Numerology Part 2: My Personal Reading

this beautiful day. I hope you all are having a great start to your week. Today we're gonna be finishing up our conversation on neurology, so let's not waste any more time. Let's get right into it. This is chick ease and chill. Okay, guys. So, as I mentioned, this is actually a part two of our conversation with numerologists John Seagull. He's been in this line of work for more than two decades and he's been kind enough to do a reading on me. So let's pick up right

where we left off. I am nervous. I have never done a reading like this. I know about numerology. I've read about numerology. I was into it a lot more before. Now I'm just kind of like I think on the surface, but now I'm ready to get in there. This is my first time talking to Josh. Okay, I have not spoken to him before this. I just literally met him because of my podcast. So thank you to my right here. Um. And all he has is my full name, my birthday, and do you have the time I was born or no?

I think that's not needed. That's only for astrology. Okay, perfect, So let's do it. Okay, so we talk about you know, your natural I call your natural ability. But you know, on the websites, you know, they'll say it's your destiny number. Right in your case, it's a fifty seven. Okay, now it's a seven. You'll go on the website that will say seven, you'll call DestinE number. It's not. Your destiny

has nothing to do with that. The number seven is the number of truth and knowledge and delving into the mysteries and why Buddha when he was born walks seven steps. In Islam, they have seven heavens, seven house. In Catholicism they have the seven Holy sacraments and Judaism they have the seven candled menorah. In ancient India they have the

seven great teachers called the Seven Reshi's okay. I can go on and on and on and show how every single major world religion, every almost every single spiritual tradition that's been around for any length of time venerates the

number seven. So when we talk about your natural ability, you naturally instinctually delve into the truth and find the answer and figure that ship out because that's you were born with that you have the power to see through, analyze, find the truth, find answers, and spirituality can be a part of that. There's certain things that you know inherently. It's just and I gotta tell you something. It separates

you from other people in a weird way. You're always going to be the way your mind thinks, a little bit introverted in the way you think. You know. You know, people have ironies and contradictions in the chart, you know. And one of the things when you're dealing with with skeptics, they try to play this game and they say, well what you said can apply to everybody. They get to this crazy, really illogical, insane area where they say, well

everything applies to everything. What I'm saying is is that we're going to get to all your numbers, and we're just piecing it little by little. But if you want to know why you you inherently know this stuff, and people in your family are other people, they're not understanding that it is because you were born with with the mystical seven. Part of your talent here is to share information, knowledge and truth with others. I mean, you could do

that through music, but it doesn't necessarily say music. It just says that you're here to share what you know with others. Now, I looked at that, and then I looked at your life path, which remember that's one of your lesson numbers. And so in numerology, there is a certain kind of number called a master number. Okay, the master number and what they are just double digits to

repeat eleven five up to ninety nine. If you've got one of those, and you've got a fifty five and an eleven, so you've got two of those master numbers in your chart, so um you will you will have certain special gifts inherent in that number. People listening right now may not know this, but they may have a special Master number in their chart that they don't know about. The may explain certain skills they've got. Right now, understand this.

That master number also happens to be one of your life lesson numbers, right, So you've got a master lesson. So it's like it's like, well, okay, I was given these extra skills or certain special qualities to me, but I have to learn that. You know, you didn't have that in your natural ability. You have to learn it.

So yours is a fifty one. And right off the bat, there's some irony because five rules communications, right, But I just said seven is very introverted thinking number, and it kind of separates you from other people the way you are, you know, the way you're different. But the fifty five says your life is going to be about communications on a powerful level. Right now, here's the interesting about fifty five. Five is not a stable number. Okay, it is a

freedom number. It is a restless number. Is a need for constant change, new things. It can't it can't stay stuck. It can't mean one particular situation for too long. So it brings the kind of a one like a travel adventure, new things in life. But if you if it's a part of a lesson. That means that there's a changeable energy to your environment growing up. It is not stable, and you know because five, by nature breaks the stability. Now there's a positive, and then there's a negative in

every number. Okay, the positive is you have a fast, quick, adaptable mind, and you have remarkable communication capabilities, networking, communicating and innovating. Your your new ideas, new concepts in your mind is moving around this fast. And you have the ability to use the power marketing and promoting and all that kind of stuff and communicate your message right now. When when I look at that again, it's not like I said, well that can't be music business considered to

