Our Developmental Desires With the world in such a state of change—especially as we approach another election—I find myself thinking about what really drives us at different stages of life. It’s not just about individual wants; it’s about how these core desires we hold shape our development, connect us generationally, and ultimately steer the future we’re building together. As I explore these concepts for my book, The Quantum Age: The Future of Humanity Right Now , I wanted to share how our evol...
Oct 28, 2024•1 hr 14 min
This article’s voiceover was created with ElevenLabs . In my ongoing journey of self-coaching using ChatGPT, I've been diving deep into the Gene Keys system—a complex, esoteric framework that, at times, can feel overwhelming. The beauty of this journey, though, is that I can take it one thread at a time, asking questions and exploring concepts as they arise. This approach has allowed me to dissect and explore far-sightedness , a gift from Gene Key 17 , which arises when we move beyond the shadow...
Oct 10, 2024•8 min
As I’ve been navigating midlife myself, I’ve started to reflect on what it means to be a Millennial in this phase of life—especially as we begin to reckon with the emotional undercurrents that have shaped our experiences. It feels like we’ve been handed a world that’s shifting under our feet, with expectations placed on us by Baby Boomer parents while we’re also raising Gen Alpha children. And in the midst of all of this, I’m realizing that the real work—at least for me—isn’t about trying to cha...
Oct 08, 2024•6 min
In the world of personal growth, we often focus on eliminating what we consider "negative" parts of ourselves. We think if our ego shows up differently each day, something must be wrong. But development isn't linear, and we all host multiple ego states that serve unique purposes depending on our circumstances. This is especially clear through the lens of developmental psychology, particularly models like the Stages model and Spiral Dynamics . Both theories shed light on our evolving selves: Spir...
Oct 03, 2024•52 min
Today, I want to talk about something deeply personal, and something that I feel compelled to release—my relationship with moral superiority. It’s a topic that’s been occupying my mind for a while now, and it feels like the right moment to dive into it, especially since this reflection ties into asking for something that doesn’t come easily to me: help. For a long time, I’ve struggled with the idea of surrender, particularly the kind of surrender that feels like giving up or being defeated. But ...
Oct 02, 2024•48 min
Faith is a word loaded with meaning. For some, it evokes images of religious devotion—rituals, prayers, and sacred texts. For others, especially atheists or non-theists, it might feel like a distant concept, tied too closely to religion to be useful. But what if faith is more than belief in a higher power or adherence to religious doctrine? What if faith is something we all need, regardless of our spiritual orientation? Whether you’re deeply religious or firmly non-religious, faith plays a criti...
Oct 01, 2024•54 min
Releasing the Victim Complex I've been on quite the journey lately, diving deep into the waters of victim consciousness and narcissism. It’s been the lens through which I’ve viewed everything recently, not just in others but within myself too. It’s one of those topics that becomes clearer the more you explore it — because the more you see it in yourself, the more you see it in others. And let me tell you, it’s everywhere. We often think of narcissism and victimhood as opposites, but they’re not....
Sep 30, 2024•52 min
Show Notes: * Exploring how narcissism and victimhood dynamics impact gender relations and future generations * Understanding the psychological roots of narcissism and helplessness * Healing narcissism to foster healthier relationships between men and women * The generational impact of unresolved trauma and narcissism * How self-love can break the cycle and support the development of conscious, healthy children * Bridging the gender and political divide with compassion and understanding * Reach ...
Sep 05, 2024•1 hr 3 min
In today’s fast-paced world, feelings of loneliness and isolation are more common than ever. But what if your loneliness is rooted in the very idea that you’re “special”? In this article, we dive into the connection between narcissism, victimhood, and complex trauma, uncovering how shame spirals keep you trapped in cycles of self-sabotage. If you’ve ever felt alone, stuck, or consumed by shame, this might just be the key to understanding why. The Narcissism-Victimhood Paradox: Why You’re Not Spe...
Sep 01, 2024•52 min
Something I love about wrestling is that it creates this ability to look at a character, a person, and especially as a younger person, see yourself in that character. There are different personalities, expressions, stories, presentations, body types, colors that represent the person, pyro, theme music, and styles of wrestling - grapplers, brawlers, high flyers, agile people, ground and pound, etc. There are so many different types of characters that someone can go to a show and resonate with. Wh...
