Bye Bus Driver

the symptoms of a heartbreak. And she always got a story, y'all know, y'all been telling me this. You've been telling me she always got a story. So I'm gonna let her tell the story. Sha tell him what happened first, the fucking all first, the fucking all first, the fun of all. You mean? So, you guys, I have been dating this guy for months. Yes, I'm gonna go like the white people, but they talk about babies some dating the guy for twenty eight months. He was my baby, yo.

So I've been dating this guy for a little over two years and everything was great. Our kids were friends. He has three kids, I have three kids. We often talked about like bretty bunch ship and meshing families and stuff like that. Things seemed okay, but every time you turned around, things seemed a little rocky, and he put me at fault for some ship that wasn't even that serious. And I didn't realize that the ship wasn't even really

that serious. I just found myself trying to continuously fix that situation or fix what he said was wrong, because I loved him and I wanted things to work and I wanted to be with him. This man, you know, was super involved with My children are very close to

my youngest. You know, she's so so lovable. I mean, picking the kids up from school, picking ash up too, spoiling my children as if they were his, referring to my children as his bonus children, going to pick the kids up from school, and even writing on the sign out sheets Stepdad like a bit extreme. Yeah, something has been telling me for I want to say, probably for at least the last month, that something wasn't right. He wasn't at the house as much as he used to be.

We went from having sex three to four times a week to having sex once a week. He went from spending the night three to four times a week to spending the night, maybe like only three times this whole year so far, April exactly. He woke me up every morning knowing that I had to get the kids together.

He's a bus driver. Sometimes, like if my phone was dead or something like that, he would literally drive the bus to my house, parking around the corner and happen his unicycle and come in the house and wake me up. Hold on, I know you even just said this name. What hot bought the bus that he parked around the corner with passengers on it, No passengers yet, they say, yo, do don't say and tell me that ship yo? All right? No? Okay. So he would talk the bus around the corner and walk. No,

he wouldn't walk. He would hop on a unicycle the one will jump, yeah, the electric unicycle. He wasn't pedaling so on some small cop ship. Yeah. He would just right around the corner. And he was coming in like you gotta get up, you gotta get the kids together. And I'm like, oh, shoot, okay, thank you. You give me kids on my head and depth because he got to go to his first stop to pick the people up,

then hop back on the uni. I suppose right around and right around the corner I bought there in the second one, I back the bus. Yes, yes, that's what he did. If that ain't love, I don't know what the fun is because if somebody's phone is did, that's your responsibility. I got a whole bus I'm supposed to be taking to my first stop. But you know he did that because he carred. It is more than caring, because he obviously loved me. Because only someone that loves

someone would do something that extreme. Yeah, my woman's intuition kicked in. I'm just like, okay, So the girl that does his hair, she's also a bus driver, she commented on my story a few days ago, and something was just like, ask her if he talks to anybody because she does his head. You know how stylists or barber's, anybody that's behind you doing any kind of service for you, they always glance over. You know, they may look at your phone, not like really staring in it, but they

glance and see, like what you're doing. You know, I would have been a nosy bitch before. Yo, wait a minute, that is so crazy. How you even think like that? He gets his head nune by her, so she could be watching his phone. Your whole mind thinks like that you're crazy anyway, continue but um damn and I am, um, that's funny as ship. So I asked her. I'm like, hey, girl, because everyone will remain nameless, I got something to ask you. Can you stay between you and I? She was like, sure,

what's up? Mind you? This is like damn they one o'clock in the morning. I said, I funk with such and such. We've been working with each other for the last two years. And I know you do his hair. You also work with him. Do you know if he's working with somebody? Because my women's intuition is just it is saying something different and I'm just like, you know what the is going on? She was like wait, what, Like do you have proof of that? Like, what do

you mean? She's like, do you have proof that y'all mess with each other? I have tons of pictures, tons of videos. So I sent this to her and she's like, Wow, this is more than I can even take in right now. I know I said that I wouldn't say anything, but the person that he deals with because he does deal with someone is extremely close to me. Come to find out, Shorty is her best friend, best fucking friends. I don't

know if they like best work friends or what. But she was like, I can't hold the same well they're all on the same job. Oh and she didn't know that you dealt with him. No, nobody knew, you know. And that's another thing. I actually asked him because the girl that is his stylist, I went to high school with her, so her and I have a relationship. We literally grew up in the band together in high school. It was on the band. Definitely was in the band one time in band camp. It was in the band.

