What's up, y'all. Welcome back to the Black Girl Experience. I'm your host, Shafsamine dan Yale. You know, it's so crazy, the ebb and flow of life, like one day could be good as hell, the next day could be bad as fuck. Shit can change in an instant like that. Shit is so crazy. I was just on this bitch cheese and laughing all, you know, and today I was like serious as fuck, stop fucking playing with me, like totally different attitude. And so that was
just one part of the day. But I'll start off because I actually my day started off amazing. My day started off amazing. I m I had my stronger class at ninety five and it was just one person today, but me and her was in their vibing. Shout out to Chanel. We was in their vibing. It was a very good class, I was. I was definitely pushing her to challenge herself and shit like that, and we you
know, just chopped it up afterwards. So it was real cool. I see she signed up for Wednesday, so she liked, these are times that I could come in the morning. I'm like cool, betted up. And then after that, um, I told y'all I was going to go to that gym. It's a mind, body spirit gym. I absolutely fell in love with that ship today. M y'all know that I'm a very intentional and
purposeful person. So anybody that you know is driven by their intention and just you know, as a like a deep meaning and a deep purpose behind what they do. I love that, and so I went to the gym. The aesthetics are everything. It really looks like a fucking It looked like a jungle in that bitch. And the guy that owns it is plant Base and he lost like, I don't know, over a hundred something pounds. He's
a herbalist and just all into holistic health and all of that. And so you know, we just did the class or the like the little gym class, the session or whatever. And he does have a few weights in there, but it's mostly most of the work that we do is just like full body workout, just using your own body weight. And what's so crazy about
that is that I actually like workouts like that. Now. I also really little kickboxing, but I like full body workouts where you just use your own body weight, and probably because of yoga, because that's all we do in yoga is use your own body way. And what I also realized today is that, um, I feel two ways about working out. Like I like working out depending on what it is. If it's kickboxing cool, I love
that. If it's something like today, like I like work, I like for working out to be fun and like you know what I'm saying, to be kind of like in a group setting because it kind of gives me the motivation. Like just working out at the crib, it's not something that I want to do, or just going to like a Planet fitness by myself or something like that's not something that I want to do. That's not enjoyable to me. And but overall, I don't know. Sometimes I like working out,
but sometimes I don't. But it just depends on the situation. But what I've noticed is that ever since I started doing yoga, my stamina and my endurance is through the fucking roof. Like when I used to work out, I'd be tired as fuck, couldn't keep up. Another big thing was though I would I would, I wasn't aware of like breathwork and breathing and how to properly breathe when working out it. So that's something something else that
yoga taught me. But when I tell y'all the endurance and the stamina, like it's through the roof. And it was so funny because mine he said, it's a mind, body's spirit gim or whatever. So he was he kept saying this, and he was like, oh, okay, I see you like your spirit is strong. And I'm like, hell yeah, I'm talking to my ship. Well I'm working out, like hell yeah, my spirit strong. I ain't giving it like and I mean it was a moment. I had my moments where I was tired after going through you know,
a certain set or whatever. But for the most part, like I wasn't really tired. I wasn't really you know what I'm saying. Even in yoga, like the other day when we went hard with in Jamal's class, Jamil is gonna fucking push you past your fucking limits. Like, um, you know what I'm saying. He gonna test you, he gonna push you. And I'm getting to the point where I'm so mentally strong. I'm not. I'm not giving up. I'm not I'm not pulling out of a pose.
I'm not falling out. I'm not you know what I'm saying like, I'm holding that shit whatever and saying with working out today when he kept saying, oh, your spirit strong. And what I've come to realize is that all the shit that I'd be going through in life has made me strong, like
physically strong, but also mentally strong, spiritually strong. And so when I work out, that's why I'm able to stay in that ship, That's why I'm that's why I'm disciplined enough to stay in some ship or keep doing some shit or keep going through it and pushing myself to the end, because I
just haven't been through too fucking much, you know what I'm saying. So like, and again, I think that just the adrenaline behind working out or doing yoga or being able to stick it out in those workouts and shit, it's what helps me stick it out in real life, even though I'd be feeling like I'd be breaking the fuck down in real life, but like, I feel like it just shows in my workouts and then yoga and shit like that. So I did fucking yoga this morning, and I went to workout.
