I hadn't done those Sabbaths like you said, those rest times. And I got fatigued and I got set up for this situation. And most of us don't realize that's what was going on there. We think, oh, we're just taking time. We didn't do it. But the reality of it, he has a plan. And I'm not talking about Jesus Christ. I'm talking about the enemy of God. And he knows that if we get tired out, that we don't have the energy to be able to walk in the authority that's been given to us.
God promises in Joel 2, 28 to pour out His Spirit on all humanity. Welcome to Global Outpouring, where we contend for that promise outpouring. We equip for that outpouring so that we may engage in that very outpouring. I'm Philip Bus. And I'm Sharon Bus. Welcome to the podcast today. This is an exciting episode. You're not going to want to miss this. If you love Dean Braxton, if you love his testimony, you're going to really enjoy this one. This is something fresh, hot off the press.
He has just had an experience where we almost lost him again. If you don't know who Dean Braxton is, he went to heaven for an hour and 45 minutes after he left his body and his body died. And he has had a recent experience where we almost lost him again. He almost got to go home again. But it wasn't his time yet. But he has learned some things through this. God doesn't waste any opportunities to teach us things, even if he doesn't initiate the incident, because he doesn't.
So Dean has been through some things. Now, we were going to have him here with us in November for a seminar on heavenly authority. But he needed to go through this experience to teach him some things about authority. And one of the things that he has learned is the importance of rest to increase your authority. MUSIC Thank you so much for joining us today. Before we get started, we quickly want to encourage you, if you haven't already done so, to go to our website, globaloutpouring.net.
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So it's so good to have you with us again, Brother Dean Braxton. We're so delighted that you're with us. We have just been so blessed by the Lord to get to have a relationship with you here on the planet. When you have had all of these wonderful experiences in heaven in the time that you were there for an hour and 45 minutes when you left your body and it died, I'm overwhelmed really all the time when I think about the privilege that God has given us to have this relationship.
And we know it's going to be an eternal relationship. But while we're here on the planet, we are gleaning so much from you. And I have to confess, I actually quote you all the time. That's true. Yeah, it's true, I really do. Because there's so many things that you have added to our understanding of how things are in heaven and also how things are in the spirit realm here on earth, on the planet that help us to gain ground and to grow in God.
And I really think about it a lot as, and I guess maybe this is an answer to a prayer that I've prayed that Jesus taught his disciples to pray the Lord's prayer and in that is, thy kingdom come, thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. So I've said for years, and I've referenced lots of books about heaven where people have had experiences going to heaven. And I've said, we need to know how it is in heaven so we can live it here on earth. So I think you're an answer to that prayer.
And I just thank God for you and I love you and bless you. Well, thank you. Thank you and Phil, it's a privilege to be able to be on your show and be able to express the things that I experienced with the father in Jesus when I was there with the father in Jesus in heaven. And then also just to tease out some things from the Hebrew and also from the Israelite way of thanking. Again, we're Westerners, we think in a Western way and the Bible is an Eastern book. Very true. Oh wow.
It's a whole different culture. It's a whole different culture. And what I experienced in heaven and we talked about this before, we always say that Israelite or the Hebrew culture, or the Jewish culture, and I really think it's a heavenly culture. And many of the things that they've received in the Old Testament and even in the New Testament that added to the culture that they are today really was given from heaven.
And so they modified it and made it some earthly things with it, but its roots are in heaven. So I saw the roots, I saw the heavenly foundations to a lot of the things that the Jewish people today believe in how they do things. And of course, man's traditions got in the way. Jesus talked about that when he walked on the planet.
But I believe that by me being able to share some of the things I share and you having some of the knowledge you have or know where to get that knowledge from, we can tie the two together and really have a better picture of what really God was meaning really for the Jewish people to have to start off with. It's like the tabernacle, we think about that tabernacle and all the details that were into that tabernacle. And I'm talking about the tent.
I'm not talking about the temple, but I'm talking about the tent. And every one of those details, really the roots were from a heavenly point of view. When Moses was given the details on how to put that together, it was God literally telling him how to do things, but he was referencing things from heaven. We've been told that it's a shadow of things from heaven. And so I think this helps us to see those shadows in a better way of defining what they are.
I wanna really iterate before we go any farther, and Phil know this, I'm an evangelist, okay? And my major goal is to go out and get people to know Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior. By having this experience of dying for one hour and 45 minutes, it opens up so many doors. You guys know that. I have my prayer list, you guys pray for me.
And I get to go into unique areas and be able to share the gospel from this experience that I experienced of dying and going to be with the Father and Jesus for one hour and 45 minutes. And so I just wanna say that to you, to be able to do what I'm doing with you is out of my norm, but it's God's will. Amen. It's God's will that we team up so that I could share some things from this view and you guys can use the platform you have to be able to share with the people that you know in the world.
And so I'm excited about that, but it's not something that if someone says, well, he does this, this, and that, no, that's, I can tell you 80 to 90% of what I do is go into areas. That don't know Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior and tell them what it was like to die and go to be with the Father in Jesus in heaven, saying to people, if you wanna get there, you gotta know Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior. That's how simple that is.
Yes. So I get to do that, but this is a different venue that God is asking me to work with with you guys. And I'm so excited because I want to do this, but this ain't what God called me to do. He's called me to be the evangelist, but he said, I get this little door. I remember I was in your place and he said, you can teach here. I said, yeah. Oh yes. Oh yes. Hallelujah. Oh yes. Oh yes. We were so excited. And it's like we knew, because Pastor Tony Kemp told us that you can go really deep.
Yes. And I was really excited that when you got here, that you could go really deep. And you went a little bit deep the first time you came. It was deep for most people, but I was like hungry for more. There's more. I know there's more. And when you said that the Lord said you could teach here, I was thrilled. I don't have too many places I can do that. There's a few others that I can do it on, but I can count on my hands. I don't have a whole bunch.
There's a few places that God opens up, but my goal is really to go out for those that don't know Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior and bring them into the kingdom of God. And the schools are open for me. Sharon, I got two new high schools that are opening up in California for me and one junior high. So this next year, I get to go into two more high schools to share this and also a junior high to go to, really three. I take that back, three. I forgot there's one up in Sacramento area I get to go.