So you know, her and I have our own little separate relationship. It's not like we were extremely close to anything like that. But you know how you just you're cool with somebody and you just continue to be cool with them. There's never any bad blood every time you link up. It's just it's a good time. That is where I am with the stylist. And she told the girl and she hit me back and it it was just like she would like to talk to you, and I'm just like, look, I ain't trying to beef with nobody.

I ain't trying to argue with nobody, Like that's not my ship. She was just like she's not like that either. Just like you wanted answers, she wants answers as well. And I don't want to be the one giving you these answers. That's crazy. I remember going through ship like this, like, oh my god, nothing is like you find out that somebody is working with the guy you're working with, like, oh my god, like, don't it's sucking tragic. I haven't. I have not had to go through anything like this,

and God knows when. Yeah, I don't go through ship like this because normally when I'm working with somebody or I'm dating somebody or whatever however you want to put it, these men they're not stringing me along to the point where they're well endoal in my life or in my kids lives. This is a second time through this tumble baby girlfrither. I mean, but that was that was so long. But I was eight years ago. I haven't had no

heartbreak in eight years. Nobody was able to get that close to me, you know, because for the most part, these niggas be sort of kinda up front. They don't sit there and be like, oh, I'm trying to build a family with you. Oh these are my bonus kids. They just be like, Oh, when you're coming over, niggas just be fucking and hanging out with you. And that right there, if you have common sense, that's basically you know what it is. It is what it is. We fuck,

we hang out, we chill. But I ain't know, Oh, do the kids need anything? The kids hungry? That the kids eat you and pick the kids up from school? Is none of that. The guys that I've had on the back burner all of those years after that heartbreak eight years ago, they've never displayed these feelings and trying to care and build bonds with my fucking children. So that is disturbing. I talked to Shorty on the phone. Shorty said he's logged into her Facebook on his phone.

He checks her phone every night. They've been working with each other since August of mind you, him and I've been working with each other since January of Actually, he slid in my d m andeen when you fired me, and he slid in my damn. He always gotta bring up when I fired you. She always gotta bring it up. I became a brokeye real quick because I am just hilarious paying me and broke because that's because she wanted to be a bit. I became a brokey real quick.

So I was like, man, fun, just hilarious. Her money. I'm gonna get some money on social media with these little followers I got. I'm about to do some promo about to post people ship. He hopped in my d M and wanted promo because he raps. He wraps about the bus. So he's a rapping bus driver. Yes he is. He's a rapping bus driver. He's pretty good, and he wraps about the bus. He wraps about the pretty good. He writes about the bus. He raps on the bus, and um, he bust one of his raps. I don't

even want to I do. I ain't about to give him that conshine. You'll know the bus rap I do because I love that nixt he'd be talking about the seats, be talking about the fair box and the people that get on and off, the people that get on and off. Yes he does, like the Curry kids all that. No, not only cry kids riding to bust. I'm just saying, like, do he be talking about he talks about all of the motherfucker's like everybody to get on that bitch. He

talks about him the kids. The old people don't talk about the kids. He talked about maybe them high school kids. But yeah, that's what I mean. Yeah, he talks about him. Hold up, hold up, I know the ship getting good, but listen to just a couple of seconds of a commercial. If you love me, you'll listen. He's soft a ship like I'm used to dealing with hood niggas. You know that he's a soft as rapping, bust dry. I'm just trying to get it, Damn. I'm trying to making people

