KILLA F - SoCal Turkey Tacos

Hey guys, welcome to another episode of Eating While Broke. I'm your host, Colleen Wit and today we have very special guests, recording artists Killer f from the Fanatics. Is it the building? A? How are you good?

How?

Good good? I'm excited to have you on the show. So you are on the Eating While Broke show, which means that you cooked for me. So what broke dish? Are you going to have me eating today?

Today? Were having some ground turkey tacos, you feel me? We got some ketchup hot sauce and some Yeah.

Yeah, that's two tone because I put them in our oven and burned them, which is what I'm famous for on the show. Actually it's burning people's burning people's food.

It's a little extra crime.

I've never thought about ketchup and tacos together, so this will be the first for me. Yeah, I'm Jewish and Jamaican black and white.

Yeah, oh yeah, you ain't had it.

Like that, no, no, And I'm not from LA I'm from New York, so you know, okay.

Coast from the coast where sixty ninth Street.

Okay, okay, okay, Well, while you start cooking for me, I want you to take me back to what was going on when you was eating tacos?

Oh? What was going on? I was eating tacos, man, I want to say I was getting put out the house while the tacos was getting made because I was run around for going crazy and ship. So my mom used to put me out, but she used to make the most fires tacos.

So this is like a tribute to your.

Yeah, rest in peace, it's a tribute to my mom.

Okay, okay, we'll start cooking for me.

Let me look it up. You know that's right here.

How often do you guys get to see killer cooks? Do you ever cook for your fans on camera?

I never cooked, but I showed shit. I cooked like the cakes and ship. I like the bake cakes.

You bake cakes from scratch? Scratch or the box either or really? Yeah, okay, that's a fun fact I would have ever.

So you're gonna have to help me out how you turn this thing on right here?

Oh yeah, that's how you know?

He this is different right here. We ain't had this in the hood. Right here.

It is that first right there?

All right?

Put that on low, put it on medium maybe, and then uh, you.

Ain't got no grease all right, we're gonna do this right here. Drop this thing on there like it's hot.

I could have grease for you, but I just assumed you didn't.

Dad, I don't gonna let that thing cooking. Let it brown on that sock a little bit.

I feel like just pre judging you. You have no idea what you're doing.

Why you say that?

Shout outs to your mom? So your mom made these tackles for you growing up. Yeah, and we're like, paint the whole picture for me of like what your home life is. Father in the house.

Oh, your father in the house. Father is in the house. I had two sisters, older sister. She a Lasbian. She's like an older brother.

You're hilarious, you know what I'm saying. Oh, now she's all wait, she transformed. Oh so now she's a brother.

Well, I don't know. She's still a girl.

She's still a girl.

She started growing facial hair.

Okay, now now that you took us out this path, I have a couple questions. What was that transition like for her to go from a girl to a boy for you.

I didn't expect it because, you know, growing up me seeing her, she was always a girly girl. She was pretty. And then in high school she started playing sports like basketball. And then one day I walked in the house. I go on my wrong, She in there kissing her girl, and I'm like, oh, I'm telling mama, tell her mama. She run out. She grabbed him me up. She's like, I give you some shark bites. He's a fruit snack.

Like what was she devastated or was she cool?

My big sister, No, it's your mom. I don't think she really cared. I don't think she really cared.

Did you care at all?

Nah? She has some pretty girlfriends for real.

Would you ever go around her and be like, what do you think about this? Shorty? Nah?

Man? Our relationship makes the same. A big sister moved, She moved to Vegas and like, I rarely see her like that.

Okay, yeah, okay.

Once my mom passed, it was like I wanna say, she just got like, you know, the family ain't like how it used to be.

Yeah, it got spread out yeah, it spread out or was it like sometimes with tuber passes there's like fight over acids or who hell no.

Hell no, hell My mom was rich nothing, there was nothing to fight over.

Were your parents still together?

No, they actually broke up. I want to say, when I was like eighteen, they split up.

That's okay, Yeah, they split up. Okay, so they were together a.

Long time in a long time, So they split up. I don't even know why, but they fucking split up and ship, and that's when like shit started going rough, you know what I'm saying. Like I'm trying to find my way around and my mom's over here, my pop's over here, and I'm trying to be grown and ships, like I don't want to stay over here with them. Let me do my own things.

And that's what was that around the time of your mom was throwing you out the house.

No, she never threw me out the house, like like I said, when I was cooking taco when she was cooking tacos when I was younger and ship. You know what I'm saying, she kicked me out eight nigga food ain't ready. Other than that, Na, she never kicked me.

Out the house, Okay, okay, okay, So was you a good kid?

I was a little sneaky kid, but I was good though.

What you mean sneaky?

I was always into ship okay, like always into ship.

Like what like anything streets or or just like pulling pranks on people, or just that.

I'm just a joker, like off the time, I'm just a joker and I'm a flirt.

Okay, I can see that about.

I had a lot of girls, Okay. I was no problem like that until I started selling drugs. That's when I fucked up. That's when I found out, Like she was like, oh, ship, what do you be? Like? I started getting in trouble to the law, like down like eighteen.

Did you actually get to go to jail? I went to jail before in downtown l A was terrible.

No, I didn't go. I swallowed my ship a cause my best my best friend he was actually he he was already season on that type of ship. So he was basically like he was showing me how to sell dope. So he said, break it down for me, showing me how to bag an ship. So he always tell them like, hey, man, keep you some orange juices or gatorade in case you gotta swallow that ship. But I never thought what he was talking about, Like what you mean, like swallow this ship.

So why is it in your mouth already?

Because that's where I was keeping it that in case I had.

To, Oh my gosh, you know for no reason.

Yeah, I never. I never when I was selling dope. I never used to like handed to the crackhead or something. I used to spit it out, okay, like like get that ship, like put the money in the phone book. This was that unless somebody else pick it up.

Okay, So you would just like spit it on the ground.

He's so small, like they already know what they want, what they wanted to say, what they want to all. Just I don't know, it's crazy. I used to feel that ship in my mouth, like I had the dimes on this side and I had a duve on this side.

You're hilarious for rial, Okay, so take me back to the bus stop into that.

So that's what I thought.

I was gagster.

