Don't Drop The Ball

Welcome back to the Black Girl Experience broadcasting live from another Planet. Today's January first, twenty twenty four. Shout out to all of y'all that made it. Shout up to all of y'all that made it. Shout out to me for making it, Cause goddamn twenty twenty three had me and a motherfucking choke hold. Okay, I didn't think I was getting that. Motherfucker had me like these like, bitch, you ain't getting out, okay, have me into choke hold like Melvin or baby Boy. I'm gonna take my time with

this one. I have a lot to talk about. I don't know where I want to start. New Year's Eve was crazy. I'm gonna just be honest and tell y'all the truth about how my night went. You know what my plans are going forward into twenty twenty four, or you know the just every day what's going on? I got. I got my little handy dandy notes on the phone. I brought the tearot cards. I actually have some really good New Year's Eve questions that we're gonna go over even though it was

New Year's Day. And then I also brought one of my little journals. Because I was reviewing this the other day and I was like, damn, girl, you're really doing the motherfucking thing. So it's so much where do I want to start? So where do I want to start? Where do I want to start? So we can start with Okay, January first, I got here early today. It's four forty nine right now, So okay, what do you say on drum line? You're late? If you're on

time? What do you say if you're on time? Whatever? You're late if you're on time. But I'm super early today, and you know I like to be early. What tr today? I guess it's because it's the holiday all of that, but I did not have to work today, and fuck that job. Let me tell y'all why, because it just becomes more and more apparent to me that they just don't give a fuck about their employees. And it's like, I'm really starting to get very verbal in that bitch.

I'm really like, he don't say shit to me, because I can't wait to let a motherfucker have it in here. What was that I was scheduled to work on Christmas Day? But yeah, I was scheduled to work on Christmas Day, so two days before that, I had worked and I wasn't really feeling a hunted at work, you know what I'm saying. But I stuck it out through the day. I'm like, whatever, I'm gonna shake back. I got home that night, Baby, I was throwing up

all night. It was coming out every which way. Everything was going on. So I'm like, I I got a motherfucker's stomach bug. The stomach flew whatever. So I'm like, okay. The next day was Christmas Eve, so I was in the bed all day. I didn't even want to try to go to urgent care or whatever. I'm just in the bed, like, please let my stomach feel better. So I called my job. I call my manager to let him know that your girl is down bad.

I'm like, hey, I don't think I'm gonna make it in on Christmas Day, so I'm giving you, like a twenty four hour notice to get it the fuck together, to pull whatever strangs you gotta do. Figure out what manager is gonna come in, cause obviously nothing of the employee is gonna come in if they got off. They like, bitch, I'm with my family, I'm with my kids. We open and gifts. Fuck y'all. This motherfucker told me, I'm gonna need you to hurry up and recover.

We ain't got nobody to cover the shift. He didn't even say I hope you feel better, or you know, how are you what was going on? I'm gonna need you to hurry up and recover. I'm throwing my fuck guts up. What do you mean? So that's what I'm saying, just no regard, no consideration. I'm in fucking Dallas. I'm not even going home to Detroit to go see my son for the ho Like you know what I'm saying, just just no fucking regard for a person. So uh.

I ended up calling the hotel manager and I'm like, you know, I'm feeling real pressure to come in and I'm sick as fuck, and he was like, hey, you know I would come in and do it, but I got my kids, you got your kids, and I'm on my death bed. I'm like, okay, okay, okay, cause I can't wait to the day that I walk out that bitch like this is my last day. Ain't no two week notice, just wait. And I know that the universe is like really constructing it for me to work out in whatever type of

way because I can't wait to be like fuck y'all. So whatever, So Christmas Day he rolled around and I actually felt okay that day. It was like, oh, you can use the chair, you can sit on all it. I know, motherfucker, I know. And it was very dead that day. But whatever. I guess time and a half, we'll see when that check rolls around. Because the math don't be mathing to me. But you know, I'm gonna do what I I'm gonna do what I gotta do until my time comes. So that's that, you know, still dealing

with the toxic work environment and all of that shit. Oh we did have a little fake ass holiday party. I say fake ass holiday party because I'm used to jobs like I worked at, like a lot of law firms and shit like that, so I'm used to like, oh, we going to a nice steakhouse. They didn't rent at the whole thing out. It's cater music, just unlimited liquor that type of stuff. At the hotel. Okay, we're gonna order Mexican food and we're gonna sit in the lobby. Great.

But they was like we got great prizes, we got great prizes and all this other shit and I'm like, sure, what y'all got, like fucking and uh cray all of markers or something like what were a fucking little Caesar's gift card? What you about to like? But they actually ended up having some really nice prizes, and so I remember talking to one of the girls, the breakfast attendant, that morning, and she was just talking about, like I get so much anxiety, like I don't want to play the

games in front of everybody and all of that. I'm like, girl, no, we gotta claim it. Like you're gonna win a prize, It's gonna be all good. I'm like, have fun, like it ain't nothing to be like afraid of her, like anxiety for what, like we're playing games. But you know that's the thing social anxiety. So they had a lot of nice gifts and shout out to the Black Fever. I'm just like, you know, shout out to the minority at the job, cause we

want my whole team, my whole click. We all want some really good stuff. So I just remember like that morning I went in, like y'all know, I'll be listening to my little like affirmations, my manifestation, shit, my morning ritual every morning. I should be a gatekeeper and and I tell y'all what I'll be listening to. But I will I'll tell y'all this. I listen to a lot of Wayne Dyer, and that's like, that's like my spirit animal. He passed on. I don't know what year he

passed away, but I ended up. I had came across him just randomly, maybe like a year or so ago, and I always listened to all his stuff on YouTube, and I found out that he's actually like he was from Detroit, and so I'm like, okay, now we got a little spiritual Detroit connection some but no, I really fuck with his videos and stuff and like his teachings and stuff. So I won't be a gatekeeper. Look

up Wayne Dyer, like it'll change your life. So I went into it that morning claiming it like I'm gonna win a pride, but y'all better win a prize. Y'all be in here mistreating your girl. So they had a lot of games and stuff, but I didn't even get to play the games. Uh I had. I had put down my little tickets for whatever I wanted to win. They had like some Beats headphones I wanted the I don't know the little breakfast, little griddle thing I had. I wanted that or

whatever whatever. I put my little tickets by a whole bunch of stuff. But then you had the the raffle ticket, and I just knew. I just knew what she gave it to me. I'm like, this is the winning motherfucking ticket, because I already clapped, like I just already knew your girl won the forty three inch flat screen TV. I'm like, Okay, look at God, Look at God, cause it's going in my new crib as soon as I move. So you know what I'm saying, All the

blessings and abundance upon your girl. So that happened. I just walked up feeling like a winner that day. So that was that. Work is still toxic as fuck though, whatever. Fast forwarding, So New Year's Eve. Let me see, do I want to talk about the angel number of today. I'll get into that and then we'll shoot into New Year's Eve and where we're at. So on the way here the last four of the license plate,

sorry my guy, six one seven two. Angel number six one seven two represents the balance creativity, intuition, and new beginnings, and it means great future ahead. And I love this because I was kind of in my head about being honest about my New Year's Eve and all of that. But I'm like, bro, just be real, just be real, cause that's I'm tired of the fake shit. It be a lot of phony shit on the internet. A lot of people be faking the funk and acting like life

just be perfect. Oh let's keep it a buck. So Angel number six months Becoming your best Self. Angel number six one seven two represents balanced creativity, intuition, and new beginnings. Through this sequence, you are encouraged to follow the path that you fully trust and desire, fall in love with yourself

and your accomplishments above all. Number six one seven two tells you not to compare your journey with others, So stop looking at Instagram and motherfucker's going on trips and getting this money and doing this, and note of like your time will come. And that's another thing I'll say this too. A lot of people around me have been getting their blessings and I'm like, I know my shit is around the corner, Like you know what I'm saying. So anytime

somebody get blessed with they shit, I'm I'm congratulating I'm clapping. I'm like, I'm happy for you. I know my shit is next six one seven two Angel number. Believing in your talent and creativity. The power of the angel number six seven in this angel number amplifies your belief, which is something that I really, really uh and I talk about belief in here too. We're gonna we're gonna get to that in a second. Belief is very big. Self sabotage is the thing for me, and like negative self talk,

but you gotta you gotta amplify your belief. Therefore, begin to manifest great tidings and do what it takes to accomplish your goals. It is time to push your dreams and ambitions a little further. Even when you don't see any visible changes, trust in the process. And that's what I've been dealing with on the daily now, Like I keep telling myself, because you know, you get those you get to those moments where it's like you just looking at

