What's up, y'all. Welcome back to the Black Girl Experience. I'm your host, Jasmin dan Yale. Today is Saturday, March fourth. My birthday was yesterday. It's been a hell of a week. It's been a hell of a day. Um Man, it's just so much. It's so fucking much. Um starting with my birthday. I had to cancel my birthday party because I, um, it was a fucking snowstorm yesterday, and so now we're still dealing with the remnants of that. You know, a lot of
niggas lost power. I saw a post on Instagram. I said, three hundred thousand people lost power. Thank god I didn't, and thank god that I was made aware of the snowstorm. I mean, I do be checking the weather, but I hadn't checked it, you know, for the party, because my y'all, like Detroit been smooth selling in this bitch with the weather like it probably didn't snow with a good two or three times a whole
fucking winter. So I just wasn't even expecting that. And so one of my home girls had told me a couple of days before, like girls, gonna be a real bad snow storm off Friday, and I'm like, what the fuck. So I had to make the executive decision to cancel the party. People had already bought tickets. I had to refund people that money. I had already put a lot of money into it, Like I had bought all of the decorations and all of the shit that I needed. I hadn't
paid for the food or like the drinks or nothing like that yet. And I didn't you know, I didn't pay you know, to rent the space yet, thank god. Um. And I had bought myself a cake, which I'm looking I didn't look at this cake two days in a row. I ate a slice, yesterday, I ate a slice to day. I'm like this big ass fucking cake. Who's gonna eat all this fucking cake? So, um, I was able to give my money back for like the decorations and shit like that. But another thing with the birthday, UM nine
gonna like yesterday. So yesterday I had taught a class on my birthday and um, during the day, you know ninety five, it's my slide in the class was really great, turned out, you know what, but not I try to throw me for a looping class. I got kind of thrown off because I M I created a new playlist for the class, and you
know, just trying to switch it up or whatever. I'm like, I don't want to keep playing the same fucking playlist, But I also feel like I'm in a space where Jasmine, you need to get comfortable with everything. So keep that same motherfucking playlist until you know what I'm saying, till it's time to really move on. You trying to do too much? You still you still in the beginnings that you just started teaching. It's probably like,
yo, what fourth maybe fifth class? You could keep the same playlist. Niggas is not paying attention like that, we're here for the yoga nigga. So I created a new playlist and the length of the songs wasn't matching up with how long I'm queueing the moves or how long niggas should be doing something. So that kind of threw me off. And then for whatever reason, like the speakers or the music whatever just kept fucking up, and I'm like,
oh, why are y'all doing this to me? So I ended I was able to go back to my original playlist and it ended up working out. But that was the only thing that really threw me. The class went really well though, I mean, you know, I had my little end, my little spiel at the end about my birthday, and I also talked about it on Instagram the sign. I also talked about the significance of turning thirty three. I guess I'll read, I guess I'll read all the little
post thirty three on three. Three is a true gift. Thirty three is a master number in the connection to the divine with enlightened influence, meant to guide and support humanity. Master number thirty three has the deepest desire to guide, teach, and nurture others. It's symbolical spiritual evolution. I'm currently walking into my greatest season. I could feel the transformative energy around my life. I have trusted my intuition and walk my path. This led to a journey
of healing. Every day I was working on healing myself and it has inspired so many others along the way. Black girl experiences every black girl's journey into the mental, emotional, and spiritual side of healing. Yoga fell into my lap when I needed it most. That encouraged me to heal physically. To whom much is given, much is required. I've accepted my gift and I will forever share with the world. Cheers to another year of life and leveling
up spiritually. Proud to say that I have become the best version of myself at thirty three. Three. Other people told me that their life changed when they turned thirty three, and I just really fucking believe it. You know, people say that thirty three is Jesus year. You know, unfortunately a lot of people die at thirty three. That's not where I'm going with it. But no, like when you think about shit like Nipsey Helseter that Nigga die when he was thirty three, like that type of shit, like thirty
three really is like spiritual evolution. And I just feel like that's where I'm at on my path, and you know, everything is really just coming together to me, and so that is like the driving force in my life right now. Like anytime anytime something try to throw me off, or anytime an obstacle tries to come into my way, I just keep coming back to the fact that everything is aligned. Everything is aligned. You gotta look at any
obstacle or anything that comes to throw you off your path. That shit is a fucking illusion. And you can I accepted, do not accept the illusion, do not accept the distractions, do not accept the obstacles. You got to overcome them, bitches. So yeah, three people had told me that their life changed one turn thirty three. Like I said, I just really believe that. So yeah, the party. I canceled the party. I was a little bit upset at first, and then I kind of came to
the realization about some things with that. So I had a long conversation with my homegirl, Panda, my favorite. I had a conversation with her, and she was just telling me, like, girl, if you don't treat yourself like the queen that you are, you know what I'm saying, do x Y and Z, do this, do that. It's about you. Whatever you want to do, treat yourself. And I really had to come back to that, and I think I kind of lost sight of my birthday.
