Meta Mystics| The Trip That Changed Everything, Live!

little while. You know, there's just some things are you can't put words to some things, and those are sometimes the hardest obstacles to overcome.

is is early so far. But anyway, the if in case you're not like a listener of the Cult of Conspiracy or anything like that, I am no longer a co host to the Cult of Conspiracy, and that was just wrapped up this past week, and I'm very excited about it. I mean, I love the Cult of Conspiracy, don't get me wrong. That is my baby. That was you know, a little bit of That was my first ever podcast, and to be honest, I never really expected it to get as big as it did. It was.

It started out as just a hobby, you know, and and then like with anything else, I mean, you showed a little bit of love, you showed a little bit of attention, and it just starts to grow almost uncontrollably, which it kind of did in a good way. And and you know, made a lot of good connections and a lot of amazing conversations, a lot of great friends that we made along the way and everything. But now is the time for me to step into a full time role with Metamistics.

are going to be coming up. And by the way, I know that some people were, you know, they're wondering, like what's going on behind you know, behind the cameras and stuff like that between me and Jacob. Me and Jacob are just I mean, dude, we're great. We're like pickles and carrots or what's the saying. I don't know what it is. Yeah, PE's and carrots, but pickles and carrots sounds cooler. Anyway. Yeah, we're fine. It's just that I wanted to devote more time and more attention to meta.

This is my true passion. It started out with the cult. I think a lot of people, if you're ever having any kind of spiritual awakening, you almot like everybody has their own route to get there, you know, And for me it was conspiracies, like I needed the wor to shatter into a gajillion different pieces and in order for me to see that none of this is what we thought. And I did that episode after episode after episode, whether it's the Epstein flight logs or nine to eleven or

flat Earth. I mean, you name your conspiracy. I bought it all, I ate it all, I drank it all, I lived it all. That was my life for over five years, and I loved every one of those conversations. But I just got to a point where I didn't need my illusion shattered anymore. It was already an illusion at this point. I was just building up a new paradigm,

which I didn't necessarily need. And to be honest, I think politics are an absolute cess pool and I'm so happy I don't have to talk about that bullshit anymore. I hate politics. I never want to talk about it again. So there's that. But yeah, so yeah, I'm completely out of the cult. I'll still be showing up every Tuesday night for the cult member live shows. I'm still gonna be managing it from behind the scenes, but as far as podcasting goes, I'm a full time metimistic baby.

that's where I was I was going. But uh, let's see. Christian said, fuck yeah, I love this, my dude. The White Boy Wizard love them, I love you, dude. Skunky said much love all. First time here, Skunk, good to see you.

It's just going to be full on, balls deep. It's just going to be crazy.

It's kind of crazy actually. So Saturday night, me and Sean decided to trip, as we do whenever we get together, and it, uh, it started out already rocky, not gonna lie. Sean was not taking too well to it at first.

experiences that you're having. You know, just being in the backyard and I felt like everything around me was just a little too much, dude, it was it seemed kind of chaotic, just the sounds that I was hearing and the weeds kind of blowing in the wind. It was just like so much happening all at once. And I know that, you know, you would hear me say that and you would be like, well, that doesn't seem like anything chaotic. But when everything that you know, everything that

you understand. Like I said, like the models or the things that are just wired in for your understanding alone goes away all of a sudden. You're just experiencing like almost the most objective reality possible. And that's the best way I can explain that.

like I've gained a lot. And that's what they say usually is whenever you have a quote unquote bad trip, that you actually learned the most from them, you know, And I can personally say that, you know, just from a personal standpoint, especially with this last one. So give you guys, a little bit of a rundown here, and it's for a reason, that's why we got to say it. It's it's actually quite embarrassing on my part, but it was actually so we started out Sean not really feeling

that hot about it. Normally it kicks in faster for me, but it kicked in way faster for Sean this time. And so he wanted to go outside, and you know, we're we're just talking and hanging out and you know, calming the vibes a little bit, you know, trying to keep ourselves from losing our shit.

on TV. And we're watching it is Michael Jackson thriller video because it's nothing but like eighties music. And I didn't pick that, but you know, Seohn's wife did and it was fine. But the videos are creepy, especially when you're chirpping. You you watching fucking Michael Jackson thriller while you're chirping balls. It's it's a whole other level, right, you know.

You know, you're just observing people do stuff. And I just thought in the moment, it was so weird, you know. And like I said before, once those models in your mind go away, the things that you kind of learn to accept and it's just kind of ingrained into your understanding of this reality that goes away, and now you're almost seeing things for the first time, like you're not really seeing it for the first time, but you're noticing

things for the first time. And so yeah, I was pretty chill at that moment, you know what I mean, just kind of laughing at certain things, like, oh, look, like the funniest thing at that moment anyway, was just talking about like the chore graph what is it called, the choreographic choreography. Yeah, the guy that you know designs the dance and kind of orchestrates it for Michael Jackson.

And I'm like, what an undertaking that would have been to be the guy that's like, look, Michael, we're gonna dance like this in this video.

to try that. Yeah, yeah, And so I'm like almost going into the the mandal brought set of my own mind and just digging deeper and deeper and deeper. And I got there, and so I told Sean. I was like, hey, close your eyes, tell me what you see whenever you go in there. You don't have to do it long. It was just like a minute.

starting to lose my sense of reality. Like this was it was almost as if I just smoked a shitload of actual DMT and was going into some other realm that I never knew existed. So I'm in there and I and I'm like losing my sense of self, like like hardcore. I am dissociating like crazy and not in a good way, and it's falling from me fast. And

so I even stumble up against the wall. Sean and Loren or Sean and his wife you know, said that they had heard me like almost like lose my momentum up against the wall and everything, and so I decided to come in. And I don't think you went outside there, huh.

My body started to go limp, my face was starting to droop, according to Sean, who was also chirping at this time.

is he okay? You know, because she's in the medical field and she knows way more than I do when it comes to, you know, noticing the things that the human body is doing to look let you know that,

like something isn't right. And we were getting closer to the restroom, and I was looking at you man, and and you know, and maybe this is what you know, what it's all about when it comes to like when you have a shaman, you know, because I've heard that shaman's actually will trip with you, and I feel like they will see things that you wouldn't normally see, like if you were just sober and kind of you know,

cool minded or whatever. But I felt like when I looked at your face, it was kind of it looked droopy, you know, in your mouth, the way that it looked and everything else was just like you weren't here, you know what I mean, Like you were here, like you were trying to be And that's what was even scarier. I'll hang it on all and like the tony of your voice and the look on your face was like you were trying to hold on to this place and you were going fast. Well it was.

the most I've ever felt, and it was continuous. It was something that I couldn't even talk myself out of. There was no amount of like love and light that I could have said. I couldn't have sat down and meditated, because whenever I was sitting down and meditated, I was still tripping. I was actually tripping even harder, and there was just no getting out of it. And so in my mind, what was causing such a destruction inside of my mind is that I was really starting to lose

all sense of this reality. And even more so, I was understanding that this reality, at least in that moment, that this reality was barely even a dream like it like it was gone, like it was done, like this reality not even just for me. But it was almost like I was able to see behind the screen that the simulation is played on in so much of a way, right, And it was I couldn't understand what I was seeing,

and it was causing such immense fear. And all I kept on seeing was is that I was seeing, like imagine, all of reality, all of the reality that you see on just a flat piece of glass, maybe even a mirror, right.