your circumstances like this is fucked up? How is this gonna happen? Huh? Where I'm gonna get the money from? How i'ma get blessed? How is this miracle gonna happen? How's it like? And again example with with me winning the flat screen TV. So another thing that like is very heavy on my mind here is like I'm still working to get myself established. I'm not in my own place. Shit, you know what I'm saying. But that's always on my mind, Like I gotta get all this stuff from my

place. I gotta get furniture, I gotta get it TV. I gotta a motherfucker brand new team. Like, so that's what you gotta understand that everything's gonna fall in place how it's supposed to. So even when you don't see any visible changes, trust in the process. I also was listening to some little manifestation shit in the morning one day and it was saying, like, you know, imagine being in a building. So I was thinking about

myself being at work at the hotel. So of course it's a big ass window, you know, right across from me, and I see the people walking past, but once they walk past the window, I don't see them. But that doesn't mean that there aren't people walking outside. You know what I'm saying. You can't see it. You can't see everything that's going on behind the scenes. You can't see what the universe is doing. You can't see what God is doing at all times, but you gotta understand that everything

is working in your favor. Something tremendous and magnificent awaits. Here's to six one, seven two Symbolism and interpretation. Number six stands for peace and harmony in your life, which I know I'm very big on. I don't do the chaos. I don't. I don't like that shit. The Guardian Angels want you to connect with these attributes as early as now. Keep in mind that the frequency that you invite in your life depends on where you focus the

most, and that's very important to take note of too. The frequency that you invite into your life. I'll just set that there. Because we getting into New Year's even what happened, Okay, with each end there comes a new beginning. This is something that I struggle with a lot too. Like I have a very hard time with letting things go, with letting people go, with letting phases and stages in my life go. I have a very very hard time letting go. That's probably one of the toughest things. Therefore,

don't try to feel sorry for yourself during despair. The endings are preparing you for significant and positive changes in your life. Here I am always like, oh, I can't wait till the miracle cappins. I can't wait till you know I step into my glow up. I can't wait till the success comes. But yet I want to hang on to all the bullshit, or don't want to let it go, even if I know that it's no longer serving me. If I know, like Jazmine, you got to let shit

go. But again, where we're getting to New Year's Eve, we gonna get to it. We gonna get to it. Find a way to focus on your goals and never lose focus even when you decide to hit rock bottom. Angels call you to continue to trust in your gut feeling, pray for the pray for divine guidance to show you the right path. It is time to focus on hope and faith in your life, keep past hurts and negativity at bay, and pay more attention to what shapes your future for the better.

In simple terms, choose to see the light in the darkness. I am the silver linings Queen. I always try to see the silver linings in every situation. Have courage and confidence that the divine masters are helping you to achieve your mind significant potential. First, focus on the present time and always count on the ascended masters for support and direction. This angel number says that

it's time to expand in your skills and your inner potential. Be open minded and let others know what you are capable of every motherfucking thing, bitch, stop hiding your talent. Follow me on YouTube, follow me on TikTok, follow me on the ground helling my homies black girl experience. But begin with what you have and everything else will shift to your good Be practical in your decisions, actions, and words that you say to yourself for positive changes and

everything to align accordingly. Choose to be optimistic. The glasses have full, not half empty, okay, and focus on being thankful for what you have. Trust and believe that it is possible to attain everything that your heart desires. Besides, remember that even when angels have answered your prayers, you need to play your part. Set a solid foundation from the start, and don't

give up until you have arrived at your fullest potential. Understand that the current challenge is set to place you at a more promising and significant place As a result, the spirit guys want you to keep on manifesting your true life's desires, not to mention. Believing yourself even through disappointments. This is a sign that positive changes are coming your way. So as you continue to pursue your mission, something great a wasting in your end. In the meantime, be

grateful for what you have. Blah blah blah. What else let's see let go of extreme fear of failure or doubt. This angel number wants you to live your life without regret. It's time to have faith in yourself in the divine. So what if the beginning of this say is said, uh, becoming your best self. So now we're gonna slide into let's slide into the new year. I guess we're gonna slide into New Year's Eve. So I didn't have any plans for New Year's Eve. I don't feel like I've had

plans these last couple of years. Like I don't really have a desire to go out to the club. I don't drink, I'm a smoker, i'm'a hit the blunt, But you know what I'm saying, Like I don't have a desire to go out and party. Watch the ball drop and again, you know, I used to uh really listen to a lot of I don't know if y'all are familiar with Young Pharaoh. Uh, I don't know what happened to my dog. They got him, They got to that man.

Young Pharaoh was kind of like a spiritual or conscious like teacher whatever, motivational speaker, just a very educated, well versed and knowledge black man. I was like really waking people up with his messages and shit like that. His first video was like the black woman is God or whatever. And he has so many followers on YouTube, he has so many videos and whatever. Like

he was really doing his big one and you gotta understand that. And that's why for me, like I don't I don't want to be famous, Like I want my platform to be very successful and shit, but I don't want to be famous. I just want to be wealthy. I want to be financially free. I want to be able to live the life that I want. I want to be able to travel. I want to just do what

I love and live a purposeful life. But when you are really trying to put out a good message to the people, you know what I'm saying, When you're trying to educate people, and like, especially if you're like a health conscious person or just a conscious person, or you know, want your people to be better, and you trying to move shit forward, You're not gonna You're not gonna last too long in an these streets. You know what I'm saying. Uh, so you got and you know it's just you gotta

be real careful with how you do shit. So I don't know. He ended up like getting drugged and all types of crazy shit. And the last one of his last interviews was with Nick Cannon and the interview never came out. He was talking that shit on there and I'm like, where's the interview? And ever since then it's just been downhill. But I lost my train of thought. But whatever, I don't I forgot where I was going with that. Oh, I was saying that I used to listen to him a

lot. I don't know why I was saying that whatever. I don't know. I don't know where I was going with that, but okay, getting Oh I was talking about the ball drop. So he was one of the people that I used to listen to and he he had a video where he was talking about like, first of all, he used to talk about all the pagan holidays and how Christmas, New Year's like all that shit is really

like evil and shit like that. But he was just talking about the meaning of like the ball drop, Like people do all of this shit, you know, get dressed up, go out and drink. Oh we about to watch the ball drop just to do the same shit over and over, and you know what I'm saying. And people never changed, and they just again, I've been past like the whole holiday shit and just all of that for many years now, Like I really just want to create my own traditions and

kind of do my own thing. I'm not I really, if I could, I would live off the grid, real talk and just do my own thing. But you know, you still got to exist in this crazy ass world. But yeah, and another thing is, you know I've talked about this on here before too, about how like the real New Year is not until airy season. If y'all don't know, aries is the first sign of

the zodiac. They start the shit. So like March April, when the flowers and the plants and everything blooms, and you know, springtime, that's that's the new year. Not in the dead cold in the middle of the winter. But if you want to go by the calendar date whatever, at the end of the day, the point is, no matter whatever you believe or whenever the new year starts for you, you have to understand that there is no power in the clock. First of all, time is an illusion.

That's number one. You know what I'm saying. Motherfuckers was telling me Happy New Year. At twelve o'clock. It was still eleven o'clock in Dallas. I'm like, I'm still in twenty twenty three apparently, But there's no power in the clock. Everything is a mindset, you know what I'm saying. So if you feel like you want to change and do whatever, you don't have to wait till January first to do that. And even if you do the side, okay, it's the new year, I'd have set a

New Year's resolution. I'd have set my attentions. I got these goals, whatever, cool do whatever you gotta do to carry that shit out. But you gotta understand that you are gonna fuck up, you are gonna fail. And that's what I had to realize last night. And I'm not justifying what happened or anything, and I'm actually I'm not even mad at myself. I got to a place of acceptance and I was just it was just the perspective of how I looked at it. So, like I said, I didn't

have any plans or whatever. For real. I worked yesterday. So when I got off work, I was just on chill, you know, and I hit some people up and was like, oh, let's just get to well, not even people, I hit up one person. It was like, hey, let's just I don't know, get some champagne and just chill at the crib, maybe get like a little game or something, you know, just be on some chill shit or whatever. And so in the midst of me making this gang gang whatever, let's just have a little chill night,

in the midst of that, a little toxicity dwindled in there. And the toxicity has been, uh, you know, trying to make its way through my life for some time now, for some weeks now, for some months now. And my thing is like, when you want to start a new and move forward in your life from a situation, you gotta shut the door completely. You can't leave that bitch cracked open. You can't be like, oh, well, they're engaging with me. And I'm not answering or

