Am I the most consistently inconsistent BPD podcaster out there? Quite possibly... Thank you all for sticking by me after another months-long hiatus where I have worked through some thoughts and experiences I have been going through. I struggle with knowing what to share. I struggle with trusting myself and my experiences as I enter a new stage of BPD management - I guess you could say have been gaslighting myself a lot lately. I have been struggling with how I will come across here as I talk ab...
Mar 15, 2023•20 min•Season 3Ep. 1
Am I the most consistently inconsistent BPD podcaster out there? Quite possibly... Thank you all for sticking by me after another months-long hiatus where I have worked through some thoughts and experiences I have been going through. I struggle with knowing what to share. I struggle with trusting myself and my experiences as I enter a new stage of BPD management - I guess you could say have been gaslighting myself a lot lately - that is an idea for a whole different podcast episode. Join me toda...
Dec 13, 2022•42 min•Season 2Ep. 16
Hello Everyone, I started recording this episode over a month ago, and I couldn't finish it. Not because I didn't want to, but because I was carrying so much shame about the subject matter that I couldn't sit down to finish recording. I was carrying the shame that I have this platform but that I had something in my life tied to my BPD management journey that was not "in control". I carried shame that I wasn't perfect, that I was a fraud. I thought I could tackle this alone, and today I realized ...
Oct 20, 2022•31 min
A subscriber to the show (Ainsley) requested an episode about beginner-friendly advice/tips for someone who has been recently diagnosed. What a brilliant idea for an episode, I am kind of disappointed in myself for not thinking of this first!! I released this for early subscriber access back in July and wanted to share it out now for the rest of you. Sorry for the muffled audio - I am sorting out how to have better audio on video uploads, something that I plan to make exclusive for subscribers (...
Sep 04, 2022•24 min
The topic for the episode was requested by a listener; I don't know if I actually hit the nail on the head here. I ramble a bit, but I hope that there is something helpful for at least one listener. Please know you are not alone, that while the deepest lows might feel crushing, the emotional roller coaster might have you feeling exhausted - like it is too much - that I hope you can pause and find something to ground you. To recentre you and help you feel connected to something, someone, outside ...
Sep 01, 2022•31 min
This episode is for you, the people who love us. The people who see us, the pain we experience, the maladaptive ways that we behave and who want to help us. But who do not know how. I want you to know that there is no easy way to have these conversations. We are likely going to act out, be angry, reject what you are trying to tell us - because we are experiencing what you are telling us as rejection and not care. But thank you regardless. Thank you for being willing to have those hard conversati...
Aug 09, 2022•35 min
I am burnt out! I can say that without shame - well mostly. I had been beating myself up about it, feeling guilty - like I shouldn't be feeling this way as an adult. That this meant I was less of an adult somehow (ridiculous I know). But today while I was in a state of dissociation/derealization I received an email from a listener and it reminded me of what I tell each of you who tune in at the end of every episode - a reminder to give myself some grace, I am doing better than I think I am. In t...
Aug 04, 2022•35 min•Season 2Ep. 11
I am truly so excited to bring this episode to you all. I met Melanie a few months ago over social media. We have developed a friendship based off of common approaches to life, managing our BPD and life goals. Melanie is one of my favourite content creators and I truly value her vulnerability when it comes to sharing her story, beliefs and the path she chooses to walk in life. I am linking the resources Mel mentioned below in the show notes as well as in the link tree. You can follow Melanie on ...
Jul 17, 2022•57 min•Season 2Ep. 10
I realized that I received my BPD and ADHD diagnosis right around 2 years ago now. That time FLEW by. I wanted to reflect on what that diagnosis meant for me, how I feel about my journey so far. I am content, I am stable, and I really love the person I am. I am actually insanely grateful for my diagnosis, it helped me get to where I am at today. Thanks to each of you for supporting this podcast, I appreciate you all so much. M. All Things Borderline and Back https://linktr.ee/borderlineandback W...
Jul 15, 2022•20 min•Season 2Ep. 9
One of the truly more humbling parts of my BPD management journey has been reflecting on my relationships with people, my interactions, how I have treated people in my life who I felt "wronged" me. Where I was not respectful, where I did not recognize someone as an individual human with their own experiences, lives and feelings. Where I was only focused on how a situation was impacting me. I have been working on relationship repair, apologizing to people I was awful to, without the expectation f...
Jul 06, 2022•25 min•Season 2Ep. 8
As I have been working through the "harder" part of my BPD management journey I have been working through the difference between what I am feeling/emotions I am experiencing and what I am thinking, the thoughts I have. How I work through the relationship between these things, how they impact my behavior and how I communicate my experiences and need to people in my life. This video does a pretty good job summarizing what I was trying to say - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VQQGYny7pq0 Thanks to ...