So I'm excited about that, being able to go into those high schools. And I go into them on a regular basis. It's not a one time and then that's it. I'd seem to go every year to the same high schools. And someone said, you gotta remember, they have new kids every year. Yeah, that's true. That's true. They have new kids every year. And they're thinking of new questions in the meantime, the ones that have heard you before. Oh yeah. So that's good.
And we get people to know Jesus, but I've done so many unique things. I've been on the beach, and shared this gospel on the beach on a pier. I've been in many, many parks throughout my time and where people just have me get up and share in the park. And I know sometimes the crowds are not loud, but big around me, but the speakers are big. That's good. So people are listening to me all over the park, whether they want to or not. Hallelujah.
But that's really something, but I get to do the teaching here. You until know that I went through something just recently. Yes. And I want to go over that and kind of tell you something. It leads to an area that we have been looking forward to me teaching. I was supposed to come out there and teach on authority, the authority that we've really have been given. And I was going to come from a heavenly point of view.
And I believe some of the concepts that I was going to bring out from that was going to free people up to really walk in that authority even stronger than what they know right now. Sometimes we say we're sons and daughters of God. And I don't know if we really know what that really means. And some of that is because we're trying to understand it from an earthly point of view instead of a heavenly point of view.
And because of me being with the Father in Jesus in heaven, I had an insight into looking at that son and daughter of a God really offspring of the Father in a different way of how we have authority on this planet. But before I could even get into that, I think and I've got something down and ready to go, but I had this unique experience just recently. I almost went home to be with the Father in Jesus again, die as you know, through septus. Can you believe that?
Through the same method that I went the first time, here it goes again, which lets me know that the enemy of God or you come Satan, the devil, didn't change his plan on how he's gonna try to get me off the planet. Well, we were all saying no. Yeah. Yeah, that's right. One person asked me, well, Dan, if you got that close, did you kind of say God let me know? No, because I had responsibilities here on the planet. And I understand those responsibilities.
And I want as many people to know Jesus as possible on the planet. There's places like we just talked about, I get into because of this story that other brothers and sisters don't get into because that's the story that God hasn't given them to be able to open up those doors. And I take that very seriously, as you both know. But in this process of going through this, it was a 10 year to 15 year setup. And I don't think we realized that the enemy of God has plans for us.
And it's like when Jesus walked the planet and you heard the statement after he tried to tempt him and after the 40 days in the wilderness and then he was tempted by the enemy of God or Satan. Remember after that, he said, then he looked for a more opportunity time. And it's like, we kind of don't realize that in our own lives, the enemy of God is looking for a more opportunity time, whether that's three months from now or 15 years from now. He is looking for that opportunity time.
And this year in 2024, I was set up for that more opportunity time. But he'd been working on it for, I'd say 10 to 15 years. Okay, 10 to 15 years. And I think I shared this with you and Phil, but I wanna go in more detail. This will leave into that authority piece, okay? But what really got me was this, and I kind of learned this because I had to end up in the hospital for five days. So people that are listening to me, I ended up in the hospital.
But that was at the end of a strategy of the enemy of God, for 10 to 15 years. He waited 15 to 10 years so that he could do this strategy this year. Wow. And most of us don't look at it that way because we look at the short term. And again, he's in it for the long term. We know where he's gonna end up, you know what I mean? In the lake of fire. We know that. Long term. We understand that, but he doesn't think that. You know, a lot of times we think, he doesn't look at truth like we think.
He thinks his lies are true. So we find that out even in our world. We got people today that can lie like anything and think they're telling the truth. Yeah. You know, our politicians, we can see that in a lot of them, you know what I mean? But I'm not gonna get into that. But listen to this. So here it is. About every four years from the time I had that first incident, I would get kidney stones again. Okay? And they were bad.
Then the next time I got those kidney stones, I remember going to the hospital. And as I went to the hospital, I got stuck in the hospital. No, right? And I ended up being in there for more days than I want. Matter of fact, you know, I remember I had to get out. I told myself, I gotta get out of here. I'm getting sick. Yeah, sick people go to the hospital. Yeah. And what happened was this. This was the thing about, I told them the whole incident the first time.
And when I told them the whole incident the first time and how my heart stopped, you know, I had cardiac arrest and all that stuff, all of a sudden, that was the worst thing I could have told them. Because now they're gonna make sure that everything is good. They got me on the heart monitoring machine. They put me on the floor with the heart people. They make sure everything. So I get stuck in the hospital. Oh no. And I remember the doctor said, well, we're gonna make sure you're okay.
I think I stayed that time anywhere from about a week to almost two weeks in the hospital. Oh my. And I thought, oh man, I gotta get out of here. And I got stuck. So I got out and then, okay, doing really good. This is the enemy. You gotta see how he set me up. Because I'm no longer in there for kidney stones. I'm in there for heart condition that I don't have. I'm in there for other things that I never even had. Because they wanna make sure that everything is good.
And so then I get out of that situation. And about four years later, here it goes again. And this time I'm in Illinois. I remember going to a hospital, St. Francis Hospital there in Illinois in Peoria. And so it was like, and I get stuck again. I get stuck there. Because I open my mouth and tell them about my heart condition. So they're gonna make sure my heart's okay. And there all this stuff. And I get stuck there. God did use that for good. I'm not saying he got me in there.
But I did get to talk to a nurse that recommitted her life back to the Lord and also her husband. And her dad had been a minister. So that was really a blessing in that sense. But I'm not saying God put me in there. All things work together for good to them. They love God to them. They're called according to purpose. And God used that and I got to bless somebody. So I don't want nobody to think God put me in there. He got me sick and I was there.
No, I was there and God said, okay, since you're here, we're gonna do this. Okay? So then I'm thinking every time I have one of these, I end up getting stuck in the hospital. And then a few years later, here it goes again. Getting the kidney stone. And I go to the, and I get stuck again. All right? So there's three times after that. And then this last time. This last time, which was July the 6th, I think it was. I was just came back from the 4th of July on the 5th. And I went to visit friends.