Like I feel like I was really trying to do it for other niggas more than I was trying to do it for myself. I care more about the part party and more about what I was gonna do for other people versus what it was gonna do for myself. When I mean, of course, like I wanted a party. I haven't had a birthday party since my sweet
sixteen, so I was kind of excited about it. And it's also something that I had been putting in the air for a minute, Like I didn't talked about my birthday on Hella episodes on here like thirty three on three three. That's so I don't like a party. Like so I think I really just hyped myself up for it, even though I'm not even really like a party person at this point in my life. And so I'm like, Jazzmine, what is the gift for your birthday? What is the gift to yourself?
Like what? You know what I'm saying, what is this day about? And I had to think, like, it's really about me and for me, the gift nigga fucked. The party, fucked the outcome. The gift to myself was the gift of yoga. Complete my yoga teacher training program, becoming a certified yoga teacher, actually securing a job opportunity at the yoga
studio, you know what I'm saying. And to me, not to come from like a braggadocious or egotistical type standpoint, but being the first person out of my group to even you know what I'm saying, to have a job at the studio, so like, and again, I feel like all of that stuff is just a reflection of how much intention I put into what I was doing, how much work and you know, like nigga, blood sweat
and tears to be where I am today. And again, like when I wake up in the mornings on the days that I do teach, I'm waking up with so much fucking gratitude. I'm in the car on my way They're like, I'm so fucking happy that I'm waking up doing something that I love, you know what I'm saying. Just being able to pour into others but still being able to pour back into myself at the same time, Like I've
never been this happy in my life, you know what I'm saying. And again it goes back to just turning thirty three and everything really aligning and all of that, Like this shit, like I'm really watching my life change. So that's the gift, the gift of being able to teach. The gift is me accepting my gift from the universe, understanding that I do have a purpose and you're here for a reason. You are here to teach you are here to God. You are here to nurture, You are here to be
a light, you are here to shine you. You know what I'm saying, That's the gift. Fuck the party, Fuck the party, this is the gift. And then just the realization that, like bro, I worked so fucking hard for this, like you know what I'm saying, and niggas cannot Niggas can't take nothing from me. Niggas can't take nothing from me. So that's that. And you know, yes, it was a crazy as snowstorm yesterday. Oh I did end up treating myself. I treated myself to
a massage. I ended up going to Yen yoga right after that, treated myself to dinner and a drink, you know what I'm saying, and just whatever, Like the day was about me. And then I'm supposed to be doing some more stuff tomorrow, maybe another massage, whatever, yoga like whatever, but just a lot of fun ship but again, just treating myself. Another realization that I came to and I shared this um yesterday on Instagram.
I had a whole little praise break in the car because Stump came on by Kurt Franklin and I was just really feeling the fucking words, Like it was a very powerful moment, Like it was, bro what a whole moment when that song came on, and again I was just you know, reiterating the fact that, like, I really worked my ass off to get to where I am. So when y'all see these blessings raining down on your girl, don't wonder how why where none of that, nigga, because it was due.
It was due to me. Another thing that I had shared was just that, like, I'm very happy with where I am in my life right now, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, because I was not always here. It took a while to get here. And even though I am here,
I'm still learning every day. I still things are still being revealed to me every day about myself, about my path, about my past, about my patterns, about my childhood, about my traumas, Like this healing journey is never ending, fucking right, But I'm just learning so much about myself. So one thing that I said was that, you know, I'm just so happy that right now I don't have a narcissistic man in my life telling me
to dim my light, telling me to dim my celebration for myself. On my birthday, you know what I'm saying, or just slowly trying to tear me down or break me down. It's crazy when you realize it's kind of you know, And this goes for anything in life. I feel like a lot of times it's hard to see shit when you in it. Of course, of course, niggas from the outside looking in, it's gonna be able to tell you because they can see it, you know what I'm saying.