fall unerneath that, But I'm thinking communication industry period. And then I look at that seven and I'm thinking, oh, well, she's got to drop her knowledge. She's got to get deep, she's got to explain things to people. Now she may do it in a very powerful communicative manner. The first part of her life is going to be topsy turvy, volatile, crazy, changeable, unstable. Since I can remember, my life has been emotionally unstable. I mean at home with my mom and my dad

not being together. It was always wishy washy. They were back and forth. Um, we lived with my grandparents and we lived in the garage with the back of my uncle's house. So my life has always been a little like hectic for the lack of a better word, it's been. It was beautiful, but then here comes the stuff with my dad that happened, the sexual abuse, and and then the issue with my mom and I and it's just I feel like it has been an uphill battle. You're

gonna have to learn discipline and focus. You gotta take that fire and you've got to discipline. Now, you say, what happens when I take the discipline? I discipline that double five? What moves from you know, unstable lifestyle, everything's you know, running around being kind of crazy, being out of focus. Because think about this, if you're just running around, you're and you're doing this, and you're scattered and you're not focused, you can't get anything done. You can have

great success. It's true. Absolutely, you start something and you go onto something else and you're this and that. You're not focusing on things right. So now, but when you

discipline it, that double five is a power number. Maybe that's there's a I'd say a life path waiting for you where you can use your innovative mind, your communication skills to become kind of the master of getting the message out, and your mind is always thinking to something that's like an inventor, Like I got a new idea, got this, I got that, but I'm going to focus in on it and discipline my life so I can get that thing happening, so I don't repeat the crazy, tumultuous, unstable,

out of whack ship. Yeah, you're speaking to mysel all right. Now, when you add down the fifty five, five and five, make ten, one and zero make one, okay. So one means that you're here to to really do your own thing and be a unique leader in your field. That means you have to have a strong sense of self and identity, like this is who I am. I'm doing my own thing. I'm not a follower. One. One leads all the numbers. One doesn't go, hey, three, wonder why

I start. They're like, dude, you're one, you start, we follow you, all right. So one represents the identity. That means you're going to have a parent who may their identity may be either too big or their identity may be strong and they may have some kind of a narcissism to them. You know, I'm so so a level okay, And so they're gonna overshadow your identity. Your identity is going to be carving out who you are. You have to create your own thing, remember it. So I said

this is a lesson number. I didn't say it came to you like that right now. I've also just so you understand, there are cases where you also can be abandoned in a weird way. So there can be control like you've got to be like this, you should be like this. They look at you as an extension of them. Where they see you is that, and they maybe have opinions and things like that, you know, and then you're like but then you grow up thinking, well, who the funk am I? My own identity didn't get carved out.

I was too affected by the narcissistic person who over identified with themselves. To help you to see you, you got to overshadow at that. Now you have to understand there's the other side of that too. So being around very insecure people who are who don't know who they are, it's not good for you, just as much as being around people who are all about themselves and narcissistant. I gotta tell you there's a likelihood that you'd grow up out of that and attract the two extremes of the

narcissist thick access. So that would be like somebody, well, you're gonna repeat what you know? You think you think you're gonna get conditioned by that. Dude. I want to cry. I'm fucking triving out right now. Okay. So so so that's your Remember, that's your matrix, that's your program. And so you're gonna the program is don't be you, it ain't about you. Then you go out, what do you think is gonna happen? You're gonna say, oh well, it's

not about you. Then it's gonna be about me. And then you're gonna attract another narcissist and it's gonna be about them. And then and here's the thing. What I found is something called an undercover narcissist. I found this side from talking to my clients, because sometimes they attract these people who are like, let me begin an example, like you have a friend that their life is just oh man, they never figure it out. They're always got

a problem and issue there. They're insecure, they always they never get over the hump, and then something really great happen in your life. You want to sit down and tell them, but you look in their eyes and they're like, oh, I can't say this. I can't tell them that they're already this is gonna make them feel worse. I'm gonna click them. You keep yourself a little small around them,