understand we'll be dealing with in now. That does not take away from the fact that he's a great father. And I guess if you need him to be a friend, he's a great friend. I don't know, because, like y'all, was really like my best friend. Like I can literally beat myself around him, like and it's the last time I was able to be myself around somebody was eight years ago. Like I know, this is c Mr Gross or whatever, like past gas dig up my nose if I need to, like anything, I was able to be

myself around him, and that made me feel comfortable. The fact that I could talk to him about anything was special to me. I felt like he would talk to me about anything as well, but obviously the funk nu. But I talked to show me on the phone. She was saying, oh, you know all the stuff that he does. She was just like, you know, he has a key to my house. And I'm like, he got a key to my house too. She was like, well, I also

have a key to his house. I was like, well, damn, I don't got no key to his house, but I ain't never want one, but damn, like he just gives She was like, well I asked for it. I'm like, damn. And that right there was just like kind of like a smack in the face, and I'm just like, wow, like he cares enough about her to give her a key and I ain't asked one even bit. Where my motherfucker key damn? You know. So that was like that

right there. It was a smack in the face, and you know, I'm just like, you know, he has a bond with my kids, like especially the youngest one, And she was like, he had a bomb with my son too, and I'm like, damn, Like for real, yo, while his serial bonding with people's fucking kids and ship like it really it's we that is a mental illness, because if you know that you don't want to pursue somebody in the long run, why the funk are you building bonds

with their children. He's taking my son to get his hair cut. He's done so much over this two year time frame. We went to Vegas for my birthday in September. My birthday September two. Okay, her birthday is September one child. He must love a virgo. Oh my going. So while we were in Vegas for my birthday, he told her that he was in Vegas for music. They needed a surfacet wrapping bus driver, I guess, so to come through Vegas and perform. First of all, let me tell you

about when we went to Vegas. He opened the suitcase. He had a unicycle in the suitcase, and I was very upset, and I'm just like, that's why. Then Southwest was saying it ship was too you have, because why the funk would you bring that? He had to pay extra because why the funk would you bring that unity go in the suitcase. And then he was using my suitcase and that sho could have messed my fucking zipper up the fuck. So, I mean, granted, you know, he

don't drink or whatever, so I'm fucked up. He's my designated person, you know, to make sure I'm together. And I was super funked up the day before my birthday and she was like, you know, I was talking to her while he was in Vegas, like this bitch really not her but him. This bitch really left me in there fucked up, laying in the bed and was talking to this bitch on her birthday while he on my birthday churped with me. I'm just trying to figure out

why he did not walk away. He could have walked away. He had tons of chances to walk away. I think it was the sex, because you that guawk and that Selurby slurb beach it's okay and although she ain't got that white meat yeah show. So Saturday, I went to a good friend of mine's comedy show and I hit the guy that I've been dating, and I saw that my messages were not being delivered, and I'm like, well, maybe his phone is dead. And I'm just like, no,

it's Saturday, Like what the hell? So I'll call his phone. It goes straight to voicemail. M hm, Well maybe he's dilling out let me call again, it goes straight to voicemail. Okay, I'm fucking crazy. Let me call again. It goes straight to voicemail. So I'm a old school Star sixty seven. The phone rings. Wow, oh okay, well maybe I'm tramping Star sixty seven again. The phone rings. Okay, No, Star sixty seven. Straight to voicemail. Okay, So he has me blocked?

Why am I blocked? So I sent him a text, and I'm just like, I think I see what's going on. You know, I guess maybe we should just call this quits because I don't know why you blocked me. I didn't do anything to you, and you left me on red and didn't say anything. So after I talked to his stylus and she basically said whatever whatever. I was just like, you know, I'm gonna learn him over here. I told him, just come over here so we can have sex my last time. I want to come, Like

I don't, I'm trying to. Yeah, Like he was like, all right, I'll be over there after I leave the bubber shop. Like straight was like, yeah, be ready to take a shower, go do what you gotta do. You on the phone on me, you heard everything he was suppressed. Obviously, the fucking pussy is that fucking good. You can tell nick. I was on the phone, so he came over and when I tell you, he got neked so fast. He was neked before I even got to turn the TV on.