You just up at the bus stop and the police they hop out on me. Boom, they grabbed me. They searched me and ship. But these police they janky though. They all rough and ship. But it's like you spit it off. Yeah, they knew it's in my mouth. I'm already swallowing this ship boom over my mouth and shit, I ain't got nothing this time. I'm going crazy because I just swallowed some crack. Oh you know what I'm saying. I just I just swallowed some crack.

Wait, where was your in my hand?

Oh? Yeah, but the police had me, so I swallowed it. So I'm trying to play cool. Soon as they let me go, I had to line like I got to I had a bus. I still had a bus transfer in my head, so I lie like, man, my girlfriend is at to see suw. It's a hotel right there. You have to see. So I'm like, I just came from seeing her. They let me go. So they let me go. It's a bar on the corner. I run

When it finally come out and you were counting them.

Yeah, I was counting them because I knew how many I had in my mouth? Ship?

Were you scared like one of them was gonna break in your body?

Like when they are in your mouth, you taste the ship, Yeah, like it's seeping through the bag, Like you taste like it's like low key, like uh I want to say, like vinnekar is like a little salty taste in your mouth. Yeah, I'm just yeah, but you was so crack.

That's like a major drug.

Hell yeah, it was just fast money and it was downtown LA, so it was like coming rapidly fast.

Yeah, they bring me anything.

Scared of they bring you anything. I'm talking about anything. What do you mean you name it? The crackhead is gonna bring it to you, some dope like they're bringing.

You'll be like I need a plasma.

You ain't needing nothing. They coming with this shit like they walked like I promised, they coming up to you with this shit. I remember, like they used to give us the EBT cards.

Damn, that's crazy. Was there ever an incident of somebody that was like a crackhead that you truly wish they weren't on crack?

Man? There was a lot of pretty females down there, like like pretty but just like smokers, like you like what the happened to you? And they had a cold story like you know what I'm saying. Somebody it was raped and somebody had pens, yeah, got them. This was all types of shit, damn.

So those like those were the stories where you're just like.

Yeah, and then you see babies, like when you see the babies down there with their moms like that shit really like damn, do I really want to be doing this shit? Like yeah, real real?

Yeah? And your was your mom aware of that stuff?

Ma'am? The way my mom found out I was sudding dope was all right. I had a shoebox full of money. Shoebox for the money.

You're like a perfect card too, character movie, like you could write a movie about this.

By the for real, I had a shoe box full of money and I left it at the house like I was like a safe spot. So when I came home, she found the money. She she already called my dad and Ship told him that I was selling dope and because they had the little Zigzags and that motherfucker Ship, so she told him that.

Ship, what did he say?

This nigga picked me and my best friend up and it was like on my head, like you know what I'm saying, Like, your nigga threatened me and Ship. He was like, Oh, your niggas want to be Nino Brown and g money nigga. Your niggas want a game bangh. I'm gonna put you on y'all gonna be under me. Y'all like talk to me crazy, We said, we terrified. His nigga like dad, my dad Yo, g O, he's a dad. So he had he had a nigga scared. He's like damn. He's like, no, you gonna get a job.

That's hilarious. That's hilarious. Your pop says, like a good man.

Yeah, he had nig cool cool in a polar bear toe.

He's straight, so he went straight and handled that nip the buzz.

He did, but he did it Like I said, I was sneaky.

So what did you do? You just snuck it around it.

I was still doing what I'm doing because it was like I was thinking, like, shit, I ain't want to like all my life, I ain't see myself working for nobody, you know, like I didn't want to work for nobody. And then me seeing like how much money I was making off of selling dope.

Shit, I was like that was gonna be about next question. Were you really baking that much or was it like high school level you were making.

No, I was making a lot of money because we just I was done there day and night, like I didn't. It was rare that I went home like we would sell out, go re up, come right back downtown. Like me and my best friend we had to go like niggas were about to sell out, sell out three times, come back down this motherfucker.

Wow. Okay, okay, so you were you were kind of addicted to the hustle. But what did you do with all the money?

Shit, we we blew the money like we blew the money in like clothes going out, and then how we really lost all the money. But it's coming from it. Like we got a hotel room and hearts on Boulevard and we needed a lighter. So my dumb ass, I'm going outside to get a lighter. I see a crackhead. The store is closed, so literally I see the crackhead. I'm like, hey, man, I got a dollar, give me a lighter. I'm giving this motherfucker the dollar. The fucking

So they went to the room.

No, they didn't go to the room. That's how he went to the room. My best friend seen him from the window. His dumb ass, he come outside like trying to see what's going on with me. They stopped him. This motherfucker on probation too, so bam. Now they got probable calls to search the room. They take the key, they go to the room, but him, he goes before they come to the room. He go hide the dope down the hall in the trash can.

So he was smart.

He was smart, okay, and missed me in the car. He telling me that were cool and all that. So I'm thinking we cool. The motherfucker dude from the hotel that he come and showed the police what he just did. Oh my god, he's showing the dope. You're showing the dope. So then what happens They rest my best friend?

Oh, they didn't rest you.

I wasn't by it. They had no proof that I.

Had, oh, because they had him on cameras.

They had him on camera doing that shit. So after that that, my dope was over.

What happened to your best friend?

He went down for like I want to say, for like like sixteen months.

Okay, so what if your original dishes? I heard was gonna be the spread. I had the spread on the show before, and the original reason of the spread is for well, what I heard was it's for people that go to jail. Yeah, so you were gonna do the spread dishes, the original dish.

Y'all gonna do the spread dish because not even because of jail shit. It was like the spread is like that's just some fast shit, Like.

It's terrible. I've had it.

What you had in it, though.

It was like a bunch of random stuff. It was like chips ramen. It was like everything you get at a seven eleven or a dollar store just mashed together. Nacho cheese.

That's some nasty as see. I ain't gonna eat no ship that's gonna look like slot. You know what I'm saying. I'm gonna make that ship look good.

Like, so, what would you have?

Spread?

Because when I got the text that you were gonna do a spread, I.

Was like, my spread was gonna be top ramen, noodles.

Okay, that was the other one. Yeah, hoto, that was the other one. Yep, that was the other one.

A hot pickle okay, and a tartilla ship and pork rhymes.

That doesn't even sound good. I'm so glad I didn't even do that.

I promised to God, you would have ate that ship. I'm like, hey, I would have ate it and been like what have done? Nah? I promise you I'm gonna have to see you something and you can test it out on your own.

I'll for surely test it. I'll test it and I'll definitely put my step. But please, nobody go to jail ever.

