I'm Laurie Gottlieb. I'm the author of Maybe You Should Talk to Someone, and I write the Dear Therapist advice column for the Atlantic.
And I'm Guy Wench. I'm the author of Emotional First Aid, and I write the Dear Guy advice column for Ted. And this is Dear Therapists. This week, we're going to check in on our guests from season two to hear how they're doing a year later.
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Today, we're checking in with Lauren from season two. Her episode was called Lauren's Sexual Shame. The issue was that Lauren didn't have sex until she was in her thirties, and she didn't have many relationships since then either. So when she came to Ask last year, and she's in her fifties at this she felt really embarrassed about her lack of relationship experience. She was convinced that men would
judge her for not having that experience. We also learned during the session that Lauren had been responsible for her mother's emotional will being growing up and her physical will being later in life, and she actually lived with Lauren then until she died. Lauren's mother gave her the message in subtle and sometimes not very subtle ways, that she should be there for her instead of being out there and dating like her sisters who had full lives.
Yeah, and Lauren really didn't see the extent of this imperative that her mother conveyed to her over the years, and how her feeling guilty and disloyal really sabotaged her efforts to be in a serious relationship in early adulthood, and in fact, her first sexual experience didn't occur until
after her mother died. And as a result of all this, Lauren really saw herself as damaged and she had a lot of shame around this, rather than seeing herself as being someone who was kind and compassionate and loyal for the sacrifices that she did make. So let's get a reminder from that session.
I guess I'm afraid to get into a relationship in a sense because then people ask you like about your history, and it's embarrassing one to be fifty three and single. I know children, and you know when you mentioned that to people, male or female, they're always like shocked. And I've had people say, oh gosh, what's wrong with you?
And now let's hear how Lauren is doing.
One year later, Hi, Laurian guy, this says Lauren. A lot's changed. I moved to the city where I'd wanted to live for a very long long time, and I went against everybody else's advice and moved where I wanted to. I'm really enjoying my life here. The biggest change that I made is just being nicer and more compassionate to myself, and I think that's allowed me to open up and deepen my friendships in relationships with people, I feel like I'm able to be a little bit more vulnerable, more loving,
and I feel happier. I'm having deeper relationships, more honest relationships. I actually met someone. I met a guy who I really really liked, and for the first time in my life, I was able to actually tell this guy what I liked about him, what I didn't like. You know, if he did something I didn't like, I brought it to his attention in a gentle way out like pointing the finger.
He actually appreciated how I communicated with him. I ended up breaking up with him basically because relationship wasn't headed in the direction that I wanted to go in. It's the first time in my life that I've actually broken up with someone. So I feel although I'm sad because I wanted to work out, I feel proud of myself that I was actually able to break up with someone,
someone who I really liked a lot. And so instead of just staying in a relationship to be in a relationship where to get only half of what I want, I decided I was worth more and that I wasn't just going to stick around for crumbs. That for me, it is huge.
I think.
One of the things is that Laurie pointed out, like how I was really influenced by living with my mother and grandmother, who were both widowed and never remarried and never dated after their husbands died. So I thought about that a lot, and I see where I was living my life based on somebody else's expectations or just learned behavior from them. One of the big things that I've learned recently is that I make a lot of decision
based on what other people think I should do. Like, for example, my sister is very big into telling me what to do, and I realized that it's not good for me to listen to her. My life is not hers. I'm not a married woman with children, so I can't expect to live the life of a married woman with children. I have to live the life that I have based on my circumstances and my wants and desires. I think that being more self compassionate made me value myself more too,
not just relationships, but on the job. I was actually working for someone who's a part time job and she hadn't paid me for six weeks, and she acted like I had a lot of nerve asking for money, and so I basically decided one night, I'm just going to tell her that was my last weekend that I'm working. When I told her that, she was kind of floored. She was, what, You're not afraid you're going to get
the money? And I'm like, no, I just don't like the way I've been treating So I found myself standing up for myself, which is a new thing for me. So I think that in talking with you guys. It kind of acted as a catalyst to start taking a better, more detailed look at my life. So I really appreciate you, Laurie and Guy for the insight that you gave me, the things that you pointed out, and the advice. I'm very grateful. Thank you.
That was really great to hear. Lauren has done a lot over this year. A few things really stood out for me, and one is the self compassion that she's practicing. You could hear the joy in her voice where she said it was like, this feels good to be self compassionate. It feels good to be kind to yourself, and it's also allowing her to be more vulnerable and it to deepen her friendships. So I think that was a really pivotal thing for her to really try and move away
from the judgmentals, criticism and become more self compassionate. And it's part of a larger thing that she's doing, which she's looking inside more, she's figuring out what she wants. She's lowering the volume on what everyone around her thinks so she can hear her own internal voice more clearly and make the decisions that are right for her, Like moving to the city.
Yeah.
I love that. She said she's not living her life based on others expectations anymore. And I think what's really interesting is that we talked in the session about how she missed all those years of developing into her full adult self because she was living really at the service of her mother for all those years, and then after her mother died, she still didn't really have what we were talking about, the self compassion, the perspective of hey, I missed all this time, and it's okay that I'm
making up for lost time. And I think over this last year she really took that to heart. She's had a real shift in perspective and that shows. With the guy that she was dating, she was very open with him and clear with herself about what was working for her, what was not working for her, and it sounds like she communicated that in a very kind way, so she didn't overcompensate. She was very clear and reasonable, and she said he even appreciated that, and ultimately he wasn't able
to give her what she wanted. She said she didn't want fifty percent of her relationship. She wanted a full relationship. She didn't want crumbs and that shows that now she appreciates her value, she knows her worth. And I think that also showed up where she was standing up for herself not only in that relationship, but in her job where she wasn't being paid on time. So she trusts that she's asking for something reasonable, and that is a big shift for her.
It's truly a big shift. And we always point out that when people make changes that then generalize to other areas of their life, it means they made that change from a very deep place. And so that self compassion that she's been practicing, getting in touch with her own needs and feelings, and even being willing to break up with someone in which the relationship is going well but
just not well enough. All those really assertive acts, and that sets her up to be assertive in other domains as well, like her job.
And the one thing we didn't hear from Lauren that I'm curious about is what's going on with her romantic life now that she's out of this other relationship. So is she actively dating? Is she asking her friends now that she's more vulnerable with them? You know, do you have anybody you can set me up with? Because that
makes it a positive experience. People love to set other people up, people love to help people fall in love, and she used to be so ashamed of her romantic life that I hope she's opening up to people and saying, you know, I really am looking for a partner. Do you know anybody for me?
I also hope she's being active in her dating life. I think what strikes me most here that the key thing she did was that she was finally able to change her story. And the change was that instead of being this person who it's shameful that she never had sex, she now sees herself as someone who had sacrificed so much to take care of her mother. And what that did is it delayter by ten years, and so very soon after that she actually did find her first boyfriend,
she did have sex. Once she changed that story, it freed her up so much that she's made incredible changes over this one year. It's really great to hear that she's finally living the life she deserves.
Next week, we'll check in with Hillary, an addictions counselor who developed a new addiction of her own, to hear how she's doing one year later.
For the first time in my life, I experienced physical symptoms of anxiety and to alleviate those physical symptoms. It felt really good to fill up my car and buy something, and I didn't realize that that's what was happening until I was six thousand dollars in debt.
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