And then all of a sudden I wake up that morning. I have pain on the side and I know what it is. So I go to the emergency room and I go to the hospital and they give me medication that lowers my count of blood in the sense of fighting infections. And I get stuck for four days. Okay. And I'm supposed to, that's like on a Sunday and I'm supposed to be in upstate New York at an event that's outside. This guy put it on and it's really in this rich area of New York reaching these people.
Mary, I told you, you'll get the unique opportunity. I remember one of the people that I got to talk to belongs to the Kennedy family. You know what I mean? And so I got to share with her about my experience of going to be with the Father in Jesus in the group. And then she talked to me later on, you know? And so it was really something, Sharon. Here I am being set up and thinking every time I go to the hospital, I get stuck.
And I vowed at that moment, I will never go to the hospital again and get stuck. That's what I said to myself. I had vowed it. I'd said to Mary, I said, Mary, next time it happens, I'm not, but you gotta think, every time after that, I got stuck. It wasn't the kidney stone that was the issue no more. It was something else and they kept me in there. And someone said, well, why didn't you get up and leave? I did not want to end up paying for something I didn't have to pay for.
My insurance was gonna pay for it. I'm serious. And I was thinking, if I left earlier, they would say, you left without medical advice, we ain't paying for it. Do you understand? Yeah, yeah. And you guys, when I would look at the bills, they would be in the hundred thousand all the time. You know, a hundred thousand for this, a hundred thousand for that. So it was a lot of money that was taking care of me, doing that, you put yourself on the heart machine and heart thing, they're gonna cost.
Do you understand? Oh my, oh my, oh my. So I didn't want to burden my wife with that issue of that money, to be honest with you. And so I knew my insurance at the time would pay for it. And they did. And you know, we have great medical insurance. It pays for everything. I don't have a bill right now because it pays for everything. Thank you, Jesus. Because I'm a retired military and it pays part of it. And then now I'm over 65. So you got Medicare, which would pay a part of it.
So where Medicare leaves off, the military pays the rest. So I'm not getting any bills, okay? But I don't want that hundred thousand dollars be a burden to my wife. So here it is. That's the main reason I always went through with this stuff. I just didn't want that he left without medical advice and we're not paying him. So here it is. I get this next time and you guys know the story. You know, I ended up with a Foley as they call it.
Marilyn says I need to say that word because I don't pronounce the other word correctly. Which is, you know, something inside of you to help you pee. So that you know, in a bag. Yeah, Catherine. Yeah, she said I don't say that right. You say Foley, I'll say Catherine for you so everybody understands. And I ended up with bag. And you guys know this. I go out and I ministered that night in that environment. I got out on a Thursday. I got on a plane on a Friday.
And I was not gonna let this stop me from going to minister to those people up there in upstate New York. I can't imagine. And it wasn't just the upstate New York. I did that. I flew on Friday. And then I went and did that Friday night. And then Saturday I had a meeting. Sunday I had a meeting. Monday I had a meeting. Tuesday I'm in Vermont. I had a meeting. It was supposed to be out of park but it got called off because of the rain. And so I'm in the church. And then I drive back.
And then we go back the next day again and do another meeting in Vermont. So I'm doing meetings, okay, doing that whole week. And I come out and I'm thinking, okay, they're gonna take this Foley out. What do you call it? Catheter. Okay. I'll make it. Yeah. Foley. And so the next thing you know, they don't take it out because they say I can't pee. No longer is it the kidney so much as it's my prostate. My prostate's larger. It's closing off things. I cannot pee.
So the next thing I do is that I literally meet you guys at the conference there with Tony. You know what I mean? And do that conference. And no one knows that I'm going through this discomfort or anything like that. But I'm there ministering and doing what I'm supposed to do and God's helping me. Of course you have the anointing on you. And when you have the anointing on you, you don't have a lot of discomfort. You know?
I remember one of the times when I had a kidney stone there in Illinois, which I tell you about, I was ministering in an American Baptist church and 42 people came to know Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior. Well, I'm going through the discomfort of this kidney stone. Oh my. You know? Wow. But I'll be honest with you, the time I got up to minister, the pain was not there. And when I finished, the pain came back. Yeah, that's how it works. So here it is.
I'm thinking, okay, we're gonna get the kidney stone taken care of, which they did. They went in and got it out when I came back. They are gonna go back in and take the stent out, to take the folio out and I'm gonna be okay and I'm gonna be able to move. You know, that's what I'm thinking. So after they did the kidney stone, three days later, I go in and they literally take the stent out and the folio out. And I'm thinking, okay, it's done. I'm done with it, okay? And that night I get sick.
Don't know what's going on, but I'm sick. I'm in chills. Marilyn said I shook the bed so hard she had to get up because she couldn't lay next to me. And that night, this is the thing I wanna get to about the authority of God. This is where it is. Remember I'm being set up 10 to 15 years. This is his plan. I'm coming to understand that. I couldn't have told you this before. I would have just said the authority of God, but we've gotta understand something.
Sometimes those plans that we just have happen in our lives right now, the enemy of God has been setting them up for years. He's getting us to think a certain way so that we could fall into his trap. You understand I'm talking about? He was looking for a more opportunity time to attack me. He had not changed his way of that, wow, you're gonna get me. That was, he got me. He wasn't gonna have me shot. He wasn't gonna have me ran over by a car. He wasn't gonna have me crash in a car.
You understand what I'm talking about? He's gonna do the same way he tried to do the last time, his receptors and my body being poisoned. So here it is. And that night before I go in the hospital, I'm shaking like anything and I'm cold. I'm going through this and I don't know what's going on to be honest with you. I've never experienced that before. Not even with a flu had I experienced all that stuff. So then I look up and I see the spirit.
I see the demonic spirits and I'm not seeing them in what we call the spiritual realm. I'm seeing them in this realm and they're just floating above Maryland and they're above my wife and there's a whole bunch of them and they're moving around and everything. And I'm telling them to go. I'm saying, go in the name of Jesus. You can't have her because I think they're after her because they're over on that side of the bed. Oh, okay. And I'm thinking, you gotta go in the name of Jesus.
You can't have her. I'm telling them to go and they're not going. And I remember even saying to myself, why aren't they going? That's what I said to myself. Why aren't they going? And then all of a sudden, I'm still saying it and they fade away. They don't go away. They fade. They like, they fade. You know how like you watch TV and it fades away? That's what happens. Well, I'm thinking, okay, they're gone.