The egg like sucking Netflix. We was watching Netflix because my son was in the next room, and that right there just basically spoke, I'm on the time schedule, hurry up. You know he ate the pussy. You know, fuck mouth is awesome, Dick is awesome. I'm sorry. You know it is what it is. I mean, yeah, I man, you know it is what it is. So even though he was a soft remnisce bus driver, Dick was hard and the mouth was moist, but fuck him. Yo. So after we finished, I let go, he let go the mind

you we're having sex unprotected and shut. He told me that they also were having unprotected sex, which is a little scary because I'm pretty sure she can get pregnant. My tubes just stopped. My uterus is burnt, like damn, this shop is closed. Ain't no babies coming out of here. But I hope you niggas don't think that I want you to shoot up the club because I don't, so get it out of your mind. But that is nasty.

That as nasty as fuck. You are really out here having sex with two females unprotected, Like you don't know what I got going on? You don't know what the funk she doing? Well, I guess he do you know what she's doing because she said that he, you know, goes through her phone daily. He has her You mean daily, I guess, like going on a nightly basis, Like all right, let's lay down, let me go through your phone now. Because the first of all, him and I don't touch

each other's phone. So when you called me and I was in the bathroom, what was even said? I walked in the room. He was like, oh, Jess called you, And I'm like, I was calling because but you didn't answer the phone. And you told me that he was doing his way over there because you wanted to fight him. But I'm like, you answered my phone? What did they say to you? He just was like, she ain't a man from she didna call you when she get out. I was like, okay, she already. He was like, oh yeah,

we're just talking. So I asked, I'm like, why would you answer my phone? He said, also it was Jess calling, So so the fun two years plus he's never answered my phone before. I don't touch is like, I may have glimpse just as a as a reaction. You see my phone ring, you glimpse like, oh ship, that ain't my phone, but you know, you just it's just a natural reaction for human beings. And everybody got a sucking iPhone.

So when the phone laid up is in this around other phones, you want to look to see if it is yours. Yeah, but anyway, yeah, Nosy didn't motherfucking nos Jr. So after became I confronted him. You know, I'm sitting there, So I was just like, so, when were you going to tell me about her? He was like, what are you talking about? Shaye? I said, when were you going

to tell me about her? After sex? After sex, because I definitely wanted to dick one last time, and he was like it ain't nobody and blah blah blah blah blah. So we still denied. It was lying right in my face after sex. This nigga's lying in my face. I'm like, all right, cut the bullshit, yo, I already know that it's somebody I don't know who is I know that you work with her. I just don't know who it is. And I don't know how long you're been with each other,

but I know it's somebody else. So who is she? I was on some brandy ship? Who is she to? You don't lie to me like but he still was denying. It's nobody. It's nobody's nobody. So you know, one thing led to another, and he passed out in my room. I ain't gonna say why he passed out, but he definitely passed out. Oh my god, straight onto the floor. And he was holding me hostage in my room. And he would not let me leave my room and could have left when he passed out. Why then you stay

right there totil he broke up. It was quick. It was a quick faint like what he had my phone hostagenari and he would let me ask my phone you was knocking at my door? You know. He wouldn't let me go to the window to see who was knocking at the door anything. He literally begged me. Now we got a commercial, and if you click off of this podcast, I swear I'm gonna beat your ass. Listen. He sat on the bed, got down on one knee. He was like, I'm begging you. Can you call the stylists and tell

her that you were lying? And I'm looking at him, like, what the fund do you mean? What do you mean tell her that I was lying? Like I sent the receipts. He's like, what do you mean with you mean? I sent the pictures and videos of what of? What did you send the time frame? Does it matter? I said, you hurt me? He said, okay, you hurt me too, nig I ain't hurt you. Use this a soft ast fucking bitch, like, I don't mean hurt you. I'm just