And as I'm looking at that, it starts to splinter, and then it starts to break, and all the pieces are mixing up and everything, and I'm on every single one of those splintered shards of mirror, and I'm trying to work it all back together, but I'm losing it, and and my my perception kept on going from I was every piece of glass, and then I was just a tiny piece of glass, and then maybe I was three pieces of glass, and then I was the whole thing, and then it was just fucking with me hard, like

every single bit of my reality was crumbling. And it was scary, dude, So and I and and it was hard enough to deal with that in my own mind that I couldn't even put it into place in the outer world, which is why I was. I was starting. I was going pale in the face. My fucking face was drooping a cord. And Seawan, like I said, and I could barely walk, like my I couldn't even get my legs under me. It was like I was a

baby learning to walk. And I was scared, and I was like tearing up right, And so Sean asked if I wanted to go in the bathroom and like have some water run on me. I was like, yes, let's do that. And so we go in and at first he puts the water a little hot. I'm like, all right, turn it down a little bit.

I did not prefer. It was just absolute chaos. There was no order to it, and it scared the ever living fuck out of me. And I kept on seeing like weird lights behind the mirror of the glow, which so strange. I still don't know what that is. And and so I'm laying there and he put on like some car show. Was it called John.

don't matter how many fucking times you've done it. You'll get there, and it will convince you that your world is ending, like like, no joke, Like it is full on convincing you. There is there's nothing that, nothing more that it could do to convince you otherwise. It's it's every single every single cell in your body, every piece of conscious that you're aware of, it is convinced that you are going into another world and you're never coming back. It's like, hell, maybe.

like you just don't know anything. And then you have an experience where nothing is identifiable, and you even see things that you even felt like you shouldn't have seen, like things that you've probably blocked from your memory because it's thinks so horrible that nobody should see that. And

so you definitely created your worst fear for you. It sounds like, yes, like your marine was like, oh, this is what you're afraid of, let me put you through that, so that way, your worst fear has been experienced already.

shit and and yeah, it sucked. So anyway, I'm laying there on the couch and I finally am starting to come back it's taken me a little while, but I knew that I was going to be in it for a while, because I mean, typically that psychedelic last for about anywhere from three to four hours, and I was I started feeling like that literally half an hour in, so I knew that I had at least three more hours to go, which scared the ever living shit out of me, because there I was like, there's no way

I can handle this for this long. It was too much stress. It was too much anxiety, like it was it was a panic attack for three plus hours. Like internally now, I'm not like freaking out and I'm not screaming or anything like that. I can I can handle it in house, but barely, right, And and so Sean

decides to put that show on. I'm trying to come back to this reality, and I'm trying to like keep my eyes open and keep my eyes from from closing at this point, because every time I close my eyes, I see that fucking upside down world to where chaos rules, right, And so I'm trying to keep my eyes open. I'm

trying to keep them peeled onto this TV. And it's just this random, like normal, fucking You're like he's a man's man type of guy that is working on cars, right, the most normal shit you can ever watch, and just these tiny little things that he would say, and it would every time I would laugh, I'd be like, oh, I'm starting to get it back because I you couldn't have pried to laugh out of me in that moment,

you know. And so and after a while, I'm finally I'm finally fully back and I'm scared, and Sean is wanting John goes, dude, are you okay? And I was like, yeah, I think I'm back now, and Sean's like, dude, let me tell you. I want to talk to you about this. And this was I was like, dude, I'm I'm back, but i can't talk about it right now because I'm I'm fresh out of it, Like I'm I'm literally not stable enough to have this conversation. And I wanted to be.

It was just that I was what I just went through was the most traumatizing shit of my life.

And so like in my reality, man, I was having so many understandings and like just this unbelievable boost of empathy and compassion for not even just your life, but everyone's life, dude. And I was just thinking, like, man, I wouldn't want anybody to experience that, you know. And sure we're all going to experience losing a loved one

and people have, you know. And so then I started to think about that, like the people that have lost people, and and I mean I've lost I lost my step dad, and I know and I understand how much that can change your reality, you know. And so but yeah, just the amount of empathy and compassion that I was experiencing and just gratefulness for the people around me, dude, was just unmatched, you know. So yeah, we went through the shadow to get there, man, But I mean, I wouldn't

want to undo that. I wouldn't want to not have that experience. But man, when it was happening. Man, it was the just my worst nightmare, you know, Like I'm not afraid to die. I'm afraid of people missing me when I'm gone. I'm afraid of other people around me going, you know. But that was just the biggest piece of humble pie you can get, dude.

I like to keep on pushing it. I want to push it and push it and push it. I want to see how far I can go. And I don't, necessarily, you know, normally know my limits. And and it wasn't like I overdid it. We did a normal amount, the same amount that we do every single time, and it's from the same batch that we've done every single time.

So it wasn't the actual psychedelic itself. It was a bunch of things that were kind of leading up to this and and and we didn't even know that these things would have an effect until afterward, ironically, and then it made sense. So yeah, it was. It was pretty crazy. I dude, I ended up crying to Sean Like it was a full on, like emotional bro night. Like it was like as gay as that sounds, but like it was.

It was one of those nights where I was just spilling it all out to him and he was, you know, spilling it all out to me, and it was just I fucking love this guy and so always there for me. Like, yeah, like I hope that what I'm not even gonna go there if I die, I hope to be Shawn spirit guide. That's what I want to be in my in my next life.

we got over it. We're fine. In the next day, we're having this conversation in case you guys had listened to the or was it the next air day after something like that, and we're having this conversation with the witch from Salem and she's really into like divination and astrology and all this typical witch things, except she was from Salem. So we're like, okay, we maybe we got an actual one, right, Not that all the other witches aren't actual witches. It's just like it's cool, you know.