That morning I wake up and I go to the doctor and Marilyn has taken my temperature that night and she said you had 103 temperature. And when she told the nurse, she said, why didn't you go to the emergency room? I'm thinking, I don't wanna go to the emergency room. Okay. Okay. Cause every time I go to the emergency room, they put me in the hospital. And I don't wanna go to the hospital. And she said, well, I'm gonna call the doctor soon. They say, well, they tell me to go to the emergency room.
And I tell that nurse at the time, I am not going to the hospital. I don't care what they say. I am not going to the hospital. Okay. That's what I tell her. Then the next thing you know, I come home and I'll tell you what I did. I took my time. I came home, took a good shower, make sure everything was clean. And Marilyn said, you're kind of procrastinating, aren't you? I said, yeah. Cause I'm not going to the hospital.
And she kind of says it where I know I gotta go because she has a tone in her voice. It's like, we gotta go. You know what I mean? She didn't say you gotta go, but the tone said we gotta go. So I said, okay. So we go up there, she drives in there. She does the driving and we get there. And I get into the emergency room and I tell them, well, I'm here for this reason. You know all the things they do. And they take me back in the back.
And when the doctor comes in the room, I say to the doctor, I am not going to the hospital. I'm not going. I don't care what you guys say. I don't care how you say it. I'm not going. Cause then I told him, I said, I get stuck every time I go. You guys do something wrong and I get stuck. I'm telling them that. And he said, well, we're gonna try to get you to go home, but I don't think you can because you're looking bad. And I don't know how bad I'm looking. You know what I mean?
The poison is going through my body. I'm septic. You know what I mean? Things are going right. I don't know how bad it is. I still got the chills. I'm still not feeling good, but I don't know how bad it is cause I've got one thing on mine. I am not going to the hospital. That's what I have in my mind. And they're not gonna trick me into the hospital. That's what I kept on thinking. You're not gonna trick me. You're not gonna trick me. I'm not going cause you guys always mess up when I go.
So about two hours later, the doctors said, Dean, there's no way I can send you home is you're really bad off. You know, and I'm thinking, I'm not going. I'm not going. And I hear the Holy Spirit. This is where this authority comes in really big time. I hear the Holy Spirit says, do what he says. That's what I hear the Holy Spirit says. And I think to myself, he said it, I'm gonna do it. I trained myself, Sharon and Phil, to obey the Holy Spirit the first time he tells me to do something.
That's a good idea. Okay, if you're gonna walk in the authority of God, you've gotta respond the first time, not the second, third or fourth time. Because the authority, this is a little key for somebody. The authority is in the first response, not the second, third or fourth time. Wow, that's powerful. That's powerful. Take a note. Yeah, so I share that with you because I have trained myself and where I got this from, to be honest with you, is when I was with the Father and Jesus in heaven.
And Jesus would tell the angels there, he would communicate with them and they would bow before him. Remember, we talked about this before. They would bow before him and leave. There was no discussion, there was no debate, there was nothing. And because they did that, they were in the authority of Jesus Christ, literally, to go and accomplish what Jesus wanted them to do. Very good. So I came to understand when I came back to the planet, I needed to respond quickly.
Because you know what non-responding is really? And I've heard purpose say, oh, I'm trying to be humble. No, it's rebellion. And you know what rebellion is? Witchcraft. It's witchcraft. You just invited the demons to come with you, whether you realize it or not by rebellion. You know? Wow, wow. But I had trained myself. So when I heard him say to me, no, do what the doctors say, you know what I'm saying? I did not question it.
So when the doctor came back in the next time, I said, I'm doing exactly what you say. And he said, well, I'm sending you to the hospital. Okay? Yeah. You know how they call it a monkey wrench? See, Satan had a plan. And the plan was to set me up not to go to the hospital. Yeah. Not to go and get the antibiotics I needed. Listen, I wasn't calling people to say pray for me. Marilyn was doing it. You understand what I mean?
And the reason I wasn't calling people to pray for me is I no longer had the energy to be able to go in that direction. Wow. You know, this is the setup. Here's some more of the setup. I had been moving physically from the third week of February all the way up to that moment. There was no rest time in between. And the rest times that I thought I would have, some people, they'd say, well, you were doing all this stuff. I've done that before. But I always put rest times in it.
The first time I was supposed to have a rest time, I remember coming home on a Monday, getting in the plane on a Tuesday and flying out to be with my daughter, okay? And my grandson, you know, and that was around Mother's Day and not having any rest because you know how it is with the grandchildren. You're not resting. That's true. Wow. And so I didn't have any physical or emotional rest during that timeframe.
Yeah. The next time I was supposed to have some rest, a friend of mine had went to Europe and he went to Italy, okay? And he asked me to come down. I may have told you and Phil this. He asked me to come down and take care of his farm and they breed dogs. So what I was doing was down there washing out kennels. You understand? I mean, feeding dogs, making sure they were okay. I wasn't resting. There was no rest there. Mentally or physically, there was no rest.
And then the last time that I was supposed to have rest was around the 4th of July. I used to take two weeks off for this stuff, you guys. I didn't have those two weeks, you know, to be able to rest. Physically rest, you know, and emotionally rest, okay? And so what the next thing I did was when the 4th of July came on, Marilyn wanted to go visit some friends. So we went and visited our friends in Shelbyville, Tennessee. It doesn't matter where I go, I'm gonna be taxed.
People are gonna ask me questions. I'm gonna minister. You know, when I'm around people, that's just the way it's gonna be. And then when I came back on the 5th of July, from there is when the 6th of July hit and that's when I had the kidney stomp. But I was set up physically and emotionally not to have the energy to be able to fight. Yeah, that's true. You know, and so what happened after that is that I was set up. So here it is, he's got this 15 year plan.
Physically he wears me down this year. And it wasn't the meetings. People keep on thinking, you did too many meetings. No, it was, I didn't rest during the times I could rest. People keep on saying, I knew this was gonna happen to you because look at all these meetings. No, I had rest times in there. I did not rest. That's where I messed up at. If I would have mentally took those two weeks off that I usually do, I would have been okay. But I was not resting during that time frame.
