Hi Kitty. Hi Eric. I would take a long time to get room sound that time. That's okay. Bailey really close to cap it around. Also, I just was ticked, really hard? Did you really? Yeah, it's really point. I want to see if I can hear it. I'm going back hurts. Hi everybody. Welcome back to infinite question. You psyched me out on that one. Well, I bet that's the bid is
still funny after 100 million. I bet that everybody's like, oh boy, I wonder what hilarious but they're going to do for that. Which door is opening? Send us an email at asking if no Quest podcast if you heard the garage door opening. Anyway, see you I'm kind of okay with it. You know, why? I've been thinking about it. Like, you are so great at audio and you're so great at making a podcast. And we're in our cool new fancy
podcast boost. Go to my Instagram and see the picture of it. But here's the dealio, we're Also, just people we are going to podcasts. That is true. Our spare room Estelle's. I figured out today, finally, how to get the radio signals to not come in, through the things? I'm really excited about this whole thing because apparently it's like the weather, affects it like the pressure in the atmosphere changes. How radio signal, like II was a whole thing.
But I'm really proud of, so, hopefully, the sounds real nice. I don't know. I hope I bet it does. I bet it sounds incredible and amazing also Eric. Yeah. What. Are we going to talk about? Say you said, you had a pitch. I had a pitch and I feel like I didn't want it. I was too like think well I don't think about I didn't want you to think about it like to too much before we like started. So you have veto power for this pitch. Okay, Bailey is sold separately. Go out the door.
Anyways, so I posted a video on the old ticket to talk talk. Talk that I've had a, my drafts forever, some version of it, my drafts forever. Okay? But I've noticed that I hadn't been making eighty HD content on Tick-Tock very much lately, because I was seeing a lot of videos of people saying, like, do you have ADHD try this? Do you have any to do? Try this Jeremy's do. Try this. And the comments just full of
people saying, like, thanks. I'm cured or like calling them ableist or You know, assuming that they insinuated their insinuating that like the the reason they're struggling is just because they are shitty and not because they have a mental disorder which sometimes is what people are saying. And those people go fuck themselves. But I've just noticed there's a sort of cycle of trauma of.
If you have ADHD your whole life, you've been told by a lot of people that oh, you're just not doing this. And if you applied yourself you do better. And your backpack looks like shit because you're a piece of shit. You know, first grade Eric that's nobody's called. Me a piece of shit, although I'm sure somebody probably called me a piece of shit. When I was in fourth grade is not to my face, this in the Teachers Lounge Miss Burrell Ellis and they're like yeah
carrots kids real piece of shit. No really. So I only please my love please. Everything's different now is new. Smells you know. So where's your collar? I took it off because I'll signals okay. Smart guy, right? Yeah, it's a perfectly reasonable like trauma response to like since you've been told your whole life? I would, you just do this that, you know, when you see somebody
say, hey, have you tried? It using a fucking planner or, you know, putting your hamper wear the clothes tend to pile up rather than where you think it should be, or whatever it like, it's reasonable to think like fuck you like this isn't that simple, you know, it's much more complicated than it is.
And I think that often my default is that a lot of the time, but it got me scared to, like, talk about ADHD life, hacks or whatever, how one might manage it because I was afraid of being called ablest and I was afraid I would You know, I don't know, I was afraid. I was talking to an audience that wasn't trying to hear it, you know.
Anyway. So I post the video basically, talking about how one you're doing yourself, a huge disservice when you discredit someone's advice, even if it's in bad faith because get that, get this to get dig this. When someone gives you advice. It's not about them. It's about you. You might be able to benefit from that device, even if they give you advice in bad faith, like just be like, oh, mate. What are they, right?
And if That fucking but like you shouldn't just assume somebody's wrong because they're being a dick. Like the ability to learn from people you don't like is very important thing. Anyways, so that got me thinking a lot about, you know, are there strategies and stuff that I discredit. Because either the person who suggested them to me, is somebody I don't like or somebody who was part of the whole idea.
HD, trauma thing, when I was a kid and how much learned incompetence do I have, like, in my life Bailey, you're so fucking adorable, but Jesus body. She's old podcast dog. She's a little pockets to be. She wants to have her. This is the Bailey asaurus section. They also spilled french fries. They're like two days ago. So wow.
