Vulnerability Looks Good on You

You know that on some level , but I don't think you fully internalized it , owned it , and I'm not gonna rest until that happens . When I first saw you , it's like you had a flashing pink arrow over your head this one . That is not always good . Sometimes it's been really bad . I always good . Sometimes it's been really bad .

I've crapped out hard , but not in this case . Striking is not the word . That's a euphemism for lynchian and weird in a lot of cases , and that's not you at all , but I don't know exactly how I would describe it . Dead , sexy , sexy as hell , the whole gestalt . You should always wear shorts and skirts .

I know it's inconvenient , but that's a sacrifice you have to make . You get goosebumps in the winter and it's really sexy . That vulnerability looks good on you . I know that . I know that it's risky .

I know that you're courageous and I know that you've been hurt , but I know that you maintain that vulnerability , that certain level of exposure because you know there is so much more to life and you want to be here for it . You're not going to miss out . You're going to be open to it .

You're going to be open all the time , even though that's risky , and you know that it is . You also know intuitively that we only perceive about three percent of what's going on . Reality is a controlled hallucination .

We're designed to survive , not thrive , so our brains take in the stuff that they think is going to help us survive , and we miss out on a lot of it . You miss out on less than most . Much of your life is about tuning in . You can be a little obsessive about it . You have certain go-to words and phrases .

I'm not going to tell you what they are , because I like them . I don't want to ruin them for you . You're going to keep doing it and I'm going to keep liking it . What's the most ridiculous thing about you ? It's going to make me judge you harshly .

I already feel superior to you . Make me feel even better about myself . By contrast , you can dig deeper than that . It's like the improv game , where you have to break all the rules and do the worst possible improv scene , and it's always hilarious and everyone has a blast . Now you're not only funny by accident , but you're definitely funniest by accident .

That's true of most people . Do you know ? It's a bad idea to try to be interesting . Oh , there's quite a lot of depth there . What really sets you apart ? You have beautiful green eyes , which I've been told is associated with a high tolerance for pain . We can find out together more than you know . I don't think you even know how much you've been through .

You've got a crazy life and it comes out in bits and pieces . Everyone just thinks you're this sexy bitch and then you don't talk about yourself , right , because you're curious , you're interested in other people and you're taking care of yourself . You're not going to spill your guts , you need the attention . But then it comes out .

Somebody brings up something that's related to prog stories , or your two slips are a dress story .

All of your crazy jukebox anecdotes yeah , they're going to bring back the old jukeboxes because of you . I heard a good analogy Having a thought is like going up to the jukebox and seeing Hound Dog by Elvis . Suffering over the thought Ruminating . Telling yourself a story about it is like playing the song . Damn , that's true . You are nothing but a hound dog .

You never stop crying and yet you think of yourself as my friend and I get nothing out of that , and that's fine . I don't want the respect of a hound dog and then you're just deep in it , you of a hound dog , and then you're just deep in it , you're spiraling out , and that's no good . I still do , sometimes , not when you're around .

You were very good for me that way . You helped me regulate my nervous system . What else is special about you ? Show off , I know you want to . What really makes you different ? I want to taste that right now . What are you doing Sunday evening ? Right , we both get the Sunday scaries . Let's do something about it . You're gonna cook me dinner on Sunday .

I'll get your mind off of things , you'll see . Saturday is my art party day , when I sequester myself and do the stuff that I'm passionate about . Sunday , I do you who I'm so passionate about . Saturday , I put myself first and last , exclusively me and the orchid and my beautiful project .

Of all the surprises that came this year , my wish for this calendar year was I want to be surprised , and I've learned that I need to be more specific . I did get a boatload of surprises , a surprising

variety , and the one that I think was probably the most pleasant is that I have become a fan of my art . Love where it's going . You're totally involved in that . I want to hear about my art . Love where it's going . You're totally involved in that . Yeah , I want to hear about your dream . I want to hear about lots of your dreams .

I'm fascinated by dreams . It could just be white noise . I kind of don't think so , because I've learned a lot of fascinating things about people from listening to them talk about their dreams Surreal and ridiculous Magritte paintings . You have the floor . Tell me about the dream . That's one of the things you're going to do for me today , probably the easiest .