It's almost like if you were to meet a leprechaun in Indiana, you'd be like, Okay, that's cool, But you meet one from fucking Ireland, You're like, I got one from fucking Ireland, you know. Yeah, And so it was cool having that conversation with her, and she goes, well, you know, actually this whole week, Mercury's in retrograde. We're like, oh,

how ironic is that. The next day, I'm having a conversation with electro Nick and he's like, you know, I was telling him like what happened before that day because he was trying to figure out what was going on. And I said, well, the past couple of days I've

been working on getting my tattooed on. It's like this half sleeve, right, and the Shawn's been doing it, and and he goes, dude, that's why it's because you were I mean, your body was in like in insane stress and it's like producing this court this cortisol, and it's bringing you to the fight or flight kind of mentality. Your body's already in that in that mode and dude, and then I decided to trip like an hour after we were done tattooing, which I didn't know, like, you know,

maybe dehydration. Sure, you know, because your body is doing what it does whenever it's getting innked up. But I didn't know that my body was would be in such disarray to where it would affect how I would receive, said psychedelic. Didn't know it was going to go that far.

little bit. I had no idea that it would go that far into your experience, and so had I known, I think I would have made it a little more urgent and been like, hey, dude, let's wait a minute, you know what I mean, or let's do the tattoo tomorrow. But I had no idea. I didn't know what I didn't know, you.

so I don't know. I think it's gonna be I think it's gonna be a little while into a terrip again.

or you should probably do DMT. It's like, you know, the people that are going to do it already have it in their mind that they're going to do it, but I going forward, just having that experience is not something I would want to push on anybody, you know what I mean, because that, my god, dude, what a lesson that we got.

with in the back of our mind. And you know, me personally, I'm I'm kind of like in this transitory stage of you know, I'm I'm getting ready to buy a house, so I'm staying at my parents' guest house right now and a whole other state from my kids. And it was already hard and in the middle of splitting from the cult of conspiracy and putting everything here together with Meta and there's just so many things that

are up, and I guess it was too much. You know, I needed some some form of stability, because even in that trip, I kept on thinking, dude, I have nothing stable in my life right now like it was. And that was really fucking me up because.

do psychedelics moments after you're done getting a tattoo. Wait a couple of days, you know, because it takes a little while for your like your hormones and your chemicals and all that shit to balance back out.

little bit. And so I'm going through all the things that like, all the things that are changing, all the things that I want to change, all the things that I don't want to change, and it's like it's like a it's almost like my mind decided to play fifty two pickup and I'm just trying to pick out the cards that I want, you know, and trying to these are the things that I want to keep, These are the things that I want to let go of, right, and these are the things the most important, These are

the things that I you know, it just trying to order them a little bit. And so in my mind, you know, I'm really just trying to figure out what

I wanted. And I will say that with that amount of fear, I see why people settle, like one hundred percent, whether you're settling out a job, or you're settling with a significant other or you're settling with whatever you settle with that like you know you deserve more, or you think you deserve more, you think that you could get a little bit more out of life, but there's always something that is holding you back from whatever whatever it

is right. And in that moment, I wanted all of my original shit back because I was like, dude, that I just fucked something up. I need to take one hundred steps back and try and figure out where to move forward with my life. And because in that moment, it's a moment of weakness, you know, and in that moment of weakness, all you're looking forward, are you're looking for is just something you can grab on. Like it's like fucking Chris Farley, hold.

glue in between episodes. We we couldn't shoot this past Wednesday because Sean and I were still kind of reeling, weren't really necessarily ready. Plus we wanted to make sure that we were comfortably able to talk about our experience whenever we want, whenever we were ready, because there was a couple of days after that we didn't we couldn't talk about it, Like it had to be like at least two days until we started talking about the whole experience.

And I know what you're thinking, Like, for anybody that hasn't experienced this, you're like, dude, they tried psychedelics, you know, they they lost their shit, you know whatever. It scared them a little bit, No, dude, Like imagine a thousand nightmares every second for three hours. That's like the best way I can put it.

you know, from from just looping it round and round and round. And and I wonder why that is. You know, we do that all the time when it comes to bad experiences or things were stressed out about, or things were not looking forward to, or or you know, making up scenarios in our mind with our imagination of how poorly something can go, you know, and we'll just kind of loop that around. And maybe that is part of

the survival mechanism within our mind. Know, it's almost like a preparation or a you know, I don't know exactly what's going on with that, but man, I just kept looping that around, and for barely just the last two or three days, I think maybe I've been able to just kind of leave that where it is now and like I got everything that I can get from that, and now I'm just kind of moving forward. But I mean, even just read talking about it tonight, you know, has

kind of made me. It kind of put me back into that that that experience, you know, and it kind of gave me the like this nervousness within my within my body, you know, just kind of recovering that. And uh, man, I'm glad that's something that we don't have to go through again for sure, man, because that was that was a nightmare man, big time.

it was. Like it was. It was fucking horrifying and I dude, and it let me just to give you an idea, it was so scary that in the moment, I knew that once this trip was done, I knew that I was going to actively try to forget about it. Like it was that fucking fucked and like and so even the the a couple of days after that, Sean was asking, you know, what were you seeing? And I was able to remember a little bit, but like I legit forgot most of it, like if you ever had,

Like you know, they say we dream every night. Whether you believe that or not, I don't even know. I think you do, but they say you dream every night.

And most of the time, you don't really remember your dream unless you're somebody who keeps a dream journal and you're really good at dream recall and stuff like that, most of your dreams you don't really remember, at least once a couple of days or a couple of weeks, a couple of months goes by, right like, unless you have documented you don't remember what your dream was back

in June, right like, you just don't remember it. It was it was like that, like I knew that it was going to be so stuck in my mind because my mind was legit fractured, and I knew that it was going to fuck with me so bad that I purposely tried to forget it. And it's so crazy that, like I legit forgot most of it, which is a

great thing. It's actually a blessing. Like I'm happy that I forgot most of it because there were certain insights that I was getting to where I was like, oh my god, like we're so fucked, like and I was looking at it like us, as in, like people of this world, people love this matrix, people of the simulation. However, you want to look at it like people of this dream.

But after a while, like you know, I'm sitting there and I'm like, you know, a couple of days go by and everything, I'm like, dude, you know, sometimes you gotta take the training wheels off, you know, like eventually you got to throw the kid in the pool without the floaties, and I feel like that's what that was, you know.

that experience. I'm not gonna sit here and say that none of those things exist for sure, but in that experience, I didn't experience that.

on the cult, I've been interested to hear the details. Yeah, it's pretty crazy, dude, And I'm sure that there are parts that I'm leaving out, but I don't I don't want to leave out just Sean like Sean's role in that because he's saying that it was our like our worst night, And yes, that's what I was going through in my own mind, but what I was experiencing in my in my own inner world, Sean was experiencing in the outer world by trying to take care of me.

He legit thought I was gonna die, and and to be honest, that's he's not going too far and thinking that I thought I was gonna die, like I legit, and I don't know. I mean, how does somebody die on psychedelics and probably never heard of it before, but I would imagine if somebody was to ever die, it's because they gave themselves a fucking heart attack. And that's

what it felt like like. I thought that, like my brain was going to be fried, my heart was going to explode, and every bit of con like I legit had, I if I had to try and put a percentage on it, it felt like I had one percent of consciousness left over in my body.

right now. Sean was a fucking angel in that moment. Just everybody knows, like Sean's a real one. He is.

We weren't really talking, so I was just kind of sitting there just one I was feeling grateful that you were fl better and that you were, you know, uh, at least consciously aware of what's going on. So I felt like, Okay, everything's okay, He's gonna be fine, you know. But there was still times where I would like look over and like if your eyes were shut, I'd just like look and make sure. Like dude, I was like, still, of course I'm tripping, you know, what do you expect?