Jul 04, 2022•23 min
Sometimes I worry that I am not accurately representing how I manage my BPD day to day through the content that I typically put out. So I decided to try something different! This episode is a little insight into some of the thought patterns or behaviours I continue to manage day to day, how I reacted, skills I may have used, and what I feel about it now. For me - managing is about growth, development, and change, not perfection. Let me know through the community section below (if you are listeni...
Jun 14, 2022•31 min•Season 2Ep. 6
After yet another break I am back - it makes me laugh at this point. But hey, part of my self love journey has been learning to recognize when I am being over extended. To look at what I do and do not have space for at the time, to look at when I need a little rest, reboot and refresh. To be the parent to myself that I need. love me more - sam smith https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H1hDzq98WIY The media is a bit of a dumpster fire when it comes to representing BPD and Cluster B personality disord...
Jun 08, 2022•24 min•Season 2Ep. 5
The media is a bit of a dumpster fire when it comes to representing BPD and Cluster B personality disorders at the moment. Which is terrible because May is BPD Awareness Month. In an effort to turn the minds (like my DBT reference there) about what this diagnosis is, can be and humanize it I wanted to create an initiative where others can share their stories through this Podcast. Lets connect, spread hope and humanize borderline personality disorder. If you are interested in being a part of this...
Apr 29, 2022•7 min
If you are in Crisis Please Contact your local emergency services or contact your country's suicide prevention help-line https://www.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines 365.25 days ago I hit my ultimate low, I was formed. 365.25 days later, I can say that I am the happiest I have been. And I am grateful for that. Please know, that there is hope. Each one of you listening is among the strongest people I could ever know. With Grace and Gratitude, M. All Things Borderline and Back https://linktr.ee...
Apr 20, 2022•16 min•Season 2Ep. 4
Interpersonal relationships are for just about everyone, but for those of us with BPD they carry increased layers of complexity. They can cause a lot of shame, anger, and, despair. There are things that we can do though to help us recognize when we are struggling, to help us manage our interactions and expectations (known and unknown) that we are putting on people in our lives. Learning to see people as WHO THEY ARE and to remember why we value them is critical when it comes to managing and deve...
Apr 18, 2022•52 min
We are at DBT Minisode #11 - Emotion Regulation Module looking at the ABC and PLEASE skills. All Things Borderline and Back https://linktr.ee/borderlineandback Want to receive access to exclusive content? Consider subscribing for $4.99 per month https://anchor.fm/borderlineandback/subscribe Check out the Borderline and Back patreon to support this podcast. https://www.patreon.com/borderlineandback/membership Want to reach out? I can be reached by email at borderlineandback@gmail.com, through the...
Apr 08, 2022•21 min
Sometimes I worry that I am not accurately representing how I manage my BPD day to day through the content that I typically put out. So I decided to try something different! This episode is a little insight into some of the thought patterns or behaviours I continue to manage day to day, how I reacted, skills I may have used, and what I feel about it now. For me - managing is about growth, development, and change, not perfection. Let me know through the community section below (if you are listeni...
Apr 08, 2022•17 min
We are continuing to work through the Emotion Regulaton Module of DBT (Dialectical Behaviour Therapy)! Use the linktree below for full PDF access to the DBT handouts and worksheets referenced for this skill! Emotion Regulation Handouts 8 (worksheet 5) 9 (worksheet 6)10 (worksheet 7) 11 (workseet 7) 12 (worksheet 8) 13 (worksheets 6-8) All Things Borderline and Back https://linktr.ee/borderlineandback Want to receive access to exclusive content? Consider subscribing for $4.99 per month https://an...
Apr 01, 2022•30 min
Welcome to Season 2. To kick this off I thought I would try and explain the second most complex BPD topic/behaviour I can think of and try to tackle! Referenced Content: Verywell Mind Splitting Summary - https://www.verywellmind.com/what-is-splitting-425210 You Me and BPD Podcast : Host Sean Keyes and I chat in Episodes #114 and #125 . These are long form chats about life, experiences and reflection. All Things Borderline and Back https://linktr.ee/borderlineandback Want to receive access to exc...
Mar 30, 2022•43 min•Season 2Ep. 1
I am back from a much-needed break, and ready to launch Season Two! I will be finishing up the DBT minisodes, and bringing you the weekly episodes as well. This season I am hoping to provide listeners with the content that you find valuable, content that will help you on your journies of managing your BPD and ADHD. So please - use the interactive features available to connect with me! All Things Borderline and Back https://linktr.ee/borderlineandback Want to receive access to exclusive content? ...