But when you end some shit, it's very hard to see, especially when niggas gradually do things to you, or they, you know, subtly, subtly do things to you, and then you look up one day and don't even know who the fuck you are, how you got there, how this happened, Like I'm not even the same person, no more so, m But you gotta look at your patterns. You gotta especially your dating patterns,
your romantic relationship patterns and all. You gotta look at that shit. But I was just saying that I'm so happy that I don't have a narcissistic man in my life. That's you know, them in my life. And it's so crazy because a lot of times, a lot of times it's so funny that this is what I've realized about, you know, the past, with my relationships and shit like that. It's that men, the men that pursue me, they lay it on thinking the beginning, They lay it on thick.
They love me, They love the person that I am. They love the personality, they love the aura, they love what I bring to the table. Oh my god, you're so great. You're so fucking great, until you're not great. The same person that you loved the door, admired the same the same things that you love me for are the same things that make you hate me when you get me. And then you don't want me to be that person no more. You don't want me to be jazzmine,
you don't. You don't want me to be podcasts, but you don't want me to be black girl experience. You don't want me to be the person that I am. And it's like, do you not even like me? Are you in competition with me? Why don't you want to see me shine when you know that I'm a light? So you know, on my birthday, being in the space that I'm at mentally, spiritually, and emotionally, I was just so happy like that I didn't have a hate nask nigga on
my backer in the corner, throwing dirt, throwing salt. Don't do that, don't post that, don't be yourself, you know what I'm saying, or just trying to tear me down on my on my fucking day, and it's salt. It's so fucking crazy. It's so fucking crazy. I've dealt with that my entire fucking life. When NI is my entire life, and God rest his soul. My first boyfriend, Chris King, that I've talked about on here before. Baby, when I tell y'all from day one,
niggas didn't I want to see me shine. I thought about this yesterday. I would never forget this that I had a hotel birthday party in the eighth fucking grade and my family allows him to come, not to stay the night, but just to come. You know what I'm saying, that's your boyfriend, he can come to the party. He did not want me to shine. This nigga took my birthday money for me at the party. I don't know if he gave it back or what. And I remember like getting into
it with him. The nigga took my money on my birthday? What type of person, bro, what type of person I look back at other relationships in my life and just how people feel like they always want to have one up on me. People don't want me to be successful, People don't want me to shine. People do certain things. People people do things and very like U I want to say, like low key manipulative ways, or you know, just very in an underhanded way. People would do stuff, throw
rocks and hide their hands. You know what I'm saying, in ways for you to not be successful or you know what I'm saying or whatever, and these I'm talking about romantic relationships. I'm talking about romantic relationships. I'm talking about niggas that would drink my bath water when they met me and then when they get me. Bitch, you should humble yourself. Not not that nigga ever said that, but basically, but you need to humble yourself. What
who are you? Who are you? But a nigga will have you feeling like at the at the end of a relationship, you'll be looking in the mirror like who am I? Who am I? Light gone? Light diminished? And that's why I can't really fuck with society. Not saying that I don't want to be married or no shit like that. I don't even know what I really want. I don't know what I want, but I'll tell
you what. I'd be more happy being an independent person by myself and being happy and having my peace within versus oh one of oh I gotta get married or I gotta keep up an image for the word like I don't want that because a lot of people don't be happy with that. And again, a lot of women can't even shine or be their their best self in a relationship because you gotta run behind a man and you got you know what I'm saying,
like, I don't want that. I don't want that. And another thing that just came up for me just like today, like a whole another situation. But it just really opened my eyes to a lot of my patterns and why I fall into certain situations. And this situation is not really a situation where a person is, you know, treating me one way in the beginning and then flipping the script. But just like it just opened my eyes to how I just fall into the same situations, and it made me think
about how I don't put myself first regardless of how I feel. One thing that has constantly come up for me in romantic relationships is that in this period across the board, I know I'm a very giving person. Y'all know I'll pour into everybody else. You know, I'm a genuine spirit it like I'm an overgiver. I'm a people pleaser, all of that shit. So think
about me being in my romantic relationships. Niggas is magnified times a thousand, Okay, overgiver, people pleaser, doing the most for niggas, all of that. And I've just realized that everything that I that I give to other people or that overgiven and all of that shit, not only does it dram your deplete me, but once should goes sour or whatever, it'd be back
to square one. Like, damn, I did all of this, I gave all of this, I was this to this person, and I'll be feeling like I'm left with nothing when in reality, I'm supposed to be giving all of that stuff to myself. I'm always over and given to other people. Jasmine overgive to yourself, people, please to yourself. Why the fuck don't you speak up for yourself when people do shit that you're not cool with? You know what I'm saying, why don't you, Why do you?
