Today I'm getting really real about the realities of motherhood, especially as a recovering Mormon. I talk about feeling like a failure to be properly "maternal", the strain parenting has been on my marriage and if I think I would have had kids in another life as a never-Mormon. Let's just say, I'll be having a vulnerability hangover after this one. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and ad...
Feb 14, 2024•1 hr 1 min
Jenna Rammell, founder & CEO, opens up about stepping away from Mormonism after years of "unsubscribing" from the many facets of it that felt uncomfortable her whole life. As a mother of four, she and her husband have found new ways of establishing spiritual rituals and meaning as a family. And, most importantly, she's living for herself for the first time. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorse...
Feb 07, 2024•1 hr 32 min
Welcome to the weird world of Mormon deep doctrine! We’ll be answering the titular question as well as: does Satan control the waters? Is Bigfoot actually Cain? Do all Mormons need to move to Missouri ASAP? Oh and I discover what a T.K. Smoothie is and… it’s not the newest Jamba Juice menu offering. I did a lot of my fact-checking for this episode here: https://mormonr.org/categories --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode m...
Jan 31, 2024•56 min
If there's one thing post-Mormons tend to be interested in, it's magic mushrooms. Christian talks in depth about psychedelics as medicine and how they can be also be used to help re-establish a spiritual center after deconstructing religion. And, obviously, I manage to get some free therapy along the way. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Indiv...
Jan 24, 2024•1 hr 21 min
Welcome to the weird world of Mormon dating. Bentley joins me for moral support this week because these stories are particularly wild ones! There are scripture study dates, rampant misogynistic remarks and crocs with no socks (you'll see). --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest...
Jan 17, 2024•1 hr 8 min
The Mormon church was EVERYTHING to today's guest Jenna Jarvis- so much so that she was diagnosed with religious OCD. She shares about what it was like to find wholeness away from Mormonism. Her story includes love songs to herself, a romcom worthy European summer and so much more! --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may h...
Jan 10, 2024•1 hr 17 min
Happy Girlscamp-iversary! We're celebrating one year together (albeit a tad early) by talking about the lessons I learned in 2023. These range from how I've been taking care of my physical/mental health to why I think smut is necessary for post-Mormon girlies to how to grow as a content creator. I can't wait for all we have in store for 2024. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertise...
Jan 03, 2024•55 min
Except for it's non-fiction! These stories of wild things said from a Mormon church pulpit prove that truth is indeed stranger than fiction. The tales include a public admission of an affair, a self-proclaimed Messiah and a conspiracy theory against the Mormon prophet. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct ...
Dec 27, 2023•51 min
There’s nothing like working through the “Questions of the Soul” (a la Preach my Gospel) to get one pondering the meaning of existence. This week I compare and contrast my post-Mormon thoughts vs. Mormonism’s answers on God, life’s purpose and how to find happiness. It's a fun one! References: Brittany Hartley @nononsensespirituality Kurt Vonnegut "Slaughterhouse Five" --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid...
Dec 20, 2023•1 hr 6 min
My dad died unexpectedly at age 54. Today I talk about what it's been like to process his death, especially the spiritual side of it all. I also read the words I spoke at his funeral. Mostly, I share what his life and love meant to me. And what they mean to me now. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or i...
Dec 13, 2023•57 min
Finally! We’re talking ALL things female friendship, especially when it comes to mixed-faith ones. But first, Lucy shares her own faith journey and what she learned along the way. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode. Learn ...
Dec 06, 2023•1 hr 29 min
It's Christmastime! For those who celebrate. And for those who celebrate but it's a little ~complicated.~ On top of telling crazy Mormon Christmas stories, I talk about thoughts and ideas for doing Christmas after your faith has changed, how I feel about Christ generally and I give a couple big life updates too. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services...
Nov 29, 2023•1 hr 2 min
You heard that right! Lola and Jayden were sister missionaries serving in the same area when they struck up a friendship that turned into a romance. After a kiss that changed everything, they've had to navigate coming out, leaving the church and being ostracized by family members. It's been difficult, but they've been able to do it together. TW: Suicidal ideation --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endor...
Nov 22, 2023•1 hr 46 min
We’re back to round out the crazy bishop conversation (for now). Bentley joins to help breakdown more stories about bishops which include odd and unsound advice, confessions at the pulpit and, of course, a fair amount of sexism. I guess it wouldn’t be a Girlscamp episode without at least a little feminine (+Bentley) rage. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products an...
Nov 15, 2023•51 min
Fair warning, this episode is full of feminine rage. Because if anything warrants ranting and raging, it’s Mormon bishop stories. We focus today on the sex-related stuff- inappropriate worthiness interviews, creepy modesty callouts and a whole lot of sex-shaming. Because if Mormon bishops have one thing, it's the audacity. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products a...
Nov 08, 2023•58 min
What do you get when a Relief Society president, stake Young Women's counselor and exmormon record a podcast episode? You'll have to listen and find out! My mom and sisters (active LDS) join Girlscamp today and we talk about all the ways we navigate our mixed-faith family dynamic. We discuss doctrinal beliefs around degrees of heaven, how they felt when I told them I'd left the church and what they make of this podcast. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-raw...
