Olivia James - The Journey To The Secret Space Program

the programs by a family of drug traffickers. Olivia was trauma trained in programs like MK Ultra, where her mind was split to create alters to use for missions on Earth and in space. She was used for espionage, cult beta, and corporate programs. Olivia's main focus is finding her memories, using them to heal her alters, and hoping that her memories can assist others. So, Olivia, how's it going good?

no idea what it meant. And that's how I discovered just from getting conscious recalling. I decided to start with noosis hypnotic aggression to see what I could find, and it kind of blew everything open. It kind of blew my mind open to where I could get a lot of information and kind of activated or reactivated or helped me rediscover some of the things I could do, some of the abilities I have that I wasn't fully aware

that I had. I mean, I had a paranormal life, you know, the whole time I've been alive, but I just didn't know where it came from. And now that I do, it's given me lots of freedom in order to expand on all these memories and help other people, hopefully. I do want to do a disclaimer that anything I say is based on my own personal experiences and my own personal perspective, soak right to believe what they want to believe. Everyone has their own belief and belief systems,

their own experiences, and this is my truth. And that's why I express it the way I do. It's because it's directly from me, and nobody has to agree or disagree. It's totally your choice.

life if you don't start trying to understand other people differences. Yea, and bring you closer together and they can sure as he'll make you smarter.

I had interesting parents. My father, he was from a small town and he was recruited very young for military intelligence, the ASA Army Security Agency when he was about eighteen years old and he got recruited for intelligence, so he was on the German and Russian border doing code breaking. He learned German very fast, so he was doing that

kind of work at a very young age. When he came out of the military, he kind of was kind of floundering, not knowing which way to go, and he ended up getting involved with some we call them now cartels, but back in the sixties they didn't have that word yet. They it was kind of almost like a crime syndicate,

is what they would you describe it as. So he started working with a lot of different, you know, different nefarious characters, getting involved into what he became like a really major drug trafficker in the sixties and seventies, and he was bringing large amounts of heroin across the border by bus.

young age. I'm talking these are like nineteen twenty years old, you know, doing this type of work, and I was just a baby, and so they were breaking in all this money and imagine you know that kind of money and you know, almost like just people out of their teens, you know, doing I mean, I know there were different times then, but it's still kind of hard to believe sometimes. But they were doing really well, and my father got

addicted to his own product. And if anybody knows anything about the if you've done any research, does a lot of research out there about the drug trade in the sixties and seven, they see there is a lot of information about how certain three letter agencies were involved with that, and the same thing with him. He was involved with them because he was in military intelligence, and he came out and started working like as a middleman kind of

between the groups. But what was the problem problem was is they can't you know, the behaviors that he was exhibiting when he was addicted, was missing drops, missing meetings, you know, not doing the same work that he was doing before.

the second time. They ended up you know, break crashing through the fence, beating them up, and you know, he ended up getting arrested, and he was looking at life in prison, really was.

they gave him a local government job. So they gave somebody that was a known drug trafficker, heroin addict, they gave him a local government job and just dropped all the charges against him. So what I found out, and you know, in my different ways, you know, with recall, with remote viewing, with hypnotic regression, I was able to find out through my own father who's dead now, that the reason why he was able to get out of his situation so easily is because he signed me over.

They wanted something in return to give him his life back and not have to go to prison for life, and he signed them and let them have me. Even as a little kid, I was already signed over to them, so that meant they could use me for whatever they wanted. And I always you know, it was his cowardice that created this life for me. You know, the life of trauma as a child was because of his cowardice, and he was afraid to go to prison, or maybe he felt like he sacrificed a lot, you know, sacrifice one

to save the rest. Who knows, you know. Kind of what I'm thinking, though, is from what he tells me to as you know, in his spirit form, he said it was when he was on this earth, he just was different from what he is now because he had he had a different role to play, and he didn't really care about other people the way you know, maybe we had wanted him to, and me and him never were able to find common ground when he was alive. It just he always we always felt separate. You know,

I couldn't get that connection with him. You know, he didn't really want to be around me and talk to me that much. And you know, in my sessions, I'm asking him, you know, why why did you do that? He'd be said, because looking at me, he felt disgusted, he said, it was disgusted by looking at me and what he you know, what they had created, you know, in those in kultra. You know, I was a disgusting thing for him to look at. He thought it was

gross what they were doing to me. So in my mind, you know, he knew kind of a little that it wasn't Whatever they were doing to me was hurting me, but he didn't. He couldn't stop it, and he kind of felt like, I don't know if it was a little bit of guilt, but he really didn't show a lot of guilt, mainly just that he didn't want to be around somebody like that, you know. So that's why

we couldn't. We never really found that common ground. But actually, now that he's dead, we actually have a better relationship when I you know, when I see him doing my sessions or talk to him, he's almost like a spirit guide now when he always comes to protect me and help me and you know, give me some guidance, which I really appreciate. We have an entirely different relationship now. So that's kind of how I got signed over. So in order to get into MK Ultra. Actually this happened.