You dim your life. Let me tell you something, what's the difference if you attract the narcissist that becomes all about them and you lose yourself to them, or you're with somebody that's insecuted so insecure that you dim your life so they don't feel bad. At both cases, yeah, in both cases you were giving away yourself. Yea. And the funny thing about this is when I talked to

once and I asked them about this stuff. Sometimes they had a parent that was an egotist or there or narcissistic, or they're they're about there, you know, this big person. And sometimes they had a parent who is insecure and unsure of themselves. And in both cases they had the same They both had a loss of self. Right. So I don't know what I told you these things. I don't know I don't know which one it is because

they have a similar response. I know this much. You can still attract either one of those if you're going to repeat your pattern, and then you have to wake up and wait wait wait, wait wait wait. I can be loved and be and shine my light at the same time. Josh is absolutely correct. I have dealt with both sides of the spectrum, narcissistic and insecure but pretended to be very secure but in reality wasn't. I'm not gonna say any names here, you guys, but I've dealt

with that with family members and relationships. I had a very narcissistic partner once in my life, and I felt like it was just all about him, and he wasn't really allowing me to be who I am meant to be in this world. It was in a way, it was it was all about him, But then he was also insecure because he was afraid of what I can become.

So when I said, hey, I want to continue to do this X, Y, and Z, it was like, well, no, I want a wife that stays home and has children and all these things, which is fine, but I had goals that I wanted to accomplish, so I had to excitate that relationship. And then in one of my past relationships, he was very confident exteriorly like he you know, on his exterior he was like, yeah, you know, I got this, But my light kind of not bothered him, but I

guess I did. I had to just step back a little bit and not be myself to my full potential because I didn't want to hurt his feelings. I didn't want him to feel like he was less than or felt inadequate, or felt inferior, you know. But then that wasn't good for me either, So I had to let go of that relationship. And now I can honestly tell you that I'm with someone that does allow me to

be myself. You know. There have been times when he tells me, you know what I feel like, not not intimidated, but like where he feels am I enough for you? And he definitely is. But more than anything, he allows me. He loves that I am who I am. He wants me to be better. So it just feels good to have someone like that, like where I don't feel like I have to be less than or I either way like dimming my light? Now would you would you be with someone like that. Now. No, okay, now, now I

know all right, Remember I deal with facts. I'm a son of an attorney. You don't ask me. Earlier you said to me, is this your faith? Is this your ship? Is this how it's always going to be? And I said, I got twenty cases. I know for a fact that you can change. And even before they talk to my big mouth as right, and you know you just did. You just factually confirmed it. I used to date that, but I don't do it. I would never do it now because I woke up. You woke up out of

the matrix. I woke honestly in that aspect. Now, I'm like, the crazy ship is that? You're just you're confirming so many things. And I've never said this before, but but my mother was that a woman that for a long time I was in her shadow since I can remember, you know what I mean, because she was just this huge force, and I always felt like, for a long time, I felt like my destiny was to be by her side and help her shine and build her up, and then one day would be my time. Never did I

think she was going to pass. And then it was only until then that I was able to find the strength within myself to say, okay, let me step into my own light. For a long time, it was just and even even in the beginning of my of my career, it was difficult because it was the comparison like and it's taken a lot of work for people to be like, hey, it's me, it's Cheeky's like, don't look at my mom, like,

don't compare me to her. We're two different individuals. But I feel like now, finally, especially with this new tour, this new album, I feel like more confident than ever, barely like where it's like I thought, but now I'm like, I think I got this by the balls. Now. You know, hey, listen, when your mom passes, that's a part of this greater I see that as a part of a greater plan of passing the baton, saying you're ready now to do

your own thing. My job here is done. Now time for you to, you know, create your own path, not based on me. I'm passing the baton on to you. I've never said that before, and that's how I feel. I almost feel wrong with saying that, but I feel like if my mom and I were both here, I don't know, it's not the correct word is she wouldn't allow it. But I just feel like I wouldn't be doing what I'm doing if she was still here, you know what I mean? Maybe because she was such a

huge force and she continues to be. Don't don't get me wrong, but I do feel like it's more like God said, Okay, well here, your mom's gonna go rest now, and we're going to allow you to do what you have to do. You know. But I've never said that out loud because I'm like, how the funk is that going to sound? But I've always felt it within me. You know, No, it's you love your mom. I mean, people love their moms. I love the hell out of her.