You know what I'm when I cook, if be having a music playing, you know what I'm saying, that's how you get the flavor.

You don't look like you cook it all the way. You was looking at this stove like a foreign machine.

I ain't cook.

So after you quit the drug business, what was your next food?

I was always rapping, So that was like, that was it. But after the drug business, I started sucking at working at a jack in the box.

I worked at jacking, the one that said I'm never going to work for somebody.

I had a job, don't get me wrong. My first job was Nick check cashing. Okay, yeah, I worked a Nick check cashing and I got fired because they want to do the security check on me.

What was you doing?

I was working at Nick. So I was like, I don't know, it's just money around me.

So I was just was sticky fingers. I was, yeah, I look, if I worked for a bank, I would be up there with Ludell Robin Bake like this don't make no sense. I'm getting paid this bunch and I've said around all this money.

Yeah, So it was like it was that So I didn't go to the security test, So I I uh terminated from nick check Cash and then from nick check Cashing. It was a jacket of box jack in the box.

But you weren't selling dope at the time.

No, I wasn't selling dope at jacket box.

Okay, So I said at the time, no, no, no, no, no, So you're going you went straight legit and then you go for making all this money to legit. What was when you was looking at those paychecks? Like who for making all that money to make it a little bit of money? What were you thinking?

I don't know, because it was not It was like it sit still seemed the same.

You mean, like the drug money equal the save as the jacket the box fuddy.

No, like it just seemed the same, Like like I wasn't noticing the money, like you know what I'm saying, Like I'm not noticing money because I didn't. I wasn't caring for that shit, if it makes any sense, Like no, like I wasn't like adding that ship up to calculate how like it was getting money, Like I got some money coming in, That's all I worried about.

I got some money that got it, got it?

I wasn't really into like I know for sure. It was the more I was making is selling dope.

Hell yeah, yeah, because I know some people like when they go for making a lot of money to like work at a regular job, it is a little bit of a culture shock, like yoa, I've been working two weeks, that's all I got. But when you're young, it's not no, you're like eighteen or yeah, I.

Was young eighteen nineteen, Okay, it was like nothing. As long as I had money to buy some something fresh away and put gas in my car, buy some food. I wasn't tripping off of like this shit.

And you didn't go to college.

I went to college, but it didn't work out. I only even went to college for like two days.

Oh wow, And what were your parents sake? Drink all of this.

Shit? Nothing? It was split up.

Oh yeah, they were split, so they weren't saying anything.

There was on my My pops is on my ass. My mom she was like she wasn't really saying nothing because I had a job. She wasn't really saying anything. Possible. Was just still on my ass because he always wanted me to do better than he did. You know what, I'm saying he's always on me.

Okay, yeah, are you and your pops still close?

Hell yeah, that's my nigga.

And then your siblings you just you're not as close with you're older, but you have a young girl.

Yeah. Me and my big sister, Like she's weird, bro, Like I promise she's weird.

I feel like we're like cousins on the couch and you're talking to me. You're like, Yo, she's just weird.

Bro, Like she's weird. I love her, but she's like I don't know what happened to my sister, like mentally, like you know what I'm saying, she ain't all there, no more, Like this ain't the same big sister that I'm used to, So I gotta like when I be talking to her, i'd be having to adapt, like it hurt my feelings sometimes, like damn, this ain't my fucking big sister right here? Is it? Is?

There like a sensitivity there, like could you give me bored like details?

I could, but I don't know if I'm I don't want to expect my sister in sam shit, that's not true, you know what I'm saying, Like I don't know, just be just like I don't know if she do drugs or it's just maybe it's alcohol or maybe uh the depth of my mom. Yeah, that fucked her up. But I just know, like it's not the same, you know what I'm saying, Like, I can't even have no conversation with.

You really when you say that? Does it? Is it because it'll break out into a fight or disagreement or is it like.

She is fucking She'll hang up.

Oh, she'll hang up. Yeah, I'm gonna hang up her like okay, okay. So she has like some either boundaries or something going on there.

I don't even know if it's boundaries or I don't know. I really don't know what it is. I'll be like, I'm still trying to figure shit out. Today she called me today. I answered, cause I know how, I know how. The conversation was gonna gonna say, what's doing a nigga? I'm like, shiit chilly, She's all right, how the kids doing. I'm like they fine. She's like, all right, nigga, talk to you later, and it'll.

Be like that, Oh okay, I see, I'm like, what the That's how my dad handles us on Sundays, Like every Sunday, We'll get a call and he'll be like, hey, what's going on. And I'll be like, the house blew up, I'm broke and I'm homeless on crack, and he'll be like all right. Well, he'd be like, all right, have a good day. Talk to you next Sunday. And I'll be like, all right, every Sunday, I'll try, like something

That's all that matters. I talked to her, I talked to my My pops actually get mad when I don't talk to him, and shit like I don't call this nigga like in two days, three days, this nigga get mad at me. He so with you, nigga, I'm like, what you mean, what's up? You're feeling yourself? I'm like, bro like, come on, my nigga, I'm grown as fuck now you that's so cute.

I love that. Shout to the pops.

Shout out to the pops.

Okay, what about your other siblings?

My little sister, Yeah, man, she's a fucking I don't know. She's like, she's like a little big sister, you know what I mean, how she carried herself like she she's more mature than me.

Okay, yeah, how much younger is she than you? This fucking lexi's the age difference.

I don't even know to be that's hilarious. I don't even know that's hilarious. I don't even know how my big sister is. I'm just being honest with you.

But you don't know the age gap. Everyone knows the age gap age, but I know we're like seven years apart.

Man, I don't know if my I don't even know. I think my little sister twenty nine or something. I don't know she's twenty nine or thirty. She's somewhere around there.

Okay, so you have a good relationship with her.

Yeah, that's my nigga. I'm like, yeah, that's my dog.

There's nothing better to talking shit about siblings behind their back and in front of their face.

Yeah.

So take me on past the Jack in the Box. You're doing rap music on the side. What happens next?

Uh shit, you're fired from Jack in the Box. They trying to make me wear some skinny ass pants and this was like skinny jeans was not even in Like they're like you can't I'm sagging and shit, and uh yeah, I'm just sagging and my clothes was too big. So they fired me from Jack in the Box. And then I kept making complaints. I kept getting burnt on it taco machine, Like fucking taco is too hot. You gotta crack them bitches over it and put some cheese in

So there what happened?