I want to say it was around six or seven, and it's very fuzzy and so and I always wanted to say, you know, it's very difficult to create a linear timeline when there's so many missing so many missing pieces, so much different technology for memory suppression. I don't want anybody to drive themselves crazy trying to find a linear timeline. It's not always possible. It's just not you know, if somebody can find a linear timeline, I think that's amazing,

but it's not possible for everyone. I personally don't have a linear timeline for my experiences. So and I still would advise people if you're looking at trying to get your memories, don't, you know, don't focus too much on the linear timeline if if you can't get it, because that'll that'll keep you, that'll hold you back for a long time if you can't get it. But when I was about six or seven, I was taken to and I remember the only thing I remember is being taken

in a black van with people. I didn't cry or did but even at that age, I didn't cry a lot, I didn't talk a lot. I wasn't very.

woman and she had two assistants. They were what we would pack in those days called orderlies or something like that. We would call them that. They're two males. And it was a woman, and she had white hair, and she kept her hair pinned up, you know, like in the seventies style. She always wore these really nice flowy pants suits. And you know, growing up the way I did with my parents, you know, as you know, very after he

my parents lost everything. They were very poor, and we just kind of grew up very I always wanted to just stand weird. I don't know how else to explain it. So I wasn't around the type of person that she was. I was never around those types of people, you know, So to me, she looked very otherworldly. You know, I kind of looked at her like, I don't know, almost ethereal,

Like she had this look. But it was really strange to see because she was the one that's ordinating all of the trauma, all of the you know, the training for monarch and things like that, and we had this special space. It was only me and another boy and his name was Jacob. So it was a very small kind of like experimental program from what I can gather, and she had, you know, certain baseline things that she wanted to attempt, and one of them was called singlepated dissociation.

She wanted us to be able to, you know, feel that trauma. At the same time, they thought there was some type of power in being able to dissociate together, like if you can reach a certain state. They felt there were some kind of energetic you know, anomaly that could be created from that. You know. So what they would do is do this systematic, almost systematic type torture.

So it was almost like a kid's program where they would it's almost like that basic behavior modification where you can hear a bell, because we would expect, you know, the agenda of the day to change every fifteen to twenty minutes. It's expected that, you know, there'd be some certain type of trauma of physical abuse. Then they would be nice to you first, or chain you to a different activity, maybe LSD implementation, they would do an electric

shock therapy, you know, than sexual abuse. They would change it with that a lot of psychological and emotional abuse which is very harmful because you know, these people would you know, physically abuse you and then they would treat you like maybe give you an ice cream or something. But then they were also giving us, you know, food filled with filth and things like that, forcing us to try to eat that. And they wanted this. They wanted

to break us down. They wanted to break our minds so much that it would just be empty and then they could rebuild it into what they wanted. And I think that, you know, they diagnose a lot of us, you know, survivors that went through MK Ultra, they say we have dissociative identity sorter. It's extremely way more complex than that. There's so much more involved than just one diagnosis saying that you have these different personalities alters. It's

way more complex than they can even imagine. I've looked inside the mind. I've looked inside my own mind and saw there's worlds in there. There was worlds created by these altars on their own. It's very intense to see that. But they were creating, like I said, they were creating all these different altars by breaking down the mine. And they will build these pieces back up and try to like program them and a lot of it. And there was one other thing that they were doing that was

really intense is the hypnosis. She had used hypnosis on both me and Jacob in her office. We're doing our sessions with her, and she was able to find things about us that were used for the programs in terms of like past lives and things like that. And that's how they saw that me and Jacob were special, is by looking at some of these past lives, not in the terms of special, more special than other people, special

in the fact that they could use us. So that's the special They wanted to be able to use us for their own agendas. So I was going to talk about a little bit about those past lies on why they were so important, and that's this because this is why they thought they could use me for certain things. That's why I think these past lives are so important for them to see.