I'm not whatever. They blocked on here, but they not blocked, you know what I'm saying. Like the point is people be one access to you, and if a motherfucker's persistent, they gonna get through, you know what I'm saying at some point, And you could play the game of like, oh, well, I'm they engaging with me here, you know what I'm

saying, or risk them hitting me up or whatever like whatever. So it was that whole type of situation that's been going on with me, and I was standing strong for a very long time, you know what I'm saying, for months, and it started getting to a point where motherfuckers is getting some type of access to me, you know what I'm saying. And so anyways, last night I was making these little plans or whatever, and the toxicity that made its way on in okay, And but here I am being very

self aware of taking accountability for the situation I had. Yeah, it seeped his way in, but I let it in, you know what I'm saying. I allowed it, I engaged with it. So I was not standing on business yesterday and I ain't gonna lie. It was so much going on in my mind. I was like I was talking to God, I was talking to myself. I'm like, Jasmine, don't do this. Look how far you've gotten away from this. Look at how your life has been when

you separated yourself from the situation. Blah, just you know, just going through all of the emotions, all of the shit, and you know, I almost almost stood on business, but almost doesn't count. So at the end of the night, shit, in the wee hours of the morning, I did not stand on business. And I'm I'm not even mad at myself.

I'm not like disappointed at myself. Like I said, I just looked at it as a as a teachable moment because so much happened within everything that happened, aside from what happened, like you know, a lot of like a very I don't want to say a very deep conversation was had, but a conversation was had, and it just kind of I already all I know a lot of these things. There are a lot of things that I know about certain situations and certain people. But it's kind of like a reminder.

I guess it's just like that people are who they are. You got to accept people for who they are, you know what I'm saying, and just again taking time to really self reflect on what I've been doing for the past however many months, the path that I've gotten on, the way that I feel that my life has changed, and when in a totally different direction and feel like things have gotten better for me when stepping away from a situation. So you know, sometimes it takes those moments for you to fuck up or

to you know, slip up or whatever. And the same thing I want to compare it to your New Year's resolutions, goals, intentions that you set for yourself. Whatever your resolution is, if you want to get healthy, you want to get fit, you want to be more financially responsible, or whatever your goals or resolutions are, guess what you're gonna fuck up. You're gonna feel some people feel on day one, some people feel on day three,

sixty five, and you know all those other days in between. I'm gonna hit y'all up on April twenty third, like, what's up on the New Year's resolutions? How y'all doing? Y'all gonna be the fucking forgot. So you just gotta understand that that's life. You're a human, You're going to fuck up. You're not always going to you know what I'm saying, You're not gonna always stand on business. But it's very important to take accountability for that and be able to assess the situation and see, you know,

and reflect on it. And that's what I had to do with Like, like I said, I usually get really upset about myself or with myself when I fuck up or do some shit that I'm not so proud about or whatever, but I just really wasn't even upset, Like it just show it just again. It just really showed me like the progress that I have made and how there are certain things that I don't want to go back to. Another

thing is I think I kind of took a couple notes on this. Like Another thing is like I really started to see the power of self love and like really empowering myself and really just pouring into myself because I'm a people pleaser and that's been my downfall and a lot of my relationships and just whatever in life because I always overgive and I go over and beyond and I break my back for other people and it's like in the end, I always feel like,

damn, I gave everything. I had and da da da da da, And it's like, Jasmine, you have to give all of that stuff to yourself, go over and beyond for yourself, love yourself, put yourself you first, you know what I'm saying. And then whatever it is that you want to need in your life, you're gonna attract that. You're gonna start to get all of those things back. When you don't pour into yourself, when you don't love yourself, people could see that. People could see

it, and they will take advantage of that. So that was another thing that I just like realized, like during this time that I had been working on and better in myself with what else? It was something else? Oh, being a vibrational mismatch with somebody is very crucial to know or recognize. Like that little angel number shit I had just read, it was talking about being in peace and harmony, Like that's a real thing for me in my life. So if you disrupt my piece, if you disturb my peace,

that's a problem for me. And also you have to recognize when you are not a vibrational match with somebody. So that's what I'm always trying to get this person to understand, is like we're just not good for each other, you know what I'm saying, Because we can't even get along, like we're always bickering back and forth, and it's not even it's more so you that got the problem with me and want to try to make me conform to be this person for you. It's like, Bro, we just not a match,

you know what I'm saying. I don't want to have to be one of those people like man, we was doing so good. Like no, I don't want to be in a relationship like that. I want to be with a person where it's piece of harmony. You know what I'm saying all the time, Not all the time, but all the time for the most part. You know what I'm saying, Like if you just everything is just and not even like an argument like that, but it's just like everything is

just friction. Everything is like pulling teeth. Everything is a problem. It's like something ain't right. That means we not meant to be, you know what I'm saying. So realizing that you're a vibrational mismatch with somebody is very important as well, Like the natural harmony of relationship is very important to me. I feel like a man that don't compliment, you congratulate, you celebrate you, but want to be in your energy. You don't like me? Then, like, why are you? How do you not do any of

those things but you want to be in my energy? How is it that I'm not the person for you? And I had to have this conversation as well, Like, and I was very proud of myself with the conversation that I had because I was just being like, I was really just being honest about my feelings and my emotions and like, really, even though I didn't stand on business, but in that conversation, though, I was proud of myself for standing on business, Like, this is not what I want.

You know what I'm saying. I'm like, this is not what I want, and this is not what you want? So what are we doing? You know what I'm saying? You know that I'm not the person you want, and I know that you're not the person that I want. I know that I deserve better. I know that I know what I'm worth. You know what I'm saying, I know what I desire in a relationship from a man, Like why would I waste my time with you? Why would I

do that? I'm like, we're wasting each other's time. And I don't really know what it is though, Like I don't really know what it is that you want. I feel like you want a lot of different things, and I think that you are a very selfish person, you know what I'm saying, And that's and that's cool, but you gotta go be selfish in your own world. You're not about to be selfish with me, you know what I'm saying. So it was just a lot, but I was just

really proud of myself for recognizing that. But I did play into the toxicity and I ain't gonna lie. I had a great card. I had a great time. I had a great time. But another thing that I had wrote down was like you gonna fuck around and misshell Mark trying to put a puzzle piece where it don't belong. You got a whole purpose in this life,

Jazmine. You you know what I'm saying. You get you get to these phases, or you get to these points where you get your momental back up and you be going and you be moving and some shit come try to throw you off, and here you are, you about to misshow motherfucking mark trying to put a puzzle piece together that don't even fit. And that was another thing. There was one day a motherfucker snuck me, okay, got

through to me. Motherfuckers, And that's the thing. Excuse me. I'm a person that always answers the phone when I'm sleep like I just have a habit of doing that. So motherfucker be like, oh you sleep, I'm like, no, I'm up, But he did sleep. You could get through to me like that. And sometimes people just get through to me at other times when I'm doing something in the morning, when I'm getting ready for

work. Somebody got through to me in the morning when I was getting ready for work or no. I was on the phone all night one night and I had to get up for work, and I probably went to bed at four AM, and I gotta be up at six. Baby, that alarm went off and I hit snooze and I woke back up and it was six thirty and my whole day was shot. I was like, fuck, I'd be leaving, you know. I usually listen to my affirmations and all that shit. In the morning, I was running lay. I was trying to

hurry it and get ready. Sometimes I ride to work with my coworker so this day they came to pick me up, and our dumb mass is just realized we could ride into hov Laye on the freeway. So if it's two people with a car, you could ride in the HOV lane and bypass all that crazy ass fucking Dallas traffic in the morning. So mind you, all of my day is already going to shit. Motherfuckers then threw me off my whole vibe, my whole frequency, and I knew, you know what I'm

saying. But again, when when you when you not in alignment, when you getting off your path, it's gonna show you every time. It's gonna show you every time. So I knew being on the phone like that all night, I was like, I already know you know what I'm saying. So when I woke up late, whatever, everything just start going left. So we on the we got on the freeway, we try to hurry up

and getting the HOV lane. This motherfucker missed the fucking end. I was like, oh my god, already running late for work, stuck in Dallas traffic. In the back of my mind, I'm like, I was on the phone all night with this motherfucker. I'm like, and look at how your day is going. And that's exactly what I mean by you're gonna fuck around and misshow mark by fucking with a puzzle piece that don't even fit again, taking that time to self reflect on the progress that I've made moving forward

in life and all that. And that's another thing I kept saying to this person. I'm like, leave me alone. No pause. Now I'll be telling my homegirls when they dudes be trying to mess with them still and I'd be like, girl, he ain't gonna leave you alone. You gotta leave him alone. But you know whatever, So I'm just like, leave me alone. You know what I'm saying, Like, why won't you leave me

alone? And that's the thing. So that's my thing with the situation is like a mother is a very weird situation because I feel like the person acts like they don't really want me. It's such a weird energy for them to act like they don't want me, but deep down, you really do want me, you know what I'm saying. And that's what I'm trying to explain to you. I'm like, you won't leave me alone. I'm like,