And I don't mean I would be okay without the, I mean, I would have been able to recognize and use the authority that was given to me, listen to what I just said, okay? In this realm through my body and my soul. Somebody better grab what I just said there. Cause we always talk about the spiritual side of it, but there's the body authority and there's the soul authority also. That's a whole different thing. Okay. And we have that on the planet.
Okay. I'll go into that in more detail some other time. But someone's grabbing it right now. Somebody's understanding what I just said. Oh boy, I wanna go and teach on that, but I can't. But just, if you really wanna know soul and body authority, you have to read in the first chapter of Genesis. You just have to read it. It's there. Yeah. And it was given when the spiritual authority was given also. And God never took it away. So that's a whole different thing. But most of us don't line it up.
And I found that out during this process. So here I am and I end up in the hospital. I find out how bad it really is. I'm dying. I'm literally dying. You know, the poison is going through my body. My wife comes over to the side of my bed and says, don't leave me, honey, don't leave me. That's how bad it was. You know what I mean? She could recognize I was dying, physically dying at that moment. And I didn't realize how bad it was. I text one friend, I said, pray for me. I know it's demonic.
I knew it was demonic. I didn't have the energy to fight off the demonic anymore. I didn't. I was fatigued. And so I text one person, said, find the people you can and fight it off for me. So I had to tag somebody else. You know, like you get into the rattle wings and they tag. I had to tag someone else to do the fighting for me because I was fatigued at the moment. But I was set up. Okay. I was set up by the enemy of God. So the next thing you know, this is what they got me.
That night they do the antibiotics. If I had not gone to the hospital, if I had stuck with my stubbornness, I wouldn't have been on the planet the next day. Yes, I would have been with Jesus. Yes, I would have been rejoicing with him. Don't get me wrong. All right. But God has put me on the planet for a purpose, to fulfill his purpose. And I know sometimes we think, well, it's a countenance that man wants to die and did the judgment. And we take that out of context. That was Jesus Christ.
He died for everyone once so that we don't die. People don't realize we never die. Our body dies, but we don't die. And it's eternal thinking. And most of us haven't got to that eternal thinking. And because we haven't got to eternal thinking, we don't understand the eternal authority that we have. And the rest of us. Wow. I want to ponder on that one. And so here it is. I'm physically and emotionally out of it. And the most I could do is text one person and say, battle for me.
And they went to battle for me. It got other people to battle for me. All right. And because they battled along with Maryland, getting people to battle for me, I make it through the night. I make it through the night. Okay, because I was dying, literally dying. And so the next day comes and the doctor comes in there and they say, hey, yeah, you're looking better now. Like they got it in time.
Praise God. If I literally would have held off one day, when you guys be talking about me at a memorial service or something like that. Okay. But this was a 15 year strategy, 10 to 15 year strategy. People got to realize what I'm saying here. Some of the people out here right now listening to this, and you think this is something that's they just, no, he's been planning this for years. Wow. Wow. You know? So here it goes.
I didn't find out that I'm headed in the right direction because he said, do what the doctor says. I'm in agreement with them on everything. They tell me to take this. I take this. They tell me that. That's what he told me to do. And I'm doing exactly what they said. And when the doctor comes to us, yeah, yeah, we got you at a certain level and you're headed in the other direction, but you were really bad off.
To this day, even when I go to the medical people, they still say, well, you were really bad off. I don't know how bad it was, but medical people know how bad it was. But then that night, I'll be honest with you, I'm repenting. And the second night I'm in there, I'm repenting. I'm crying. I'm saying, Lord, forgive me. And the reason I'm asking them to forgive me is because I told him I'd stay here at least until I was 95 to fulfill my purpose if that's what he wants.
But I didn't do my part to make sure that that was gonna happen. Oh, that's key. You know what I mean? That's key. So I'm talking to them and I'm repenting, I'm crying. I'm crying like a baby, to be honest with you. They're asking them to forgive me. I love the Lord. So it wasn't because I wouldn't have gone to heaven. It wasn't that he didn't love me, but I felt like I had failed him in not doing what I should have done. I should have took those rest times, number one.
I should have ate better, number two. He came to me two months earlier and this is what he said to me. You can eat food to live or you can eat food to die. Ooh. Wow. He said that to me. You know? Wow. Then I have a choice, either to eat food that's gonna help me stay healthy on the planet or I gotta eat food that's gonna kill me. You guys know it. I mean, there's food that we can eat today that killed us, literally. Sure. You know? It makes us weaker. It makes our immune system weaker.
Yeah. It reminds me of a story that our friend Claren McQueen told us about Derek Prince. Oh, yeah. And how the Lord spoke to him. I don't know how old he was when the Lord said this. He said, I have plans for you for many years to come, but unless you change the way that you eat and the way you exercise, your body will not endure to be able to do all the things I have planned for you. Yeah. And I remember that someone had said it was on display, some health food convention.
They had a Twinkie there that was eight years old. Unchanged. It still didn't, unchanged. Yeah. Yeah. There's some bad foods. There's some things that you... Yeah. Well, that's what he told me two months earlier that I needed to do that. That was in May. I remember when he said it, you know? And that's gotta be him because I don't come up with phrases like that. Yeah, right. And the devil wouldn't tell you that either. No, the devil wouldn't tell me that.
So here I am crying and I'm just asking him to forgive me and everything. And then he says something to me which really has changed my life, period. He says, you've given me your spirit 100%. That's what he said to me. You work at giving me your soul 100%. I read my Bible, I pray. You understand what I mean? I fast. There's things that I do for my soul to bring it into alignment. All right? But this is what he got me. And even telling you kind of gets me a steel. But you never gave me your body.
Wow. You know? That's what he told me. And I repented. I said, father, forgive me. You're right. I've never, ever, ever given you my body. I've given you all those other two, you know? Even when I came back, because I always talk about how the flesh is evil and you gotta overcome the flesh. But I never, ever gave him my body. I never. And at that moment I said, okay, I'm gonna give you my body. It's yours. That's what I said to him. It's your body. You know?