I thought I was gonna fucking throw up or pass out because I didn't eat shit. I had ended up againting I went to that place again. I went to bikes and coffee and got another latte and then that shit kind of sucked my stomach up today. But after that, I I had to go straight to the gym after that, and I'm like, damn, I ain't got nothing on my fucking stomach. So I damn never thought I was gonna die. But again my spirit was like, bitch, we got this
shit, and I hailed it down. But I sucked that smoothie and that vety wrap up when I got out of there. Oh my god, bro, I was like, I'm so funny. I needed some fuel for the body, so um oh. And then so we did the workout and then at the end we stretched together collectively as a group, and then he comes around and he individually stretches everybody out, and I really liked that. And then also, you know, I ain't gonna put all that out there,
but it's some ship in the works for show for me. And it's just so funny how the blessings and the opportunities keep presenting themselves. But you know, I'll keep it busted on that. And and then I was gonna come on here today because again I said itself. Funny how quick shit can change in an instant. And I just feel like today's message is just that, you know, you got to say fuck it, fuck them and keep it
moving, you know what I'm saying. And I hate to say it like that, but for real, it's just like, people are very selfish. People are very selfish. Okay on my fantasiou shit, if you don't want me, then don't talk to me. Go ahead and free and sell. You know what I'm saying. People will be wanting to move a certain way. People will be you know, and people will be needing time to get their selves together. People will need, people be need and time to heal,
because that'd be the thing. People really be out here hurt and going through shit, and then you be out here hurting other people. You all here hurt and bleeding. Now you over here bleeding on me. You know what I'm saying, So handle your ship, Stop putting me in the middle of your ship. Stop making me be collateral damage in your fucking story. You know what I'm saying. But yeah, people are just super selfish.
And I would what I'll never understand about me. And it's like, but again, this is why your standards have to be high as a woman. That's why you gotta have boundaries in place, because people are going to take advantage of you every fucking time if you let them. My thing is as a person, if you know that you're not capable to give somebody something, or if you're not able to reciprocate the energy or the love or whatever it is that they're giving, why do you want to waste their time? Why
do you want to have your cake and eat it too? I mean, I mean, I guess I know why. Who the fuck don't want to have that cake and eat it? NIGGI? You don't want to just have a slice to cake in front of your face? You want that shit. But it's just like it's so crazy because I've been on here lately just talking about my intuition and how in tune I am, which I am, I absolutely am, And this is how I've gotten to this point that I'm at
today is because I've been following my intuition. I've been listening to it. But it's also kind of unfortunate at times because it's like I'll be knowing, you know what I'm saying. I'll be knowing and one thing that I did think about today and I told this to like my home. I told this to two people today and I was like, you know, one thing that I had, I think I'm kind of say it. This is yesterday or the other day or whatever. One thing that I think I did say this
on here. I said that one thing that I do hate asking God or the most higher whatever is to reveal stuff to me or to reveal people's true attentions. I hate asking. I hate to have to ask that because you gotta be strong enough to stomach it when it's revealed to you. You know what I'm saying, and that shit, it's tough, it's tough. I don't like. The truth hurts. The truth hurts. The truth is a hard appeal to swallow. But it's also like, why do it hurt so
much? Or why is it? Why is it so hard to stomach? If you're such an intuitive person and you already know, But it's kind of like, you know, a lot of times I'll just be fighting what I
already know. The red flags beat there, my intuition be telling me, y'all know how yesterday when I said I went to my home, girls like memorial for her grandfather, and it was a it was a healingsembo session, and so I ended up seeing a video that somebody posted from there, and the owner when I told you all that, like I was thinking about something that whole time or whatever, and I was like, I'm not really sure what like state of mind you're supposed to be in, Like I didn't know
if I was supposed to be focused on, you know whatever. But the owner has said, you know, whatever state of consciousness you go to is where you go, Like you can go to sleep, you don't have to be awake, you don't have to be focused on any like, wherever you go is where you're supposed to be. And so that whole time during the sound bow healing, I was thinking about something specific that whole time, and
I was like listening to my intuition. And it was so funny too because during it, so when she was playing the sound bows and shit, I don't know if it was was it just the soundball, I don't know whatever, but it was some sound that when I heard it, and it was going on like almost the whole time. So this sound came on and it sounded scary. It sounds like a scary sound it sound like kind of like a scary movie. In my mind, I'm like, damn, that shit