From there? I go? I go to Walmart right right across the street, right across the street on King Krishaw, so right across the street in my Walmart, and I ain't gonna lie. That was like the best job.

Ever really why.

Because it was like I was back in high school again.

No way, I promised.

It was like Walmart was.

Like it was like kicking it. Are you gonna spear in the store.

I was a courtey associated so all I had to do is I was in the parking lot walking, get the baskets out the parking lot, help you with their stuff to their car, and get tips and ship.

That's it.

That's it.

Okay, that's so all.

Day I did that. Okay, So he's being a parking lot, smoking, drinking, hilarious talking to females and ship like, yeah, Walmart was the ship. Okay, shout out the Walmart shout out. And when they fired me, look, I got my job right back. They couldn't get rid of me.

Why did they fire you?

Because I was in the parking lot doing too much? So they kept I was in the parking lot doing too much.

But did they hire you back?

Yeah? Because I called the corporate office on the ass like uh uh, and they gave me my job.

Okay, So then what happens after this whole job? Working a job? I want to get closer to fanatics.

From the job. The fanatics was not even in existence at this point. I want to say fanatics. Fanatics started existing, Like when I got out of jail.

Okay, Oh, so you did end up going to jail?

Hell yeah?

For how long?

I want to say, two years?

Was it the downtown jail?

No? Hell?

No? Yo?

Yeah? Men tell yeah that was terrible.

She is terrible. It's unsafe. No, it's no way, it's unsafe because I have no windows or bars.

That's not even why it's unsafe. It's unsafe because the fucking police down there. That's why it's unsafe.

Do you think the police were hell man.

Any nigga to go to jail, they'll tell yours. The police they's the worst. They'll set your ass up, they'll put your ass onwhere you ain't supposed to be, or they'll do something to your ass and then it's just that's just like that shit low key like I ain't

It would have been about last time go to jail.

They would have beat your ass in there, they would have did something to you. You would have came back.

I went to that jail because like they had me on the You ever see the Lisha Keys video where she's on the jail bus. I was on one of those jail busses from the valley to l A. And those cops were assholes, by the way. They were definitely mean.

That's not the that's not the ones. It's the ones they call the boobob squad. Yeah, it's the boobob squad. The boobob squad to get your ass. It's some buff ass butf ass white cops. You feel me, and they get your ass. It's like, I don't know the county jail, it's JANKI.

Okay, but it's fun though, it's fun.

It's fun, Like.

It's fun the history of I've never heard of soon.

Know what I'm saying, Like, it ain't no you know how people say jails like like it's like the worst thing.

Was the worst. I went there and I was like never going back.

It's bad. But it's like once if you got to be in that motherfucker, you know you're not getting out no time soon. You're gonna have to adapt to this y. Yeah, So that's why I said it wasn't like not bad, It's like, could you start getting to be friends with motherfuckers.

And shit like, okay, so you like kicking it, You're kicking it at this point. I know what I was in jail. I was taking out with like prostitutes and it was not fun. I was like, why do you guys even have it doesn't even make sense.

Nah, I ain't playing like that, But that shit is like when you got to grow to that ship and you got to adapt to it.

I was only in there for like twenty four hours. Yeah, so I was counting the minutes, like, please let me out of this place.

I was in for a couple of years.

So what did you go in for?

Oh shit, some shit?

Okay, some shit? Well do you want to leave it at that?

Yeah?

Okay, so you get out?

Then what As soon as I get out, I really started taking the music series okay, because I gained my confidence, Like I really got my confidence from jail. Okay, because I was rapping on them boom hard or I'm like, I ain't scared to wrap in front of motherfuckers no more. I couldn't do that ship. So that's where I gained my confidence at and I just start taking that shit more and more serious. You know what I'm saying I had people. I had a couple of people that worked

And then what because you're you're more of a power player. Yeah, I feel like you're not really.

So I always had pushed fanatics, so it was just me, Like I said, it was just me, and I was saying fanatic game.

I always needed some like a little gang.

I needed a game. I went to Hollywood Born Grill and I run it too. My boy j R. He was the part of the tax crew, tattoo crew called in in so it was like a tattoo squad is ship. So he introduced me to everybody else and that's how I medt my other party that's on the song when we don't drop the thing Nigga easy. And from there on we just clicked. Like I started, I joined the tattoo Squad. That's how I end up getting all these fucking.

Yeah, you got a lot of tats, you got you got a.

Right here you got my blood dress? What you say I love me? I think one of them saying I'm single, let me say I love me I'm single.

That one says I'm single. Why did you put I'm single?

What's your sign?

Aquarius?

Are you cool than a motherfucking you know what I'm saying? You know what I'm saying. Cool?

Why does it say I'm single?

Man, I was going through some ship.

You're a break up.

But he was like and then little then Lil Wayne, Little Wayne. I'm a fucking diehard Little Wayne fan.

Like Lil Wayne's dope. I was gonna ask you who you're who you looked up to? I'm a j fan. I don't know if you saw my jay Z painting and that.

I'm a jay Z fan. I'm a I'm saying when I stopped listening to.

Jay Z, please say it was after the Black album.

I stopped listening. It's not the same, no more after that. It's not after tell you something.

Let me tell you something. That is exactly what happened to me. But but it was like after the Black album, I didn't honestly, I didn't really value for for four either. What came after the Black Album? There was another album in between.

Was it American Americans, American Gangs?

It was pretty hard, but yeah it was. I think there was one. But I remember after the Black Album, I was like, yeah, because I wasn't really feeling it.

It wasn't it because a black album was. It was literally like.

But what I will say to give jay Z credit is there was a long point in my life where I didn't like reasonable doubt. There was, like I would say, for at least five years, I was not feeling reasonable doubt. Then as I got older, I went back and listened to a reasonable doubt joke.

That's what happened to me. After the fucking What's the Dynasty?

The Dynasty? Dynasty was dope record.

Yeah yeah, So after that, I think the Dynasty and the Blue with the Dynasty Blue. So after that, my uncle always listened to reason with Doubt. Yeah, that's when I went back and listened to I'm like, oh, same, Like what's.

T I T Yeah, okay.

I used to listen to him. I think it was like his first record, his first album, I forgot. I think it was Urban Legend. I'm like, just tak it hard, and then that shit just changed, Like he stopped being TI, so I stopped listening to Ti Okay, same ship with Ludacris.

