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Even if it Kills Me

This is the story of the band that almost was. You won’t hear what this band sounds like. You won’t even learn their name. But you know this band, even if you don’t. Even if it Kills Me is a narrative documentary podcast, chronicling the lives of Jon, Ryan, Mac and Pete as they set out across the country and try to make it as rockstars in the bygone era of the ‘00s. Each episode uses contemporary interviews and archival recordings to pull back the curtain on the nitty-gritty inner workings of tour life, all unfolding during the music industry’s own fall of Rome, as massive technological shifts upended business models that had existed for decades. Tune in weekly for the next chapter in this six-part miniseries. Hosted by Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.
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Episodes

A Crowd of No One

The band grapples with crafting a successor to their debut album for the record label. Opting to part ways, they embark on a final headline tour, which falls short of expectations. One of the guys exits days before the tour's conclusion, leaving the remaining members to complete the journey without him. Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop production Written and Narrated by Aaron Joy Produced by Jon Lullo and Brendan Walter Featuring original music by Alex Dezen Original theme by Matt McGinley...

Jul 24, 202440 minSeason 1Ep. 6

Nothing Short of Bliss

The band steps up to a higher tier of touring, inadvertently upsetting the headlining band's tour manager along the way. They transition to a tour bus for a major festival, facing the juxtaposition of disappointing performances amidst luxurious living conditions. Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop production Written and Narrated by Aaron Joy Produced by Jon Lullo and Brendan Walter Featuring original music by Alex Dezen Original theme by Matt McGinley IN MEMORY OF DUSTIN BOW evenifitkillsmep...

Jul 17, 202436 minSeason 1Ep. 5

Technically, This is On Us

The band relies on the hospitality of others for places to sleep. One of the members experiences a breakdown and departs, coinciding with the loss of the band's cash box. A replacement is flown in, but challenges arise. Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop production Written and Narrated by Aaron Joy Produced by Jon Lullo and Brendan Walter Featuring original music by Alex Dezen Original theme by Matt McGinley evenifitkillsmepodcast.com fangworkshop.com mattmcginleymusic.com alexdezen.com Soci...

Jul 10, 202428 minSeason 1Ep. 4

A Little Less Than Half

The band grapples with the hidden expenses of touring and takes on gritty jobs to sustain themselves between tours. Additionally, they witness technological shifts unfolding while on the road. Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop production Written and Narrated by Aaron Joy Produced by Jon Lullo and Brendan Walter Featuring original music by Alex Dezen Original theme by Matt McGinley evenifitkillsmepodcast.com fangworkshop.com mattmcginleymusic.com alexdezen.com Socialized Pepsi by The Loyalis...

Jul 03, 202420 minSeason 1Ep. 3

Stuck Inside The Gap

The band embarks on tour, only to be overwhelmed by feelings of inadequacy when measuring up to their fellow touring bands. Meanwhile, one of their tour mates achieves sudden and remarkable success on the road. This show is brought to you by Manhead Merch https://www.manheadmerch.com/ Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop production Written and Narrated by Aaron Joy Produced by Jon Lullo and Brendan Walter Featuring original music by Alex Dezen Original theme by Matt McGinley evenifitkillsmepod...

Jun 26, 202421 minSeason 1Ep. 2

A Band Called ______

The band's journey begins. Fueled by ambition, they relocate to Los Angeles, seeking a record deal. Fortune smiles upon them as they secure a contract with their dream label. Tune in next Wednesday for the next chapter in this six-part miniseries. This show is brought to you by Manhead Merch https://www.manheadmerch.com/ Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop production Written and Narrated by Aaron Joy Produced by Jon Lullo and Brendan Walter Featuring original music by Alex Dezen Original them...

Jun 26, 202423 minSeason 1Ep. 1

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This is the story of the band that almost was. You won’t hear what this band sounds like. You won’t even learn their name. But you know this band, even if you don’t. Even If It Kills Me is a narrative documentary podcast, chronicling the lives of Jon, Ryan, Mac and Pete as they set out across the country and try to make it as rockstars in the bygone era of the ‘00s. Each episode uses contemporary interviews and archival recordings to pull back the curtain on the nitty-gritty inner workings of to...

Jun 19, 20242 min
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