sounds scary, but I'm not scared of it. And it just kept giving me the feeling of bad energy. But then I heard like the little chimes, and that made me feel like that was my energy and whatever the bad energy was with something else, and it was just like that's how I kind of be feeling about situations like it always. I don't say always, but a lot of times to be like bad energy and shit like that. And I don't know if the energy be trying to scare me or take advantage of
me or what like. I don't know. I just feel like a lot of times like me in certain situations. But I don't know when I when I was hearing all of this, I was thinking about, like this is the bad energy, but the chimes and shit was my energy, and like it was never changing, you know what I'm saying. I don't know, it's weird, but it was what I was thinking about, along with my
intuition and what I have been feeling about a situation. And so with me going back and forth with that yesterday and just so I've been going back and forth with it for a while. And you know, also during that sound Bowl session, I asked the most high to reveal somebody's intentions, you know, in regards to me, which I didn't even have to ask because I kind of already had my feelings or you know, already had my little inkling about what I felt about the situation, but I asked for it to be
revealed. And then something happened today and I was just like, this is the last straw type shit. And I don't know, man, It's just I don't know. I'm back in my little back in my little mode where like it's so weird because one half of me. It's very proud of me as a person. I'm very proud of the fact that I'm very emotionally in tune with myself with the world, with my intuition. I'm proud of myself to be able to, you know, like cope with my emotions and the
health the way I'm able to like express myself. I'm okay with being vulnerable with people. I'm okay with being transparent, I'm okay with being emotional. But then sometimes I can be kind of mad at myself, like why do you why are you so fucking emotional? Why are you so sensitive? Why do you? You know what I'm saying, like, why do you wear your heart on your sleep? Why do you? I don't know, but
it's like you, I can't worry about that shit. And I also cannot stop being a person that I am because people, you know, other people don't got the same heart as me, or other people don't move the same way as me. So it's just I don't know, it's a lot. And I was just getting upset with myself today for being the great person that I am, you know what I'm saying, Not me being upset with myself
for being a great person. Just you know, but it's just like damn when but let me stop, Let me stop, because that was just me a couple months ago in another situation as far as like you know, the whole work and career, well with everything, but just being in the bad space, you know, a few months ago, like damn, why the fuck life doing me like this? And then look at me now, you know what I'm saying, on my Chris Brown should look at me now.
But just in a good space. So it's like Jasmine, you over here kind of upset about some shit you like, why is this happening? Why? Why do I always end up in these type of situations? Whatever? Blaise blide and it's like, bitch, You're blessing probably right around the corner. Why are you playing? So? Why are you over here moping and fucking head down and fake sad of awesome? Shit? Like, girl,
you need you need to be ready. You need to be gearing up because the shit is about to okay, the blessing is about to come through, period. So I don't know, but I mean, overall, today was a good day, but you know, I'll be in my feelings. It's also still pissy season, so and nigga probably gonna be in they fucking feelings. But erie season is coming up in ny good aries is all about the motherfucking self, okay, And that's the beginning of the Tuddy Act. The
Niggas is the go getters. The Niggas is the fucking self starters of everything. So that's the bag I'm about to be in. Um but yeah, look at this, the snow is never gonna snop and Detroit, this ship is just sad as hell. But um no, just to touch on this again real quick, as well, you know how I was talking about the other day, Like in yoga, you know, certain poses are good for certain things, like certain ones are hip openers, certain ones are heart openers,
certain ones or throat openers. Whatever. Um I really, I really really um I really attribute a lot of that to my growth and just me opening my heart or open in my throat or you know what I'm saying in certain spaces, because again, like that's something that I've been saying that I had to work on for a long time as far as like really speaking my
truth or speaking up for myself or really verbalizing how I feel. If you listen to this podcast for as long as I've been doing this, you know that one thing that I always talk about is how in my childhood, this shit go back to fucking childhood. And I still this is why I should go to therapy, because it's a lot of stuff that I still don't understand or don't even really recognize or realize about myself for whatever. And I really,
nigga, I need professional hope. But one thing that always used to happen in my childhood is that, like my dad would always tell me, like jazz and you clambing up again you clambing up like I would just never. I don't know, I would just never say how I feel. I
would never and I don't even know if it it wouldn't. I don't even I can't even really think back to certain times and be like was there really something wrong or you know, I don't ever think it was really something major wrong with me, but like it don't matter, just the fact that niggas would be asking me what's wrong and I just wouldn't say nothing. I just wouldn't talk. And again that's that motherfucking m imbalanced throat shocker and underactive.