You know? But so I wouldn't even say that I like saved your life or anything like that, but it definitely I definitely had the experience that you were going you know what I mean, and like you being someone that, you know, the way that you think about stuff in your mind is so quick to come to certain understandings and be able to actually express it, you know, out loud and in front of people, and just you're you're you're quick with it, you know, and so to see

you in in just the opposite of that was very scary for me, you know. And so but yeah, definitely the experience of that, whether regardless if that's what was going to happen with me or without me there, you know what I mean. But yeah, just sitting there kind of quiet, thinking about everything and just kind of trying to process what just happened. And then man, that was what a fucking nightmare, dude.

and wait that bad boy out, reset the algorithm. Hopefully you go into a dream or something. Maybe you just don't even have any dreams at all, you just see nothing that would be far better than just having another nightmare or going back into the same nightmare I've had. You ever, you ever had that happen before, where you have a nightmare and you're like, try and stay up for a couple of minutes, and then you fall asleep

and you go back into the nightmare. It's like, oh my god, come on, meanwhile, you can't.

closer to forty. And whether it be mushrooms or four aco DMT or regular DMT or never tried acid, I'm not really crazy about even wanting to try acid, to be honest with you, but all together around forty times, I've had two bad trips, so it's like heavily good on the good side. That being said, I feel like I've experienced everything I need to experience and I probably

won't be getting in there again. And so what I am more interested in though, is going trying to go deeper into the meditational realms, because in there, whenever you're meditating, you're so calm, you're so chill, you know, you can kind of you feel your surroundings and maybe you get lost in there, maybe time kind of escapes from you. Whatever, but at least it's manageable. Like with that that was not manageable. There was nothing I could do to manage it.

And so what I would like to do, especially now that I'm doing metaphull time, I would like to get back into doing more past life regressions. So if anybody is interested in that, and I would say, apart from psychedelics, the farthest that you can go into your mind unless you're like a seasoned meditator and you don't need somebody like that. The farthest you can go without psychedelics, in

my opinion, is past life aggressions. So if anybody's interested in that, just reach out to us on Patreon, hit us up in the email metamistics at yahoo dot com, and I'll respond and we'll get it going, so you don't have to go to the depths that I went to, you know.

And uh, yeah, really wasn't sure we were going to, but I thank you guys for for listening to us on that because I feel like we needed that.

It is so blissful, so amazing, so awesome, and it's just the most like you can't even put it into words, you couldn't even draw it, right, like one of those crazy amazing like beyond heavenly right. People will have those experiences. Then you ask them, They're like, oh, that's awesome. You had a great experience. Do you want to do it again? They're like, the fuck no, I'm not doing that again, you know. Like, and I feel like I've gotten to that point for myself, like I've done it forty fifty

times whatever, I'm good now. I experienced what I needed to experience. I had a bunch of great times a couple of bad times. But to be honest, I think that I really don't want to have another bad trip again. I don't think I can handle it. Like that's and maybe that's like I don't know, week of me or whatever, but I'm good. It's like it's like getting jumped, you know, you get jumped one time, you're probably you're like, I don't I don't really feel like I need that again

in my life. That's what it felt like.

always something to learn from a bad trip. In the moment, you feel like there's nothing to learn, maybe the only thing that you learned is that, like, you fucked up, and why did you try psychedelics in the moment, you know? And actually Sean throughout the psychedelics while we were tripping, because we both agreed that we're never going to do it again.

really did so right before we tripped. Sean, it was like a couple hours beforehand, he took this gigantic fucking crystal and placed it on top of the psychics, right, and he was like, I'm gonna charge these motherfuckers up. Turns out not a good idea. Probably shouldn't do that.

a little uh, I need some remembering to do. I don't know, but as of right now, I think I'm good.

the majority of what you need out of psychedelics in meditation. Like, really, anybody who's ever meditated for more than fifteen minutes, I mean fifteen minute meditation, you can actually see a lot, right, But if you actually sit there for twenty five, thirty minutes, forty five minutes, even an hour, dude, you can experience some really wild shit, and you know just what's going

on during that meditation. You already have that your own internal DMT is that is kind of secreting through itself, right, and that is going into your mind. That's what causes you to dream at night. And so you can actually tap into that while you're deep enough into meditation to where your body thinks that it's asleep, so it starts secreting that DMT automatically anyway, And that's why people will

meditate for a couple of hours or you think it's sad. Guru, I think he meditated for like six fucking days in a row and never got up to even take a piss or anything like that, like just straight up meditated for that long. That's how he knew that he was, Like he had lived past lives as a guru, which is kind of crazy.

go away all of a sudden, you know. And like in a meditation, you can consciously drift into that space, you know, and so you slowly kind of just become the essence that is purely just you kind of just observing, you know. But when you do psychedelics, that just that rug gets just ripped from underneath your feet so fast, dude, that you don't know which ways up, you know. And so but yeah, dude, like to what to your point?

You know, the meditation. Sure, you might have to do a lot more meditations or you know, just to get something that you really need or you know, a lesson that you need and understanding that you need. It's just going to take longer, you know. But that's what they call it a practice.

day in motion. Right, So if you wake up and maybe go to the bathroom first and then whatever, you come back, sit there in meditation for fifteen to thirty minutes or whatever, and you're just you're you're you're being purposeful about how you're starting your day, and that in and of itself is powerful enough. So I think that I would love to get to a point where I'm

meditating every day. You know, We've been saying that for quite a while actually, but yeah, I think I'm gonna be sticking to that route personally, it's a little bit of meditation, some past life regression. I still got to reach out to John mcclucky so that he can give me a past life regression. I think that's gonna be sick, Sean. I'm gonna have to meditate or hypnotize you here soon, sir.

And yeah, I mean, if you ask me, it's probably best to do it in the morning and right before you go to bed, you know what I mean, right out of that data state, right out of that dream world, and right before the dream world. You know, you can talk to your subconscious mind right before bed and tell it like, okay, these are some things that I didn't like today, like show me why, you know, and then you can go into a dream and then your dream

world will possibly enlighten you on those things. I don't know, but but yeah, as far as the dream the dream stuff, man, lately, my dreams have been just kind of kind of wild and kind of I don't know, hard to explain, but I felt like every time I woke up, I felt just a little bit better than the day before. So in my experience, in my opinion, I think that dreams really do help us process information that we've gathered throughout

the day or throughout the last month or whatever. You know, It's like this place that things just kind of get consolidated.