Why do you accept less than you deserve when you know what you deserve, when you know you're not capable of giving me this. I'm worth more than what you're presenting. I'm better than this situation. You know what I'm saying. But you stick around, or you you try to have sympathy for people, or you want to make shit work, or you know what I'm saying. So today I just kind of came to the realization that, like,
stand the fuck up, bro, stand the fuck up. And not to say that anybody is a bad person or anything like that, but I gotta put myself first because people are gonna always do that for themselves. And so I feel like being on this path of thirty three and um, you know, just feeling like I'm spiritually aligned and everything is swalling into place. It'd be little situations like that, that that tests me, that that that pulled my car, Like all right, bitch, you in alignment. Now,
let's throw a little let's throw a little something in the game. Let's throw a little something in again. Let's play a game. Let's play a game. Jasmine, You're in alignment. Now, you see the opportunities coming. You see the blessings raining down. Let's throw something in the game. Are you gonna go against how you feel? Or are you gonna stand up for yourself so that you can get some more blessings so you can continue on this
path and be smooth selling. We're giving you the signs. We're giving you the signs, were giving you the signs you see in the red flags, you see in the patterns. Bitch, we coming to you in your fucking dreams. Baby. If you if you're not ready to be on this path, I'm not gonna suggest or recommend that you get on it. If you're not ready to really get in tune with yourself and really get on your spiritual path, I'm not gonna I'm not gonna suggest that you do it. Because
this real shit over here. Baby. When when that shit start coming to you? When your dreams? And trust me, because you know I talked about this a couple of episodes ago where you know, I had a dream. I was on my Martin Luther King and I try to talk myself out of my dream. I try to talk myself out of what I already knew and and not fuck a dream, but just my intuition period, I will try to talk myself out of what I fucking know. I've been doing that
shit my whole life. I've been doing that ship with niggas since the first time I ever fucked with a nigga. Why do you do that? Why do you do that? Jasmine? And That's what I'm saying, Like I really, after I cut a lot of certain a lot of niggas off, where I cut certain energy off out of my life, I started to see a shift. I started to see a change. I started to see how I was getting on a path to alignment right now, I'm talking about recently.