information I have. The first time I went under hypnosis, I had no idea I could even do this. I was under per almost six hours, constantly, just constant flow of information because it needed to happen, and my body and my mind knew that it needed to happen. And that's how it came through, flowing like almost like a just you know, when you burst a damn and then it just all comes out. And that's what happened to me. So it gives to me. I feel like it gives

even the people completing the hypnotherapy. It gives them validation and validity in my eyes, you know, of what they can do because I was able to reproduce that you know experience every single time was something different, somebody different. It didn't matter who it was. I was able to do it each time. So some of the lives that got these people, these groups interested in me in the first place is one of the lives. It was the fourteen hundreds and I was a widow and I had

two children. My husband had died, so I'm kind of out there by myself, and I was making it. I was, you know, doing a lot of different things. You know, back in those days it was a lot different. So you know, it was mainly you know, making sure the kids had food and figuring out how to do that, you know, living on my own, and I had what I would I guess I would be what people would

describe as a medium in those days. And so I was getting extra food by helping some of the villagers out, you know, being able to speak with some of their loved ones who had passed over. I felt like I was really helping people. I felt great about what I was doing. I didn't think I was doing anything wrong, and they would come and they would bring me vegetables and you know, things to eat. That's how we would barter for the service. So it was working out for

me pretty well. And so the inquisition they came through that town and they came straight somebody told you know, about what I was doing, and it came straight to me, and they came to my house and punched me in the face, you know, beat me up, dragged me to a wagon where they took me to a dungeon and they tortured me there. They did everything they could to try to make me admit that I was, you know, conspiring with the devil or demons or whatever they were saying,

and I wouldn't and because it wasn't true. No, I didn't even know what they're talking about. I was like, that's not how I lived my life. You know, whatever I could do, it was just something that was born in me. I didn't you know, acquire it. It was born within me. It was born with me, my ability. And they tried everything they could do and I just didn't crack. And I remember being tied up to a

ceiling by my arms. So I was hanging from the ceiling of the dungeon by my arms, and you know, a lot of it was, you know, the different torches. I wasn't burned at the stake or anything like that. I actually died in that life from dehydration and dehydration and starvation because I wasn't eating or drinking anything. They

were just doing that. And I remember my uncle who had my boys now, he brought them once just to see me before I died, and I hated that he did that because there was like a little window in the dungeon where they could look down and see me, and they peeked through and I must have looked horrible, hanging from a ceiling, like naked and dirty and like, you know, just just I don't know. I can't even imagine what kind of nightmares they had after that. But

I ended up dying, and I was so angry. I was so angry at men in that life because I felt like, you know, they did this to us, and they did it to a lot of people in the village, and that kind of anger stayed with me. It was in me, and they felt the programs felt like we can use this, we can this is something that they could use. That anger that was the left inside at

these men for what they did to me. So that was one of the luws that they wanted to use, and especially since I had a medium mediumistic abilities in that life as well. There was one other life and this one's a little controversial, but I still think it's important and it was important for me to see myself as something other than what I am now. And I consider myself, you know, I feel like I work hard,

I try to help people. But in that life I was something what people would consider like a victimizer or a serial killer. And it was in the eighteen hundreds and I was a male and I had grown up by myself, you know, my parents had died very young, and I was a street kid. I grew up on the streets, like traveling everywhere. I traveled all over the country, and I ended up meeting another person like I had

like a friend that he was like me. You know, we we both wanted to hurt people, and we kind of traveled together and did that and we would harm women.

complete this you know, evil thing. And we ended up going to a local pub and we were kind of like drinking with some of the villagers, and somebody found her and they automatically knew it was us, because there was no one else knew in the village. It was us, they knew, and we ran.

you know, over in that life. So that was another life where they saw that they could use that, you know, not just against me, but for other missions against other people. They knew that they could use that, you know, of who I had been before. So that was and there was also another life, and this one was really interesting. I thought this was coming from my very first session I ever did, and I saw myself and it was almost it looked like could have been something like ancient Egypt,

something like that. And I was a mail done too, and there was thousands of us just walking, all of us people just walking and walking, and none of us really made eye contact. We didn't talk to each other, nothing like that. We were all walking around like what I would consider like automatons or like robotically just kept going. And if I looked very far in the distance, if I had looked at one of the pyramids, there was a being standing on top of the pyramid, and it

looked like a giant dog. And we called them the dog people. We had a myth in our village that said that the dog people came down and killed our god, and that our god had been a crocodile, and we said that the dog people came down and killed him, and they had taken control and they were pushing us to do all this. And let me tell you, these beings were so strong in whatever technology and whatever abilities they had. It only took one of them to command

thousands to continue walking and working. And they would make us work until we died. So you would just keep walking and moving sand. And they were building something called flash portals, and they wanted it done quickly, so they had us moving constantly, constantly moving and building in moving sand until you just died. And most of us would just die wherever we fell down. And I actually just lay down on the steps and died, and that's where

