Depressed Not Dead (jamoalki) -Battling depression and suicide

Join me as I attempt to rise above my depression and suicidal ideations.

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Episodes

Bonus #1 My Chat With Claire

Hey everyone. Bonus episode time. My dear friend Claire and I finally got a chance to catch up. Embrace your inner voyeur and have a listen.

Apr 01, 2020•50 min

SAH #6 Contest You Say?

It's day 6 of being stuck at home with me.

Apr 01, 2020•14 min

SAH #5 The Great Filter

It's day five, have a seat and listen to me ramble about sciencey stuff. Today's opening song is We Didn't Start The Fire by Billy Joel

Mar 31, 2020•15 min

SAH #4 I Had A Dream

It's day four and I had a stressful dream last night.

Mar 30, 2020•13 min

SAH #3 I'm Part Of The Problem

It's day 3 and I acknowledge that I'm part of the COVID problem.

Mar 29, 2020•13 min

SAH #2 Careful What You Read

It's day 2 of staying at home. Listen in as I ramble on about thoughts from my walk.

Mar 28, 2020•16 min

SAH #1 Introduction

Here's the first of my new, temporary, daily podcast for the Corona 2020 season. I hope you enjoy it.

Mar 27, 2020•10 min

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk about how work is going, intrusive thoughts, and concerns about the near future. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness

Mar 26, 2020•22 min

#187 Base Function

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk about what I'm doing to try to stay healthy Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness

Mar 19, 2020•16 min

#186 Isolating

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk about isolating lately. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness

Mar 14, 2020•17 min

#185 News That Affects You

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk about some things. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness

Mar 07, 2020•9 min

#184 Send Me Your Feedback

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk about some things I'd like your feedback on and more! Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness

Feb 28, 2020•18 min

#183 Lonely and Unmotivated

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk about the undeniable feeling of being lonely, being unmotivated, new cars, and more! Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness

Feb 20, 2020•16 min

#182 Mindfulness With Shaun

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk with mindfulness practitioner and advisor Shaun about how he got into mindfulness, what it means to him and maybe, just maybe how I could get started into it, and more! Check him out on twitter https://twitter.com/mindfulness_for And his podcast https://anchor.fm/shaun-donaghy Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness...

Feb 13, 2020•45 min

#181 Tattoo Talk

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk about some other podcasts I (and Nora) will be on in the near future, a new tattoo, and more! Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness

Feb 06, 2020•21 min

#180 Chatting With Cam

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk with Cam, a Crisis Intervention Officer here in the US. We talk about his role, what one can expect when the police are called into a crisis situation, and more! Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness

Feb 01, 2020•53 min

#179 Am I a Bad Person?

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk about some recent events that have me again asking myself if I am a bad person. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness

Jan 28, 2020•23 min

#178 Quin from Mania

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk with Quin from the podcast Mania about his life with Bi-Polar 2, his show, and oh so much more. Check his show out: http://harlequingrim.com/the-mania-podcast-blog Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness...

Jan 23, 2020•36 min

#177 New Job for 2020

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk about my new job, my struggle getting things done, and oh so much more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness

Jan 17, 2020•16 min

#176 New Year, Same Nora

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk with my wonderful wife, Nora, about how 2019 went, her new blog, and oh so much more. Be sure to check out her blog! wineknitrun.com Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness...

Jan 08, 2020•44 min

#175 Giving Voice to Depression

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk with Bridget and Terry from the amazing Giving Voice to Depression podcast. We discuss how they've dealt with mental illness, their show, and oh so much more. Be sure to check them out! https://www.facebook.com/GivingVoiceToDepression/ https://www.givingvoicetodepression.com/ https://twitter.com/VoiceDepression And their partner Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Dep...

Jan 04, 2020•37 min

#174 2019 Chatter

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk about visiting my mom, a short recap of 2019, and oh so much more. Be sure to subscribe to the show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness

Dec 28, 2019•22 min

#173 Rejection

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk about being rejected by a therapist, eating, work and oh so much more. Be sure to subscribe to the show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness

Dec 20, 2019•18 min

#172 Meet Brandon

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk with one of the co-hosts of the fantastic podcast Peculiar Picture Show , Brandon. Brandon speaks openly about his life with BiPolar disorder, his show, and oh so much more. You can find him on Twitter over at https://twitter.com/BrandonOnMovies Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness...

Dec 13, 2019•39 min

#171 Sudoku and Shame

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk about a new wrinkle in my counting habit, my therapist suggested I am struggling with shame, and oh so much more. Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness

Dec 05, 2019•20 min

#170 Meet Mackenzie!

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk with an incredible young lady about her journey with mental illness, her obstacles, successes and oh so much more. Check out her story on The Mighty https://themighty.com/u/mackenziebuck/content/5d5302eee61eda00c921bef0 Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness...

Dec 01, 2019•33 min

#169 Half Marathon #2

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk about getting ready for and finishing a half marathon and oh so much more. Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness

Nov 23, 2019•19 min

#168 Clammy Hands

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk about my new therapist, clammy hands, clenching and oh so much more. Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness

Nov 18, 2019•25 min

#167 Claire and Me at Bruegger's Bagels

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk with my good friend Claire about how she's been doing, work, exercise, and oh so much more. Be sure to check out Claire's podcast Exercising Depression Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness...

Nov 14, 2019•43 min

#166 Sitting in the Rain

Thanks for listening in to this episode! I talk about how I came close to ending the show, something that made me sad, and oh so much more. Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj Everyone be safe and be well. Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness

Nov 12, 2019•16 min

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