Damn, the're not not even working like so, you know, just getting to a place in my life where I feel like I'm able to fully express myself in every aspect you know what I'm saying creatively verbally, um, you know, in relationships and shit like that, and just really be And I think another thing with that is though it's like nig tired of getting the short
end of the stick. Like hey, and again I had to repost that shit again today what I repost on Instagram that shit said, um fuck all that humble shit this week, turn it the fuck up, like for real, like you don't really you don't really get nowhere in life being humble. I mean, I'm always be a humble person, you know, for the most part. But I'm just saying, like, man, you niggas played too much. And I'm not talking about niggas, I'm talking about just people
in general. Like, people are gonna play with you if you if you, if you played a humble brow, people are gonna continuously play with you like you, not that girl, like you, not that deal. And then that's why you gotta activate that throwshocker and be like, bitch, I am who I am type shit, you know what I'm saying. And I hate to be like that, but it's like people will be taking advantage of you. People take your kindness for fucking weakness when in reality you're not weak
at all. And that's another thing, just like I was saying, like I'll be upset with myself for being vulnerable and for being emotional and just you know what I'm saying. But I mean that's just me being real a lot. But that's the thing. A lot of people can't keep it real. A lot of people can't be vulnerable. A lot of people don't know how to express their emotions. A lot of people don't even process their emotions. Niggas just sweet. They sweep shit under the rug. They never address shit
from childhood, from teenage years. Niggas got emotional trauma from adulthood. Niggas, nig y'all. Niggas don't want it with me, y'all don't want it with me. Like, but that's the thing. Like, I'm okay with myself and I'm okay with my emotions, and you know what I'm saying. I feel like I have a healthy relationship with myself emotionally because you know, because I deal with my shit and I'm just honest with myself. But in the same breath, I beat myself up about being that person because when you
are that vulnerable, you get hurt a lot. You get hurt a lot. I get my feelings hurt a fucking lot. I get take an advantage of a lot. However, that that just means that I have to use my discernment better. And I have very good discernment, but you know, it's unfortunate. I'll be wanting to see the good and niggas, I'll want to see the good in people and shit like that. But it's like, bro, you gotta start using your discernment and you know, just just to
prevent shit from happening. But again, I'm doing a lot better. And all that was another thing, like even when all of this shit that's happened in the last twenty four hours by me being able to really tap in with my intuition, Like that's the thing. I've just been listening to my intuition, you know what I'm saying. And I'm listening to my body. And that's what I've been talking about when I'm teaching yoga, Like I think I said this yesterday too, like I was saying in my yan class, and
shit that you know, the body holds a lot of wisdom. Your body holding your body holds more wisdom than your brain. You know what I'm saying. And now and then yoga, you have to listen to your body. You gotta tell people like you know, well, just the studio that I work at it particularly, I don't know what other niggas do, but one of the things that we say, like you know, this is your matt
this is your practice, so do whatever your whatever your body feels. You know, I might direct or cue for you to do a certain move, but you can do whatever the fuck you want to do. You know what I'm saying. If you feel like you need to be moving the hips, doing body rolls, doing neck rolls, I don't know, take a couple of cat cows. But if you if we're doing something else, but you feel like nigga, I need to be doing updog to child's posts than do
whatever you feel you need your body to do. You know what I'm saying. But I tell people like, listen to your body. What does your body need? You know what I'm saying, Have a conversation with your body. Your body, your body is gonna tell you and a part of your body speaking to you and having a conversation with you with your intuition talking to you. Because like I've said before, I'm here most times with niggas or
all the times with niggas in my life. I always knew what the outcome was gonna be with a nigga, because well not always, but most times I knew what the outcome was gonna be with a nigga because my intuition told me from day one. But I went against what I felt, and what is that? That's me going against my body that's going against what because again, your intuition is speaking to you faster than what your mind can communicate with
you, because they on two different levels. Again, the body has more wisdom, just like that's what flight or fight is. If you out somewhere and you're like, oh shit, it feel like something about to go down. You know what I'm saying. Your body can feel it. That's your intuition. The body holds wisdom. Body smart as fuck god body, So you know what I'm saying. Like, I think yoga has gotten me more in tune with my body. I'm able to really listen to my body and
trust what it's telling me. So when my intuition is speaking to me, it's like I'm trying to talk to you. I'm trying to have a conversation with you. I'm trying to tell you something, you know what I'm saying. And I feel like I feel like I was on the road to making a very quick, a very quick decision that probably was not gonna be in my best interests, you know what I'm saying, because again my intuition told
