The Amara Transformation

the so whatever. I'm just thinking, like, I'm relaxing, enjoying life, and I've vaccinated. So I see. You have to you have to take care of your family, being your second baby hanging like gosh, so you see. I love how you multitask. Yes, oh my god, Like right now I thought he puts something in his mouth and I almost freaked and jumped up. You know, work as well, and to be honest, this doesn't even feel like it's work

because we'll be here basically talking to our friends. And by the way, that's what I want to welcome all of y'all to another episode. We also want to thank you so much every single person that has downloaded the app just to show is love and support us. We're so grateful and they rated us five stars on our podcast. I'm so excited, for real, for real by a star and that's thanks to all of you guys for listening.

So I am most definitely super grateful, five star, five star and every day hey listen to meet out Today today, I wanted to do something a little bit more serious, right because, um, I know that a lot of people have an a skining about my weight loss and stuff, and I don't want I want to share some stuff. There's some things you can't say everything. Maybe on episode fifteen, I do want to share a little bit of my

weight loss journey. And um, for those that may not know if you heard the last episode when we had our guests, um Dr Miami. I also, um, you know, I I said that I had an eating disorder at one point in my life, which I'll tell you the truth. I don't think you completely heal a thousand percent because it's been a little bit hard for me. But I think that we've all had some somebody image issues at

one point in life, have you. Yeah? I mean I feel like I go up and down and up and down and it's like with the goal ya lasna and all of that stuff, Like I don't know what I'm gonna do because, first of all, Spanish people we love

fried food and fried chicken cattle man want. But you know, stigma like in the in the Latin community, um, chunkier you are, everybody's like Gallin, like Gallina, instead of knowing that you're unconsciously creating eating disorder by just like stopping food in their face and you know, telling them that the fatter you are, the healthier you are. That but and don't you're dying. It doesn't work like that. They over exaggerated. They were like, oh, you're gonna skin, You're dying,

Like why can't I just look good like seeing? But you know what those are? Those are Latino traditions. Well, I don't even know tradition. There's stigmas um that. Like I said before, the fatter you are, the cuter you are, the skinnier you are, you're sick, You're dying, which is obviously not true. And that's why I think it's important for the Latin X and this new generation to take more control of our health and to gain more knowledge on what is what is the right or wrong way

for you, because that's another thing. What may have worked for me may not work for you. Everybody's body, genetics and everything is different, you know, So I don't know. Let's startup from the beginning, Stevie at In. Well, wait a second, so you're really gonna discuss this right now, because I'm gonna ask you questions exactly exactly Ada, right now, exactly who you are? When did you notice that you were paying at touch into your weight? When did that happen?

When did you say no? You want to know something? Ever since I was really young, I always felt self conscious about my body because I used to see that Kita Like I'm talking about like six seven, eight years old, And it's crazy that at such an early age you start to notice that your body is different from other girls.

I my mom had me in like ballet and things like that, and the dance teachers are always like, suck it up, so halla this, tuck it in, And I was like, no matter how much hard, like how much I try to tuck it in, my butt is still here, My fast is here. It's just the way my body is naturally set up. Like the Victoria's Secret autos, like long legs, long arms, just like a long neck. I just wanted to be like that. But then eventually I had to understand your body wasn't designed to look like them,

you know. So I think at a very early age, um, and even for parents, if you have kids at a very early age, you may not even know if they're being bullied in school because of their way. Whether it is skinny, tall, you know, chunky, um, all those things really do matter. So you have to be out in the lookout for that. For sure. The television and film change your thoughts on how you should look like. Did you look at an actress and be like, no, I said,

at least like anybody? Yeah, yeah, for sure, I don't. I don't know if there was someone specific. It was just looking at the women on TV or on magazine covers and just their bodies just you know, say Joe, you wouldn't see any study light, no dimples. But I need that six paths, long, long legs, flawless skin better than Later on, as you grow you learned that half of that is photoshop, if not more, you know, but

you're you're trying to mimic what you see. So yes, I definitely wanted to um to change how I look to to fit in and be more accepted on on TV. And for men, I think it's the same amount. I think that we look at these men, especially on only Fans, and we're like, wow, if I could only he's like an only fan. I mean, you know what. I like the fact that you brought that point, because the truth is, I feel that it's unfair that I don't think that we're talk enough about the pressure than men have the