So it has nothing to do with that. It's just that your journey, right, your journey needed we needed a transit. I called that the catalyst. And sometimes the catalyst comes, a person comes in your life, and sometimes someone leaves. But it's always a catalyst because it's a time frame in your life where you're ready for growth and and the universe kind of sets that up in a way, right and so and and that's part of the process. Now we talk about personality eleven and now eleven is

it two? You can you can add eleven and becoming two. So we know that. But we but but master numbers, um, the eleven is the first master number because it's a double one. All the other mass numbers. You know, twenty two is two times eleven, you know, thirty three or three times eleven. So left we always we just added respect for the eleven. We just keep it. It's the original master number. You have that in your personality. Now

eleven does rule the media. Okay, so we now know you have immediate we have immediate personality, inspirational, you have a certain dynamic quality to you, certain charisma may come through that to the eleven. People go and go online and read about the number eleven. You can run a level personality and all that kind of stuff, and you

can see these are aspects of the eleven. Now we already have communications, right, and a powerful communication, and we have seven is dropping that knowledge and bringing your truth. And then we have a media like person Alley. Okay, Now, now am I supposed to be shocked that you're doing a podcast? You're communicating your knowledge and your truth right

within the within the media context. Now I'll tell you something that's interesting that eleven personality gives a sort of dynamic quality to you, where the seven doesn't have that. The seven is the seven will nerd out on you, or get spiritual with you, or get deep with you, but they don't necessarily have a good personality. Yeah, the seven is ja and I feel like the eleven is cheeky.

Those are my two different people. Yeah, yeah, the the leven will dramatize that, you know, the leven will inspire and and then you got a double five member five's fire and it's over and a shaker, you know what I mean. A little a little little wacky, a little a little impulsive, a little how to how to learn, how to take this topsy turvy craziness, and and and and and discipline it. But but it's certainly got the magnetic powerful communication ability. This is why I said I wouldn't.

I would have not have known necessarily you were you were a singer. I know that you're involved in communications. I know you'd be in the media. What you're doing now is more connected to those numbers that I see than anything. However, I know this, I know this one thing I know from being a musician and a writer, myself. You know that music is a you know, a media outlet that you can you can bring your truth to others through and you can communicate that to others. Right,

it is communications. It is the media. You know, the lyrics in which you say you can bring you know, deeper meaning in it. But notice how you're doing a podcast, right, and now, how many singers do a podcast? Not very many. And the reason why it is is that we have straight communications and informational stuff going on here, you know, community, you know, communication industry, telling the truth, talking about a breaking it down in a communication environment through some media outlet.

And we see that that is a proposed to your chart where just someone who was a straight singer wouldn't do that. You see how your chart shows this persolutely. Yes, it's crazy. Yes, you know. Now in music you can say something, but I mean you've got some real communication industry stuff. This is radio, this is TV, this is writing a book. You know, it's kind of like that, you know, yeah, oh my god, yeah, and that's what makes me so happy. Yeah, because why because you have

an alternative. You were seven, You've you've got to share what you know, your truth offenders and you're gonna do it through the media, but you can you do it in maybe in an unconventional way, in a crazy way, and in an edgy way. You know that devil five. You know, even your even your inner drive is another five. You know. Now I'm going to say, when I see a fifty five and another five, say, okay, you know there might have been some excessiveness in some department in

your life, impulsivity. You have to learn how to work, you know, definitely. All right. So now let's get to the deepest lesson of your chart, your ultimate goal, okay, your higher which is your higher purpose. Okay. And then and then we're gonna go back in time and we're gonna see how your your your life played out into those cycles, right right. So now here's the interesting thing about it is your ultimate goal number. All right. So let me make this clear what an eight is. Okay.