in the hood. Niggas like use the county nigger that rolled the fucking cheese bus back and forth to school, and then we dropped the big bus. Yes, he dropped the big bus and the bus. Yes, he loved the bus. Wheels on the bus go round and round, and then you know, like a will too wheels. That's why he was behind my wheels because he loved him. This ain't got no wheels. But I don't hand no ill feelings to her because she whatever don't wheels to be in. So he goes. He comes open the door for you,

just come upstairs. Talking with this fucking white voice. Y'all know how she get this white voice on absolutely no reason why. I don't know how. She's like, oh my gosh, baby, what's going on? What is going on? Baby? Like, bitch, who the funk are you? Bitch? Went avenue, bitch, what is you're talking about? Bitch? Oh my gosh, baby likes going on talking to his bitch. And so he was

just like jes. I told her to just call the stylus and tell the stylus that she was joking because I'm just trying to clear her name up because I don't want her look in a certain way. And your reply was, do you think that my sister give a fuck you know about how anyone looks at her or what people think about her. So, in all actuality, that

was another fucking lie with his lying, fucking ass. He wanted me to tell the stylus that I was lying, so she wouldn't tell a girl, or she wouldn't go back, and right, she would go back and tell a girl if she had already told a girl. That is a fucking clown, a narcissistic clown. You know, he's looking at me dead in my face, like you know everything that I've done for you and the kids, Can you just do me this one solid favor? What he said that's

on video. You know, I can't remember everything I've done for you and the kids. Can you just do me this one solid favor? Never in your life throw in my face what you've done for me and my kids. You did it because you wanted to. Yeah, but like, what the fuck I'm gonna save your relationship when he was just basically in the relationship with me exactly, I'm gonna save you a new one because all you've done for my kids and but but I've done stuff for

him too. We've done things. That's what I'm saying. I'm waiting for you to tell them that. So you know, he was in a buying where he was behind on his rent. You know he was he was only buying. You know what I'm saying. He went in the bedroom score my mother fucking juice his alf But you know, he was in a bind. And because I loved him, I had applied for unemployment and I didn't realize that I was able to apply for unemployment. And I had

like over twelve tho dollars unemployment money. So I was just like I knew he was behind in his rent and I was like, oh my gosh, I got unemployment money. They literally gave me all of my bag money. I want to help you with your rent. I pay pailed him two thousand dollars so he can catch up with no problem. Because of the feelings that I had for him, and because I cared and I loved him, it was

nothing to me. I'm just like, all right, I got over twelve thousand dollars, I still got ten thousand plus this two thousands ain't nothing. Here you go. I gave him that with no problem. So it's just like we've done things for one another. Just a week and a half ago, I got his haircut. I paid for his fucking haircut for him, just as a surprise. And then right before then, I gave him a rose. I gave him a single red rose, one of those roses that

last full year. When he came over the house, I was just like, I want to give you this because I saw a post where they said that men don't get flowers until they die, and I love you, so I want to give you your flower while you're alive and you can still smell it. I literally just gave his Nike a single raid roles and I chose the red rules because it's a symbol of love. What did he say? Did he cry? Did he say that? Just like he was just like, oh sh you know, he

hugged me, he kissed me. It was just like he joking, like what, you're about to kill me now? Like bye boy? You know, But I did that because it was a real and true token of appreciation from me to him. While we were in my room talking, he literally looked at me in my face and he said to me, I don't want her to be hurt. She deserves oh Shane, he said, she deserves a good man, and I don't deserve anyone. He told me I was gonna be by myself for the rest of my life. That should hurt

me so bad. Why why would you say some ship like that to me? And he really wanted me to clear up some ship so he can be with this bitch, Like I'm not doing that, and he's stuck around for hours and hours and hours and I'm just like, I'm not doing that. I'm not doing it. What the funk do I look like I put in so much time I'm putting so much energy. My children are involved in this, and you sit there and you you tell me to fix some ships so you can move on with another bitch.