me that that's not It wasn't. And then I'm over here asking the Lord to reveal to me people's intentions and then you know, some shit happened within twenty four hours. So it's like, and that's another thing. You got another thing that I kept telling myself. When people show you who they are, you have to believe them. And what I have to do is again it's the mind and the body are not on the same page. The body is way for your intuition works way faster than what your mind does. And
my mind is always trying to talk me out of stuff. My mind is always trying to play tricks on me, like, well, I don't know, like maybe not give it a chance. Like nigga, every time your mind tell you something, it'd be wrong because the intuition is right. You be trying to make logical sense out of what your intuition already knows. That's why men and women men can never get on the same page because they work off of logic and we work off intuition. Like that, don't that don't
make sense? This is like, it's not gonna make sense to your logic, ass mine. You know what I'm saying, My intuitive inkling is telling me x y and Z. And what niggas don't understand is that man a good woman. It's gonna be a spiritual backbone for you and that's going to take you very far in life. But niggas just I don't know. Niggas don't be ready for that. Niggas don't be in the space for that.
Niggas don't be understanding that. You know again, because you're going off that fucking logic, because if it don't make sense on paper, then it just don't make sense to a nigge whatever. But I'm just at a place in my life where I don't you want to deal with people that are on the same page as me. I only want to deal with people that are able to reciprocate my energy because I give all good fucking energy, I give all good fucking vibes. I bring value to the table. I bring value to
nigga's lives. I'm a good person. I'm a good woman, you know what I'm saying. So it's like, again, why why why would that not be reciprocated? Why do I keep ending up in situations where this is not a fair trade. I'm getting the short end of the stick. But again, it's all about standards, it's about self respect, it's about self love. It's about boundaries. You know what I'm saying. You only tolerate
what you allow, you know what I'm saying. So at some point it's just like jask me, you gotta you know what I'm saying, You really gotta put your foot down with shit, period because because what I want is out there for sure, somebody's cable blue of giving me what it is that I wanted, what I deserve. But I gotta move around, you know what I'm saying. I gotta move around. Where as the niggas that's standing up, not sitting down. You know what I'm saying, move out the
way if you ain't, you know. But again, people be selfish, which is crazy to me. Somebody will tell you that you don't deserve x, Y and Z, or they will tell you what you do deserve or whatever, and it's like, okay, cool, you you know that I deserve this. You know what type of person I am? So step aside and let somebody give that to me. Then why do you still you know what I'm again? Selfish? Selfish, selfish, There's nothing else to say.
There's no way around it. If you're if you don't have the capacity, if you are not capable of giving me what I need, what I want, what I deserve. Why do we need to interact? Why? What would be the purpose besides besides me being short changed, besides me getting the short end of the stick, besides beside me feeling played, besides me feeling used, like what what? What are we doing? Selfish? And
that's crazy to me because I'm not. I'm not a selfish person like hmm, or am I No, that's not selfish I'm about to say, because I'll be holding on the ship. But I don't. I don't. I've never I don't think I've ever tried to hold onto somebody, um, you know, for my own personal or selfish reasons, you know what I'm saying, like knowing that I wasn't a match for that person, or knowing like oh we're not compatible or I can't do nothing for you, Like I never
have tried to hold on to a person in that type of way. I'll be holding on when Nigga's really like you need to be you need to losing up that grip, baby girl, you need to let this go. Yeah, I ain't never tried to hold on to nobody when I know like hmm, they need to be off with somebody else or this ain't for me year or whatever like, but I don't know. I think that's just something at
me. I think that's a man thing, like niggas be wanting to hold onto you until they find what they really want, which is unfortunate because if I'm not what you want, then let me go. Like why, you know what I'm saying, Like why I would never I don't know. I
guess I was about to say. I guess it's like if a nigga had a car and it's like this ain't my favorite, or this ain't the car that I really want, but I just don't want to go without a car, so I'm gonna just keep this one until I get the one out. I guess, I guess, But that ain't how you should move. But like you know, and I really just I really want for people to heal, but maybe I'll be making people feel But that ain't on me. It ain't on me. It's on you to stand up and be honest that you
need to work on yourself. You know what I'm saying. But you want to hold on to me and drag me down along the way, and your bullshit because for whatever reason, you know, and it's like, no, you need to heal and you need to do it on your own. You need to be alone. You know what I'm saying. You don't need no distractions and you don't need to hurt nobody else in the process when you already
hurt. I'm over here actively working on my healing and have me and for years I'm looking for something real and here, y'all come just you know what I'm saying, Come get in the mud with me. Hell no? Then held Noah, So I don't know, but yeah, I just figured out would come on here and share that. I'm over here looking out the window at this fucking snow, like this is wild. It's fucked to me.