What's funny about that and why we kind of you know, smirked a little bit whenever we pulled it on the show was because right after that trip that night, I told Sean, I was like, dude, like, if I could pick a tarot card that I'm feeling right now, it is the Nine of Swords card, right, And because I just felt absolutely wrecked anxiety ridden, it was just nothing I could do about it. I thought that, like, I

was never gonna get reality back. And then we ended up pulling it that night with that woman and she goes, oh damn, that fucking card follows me around everywhere, that Nine of Swords. I was like, what are the odds of all cards to follow around a guest that we just had on the show. For it to happen that night that night, right, And you know what's crazy is is that that night I pulled that Nine of Swords and I was like, Nope, nope, this is about me. I don't want it to be about me. I'm not

going to read this card. So I ended up pulling another card. It was the Four of Swords, which if you ever looked at the distinguishment between the Four Swords and the Nine of Swords, they're basically the same fucking card. Like they're probably the two most similar cards in the entire deck. It is, instead of nine swords hanging above somebody's head, it's four swords hanging above somebody's head, and

the four of Swords card. There's somebody blind for right, with these four swords above them and the Nine of Swords. It's the person sitting up in bed and they have their face covered with their hands with the nine Swords

above them, like clearly in an anxious state. And I was like, Okay, I guess I'm just gonna read the message then, because it's trying to show itself, right, And I'm happy I did, But I was thinking, why don't we go to the deeper depths of what the Nine of Swords actually means o, man, because I felt like it was the right reading, you know, not only just for me, because I thought, well, because I thought it was just about me. But then I was like, oh, well,

of course it's for Sean too. And then she's like, oh yeah, that card follows me everywhere. It's it's mine too. And I was like, okay, so the let's see here the Nine of Swords. This is according to the end, it's very it's not a very long description of it, just a couple of paragraphs, but it's from these seventy eight Degrees of Wisdom. If you heard we had one episode on Ready from this book where we read in deeper detail about the full Magician and the High Priestess.

I think, yep, so yeah, this is dude. And this is what every single like old school terror reader will tell you that where they get most of their descriptions about like tiny little details and you know, history of certain symbolism and stuff like that. Most people will point to this book that was written by Rachel Pollock, and she wrote it like back in nineteen eighty and still to this day, there's in a book that touches it as far as detail.

world as a place of unending sorrow. Yet both authos also said that the tragedy remains always a half true, that the universe is, that the universe seen as a whole, brings joy and peace, And as Nietzsche wrote, of embracing existence so completely with such total ecstatic honesty, that we would gladly repeat endlessly every moment of our lives, whatever the pain. So that's interesting. We didn't get it reversed,

but I'll read it anyway. What the reverse meaning of the upside down or the reversed nine of swords is? It says for the nine reversed weight gives us one of the most suggestive formulas imprisonment, suspicion, doubt, reasonable fear, and shame. The words delineate a state of mind, or rather a progression of states, the result when people retreat into themselves from some problem they do not dare to confront.

As with the card right side up, the reverse card deals with our reaction to something outside ourselves, but here it is oppression rather than tragedy. The key term is reasonable fear, which can refer to say political oppression or as of racial or sexual minorities or social oppression, a feeling of being a scapegoat because of appearance, speech, etc. Or simply the personal oppression of domineering family or partner.

The important thing is that the problem is real, but because we cannot directly attack it, we tend to hide in ourselves, keeping in our anger and resentment. Anger turned in on itself becomes depression, and from their suspicion, the person who has laughed at as a child for her big nose thinks that everyone is looking at her. The black person believes that any complaint at work is a racial slur, and suspicion easily leads to self doubt and shame.

Often it does not even help, at least not completely, if we rationally know that we have no reason to feel ashamed, that in fact, those who have ridiculed or oppressed us should feel the same. Unless the oppressed, self doubting person takes action, expresses his or her anger, makes real changes in his or her life, the hidden, the deep hidden shame will remain so pretty pretty decent description there, I would.

case I kind of started to forget. But I mean, it's not only it's not even that deep, really, but like, I just wrote it, and so let me see if I can read my handwriting, so I said, or I wrote, rather, I had the most terrifying night of my life. I never knew. I never knew how truly awful experiencing my worst fear would be. Before the nightmare started, I noticed the reality that I have grown accustomed to started to take a backseat, while the closest thing to objective reality

took center stage. I know that even that was an objective reality, because even this was being processed by my brain. But it was interesting experiencing reality with seemingly no frame of reference or preset model of understanding. I think our brains have evolved to make things more tolerable, even in things that we know to be true are just the truth that we accept. These truths that we accept are

always running in the background. This is why we are so quick to see when someone else's subjective understanding of what is true is incorrect. It's only incorrect to the models and presets that we have accepted in our own personal journey. Something came to mind during this letting go of what was comfortable. The universe is chaos and we harness it. This is what it means when you hear spiritual teachers say that you create your own reality. You are the magic because you take what is chaos and

turn it into something beautiful. So that was just something that I, like, I don't know, it just came to me. I just wanted to write it down, and you know who knows, Like, to me, it made sense and to do with that, which you will.

it's something good, something bad, something amazing, something terrifying. This is all something that you, yourself is putting that meaning onto.

And so I don't know, man, you know, when when you feel that that comfortable reality slip away, you know, and all of the things that your mind has adjusted itself to to be like okay with to make things feel comfortable, like the understanding that you know, maybe we are just you know, floating around in space and everything is just chaos, and there's really I mean, it's it's really just uh crazy that we're even here, you know, and here we are worrying about certain certain things in

life that other people would look at that and go that's like not even a big deal, right, you know, And so it's it's just this whole existence is subjective, dude, And uh, I don't know. I guess the best thing you can do is find the best meaning you can for for your truths, you know, because I feel like it's.

And I'm not a big fan of this individual, but he said something that I listened to earlier, and I kind of jive with it. You know who Andrew Tate is, right Ah, yeah, yeah, he's kind of a douchebag. But he he did drop a little nugget which I really appreciated. He said, you know, the thing that keeps most people going is the want and the dream, right Like, that's

kind of what is our fuel to keep going. He goes, He goes, Look, I'm somebody I have multiple different houses on multiple different islands, and I have yachts, and I have all the nice cars, and I have all the good things that money can buy. He goes, I have everything. I don't want anything, and he goes, While that does that might sound awesome to you, he goes, there's nothing to really keep me motivated, and he goes. You think

about it. The people, the elites whatever at the top, that have everything that they want, the only thing that's left to chase is power. And that's why people get corrupted because they already have everything they want. They already have their dream wife or dream husband. They already have all the houses and all the cars, and all the vacations.

They've been everywhere, they've done everything. It's like, you know, I imagine that the six Flags is awesome, but if you have to go there every single day, you know, it's like I don't even want to ride that ride anymore. Right, And so what he was saying is is that it's basically like you want to stay in a point where you're still keeping a dream, you know, and that's the most important thing. And that's that's kind of how it is, you know over here, is that you know it's always

going to be a dream. We want to be able to talk to as many people as humanly power possible and kind of get out this message of consciousness and spirituality and oneness, because we think that that's really going to put a dent into the evil of the world. Imagine, imagine if like if everybody, I don't know who was it that said recently, like, dude, somebody just needs to give a president some like some fucking DMT or ayahuasca or something, and like realize that they're all just one

with everything. You're not going to drop a bomb on anybody after that, you know, no. And so I just love the idea of oneness. And so that's really what

we're trying to push over here. And along the way, like figure out some fucking crazy abilities that we have almost like hidden from ourselves, because I think the more we start to realize that it all is one, and the more we start to dive in deeper into ourselves and understanding ourselves, maybe these abilities, you know, whether it is connecting to the astral realms or you know, telekinesis or or whatever psychic abilities, whatever the case may be, Like,

imagine how much more awesome that makes life, You know what I'm saying. And I think that you know, that's never going to be something like because people get tired of their material gain after a while. This is not material gain. You are literally turning yourself, damn near into the super version of yourself. I think by working on a lot of these things, whether it is seeing without your eyes or being able to start a fire just with your intention, you know, like these weird ass things

that seem like they're comic bookie. You know, like we all watched Matilda when we were grown up, thinking about how awesome that was. Turns out there's a lot of people that are doing that right now. And yes, there's a lot of frauds out there, and that will always be a thing. So everybody's always gonna want clicks and

shares and likes and all this other shit. But there are some people out there who have mastered the ability to master themselves and they understand that there is no difference between you and me, and therefore you become lucid in the dream. And once you become lucid in the dream, it's fucking awesome.