I don't give a funk about her. I don't give a funk about what y'all have, what y'all head, what y'all are building. I don't give a funk about any of that. Why would you part your lips and say some ship like that to me in my house, in my face. That is the most disgraceful, disrespectful ship that I have ever endured from a man. I've never felt that way before. That should hurt. It cut me deep, and all I could do was stand there and cry, m I've been fucked up. This ain't even happened a

week ago. Yet. It's difficult for me because I love him, and I'm saying I love him because I still do. I love him because if you when you truly love somebody, you can't just cut that shirt off. But I love me more, and if he reached out to me, I

love me more. Like I said, I know he's not going to reach out to me, but it's crazy because him and I are in social media friends and it's you know, I've been seeing stuff all on social media that I'm just like, oh, wow, him and I have been dealing with each other for this time frame, and he's just like, oh, I'm not going to post you because a lot of my co workers they want you and they like you. Yeah, a lot of the bus drivers do like me, you know, but it's obviously them

bus drivers are sucking holes. They want to funk. They like what they see, got a fat ass, they want to get behind it. That's just that's men. So you know, his excuse for not posting me is they already don't like me. I feel like they're gonna not like me even more if they see that we're messing with each other. Boy, what the funk old is you? They're not gonna like me more? I don't know what I mean. It's literally daycare and it literally it's like it's like a high school.

You're a growing ass man. They're not gonna like me more. I don't know, but you know, in my mind it made sense because it's coming from somebody that I love. And you know, when you love somebody, the ship that they say cannot make a bitter fucking sense, but you are gonna make it make sense because you love that person, and I made that ship makes sense in my mind because of the love that I had for him. If I was like that, I've been all around that job.

But I'm not like that. I chose him, and looking at him, you know the type of niggas that I work with, He's not even somebody that I would even funk if he's not even my type. But I chose him, and I gave him a chance because of his personality, because of the type of person that he was. I gave him a chance. I let him, and I let him all the way in to the point where my mother was liking him. And you know how my mother is.

She likes nobody. Your mother was loving him everyone. I thought he was, you know, a great guy, and he let me down. So last week I wrote a song. I've never written a song I have in my life. I pulled over on the side of the road and wrote a song on a brown paper bag and I literally just let out all emotion. And y'all gonna have to stay tuned for that. Pray for me. You'll pray for my strength because this ship is not easy. It is not It's not a walk in the park. You know.

I'm sure they've gone through you know, heartbreaks. That ship is definitely that's the last thing you want to feel. You know. I've been hurt like ship before. You have ever heard like this. But baby, your father hurt you bad. Yeah he did hurt me. He literally did the same thing that my last baby all that did to me. I was living two separate lives, point blank period. He was living two separate lives like Trey Song say, one girl in the day and you at night, like he

literally was. The girl said that he was at her house every night. He told me he was doing overtime or he fell asleep, and I believe him because those bus drivers they get Hella overtime is available for them. So I wasn't going to question what he was saying. You want a paper chase, You want a paper chase. I ain't about to knock that. I'm not about to be no bitch and be all your bush is like, oh where are you doing? Where are you at? Blah blah blah blah. He was just really good at living

to your lives. He was. And I'm telling fuck them, Boom moved the funk on, because you will never be good enough for the wrong motherfucker and that's just that. Listen to me going in this episode, yo'all, pray for my system. I love us so much. I really really did. She didn't expose her owner ability to y'all today she cried. I haven't seen her crying so long, so this really hurts me as well. But y'all you're dealing with heartbreak. I'm so sorry, But that ship ain't gonna be forever.

Only time. Hells that. Just keep your kids close to you, you know, stay busy, your friends, all that ship. And just like that, we've come to the end of another Carefully Reckless episode. Say by shack Piece out y'all, pray for motherfucker's sister because I needed soon in next week every Wednesday, seven am. Piece. Carefully Reckless is a production

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