men received. I think that when we talk about beauty, we usually always talk about women and how women get surgeries, this that, all this stuff, But I feel that men also have a lot of pressure to look at a certain type of way amongst themselves. See for us, it's

society that puts that pressure on us as women. But amongst men, I think amongst them who like all this, you know, see who has a bigger arm, who has a bigger arms, and who's this, and who's the fittest, And it stopped being about your health and now it just became about looking good to compete with God knows who disorder? What can you tell us about this and get into a get to mata? Well about my eating disorder? I mean, I don't know exactly how to tell you

when I'll tell you this. Okay, So this is how it started for me. Um so being curvy me means men, I got me very latina like, very shapely and um nothing. I was in dance classes and one day, I'll never forget one day I saw we were in we were in the dance rehearsals, and they made us wear like sports brawls and booty shorts so that we could look at ourselves in the mirror and see that we were fat. Because he had like a you know, a standard of

how you're supposed to look. We're going to competition, duding very like that. He I saw that a girl was coming out of the bathroom and she was just barfing, barfing, throwing up whatever. I went to her and let me, mama, what happened? Are you o kids? And that? And she was like, oh, no, no, no, it's just that I don't want to get any weight. I don't want to be fat because we have competition. She didn't even realize

that that small comment sink into my head. If you eat and you throw up, then you don't get in weight. But I can still eat it and then I don't have to feel bad about it. Huh. Okay, so that's how that works. And you're skinny and I'm not, then let me start trying it. So then I did it, and my dance teacher at the moment was like, what has their basil? That's what That's what he told me. And actually that's how it started. And never and ever since,

you know, I used to bench eat. I would have like a whole large pizza by myself, with coke and everything, and I would just barf it out so that I didn't have to feel guilty about, you know, being not as skinny as the rest of the girls. And that was really bad for me. I actually ended up hospitalized in to two occasions for like a week each time. The acid uh destroyed my vocal cords for a very long time. It was very bad. And I literally went from a way in two hundred thirty pounds two because

I did. I did gain a lot of weight. I was going through depression and stuff because you know, issues that that were happening in my house with like um, you know, there was a lot of like violence and stuff like that. At home, my mom was with my stepfather. She didn't have no papers, so she had to put up with a lot of things that unfortunately I had to see, and it was very tough, and just my fear made me eat, and that was my comfort zone,

just eating and hiding away in my room. Even nah, I went from to thirty to thirty, I literally lost a hundred pounds, but like in a couple of months, really bad. I looked sick. I just feel happy because I was skinny. So I just think it's a it's a it's a disorder mentally. You know, it's not just the eating part, but it's a mental condition because even after you lose the weight, you look at yourself in the mirror and you still see yourself as you used

to look. It's real. You're absolutely right because I remember my senior year in high school. I look back at these photos and I literally looked like a worm, and I thought that I was so like like, you know, I guess fat, I guess that's the word. Like I

thought I was overweight. And it was like wow at such a young age, because due to television, why do we create this kind of you know, crazy self esteem and low self esteem And it's just like it starts at a really young age, and people think that, you know, the youth, they don't really go through that, or they don't go through anything, or they don't really stress what you got stressed about. You don't have bals, you don't have that, but you don't know that it starts at

a very young age. And the word that I was looking for was called play. How like I think like I had was real? Yeah, I mean it's terrible. I did recover from it, Um, I stopped for many years. But I'm going to tell you the truth. I don't think and I know that a lot of people that have suffer suffered from bolimia can relate to me. I don't think you completely heal a thousand percent. Having an eating disorder is like to me personally, because I can

only speak from my own personal experience. It's like being a drug addict, because even when you heal, there's certain moments where temptation comes and it just makes you want to do it. I've had moments to this day. I'm not proud of it. That's why I'm I'm openly talking about it, and I'm being honest and transparent. To this day, I've had moments where I've been depressed, stressed out or whatever the case, maybe and my anxiety will be like,

well then just eat. It's a mental condition, It really is, especially in this industry, the entertainment industry, makes you feel so much pressure to be flawless, to be perfect your nose, your skin, your body, your stomach, your boobs, your ask, your thighs. You it's a lot. And I don't feel like people really understand how much pressure these women feel.