And so I think there's an infinite amount of knowledge and things that we can gain from this, and so we're never going to be done here, you know. That's the good news.

in house. I don't think we've ever even brought him up on.

about whatever you want. It is I can't put into there isn't a statistic out there that could make it any more egregious than it already. Is that every single card that we draw is exactly the card that we needed for the show. That's statistically impossible.

the earth itself has one language. But I feel like the language between you and the Earth is going to be different from from the next person into the next, And so it's just a matter of you figuring out what that language is between you and it, you know.

And that being your bubble of reality, you're, you know, wherever you go, you notice a certain thing and that triggers something within your mind that has been leading you to think something a certain way because of your subconscious mind, and it is just like layered in and it's just this whole, all encompassing experience, you know. And so the more you understand that and getting out of your own way, like you said, Man, I mean, this place is it's a playground.

never been able, I mean not knowingly. I don't think I've ever been able to regularly have a connection with my spirit guides the way that Nick can, you know, And that's kind of his path, that's what he's great at. And by the way, look out for him. He's going to be having a bigger presence on this show here soon because he's the fucking man. But you know, you know, and I think that everybody has their thing, you know,

whatever that is. Like some people are psychics, some people are good at terror reading, some people are good at seeing auras or whatever the case may be. Maybe you can be one of those people with the telekinesis and you can move the fucking aluminum foil all over the place, or whatever. Right, it's like everybody has their own thing. It's not to say that because you can't do it, it's not real. You need to get out of that frame of mind like that has to completely be a race,

because there's so much we don't understand. And at a certain point, and even if like somebody is a Christian and they're getting some kind of channeled message from Arcane Jeel Michael or whatever, or from Jesus or God or whatever the case may be, let that be their thing. But one thing that we've kind of understood here recently is that anytime somebody gets like a downloaded or a channeled message or something like that, it doesn't have to be for the entire world. It can be for you.

You don't need to worry about helping the entire world, because once you change yourself, you change the world. That's how, that's the rules, that's the way, you know, because if every if this is a matrix or a simulation or a dream or something like that, then the most important part would be for you to wake up, Like that's

the most important part. And maybe once you wake up everybody else you start to notice it almost seems like everybody else is starting to wake up a little bit, you know, just weirdly how that happens.

metaphysical bookstore. A lot of times they'll have like tarot decks, and they're those are the best people to try and support because you know, it's not a big old corporation. You're not buying it necessarily from the people that I don't want to say it like this, but the people that that need the money less. You know, some people really devote their entire lives to this metaphysical shit, and so you want to be able to support them, and

that best way. That's where I got I got a few of my decks from Christie's shop over at Awakenings in Baton Rouge in Louisiana. I got a few of my decks there. I've gotten some from Amazon. I've gotten some from Barnes and Noble in books a million. You can find them a lot over at bookstores. And yeah,

I mean, and some people actually make their own. So if you can go like on Etsy and get like a like a like someone that you know, maybe they only printed one hundred decks or something like that, those are really cool. They always say that the best way to get a tarot deck is to be gifted one. But how often are you gonna be gifted one? There's probably most people in your family think that they're they're Devil's cards or something anyway, So how often you're gonna be gifted that?

We're just trying to understand the symbolism of all of the original cards that way going forward, if you get a different deck, you can still kind of pull from that understanding and because maybe the symbolism is the same but the artwork is just a little different or what have you. But I don't know, I feel like getting the original deck was was a good move on for me anyway, just to kind of really understand where where this all came from, where the symbol what do the symbols mean?

the day. But yeah, most people, whenever you talk about the original Tara deck, it's the writer the writer weight deck, and that's the original symbolism from whenever they came up with it back in the late eighteen hundreds, early nineteen hundreds, whenever was I will say, if you're trying to learn about it though, and they have a bunch of like different tarot books, we still use our guided Tarot book.

So and this has been a huge help. But it's actually on Amazon if you're in if you have like an Amazon Prime account, they have it to where it's like a Black Friday deal. They do the Black Friday for like two weeks long. But I just saw it earlier today. They have this book on Amazon for like seven fifty dude. Yeah, super cheap.

both really really good books. Yeah, no problem, and so yeah, damn, I felt like there was something else I wanted to say about that. Oh yeah. So if you're just starting out and this has helped me out tremendously too, you can go on Amazon. I haven't been able to find them in any like metaphysical store. Only on Amazon or TikTok. Are these beginner Tarot cards. So basically what they have,

and I'll show it a little bit here. You'll see the traditional tarot card right here, but then it'll have the meanings of the reversed and the right side up, so it's this is the right side up expl nation of the card. And they're just tiny, little one word descriptions. So for example, I just pulled this card. Actually, Sean, if you're ready for it, sir.

try and remember, like little keywords like that. But this three of Pencacles on this card stands for teamwork and collaboration, apprenticeship, focused effort, growth and learning, mastery and recognition. So the three of Penties, baby, So that's that's a your traditional like starter deck. They're going to have stuff like that. And then it'll tell you what the reversed side means.

And this deck is actually really awesome. It gives you the chakra, it gives you the planet, it gives you the the zodiac, it'll it it has what element it is, and it also will will give you a yes or a no as well. So if you're trying to use it as like you know, a magic eight ball or whatever, these are divination cards, and so if you're ever just trying to get a yes or a no, pay no mind to what even the card is. It'll tell you yes or no on there, which, yeah, is pretty cool.

I don't use it for that very rarely I do, but you know, it's nice to have.

and kind of decode it. You know. Sure, you can go and read and see this long drawn out thing and understanding of what that card is, but it might only just take a few words, you know, and it's really going to resonate with with what you're experiencing, and then you sit with that with you yourself in a meditation even you know, and go a little deeper.

it for you for free. Like it's I'm still learning, so I'm not ever going to charge for it yet anyway, but I feel like, you know, there are people that obviously, like you want to pay more experienced people for that kind of shit because they're like fully tapped in. They've been doing it every day for several hours a day. I'm not to that point yet, but I would love to get to that point where I can know a

little bit more in depth. But what's great about these beginner cards is that you know, if you do like a three or a four or a five card spread, you can look at just a couple of the words and you put them in order and everything, and they almost paint an entire story. I did one just like last week for somebody who I had never met yet never met in person, like only messaged on social media's right, And she asked me to do a reading for and