Well, Lula, Yeah, no, I'm just I can't even believe I admitted that I broke up with jay Z for a little bit over the Black Eyes. It was the truth. And then I felt like he started getting so rich that I couldn't relate to a lot of his records, Like he was name dropping names that I ain't never heard. I'm like, yo, I'm not your demo anymore.

I can't reciprocate this shit talking about who.

But I'm glad that's kind of cool that we okay. And then Lil Wayne, who by the way, is extremely talented. I remember when he dropped. It was like with Little Zaye and like when all those little boppers were dropping, and I had a huge crush on Little Zayne at the time.

I think all the girls had a crush on Little Zaye.

But Lil Wayne ended up being more of just a more well rounded artist, and I think we really didn't see his maturity till like ten years later, to be honest, because like his first he was cool, but then I don't.

Know where he died. Hard Wheezy fan like he's amazing. He's amazing.

But I'm saying like when I was younger, I don't think it wasn't until I got older I was like, oh, this guys, he's not a rap artist. He's in He's just a well rounded artist, like you know. And then I'll just be like, please, let nothing happen awayne because he's so talented. But you know, drugs and alcohol, you'd be scared for some of these artists, like please. Like DMX was one of my favorites.

I swear to god DMX Damian that she used the scared I used to listen to Damien because that she's to be scary. But it's like I'm like this nigga rapping, then he rapping in the whole other voice, like talking that she was hard to me.

Let me tell you, I saw DMX like a month before he a month and a half, maybe two months before he died at an airport. And I don't I don't get like fanned out, except for like jay z J. I've been known to stutter like just can't I met jay z and I had it was it was such a rush. I wish they would have just understood that. I just needed to sit still and just own it for a minute. They were like, hey, jay Z me Colleen, And it was like, ohh let me take it in

Hold on rap rapping Drake. I say, Drake, he put that ship out there. You could listen to him just rapping, but it's the shitty be saying about the song about the relationships and ship like I just feel like cuz it's just talking to me, like my situation is like with a female, like the shitty be saying I me, like, damn, nigga, do you is you right here? Is conscious?

Well maybe that's why he wrote that out for your for his boys or whatever. But I listen, first of all, anytime Drake sings, I just I can't. I can't last three seconds. It doesn't really no, I can't do it. It has to be him rapping, and that only like if he has a half record and it's half raps and half songs, I literally will only listen to the raps. I don't even give the songs a chance.

You know what I've been doing that lately too, though, when it gets to the singing part of the shit, yeah, because the beat change and shit skipping that shit.

You know who else I've been sleeping on and I hate to admit it, J Cole.

I what's that that nineteen forty two is the album or something? Was it nineteen forty eight or some ship. That's when I started fucking with one of the albums. That's when I started fucking with Jake Cole because I was in prison at the time and that album Big Sean Dim Shits was like, I don't think I've ever.

Really listened to a full J Cole album. I just know that sometimes on my Apple Music. I don't know how I ended up with J Cole songs in my downloads, but I'm like, oh, he's got a frush. When I would give his albums a try, I would always feel like J Cole no't disrespect, but like, who produces those tracks exactly? He needs to just stop producing tracks and just stick to rapping.

I don't know, I've just I just I've been feeling them.

Yeah, But like I said, as I get older, I'm like, you know, J Cole is definitely dope. But I definitely like a certain sound.

You need to stick to wrap.

Yeah. Yeah, I'm a terrible rap critic. You know, if these guys got in the room, they'd probably be irritated. They could clown me, you know, don't don't the dunt All right, all right, feed me.

Let me guess you one of these tacos.

I need a call up.

You want to grab right here? Yeah?

You could? You could touch my food?

You want?

You want to use a hand sanitizer.

First, my hand. I don't want to be touching my people's food.

They be touching my food all the time in here.

Yeah.

No, I'll tell you what's crazy is what people will have meat and they besides meat. And I'll be like, y'all if I would have known you were touching the meat. We have plastic gloves.

And handle the food with But I'm saying Grandma didn't use that ship back in the day.

She said no. But when you're doing a podcast, it's like, okay, but what if you have to touch the bike and touch.

This, They're gonna be on your ass online. Okay, let me get this tacolready. So you say you don't like hot sauce.

Did you put hot sauce in it. You said no, no hot sauce. Oh, I wanted you to make it your way.

That's you put the hot sauce on it.

After word, I'm just wondering where the ketchup gets in here? Where does the ketchup get it?

Ketch in there? Oh? But it goes on top of it too.

Okay, so you put the ketchup in with the meat in the season. This is different, and you use the whole packet of taco season.

Yes.

Oh, let's see how salty this bad boy is.

The ketchup, the ketchup.

Okay, you're gonna put bore ketchup on it.

You just talk though, Hold on, little ketch up.

I feel like we're inside your baba's living group right now. Yeah, please don't put too much hot sauce.

I ain't gonna bring you up like that.

So killer, I'm having so much fun with you today, truly a breath of fresh air. Okay. We've literally could be hobies of the outside eyes side of life. Okay, So now that we're close, I could clown you for like three seconds.

Three seconds.

So you got two tattoos above your eyebrows, one that says I love me and the other one that says I'm single. This is reading very emotional. Yeah, tell me the story.

Man, I fucking around.

Oh no, no, no, speaking to the mic, I.

Fucking around and got into a relationship with the devil. That's what happened, you feel me.

I got it.

I actually got a trick into a relationship. What do you mean, Like I was dealing with a girl and we was just kicking it, you know what I'm saying, like every day and the whole time, I'm like, I'm telling them, like, I never be in a relationship with you, because I know how she get down.

To get that.

She's a player.

Oh do you mean like a like a dude, like players, like a nigga.

Like yeah, she's like that. So me knowing how she was, I told her I'd never been in a relationship with And I want to say when I was well, I was sixteen. That's when I first got with this girl. And the bitch was pregnant.

She was pregnant when you were dating her.

And I didn't know she was pregnant. I wasn't sucking it, okay, so we wasn't having stake, but she was pregnant. The whole time. Okay, she was sucking with her older nigga, like he was picking her up from high school. And so that was like my first time dealing with her, and she just got on disappeared and I didn't know what was going on. Yeah, I found out like, oh this bit is pregnant. Okay, so but yeah, the same girl. I ended up getting her after I told her I

It was like, your name is killer. I wasn't you know, he wasn't killing it.