And not to mention the fact that we're living up you know, face tune and all these apps that you used to fix yourself, and we're comparing real life to these photoshop pictures and images. And now I think the things have changed. It is no longer so much about being skinny. Yes, a lot of it is like, oh, you have to lose weight, But now it's become the era of the surgery era, which is why we had

Dr Miami last week. Now I feel that the pressure has become of like, if you don't look the way that you want to look, then just you know that, ain't you want to resolve everything? You to resolve everything with surgery. And yes, these these filtures, which by the way, I love these filtures make you realize like, oh my god, I should have my nose more snaps, Oh my god, I shouldn't have my jawline, or I need to have this, or I need to do this. It's a lot of pressure.

I can't wait till cellulite and being fat and stretch marks are in style, because I'm gonna be a bad bit. So what kind of helps you see as far as like therapy, And you know in the they like frown upon therapy, So you really did therapy, which is great. So no, my therapy. It is true, and I'm so glad that you said it, because it is true. A month community getting therapy is like, yeah, you're gonna spend money. So if someone can tell you what you already know that.

So for me, I had to do more of like self healing. And it takes a lot for you to be able to heal yourself. It takes a lot for you to be able. But I guess that because I have that single child only child syndrome, I'm accustomed to talking to myself and playing with myself and answering myself, and you know, but I had to like just disconnect. It just took me. It took me a lot of like self healing. You know, I just have to like talk to myself and accept myself and understand that I

am one in a million. I am unique. I am only like out of seven billion human beings on this planet. God only made one of me. My body, what I have, my brain, my personality, everything that I am is exactly on my It's exactly and it's exactly who I'm supposed to be. And it takes a long time for you don't understand that. And I was able to understand that. And now even more now that I've done like this

body transformation once again. Um, now that I've lost like sixty pounds, my mentality has also transformed with this body, uh you know weight loss. Now I'm more concerned about my mindset than I was about my body before that body that all that stuff, And I still like that. I still like that because of course, but I feel like, no matter what, even if my body has changed, is still good. My dog's still good and that's what matters. Okay,

all my weight went to my toldo was popping. But I just think that now I'm more concerned about, like where is my mind a becoming more more intellectual becoming more strong mentally, you know, that makes me more of a woman, the type of woman that I want to be that's not just so focused on my body. So I think you have to have a balance better. Regardless, I definitely want to know what you guys think of this topic. Have you ever had an eating disorder? Do

you understand where I'm coming from? Do you have a family member or you know someone that has had an eating disorder? How has it been for you or how have you been a support system for them? Let us know at exactly Amata on Instagram, Twitter. We will be right back with more Exactly Welcome back to our very juicy conversation. You're finally giving us exactly a Mada. What can you tell? And we were speaking obviously about your eating disorder and you finally it wasn't an eating disorder? Yeah,

I mean I had it. Now I currently have feels from it. I've already recovered. Now. My question is to a man or a woman that's going through this, what

can you say to them? Um, if you're going through it, you have to have you have to have some individual personal healing with yourself like this means um going away talking to yourself understanding yourself, understanding that you are one in a million, understanding that your body will be with you for the rest of your life and you have to take care of it and you have to love it like this is literally a machine. Sometimes we can be so ungrateful with our bodies and mistreat it so much.

It hard knows because sometimes don't mem I talked a lot of ship. I talked to it all the time. I look at my fasts, I hate my boobs, look at my face, and it's like going, noo, stop complaining. You're beautiful, You're blessed. There's so many people that wish they had your body, that wish they had your arms, your legs, just who you are. So sometimes I just feel that we can be very ungrateful, and it's just coming from a place of gratitude and understanding that this

is you, this is your body. You're not meant to look like anybody else. You're not meant to be a copy paste. Not everybody's gonna look like Kim Kardashian. Yeah, even though you can buy it, but you don't have to look at women out there that do look like Kim Kardashian and pay for see, because and I understand