I'm talking about very recently, But getting on that path, it's hard. It's hard to let go of that ship. But it's like, baby, I was drowning in the toxicity. That shit is all fun in games. That shit feel good, you know what I'm saying, for the time being. But then when you start to see the effects of what it does to you mentally, spiritually, emotionally, physically, that shit is not fun. So that's why I don't understand. First of all, y'all know that
it's power in the tongue. I don't understand why people walk around and be like, I'm on demon time. I'm toxic, I'm tired. Like that shit is not fucking cute. Number one, We're grown as fuck because that shit is not cute. Number two, there's power in the fucking tongue. Why do you want to be on demon time? Why you want to all you a demon? I don't want to fuck with no nigga talking about he a demon that scares me, that scares the light in me, Nigga,
It's very angelic over here. I'm walking around with a halo on in this bitch. I don't don't. I don't want nothing to demonic on me, near me, in me. Imagine what that shit do to you. So being able to step away from certain situations and see how the shift in my life, to see how shit changes, To see how good I feel when I'm around like minded individuals, to see how good I feel when I'm around
my tribe. To see how good I feel, you know, just in certain environments, versus how I feel when I'm with toxic people, when I'm with people that I know I shouldn't be with what I'm doing, some shit I shouldn't be doing. You know what I'm saying, and then again the remnants of that stuff. So when I go to yoga in the morning and I'm drinking a smoothie and all of that, there's a remnants that comes with that. Throughout the day. You continue to vibrate high, you on a
certain vibration. Go fuck with a toxic nigga. Go do some shit you ain't supposed to be doing. It's gonna be a remnant from that in your life. You're gonna feel that shit, You're gonna see that ship the shit around. It's gonna show in your life. So, like I said, it's all funny games. So we on't demon time. We're doing this whatever, Yeah, nigga, until you like, all right, nigga, my life I'm drowning in toxicity. Bro. I feel like something has a hold
on my fucking life. Bro. That shit, that shit don't feel good. So that but aside from that, just again just seeing myself keep I keep being presented with certain situations and baby, the enter me, the little jasmine in me is screaming like, bitch, please stand up for me, speak up for me. When you feel a certain type of way, speak on that shit, do that shit, like walk away from what don't serve you? If something don't make you feel a hundred percent, baby, it's
not for you. Why do you want to stay in spaces that broke you, that make you feel less than that don't give you what you need, even though it might feel good or it might feel whatever, Like, why do you do that? Too? So, and I'm not saying that all people or every person that I don't was a bad person. I'm not saying that, but you know a lot of times some of them niggas will is bad. But also I just noticed like the more that I communicate, the
more that I speak up for myself, I activate that chakra. Uh you know what I'm saying. The more I can get out of people, the more I could get people to understand. And that's another thing you ought to stand on all ten with motherfuckers. Okay, So when I'm having these conversations with people, and not only am I getting them to see my point of view, but I'm getting I'm getting people to understand the truth of the matter. You're saying one thing, but you're showing me another. It's not adding
up. Is that fair to me? Is this fair to me? You're saying this but is this fair to me? You're saying this, but you're not showing this. You're saying this, but you know what I'm saying. The little jasmine in me is like, yeah, yeah, bitch, stand up. Only deal with things that make you feel good. Only deal with things that are going to keep you on this thirty three path. Only deal with shit that's gonna keep you on this path to alignment. You know what
I'm saying. Like, But again, I don't totally place blame on other people, because one thing that I always say on here is that you gotta understand and recognize that we are a co creator in every situation in our life. You have to take accountability. You have to take responsibility for the role that you play. Shit don't just happen to you. It's happening for you, But shit don't just happen to you, Nigga. You play a part. You play a part. A lot of people don't want to take accountability.
A lot of people are not self aware, a lot of people don't want to do the work. And one thing that I'm not gonna do is do the work for you, because i have my own fucking work to do, and I've done a whole hell of a lot. And that's what I said on Instagram yesterday. Wh don't talk about niggas, can't take ship for me and all of that, Like I really did work. When I tell y'all, this is my real fucking life. The ship that I speak about, this is my real fucking life. And if you meet me, if
you see me, if you are around me, you know it. You know that it's real because energy don't lie. And Nigga, my nigga, you you could purp on the ground, but if you if you really know somebody in real life, didn't you know how they live in I'm a walking testimony of my life. Black girl experience is my real fucking life. This healing journey, my real fucking life. I've been doing this shit for years, nigga, and I really didn't even at a lot of the times.
A lot of the times, I didn't even understand what was happening. I didn't even know what type of path I was on. I didn't even know where I was going in life, nigga. I was just getting swept up by the current of life, not even like you know what I'm saying, just in it. Because again, when you in it. You can't really see what's happening. You don't really know what's happening. But I'm grateful for every individual in my life. I'm grateful for every person in my life weren't
bad. I'm grateful for all the situations that didn't work out, for all the niggas that did me dirty, all the niggas that didn't meet bold, because that led me to where I was supposed to be, and that actually gave me strength. Even though I felt like that ship was breaking me the fuck down, it was really building me the fuck up. And once you get to a certain place in your life and you really understand your value and your worth and what you want, and again I'm telling you this self.