I wasn't killing I'm like, I was in love with this bitch.

He was in love.

I was, okay. So she was like she was just doing everything like you know what I'm saying. She feeding me, she picking me up. She had the whip, so she was picking me up, feeding me. She got her own place, so basically she was like on some baby and me type shit. But she was giving me her car.

So you were in love?

Yeah, I was just comfortable. And then one day on the free reach, she said it like she like, we're gonna be together, and I'm like, she's staying. She went on like nigga staying at my house, getting me call your money and all this stuff, and I'm like, damn, you're right okay, And it went like that.

Okay, so you ended up Twitter and then what you fell in love? Damb in love, dumb love, so cute. It's you can tell you was in love because of these tattoos, right, So tell me what happened? How old were you where you got these?

Damn I'm gonna say like twenty four.

Okay, So you guys get in a fight here. I'm trying.

I'm trying to know. So okay, So, like I said, I was into I was in the tattoo crew. But let me tell you about the female though.

Like I said, the devil, the devil, the devil.

When I was dealing with this girl, she had sugar daddies, not one, not too she has like I ain't know about it. I just seen them hot. Yeah she was. She was a little bad little bit but now she like that was like that bitch.

Like okay, and she's still bad though. I mean, she's still hot.

Ain't nothing bad than the sugar. Okay, sugar the ship.

What does that mean? What does that mean?

You don't know? Baby?

What, Yeah, what.

You seen Friday before? Like you don't know, baby, But she was cool. She was a cool female, and she was like down to earth. She was like she was like a nigga. She had like the hommiye or something. So I was likely really attaching then, making long story short, she was doing her ship, so I was like doing my little ship. Fem me a phone. So I came home one night, I put my phone on my shoe.

Mm hmm.

You know how she woke me up? She slapped me in my face with the iron.

With real iron like like that not hot, was like the iron.

Bom. I wake up like what and she was just going crazy. That's how I got cut right here.

Oh my god. Domestic violence.

Yeah, she had a knife. She had a knife. So I'm in the room. She's trying to stab me. Bro, She's trying to stab me, but my wrist is like I don't know my wrists. One of my wrists is like fucked up. It was fucked up, fractured or something like that. So she had the knife, but she was. She was carving. It was like cutting my wrists, like cutting my hand. My gosh, she was crazy. So it was cutting my hand and her it was her her grandmother walking there, and her grandmother yelled at me, let

It's like your first rap CD.

Yeah, so it's like I just got to print it up and ship. I ain't never had no CDs before. So it was like I was like it was a big accomplishment before me. So she did that ship. She was in the middle of the streets. I swear she was possessed. She had my CDs like snapping, like making an evil face like.

All from the one good Night text.

From the one good Night text.

Okay, so did you break up with her right away?

Oh? Yeah, it was done after that because my music is I love music.

Okay, but all right, so you break up with her, take me to where the tattooing happened.

So now I'm back in my mom house and I'm just going through it because I ain't not where I want to be in life.

And all your CDs are gone.

All my CD is gone. This girl I was a girl, my love. So I'm like all going through all that ship and I'm part of the tattoo. Yeah, I'm like, bucket, let me go get a tattoo. And I couldn't think of nothing. I'm like my favorite song. I'm single. Oh, So it's like it's just I'm a little Wayne fan. So it's just like, yeah, I love me, I love me.

Just in general, I just think it's such a profound statement for a guy to put on his body. It's like it's kind of deep, you know, Yeah, but you don't expect the guy to do that because you know it's a little deep, especially guy with a.

Really got I got some I got a voodoo doll.

Yeah, but you have I love me. I think that's very sweet. It's very sweet.

Yeah.

So but now every time you look at those tattoos, do you think about the devil. Does your girl know the story about the tattoos?

I don't think she would even care?

Okay, yeah, okay, okay, because she's the devil too. It says every guy, every guy. I think guys like their girl before they're their girl, but the second they become like official, they don't like they girl. No more.

Hell no girl. But it's like she's fucking crazy.

Maybe you like the crazy chicks.

I do like the crazy chicks.

A lot of guys like that. They'd be like, chump out the bushes, but don't jump out the bushes, but jump out the bushes.

Don't jump up the bushes, don't jump out with no knife, scare me, don't come.

Out of knife. There's like limits to the game. Murder me.

You don't want no punpant you know what I'm saying, Show me that you care. If you show a guy, there's no emotions for if he do wrong, he's gonna run over your ass. Really hell yeah, he go out there fucking shit and you find out and you don't do nothing to his ass, like or say nothing or a complaint. Oh yeah, I'm gonna.

Tell you right now. I shouldn't say this, but my husband soon to be possibly it husband. Anyways, he did some ship the other day and he has been He hasn't talked to me in a couple of days, and from what I've gathered this he's afraid to come see. But I took the call. I think the scariest thing of what we could do is be silent. Sometimes sometimes when a woman is silent, all you're thinking is what is going on in her head?

Now? When women signed to me, I think she's doing something really hell yeah, really hell yeah. But woman, I feel like this, But a woman mess with it, keep messing with like you mess up, and she just keep messing with you, like, oh that's okay, Oh no, all that something ain't right.

Oh. My husband will ask me stuff like he always implied that achieve. But I'm like, I've never cheated on anybody, so it's like a no brainer. But I be also the type that once I get quiet, that usually means I'm plotting and exit.

That's what I'm saying.

It's not I'm cheating, It's I'm plotting and eggtive. No, it just means like I don't want to act on emotions anymore. I want to start proces to seek my emotions.

So you're premeditating the breakup.

Yes, men do it all the time. Everyone doesn't when you get a breakup. See, there's two types of breakups. There's a breakup that's emotional fuck you, I'm done, I'm done. And then a week later you come back.

That's stupid.

Now that happens, say three times, I'm like, okay. By the fourth time, I'm like, you know what, You're starting to disrupt my peace. This is starting to be something you do. Like you know what, him breaking up with you?

Are you breaking with him?

Not the breakup, but like, say you you cross the threshold. I'll give you example. My husband did not come home the other night.

M hm.

Also okay, but what does that mean? Though my husband's a whore, it's easy. But he called me at like six pm the next day and he was like, hello, I noticed you didn't call me. I was like, for what. He's like, well, I'm just gonna tell you why I didn't call you. I was afraid, afraid of what because in my mind, I'm like, I'm starting the process different. I'm like, I'm not gonna yell at you for what. You're gonna do what you want to do. It's out

Don't really hate nags. I already don't hate a nag because it's showed me that you give to give some type of fuck about me.