Aug 08, 2024•34 min
In recent episodes, I've explored the intricate concept of victim consciousness—a mindset that subtly keeps us stuck, preventing growth and self-actualization. While discussing this topic, I delved into the triggers that figures like Jordan Peterson and Elon Musk evoke in me. Not personally knowing them, it's fascinating how their public personas stir something deep within, bringing to light the narratives I've carried for years. Victim consciousness is not merely a matter of feeling sorry for o...
Aug 06, 2024•52 min
The voiceover is produced in Eleven Labs . I'm currently processing The Victim Identity , which is not a Matt Damon film but a concept I learned from Eckhart Tolle . In this video , he describes it as a superiority complex disguised by inferiority—a tricky paradoxical complex. It’s worth watching if this concept connects with you. The Victim Identity takes moments or times in one’s life where they experienced being a victim and held onto it as a narrative for why things aren’t going how I’d like...
Aug 02, 2024•8 min
Show Notes: * Examining the millennial generation's struggle with commitment in relationships, projects, and personal growth. * Understanding the paradox of choice and how it contributes to a lack of commitment. * Discussing the balance between discipline and surrender in the journey of commitment. * Introducing separate publications on Substack focusing on different aspects of personal development. Let’s dive deep into the theme of commitment that has been surfacing in my life lately. As I navi...
May 18, 2024•23 min
Welcome to today’s episode where we explore CNote’s innovative approach to mental wellness and his four-quadrant strategy. The episode delves into the challenges of feeling diagnostically stuck and the journey towards clarity and self-understanding. Main Themes: Comprehensive Mental Wellness: We discuss CNote’s holistic strategy for mental wellness, focusing on overcoming the feeling of being directionless through personality profiling and alternative methods. The Emotional Roots: A deep dive in...
May 15, 2024•31 min
Today, I’m exploring the multifaceted topic of intimacy, a subject that touches upon the very core of our experiences as individuals and as members of the collective human experience. Show Notes: * Intimacy is a vast and intricate concept, encompassing various aspects of our lives, including sexuality, creativity, and personal connections. * Understanding the interplay between admiration and boundaries is crucial for cultivating respect and nurturing healthy intimate relationships. * The pursuit...
May 06, 2024•55 min
Show Notes / Key Listening Points: * Countering common fear-based narratives about climate change, AI, war, and global events * The importance of not diminishing my optimism and willingness to see multiple perspectives * How fear can limit our thinking and block us from considering positive outcomes * Using imagination to conceive better outcomes, not just worry about worst-case scenarios * The adaptability and resilience of humanity in the face of drastic changes and challenges * Potential posi...
Apr 20, 2024•49 min
Show Notes: • Exploring the concepts of projections (unconscious agency) and introjections (unconscious receptivity) from the Stages model • Understanding the split ego state and how it relates to childhood development and trauma • Recognizing unhealthy patterns of being more of a "taker" than a "giver" in relationships and life • Working on reciprocity, boundaries, and being more altruistic by offering value without expectation The Unconscious Dance of Projections and Introjections I recently c...
Apr 01, 2024•32 min
This episode is a difficult realization manifest in a long winding investigation into not just a wounding but an uncheck node in my internal system. Using the STAGES model created by Kim Barta and Terri O’Fallen I’ve been able to pinpoint where I need some important work, and how I’ve been undermining myself, misusing my intelligence, and not setting proper boundaries for myself. This episode shares that process and some real-time realizations about my impact on others and how this young childho...
Mar 29, 2024•38 min
I’m testing Wednesday Wisdom as a series of thought meditations to calm the mind from various angles to focus on presence and breath. If you enjoy this series let me know in the comments below. You can also now book a support session with me if you need more . I’ve been uncovering a Saviorism within myself. I need to prove myself disguised as confident and all-knowing of what people need to be doing with their lives. Lately, I’ve seen that this is an abrasive attempt to prove my value as a human...