And we'd say the temple of the Lord, and I read those scriptures and everything, but I never, ever gave him my body. Some of you need to give him your body. And then he'll tell you what to do with his body. Oh, that's good. I hadn't thought of it that way. Because even the walking the authority that I'm talking about, you have to take care of his body. Yes. Bottom line. So this is what really got me.
A friend of mine that I talked to through mostly texts, I maybe seen him two times in my entire life being on the planet. You know, we've known each other for about six years now. Well, he's a chaplain in that system there. So he comes to see me. You know what I mean? And as he comes to see me, his name is Steve. I say, Steve, how you doing? How do you keep yourself healthy? What do you do to keep yourself? And he said something that was revolutionizing in my thinking.
He said, Dean, there's sometimes I just asked the Holy Spirit what I should eat. And I'd say to myself, I never, ever thought about that. Yeah. Make Jesus Lord over what you put in your mouth. Yeah. And then sometimes he just says, I just said to the Lord, what should I eat? And the Lord tells you what to eat. Guess what I've been doing? I've been doing that. Yeah. Oh, praise God. That's good. You know, I've been doing what the Holy Spirit says. I've been eating like the Holy Spirit says.
They were gonna give me high blood sugar medicine. Oh yeah. Yeah. They wanted to give me that and I didn't want it. I didn't want to take it. Okay. And me and the doctor the other day was talking and she said, but your levels are up. And I said, you know, I was in the hospital and she said, well, they gave you this. So when I left out of there, she said, I'm going to prescribe this medicine for you and you need to take it. That's what she told me. And I'll be honest with you, I'm gonna take it.
Cause I told the Lord I'd do exactly what they say. And I was trying to talk to her and said, well, how do I get off of it? Cause I don't want to take it. Yeah. You know, I want to do healthy. And she said to me, you can get off of it, but I could tell she didn't think I could really get off. All right. So then I'm checking my records the other day and I'm seeing that she said, no, I don't need the medicine. And then I went down and looked at it and my blood sugar was way down.
I think, thank you Jesus. Hallelujah. But I've been doing what Jesus said. I've been eating like he tells me to eat. That's good. You know what I mean? So now I don't have to have that medication due to the fact that I don't have that problem. Is that good news? Is that good news? That is very good news. And that's before I even took it that they found out because she took some blood because she was adamant.
I mean, she was, me and her, she was crying about it, but we were kind of going back and forth. And then, because I didn't want to take it. Yeah. So I was going to do exactly what they said because I was going to say, kid, I'm rebooting this body. I'm getting as healthy as I can. I'm getting off everything they ever gave me. Good. I'm not taking any of it. So here's the scripture. Can I read it to you? Sure. That really has come out to me. It's found in 1 Thessalonians 5.23.
I'm reading it out of the Amplified Bible because I love the way it says it. And I'm going to read it in a way that I have put it down for myself. OK? Now may the God of peace himself sanctify you, Deen. I put my name in there. Through and through. That is separate you, Deen, from profane and vulgar things. Make you, Deen, pure and whole and undamaged. Consecrate to him. Set apart for his purpose. Listen to this. And may your spirit, Deen, I got on it. That's my spirit.
And your soul, Deen, I got on that. And body, Deen, be kept complete. Be found blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. Amen. It covers all three areas. Yes. You know? Yes. My body has to be put in that just as much as my soul and my spirit. Yes. Can I add you something on that? Go ahead. The word where it's talking about your whole spirit, soul, and body, that word in the Greek is holocleros.
And I'm just going to read to you from the lexical aids to the New Testament that's in the back of my Bible. It's a Hebrew Greek key study Bible. And the word holocleros comes from two words. The one is holos, which means all or whole, and cleros, which means apart or share. So this word holocleros means whole, having all its parts. Sound, perfect. Listen to this. That which retains all which was allotted to it at the first. Yeah. Wanting nothing for its completeness.
Bodily, mental, and moral, and tireness. It expresses the perfection of man before the fall. And then it goes on to say the holocleros is one who has preserved or who having once lost has now regained his completeness. So that's what you're in the process of doing. And the holocleros, no grace, which ought to be in a Christian man, is deficient. Yeah. So you're in the process. God is doing it. That wholeness. He's collecting parts that you lost along the way.
Yes. So that I could walk in the authority that he's given me from the beginning. This is powerful. That's where we lose it at, I think. I think sometimes we want to be healed. But we want to keep in the same pattern that we were in before. It's like, I want to be healed, but I don't want to change anything. Yeah. Oh, ouch. Hallelujah. People love their ice cream and cake. I remember years ago, and you guys know David Hogan. I used to listen to him a whole lot back in the day.
And he tells a story of how he kept on going over this one guy's house down there in Mexico, and the guy would be healed. And then one time, he didn't make it in time for the guy to be healed. You know what I mean? And the guy died. But it was like the guy never changed his self, and he got sick again. And he'd go back, and he'd get healed by David Hogan. And then he'd call out to him, and we do that with Jesus.
And Jesus is really saying he wants our body just as much as he wants our soul and our spirit. And I found this out the hard way, you guys, by almost leaving the planet. The first time I left the planet and I got septus, it was real quick. I didn't have to go through any of the discomfort that substance really causes. Do you understand what I mean? The second time, I wasn't going out quick. You understand what I mean? There was a lot of discomfort and pain that was involved.
And the sad thing about it is it didn't just happen that day in the hospital. I was really in that mode for a whole month. So a lot of the discomfort I was feeling in my body and the pain I was feeling, believing in healing, don't get me wrong. And God would help things, but I wasn't changing anything. So I believe for us to walk in that fullness of authority, and I'll go into this even more as time goes on, we have to have all three of those in line.
I was in a school speaking to high school kids, and it was a football group of kids. And the Lord gave me a message to give to them. And it was about your team. And from their point of view, I had told them that they had gotten their physical body together. And they exercised, they did all the things. But they also had to get their soul together, which was their emotions and things. And they also had to get their spiritual piece together.
And I said, you cannot have a complete team unless all three are working together. Now, ironically, I didn't even know at that time when I was telling them. I'm thinking I got my team together because I got the spiritual and the soul together. And God said, you leaving out the body. For them, they had gotten the body together, but they were leaving out the soul and the spirit. Do you guys hear what I just said? Yes, yes, that's powerful.