Love of journey ain't no hole nigga. I was telling somebody today, I cried today, and I'll be honest. Parent moment I could not like boohoo praying, but I cried today. I shed tears today with a person that I barely even know, and they apologize to me. They told me what I did didn't deserve and all of that. But I told them, you don't gotta feel bad for me, because everything that I'm experiencing in this moment is because of me, and I'm aware of that self awareness. This is
happening because this is a pattern for me. This is what I do. I keep ending up in situations like this. Why because there's something that I need to change. There's something that I need to do. When I tell y'all that I'm an overgiver and whatever, and I do. I do want compaign ship, I do want love, But what I need to understand is that I have to give that stuff to myself. My cup is still not fool yet, and that's my problem. A nigga had eighty percent and I'm
over here trying. Oh well, let me pour a little in your cup. Let me let me give you something. No letting niggas pour into their own cups. Baby, You at eighty percent, you need to keep pouring into yourself. Get to a hundred first. But first, yeah, not even a hundred, nigga. When you get to that overflow is when niggas can start grabbing shit up. You know, you put your cup on. My little tea cup right here is on a plate. When the water is
pouring over. You could bring your cup over and put it up under that bitch and get some water at that point in the overflow. But I'm not even there yet. Yeah, I'm gonna keep getting my feelings hurt. I'm gonna keep getting the dagger to the heart until I pour into myself fully, until I show up for myself fully, until I deal with my insecurities fully. And I'm cool with that. I'm cool with being able to say that what did make me happy? You know what really makes me happy. It's
hearing the truth about myself from other people. Just knowing that, you know, even though a lot of times people take my kindness for weakness or I get taken advantage of or whatever, at the end of the day, niggas is gonna give me my flowers. Don't like damn Jesine, I ain't gonna lie. You were a solid ass individual. You were a real ass, and you got a good ass her your genuine as fuck. My best friend put on my birthday post, she said that what's she saying something about like
she's the purest human that I know. I don't give a fuck about any talking about Oh you got to drip on this my whatever. We'll be in the club popping bottles that are Somebody told me I'm the purest human. They
know. I take pride in that somebody told me that I'm the first person that has come in today life that actually cared about them, don't want nothing from them, that I was pouring into them, that I was helping them, that I was you know what I'm saying, being a being a positive person to them, that's the type of shit that I care about, you know what I'm saying. And again, but being all of that to other
people when I really need to be that to myself. So again, being on this this path, this thirty three, this year, the blessings and just you know, really filling a line and all of that. When the obstacles come, when when that illusion hit, when all of this shit hit, when them red flags pop up, it's like, hey, do not proceed, nigga, do not proceed because how many times have you been through this before? How many times do you gotta do this? How many times
have you gotta hit your head? How many times? Like I don't want to keep doing that, man, I don't want to keep living that life. I don't want to have to keep learning unnecessary lessons. I don't want to keep hurting myself. I don't want to keep putting myself through shit that I don't have to go through just because it feels good in the moment. You know what I'm saying, Like, it don't be worth it. It
don't be worth the heartache, It don't be worth the pain. It don't be worth the like in the end, like damn, I gave my oil or I gave this and like really never got nothing in return. That shit does not feel good. So I am just trying to stay on my path and I'm just trying to continue to focus on myself, stay prayed up, stay affirmation, to stay focused, keep doing my yoga every day because that shit is a lifestyle and it helps with my mental stability, my spiritual stability,
my physical stability. You know what I'm saying. It makes me feel grounded, It wakes me up, it gives me purpose. I enjoy it like I enjoy teaching, and I enjoy being that forever, like you know what I'm saying, Like, and then it's just a fucking by period. So my birthday was cool. Like I said, I got to treat myself. I got to I had a moment with myself to really just reflect on what does my birthday mean? To me. And that's another thing, like,
like, what does my birthday mean to me? And not even just you, your butherfucking birthday. So even for y'all, not just your birthday. Of course, be all about yourself on your birthday, celebrate yourself, go all out whatever, treat yourself. But nigga, fuck a birthday. Treat yourself like that. Every day, Nigga, act like every day is your birthday. Act like every day is a reason to wake up and smile and be like nigga another day in this bitch, like every tree, every
day like your birthday. And another thing that I realized, like I always feel like I do have good energy for the most part. You know, some days you got your off days where you're not gonna feel like that. But for the most part, I definitely feel like I always carry good energy with me with everywhere I go. I feel like I light up a room. I feel like I'm a positive person. Blah sah blah. But on my motherfucking birthday, nigga, when I tell you, I live up every
room I was in. When I was at Coney Island, eat my food I was in that bitch had Nigga, just oh my god, oh my god. And it's your birthday, Oh my god. But like, just the energy when I walked in a gas station. Baby, the gas station is probably the most low vibrational place on the fucking earth. Like, I don't know, trust me, when you want the gas station, it's just low vibes, nigga, low fucking vibes when I went in that bitch, because you know, I played the lottery, I played my numbers for my
birthday, all that shit. But baby, just the inner that I brought in, like I could tell that I was just lightening up everybody else, making everybody else feel good. Niggas was talking to me, and niggas like oh whatever. And again I did bring up the fact that it was my birthday. But again that's what I'm saying, like, don't just go around with that energy because it's your birthday and it's like, you know whatever, that's cool, But go around with that energy every day and see how you
change. You know what I'm saying, because again, say you walk into the gap. First of all, Again, the gas station being the lowest vibration on the fucking earth most times, niggas being their drunkest hill whatever, you know, whatever, but imagine walking into the gas station and somebody just coming here just energy just off bad as fuck, Like you know what I'm saying. Think about it, how think about how it affects other people.