that's where the last I sat. What I thought was interesting is when I was trying to scan the body of this dog person, I saw that in the inside of it, right around the solar plexus area, there was like this huge glob of black worms that was actually the dog person was a host for this kind of like I don't know, some type of extraterrestrial type sentient thing. I don't even know what it was, but I remember

seeing it. So I thought it was interesting that this dog person was commanding us, and he thought he was in control, but something was in control of him, and he was very forward and aggressive with me like he could. Which is interesting that when you're under hypnosis or if you're in the deepest trance, you can go which I was. That the time dropped away. There was no time I

was there. I could interact with this thing and it almost like it stepped through a portal almost and spoke to me, and the only thing it said was get back to work. You know, this interdimensional type being stepped through and instead of giving some really cool greeting like you would expect, it said to get back to work and showed me its staff and said get back to work.

was important too is that. And when I'm looking at myself, I can't really see myself because I'm kind of like invisible. I'm like a red energy. And this was in ancient times, and I remember I was following somebody in a desert. You know, they can't see me, but I can see them, and I'm like, you know, playing around games with them, you know, walking up behind them, trying to whisper at them, and you know, almost like teasing him. I almost felt like it was so fun to do this, you know.

And this person was terrified. He was out looking for one of the flock, his flock. One of the sheep had gotten away from it and he was trying to find it before I got too dark. And he was terrified that I was following him in the desert and he could hear me. He knew there was something wrong, and he was like terrified, and I thought it was funny. I thought it was so fun because that's kind of the life I lived. And back in those days, I would be considered what people would call it dark gin.

So some people say dark entity. Some people have all these different ideas of what they think that those people were. All I know is that we were a race of beings and that we have like we had our own lives. We had our own hierarchy in terms of like, you know, who was on top, who was you know, you know, we have like we have a respect thing. You have supposed to show respect to your elders and things like that. So I guess we would consider And this is what

the Gin says. I'm not saying that I believe this. Her name was Harlewin. I was named Harleowin. Then she says she was something of a trickster god. So she says, that's what the Gin were, tricksters. So I necessarily don't call myself that, but she does. So she was doing that was her whole life, and she didn't know she was evil. She even said that. She's like, I didn't know I was evil then because I chose this role

and I came down here to help people. And we kind of asked her, who do you think you're helping by doing evil things and you know, and she said, they wanted an experience of darkness and I brought it to them. She said, that was the role I chose, is to bring that to these people. And they called me, and she really does think that they call her, and they did almost in a way.

process of trying to destroy their lives. However she can either make them hurt themselves other people, just totally obliterate their lives. And that was the role she plays. That was the role she chose in that time period. And then she went on to do something else, just like I'm here now. We went on to do something else. And I can't really apologize for it because I can't eliminate any of the past lives. I just that's If anybody knows how to do that, you can tell me.

But I don't feel bad for that. It's not me now. You know, all these things are part of me still, and that's why I know about it, and it's to me it stays at the cellular level. From what I've learned through hypnosis is that a lot of these lives and these abilities stay at the cellular level, sometimes even in the spine. What I've learned some of it is resting in the spine. It's so interesting to even see that. And I also learned that a lot of psychabilities come

from the stomach. We wouldn't expect that because, you know, we think a lot of it is built in the mind. I had no idea that a lot of some of the abilities that I have were initiate in the stomach, So that was really interesting. So those were some of the lives that were very important to those secret groups that were trying to get control. There's a lot of warring factions and that's what they're trying to do. So

they thought they could use us for different programs. And I've found a lot of different past lives that I've wrote about in my books and things like that that I thought were interesting. But I think those were the most important that they wanted to use. They knew they could use me being what used to be a dark entity that was important to them. They had all these groups that they could use me for so the programmer, who I call missus w the woman with the white hair,

she ended up sending me out. She'd almost like a referral program and what I call special sector. I was from a special sector and that says that in my file that I'm from special sector. So she sent me out to another person to be evaluated. And when I got to this man's office, I was there and he was there with two other people, and it was they were sitting on a little couch and it didn't look

like a hospital. It looked more like a psychiatrist's office that they had like really neutral looking furniture things like that. And I was just sitting there and there was this couple there and they looked like they may have been twins. They were very light skinned, maybe had albino condition. I'm

not quite sure. But the man when I saw him, his name was doctor Green, and he was very elderly, maybe like in his nineties, I couldn't even tell, very frail at that time, had like he was wearing little glasses and very much losing almost all of his hair. He was very skinny at that time. And I'm not quite sure, but a lot of people say that doctor

Green is another name for Mangola. I'm not quite sure if that's real or not, because I only know him as doctor Green, and I do remember what he looks like, and it was very old at that time. But he instructed this these two people to do an exam on me.