And he wants our team, all three of us, the being that we are, to be operating. Yes, and our flesh does act up. But if your spirit is strong, it tells your body, it can show that's authority over your own body. Is that good news? Is that good news? That is very good news. But it also tells you what to do with that body. And I am in the process of getting there. So this is where I'm at.
I'm learning, this is why I kind of pushed off, maybe, some of the training on the authority because there's deeper things here that I gotta bring out. Because as I'm sharing with you guys, I'm seeing all kinds of things in heaven right now that are opening up to me. When I was there and Jesus was literally communicating to those angels and telling them to leave and they would bow, I saw the bow and the respect and all that stuff.
But now I'm seeing the authority that he was giving them as they were leaving. You understand what I mean? And the thing that really got me is, I say it this way, and you probably saw some of the words, when we say in the name of Jesus, I now say in the authority of Jesus. Because that's all you're saying when you say in the name of Jesus. But I say that out loud in the authority of Jesus.
I don't know about you, if you were just to say it now in the authority, there's a power that comes just saying it. Yes. Hallelujah. Yes. Yes, amen. Because he said all authority is given to me in heaven and in earth in Matthew 28. So yeah, it makes perfect sense. But I love what you're bringing about how our authority has to do with our obedience really. So if we're obedient, we're walking in his authority. If we're being disobedient. Full authority, yeah.
Because Sharon, you can have some authority with you. You understand what I mean? Yeah. But it's not the fullness of the authority. It's not to complete the authority. Yeah. Maybe you're putting down one layer, I don't use a road as an example. If you'd see how they make roads, they smooth it out. They have the authority or the equipment to do the first layer, okay? They have the equipment to do the second layer. But the final layer, they don't have the equipment to do it. Oh, okay.
And I believe a lot of times when we're walking in the authority of God, it's like, here's an example. When Peter walked on the water, why did he sink? He was walking in the authority that Jesus wants in the hand, but he only could go so far with that authority because that's all he had. So he couldn't go to the next level, which was here's the waves, here's everything else. He didn't understand that he could tell the waves to stop. Oh, there you go. There you go.
So he's seeing the waves and what does he do? He gets frightened and he starts sinking. Yep. Yep, fear will rob you. Yeah. So you're seeing that happen with a lot of people. We literally have layers of authority that we understand, but we don't understand the fullness of the authority we have. Yeah, yeah. And Jesus Christ says, we not only have the authority on this earth, but we have authority in heaven. Right. Yes, amen. Hallelujah.
I mean, I wish you get everybody on this planet that's a born again could understand how heaven reacts to when they walk in the fullness of their authority. Wow. So they're watching. Oh, they're watching and they're ready to react. It's like, come on, just do that way and I do it. You know, it's like Gideon, you know, when the angels said mighty man of valor, that was the full authority of who Gideon was. Wow. Took a little while. Because in walking, yeah, it took them a while to realize that.
But Jesus Christ has made that a shorter thing. Yeah. You know? Yeah. And we have a helper to help us even how to walk in that authority. It's called the Holy Spirit. Yes. Yes. You know, me and Marilyn have been given money to buy a house recently. So we were talking to some people and they said, well, you should take that money and invest it in this and invest it in that and do this with it and do that with it. And then you'll have money and you could go back and buy the house.
And it sounds really good. All right. But when I was done talking to the person, I looked at Marilyn later on, I said, but God didn't give us the money to invest. He gave it to us for the house. Come on. Yep. Come on. You understand what I mean? Do what you're told. So we got to put it into the house. Yeah, it sounds good to do the other thing. Then I think that's what happens to us sometimes. We get sidetracked with something that God has told us to do and we think we could do it better.
Yes. Yeah. Wow, wow, wow. But if we just do what he says. Just doing says, here's another scripture. These things I speak over myself every day. This one I thought was really cool. I'll read it to you. And then we probably have to wrap it up there because I could keep on going with you guys. We have such a great time. And the good thing about it, we got these scheduled out. So we'll probably be doing this again and again and again. Is that good news? Is that good news? Amen. I love it.
I do, yeah. I want to read this thing and I say it for myself. Remember Dean, okay? It's found in Proverbs 16, 20 and I'm reading out of the Passion Bible. One skilled in business discovers prosperity but the one who trusts in God is blessed beyond belief. Wow, beautiful. I like that because I think I have a belief on how much I'm gonna be blessed. Amen. And it's telling me that God's gonna bless me and man beyond that. Amen. Amen. And so when I told her, I said, we got to trust in God.
He gave us the money to buy the house. Yes. And yes, we could invest it and they could do this, this and this. But the reality of it is we got to trust in him and it'll be beyond anything we can believe. Amen. Amen. Well, I just want to make a couple of comments about what you've been bringing about what the Lord has dealt with you about. I mentioned Claren McQueen earlier. He told us a story a number of years ago. He was having issues from time to time, just getting sick.
And he took it to the Lord and the Lord said, it's because you're not giving me your Sabbath. Yeah. He's a music minister. So whenever everybody else is enjoying their Sabbath, he's working. And so he wasn't getting a day of the week. God designed us to work six days and rest one. Yeah. And when he began to keep a Sabbath, and I'm not saying you have to keep it on Saturday or you have to keep it on Sunday.
I believe there's a principle of Sabbath that we give God a seventh day as a rest day, wherever you start your count. I don't think it's as big a deal to God as we make it to be in the arguments that we have over whether it's supposed to be Saturday or Sunday. That's my personal take. But I'm reminded of when Israel was sent into captivity in Babylon for 70 years. It was because they had not kept the every seven years you let your land rest. Yeah, yeah.
And so for 490 or whatever the number was, they had not been keeping it. So God let the land rest for 70 years to make up for those Sabbaths that they didn't keep. Yeah. And what happens to us so many times is if we do not rest, God will see to it that something happens that will make us rest and catch up. That's just not an Old Testament principle. You know, that's for us. It's the way we were designed.