Oct 31, 2023•1 hr 19 min
Mormon history can get, well, witchy. So in honor of Halloween, we're exploring all of the folklore magic elements of Joseph Smith and the start of the Mormon church. We're talking mystical parchments, spirit guardians and astrological talismans- just to name a few. Let's get into it, witches. SOURCES: Mormon Stories essay: https://www.mormonstories.org/truth-claims/joseph-smith/treasure/ Mormon Stories episode: https://open.spotify.com/episode/2i4mUggxFUJHoXuynL7GOH?si=9de2b1dcb86f4086 Mormonis...
Oct 25, 2023•54 min
The intersection of Mormonism and scary stories is surprisingly fruitful. Or is it that surprising? Bayley and I have a spooky and silly time reading all your tales of ghosts, demons and devils but with a Mormon twist. And we explore some haunted Mormon lore too. Listeners beware! --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Oct 18, 2023•1 hr 22 min
Feeling entirely overlooked on the front row during Relief Society was Brialee's last straw that led to her leaving the LDS church. Before that, she had given Mormonism - which she was baptized into at age 9 without her mom's permission- her all. Bria speaks about navigating foster care and adoption as a child, facing intense pressure to dress modestly and discovering historic and current racism toward Black people in the church. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/...
Oct 11, 2023•1 hr 21 min
I said not to hold back with the questions and you certainly didn’t! In this solo episode I address the full gamut of post-Mormon subjects- from pornography to officially removing records from the church to my spiritual beliefs now. Like any good campfire chat, I’m keeping it real. Pull up a chair! --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals ...
Oct 04, 2023•1 hr 2 min
After converting to Mormonism at 17-years-old, Emilie Kiser was all in on the religion. She opens up about the details of her whole faith journey into and then out of Mormonism. We discuss Mormon convert imposter syndrome, what it's like to gain a gigantic following on TikTok while navigating a faith transition and the moment she and her husband Brady decided to distance from the church (hint: it involves a cup of coffee). And Emilie will have you laughing the whole way through. --- Support this...
Sep 27, 2023•1 hr 17 min
Welcome to Ambyland, campers! This week Amber shares her Mormon/Post-Mormon saga- from snark forums and slut-shaming to sex-positivity and self-love. She speaks to the magic of this new chapter in her life and how she's brought bits and pieces of Mormonism into it too. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct ...
Sep 20, 2023•1 hr 28 min
With all the mystery that shrouds the Mormon temple, I do my best to lay it all out on the table. After an (albeit chaotic) rundown of what goes on inside, we talk through your stories, experiences, thoughts and feelings. I laugh, I cry and I process a good amount of religious trauma along the way. Hey, what else is Girlscamp for? --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for pr...
Sep 13, 2023•1 hr 2 min
Abby grew up as devout an evangelical Christian as they come, but when she went to college for a theology degree things quickly started to shift. Now she finds joy and peace outside of organized religion in a state of "theological fluidity". We swap stories of our intense religious upbringings, geek out about the literary richness of the bible and relate on giving up our former God-ordained mean girl ways. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Ple...
Sep 06, 2023•1 hr 14 min
Before we dive into the Mormon influencer phenomenon, Kylie and I discuss her upbringing as a Utah non-Mormon who went to Catholic school. We compare the differences between what we learned about Jesus, swap sex education stories and analyze Kylie's burning question about whether or not Mormons think she's going to hell. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and...
Aug 30, 2023•1 hr 29 min
Grief is a beast and adding a post-Mormon layer makes it even more confusing and complicated. After Maddy’s dad died, she has deconstructed not only her ideas of death, but also of life. We speak about the ways Mormons tend to handle loss and how Maddy’s approach has been vastly different. There are no easy answers, but there is a lot of discovery, hope and life along the way. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please note this episode may cont...
Aug 25, 2023•59 min
Last year Maddy's dad suddenly and unexpectedly died. Today she opens up about what it's like to experience such an immense loss, especially so fresh after deconstructing Mormonism. But before we dive into the nitty gritty of grief, we back up and talk about Maddy’s Mormon story and what led her to eventually leave the church (which includes a roommate turned romantic partner, a penchant for plant medicine and much more). --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-r...
Aug 23, 2023•1 hr
It doesn't get more quintessentially Mormon than a low-budget cultural hall wedding reception between two 20-year-olds who've known each other for a few months. Or so I thought, until I read the wedding story submissions for today's episode. I give the lay of the land on Mormon wedding culture before diving into the stories which include a temple ceremony panic attack, a mid-wedding-day loss of virginity and a sibling mega-wedding that should've made it on CNN. Enjoy! --- Support this podcast: h...
Aug 16, 2023•59 min
Growing up Mormon comes with some baggage and Indy Blue opens up about what it's been like for her to unpack. She speaks about her experience facing judgment as a teen on the internet, how her now-husband helped her see a life outside of Mormonism and how she's expanded her spirituality since leaving. We also discuss why we're both trying to tap more into our feminine energy and how Barbie functions as a perfect Mormon metaphor. Join us! --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/p...
Aug 09, 2023•1 hr 3 min
What do you do when your wife leaves the LDS church and your whole world is upended? Zac Hayward speaks in today's episode to the believing side of a mixed-faith marriage before he also eventually left. We discuss in-depth the harmful rhetoric around those who leave, his hopes to become mission president and the role of church history in deconstruction. And there may be a tear or two shed along the way. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hayley-rawle/support Please...
Aug 02, 2023•1 hr 7 min