She's probably still set him up. But anyways, that's just to say, I've been, I've been thinking about, I've been trying to find like, learned in confidence in my own life and think, like, are there any things that I could be doing to make my life? Even like one percent better than I'm not doing? Because I just assumed that I can't, I think it's really funny. That well, it's not funny but like it's interesting that you, you present the topic you present it and you're like, yeah.
And in my head, the like logical part of me is like, oh, that makes a ton of sense. That's really important conversation to have, but like my heart, my soul is like, I feel deeply personally attacked, and again, come to my own podcast to be attacked in this way. And so it's like it's interesting because I feel like like, I am often very guilty of that, but then I also struggle with the Other Extreme, which is where I like my executive dysfunction. Really does come into play and
so, it's hard. It's you have to be, I think really fearless and really sort of like self-aware in terms of knowing how to make that work. Does that make any sense? You know what I mean? Yeah, I mean, it's rough. It's a hard, it's a judgment call you constantly have to make because you do have a legitimate medical reason why it's really hard for you to do dishes or it's really hard for you to remember that appointment that you act like you do have a
legitimate medical reason. Yeah. But I mean in my own life, I don't want to assume like that, you know, I have a data set of one, I've only ever been me, but like I have absolutely noticed that a lot of time. Is I'll be sitting there and we'll dishes aren't done or something's not done and I'll just sort of Blame A Team like fuck my executive dysfunction sucks.
But if I'm honest with myself, half the times that I didn't do the dishes and could have wasn't from executive dysfunction it was from me just not fucking yeah to which is you know, something worth acknowledging. Yeah. Well it's funny that we're having this conversation right now because I literally just got done hiring a new Personal assistant which is not as fancy as it sounds calm down. They're going to help me like a couple of times a week.
You get to Bagels and stuff though bring it on up to the office. You know, Donuts are big No-No because of his virtual just for you. Like because ritual doughnuts? Yeah. Well, because the thing is, is that I realized and that it really became part of the issue was that for for me, everything leads to another thing, right? So it's like, oh, I made like, this podcast is a great example. So Okay, so we're going to make
a podcast. Then we have to go to the website and we have to upload it and I have to write a description which you will remind me to do four times before I actually do it and then we will release the episode and then there needs to be an advertisement that gets done for Instagram and an advertisement that gets done for Twitter. And then ideally there would be an ad that gets done for Tick Tock but they're not going to show anybody the fucking podcast
add anyway, so who cares? And then, you know, in a couple months we also need to post it onto YouTube because that is a new thing that YouTube is doing and so it's like work begets work, be its work gets work and that feels so overwhelming. But others other stuff like I was talking to them and I was like, yeah, you know, like I really need help like setting up my YouTube for subscriptions because right now I don't have like the subscription thing set up and they were like, oh well
it is complicated. I was like, no, I'm just lazy and I didn't want to do it, you know? And so it's like I see See these places where it's like, no actually like that is very overwhelming. Or like my executive function goes. Oh, if I write the episode description, then it actually means that I have to do seven separate tasks besides the episode description. And so, I don't want to write the episode description because then it means that I have to do
all this other work. Podcast breakthrough. No. Oh, but then sometimes it's just like, no, I don't want to do the fucking dishes or like, I don't to do the laundry. But then the problem is, is then we'll see. I don't want to steal your phrase, could I please? Well, because yesterday you were talking about past debt. Yeah. And I started thinking about task debt and how like that affects me too because it's like, why won't do the laundry.
Well, now there's two piles of laundry and then there's three and then I was four, and now there's laundry mountain and then I also have, you know what I mean? And so, I'm things have just Stack Up and Stack Up and Stack Up where it's like, I know reasonably that if I did the one load, when it's like, just do the fucking thing, but I'm so buried underneath like, yeah. Both the literal and proverbial
laundry Mountain that. Like it's really hard for me to feel like I can get anything done. Like and that's one of the reasons why I like, I think my house is always so messy or because like are like, I'm always like, so behind on the emails and stuff and it's because it's like There's the seven other piles that I still haven't done, or still haven't folded, or still haven't put away and that feelsbadman, I mean, for me, I get what you're saying. I think for me, I'm sorry.
