , mad at the server , I'm not mad at myself .

And by the next day I had forgotten all about it , except that I had just the tiniest headache . So it's really made me think in the past couple of weeks since this happened . What else , what other things in my life do ? I think that I've messed up royally .

What are the things that I've thought I've completely screwed up , but it turns out that it's just not an issue , or it's not that big of an issue . What are the things that I blow out of proportion because I have a propensity to do that that are really like I'm not ?

It's just not a thing , it was an accident and I don't need to analyze it any more than it was Like . What are the things ?

And , to be honest with you , I don't know what the other things are right now , but I know I've done it over and over and over again in the past , you know , made things a bigger issue in my brain than the fact that it was just an honest mistake . And when it's an honest mistake , you just you say oopsies , oopsies , gotta move forward , move forward .

And so I'm asking you what are the things in your life now , in the present or in the past , that you are like I totally messed this up ? And it turns out you didn't mess it up at all , it just was a thing that happened and you can , you could say goodbye to it and not let it torture you any longer .

I would love to hear from you if you have anything like that I would love to talk more about that with you . You can always email me at heal and grow with Nikki podcast .

Nikki is spelled N-I-C-K-I-E , and if you happen to be someone who's listening to this and you think that I fell off the wagon and I relapsed and that I need to go back to day zero , I'm going to kindly ask you to screw off , because that's not how I'm working my sobriety . That's not how I'm working my sobriety Yep , that's not how I'm doing it .

And and I get to . I get to work my sobriety how I want to and you get to work yours how you want to . More on that in a future episode , because obviously I'm salty about it . Right ?

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