And they were doing kind of this weird thing where they asked me, you know, they were looking in my eyes and my ears, you know, in my you know, different places, and then they told me to open my mouth and say ah, and they both looked inside my mouth, down in my trying to look in my throat. And then they told Doctor Green they said yes, I said, They said, we found it. We can see the thing inside her. And so they took me into this program called Project Traveler and and it's tied to the occult.

It's in a cult program that they wanted to experiment with. They were trying to make some of these I don't know, like paranormal, most supernatural and occult ideologies, or they wanted to make it measurable. They wanted to see if it had real energy output things like that. So that's when doctor Green started to you know, use me for a Project Traveler. So they were wrong though, because they thought

I was possessed. They thought that I had an attachment, and they were looking for other possessed people to see if they could kind of like harness that energy and that power, because they thought there was power behind the dark side and they wanted to see what they could utilize it for. So when I got back to the psychiatric hospital, they did some experiments and they saw that I could go into these deep trances and let you know, different things take over my body. Since they thought I

was already possessed. The reason they were wrong is because I wasn't possessed. It was just what I was. They saw Harlow and that gin part of me, you know, they thought that they could take it out.

They didn't speak to me anything. They just had me let things you know, build up inside me, and I let that open up. And that's when I first learned I could do that. It's called spirit hosting. And actually it was a darker entity that told me that's what I was. They said, you're a spirit host and it's being able to open yourself up and letting this excuse me, letting this thing take over you your fully body, mind

and spirit. I go into like a very relaxed kind of place and I don't get harmed by it physically, psychologically, or emotionally. And that's why it's an ability, because it can come, it can go, and I don't get harms by it in any way, which for them, it really is an ability because most people can't, you know, have a demon speak through them and have be normal after that.

that for a long time. And I was really conflicted because they weren't giving me any food or anything. You know, they were pretty much torturing me, and you know, my whole life. You know, even now people are saying, you know, you can't trust you know, demons and entities, but the humans were torturing me constantly, and it was the demonic entities flowing in and out of my body that kept me a lot. They're the ones sustaining me while these

other humans were torturing me. So as a child, you can find that very conflicting, like who are you supposed to trust? I'm supposed to be afraid and terrified of this group of you know, beings that no one can see, But then it's the humans that are physically and emotionally torturing me. That was really really very conflicting, and I think it's probably affected, you know, some of the work I do now that I'm able to open it up to everything and let everything have a chance to speak

and then make no judgment on that. I just let it be neutral what it is. And then you know, I don't want to even make a judgment on what anything says or does. Is just different for me now. So we did that for a while, and like I said, me and Jacob ended it up. They considered us what they called prize pupils. That means we took to the abuse very well. We were able to do what they wanted to them, what they wanted us to do, and to be able to extreme dissociation. We were able to

do that. We could leave our bodies to escape the pain. And that was actually the only time that we could be children is when we were left our bodies because they wouldn't let us lay together anything normally. It was always something to do with pain and suffering. So for us to be able to just dissociate and be able to have that time, that was what we had as children. That's it until we left that program, and I mean

other things after that. There was a few things that happened in terms of like they did, like monarch training. I really don't talk about it too much. You know, the sexual part of what they were trying to train us for and they really couldn't use me a lot until I got older because they had a specific plan in mind for what they wanted me to do.

MK Ultra. You know, we're so extreme mind control. You're trained not to ask questions. You're trying to do exactly what you're told and always complete missions, you know, things like that. So he took me on a train and at the end of the train ride, we didn't we weren't on Earth anymore. We were actually on the Moon and to Level four Underground and Level four Underground is where they were conducting psionics. Psionics training and the class that I was going to it was more for adults

and the instructor there. She was kind of a younger person. Everybody looked younger than they were, and I don't know why. Being on another planet, I'm not quite sure. Everybody always looked younger than they were, And so she didn't really want to deal with the kid. That wasn't her role, but they said she had to take me because I was from special sector, so there was no turning it down. So and she was very assertive and you know, kind of like dominating with me in terms of my tutelage

and what she was trying to teach me. She wasn't very soft with me, but I can appreciate it now because I feel like she was trying to keep me alive based on how, you know, kind of strong she was with her teachings. And there was other people in the classroom. There was other adults, and I'm not quite sure what they can do with their abilities, So there was some kind of like telepaths, you know, animal communicators,

things like that. I don't know if they were just experimenting or what with them, but mine was the ability they wanted me to have was actually going to be used in different espionage tactics and corporate espionage things like that. So she worked really hard with me. She taught me really well, and I always remember this one phrase she told me because she was trying to keep me alive. She said, it has to be you have to be

this quick. It has to be one look in one word, and you have to know what these people are thinking. You have to know what they're about. She's saying, like, when I get into some a situation, I have to know immediately what these people about to keep myself alive. So she was very serious about that and learning for me to learn that technique. And once I got done with the training, I wasn't used to get From what I can remember, I wasn't really used a lot until