Feb 28, 2024•13 min
Relevant Links: * The One-Sided Victim Story : Dive into the complexities of the victim narrative here . * The Victim/Entitled Balancing Act : Explore the balance between victimhood and entitlement here . * Discovering Your Brand Message : Uncover the essence of your brand with this course here . It’s becoming clear to me that our relationship with victimhood is a major blocker in having a happy, fulfilling, and smoother life experience. This is no easy task to root this out or become aware of h...
Feb 22, 2024•36 min
What makes you adaptable? The podcast episode is a wonderful compliment to this prompt, so give it a listen before you journal to see what comes out for you. Also, consider what might hinder your adaptability and what might be in your way. Take 5 minutes to journal unfiltered and share your insights in the comments below! Episode Summary: In this insightful episode of DOPEamine, Christian Rivera delves into the concept of adaptability through the evolution of whales, inspired by a PBS Nova docum...
Feb 15, 2024•19 min
In today's episode of DOPEamine, Christian Rivera dives deep into the intricate dance between seeking purpose and the continuous effort to balance discipline with surrender. Purpose, as Christian elaborates, is an ever-evolving quest that shapes our existence, guiding us through the complexities of life. The Quest for Purpose Christian begins by pondering the nature of purpose, a question that haunts many of us. Is purpose found in emotion, thought processes, belief systems, or is it something e...
Feb 12, 2024•14 min
In this new era of "Happy Chemicals," we delve into the foundational topic of emotional boundaries. Join us as we explore the significance of recognizing and setting healthy boundaries for personal growth and mental wellness. Drawing from insights in psychology, the Gene Keys, and personal experiences, we discuss practical ways to establish and maintain boundaries that honor our emotional needs and foster meaningful connections. This episode is not just about setting limits; it's about creating ...
Jan 22, 2024•28 min
In my latest video, I reflect on how mental wellness has been a throughline in my life and share my vision for being a "junction box" between people and the therapists, coaches, consultants, and creatives who can support them. Instead of being the expert, I want to diagnose where people are stuck and direct them to the right resources. There's so much potential for us to help each other if we connect authentically, individual to individual. What are your thoughts? I wrote a post this morning abo...
Jan 16, 2024•28 min
I found myself asking about trust in spiritual leaders and why some activate some negative gut responses from me. So I share some of my thoughts on why we can or can't trust certain mentors or leaders and how they may prey on vulnerability. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/happychemicals/message Get full access to DOPEamine at dopeamine.substack.com/subscribe...
Oct 11, 2023•14 min
What's the future of Artificial Intelligence? What does it mean for creativity? What does it mean for humans? What does it mean for our collective future? Artificial intelligence is being used to automate tasks that were previously done manually, such as content creation and design work. This allows for faster and more efficient production of templates and presentations. While AI can handle the technical aspects of these tasks, human creativity, and discernment are still necessary for making aes...
Oct 04, 2023•32 min
I'm sharing some of my healing work around the Fearful Avoidant Attachment Style as a Millennial born in the 1980s to immigrant parents. I share how some of us are products of our parents' panic to fit into their Generation's culture and how that led to the millennial pathology of feeling like a bad person. I talk a bit about our access to the wild west of the internet at a young age and how that affected some of our relationship to sex and relating. I reference the show BEEF which is a must see...
Aug 21, 2023•39 min
I've recently learned that I have a fearful avoidant attachment style and much has been coming out of that. On this episode I process out loud what has been coming from my learning, how that relates to my story, and where I can start to go from here. I also talk a bit about why Millennials are seeking labels so freely. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/happychemicals/message Get full access to DOPEamine at dopeamine.substack.com/subscribe...
Aug 04, 2023•42 min
Introduction Welcome back to Happy Chemicals! I'm CNote, and today I want to share my recent insights into mental health, philosophy, and the implications of artificial intelligence on humanity. Over the years, I've discussed my mental health journey, attempting to differentiate between mental illness and overall well-being. Today, I've reached a new understanding of mental health, and I believe it's essential to redefine our approach to it. Join me as we delve into the three pillars that shape ...
Aug 02, 2023•30 min
Ironically making a podcast about how I'm doing too much and burning out often. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/happychemicals/message Get full access to DOPEamine at dopeamine.substack.com/subscribe
Jul 11, 2023•19 min