I'm trying to think, is there anything else? No, not for real, But I just think if I continue to be on the path that I'm on right now, like even going to that gym today and when he did the meditation and all the shit that he was saying during the meditation and all of that, like was just really fucking speaking to me. And then he brought the Palo soundo out. He brought the sound ball out. All the
essential oils, like the whole nine. But he was just like really talking about purpose and intention and you know, being in tune with your spirit and being on your own path and like that shit is really a mind body spirit
gym. So I fuck with it. But again, just every day feeling like I keep ending up in spaces that are truly in alignment with my path and like, you know, having these certain conversations with people and just all of this stuff happening, and then again just continuously being in tune with my intuition and doing whatever the fucking says to do or to listen to it or
whatever way to go. It's just like just keep going. Jask me, you know what I'm saying, and don't get distracted, don't let shit hold you back, don't let shit hold you down, you know what I'm saying. Because you're you're on a journey and a lot of shit is gonna come on this path, a lot of shit is gonna go on this path, and you can't hold on to it. You gotta appreciate everything for what it is. You gotta appreciate your time with stuff. You gotta appreciate the experience
and what you learn. You know what I'm saying. I was just on this bitch yesterday talking about are you here to experience life or are you here to avoid it? And it's like, no, nigga, you a's gonna get your feelings hurt in this bitch some less than others. I don't know why me, why I gotta be like the most motherfucking I don't know. I'm just prone to getting hurt, man, Like what the fuck ou?
But I don't know, And I don't want to make it seem like I'm hurt like that, but it's just like I don't know, I don't know. I don't know, but I don't know. I go out. I feel this was hurt, but it wouldn't go be as bad as as what I think it was gonna turn out to be, though I think it could. I think it could have did a very bad downward spiral if I would have, if I would have kept going. So I just think I think I made the right move today. I think, um, I think the
direction that I'm going in is the best direction for myself. I think I should just continue to listen to my heart and just fucking keep keep walking on my path. Nigga, She's keep going on my journey because whatever it is meant for me is going to you know what I'm saying, it's not gonna miss me. I'm gonna walk right into it. And like I said, it's probably right around the fucking corner. And don't even it's so funny too. It's so funny because let let me be right with what I'm thinking right
now in my mind. Let let me be right, and that shit gonna be wild. But that's crazy because I already knew that too, and already that's weird. That's funny. Life is funny. So yeah, I just wanted to come on here and share that with y'all. A nigga gotta get up early. It's one forty one in the morning. I'm gonna be getting up very soon to do it all over again. But I hope that y'all enjoy this. I hope it did something for y'all. Hope, hope,
hope it touched somebody in some type of way. You know what I'm saying. I hope all as well. I hope y'all nigga is out here doing y'all spiritual development and growth, working on your emotional healing, your physical hell and all of that. Shit because it's really like, it's really needed because nigga's just out here hurting themselves, hurting others, not growing, not evolving, not changing, you know, it's like, what the fuck are you
here for? What are you doing? What are you really doing? So, yeah, make sure you follow me on all platforms that Hillo, my Hommies, Black Girl Experience on TikTok. Yeah, that's it. That's all I have for y'all. I'm out.