I was about nineteen. Because of my physical appearance. I looked so much younger than I was. They needed my you know, kind of like my physical appearance to mature in a way for what they wanted me to do. And they wanted me to do a lot of beta work to start with, and a lot of corporate espionage. And that's to me, that's the most dangerous stuff, the corporate espionage. It was so dangerous, it was so scary the beta work they wanted me to. It's almost kind

of like considered like a black Widow program. They want you to infiltrate someone's life. You're given a target, which we call a mark. You infiltrate that person's life, You monitor, you gather intelligence, and one of my altars actually has a photographic memory. I don't particularly Olivia doesn't have a photographic memory, but one of my altar does. So all I have to do is be around someone in that part of my mind is constantly recording whatever's going on.

And once you're in a relationship with somebody or a fake relationship, you're able to gather that information quite quickly because they began to trust you and they just start speaking about whatever's going in their lives. And that's what we would do. We would cord the information and we were debriefed by hypnosis, so they would have to go deep in our mind to get that information that was kind of locked away from these missions. So that was

the beta work that they wanted us to do. If there were other what we consider what I call outcomes, I don't want to go into too much debtail, but you can kind of guess what kind of stuff you would be an end to some of those relationships. Sometimes you would just leave the relationship like they told you to after you gathered the intelligence, or they would expect some other type of outcome, that's what they called it.

So once I got done doing with that, I ended up doing that for a while and I got a promotion and because they said for a job well done. And I think I was around twenty nine, and I ended up going to Mars for a short time, about ten extra years. And when I was there, I was on the Mercreary Base. A McCreary base is located in the South Canal region of that planet. And the general that I worked under, his name was General Asher. I was specifically taken into the corporate sector, so I wasn't

like in a big military mission. We were on the military base and I worked near a loading dock, but I wasn't taking part of those big military operations. I was the human resources. So any new recruits coming into the base, they would come see me in my office and I would use some of my abilities. I kind of consider it like a mild telepathy. I sometimes we call it energy reading things like that, but I would have them talk. I had like a battery of questions.

I would ask them just to get them talking. Is how I read them. Just as soon as they're talking. It's almost like reading between the lines of everything they say in order to get get a proper assessment of who I think they are and what job I might think they might do well in. And I didn't really work with a lot of super soldiers. They were in special sector. I wasn't necessarily working for a special sector. I was just working for the basic you know, new

recruits coming in. And back in the days, they back in the time that I was in mk Ultu and things like that, they were still utilizing like my lab like military production to get some of their recruits. And nowadays, like when I was still on the base, like in

the early two thousands, they were getting voluntary recruits. So there were people coming straight out of the military telling you know, their family that they're going overseas or something, and they were going up to Mars for a small tour, and they were thinking they were going to be like starship troopers fighting aliens and things like that, and then when they got in my office, they found out they'd be working like, you know, regular jobs like we had

an entertainment division. You know, there was mining, there was resources, water treatment, waste treatment, all that, and they would probably get a job doing that. So their dreams of being in some type of like movie did not come true on that base, you know, because anybody a super soldier would be going straight to special sector. If somebody did come in my office and I felt it using my abilities that they had some type of special ability themselves,

they would definitely be referred out. I would have to send that recommendation up to General Asher so he could figure out, you know, what office they needed to be at. So I did that for a long time on Mars, and it was really lonely, like I don't remember. I know, I remember feeling not well the whole time that I was there, and there was a lot of isolation. I was enable to form connections with people, especially working for

the corporate sector. Nobody wanted to be around me. I was, you know, it's almost like working for the man, So nobody wanted to interact with me, especially some of the other soldiers that just didn't have a good you know, what do you call it reputation. Also part of the job was to ensure that I made sure. I told the upper manager if there was anybody that came into my office that I thought would challenge the status quo, and they took that very seriously. You're not allowed to

have your own opinion on anything. You have to follow exactly what they wanted you to, all the rules, everything. So I felt like I was kind of depressed. If I'm guessing what was wrong with me on Mars the whole time I was there is that I felt like I had depression, and we didn't have a word for depression, so I didn't know what was wrong with me. And also I was starting to have like kind of like bleed through memories of just another life, and I felt

like something was wrong with me. On Mars, I knew something was wrong with me, and I couldn't figure out what it was. I was doing things like I wasn't doing the same job like I should have been like enable to, you know, do my job correctly. I had broken into the General's office and was looking through as files. I didn't even know what I was looking for, but I had no other ideas of what to do and how to solve this.