Eight is a number of authority and power. It's it is a number of someone who builds their own empire, their own business. Okay, could be via communications, because we can't. We're not going to throw out the other four numbers. I'm saying, but all the stuff that you do needs to be put into building a business where you were you were the authority, where you were in charge, and you were creating success for yourself, but in the right way. And that's why I'm gonna get into what the right

way is. So the thing about eight is psychologically it is always self worth self value as a lesson. So I can tell you right now that many people in this world who are extremely successful have had low self worth. Okay. Now a lot of people tell me, they're like, why is that, And they said, well, you have something to prove. Okay, you're driven to succeed, right to go beyond these feelings that you have right too to compensate for that for

those soft worth concerns. Okay, you know, when you have an eight, you have to learn to value yourself that who you are is worthy. Yeah, And I got to tell you it's strange because you think, well, if someone's got self worth the US and they don't, they don't value themselves a way they should what they're worth. Of course, earlier in their life they're going to put themselves in compromise compromise situations. Mm hmm. Now you can do that and work, but you can do in relationships right where

you are not treated as if you are valued. Okay, yes, now there's an interesting thing. It also rules the material world and finances and money. Okay, Now, if you have seventeen eight you know seven rules, that spiritual truth, that deep stuff, and then eight will is the money and the power and when it's coming together is a deep lesson that means is I call a love hate relationship with the money and power, and and that we have to think about what was going on growing up with

the mentality the value system of your parents. Okay, where they came from, because you know, with eights you can go up or down. You know, as can can become extremely successful. But their background shows that they're learning how to have a spiritual relationship, a positive relationship with money and the material world and success. Because if you take straight eight, it's all about this success and it doesn't matter anything else. Okay, it's about it's about money and

success and achievement. If you take just the seven, it's like, oh, it's about what I do is being feeding my soul. It's about doing something meaningful. It's about doing something that I use my my deeper talents for. It's not about how much money I make. It's not about the status and the success. Okay, yeah, your value has always just been you. In my past, I've struggled with with self worth.

I mean it could come from everything that I lived through when I was younger and being you know, sexually abused by my father. You feel like what am I really worth? Like that really affects you, like your confidence as a young lady growing up. You feel dirty, You feel like you know so many things, like no one's gonna want me because I'm already quote unquote used in

other words, you know what I mean. So all those things affected me so much, and then obviously losing my mom and having to like stand on my own two feet. And now this is why I feel like everything is just I feel so different. I don't even know how to explain it. I'm so glad I'm having this conversation with Josh because it's all just coming full circle for me. Like now i feel like I'm not going to put up with anyone ship. Now I'm going to speak my mind. Now I feel worthy. Now I have is here in

my intro, That's what I say. She's here, I'm here, We're here to stay. Like Like now I'm like I'm worthy and I have to tell myself that a lot. I'm worthy, I am worthy of love, I am worthy of success, I am worthy of being financially stable. Like those are all affirmations that I tell myself on every day, because sometimes my past can come and try to seep

into my future. Now, when we grow up with this, what's odd is this stuff can play out in relationships, and you think, well, how would that play out relationships? It does the people you check their self worth and their value system about what's important in life and how much they put on outer success and achievements and status things and stuff, and how much they put in the

deeper stuff. Right, So the first thing we need to do is go back and talk about where your parents came from originally, what happened with their goals and success. Now you say your mother was a very successful person, kind of over shadowed by or some degree. Where'd your dad come from? Where your mom come from? What did they do? What was their focus in life? What was their system about money, success, achievement? What was your self worth level? Inside? Tell me about both of them where

they came from. Okay, so my mother, she grew up I could say like poor, you know, what I mean. So she was very loved, had a very pretty and beautiful I think childhood. And then she always would say I was the ugly duckling and I was always just stuck in my books because boys didn't like me. And she was like, you know, ugly duck So she was

top of her class, valutorian. And as she got older, she the reason she said that she started singing was because she wanted to feed her children, and think it just became a thing that didn't necessarily make her pent happy. It was something that just brought she was good at and brought her a lot of money in a way to take care of her children. But for her it was very much as far as money was I'm going to buy this house, I'm gonna have this car because I didn't have it when I was younger. It did

make her feel very valuable. Oh my god. Okay, so just thank you for that. So well done. All right, So your mother, who had a huge impact on your life, had low self worth as a child. She actually thought she was ugly, and and she overcompensated by doing well in life in school to overcompensate, like get it into you know what I'm saying what people are gonna like me. Boys aren'tna like people, So I better I better find something that I could be smart. So I'm gonna that'll

be my success. And then later on in life she became a singer, and not for the joy of music necessarily, but to make money so she could have the things she didn't have when she was poor, which means her entire drive in life is the overcompensate for being the ugly poor child, so she can have the material things to make up for what she didn't have. Yeah, yep, oh my god, that's I know, I know, and I

mean that's really deep. Yeah. And for her, for a long time, she she wanted to stop singing because it was it's a lot on your body. It's the touring in the late nights and stuff that it was just like I'm good at this, and she was just she's a monster in in in her genre, you know, and still is. So I think it just it was just the way of like, I'm tired, I don't know if I want to do something else, but this is what gives me that power, that financial stability, you know what