I have not contacted you. You have been contacted me for months, No response all type of you know what I'm saying, Why won't you leave me alone? If you really don't even want me? You just want the access. You like the control, You like the you know what I'm saying, You like what I do for you, like you like the feeling that I give you, not physically but that too. But you know what I'm saying, But you just like what I give to you. And in this situation,

though, I just feel like I don't get nothing back. You know what I'm saying, I don't get nothing back. As much as I give to you and like pouring to you and nurture you and build you up, I don't get that in return. And that's what you understand, Like you gotta take a really deep look at your situations, your relationships, like what's happening here. So that was That was pretty much my night, my day.

I didn't get a lot of sleep. Uh. Like I said, this shit was going on to the wee hours in the morning, and uh, I probably took a cat nap and then I'm like, fuck, I gotta go record today. I was excited about coming to record, but I was like damn. And then I didn't think the nail shop was gonna be open. I didn't think I was gonna be able to get my lashes done. I was just gonna come in here, bear face natural, which would have been cool, but it was just like I was worried about that.

Excuse me. But everything worked out. Everything worked out. And I also just believe that I'm I'm a very big inspiration for people. I just want to say that. So this here is one of my journals. Uh this I started writing in this about probably like six months ago. This page here is talking about wisdom, knowledge and understanding and all of that. I was taking notes from this book that I was reading. I don't remember what book it was. All of this is just talking about like action is what produces

results. That's what is going to you know, create success in your life. You are the one who decides how to feel and how to act based on the way that you choose to perceive life. Nothing has meaning except the meaning that we give it. Know your outcome, define what you want to take action blase blah, So a lot of good things. Oh remember I was talking about that belief. It was given like the keys to success.

So passion, belief, the belief about what you are and what you can be, determine what you will be, change your belief so that they support you. So I gotta get rid of the self sabotage and the negative self talk. But what I really wanted to show y'all on here is and this is why I'm proud of myself again. This all just goes into the new year. So let's see. I happened to pull this out a couple of days ago. This was my six month plan. This was from December eighteenth,

twenty twenty three to June eighteenth, twenty twenty four. I wrote a oh wait, no, this is no, that's the new one. I'm sorry, that's my new plan. Wait, let's go back. Where's the old plan? Was it in the other book? Oh, I'm about to be pissed. I think it's in the other book. It is, Damn, it's in the other book. So I had a six month plan, but I checked off I don't wanna say a lot of things, but I checked off. I checked off a very good number of things on there.

So I remember. The first thing that was on there was like book a one way ticket flight to Dallas. It was supposed to be like moving my son to Dallas. Find a yoga job here, and I taught three classes at North No Sanctuary. Here it said get a regular job. I did that as soon as I got off the plane. It did say all money in. I'm pretty sure Nipsey Hustle is not happy with me with me because it has not been all money in. It's been a lot of money out.

But I'm working. That's something that I have to work on. What else did it say on there? I don't know. Find a gym, find yoga friends. I didn't find everything on there, but the point was like I checked a lot of things off of my list on my six month play and so I made another six month plan for December to June. I got where I want to move to, what kind of place I want to live in, what kind of car I want to drive, building my yoga

clientel, teaching classes, creating events. You know, my content, praying and meditating daily, yoga, daily workout. Gotta stick to that. Getting back to tyroo on astrology, reading daily, eating healthy. Saving five bands is on my list, and I was very proud of the money that I saved, so that was another thing too. So I ain't gonna lie. I am not a very financially responsible person, like that's something that I really have to work on. But I was very proud of myself for the amount

of money that I saved when I got here. However, I didn't end up getting to use the money on what I planned on using it for, but I was glad that I said the buddy and was able to use it in my time of need, which ended up for me feeling like a financial setback after I had to use the money for what I had to use it for. But I was proud of myself. So now I feel like I'm back to square one a little bit, you know. But nigga, you you saved the money one time, you could do it again, so whatever

payback thoughts who helped me? And I have three individuals on here that I really want to look out for. When I get like a lum sum of money luxury experiences only monetizes on YouTube and I'm motherfucking shopping spree because I deserve it. I'll be doing my three six nine method manifestation on here, and this time I'll be switching up every day and do something different. Uh what else? What else? More? Three six nine three six nine d so

yeah, all of that good shit. What else? It was something else that I was just about to touch on when I was reading in the journal. Oh so another thing. Let me see y'all. Took a screenshot of this because it really made me think about it. I was a little sad, A little sad got out of my feelings a little bit. I had read something on Instagram that said, no one knows how much you suffered this year, but you stayed strong and didn't quit. You literally did your best.

Be proud of yourself for passing your hardest moments alone while everyone believed you were fine, and never stop pushing to be the best you could be. Keep blowing. And I was thinking about this today when I was at the nail shop and get my nails done, because even though I said like I wasn't really disappointed myself, there was a split second that I was kind of beating up on myself for my whole New Year's extravaganza shit. But it was

just like I had to dig a little deeper with that on why. I feel like, you know, you got those moments when you relapse to things or go back to certain things or situations or whatever, and it's just like, I don't think a lot of people know like and I don't. I

feel like I don't really share this. And it's so funny because a lot of my family, I feel like a lot of my family members every day, well not every day, but I feel like, as of recently, a lot of my family be like, oh, hey, just checking on you, haven't heard from you or since Sometimes, like my family be hitting me up in a group chat, and I just don't even be responding because I just I don't have the energy to engage with people and shit like that,

because I just be feeling like I got a lot going on, and you know, I wear it very well, you know what I'm saying. And so when I was at the NL shop, one of the things I was thinking about was like, I don't think a lot of people understand how lonely this journey. First of all, a spiritual journey is a lonely ass journey when you the black sheep of the family, when you on a different

path, got different beliefs. Being an entrepreneur is a lonely journey. But this situation in particular, like relocating to another state, and again, no, I'm not over this shit, not like I feel like I'm over it, but in a way not really because relocating to a new place and kind of feeling a bandit from a situation, you know what I'm saying, Like even though I've still been making it and was able to pick up the pieces and keep moving like nothing ever happened, it's been a very lonely journey,

you know what I'm saying, and the shit that I've went through during that time. So again it to me, I felt abandoned in that situation. I really felt betrayed when all of that happened. And then a turnaround to have to deal with a whole situation, like a whole legal battle, a whole custody battle, Like I didn't really want to speak on that before. But that's over now and I'm happy with the outcome. But you know what I'm saying, to even I share a lot about that with somebody, you

know what I'm saying. I shared a lot about that shity situation with somebody, And to know, like you know what I'm saying, I came out here trying to you know, get myself together or whatever, and so for that situation to kind of backfire on me and like go in a whole different direction, and that was a lot to deal with. And again to feel abandoned and be basically by yourself here like this shit be lonely as hell,

like it be a lot to deal with. I don't just be like crying my eyes out and no shit like that, but it that shit definitely took a toll on me, like being here like a lot of day like that situation, the whole custody shit that I was going through, being in a toxic work environment, just trying to make it on a day to day basis, Like it be a lot to try to really keep shit together. It's like, damn, you know what I'm saying, And I got I don't

even want to say a handful of homegirls. I want to say like two maybe three home girls that I talked to, but and it's cool. They are all very supportive, always had my back, always there. But even that just kind of get old sometime, Like you know what I'm saying, I literally have nobody here. Every holiday I've had to fucking work. I be by myself. People like what you moving for the holidays? Nothing? I don't have no fucking family here. I'm here by myself. You know

what I'm saying, So it gets very lonely. And then to have to go through shit by yourself and keep it fucking trucking, keep it fucking moving, keep fucking smiling, keep a positive mindset, keep your mental stability, keep waking up every day like it's a fucking lot, bro. And then to be away from your kid. That's very hard for a mother, you know it. It may not be hard for a daddy. It may be