So imagine if you walk into the gas station with high vibes, with good energy and you're putting that off every that Again, it transferred. Energy is not created or destroyed. It's only transferred. So wherever you go, give a good energy period, whatever you put out into the universe, you're gonna get it back tenfolds. It may not come when y'all wanted to, it may not come when you ass It's gonna come when you need it, though, And baby, when they come back, it's gonna rain. It's gonna
rain on you. And I just feel like that's where I'm at in my life right now, Like that ship is just raining on me. Period. Blesses, the rain down on may la la la la la if all oh man rain down man if all rain period rain period Right Like, I'm there, I'm here, I'm here, I'm here. I'm present for all of my blessings. I'm present for all of my abuntance. I'm present for all of the prosperity coming to me, nigger. I'm here, I'm here, I'm in the moment. Thank you, I'm here, I see it,
I receive it. It's mine like I worked for this. I work to get to this motherfucking moment. So excuse me while I shine. And if you got a problem with it, that's just an indicator that you need to figure out what the fuck is going on with yourself. Shout out to Kat from the trap. I appreciate her. She kept telling me the other day. She was like girl. She just kept telling me, like you really a light, like you just really a good person. She's like, girl,
you that girl. She kept saying that to me. You that girl. And I'm like, thank you. And I think that number one. I was just grateful to hear somebody tell me that. You know what I'm saying, to acknowledge my light, to acknowledge my shine, to give me my flowers. A lot of people don't do that. But again, the light in me sees the light in you. I see the light and Cat
too, you know what I'm saying. So for her to be able to give me that respect and to give me that acknowledgement, I see that in her as well, you know what I'm saying, But it just felt really good to hear somebody say And when I say, she kept saying it to me like you that girl that she just kept bringing in my head like you that girl. And I'll be telling myself that too sometimes. But it's like you need to tell yourself that all the time. Jasmine, you are that
fucking girl. That's why the role was so fucking hard. That's why the struggle was so fucking tough. Because you are that girl, Nigga. That shit ain't just gonna be given to you on a silver platter. Nigga, you don't have to go through you don't have to go through the trials and the tribulations. You're gonna have to rise from the ashes like the phoenix. Why, because you are that girl. I'm the one that got away for
a lot of niggas. You know something, I ain't gonna lie. There have been times in my life where I just sit and I think, like dang, you know, I internal lot shit like dang, why did he do this? Or why did this happen? Or did he not see who? Did he not see my light? Did you not know? I would he ran away? From you, Jasmine, because you are that girl. He's not one hundred percent of his masculine energy. He's not there. He's not he hasn't come to that place of self awareness. He's still a and
afraid little boy. You scared. I scare a lot of niggas. I intimidate a lot of niggas. Why because you are that girl? When I sit and I wonder why the niggas that pursue me and admire me and adore me try to break me down? Why do they do that? Because you are that girl and they're not there. They're not mentally strong enough in their own masculine energy to be the man that that you know what I'm saying. They're not there yet. You are that girl.