Mar 24, 2022•1 min
It is January 26, 2022 - #belllettstalk day here in Canada. What is Bell Lets Talk Day? So glad you asked! "On Bell Let’s Talk Day, Bell will donate more towards mental health initiatives in Canada by contributing 5¢ for every applicable text, call, tweet or TikTok video using #BellLetsTalk, social media video view and use of our Facebook frame or Snapchat lens." More information on this initiative can be found at https://letstalk.bell.ca/en/ This podcast, this day - this initiative has inspired...
Jan 26, 2022•13 min
Welcome back everyone! I am so sorry for being away for as long as I have been. I am out of practice with recording, so please accept my apologies for how clunky this episode is :) All Things Borderline and Back https://linktr.ee/borderlineandback Want to receive access to exclusive content? Consider subscribing for $4.99 per month https://anchor.fm/borderlineandback/subscribe Want to reach out? I can be reached by email at borderlineandback@gmail.com, through the Anchor App's voice message func...
Jan 24, 2022•36 min
AHHHHH I am so excited to announce this guys! I did something that scares the hell out of me. I have created a BPD community discord to connect all of us Bordies around the world! This is a tiered offering with different levels of connection available. I have also decided to tell my imposter syndrome to SHUUUUUSH and take the leap and offer one on one coaching sessions to you - my amazing listeners and community members. All links to everything mentioned in the episode can be found here https://...
Jan 02, 2022•15 min
Welcome to 2022! I am not a resolutions person, I am an intentions person. I will likely do a followup episode in the next few weeks about how to put plans in place for the intentions you are setting. But first, let's explore why it is important to have intentions for your life. All Things Borderline and Back https://linktr.ee/borderlineandback Want to receive access to exclusive content? Consider subscribing for $4.99 per month https://anchor.fm/borderlineandback/subscribe Want to reach out? I ...
Jan 01, 2022•44 min
WARNING: This episode contains content about suicidal ideation, neat attempt, self-harm, and disordered eating. DO NOT LISTEN IF THIS SUBJECT MATTER WILL DYSREGULATE YOU. IF YOU ARE STRUGGLING WITH SUICIDAL THOUGHTS OR IDEATION CONTACT YOUR LOCAL EMERGENCY SERVICES IMMEDIATELY OR CONTACT YOUR NATIONAL SUICIDE HELPLINE https://www.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines This is a reminder that I am not a licensed medical or mental health professional, I am simply sharing my journey and experiences of...
Dec 21, 2021•47 min•Season 1Ep. 16
Welcome to DBT Minisode #9! I have started a new module in my group DBT program. Emotion Regulation - this will be fun! This week we covered the goals of emotion regulation, understanding and naming emotions, what emotions do for us, why it can be hard to regulate emotions, and I go over a few of my homework challenges. DBT Reproducible Materials (Full Book!!) Check out pages 94 through 100 for everything mentioned today. BPD Resources I Recommend Nonviolent Communication WorkBooks DBT workbook ...
Dec 12, 2021•20 min•Season 1Ep. 16
This week's topic comes at a time that can be hardest for those of us with BPD, ADHD - those of us who have "emotional third-degree burns". Our family isn't always our safe space. In this episode, I talk about how I handle invalidating family members - at a high level for now. How you shouldn't compromise your mental health based on someone's expectations and why communication is key. Nonviolent Communication WorkBooks DBT workbook Dr. Fox Borderline Personality Disorder Work Book The Anxiety Wo...
Dec 07, 2021•39 min•Season 1Ep. 14
Hello! Welcome to DBT Minisode #8. This week Group DBT covered Half Smile, Willing Hands, and Mindfulness of Current Thoughts. Resources Mentioned: 2 minute Visual Mindfulness Big Bang Theory - Sheldon's Koala Face Half Smile and Willing Hands DBT Handout #14: Half Smile and WIlling Hands DBT Handout #15: Mindfulness of Current Thoughts Want to receive access to exclusive content? Consider subscribing for $4.99 per month https://anchor.fm/borderlineandback/subscribe I can be reached by email at ...
Dec 04, 2021•24 min•Season 1Ep. 15
Learn to work through your thoughts, your fears, your emotions; to unlock your own wise mind state. For me journaling can be a form of personal psychotherapy. Links to all journals, influencers, and podcasts are mentioned below. Instagram: @sillyfool Joe Rogan Podcast ft. Jewel The journals I use for free form writing 52 Lists for Happiness (prompted journal) The Five Minute Journal Meditations: Marcus Aurelius 5 Minute Stoicism Journal Jo urnal Prompts: Inner Child Work Journal Prompts: Working...
Nov 30, 2021•41 min•Season 1Ep. 14