of surgeries. I was somebody that would come in the room before they completed a surgery or some type of medical training something, and I would just you know, almost like a medical social worker when I have them sign all the forms, because they take consent very seriously in those programs. There's people's signatures everywhere. I know that because I would have people sign things, especially when you leave,

when you're retired, you sign a lot of forms. In one of the forms you sign you agree to be controlled and monitored for the rest of your life, no matter what.

all courts, including galactic courts. That's what they say anyways, that those forms up there held up in everything in case anybody tried to take them at court. Well, look, you signed for this, you said we could do this. You said you even assigned to be terminated if you don't complete the task to their whatever they think is the best. You agreed to that you signed it saying Okay, I agreed to be terminated, and terminated doesn't mean losing a job, just you know, that's they mean something else

when they say that. So the legal language is really important what they're using. So that's what I did up until I ended up leaving. In terms of retirement and retirement for us, we just from what I remember, it was a chemical retirement. And then they re aged. They read you, they age regress you, and they put you back in your crappy life. And that's what happened to me. I got age regressed to the time that they took me at and I went back to my crappy life.

And that's where that kind of experience came from.

because there's nothing else to do. So people would pack it, you know, some of the civilians and even some of the soldiers and everybody. They would pack in the arenas you know, on the weekends or whatever, and they would be these exhibitions. It's almost like almost like modern Gladiator or UFC type stuff. So they had a lot of the girls, like you could. They would have us up like in dresses, cute little outfits, and they want you

to sword fight to the death. And so I volunteered once because they said that if you volunteer, you know, I thought, I volunteered. People will have a different idea who they think I am. I might get a little bit of favor with people and people not treating like crap. So I ended up doing that quite a few times. And they give you a gift afterward, like a reward if you win, like either you and some of the other girls they are asking for like clothes and drewy,

which means nothing means nothing on that planet. Nothing, no material stuff means anything there. So I asked for food. I wanted good food, and I asked there's something like a steak in a potato or something. That was my gift I wanted. And I remember I lost like three times, but then I won like two times. And I don't remember how when I lost, how I ended up alive and back in my bed the next day. I have

no idea how that happened. I just remember having my throat slit from some sword and then I'd be okay the next day, and then my food wo'd be sitting next to me.

so much other stuff going on, like on Mars. What I thought was interesting is that, you know, in personality profiling, the people that are at the highest levels for sociopaths and psychopaths, they're recruiting specifically people that are diagnosed as sociopaths because they feel like those people make the best leaders, because they can make the hard decisions, like if there's a war, they'll probably win the war based on how they behave. But that's also dangerous for a lot of

us that are working around them. We're literally working amongst sociopaths and psychopaths every day, like in the office. You know, people that I worked with their sociopaths and psychopaths, and you just, you know, you're risking your life sometimes they sometimes they would try to do things and you know, and what I thought was interesting is you're not allowed to fight back. In a couple of different groups, like when I worked for a mercenary group called Krueger. They're

allowed to harm you. Your coworkers that are males, allowed to harm you. You can't fight back, you can't complain, you can't question. Same thing on Mars, I wasn't really I didn't have that feeling that I could say anything. And you know, sometimes something would happen and you can't say anything about it. You just have to let it go. So definitely a weird imbalance there. And I think it's really interesting that people think they have an idea about women.

But the things I've seen women do, both good and bad, in these programs would blow anybody's mind. It would totally blow blow away what people think that we are. And they don't have any idea. Nobody has any idea of what women are capable of in any way because of

the things I've seen that people could do. It's really it's really crazy to see, you know, even for myself, you know, being who I am now and what I used to be able to do, and then now I'm here and I have to pretend all the time like I'm a.

physical form. And also they don't like the reaction they get when they come in their physical form because they in their minds, these demonic entities think they're gods. They do. They say they're gods. I'm not saying I believe that they believe that they think they're gods because they've been worshiped as gods for thousands of years in ancient since ancient times, and that if they come here and if one of their followers calls them, you know, they call

it a heart call. And then when somebody calls them, because you do have to say, you do have to let them in in order for them to evade your space. So when they try to come physically to a follower, and the follower doesn't have a good response because they're not looking like some angelic being. They're coming in their true forms, and that a person sees that and almost gets They get a disgusted look and scared and fear. That's not the reaction they want. They feel like they're gods,

so they don't always come as physical. They like to travel as energy, and specifically we travel by the blood, so a lot of entities would travel by the bloodstream.