hard for some of y'all. I don't know, but I'm just saying like it's different as a mother, it's very different, you know what I'm saying, regardless of trying to get your shit together like that shit is very fucking hard. It's very hard. So it'd be a lot of mixed emotions and be a lot of shit going on. And so, you know, I was just thinking about that, like a lot of people don't know, like the silent battles that I, you know, deal with on a daily basis,

and people always feel like I'm the strong friend. People just never feel like, you know what I'm saying, I'm not that person that people hit up and be like, oh are you good? Like cause I gotta be everybody else's therapist. I gotta be there for everybody else. So you know, I don't really get that a lot, and when I do, I appreciate it. But it's just like people be going through their hardest moments, you know, on motherfucking death row bother, jump off that bitch and you

will never even fucking know. But I'm good and I'm proud of myself. What else? Okay, so we could get into the we can get into the New Year's Eve questions. I guess I think we can get into the New Years Eve questions. Let's see what we got. I found this online. I actually ordered these little like car, these like shadow work cars that I found on TikTok, and I thought I was gonna have them today, but they didn't come in the mail yet. So maybe on the next episode

and we could dive deep into that up. These questions spark lively discussions and reflections, creating a memorable celebration as people share their hopes, dreams, resolutions for the upcoming New year. You're ready for meaningful conversations and yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah yeah. This not only encourages reflection and goal setting, but also provides a wonderful keepsake to look back on in

future years. A New Year's interview is a tradition where you ask whoever as a way of reflecting on the past year and looking forward to the new one. So it says that you should consider writing down your answers or if you are brave, recording them on video or audio on New Year's and you know, look back at them, uh, you know, the next year or whatever, and just see how much your own thoughts change from year to year. So let's start a new tradition here. So I'm gonna pick out whatever

ones I think are good ones. Let's see your number one goal for next year. My number one goal for next year, well for twenty twenty four is to get myself established own place on car. Another very important goal of mine is to become very disciplined. That's something that I really need to work on, is my discipline. And I feel like I really admire people. Like when you look at places like fitness centers or gyms, all them mopfuckers

be disciplined, they all be in shape. You could tell they get up at six am, I eat my breakfast, I do this, I work out, But you could tell you could tell when a person got disciplined in their life. You can tell it's just a different it's just a different aura about them. It's a different you know what I'm saying. It's just a different way that they carry theyselves. You know I kind of I probably come off real, real, calm, cool, collected, just whatever, and

the cut. I gotta get on my discipline. The biggest lesson that I learned this year, it's so hard straight off the dome. The biggest lesson that I learned this year. I'm trying to see if I wrote anything now. I thought I wrote something down for this. No, okay, the biggest lesson that I learned this year, and going back to the New Year's Eve situation, I think, don't don't continuously repeat lessons, especially when you

know the outcome. You know what I'm saying. Stop making yourself have to go through shit over and over again, like you know what I'm saying. Even though I said, like I had that little moment of clarity like oh you know, or it was like a reminder to me, Why the fuck do you need a reminder? Bro? When are you gonna learn something to

move the fuck on? So yeah, stop stop repeating lessons. The biggest risks that I took this year hopping on that motherfucker one way flight and uh, you know, and the whole situation with my son, like that was a really big risk and it got a little got a little hectic, it got a little dirty in the ring. But like I said, the outcome turned out to be what I wanted it to be a way that I grew

emotionally this year. I think I grew a lot emotionally, and just how I was just saying that, Like, uh, I was proud of myself in that conversation that I was having about just really you know, just being very verbal and just very straightforth about like this is not what I want. I know that this is not what you want. You know, I know what I deserve. I know, like you know what I'm saying, like

really just laying that shit out, like bro. And that's the thing I hate when niggas feel like like, cause niggas like to play mind games and niggas like the gas light and do all that bullshit and act like they don't be doing what they be doing. And it's like, bro, I already fucking know you know what I'm saying. And it's just like, let's just I don't understand why people just don't want to have real last conversations about what

shit is. But it really be the other people that be dealing with shit that you know what I'm saying, and they try to project or they it just be a whole bunch of bullshit in the game, and it's like, let's just really have a realize conversation about what shit is. You know what I'm saying. You don't have to and that's the thing. You do. Not have to play games with me. You ain't got a lot to me. I may not like the truth, but we could just keep it a hunted, we could keep it a butt. But uh so, Yeah,

I feel like I grew emotionally by learning to speak up for myself. I really feel like I'm my wanting done shit, you know what I'm saying, like, and I'm really I'm really heavy on the red flax this time around. Like you know, it was a dude that was, you know, showing some type of interest in me, and like it was just like it was cool at first, but then it was like, bro, you a you ain't really on that, you know what I'm saying, like I'm starting

to it was a little shit he was doing. I was starting to keep the red flag. So I'm like, I'm straight something you want to do the same next year? What do I want to do the same in twenty twenty four? Uh? I want to keep doing the podcast. I want to keep being consistent with it. Uh. The best advice that I received this year, y'all motherfuckers, don't be giving me no fucking advice. Nobody knows anything except me. It's like, nah, I'm trying to think who's

giving me advice? Uh, I ain't gonna know. One of the best advice givers in my circle is one of my bff's, Jazlyn Panda. Uh. She it's nothing like in my mind that sticks out, but she's just like i'd be telling her, like you should have a fucking podcast, you should be a motherfucking motive speaker. Like she's really like a big sister to me. Because anything that I ever experienced, like she's like Jazmine, I've been there before, I already went through this. I got this is how

I got through it. I remember when I was there, I remember when Xyz and like she's just a very like inspirational and motivational person for me, and she like she is the voice of reason for me, and that's crazy because I always have to be that for other people. So I really appreciate that from her. A new skill that I want to learn this year, I would just say, cook, okay, and I don't need none of y'all motherfuckers on my head, niggas like, oh that's why you ain't got

no man. Bitches be cooking for niggas and still get cheated on. So whatever, I like to go out to eat, but we'll throw cooking on there. Something you want to do for someone next year, something that, like I said, I had that written down in the book, the three people that I wanted to repay for really like you know, helping me and looking out for me during my time here. So I want to give back and look out. My number one goal for twenty twenty four I want the

motherfucking pot. My number one goal is to transition out of working a nine to five into being a full time entrepreneur with yoga. In the podcast, like, I really want this to be my thing. I want this to be my thing. I want this to be number one. I want this to be my bread and butter. I want this to be my life, Like that's my number one goal. Something you want to do differently in twenty twenty four. I want to move smarter. I want to uh, I

want to make better decisions financially. I want to I just want to be better, you know what I'm saying. I want to keep I want to keep becoming the best version of myself because I feel like I get complacent a lot just in life here, like if you not pressing to be better. And that's why, Like, routine is very important in situations like that, whether it be with your health and your fitness, because that helps your mentality,

but it also helps you physically. But just having a routine and whatever. Like again, that discipline is very important for me. My word for next year or what's a good word for me for twenty twenty four, I don't know. I'm gonna just say blessed, Okay, blessed and highly favored. A place that I want to visit. Some places on my list are Aruba, Egypt. Let me see somewhere in the States that I want to go. I want to go to New York. What a New York niggas

here? No like I gotta give me a Harlem nigga or a I feel like I fuck with a Harlem nigga or man. I don't know. I don't know what the Bronx has or Queens Southside Jamaica Queen, I don't know. I want to go to New York though. An unexpected joy this past year. An unexpected joy, I'll say yoga, And that was one of my greatest accomplishments. I'm pretty sure that's on here. One new thing that I tried this year, ba I tried fun first of all, one of

my favorite things. Like I I have a serious obsession for watching like muck bang videos. I will sit and watch motherfuckers eat on TikTok all day long. That shit is so weird and every time I do it as soon as I ain't gonna lie that day, that night I got sick and I had the stomach flu. I had had wing Stop that day, and I'm not fucking a wing Stop no more. But Wingstop definitely had me in the chunkhoult

too. But I tried fud this year, like the little ramen, the noodles and all of that shit, and I just put all the hot shit in it, like the chili oil, the h what else did I put in their fucking siracha? It was, it was decent I had. I think it was the beef and unexpected obstacle this year, everything that I went through in Dallas, shit with my baby daddy. Uh yeah, all of

that unexpected as fucked. The biggest thing that I learned, The biggest thing that I learned is it's so crazy coming up with this off the top of the dumb it's on the spot. Uh, the biggest thing that I learned. What have you learned, Jasmin? What have you learned? That life is a never like it's a never ending process of learning, you know what I'm saying. So just like again taking it back to the nail shop.