if you're an inspiration other women. See if you're an inspiration for other women's based on your body, because it's okay if you like somebody's body, like oh my god, I wouldn't have her ask that it go do you. But I'm just saying, do it because you want to, don't do it because you feel that you have to fit in. That's basically what I'm saying. And then that's that's what you're going through it. If you're planning on going through it. Hello, memo that I just said, Like,

stop trying to be like everybody else. Just accept you for who you are and become the better version of you. Like you have to accept your body. That's the only way you can come out of it. Because let me tell you, between you and me and me and you, in the process of me being the limit and stuff I was trying to I was literally pushing and trying myself to do the crossover into being anorexic because it

becomes addictive. I would wait myself a thousand time and am Inyana in the morning, I would be wait myself. I would take a ship, waite myself and then if I get a little bit that's it. I'm not eating all day till I go back to my you know, it was really really bad. And there's a lot of websites, crazy enough. There's a lot of pro anna which is what it's called pro anna um websites where they give you tips on how to become an eratic. And I also want to clarify something. There's a lot of women

that are thin. There's a lot of women that are petite because that's just naturally who they are. And you know, some Bay yet Vina, you're you're beautiful. You know what I'm saying. If this is how your body is naturally set up, my most highest respects to you because I'm bo I wanna I want them to we're shading on them. Noaa. And if you're a little chunky or whatever that, enjoy and embrace your curves some being as long as you're healthy. You recently lost sixty pounds. How do you manage this?

Knowing you have had weight struggles before. But I'm gonna tell you this, um, I think that a lot of us gained a little, you know, a couple of pounds during the pandemic. We all got really comfortable because God knows I did. I got really comfortable. I didn't even notice when it's steady gaining weight. And I went to the Dominican Republic to do a music video because I was like, we're in the pandemic. I haven't put out music in a really long time. I just want to

feel productive. So I went and I did the music video for TikTok because TikTok was super booming during pandemic time. And I was like, we no, let me do this TikTok song and maybe oh become a little wave, you know on social media. Um. But then when I did it, and I saw a moment a year and when I saw how I looked, I was like, because in length, it just takes one picture, one video, one I don't know, if you walk by the mirror and your naked, it just takes one moment for you to be like, this

is me, what happened? And I'm accustomed being you know, the sex symbol and being hot and all this other stuff. And I just didn't realize that I had gained all that weight. I don't even know how it happened. I just know that, you know, I was home aiding, not working out, not being physically active obviously as I was before. You know that when I gained all the weight, I just felt like I need to do something about it.

And in the process of me doing something, it originally started with me checking my health and I was like, I'm gonna take this time now that I have so much free time to literally go to the doctors and check every single part of me. I was doing every single blood test, that was doing everything. Like I said later on on episode fifteen, I will talk to you guys more about what really caused me to lose you know a lot of the way. And like I said it,

it originally started with health issues. Um, I found out that I had I currently still have. You know, my body is not functioning the way to post soon. And in that journey, I just said, when I do need to take control of my body and my health, and I started to detox I started to use more organic and natural products, um, you know, working out lightly as long as you know, I was just trying to put down the weight. Later on, like I said, I'll get

into the details. I am currently okay. I'm okay because I'm still here, but it's still something that I have to deal with and and away from that. You know, my mom's diabetic, my mom has hybrid pressure um thyroid. My father um to like a year and almost two years um had surgery for prostate cancer. I mean, my my aunt has breast cancer and it just came back unfortunately. So I'm like, I have a trace of you know, health issues if I don't do something to prevent this.

And I'm only thirty years old at this moment, so I was like, no, I gotta do something about it. And my children. I don't even have children yet. I need to be here for them. Everything I do is for my children and my future. So job taking care of your parents, because I remember being you know, I've got to hang you know, I've had the honor to hang out with you and the family. They're not my family. And I see how you take care of your mom. Like me and her wanted to get a cheese cake

so bad from Publix. No, And then I was like, oh my god, I wanted so bad. And then we're like, oh, we can't do this because I'm out. It's trying to keep us good. And I was like, but let me tell you, she cooks so good. I gain some pounds just being at your house. So I believe you can understand believe you. I can understand you trying to like, you know, cut that down because you know that's boy and there I believe it. And it's Latina, which is cool,

you know what I'm saying. But something Latina and they got say they it all every single good bottle that it tastes great. But I think that as much as we love, you know, food, because food is a very, it's a it's a part of our culture. Food is a way of us coming together as one. It doesn't out of where you're from. Food, food and music naturally just brings people together. It's like, if you're happy, let's eat. If you're sad, let's eat. You went through breakup, let's eat.