I mean. Um, And she loved buying those expensive things because it just in the diamonds and that, this and that, because she didn't have that when she was younger. So for her it did make her feel better like I'm successful. But I know in her heart, like there was there were a lot of things that she was sad about, you know, like when she was at home by herself and the conversations we had and stuff like that, you know, But externally she seemed like this very confident, strong woman,

you know. And my dad, my dad, I don't you know. He he was also he was born in Mexico, so he came from a very poor family, like there was fifteen children. Um. He worked and he was in real estate. That's how him and my mom met, or actually now that's not how they met, but they worked in real estate together like earlier in life. Um, And I don't know too much about him, to be honest. He was just more of like a mellow type of dude that just say I'm making money, take care of my family

sort of thing. What do you do? What kind of work do you do? He did real estate. That's all I ever knew that he did was just he was a real estate agent and he did he did fairly well. With that. You know, Um, now he's in jail. He's in jail for what he sexually molested me when when I was a little girl. I'm sorry to hear that. Um, it's okay. What was it like for him to have his wife blow up like that? I'm sure she made more money than he did. He Yes, she always did

make more money. My mom, I'm telling you, was the you know, she was super super. He didn't want her to go to school for a long time. He didn't want her to finish high school, and she was just very adamant about it. She went to college, she had a good job. Um, and then when my mom wanted to start singing, that's when the problem started. You know. It was just like, no, you gotta stay at home with the kids. So he wasn't okay with that. So

that's why they separated. Ultimately. You know, he cheated and stuff like that, but that was ultimately because he wasn't allowing my mom to do what she wanted to do. Okay, Now let's go back to the seventeen eight mm hmm. Overcome you know, change in financial status, overcompensating for low self worth. Making that your way of showing that you're worthy because you've got the external things. You've got the diamonds, you've got the material objects, you've got the car and

all that. Right, Okay, but you still haven't healed a low self worth. I think it's amazing what your mom did. I don't get me wrong. I think it's incredible. She obviously was extremely talented. What I'm saying is he didn't heal her wound. She still had that sadness when you sit at the kitchen table and you're talking about that ship, the diamond rings and the fur coats, all that ship that she didn't have, growing enough that she thought, if I could have this, I can have the things that

I don't have. It didn't fix that. You know. On top of that, your father didn't want her to work. Now you got to think about this. He's a man, he's a you know, he's a Latino man, right, and and the wife is making more money than him, you know, potentially yeah, yeah, and so what did do affect his self worth as a man? And he's now competing with her. He's not liking that he can't be the he can't be the breadwinner where he's unless she stops working and

he's the soul breadwinner and then he can be the man. Right, So his self worth is being affected by that, by her success eclipsing him, and she's trying to control her. So it's all about her goals and outer success because that's affecting him negatively. Yeah, So it's self worth on his side, and it's about success and achievement being a point of contention that led to the demise of your

parents relationship. Now you know why I say there's a lesson in that world that you might have a love hate relationship with money in power because money in power was the cause of so much pain and suffering growing up. My goodness, Yeah, do you see it? I absolutely do. And I've been dealing with this for the past two months, moving homes, having a big, bigger responsibility. And it's kind of like that song Biggie song, more money, more problems,

you feel. And I don't like to look at money in that way at all, because I feel like it's a blessing, you know, And I try to look at money in a very positive way, no matter how it's affected my life in the past. Because people, when they have money and power, some people, not all people. Some people that aren't emotionally healthy will do certain things and hurt other people because they can because I have that financial stability and they're wealthy and they have that power.