But for that split second when I kind of was beating up on on myself about the situation, is like, Jazzmin, all of the situations in your life that appear as obstacles are just opportunities for growth, opportunities for change, for you to become better. All of the bullshit that you went through since

you been here, you know whatever, Look where you at now. Look at the self reflection, Look at the growth, look at the progress, Look at the woman that you are, look at the woman you're becoming, Like I love this for me, But you got And that's the thing, Like you will ask God or the universe for strength and all of that. Okay, motherfucker, you gonna get these battles though, you don't get some tough times. You gonna get some rain, you gonna get some bo you

know what I'm saying. In order, But that's the thing. And a lot of people feel like a sense of shame or embarrassment about the things that they go through in life. And shout out to old girl that picked me up last night, my uh uber driver and I told her to I had her subscribe to the podcast, so hopefully she watches this video. But she was actually young. I think she said she was twenty four or something like

that. She was super mature though, and I could just tell from her conversation, and she was just telling me that she had been through so much in life, and I was like, I could tell, but just the way that she carried herself in her conversation, like it's just beautiful to witness, you know what I'm saying. So never be ashamed of the things that

you experience or go through because that's what makes you who you are. And don't nobody give a fuck about the motherfucker that I want to play perfect Patty on Instagram period. Three words to describe twenty twenty three, Uh, I would say eye opening, eye opening, empowering, and I don't know, unexpected. I guess something that made you belly laugh. Uh shit, just me being delusional and like, you know what I'm saying. But I'm a lover girl, I'm a pisces like, so you know that shit made me

laugh at myself. But the best movie that I watched in twenty twenty three, I don't even be watching shit like that. I definitely don't go to the fucking movies. I did go to the movies, and guess what, we had fell asleep in that bitch as soon as we got there. We went to see The Equalizer. Baby, Well, I'll tell you we had fell asleep as soon as we got in the movie. But the best I'm

not the best movie that I watched last year. Shit, I'll be watching movies on TV and shit, the biggest problem that I solved this year. Still solving them, bitches, Still solving them, bitches. Uh, but okay, like the whole situation with my my legal battle, my custody battle. That really took a lot out of me, and it also solved a lot for me because I always felt like, and I know, motherfuckers is

not gonna agree with me or be mad that I'm saying this. But like for women, again, you gotta be careful in relationships because men be one control in every aspect, every aspect, whether it be financially through children, through telling you what the fuck to wear or what to do. Like you know, like men really want to control you, and it could manifest in many different ways. And for years I always felt like my parents, my

co parents in situation was a form of control. You know what I'm saying, in a way to keep me down, a way to keep a person's eye on me or keep their foot on my neck, or you know what I'm saying. And you know, you can feel however you feel about that,

but that's how I feel. And so you know, the scariest part about me going through the legal battle of that was the way that I left and the way that the narrative was being painted of me as a parent and as a mother, And I was like, E don't you know what I'm saying. I didn't know how that was gonna work out for me, but like I said, the outcome ended up being what I wanted it to be.

But I feel like now that that situation is done and overWe and like you know, we got the shit on paper about how shit is supposed to be. I feel like I could kind of close that chapter life and I feel like I could move how I want to move without feeling like I'm being controlled. So the best day of the year in twenty twenty three, I would say my birthday was a really good day. I had taught a class on my yoga class on my birthday, I had went to the SPA that

day. I had just treated myself that day. I was really happy and fulfilled that day. Another good day of twenty twenty three was when I graduated yoga teacher training. Again. I was very just proud of myself for how fast like I had went through the training process and became a certified teacher. That was a really good day. The funniest thing that happened to me in

twenty twenty three, Um, it's five point fifty five. What's the funniest thing that happened to me five is symbolic of conflict though, so probably the bullshit that I were. I hate to keep bringing it back to all of the same shit, but that shit was. It wasn't funny then, but it's funny now. I could look back and laugh at all the things that I've been through since I've been here. What was the highlight of twenty twenty

three for me? Shit, just getting the fuck on. I think when you see people talk about, like move away from your hometown, like I do, feel like that's one of the best things to do. Like, I really just could not see myself living in Detroit for the rest of my life. I don't. I don't have any desire to be there. I think it's good to move, relocate, new scenery, new vibe, new people, new opportunities, you know, new everything. So that was the

highlight for me. What's the most important lesson that I've learned in twenty twenty three? Things don't always work out the way that you plan or expect them to. You know, shit, things rarely ever work out how you expect them to. Uh. I think one of the best like quotes is when they say, like, uh, tell God your plans and he'll laugh or whatever, like maybe don't tell God your plans. He'll be like, put them bitches down, cause that's not how it's going. No, that's not

what we're doing. I got this whole shit, or your whole shit was already predestined. It was already your day, So put your fucking plans up. And that's so funny because to a certain extent, I do feel like you have to plan, you know, your life or whatever. But I'll be in the middle of like planning your life and going with the flow, cause it's it. Man. I'm more on the going with the flow side, though, I ain't gonna lie. If you could sum up your year

in one word, what would it be and why? I don't fucking know. Just crazy. It's like surprise, Like, yeah, what's your favorite New Year's Eve tradition? It's kissing out of the mist sometime? Is that Christmas Verus at New Year's Eve? I don't know. I didn't kiss nobody under the mistletone, but I don't know. I guess that would be it. I don't know what else. You're supposed to eat black eyed peas for good luck and graze for money. We was doing that shit for years and

it never really happened. So maybe we should think of something new to do. If you could change one thing about the past year, what would it be? I don't know. That's so hard to say, because it's like even with life period, would you really change anything like, because then everything would be different, Everything would be totally different. And not to say this, I hate to use this as an example, but I do think about this sometimes, Like if I would have never had a kid at twenty one,

what would my life had look like? You know what I'm saying, Like life would have been totally different. I don't know. If I could change one thing about the past year, though, what would it be? I don't know. Or even still, something else that I think about or that I have thought about recently, was like when I first got here, I had two jobs, right, I had got two jobs, and I

was working at another hotel too, a very nice hotel. The vibes was better, They treated they employees way better, fed them full of course gourmet meals every day. I should have stayed in that bitch, But I was thinking like if I would have stayed working there, you know, like I ended up getting cool with a coworker and staying with my coworker, you know

what I'm saying after my situation. So it's like, where would I been saying if I worked at the other hotel, Like who was I gonna link up with on some you know what I'm saying, Like, I don't know, but everything would have been different. So I don't know. I don't know what I would change about the past year. What would I change?

Uh? Sit Uh? But then I wouldn't be here. But one thing that I will say is just like as much that I invested in that whole situation, Uh, when niggas was in jail and shit like I just cause you know, I feel like it went like unnoticed and unappreciated. So you know, when a nigga was to jail, I could have been like, hey, hit me when you get out and we'll see who won't reconvene. But again, she could have been totally different. What's your biggest goal for

the upcoming year? I told y'all to make This Bitch the number one podcast in the motherfucking world, So please subscribe. As you're watching this video, please like the video, Post This Bitch on your Instagram, send it to your girlfriends, your friends. Uh, who has been your biggest inspiration this year? Excuse me, that's a good question. Who's been my biggest inspiration?