I got it. It was just a three card draw and I was able to piece together what she was going through in her life just from a three card spread. And I was like, am I getting this shit? Or what dude? What's going on? You know that it's built in you know? So yeah, the Three of Pentacles. We're going to read it from the Handy Dandy Guided Tarot Book. So it says, prosperous expansion is at your fingertips as

you confidently walk through new doors of opportunity. You've already worked to create balance in your life, and you're now ready for the uh, the expansive opportunities presented by the Three of Pencacles card. Here we see three people gathered in a lively conversation, collaborating on a plan that will change their lives for the better. The man standing on the bench is the craftsman. He has the valuable expertise and is confidently standing above the other two figures explaining

his vision. Three pentacles carved into the architectural detail show that this collaborative work is stable and long lasting. Wow, that's a solid reading. The spiritual aspect of it says, increase confidence amidst fears leads you to grow and expand in many ways. Consider working on your skills at public speaking, were becoming visibly active within a community, Establishing your presence and growing your audience and your field of expertise will lead to fulfillment.

know what I'm saying. You just get to this point where things are just easier for you, you know, because you've already gone through some of the struggles, You've already had some of the pitfalls, You've already had to go through some of the lessons. Maybe it was a nightmare, you know what I mean. But but yeah, once you get to this certain level, man, things just start to flow. You don't have to you don't have to question things.

I want to see what he's seeing. And it was at the end of the trip where I was done, I wasn't even tripping anymore. I went to the bathroom to like go splashing water on my face or whatever, and I look in the mirror. My hair is crazy, dude, And immediately I thought, man, my hair almost looked like a fucking lion's mane, Like it just reminded me of like a lion or something like that, because I have, like, you know, this dirty blonde hair. And I don't know. I was still coming off of the trip, so I

don't maybe I'll see some weird shit. But and so just the fact that you say that I thought was pretty cool. Oh and by the way, for the people that were asking why I shaved my beard off, it was because I felt like I was kind of reborn in that moment. And plus it was also a little itchy.

I was kind of getting tired of it. I don't know, but it was it was more significant and symbolic in the sense of I just wanted this to be the starting point to where I'm now new and everything that everything else that comes from that is only going to be new. Almost. It almost like legit. And Sean mentioned this almost felt like a fucking baptism on some real shit.

like thinking about that, and then I unplugged it. And the water went down the drain and it was like, in that moment, to me, it felt like the closing of like a ritual or the closing of something that was like this big thing that happened, and it was just like being washed down. And I was like, oh my god, like I just closed the ceremony or whatever that was, you know, because it did feel that way. It felt like something major fling.

for their life. You know, like, imagine seeing somebody like that. Man, Like, maybe you get used to it, maybe you start to really understand what it looks like when someone's like going through it and they're really exploring the deepest depths of their mind, you know, and you get accustomed to that, but I definitely was not accustomed to that well.

no matter what. You know, I'm buckled in. You ain't getting off this ride midway, you know what I mean? And so and so I would say that even somebody who is a season vet, maybe they've done DMT a fucking thousand times, like your boy Butler or like Danny Gohler and people like that who have just who are so like regular with it. I mean, I'm sure timing is everything with this kind of stuff, But pulling somebody out of that on a regular base, there's no fucking

way you could. You couldn't pay me. I would rather be a police officer, and you couldn't pay me enough to do that job either.

that's all you need, dude. Even listening to like whenever we do the Cult member live shows on the Cult of Conspiracy and hearing about how Spirit Animal is somehow like a pimp, I'm like, how did that happen?

out there. We like to keep y'all kind of up to date on our day to day things, especially something as ground shattering and reality breaking as that was. It was something that we're never gonna forget for the remainder of our lives. It was something that brought so much compassion, like towards the rest of the world so much love and just showing that, like in my mind and in Shawn's reality, that whenever fear is made manifest, you never want to You not only not want to experience that again,

you don't want anybody to ever experience that. And so you actually want to bring the opposite. You want to bring the love and the compassion and the empathy and just try and be more understanding to everybody else out there. Everybody's walking the same damn path. But the secret is

is that everybody is actually you. So why would you ever be mean or be you know, not have the patience, or not have the love, or not have the empathy for you, you know, especially in a time whenever there is such crazy chaos already happening in the world, you don't want to be anything else that's going to light any more of that fire.

Let's be real, right, you know what I mean, Like we needed this just as much as you guys do. And I'm glad we uh, I'm glad we had this show tonight.

I got major backlash on it, like crazy backlash. So I did an episode on the first one was about how the Noah's Ark story made no fucking sense, and the next one was I even titled it because I was getting a little cocky with it that the Nephelum were fake and gay and not a lot of people like that. And there was a lot of people that were like, I'm not listening to this shit anymore, and fucking Jacob, he doesn't know how to you know what I mean. It was just like they were talking shit

on both of us, really. But then there was also like a lot of like, oh, thank you, Like there were even some Christians that were like, dude, thank you, I appreciate you for like bringing this up because you know now it makes me want to read it a little deeper and stuff like that. And I was like, man, that's really awesome.

sense logically. I mean, I know we're talking about the Bible and anything spiritual, it's the exact opposite of logic, right, But if you're talking about the Old Testament, they always talk about how the Old Testament is historical. If your historical history is illogical, then it doesn't make sense, and you can't call it historical. If it's illogical, doesn't make sense, you can't. You can't be one and not the other, right, And so that's what I was trying to call out.

People didn't really like it, and we got a bunch of hate and a bunch of crazy stuff. And I'm not gonna lie like this was always the plan. Just everybody knows. It wasn't like I jumped shit from the cult because I couldn't handle it. I saw a couple of people saying that, I'm like, if you only knew me in real life, you would know how many fucks I actually have to give, which is it's bare early one.

It's barely one. The fucks I give are the people that are open minded, the ones that, look, you can disagree with me, you don't have to agree with me to be open minded. I mean, it's the what is it like Aristotle that said that it's the mark of an intelligent man to listen to something and not and not have to worry about agreeing or disagreeing with it, you know, something along those lines. I kind of butchered that.

But I think that that's the most important part is to be open minded and you know, kind of be open to constructive criticism about your beliefs. And look, and like I said, if there are things that you're just okay with not understanding to the fullness that you need, then that's okay. You know, everybody's different, everybody's wired different. But yeah, I just want to throw it out there that those couple of shows are not the reason why

I left the Cult of Conspiracy. Me and Sean I have said this for the past year and a half that my endgame was always to do metaphor time, hasn't it?

very different directions because where I was. And this is nothing against conspiracies at all, because I was built on conspiracies, right, Like that's how I got into this game, was conspiracies. But I almost felt like I was doing the world almost a disservice by inspiring fear because and that's that's never what we were trying to do on the Cult.

fucking magical, psychic, goddamn powers inside of you. I don't want you to just be sitting at home scared of chemtrails and scared of World War III. Who's that going to help? I mean, if look, if there's gonna be a nuke that's dropped, there's nothing you can do about it. Anyway, You were all toast right, so there's no point in being scared about it. Also, I got so damn tired about talking about politics, and I've said that time and time again. I can't with it. There's not a single

political party that I agree with anymore. I have separated myself from that entirely and completely. I don't have the patience for it. I'm not one of those people that likes to sit back and wait for other people to take care of the world's problems. I would much rather just focus with what I got going on in my own life rather than worrying about what's going on in the entire world personally.