So anyways, that's a whole other subject, but it is so important for me that I take care of Like one time they told me at church to be a good steward, and I've struggled with that in my whole life. When it's like I have some money and instead of saving it, instead of making the right choices with it, I spend it on things that I don't really need, more luxuries, you know what I mean, Things that it's

just like you know, like lomal Gasto, you know. And I feel like right now, God and the universe are teaching me a lesson of learning. Like if you have five dollars and we had an episode on this, you guys save three dollars of it, you know what I mean, and spend two of it, you know what I mean. Like that's just a little example, but that's just kind of like the lesson that I feel I'm learning right now, because sometimes we don't know or appreciate the value of money.

So you guys, remember save your money and then telling myself that too. Now, understand the timing in your life, right, m hm, you're in an eleven year. You have an eleven personality. You can google eleven. You can find out what eleven is. I mean, there's some standard mean a lot of stuff Internet's bullshit, but you know, but some of it's just basic stuff here that you can learn. So and eleven is is a cycle when you're going to have shifts of consciousness and awakenings and you're going

to realize certain things. And now you have to think about the matrix. Now, what's the matrix going to say? You're gonna attract people in your life and you always got to check what is there value system and mentality? Okay, you want to be around successful people who do what they do because they love it, not just for the money, not to compensate, not to be all about the status. And also in business, who are you attracting? Who are you working with? You know? Are you are you getting

a positive thing or a negative thing about business? You know? What are what's their mentality and their value system? And who's in control and who's the authority? Oh my god, yeah, you know. Now I don't know exactly what happened in your childhood. I never I never said I know everything. I mean, I know the basics of it. I know the dynamics. So I ask you know, I'm not a psychic. This is a mathematical formula. It gives me a blueprint of what might have happened and how that affected you.

And I know for certain that we repeat whatever happened to us. So you've got to figure that out. And look, I've done twenty of these things, so you fear you learn kind of how it works. You're going to a major shift right now, change of mind, change of heart, reevaluation of your life. And I bet a million dollars that it's related to you maintaining your first of all,

your identity and doing you. And number two, it has to do with your self worth, business, your your goals that you want to accomplish, and keeping your integrity or what you want to do and losing power and this kind of stuff and making sure that your pathway is in alignment with your value system. Oh yes, oh my goodness. Yeah,

it's absolutely what's going on. And it's been really pulling on the strings of my soul to the point where it gets me in a bad mood where I'm just like, wait, like I I'm very intuitive, I know, and I'm like, I can't ignore this because it's later on the universe. Isn't a kickman? Yes, but that's exactly what's going on, absolutely right, And then you have to look at this. Am I going to do the programming and repeat the fact that that world symbolically related to your mother and

your father? We went over that. I don't have to go over that. Do I have to repeat that pattern and play out that money's route all evil or business or all that whatever that ship is right? Or can I wake up out of the matrix and say, you know what, I'm going to make sure that my business turns out the right way. I'm going to make sure that I keep my integrity and that I work with

those who do. I'm going to make sure that the truth and honesty and all that's going to be a part of this, and that I see myself as the manager of my own life because I'm my own authority and I'm going to have the self worth to say what I need and what I want. Yep, absolutely yes, even though my self worth got kicked in the ball sack growing up seeing all that ship. Yes, I know, but I I am adamant about making the changes necessary in my life. So this was honestly wonderful. It really

did answer so many questions. It confirmed a lot of things for me, and I just I feel that, I mean, we can do this off of the podcast, right, I can have a session with you later. Yeah, you didn't get to doing those those magical cycles, because those are wild when you go back and you see how things played out during these certain number cycles. But I guess we don't have enough time for that today. Yeah, I know, but but it's okay. I do want to speak to you.

I'm going to tell my producers, um for us to I would love to have your numbers so I can have a session with you. Have a lot of questions, um, you know, but but I'm honestly you guys, I'm in like all right now, my mouth is open. I have I feel like I want to cry, but of excitement because I'm just like, oh my gosh, I feel like I can rest with so many things. It's just it's hard to explain because I feel like I would have to get in into detail. But either way, Josh, thank

you so much. I am so grateful. You are definitely gifted and and what it is that you do because the thing is, yes, I know you said this is very factual and everything and like it. It's all connected, but you are also very intuitive. It all goes together. So and Josh, I don't know if you want to share your social media or a website where people can find you. Yeah, so, I mean the websites you know, Josh code. My Instagram is at Numerology, Josh at Numerology Josh.

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