You're hilarious, are you nagging at me?

Like damn, she must really give a fuck about me?

Really, you're like into those toxic Really, I'm not toxic.

That's toxic, you know, And you're not showing me no emotion that about none of the ship I do. So it's gonna make me like, oh, you don't give up?

Well yeah after a while. Yeah, I know with my husband, like he did be dirty if we separated for like a year, and like he's shown so many bad hands to me. At this point, I'm like.

How long we are married?

We've been married almost three years, but the last year doesn't really count. We were separated, but he came back. I'm like, I'm a pimp.

I'm a wolf.

I'm this I'm like, uh said he was a wolf to my dad and my dad was like what. I was like, you sad my dad was a wolf. I was like, you're more like a cub.

But what's wrong with you?

This nigga is stupid? But this nigga walk around. He's like, I'm gonna pimp. I think I'm gonna be a pimp. And okay, but I'll tell you one thing. Pimps are usually smart. They don't lose the woman they don't like. Your woman is your greatest asset if you're doing her white. If you're not doing her right, she could be your worst enemy. But like, if you're doing your woman rights, she is your greatest asset. There's no better ride or die than a woman that's in your corner.

For real.

Yeah, she'll be more loyal than your.

Holies in what you probably understanding with you that.

Let me tell you so, I've had friends that go to jail and most of their homies don't keep up with them, but they girls with them, A lot of them. They girls do. It depends because some of the y' all like to date like girls that are certain types of women. Huh. Like I got some girlfriends that are like straight up players, like the Devil Girl. Now they'd be like, Oh, he fucked up. I'm out here in the streets.

Oh yeah, it's a lot of them, Like, it's a lot of them that don't. Ain't like that, but they're.

Like that, Yeah, yeah, I don't do I don't do revenge stuff. I don't. I'll leave. I'll leave before I cheap. But my reasoning is that I secretly think I'm hot, so I'd be like, well, I could get anybody anytime. Why bother cheating, Like the second we break up, I could fill that roster less than a week. But no, I don't. But but I'm just saying I don't cheat because I know that I'll always.

Have What is that's not cheated?

Still, No, if you don't cheat, break up, if you break.

Up with him tomorrow, tell me today, break on with today, you have sex tomorrow? Is that cheating?

I don't do that. I'm just saying, if you break up today and you have sex tomorrow. No, that's not cheating.

Why it's not cheating.

I'm gonna tell you right now. I don't do that because I believe that what are the worst things that could happen is have you ever broke up with somebody and then you get with somebody else and it was whack and you're like, why did I do that? You're only gonna think about the person more exactly, So I would never do that. I've heard so many dudes do that and they'd be like, it's the worst you have sex with somebody.

I think a lot of my relationships was like I was theb don't crip. I feel like I was a rebound. Like still to this day, I feel like I'm the rebound nigga. Yeah, because I get with a girl and then it'd be like like hold on, like nah, what you know, don't try to be all levy double.

With me my boyfriends rebound.

That's fucked up? Like why I got to be the one to get everything? Like I don't want to be the reband? Why I never had no girl that was just like mine?

That is, just because you're a rebound doesn't make it yours.

She's about being with a girl. They always was still in love with their eggs or it was. I never had no girl that was just like.

Like mine baby violence.

Yeah, like this is my baby, like you would never think killer.

This is how you are in real life.

That's why I am. That's why I am the way I am because I don't know, but it's sugar. Though, damn y'all always been a rebound.

I don't know if I've ever been a rebound. I will say this, though, I'll be paranoid that dudes will try to trap me. I'm a baby, always paardo about being trapped with a baby. I love you feel like you know, I'll be I'll be scared of that stuff. I'll be scared. I feel like dudes be here, they'd be like, I want to keep her, and then they ain't going about it.

Dudes to do that, they're trapping.

They do, and they always make like women do it. It's men.

I think I do that before, No way really have.

The first time we had six, you mean the virginity one, No, the last one.

I tolduse it was like I had a crush on her for like a long ass time. So I used to always tell my partner when I seen her, I was like, man, I'm married that bit right there. I always said, that's my wife right there. And when I finally got her, I was like, damn, you got her? What you gonna do? It was just too much so because she like she was like a hot commodity, you know what I'm saying. Yeah, And it was just like I don't know, but now she cool?

Now she could, Well, y'all have how many kids together? Y'all got like a bunch of kids together.

Now you got some kids?

You guys married? Yet why I was engaged tour? What happened?

No, I ain't tied a knife fashion that.

What she changed her mind on?

You?

You get sad right now.

Because I'm back down and redlaying now. Yeah, man, home ain't home no more.

It's bad right now, but hopefully it'll work out. Sometimes what I'm learning now that I'm almost forty is like it's a maturity thing. Like I feel like like I don't take stuff personal. Like when my husband does stupid stuff, I'm like, okay, he's on like the stupid bus right now. It has nothing to do with it.

It's communication, you know, like if we communicating through uh fucking text messages yet like you mad at me, you text me your problems. I can't get jigged with that shit because I can't attack your ass back. When you're shooting that shit to me, I'm still reading and you just coming and coming, so I can't even respond back. I'm just like it. I don't want to. I don't want to text them.

You're hilarious. I heard a lot of guys hate the long text for women. I feel like it's better because otherwise I will I will end up cursing you out. And I also am Jamaican, so like sometimes if I get really mad, I speak pasta. Let me tell you so that nothing scares My husband bored than passway like he would be like, it's just broken English, and so he'll be like he'll think I'm possessed or something. It'll be like, you don't sound like that in real life.

Past past why past why wait?

Tell you yo? I just want to get to the fanatics finish line because we begetting off. Yeah all right, so she broke up your CDs. He was that whole cry with your little tattoos.

Yeah, I was part of Tattoo Cruiser Boom. I got my tattoos. And then I want to say, like a month later I started cracking. Really yeah, don't drop that.

Start And did she Did she ever reach out to you?

Oh? Hell yeah really?

And I was like it was you like, yeah's curving that?

Like yeah, because he's like I was with her. I was like always respectful. You know what I'm saying. Now my own I got money, she got my own car. Now trip, I don't need you for nothing. So yeah I got it. I got the best. Yeah, she was trying to come back.