a constant flow of information. It's very interesting for me to see that and be able to reproduce it over and over the same process us.

caught onto that, especially with Project Oblivion coming out. They said, there's no more of this. You guys can't keep doing this stuff. So the last time I a couple of times I had a session, I had a counter remote viewing team from other agencies kind of infiltrate my session to see what I'm doing. It's like when you when I'm closing my eyes, I see it ionomically see a set of eyes. That means somebody's looking at me while

I'm doing this. So now I'm starting to see that where they're kind of caught on that I'm kind of sneaking into places and I'm just I always say, like I'm just a girl, I'm not a professional.

You know, I'm not being stopped by anything except for these new groups are trying to and it's not working. But I got a feel them they're going to continue. So I've met a couple of I say met, but actually they're intruders. So I've met a couple of groups, and the last couple of sessions I had some that tried to I think one of them wanted to harm me, and so I kind of stepped back a little. I'm only doing it like every few months now.

even get in the room. I saw these red lights or red numbers over the door, so I had to go fall through the floor and then come up in the middle. And when I got inside that side of the base, I wanted information. That's what I came for. You know, I'm risking my life to get this information, so I'm going to get it. So I used remote influencing. And I don't feel bad about this. I know some people get mad at me when I say I do this remote influencing. People need to remember, these people are

kidnapping and abusing children for our whole lives. Do I feel bad about kind of forcing them to give me information. No, I'm sorry, I don't. So I found one person that was kind of like unfocused. I needed to do remote influence. I have to find somebody that's not totally focused. So there was a girl there and she was kind of off focused, thinking about her boyfriend and things like that.

one that come up, like project Stranger. And so when I finally I'm in there, I'm only in there for a few seconds, it's not even very long, and maybe a minute at the most, and this big, huge message, you know, flashes on the screen of her computer and I said break screen.

which means everything stop. So that was one time that you know, I kind of I mean, I felt like it was still successful because I was practicing, you know. But that's the kind of stuff I've been trying to do, and I've gotten quite a bit of information in terms of like documents and some of the legal language on documents. I'm able to find looking at my own I was able to get my own I'm I was able to get my own service number, a lot of information about

my service record, and you know, things like that. So it's really interesting. There's a lot of information out there. It's just you know, nobody's looking for I'm like the only person trying to do this that is like known. You know, there's I mean, obviously there's other secret groups trying this, but.

I brought everything I could do because I'm like, this was serious. I need to meet this handler of mine. And he was a total dick. And so I broke into his house. And I want people to know I didn't break into it physically. I used my spirit body, just so they know I didn't break into it physically. I broke in using my spirit body. So I found him and he lived out I think in Rhode Island something like that. And so I was in his house and he had his office in his house, and these handlers,

they're not scary. I want people to think, don't be afraid of these people. These are a bunch of nerds sitting at a desk behind a chair. They use a computer in a headset to tortures. These are not scary people. There's nothing to be afraid of. And so he was there and I came up behind him, and I like, just like the girl I put, I try to put my hands on his shoulder, just because I wanted to know. And this dude, he has abilities. He knew, he knew, he could feel me, he knew what I was doing.

So he starts typing on his computer because he wanted to see what I was typing. And immediately he said that asset is combative and that I was presenting with ill intentions, and that he wrote that measures would need to be taken and that it would be spleen and tremors.

That was the button he was going to push, you know, and the recommendation he had to you know, because you know, they target our health everything, so they're using all their machinery, every technology they have, and they said that's what it was going to happen. To me for trying this, And I thought, what I thought was interesting is that this was early on in my remote viewing sessions that I saw a ghost, you know, in the back of his room and it was his grandmother and she could see me.

Which I thought that was interesting is that I was using the ghost to mention I didn't even know I could do that. I was me and her could see each other, Me and those he couldn't see either one of us, but we could see each other. And I was presenting as a remote viewer. So people, if you ever see a shadow person, sometimes those are remote viewers. Those aren't always spirits and ghosts. Sometimes those are remote viewers. That's really interesting that I was presenting as like a

shadow person and she saw me and he knew. This guy knew and we kind of went back and forth arguing kind of thing for a while, you know, and he just said, you know, pretty much, get out, stop bothering me, loser, kind of like just you know, went off on me kind of thing.

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