I keep wiggling, but my back really hurts not. So it's like his rooms for your back hurts. What hurts so much it hurts like ass? It does on, feels like it does, it feels like ass I've noticed for me a lot in when that sort of Happens to me. When the mountains start piling up. It's often traceable back to one instant. Yeah. Like I'm a moment of inaction. Exactly. Like the first time you get into debt. You know like I mean I think that's a really good analogy like the first time you go oh
it's okay. I'll just put it on my credit card or whatever and that starts a whole chain of fucking having debt. Like, for me, you know, dishes, for example, like dishes is my big thing. So if I let's say, I'm starting with a completely, A clean kitchen. Like, I go ham on the kitchen is completely clean and the dishes. The sink is empty and I'm like awful. Well, sweet starting from zero.
Lime liquid baby. Then we have like dinner one night and there's like just a couple dishes and it just a couple like not doing those dishes. That's the moment, that's the moment. And I think for me, although, you know, executive function is or executive dysfunction is obviously a huge part of my life. But in those moments, a lot of times I just don't fucking want to.
I just don't like I want you. So I don't and it's and it's small and you know it's easy for me to just completely jump off of it and forget that it exists because, you know, I have executive dysfunction so it's almost like I'm harnessing that tend not do a thing and then that starts the process of you know that Maybe once or twice. And now, there's a big thing of dishes and now, it is executive, dysfunction. Now, my brain is thinking, where do I start?
Do I clean this thing first to a clear space next to it, so I can take the juices out to a clean. The sink before I clean, the sanctuary feel both basins up with water when I was 11. So P1 not like then it becomes executive dysfunction and then it just piles up more and more because you run out of space has
to put dishes in the sink. They start spilling over to the sides and then you're like, oh, I have to unload the dishwasher, but I can't do that because there's no space on the counters because there's dirty dishes and now you're just in massive quantities of task debt. It starts with those initial little things and it very quickly becomes legitimate executive dysfunction because once the task that piles up and there's 20 different things, you know, in order to do this, I
need to first do that. But in order to do that, I need to First do this like that is absolutely legitimate executive function, but that first time, or the first couple times for me, I noticed that swear. I, that's where I mean, frankly, the word is laziness where I know I could do it right now. I have the like I'm standing there and I just Don't because I don't want you and it starts the process.
Yeah, for me, I think though, to one of the things that I've been realizing is that for me the test that goes back even further to the to, like the real truth, which is like, it's always kind of like embarrassing to admit because it's like, we spend so much time talking about like systems and structures that work for you, but like I don't have a system in my kitchen, like, I mean, the system that exists You know, is there like we keep the
plates there and we keep the Bulls there like, you know whatever. But like I never really took the time to think through wholesale like from scratch empty. All the cupboards, all the drawers, everything and go. Okay, what does my brain actually need to function in the space? And I didn't do that anywhere because I was thinking about this the other day, when I moved into this house, I didn't know I had ADHD.
Oh yeah, I got Diagnosis after we moved in and so there was so much of myself that I still didn't understand that. Now like what five years on or whatever is like oh like I really do need the pots to be on the top of the dishes, to be, you know, like whatever like II and so like there's a lot of places where, like, I'm really struggling with that task debt, because it starts at like the foundational, like how like, where is the couch in the Room sort of thing.
And so, now I'm dealing with this double problem of, like, I'm finally in a place where I think my antidepressants are are starting to work more effectively, which is great.
But I buried under laundry mountain of all the stuff that I didn't do. While my mental health was in the toilet, but then also all of those mountains of stuff that I have going on are stacked on top of the Of a system that actually works for my brain because I never built anything that worked for me because I thought my house had to be a certain way.
And so it's like like and then when I start realizing that, I go oh, fuck like, and then that is like the executive dysfunction of like just having to fix that and how big that is of a problem to fix starts to feel really scary. So then I just I just do the dishes that are there. I hate where I put them away. I Hate all the bullshit in the cabinets, and you know what I mean?