Who inspires your girl? I ain't gonna lie. I can't inspire and people be home on people like y'all just listen to shit on Instagram and run with it and be living y'all life based off Instagram called but them Instagram memes, be hitting them, bitches, be fire, so it Instagram be my biggest inspiration. I follow like a lot of inspirational pages, a lot of like astrology pages and shit, just like that shit that I read to y'all

earlier. Like, I think one of my biggest inspirations are people that are like just authentically being themselves and with what they share on Instagram. I feel like everybody wants to be like an influencer now and everything is so like, get ready with me. This is you know, all them type of videos

and shit and everything. And I was watching some little video on TikTok the other day and it was like, when your friend is an influencer and y'all just having lunch at the crib and they bring it in, They motherfucking tripod like, Okay, let's get some laughs and let's do it. Like you know what I'm saying. I feel like that's how the internet is, so just when people just again, like a situation like this, somebody sitting here watching this, Like let me sit here and watching this two hour video,

this girl just talking by her fucking self. You know what I'm saying, Like that type of shit, What bad habits do you what? What bad habits do you wish to conquer next year? Get fucking healthy, work fucking

out. Yeah, well those aren't bad habits, but you know the opposite of those habits, So spending all that money on fucking door, dashing over eats, and fucking not being active every day again, I'm go'na have to go back to the braids though, for the yoga, for the hi yoga, cause you you could not do yoga every day with your hair done like this. Uh, what is one new skill that you wanna learn? I said, cook, motherfucking damn. What's the most adventurous thing you did this

past year? I feel like I got I gotta live more life. I feel like I don't be doing shit. I didn't go fucking skydiving. I didn't jump off a cliff. I didn't, Uh, I didn't go fucking swimming with the dolphins, Like I need to live life. What's the most adventurous thing that I did? Shit, got in the car with a stranger during a lyft ride. I don't know, Like I don't know. Let's see, how do you plan to make the next year better than the last

by being better? Doing better? Checking myself again, checking myself, cutting into myself like Jazmine was on some bulls shit yesterday. Do you want to change or do you not? Do you want to glow up or not? Do you want to move forward or not? Do you wanna, you know, be better? What are your new Year's resolutions? Like I said, my thing is, I feel like it doesn't matter the day, the time,

whatever, because it's a mindset. So make it up in your mind that you wanna change or that you want to do something, and take action on your fucking goals. That's the only way that it's gonna happen. And understand that every day is not gonna be the same. Every day is not gonna be easy. Every day you not gonna wanna get up. Some days you're gonna fuck up. Some days you're gonna feel Some days you're gonna relap, some days you're gonna call that nigga, some days you're gonna whatever.

You know what I'm saying. Some days you're gonna be toxic. I don't know. But the point is, you gotta you gotta come back to self. You gotta center yourself and acknowledge that, Okay, I fucked up. Whatever. Same same with whatever your new Year's resolutions are. Maybe you said that you was gonna stop drinking, and you fucking drink yesterday. You know what I'm saying, Like, Okay, it's a new day, start over again. Period. Every day that you wake up is a chance to change,

a chance to do better. So yes, what else? Share a moment from the past year that made you laugh a lout? These are like the same fucking questions. I don't know, what are you most grateful for from the past year? Just my my community, my tribe, the people that have showed up for me since I've been here again, like literally people that I don't even know, like really helping me and really you know, just being a great form or source of support for me. Again, ask

me where I want to travel to? I said, what places. What was your most significant achievement this past year again yoga shit, becoming a certified yoga teacher, teaching my class the three classes that I saw here in Dallas. What was your biggest challenge and how did it make you stronger? I hate to keep bringing up the same situations, but just again, just the shit that I've been through since I've been here, because like those was really

curve balls in the game. I never could have expected it or planned for shit to happen that way. You know what I'm saying. I was able to pivot and just keep on fucking moving. Uh, these are the same questions. What unexpected life lessons did you encounter again? Whatever, same fucking questions. Okay, what is something that I'm looking forward to in the coming year? More money? More? It's like, no, no, but more money, y'all know, I'm whatever, girl, I gonna lie like

I don't even know. I don't even really know what I want for real. Some days I feel like I'm just gonna be a single, successful entrepreneur and just travel the world and me and my best friend is gonna be going to islands and whatever and living our best life. And then some days I'm like, I want a husband and I really want to be in love and all of that, and I don't know, but whatever whatever's to come,

I don't fucking know. Let's see, before I bring off the tarrot cards, it's the first that dumba wake up, wake up, wake up. It's the first that dumb get up, get up, get up. Good rent new rent, rent rent. Now it is the person. Oh, I had some I don't think I wrote anything down for that, though I put down new first, Like, what are some what are some first that I want to do in twenty twenty four? Uh, I don't know.

Some first, I do want to do something crazy, like I want to take a trip out of the country, but I want to do something like I want to do some scary shit like to overcome a fear like bungee jump, jump out a plane, or do some like I feel like I gotta do some shit like that to just get my adrenaline up and just you know, start checking some fears off my fucking bucket list. First first, what else? I don't know? First, I don't know. I don't know, Okay, but we can get into Oh I do wanna like go well,

I wanna host one too. I'm wanna go on a Willness like retreat, but I also wanna host a Willness retreat and the yoga retreat and employ my best friends so she could do the massages and I could do the yoga, and we could just be out on this bitch doing whatever. I feel like it's still kind of early to be going through the cards, So like, am I about to give you all a full blown reading in this bitch? I don't really know. Should I pour cards like for each sign?

What do y'all want me to do? What do y'all want me to do? I'm gonna just pull cards for the collective. In regards to the new year, what can we look forward to? What to expect? What are the vibes for twenty twenty four? Walk this double card keep popping out on the bottom. It's the toxicity trying to be in the room with me right now. Get away from me, Get away from me. The double card is Capricorn energy, though, but get away from me. Stop trying to

hang on to my coattails. Stop trying to hang on to my energy, stop trying to Okay, the three pinnacles popped out, So what we need to look forward to in the new year of twenty twenty four is community. We need to look forward to collaboration, cooperation, working together with others, getting to the money, getting to the bag, putting our resources and our ideas together. Teamwork makes the motherfucking dream work. So if you are for self, fuck out the way, bro, cause how are we gonna grow?

How are we gonna be better? When you only worried about your motherfuck itself, When you only worried about your motherfuck itself? Five of swords? You can't Okay, we don't need no snakes in our circle. We don't need nobody that's trying to undercut the group, trying to be on some bullshit. Okay, look at him down, down down. They turned around. They don't see me walking away with these swords. Get your fucking man, get your scamming ass on. So beware of the people in your circle.

Is the vibes for twenty twenty four. Beware of the people in your circle, the people talking shit about you behind your back. You see how they turned around, and beware that people talking behind your back. To a sorts, You're gonna have to evaluate the relationships in your life in twenty twenty four. What was I just talking about about like that self reflection and really, like you know, is this in alignment with me? Is this in alignment

with my path, with my purpose where I'm going? Is this in alignment with my progress? Is this what I want? You know what I'm saying. You gotta have those real ass conversations with yourself. You have to make the decision. Is this bettering me? Or is it hindering me? Are we building or are we bullshitting? Get them snow about your circle? Okay,

because when you move on, ain't gonna be sad about it? Maybe when you move When you move on, when you move forward to clearer, calmer waters, when you start to see shit for what it is that you're doing better in life. When you're moving forward, motherfucker's is gonna be mad as hell. Motherfucker's is gonna be in regret. Damn, I should have I should have. I should have cherished what I had, I should have valued what I had. This bitch is moving on without You're right? What

are the vibes for twenty twenty four? What are the vibes for? What are the vibes for twenty twenty four? Okay? Okay, it's giving manifestation vibes the magician car and the four of Swords, so it's giving big manifestation vibes. It's giving sleep on it, giving sleep on it. And that's how you know, that's that's that's a super spiritual thing. Like when people say, like, I gotta sleep on it, because you gotta take that shit to the spirit realm. You gotta, you know, you gotta let

it sizzle in your spirit off or night. You gotta you gotta think about it, you gotta dream about it. You gotta see what comes to you. But also understand that you are the magician. You are a master manifestor. You can create whatever it is that you want for yourself, for your life, whatever you desire. You have all of the tools inside of you. And I feel like a lot of times we look at our circumstances in life or whatever, and it's like, how am I gonna do this?

How I'm gonna come up with this? Like you were blessed with the God given tools, and maybe you need to sleep on it. Maybe you need to take some time, Maybe you need to journ, Maybe you need to journal and start making a plan. Maybe you need to do your three sixty nine method manifest Maybe you need to make your six month plan, maybe you need to write. Okay, because what did y'all do last night for New Year's Eve? What did y'all do for New Year's Eve? You know,

I didn't have no plans. And that was the thing too. I had looked into a couple places here, like I wanted to go to like a yoga studio and go to like a meditation, like a sound bowl meditation all that. I ain't gonna lie. I didn't feel like paying like they was kind of they wasn't taxing like that, but I ain't gonna lie. I was just like, I don't I didn't want to pay for it. I ain't gonna lie. Uh So I didn't go. But that's that's more on

my vibe, you know what I'm saying? Vision board type thing. A couple of years ago, before I deleted all my old YouTube videos, I had did a podcast episode with Asia and JB and like or was it just no? That one was just with Asia and we was working on a vision board that was for twenty twenty one. Yeah, So what did y'all do for New Year's Eve? Did y'all go out, y'all would watch the ball drop, y'all got drunk as fuck. You was in the club and in

the move buying bottles? Was you at home in the And that's the thing, Like I'm at the age too, Like I'm at that auntie age. I'm thirty three. I will be thirty four next year. Just period like New Year's Eve. It was just giving staying a career for me, like really like be on some chill shit. I wasn't trying to go out and that's on the regular. I don't go out to the club, so I don't hang out like like I want to be at the crib on chill. I could do a little kickback, but I'll be on my chill shit.