Yeah. We were designed this way that six days you shall labor and do all your work and rest on the seventh day. And it's interesting to me, this may be controversial. Maybe we'll have to edit it out. But it's interesting to me that in the entire Old Testament where the law was given about the Sabbath rest, there is no place that says you're supposed to go to a synagogue to rest. Yeah. It's not there.
That was a principle that came when they came back from Babylon and now they're gonna be really careful about keeping the law. And that's where Phariseeism developed. I'm not saying that if you gather it's fair cycle, that's not what I'm saying at all. But what I'm saying is, here's how I interpret it for me. I'm gonna rest on Saturday because Sunday isn't restful for me. Yeah. It's not. We go to church and it's a really long day and you know, it's not restful. And that's where I was at.
That's where I was at too. I hadn't done those Sabbaths like you said, those rest times. And I got fatigued and I got set up for this situation. Yeah. And most of us don't realize that's what was going on there. We think, oh, we're just taking time. We didn't do it. But the reality of it, he has a plan. And I'm not talking about Jesus Christ. I'm talking about the enemy of God.
And he knows that if we get tired out, that we don't have the energy to be able to walk in the authority that's been given to us. That is huge. Amen. That is huge. And maybe we can go into that a little bit more the next time. Yeah. If I say it, we have to do it because people will be listening to this one, looking forward to the next one. Yeah. So is it true for me to say that our authority relies on our rest? It does. It really does. And the fullness of the authority.
Okay. And I say that because I'm in the process of going over again, God's generals and listening to the different men of God and women of God. And Marie Woodward Etter probably had the best out of all of them so far in the sense of resting and taking time off. You know what I mean? If you go back and look at her story, the rest of them, they wore themselves out. Physically wore themselves out to the point that they could not fight spiritually because their body was too weak. Interesting.
Yes, very interesting. That's how many of them fell. So really it's obedience to the word of God that makes us rest. Yes. I'll say obedience to the word of God. But when I was with the father of Jesus in heaven, I came to understand what true rest was. And it was nothing. Give us a minute at that. Give us a minute, yeah. We need a little more. We talked about it before, me and you. And I think it's found in Hebrews the fourth chapter was talked about entering into his rest, you know?
And the word really means. Yeah, Sabbath, Shabbat. Shabbat, which is really a celebration. Yes, it is. And so I came to understand in heaven, we were in his rest all the time because we were celebrating him. Mm, beautiful. Beautiful. So we can go more into detail the next time, but I just said, oh, that's what you meant by your rest. And so there's not just resting like Jesus meant. You have to be celebrating God.
And I don't mean you have to be singing or dancing and all that stuff, but there has to be a celebration that's going on inside of you for the Lord. I have now told myself, you know, if I'm gonna sit here with Marilyn and have a time, I'm gonna sit here with Marilyn. Used to be I would sit here with Marilyn with my phone in my hand and doing something at the same time. Oh, wow. Just because I wasn't out there ministering, I would go, no, I have to stop. You understand what I'm doing?
And literally and liberty. And I've tried to do some things in the evening where after a certain time, I just don't do anything anymore. And it's kind of hard because the ministry is worldwide. And so people get a hold of me worldwide. So I try to wait until the next day to get a hold of people. And I know it may be their morning, it may be their, but for me, I have to slow down and stop. And I'm learning how to do that. But that's still Sabbath times. And then I'm praying in the morning.
And that's why I Sabbath time with my father. Beautiful. And it's not just praying. Sometimes it lasts an hour or something. Sometimes it lasts two or three hours. Beautiful. And I don't have it like I'm gonna do two hours. I'm gonna do one hour. I'm just gonna spend time with my father. And he talks to me. And when he talks to me, he tells me things. And I speak in tongues. So I'm gonna speak in tongues when I'm talking to him and he's gonna talk to me.
Yes. Yes. And I'm learning that where I had gotten away from it, I used to take a day off, 24 hours, and call that a Sabbath and just spend that day with him. I haven't done that in years, to be honest with you. About 10 or 15 maybe? I don't know. Let me see. I haven't done it since I moved to Virginia. I can tell you that much. So that'd be 10 years. I used to do it a lot when I lived in Washington State. But I'm going to. And the other thing, I talked to Tony Kemp about this.
Me and him both talked about this. We're learning how to say no. The requests are great. I did a podcast recently for secular group and me and my son looked up how many hits they got. And they had 114,000. Wow. And I like it because it's a secular group and we're reaching a lot of people out there. But that's going to be a lot more requests coming in because they're still looking. And he told me he reached almost a million people. So we'll see what that does.
Well, I remember our founder, Sister Gwen, got to the point where she said, I'm only taking appointments. In other words, I'm only going to do the things that I feel and amen in my spirit that God has given me an appointment to do this. Yeah. That's good Sharon. That's really good. Hallelujah. Well, this is an appointment I can tell you for me. It's an appointment for us too. Well, we want to thank you so much for being with us today.
We just, we love spending as much time with you as we possibly can. We could go on for hours, but it's probably time to say goodbye for this time. And before we go, would you just pray for our listeners? Yeah. Father in the name of Jesus, I pray for those that don't know you. First of all, they came up on this and started listening and got really curious about it. If you're out there and you don't know Jesus Christ the Lord and Savior, all you have to do is confess your sins.
Really what you've done wrong, you know it's outside of what he would want you to do. And ask him to forgive you and he'll forgive you. And ask him to come into your life and he'll come into your life and your life will be changed. We call it being born again. And then get a hold of somebody that you know that is born again or a Christian and ask them what to do next. You can even get a hold of this program and contact them and they will let you know what to do next.
But you that are out there and you're listening and this has broadened your view on authority, full authority of what Christ has given us, I just pray that you take that and run with it, especially you that need to give your body to the Lord. There's things that you've been doing that you know are not right physically and you now need to give your body to the Lord. It is the Lord's, it is his temple. Yes, Father. I say we, I'm gonna say put myself, we need to act like it, that is his temple.
Amen. In Jesus' name, I thank you for blessing this program. I thank you for blessing Phil and Sharon. Lord, again, pour out those blessings that you want them to have and help them to focus on what you call them to do on this planet. In Jesus' name, amen. Amen. Amen. If you enjoyed today's podcast, please subscribe, rate and review this podcast on Apple podcasts or wherever you listen to podcasts.
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