And so, it's like, I'm in that I'm living in this really weird place, where, like, I'm really starting to understand like, how much, like task debt. I've actually like accrued and it is like, it's a foundational thing. It is, it is like my entire home is built on task debt, you know, even like and even just stuff like, you know, like we're in the process of finishing the basement. And it's like, oh yeah, well, I'll unpack those boxes in a couple of weeks and it's been Almost five years.
Yeah, and I don't know what's in them anymore. You know, and it's like should I unpack them? Should I go through them? Should I just take them on open to the Goodwill? Because clearly I didn't need anything, you know, and then that becomes in itself a task, you know, and then that in itself becomes like okay, well then, what if I what if I decide I want to keep everything in the box, where do I put that know, that goes on the pile of, you
know. Yeah. And so, yeah, it's I know that's not exactly what you're talking about. But it's just something that I've I've been feeling so much my own life is just realizing that I never actually set anything up. In a way that works for me. Yeah, I just put stuff. Where it got put and there it stayed. And then there was the time when my mom came and rearranged my entire kitchen without my consent. Oh yeah, I'm still to this day. Finding shit that I was like,
oh, that's where that got put. But I'm like, I think I just need to like clear off the dining room table, and spend a day. Just clear everything like, move out of the kitchen and go. Okay, moving back into the kitchen. Yeah, yeah. I was thinking, I keep, I could sing it like a bunch of different analogies but I'll probably make all of them over the course of This absurd. But so has been watching Better Call Saul which is a television program. A prequel to Breaking Bad is pretty cool.
It's a prequel. Yeah. Starts it begins six years before Breaking Bad begins. No spoilers. Don't worry but there's a scene or there's like a thing that is happening where one of the big like drug guys has this really big underground compound underneath the laundromat and it's like super nice and it's where he makes drugs. We're both white eventually makes trucks. But in this show, you see it get built and the idea is that there's this existing laundromat a huge what? Not just like it.
Like I said, industrial laundromat. And Gus Fring is trying to find a team of people to excavate underneath it and basically make a huge thing, like compound underneath an already existing compound. So there's like an episode where they're interviewing people and they're talking through how they would do it.
And every time the, the Builder people, the perspective Builder, people are like You know like yeah, actually this would be really easy if there wasn't already an existing structure here like, you know, putting up the wallet like yeah. But as we excavate in blast and put in new things and put in plumbing and electrical, we also have to maintain support for the structure that's already there. And it makes everything way harder turns it into a Monumental task.
Not to mention all has to be done secretly because it's nobody's supposed to know it's there. But I kind of think it's like that. Where my house is a Drug Lawyer. You're right. The refueling midair. And I know. But that is, that's a really good analogy.
That's exactly. Thing is, such a good analysis, like went for me, you know, when my apartment gets really bad or any space gets really bad, if there aren't like, default things, you know, I'm trying to avoid saying systems, but yeah, systems in place, then you're trying to create those systems, those foundations on the While you're actively living in a space. There's already a bunch of shit there. There's already garbage, accruing, whatever. Where is like?
You just said, like, if you move completely out of somewhere, so now not only is there not clutter, there's nothing in there. Like, yeah, if you want to use that shelf for that thing, it's clear like go for it and then you put all the stuff that you want in there. And then all the stuff that isn't in there at the end of it. It's like, oh cool. Clearly I didn't don't need this stuff, which is way easier than going through stuff.
That's already there. Another analogy I suppose would be like refueling a plane mid-flight, you know, like Air Force. One is flying. I can Stay up there indefinitely. So like other planes have to fly up next to it and fueled. It's really cool. But obviously this way more hard way more difficult than refueling on the ground and like when you're trying to you know, reset your kitchen or something like that and there are systems in place, you know.
It's like refueling midair. So like what in that analogy? What would be the equivalent of Landing? You know, such to refuel. And I think it's like kind of what you just said, were, you know? Yeah, I move completely out of it if you can and then set it back at, that's a huge task. As Landing a fucking plane but it's going to be easier to refuel once you're down there. Yeah, okay. Now seems like as good a time as any to talk about our new sponsor even geek therapeutic.