You have you're getting married, Let's see. Everything is a reason to eating. Cool. But I think it's important that we figure out a way that we can enjoy the taste of food. But I'm go go to that unhealthy gorda unhealthy thick or the womment chunky fo pounds three pounds. We need to figure this out. It's not so much anymore about your physical aspect. And that's where I'm like, I don't want to point fingers, and I don't want

anybody to feel like, oh, she's judging me. I've been there, and I'm speaking from experience, and I'm speaking from not only being overweight, losing weight, being b limic, ending up in a hospital bed. I've been in every situation and people just look at you like and that's that's the thing. More pressure. You don't know that. Yes, we're definitely grateful for the compliment Lato, but that also comes with like a pressure of you have to stay looking a certain way.

You can't you know, mess up, because everybody expects you to be this person. So it's a lot of pressure steaming. It is a lot of pressure. And speaking of pressure, even on social media, UM, I could pull up comments from you know, even just your I G. People thought that you know, you were losing weight because maybe you wanted to, you know, because that was not drugs casting or that casting in Hollywood, you know, or or am I as becoming more Hollywood or maybe she's just advancing

in life and going on. And I got about those I might as losing weight because she's doing drugs, because people can be so ignorant. Okay, you don't know in my mind, I will always think of Chad, you know, our black panther. Unfortunately, when he passed away, he kept his private life buried to himself. No one even knew that he was going through health issues. And even and even then, which I respect that, even like that just

made him even so much bigger. He continued to work knowing that he was very, very ill, and he continued to be professional and his work ethic was always on point. And while this is occurring on still on social media, everybody is so concerned about calling him a crackhead, of calling him you know, he looks bad. He looked down Arex without knowing the weight that he was carrying on

his shoulders. And I felt that people can be so judgment and whether it is that you're losing weight, or whether it is if someone has gained weight, if if someone is overweight, don't be judgmental. Don't be a fucking asshole. Okay, don't do that, and I know, don't don't bully them, don't make fun of them. You don't know what they're going through. No one wants to be unhappy. And a lot of times when you are in this place of being obese, you take it with with like do whatever.

But deep downe inside, you know, you know that they may not be a happier content with their body shape or their body at at the moment. So instead of you being supportive, if you're being an ass, that makes it even worse. And not everybody is mentally strong to be like women they like di mental to be able to do it, you know, right, like Lizzo or um an influencer girl with a guy on TikTok, they'd be like,

put it on, put it on. They put on their two piece, and they're confident and who they are, you know. But it's not for you to be calling them out and making it harder for being disrespectful. Yes, so it's safe to say that's why you lost weight or because of the you know, the eatings, the you know, you know, your disorder. I mean, I think it was a combination of many things. You know, it's a combination of the industry I'm in. You know, Um, I personally wasn't happy,

and that's the most important part. People can say what they want and even guys, and even guys I was, I was dating someone who accepted me at the moment as I was better. You haven't stopped liking pictures on social media of all the girls that don't look like me. So I kind of felt like, oh, we give me Alice. It's a and we're going to talk about this in

another show. I don't know. Sometimes the guys be doing that, Mama, pay attention to be meta, let me be your friend and let me talk to you know, they sometimes do this too. Sometimes you'll be trying to get them fat. No, no, no, no, no, don't do that. I've seen it. Let's have ice cream, let's have this, and deep down and set, you're plotting. You're plotting because you're like, I don't want I don't want Nobo didn't take my man. I don't want to to take my girl. So I'm just gonna make her