That's totally fine. So you know that I wanted to keep on talking about that, I couldn't. But as far as the Bible goes.

Paul said, which never made any fucking sense. Right, So we're going to be getting into you know, that kind of stuff over here because absolute free speech over here, free realm of thought. You can agree to disagree. I mean, it's totally fine. It's just we want to be able to bring that that kind of stuff up, and a lot of people seem very interested in learning what it's

like if you are a Christian. How much different is your life if you go by Jesus's actual sayings and not Paul's, who never met Jesus, by the way, never never in reality, like there's any never, any of that. So, yeah, we're gonna be getting into a little bit of that here soon. But yeah, not gonna keep on ballparking here. We appreciate you guys coming to hang out with us tonight. It was a fun show. Thank you so much for

listening to our story. It'll be something that we never forget about and thank you for, you know, kind of hearing us cry about it here for a little bit.

don't really like that, that sounds like bullshit. Okay, that's fine too. But to constantly just be reaffirmed of what you already know, I don't. I don't think there's growth there, so.

So yeah, we're gonna get over the meditation. I don't know exactly where we're gonna be going yet, but look, if you want to be able to join in on the meditation regularly, our live shows are every Wednesday night at nine pm Central. This was kind of like an emergency type of episode. We normally would shoot it on a Wednesday. We Satay shooting on a Saturday Saturday this time. So what that means is is that we have another live show in four days.

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best way to be able to support the show. And we really appreciate everybody. But uh, Sean, any closing words for you, sir before we get to meditating.

experiencing this because they guided me there. And then you like look back over you know the words that were said, and you're like, they didn't say nothing about me getting onto a box car with three other people back in nineteen twenty or anything like that, you know what I mean. It's just weird, the the you know where your mind can take you with a few suggestions, you know, And that's all this is really about. So this one is actually going to be by our favorite YouTube meditation channel ever,

and that is by Great Meditation. This one is actually for getting back on track guided meditation for passion and purpose. So I think that's a solid one. It's only eleven minutes long, so we will get started here in just a minute. But uh, I'm excited. I'm looking forward to this one. It says, obviously, don't listen to this while you're driving. You should never listen to any kind of meditative music while you're driving anyway. Oh hold up, wait a minute, I got mine too. We got the mind

fold up in here. All right, we're gonna get started here in three two one. Let go.

muscles it's safe to let go. It's safe to relax as you let your breath be soft and gentle, air moving as freely as it wishes through you, and you appreciating each sip of air as the miraculous and free nourishment it is and provides. Feel how the air all around you is always there for you, always ready to nurture you at a moment's notice, never demanding anything of you. Invite your nervous system to remember. They then invite the nervous system to perceive how deeply supported it is by

the breath. As you get even more curious about how you can become even more relaxed now letting yourself simply be the witness to you, becoming aware of your awareness of you in this moment, there's nothing you can do, judge or change. Your only rule is to simply allow to exist and to observe whatever is. What if by you merely allowing what is, you give yourself the true

present of simply being whatever you are. On your next exhale, send the following affirmation throughout your body, I am free to exist as I am, and on the next exhale, affirming it is safe to be me. Continuing to breathe at your own pace, on your next exhale, affirming I

can be myself in all scenarios. As you continue to let yourself breathe however feels best, moment by moment, and breath by breath, you invite yourself to let go even more just being present with the sensations that are up for you right now, observing yourself as the observer without judgment nor attachment. And as you relax in this, you let the following ask formations move through you trusting and knowing that with each question you perceive, you naturally align

with the answer instantly. What can I create today that is and will be truly magical for me? How may I align more holy and perfectly with my own unique divine purpose, not only in this moment, but in all moments. How may I feel whole and complete within myself right here and now? What if it is not only possible that I am already in alignment with the highest and best, most loving timeline for me? But what if today I can actively observe and find evidence of this in every

breath and everywhere I go and everything I do. How is it possible that I cannot seem to separate myself from my own perfect path and purpose? How come I am a magnet for such immense amounts of light and love? Now just mask and feelings of gratitude knowing that your highest self has all of these answers already all around you, within you and every cell of your being, wrapping you

up in your own greatest, unique purpose. And whenever you truly feel ready to come out of this practice, do so by taking your time, only allowing your eyes to gently open when you feel ready. Great job today. Thank you so much for being here, Thank you for all that you are.

and like not connected like how I normally am. And you know, it took a little while, but then, like really towards the end is whenever I started like settling into the meditation and whenever she was talking doing the affirmations like why does all this stuff magnetize itself to me and stuff like that, and which I think those affirmations are actually really good. But whenever, you know, and then I started to repeat the affirmations in my mind, Dude,

the craziest thing started to happen. So first of all, dude, getting you a mindfold is next level for meditation. We don't have we don't have any affiliations with them, but highly suggest everybody gets one. Takes the meditation to the next fucking level, you know, talk about like deprivation. It's awesome.

really strange. It was like my consciousness was going, you know, like forward and backwards and forward and backwards, and it was so strange and it almost reminded me so earlier, just earlier today, I was pushing my son on the swing and it reminded me of like it was like my face, my consciousness that is in my face was being pushed on the swing. I wasn't even thinking about that, it just started to happen. So weird.

were responsible for whatever it is. And so of course the outside world is going to seep into your meditation when you when you choose to look inward.

way to work. Let's say you stop to get gased, somebody pulls out in front of you, or or whatever, whatever situation it is, how much better you're going to be able to interact with that situation just having that that baseline kind of dropped a little lower, so you have so much more room to play with before you start to get agitated or who knows what the situation could be, you know.

But if you send something over there, he'll relay it to me and we'll be able to set something up. But yeah, we appreciate you coming to hang out with us. This was a lot of fun and a bunch of great guests coming up. Actually, let me give you a little taste of what we got coming up because it's gonna be so sick. So let's see this upcoming Monday, getting your boy, the Big Grimbowski coming back on the show.

This guy is an absolute like he looks like a shaman and I'm gonna just say that his messages definitely live up to that. So he is freaking awesome, So we're gonna be having him on. He's all about the oneness and all the the like. Dude, he's real with it, and so he actually reminds me a lot of optimistic.

We want to touch on it all, you know, And I think that's the right way to go about it.

you know. I think it only makes sense.

And the way that they were the tour guides whatever we're doing, like this divination type thing where they were holding hands and she would say ABC, and then they would be a like a knock okay, and then she would restart and then there would be another knock and it would spell out shit and the things that this spirit or who knows what that's divination. Well, yeah, that's what I'm saying. They were doing divination and they had some information on Sam or Colby, which I get them

mixed up. But he started crying, dude, like he was having a real visceral reaction to this thing, knowing things that nobody knows, probably not even his his co host is awhere, you know what I mean. That was like a very personal thing, and so I don't know, man, who knows.

I understand things that are just like the subtleties, things that you wouldn't even think was involved. You know, when it. I just wonder what things they've experienced and come to understand because they're immersed, you know they're they're.