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Okay, here we go. Let's go. Do do do, do do. I think the thing that I get nervous about is that I've been using the metaphor of like laundry Mountain, but like, I also know what has happened when I tried that in the past, from like, I'm going to take everything out of my closet, and then I'm going to like, put everything back my closet over there, reorganize, everything as I go. And then what happens is I get halfway to well, like, 30% through and then I run out of
steam and my executive dysfunction kicks in and then I'm Literally sleeping on laundry Mountain for two weeks and like, you know what I mean? And so like, that's what I'm scared of is like, I really want to. I really wanted to take everything out of the kitchen because I feel like also being able to sort of just like lay it out and be like, okay, what is actually in this cabinet was actually discovered, what do I actually use?
Like I feel like that would be like really fucking useful, but I'm also scared that it's going to wind up where there's just like cups on the floor of the living room for three weeks. Yeah. And That scares me because that's the part of my Executives function that I can't control. Yeah. Yeah. Well I also, I want to point this. I don't mean to like, press you on this because I was totally no idea what you're talking about. Like it's really scary when you
fucking because my back hurts. Sure. It's an honor but so I totally get like that. I am scared shitless of that too. But I've been asking myself this question. I also ask you this question, How much of that is learning competence? Because the fear for me, is that I will clear everything off the whatever. Let's say the kitchen. You know, I'll clear everything out of the kitchen instead, it all out, and whatever.
And then, yeah, stop giving a shit and be fucking done with it. And then I'm screwed because all my shits all over the place. But This is not minimizing executive, Sergeant least, I'm not attempting to, but you can force yourself to do things. You don't want to do. This is like you can. It's harder when you have ADHD but you can do it. Like you can physically force your body to move in the ways that it needs to do. It sucks hella dicks. Like, it's awful.
I mean, I was doing wrong with sucking dicks. But you know what I mean? Like, it sucks really bad, but you can force yourself to do it, and it probably ultimately sucks less than getting into the previous struggle, where everything's just fucking all over. Our house and whatever. So like I guess I'm asking you like how much do you think, how much of your fear that that's going to happen? Is you just assuming that it's going to and just assuming that you are going to fail at that?
Fuck you are now to say. Sorry. No. You're right. But actually in the middle like literally you know how sometimes when you have ADHD and you just know what somebody's going to say at the end of the sense. Yeah. You gotta like patiently, wait for them. Yeah. I realized halfway through what you were saying that I already knew why I do that. And it's like trauma. And this is because growing up,
I would do that all the time. I would like do the thing where I'd like, pull everything out and like, having a free organize my desk and I'm gonna be perfect, so good clean everything out of my closet. And I would do that, then I'll get to the end and I'll be like, look and then one of my parents would be like, wow, that's a great start or like, wow, we'll see how long it lasts. Oh God, you know like wow.
Like you know what I mean? So I think like, yeah, I really think like, if I'm being honest, I think some of that sort of defeat ism is learned incompetence, but I learned it not because like I chose incompetence but because I just got told that, like, whenever I was at the end of the project know, I actually wasn't. And so like, then there's also that perfectionist string of like, we're like, so like, it sounds like, like inside me are to Dragons, you know?
And it's like I have that 8hd dragon and I have the autism dragon and for me like one of the greatest joys of my life is aligning stuff up. Like I fuck like it feels good. It feels good. You know? And so it's like, I'll take the dishes and all I could take, you lessly stack, the cups, you know, and align the cups up or whatever. But then my ADHD goes, that's so
funny. And so then it sounds like they start really nicely and then by the end, they're just like, do like, you know how I keep the Pint cups. So they're just it's just like the absolute chaos and it's because like my ADHD doesn't want to take the time and my autism like wants me to take the time and so I compromised by just like doing it as quick as I can to get it over with. And so like I wonder also like in something that I've really been thinking about is like I've been so Duvall.
So sorry, dear listeners. My therapist was off this week, so I guess this is just, this is just what we're doing for therapy this week, but also, some of that is like, I'm just so divorced from, like, a lot of my like feelings and like, how I process feeling. So I'm just like, I don't like that, don't like feeling those feelings. Let's just not. And so I wonder like, if I don't really like mindfulness, can I fucking hate that word, but like an intentionality behind that Yeah.