Fat's gonna be off for me. No, take care of you first. Do you really like this new look? And you know, looking good and truly feeling good and confident? Has they made you more confident? Because I know that when I looked a certain way back in two thousand sixteen, Oh my god, bring me back, lord, you can do it, you can do it. I'm making you so happy. And I was walking with my head up high Bla, Bobby DC Blina get it. Whatever you want in life, you

can conquess. Made you more confident? Do you love this new amouta amata? I don't think she likes this amnah. Well I'm thinking I do. I do love this new amatta. But you know why I love this new amata because of my confidence. It was for me. It was for me. Some women feel more confident when they have bigger boobs. Some women feel more confident with their butt is bigger. Some women feel everybody has their standards of what makes

them feel good about themselves. I've always felt good about me, even in my heavier, heaviest state, I was still a bad bit. Better now, snap snap snap better now. I kind of enjoy wearing different type of outfits that I couldn't wear before. I enjoy being able to be a little bit more slimmer and not feel some type of way I missed my fat ass. I still have a little booty. Other think a little booty. But before I was like and I was more like everything kind of

like you know, but it's okay. I feel like afterwards, when I have children, my body is gonna have a transformation, is gonna you know, change a little bit and eventually can't save it. You know, I feel healthy and I feel healthy, I feel blessed and that's all that matters. Bab day exactly, and we are back there. Um. I love being all up in your business. It's just so just so getting right back into it. How do you keep up with your new transformation? Me huh buenoma, I'd

say that now. I'm just more conscious about you know, how much I eat. It's not even about what I eat, it's just how much I eat, like key walking me hand then okay, exactly, there you go. Um, I still have me like, I still eat everything fatal mannows. My portions are smaller. I'm talking about like smaller, like I eat like a five year old, the same amount of food that you will give a five year old. That's what I eat. And don't said like an hour or

an hour or two later. Mahomo, two hours later, I'll eat again. So I eat more often now, so you know I'll do that. I love to dance, um, I love to sweat. That's cardio minutes and that will help you. So it's just finding ways. You know that. It doesn't feel like it's workout. It's a lifestyle. And I've heard this so many times, but I never really understood it. So now every day do something towards that goal, like eat that. I definitely love to de talk. I get

that's buena. I'm so sorry. I love the ship. Girl and me we talk about that like that is my moment. No one bothers you because first of all, you stink, so no one's coming around you. It's like my moment. No make that hold's like and not God no. But the truth is, Mita, it's important that when you eat, you also have to like get it out. Have you implemented healthy habits such as exercising? Are you exercising me? Huh mecising? I thought you were se no, but no

I haven't been come on s exercising you not? So you know, my daughter is like brand new at this point. It's been such a long time. It's terrible. But that's that's actually a great workout, and it also helps you sta song and helps helps you stimilate your body. But I know my way of working out is I love to dance. Um, I love to clean, so cleaning around the house, I'll be putting music really loud, turn off the a c and I'll be hot in here like a sauna. I'll be cleaning. I'm Florida, I'm in Miami,

and then you know something else to um. I like to walk. I'm a walker, not a job. I could jog, but I hate it makes my ass hurt. But I'm walking is very good. Walking is very good. Yeah, so it's like little things I could be walking. I love to hear motivational speeches like on YouTube and stuff, so I put it on at thirty minutes. Now whatever come back. Yeah, it was a little something I did. I don't know, limit myself because I feel that then it becomes a diet,

and dieting is it's not good. You eventually end up breaking the diets. Then you end up gaining more weight because now you feel like you know, you prevented yourself from eating and things you want. It's just too much. So I just eat everything I want, just it's just the amount. I just eat less. Do you sleep more? I surely don't. And sleeping actually does help you lose weight. Like literally yesterday and I was up to like two o'clock at night, so literally almost twenty four hours as

your wide awake. And today who could who could amount of sleep you're a that's the thing here there everywhere. Like I woked up at five o'clock in the morning today, eMTA, and I'm still rolling. So I don't sleep too much. So I can't see that that's it. But I know the sleeping is definitely something you guys have to do. So you know, don't follow my steps, don't do what I say. I mean, don't do what I do, do what I say. So therapy, as far as therapy, mental health,

you know, to address you know, you're eating disorder. Have you seek I know you said you did, but like, are you really seeking therapy? And are we going to see that? On love in hip hop? It took me a really long time to be able to heal myself, Like I said, I don't think I've been able to do. Would I still be willing to take therapy most definitely?