Yeah. But were you secretly in your head super happy that you were able to curve her? Were you like every time I see.

That, it happens every time in my life. Once a woman exited my life, I elevate.

Really hell yeah what does that say though.

I'm thinking the wrong woman? Yeah, that's all it is.

Yeah, that's how I think it was.

Like I ain't want to be alone.

Yeah you know what I'm saying, Yeah, look at you killer. I would never think this side of you is so beautiful? What else can we expect next from you?

Right now? I got a project called Ugly. It's all right now, I got them dropped Ugly Part two January. Uh, you have to just opened up a closing store on Melrose Grind to be rich closing.

We're gonna try to get famous failures in there.

Right, famous failures.

Why are you? Why are you froze like that doesn't know famous spell famous failures and.

Famous failures were in this bitch like a baby. Yeah, yeah, okay, yeah, yeah, were gonna get that in the closing store. And uh shit, I got merchandise. I'm sure I can't.

Show you you can't. I we'll take pictures with it. It looks good. So what was the hardest part about fanatics?

The hardest part is like the business part.

Yeah.

So basically the situation was we had a manager. The motherfucking manager was our lawyer and our manager. That's terrible, terrible, terrible. Yeah, but we ain't we ain't knowing that. Yeah that sh went on and yeah.

Right here, so was there uh money, no money, money, no money, yes, money, but.

We never we have never seen a fucking a check like for no amount, never seen. I never seen no check. Like, but I get money, but I've never seen this ship physically. What you mean I never seen a check before? How I never seen a check?

How did you get your money?

The manager cash? Uh? Directed? Not direct? But uh, you know it's seen that ship zel or oh yeah, but we never know how much the money is, like we well never know, like I never know how much money. How much money it was that you got paid?

Wow? How was that possible?

This is yank the music Janky.

So it's not like that for you now though, right.

Right, right, right now? He is jan right now.

Do you still have the same manager and lawyer?

No?

But you're independent now independent, So it's not Jankie.

No, it's not Jankie's like me doing it. Like now I'm saying, like the ship that I have that's going for me is JANKI like the situation like I can't do nothing, I can't do it with that ship.

Well you can perform it and still making Yeah that's it. But it's not like you can't get no publishing or anything.

Yeah, because he owned publishing and the record was on the publishing.

Oh that's terrible.

Yeah, I'm not getting the publishing from that ship.

That's terrible. Yeah yeah, So now now you're on all your publishing and everything.

Now, no, now I do but that the ship that matters.

So how much money did you actually end up walking away with from that song?

I won't say, like a couple hundred thousand damn?

And did you blow it off?

Yeah?

What did you blow it? All?

Just on surviving just like just like you know uspur it's still like just surviving, you know. Yeah, Like the money from wasn't like no money you could just go crazy with. Yeah, yeah, you know what I'm saying.

It was just like so you managed it enough to be able to survive for.

A while, for a while, for a while till this day.

Now you it's till this day. That's really good. That's really good. So now you have this new project that you're doing independently, one hundred percent independent. Who's on the project with you?

Right now? I got features from a side of Baby.

Everybody likes baby every time. I sorry, let me just tell you something, but I was pregnant with my daughter. If you played sid a baby, she would like jump all around in my stomach. It was weird. Baby it would be like a baby.

She'd be like, oh.

My god, she's gonna be Rach now to this day, if she hears bad music, she's like Bobby, that's like okay, but outside of Baby, Okay? Who else where.

Side of Baby from Detroit?

Did Detroit? Yeah? I don't like side of Baby?

Sorry, I just don't. I fuck with you school, you know I fuck with you.

I'm not supposed to say that. Okay, Si of Baby is amazing.

You might pull up on your ass, go back, pull up?

Okay, Okay, okay, So you got side of the Baby?

Who else? I got zold something on there? A little Vada G five okay, young.

Saying okay, okay, okay, good. So did the album already drop?

Yeah? Ugly is out right now, Ugly Ugly Partly one is out right now, Part two dropping. I'm gonna drop that shit next month.

And then do you now that you own your own stuff? Do you get like every time someone buys it, you get a check or.

You get a check? All that no check, you get a discro? Kid, I still get being my checksie. You know what I'm saying.

But kid, is there anything outside of the store on Melrose and ugly that you're doing, Like are you looking at to acting or any other facets of production.

We actually do the acting. We do movies like short films and shit. We got one out right now called Eviction.

Where is it out on?

Man? If I tell you what happened to me, you would have believed. So it was on my YouTube, like I want to say, like last week, my whole everything was canceled, like I mean, hijack.

How some hijackers you'd be like off YouTube strip.

My YouTube strip, my YouTube and my email. So I'm going through some shit right now with Google to get all my ship back.

But do you have the actual movie on a hard drive or something.

Probably in my text message or something like that. Wow?

Yeah, okay, this sounds pretty bad.

It's bad right now, like the whole situation with the everything's bad. Only thing I got to myself right now is motherfucking Spotify and my Apple Music and shit like that. But my you tube, all that's been compromised.

Oh that sucks. Yes, I got alert recently on one of our pages, and I just was praying it was fake because I think our Facebook page got pulled for a second. But I don't think it got pulled the good good it would suck because it takes so long to build a following.

Bro. One hundred and one hundred and twenty two thousand followers.

Were getting from YouTube too. Yeah, how good are those checks for YouTube?

YouTube is like the ship. YouTube is the ship, bro, especially if you really got your ship hooked that right, Like, yeah, YouTube is it?

Yeah? Well, I know a lot of people are producing movies on tub now and they're making like nice little checks off that. Yeah, you may have to put eviction on TB. Yeah then maybe the look I know someone that can hook that up. I got to play, okay, Yeah, all right, Well, thanks guys for listening and eating catchup tacos. That Hollywood it.

No, I don't say that because she she looks she parked Caucasian and y'allso she ain't like to ketch up in the she ain't putting enough hot sauce on there.

I love, I love, I love nothing more that I love when people break up my little bit of whiteness. I'm a jud Just for the record, I don't think that's really white. I don't think jee's are white. Not really all right, guys, thanks for tuning in to another episode of Eating While Broke. Peace For more Eating While Broke from iHeartRadio and The Black Effect, visit the iHeartRadio app, Apple podcasts, or wherever you listen to your favorite shows.