Sorry fucking I don't even want to get started on how much I hate fucking my next time. We know. Um but like intentionality you know if it's like okay like I'm going to take everything out of the cabinets. I'm going to sort through everything and what nothing I can't save all the podcast and then I'm gonna guess in my head for the rest of us. It's fine. I'm just going to say Eric is wearing gray sweatpants and half
our audience. Is going to know what that means and half aren't and I know what that means. You just did. To find the shit out of me dead cause you're hot and you can't even okay. I'm sorry. You can edit that part out of me but I might. Um but yeah, so intentionality. Yeah, I got distracted. That's okay. What did you do get distracted by all right. Sorry cute. You're a hot little guy? No I mean I think it's a cool guy like it's cute.
Cute little Q everything Shucks. I got my Jimmy tart headband on you do. It's a good headband. Thanks um no I mean I think learned incompetence enhanced or inflamed by trauma is a big thing. Yeah and I mean for me definitely but it seems like in the ADHD Community were something.
Well, I mean like In your case, not only did you have to worry about not finishing, something even when you did think you finished a parent parent will figure will come up to you and say actually no, you're fucking not. Yeah, actually, I can't imagine him. Whoo, but I think that's maybe, I think maybe we just accidentally hit on something that's like really important.
Is that learned, incompetence doesn't have to be something that you decided, and it can be have have been taught to you, which also feels like a little bit of, like, like learning. It's in terms of like lard to confidence, like I was not my fault, but like, I think for a lot of neurodivergent people like, once you really start looking back at like how you were treated, especially before your diagnosis.
If you're like a late diagnosis person, I think like a lot of the, the incompetence that is Learned was like, not you like, it wasn't your fault, it was things like, you know, like, oh, I'm done cleaning my room. No, you're not, or, we'll see how long it lasts for, like, whatever. And that's, you learning, but not. Not actively like it's not you just trying to like oh I'm gonna do a shitty job so I don't have to do it ever again. Which is like sort of the idea of learning competence.
It's the exact opposite thing where you are trying to do the best job that you possibly can. And everybody around you looks at you and goes well your desk too messy or your backpack is to Bessie or your binder is too disorganized. I mean I would still call that learned incompetence to you know, if I could get a little wordy. That's like there could be like autodidactic learned, incompetence and Clarinda confidence. Where like is it an external thing like, did you think you
were doing fine? And then somebody told you, you fucking weren't a million times. And so you thought, so you learned, oh, I guess I suck at that. Or are you yourself thinking? Like, wow, I suck at this and therefore, I must forever suck at this, you know, I think there are two different types of, I think one. And when you talk about, when you're talking trauma, I mean, that's just a match made in heaven.
I think when you're, you know, I know, I mean, I think for me, a lot of my worst learned incompetence is I S autodidactic learning competence which is the most pretentious fucking thing up. But, you know, I taught myself the thing that I learned, the fact that I was incompetent, something is probably school just because I mean, I need Finance what, you know, I wasn't it. I just had a really, really hard time with it legitimately like, for legitimate reasons, but that was 10 years ago.
Now I'm a different person. Now, I have strategies and tools and I know more about it. Eh, Deno know more about myself and my wants and my strengths and weaknesses are not stuff. Like who's to say, if I went back to school, it wouldn't go well. But it's still just in my head it's like a relic you know of just like no I can't do school anytime. I'm like oh I need to get some credentials for this, it's just factual but I can't do school and that's Maybe true or maybe not and I don't know.
I I know, I know none of this is meant to sort of blame people know for their own. I mean, if anything, I think it's hopeful yeah, is it something is, if something is your fault and you can fix it, you know, And so, I don't know. I mean, it's you cut you off quickly.
We also should probably ends his, you have a fancy cool game to play well, but no, I mean, I think like actually, like, it makes me feel better because like, I think one of the things that I really have realizing just like, talking this through here, is like, there's so many places were like, I am confident in like how I do things and I am confident in like oh I do like it with my closet as a certain way or my desk is a certain way or whatever. I just got Told over and over
and over again. It wasn't good enough for. That's not how your, you know, quote unquote supposed to do your laundry and it's like, who the fuck says? And I think that's like the thing that we've been trying to teach people the whole time. Yeah, absolutely. It's your standards that matter. You know. If your room. Yeah. Absolutely. Well do you want to say the cool outro thing that I always screw up. Yeah. Hey everybody. Thanks so much for listening. Thanks so much.
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