So wo nine enough cups Because what we were just talking about met manifestation. This is what you get. This is what you get when you're consistent, when you write down the things that you desire, the things that you want, the things that you see that nine of cups that wish for field. You have to speak those things into existence. You gotta write that shit down on paper with a pen and watch it get real. Like I said,

when I did my little my last six month plan. I didn't cross everything off that was on the list, but a lot of those things happened. A lot of those a lot. I've made a lot of shit happen. Like the very first thing on the list was one way ticket to Dallas. That shit is crazy. I moved from Detroit. Uh, this was my third time, so like that's very big to be, Like, Hey, I'm about to just hop on a plane and just do it. You know what I'm saying. But that's what you gotta do. You gotta be willing

to take them. Chances, Chances make champions period. Okay, ooh, because justice will be served. We got the Tennisaurs, the Queeniswords, and the justice car it is given. Your haters gonna hide a day, Okay, they gonna get chewed the fuck out by whoever, whether that be you, the universe. They gonna get they karma, you know what I'm saying.

And justice will be served again. We were talking about community and watching offer the people in your circle, like keep being you, keep being the good spirit that you are, keep being the good person that you are, and you are going to reap what you saw, period. You know what I'm saying. And that's the thing. Watch them the seeds that you saw in this lifetime, because baby, the harvest is gonna go. The Tower card, the Tower card, the Tower card is get over here energy.

It's like, I'm about to burn this bitch to the ground because you. And that's the thing I was. It was one of the New Year's Eve questions. But it's like, what was the question one of your greatest lessons that that would have been a good answer, stop staying in situations. But okay, well I said, stop repeating lessons, but stop staying in situations

longer than you need to. Stop ending up in situations where the universe gotta burn the whole motherfucking tower down and you running trying to get out of that bitch, Like, bro, we gave you the signs to get the fuck out out, so now we now we forcibly got to remove you from the situation like that is the worst. That is the fucking worst. And I've been there in life, like you don't want to have to be forced forcibly removed from a situation. Nine of Pinnacles, High Priestess and the King of

Wands. So it's given. You know your power, you know your confidence. You know. Okay, it's given me energy. Period, it's given me energy of getting to the bag. Let me see you, you gotta go off how you feel, bro, you gotta go off your intuition again with evaluating the situations, the relationships, the people in your life, the the way that you want to move, the path that you want to take in your life. If you're on a spiritual path, whatever, just whatever,

Like only you know the way to your role. You know what I'm saying. Nobody else can tell you that. Nobody, nobody knows what's best for you. You gotta have the confidence the intuition to see it through. You gotta have the resources. You gotta plant those seats to get whatever it is that you want to get. So twenty twenty four, it's gonna be a great year. And you know, motherfuckers be mad. Like so I'm saying, your year, your year. This my bitch, it is my

year. Every year is my year. Oh okay, every year is my year. Period. I just wanna. I wish I had some other cars. See, I gotta bring all my other cars. But I'm gonna just pull it one just cause I want to know what it's gonna say. About love for me, I just want some other I just what's in the cards for me? Where is my man? My man, my man. We could do it for the collective, but it's for me. But who are doing for the collective? I just want one card to tell me what twenty

twenty four holls for me in love? One card. We're not gonna take all of those. I like how people be shuffling on TikTok and shit, I'm not that great of a shuffler. And forgive my little, my little congestion that I got going on Page of pinnacles. I'm looking like that because page is kiddish energy. It's not a bad thing, but page energy is

like very childish. But page energy is also like messages. This is also an opportunity somebody could be coming through with, like Okay, maybe it's gonna come through on a business tip at first, like hey, I got an idea, I got I got this going on. I can help you with your stuff whatever. You know what I'm saying. And we plant the seeds like that, so you know, I'm all for I'm all for it. I'm off for the growth over time. But page energy is you know,

like I said, that'd be. That's the little dog energy. Let's see, was there anything else in here that I needed to discuss with you guys? Master in your mind, that's that's the main thing. Mastering your mind and mastering your emotions is very important, because being a master of your mind is very important because you could spiral, you can go down a deep dark

hole. You know. We always see people talking about mental health and stuff like that on the internet, and again, you never know what somebody is going through, So being a master of your mind is very important. Uh. You know, I always mentioned like the self sabotage and the negative self talk with myself, like those are things that I really need to work on because the mind is a powerful tool, you know, and it's a terrible thing to waste, especially if you're not using it in the right manner.

So if you are a very negative or pessimistic person, like you know what I'm saying, shit could go a different way for you. But you got to learn how to turn it around. And that's why I'm so just adamant about my morning affirmations every morning and listening to guided meditations and really setting the because that really sets the tone for my day and It puts me in the right mind frame. Again. If you go to a motherfucking job that you hate every day, you're gonna be in that bitch like, oh, these

motherfucking customers. You know what I'm saying, Like, don't go into your day like that. Don't wake up and you know, speak that negative into existence. Today is gonna be a great motherfucking day. The work day gonna go by fast as fuck. You know what I'm saying. Be on your Jody from baby Boy. What was this? What was he talking about? Uh? What did he say? I forgot what the fuck he said for I'm the master of my ability whatever, you know that whole little speech he

did. So being a master of your mind is very important, the master of your emotions, because baby, crimes of passion are real, and I would I would never want that to be me, you know what I'm saying. I always talk about that on the podcast too, about how like I always used to say, like I, you know, I wish that I could be a person that was just real rye rah and just whatever, Like I do not want to be a hot head. I do not want to lose or risk my freedom or do some dumb shit in the heat of the

moment because of my emotion. Emotions are fleeting. Woman at you happy women that you said woman and you up, women that you down. You know what I'm saying. Shit changes, and you gotta be able to sit with that. You gotta be able to deal with that. You gotta be able to process that. How many people are in jail or that motherfucker made me mad? I killed it, like what you killed somebody because you know, like and again, those are forms of control. That's how somebody know they

got you, baby. If somebody can get if somebody got that mind control over debo, if somebody got you know, if somebody can get you off your square by fucking with you emotionally, you know what I'm saying, Like, that's a lot of control. That's a lot of power to have. And I want to maintain my shit. I want to be a master of my shit, my mind and my emotions. So that's very fucking important. Let me see if there is anything else that I have for you, guys.

A couple of text messages in here, Happy New Year, family, Get take me out the fucking group chat, guys. Please don't even send me. Don't send me Holiday text messages the Merry Christmas, Happy Thanksgiving, Happy New Year, like bro, same to you. Move the fuck on. I don't I hate it. I fucking hate it. M but send me all the happy birthday texts. It's niggas in my DM. Happy New ye bro, Happy New Year. Thanks, thanks guys, thanks uh niggas on my head in the DM. Thank you. I know I look good.

I know, I know, I know, but no, so yeah, I think I think that's it for me. I'm wrapping this up a little bit early, but yeah, that's pretty much it for me. As you can see, like I sound very congested on this fucking episode. I hope a bitch get better asap. I've been taking fucking been adrill at night. I don't really do shit but put you to fucking sleep. And I'm angry. I've been hangry since I got here. So I'm gonna wrap it. But yes, guys, that that's it for me and my New Years.

I hope that y'all had a wonderful New Year's Eve New Year's Day. I'm off work again tomorrow. I don't know what the fuck I'll be doing tomorrow, Probably just chill. I'll be chilling on my off days for real, I'm gonna go home today and do do a little more journaling. I'm gonna try to like just really my my focus is to get my money plans together and my saving and like what I'm really trying, like what Jazine, we need? We need to get this shit, you know what I'm saying.

I'm trying to have some shit to show for myself. So those are really my goals for the new year. And again, not worrying about how often you fuck up. If you fuck up, what when we're like every day is a new fucking day. And even if you fuck up right now, if you sit here and you acknowledge that in the moment, then okay, keep it fucking pushing, keep going. I fucked up. Oh well,

So that is all that I have for y'all. Make sure that y'all follow me on all platforms, Healing my homies on Instagram, black Girl Experience on TikTok, and YouTube. That is all I have for y'all. Hope y'all enjoyed this happy New Year.