I would love to say therapy not just for the eating disorder, you know, but also because I feel like I have a lot of childhood traumas that I never was able to heal from and and those traumas carry with me as an adult. I just hide them with other other things, and I think that they're me. It is so important for people to take like I think it's important. I wish that everybody were to take therapy.

I think it's so important. And it's not that you're talking to it is that it's not about the money, and it's not that you're talking to someone that's going to tell you what to do with your life. It's just that they're professional people that know how to tap into certain feelings and certain situations that may have caused you to react or do certain things. So I would love to, And I don't think you'll see it on

Loving hip Hop, not this season anyway. You like people questioning you about your weight and telling you what do you I don't know what I'm saying. Are we going to see that on Loving hip Hop? Like people all up in your business, like friends, family members, like all up in your business? By no, I guess you're gonna have to stay tuned for the fourth season on Live in Hip Hop Miami. I'll be trying. I know you guys, be asking you guys, be sending me questions, and I'll

be trying to tell them in there. I know. I know. Keep Instagram, No, yes, I mean I've gotten a lot of attention for you know, my my new body, and and now I just really want to focus on my mental health. I think that we've seen, we've recently seen a lot of people talking on social media and being

very vocal about mental health. And I never understood how important it is to be able to be to have sanity, to be able to be at peace with who you are as a person, your body, just everything overall, everything that is you. So I just want to take I just want to be in a better mental space. I think that I'm doing great. I am happy. I think that there's always space for improvement, and that's something that

you have to be okay with an understand you. You don't say a bit fake that sassi to become better? Why not? You're getting a lot of attention for your new body, but how do you healthy when others are physical. I'm in a I'm in a happy mental mental space. I am satisfied with my body, which is all that matters to me. Who cares what the people have to say? Who cares? Who can be judgmental? Who cares? Like at the end of the day, the day that I die,

nobody's comments die with me. You know, I have to live with my own I have to live with my own consequences. I have to live with my own life. So I need to do was best for me. And that's just what it is. If you don't think that I no longer because I've had people say, oh, I'm gonna follow you by good night, Hey peace, you know, like you have to you have to get into a space where you're okay with saying no. You have to get into a space where you're okay with saying I

don't care what you think. Like I know that we give more um and like I can't change my body. I can't change who I am. I can't change who I am as a person or physically for anybody. So but I mean what I do want to say that to me is extremely important. I feel that I still have more healing to do. I feel that I am comfortable where I am right now. I feel that, um,

I healed myself by doing by being my own therapist. However, I would love to have their you know, therapy at one point in life and and really like you know, so search and and get really deep in there and and see those traumas and issues that I have in life. But if you are someone you know it's suffering or has suffered of eating disorder. Please please seek help, like

this is so real. Please seek help. Call or text the n e d A which is the National Eating Disorder Association Hotline UM or the helpline rather better UH and the phone number is eight hundred nine three one to two three seven, eight hundred nine three one to two three seven. It will also be posted on the exactly amount of Instagram and Twitter page UM and it's it's it's extremely confidential. No one has to know that

you called. No one has to know nothing. You can just call and ask for help or just say, look, I've been doing this or I feel this type of way, whatever it is that you want to express, and they will literally help you and guide you into how to better yourself. UM. If you can't do it on your own, you need to ask for help. And let's be clear, eating disorders are not just the gay who became anorexic

or your billimic and you're losing weight. If you're gaining weight and you're over eating and you're OBEs, that is also an eating disorder. So don't don't feel like you're being judged rather than complaining or arguing about what we already know. Let's just find a solution to the problem. Let's figure out ways to become better. And I think that's the most important part. Eating disorders are real, this is real. Don't judge, don't be a bully, be supportive,

get educated on the topic. You know, whether it is that you're going through it, or you may know someone that's going through it, please be a support system to them. Um Stevie, thank you so much for taking this time to actually, you know, ask the right questions. And I really feel and hope that this conversation has been motivational, inspirational in some way, helpful in some way for anybody that's listening. That's why I want to thank you for

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