Pluto the Series EP 2 Pt 1: Spy vs Spy

Hello and welcome to Big GAY Energy. I'm Caitlin and I'm Fiora. Come along with us while we dive into the fun and nuances of queer media. Representation matters, and we're here to talk about it. Cheers. Queers, what's on the big agenda today, Theora Today we are continuing our very lengthy and very entertaining, we hope, deep dive into Pluto the series. So today we will be starting episode 2.

It's gonna be a fun time. I mean, we don't really start this episode that fun, but you know, it's just gonna be fun and enjoyable to talk about the whole show. Of course there's there's flirting in this episode, like let's like intentional flirting. That's fun. No, there's some very fun stuff. There is fun stuff. There's just some trauma to get through. Of course there is. Why wouldn't we wouldn't be here if there was a trauma to get through.

OK, so just a few quick Pluto related announcements. First one is we still have our giveaway going on. So we have a mug from Pluto from GMO TV that we're going to do as a giveaway and one of the Pluto candles that shows up in the show fairly frequently that we're also doing as a giveaway.

At the time of this recording, we're not sure how we're doing this, but you should check out our social media because we'll be posting over there how you can participate and potentially win one of the Pluto merch items.

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hard to get episodes on there. So anyway, all right, Speaking of YouTube, so before we drive into the episode, there's one comment I want to bring up for one of our fairly long time listeners, Snakes not Eyes. Thank you for always giving us your insight into everything, especially the Thai girl of shows like your insight and opinions are super valuable, period. OK, this listener left this on

one one of our US episodes. I think that just came out recently, but it's applicable now and I just wanted to bring it up. So thank you. Shout out to you. So here's the listener said I've been thinking about all these Thai series serieses and I think it's interesting slash significant that the vast majority have AC plot of one of their characters families being specifically dysfunctional or broken because the protagonist and parental figure don't understand each other.

I and me mom. That's why I'm bringing it up now. And the resolution of the main storyline involves a reunification and strengthening of the family unit through mutual cross, generational understanding and the promise of better communication. Dang, Thailand, while being politically progressive when it comes to career rights, is still in parentheses according to Thai people. Very conservative in many ways. That combination makes me refocus that these are Thai

stories. Maybe what it maybe what that means is reinforcing the family dynamic in order to have these stories told to wider audiences. I also think that Buddhism and karma play a really big role in what we perceive to be an undeserved happy ending. This is also way longer than I wanted, which is every part of the post anyway. I remember. Reading this, I'm like, no, don't, don't feel like it's too long. Keep going. We want to hear everything.

Have you heard the. I mean, obviously you've heard the podcast. Just keep going. Yeah. No, this is your target audience for really big opinions. All right. Any thoughts on that, Caitlin? I thought it was relevant to Pluto and just in general. No, it's really relevant to every single show. I can't really think of anything off the top of my head that it's not relevant to because even like 23.5, it's not like the generations, but like even the family still get stronger at the end.

Yeah. I just, I like the part that Snakes on Eyes is trying to, like, bring up, which is that like, these are Thai stories. You have to remember that because like, yeah, like we are, we acknowledge that we are not of the Thai culture. We grew up in America. So like our lenses vary through the American experience, for better or worse. So thank you for that, bringing that up. Like these are Thai stories. Karma is. Yeah. Karma I forget about because that's not super on my mind all

the time. So like I appreciate you bringing that up just to be like, hey, when you're watching this, remember like the culture is relevant and perhaps there is a, there is a move to shift the lens a little bit so it is applicable to a wider audience potentially since there is an international audience out there that is reachable not just like not just America, but like just like throughout the Asian continent too, that perhaps like if you dilute your culture to

make it more widely applicable that you'll get a bigger audience globally. So like that could be going on within the studios. Like I mean in America it's always like that they're like, how do we reach the most generic audience possible? Cuz money. So maybe that could be playing into certain. Maybe perhaps the way GMMTV adapts things too, they make it more like you can identify, identify, but like connect even if you're not of the culture because of how they kind of like

adapt things. So maybe that's why you respond to GMMTV, how it they also format it and change things to make sure like the entire family can watch it too. So they're really trying to get as the widest audience possible. But that is such a good point that like the C plot does have to do with the family dynamic because family is really important in many, many cultures and and Thai cultures included.

And it yeah, I like the I like the insight that like communication is usually the the answer to what's going on there. So like, this is such an insightful comment. I just want to throw that out there. Thank you Snakes Out of Eyes for all of your participation. Thank you for telling us. Hey, refocus. These are Thai stories. I appreciate that as well. Yeah. I mean, it's very easy for us to forget that. And we do try to rein ourselves back in and feel like it is Thailand.

We do know that there are aspects that we don't not we don't understand. We just we can't live that part of their culture. So thank you any, anytime you anybody listening want to let us know what is actually going on. Feel free to tell us that what we're saying is wrong in a nice way and it we're very easily to be open minded or open minded. That's what I was looking for. Yes. Our life experiences skew how we're going to view things.

So thank you for bringing that perspective back to the podcast. All right, and with that, let's dive into Part 1 of episode 2 of Pluto. So this episode we're going back. So we do a flashback when I and Umm are a little the little baby actors. Little baby I and Umm show up again. I just want to say I love them. I love these little actors. First of all, they're adorable. They are, but they also they're a really a substantial part of the show. They get quite a few scenes they do.

And we also don't know anything about the sisters relationship. So they have this big role of showcasing this relationship when UMM is not able to, you know, talk right now because she's in a coma. So not only are they showing us their relationship, but the little Oom actress is showing us everything we know about Oom. That's a lot to put on a child. That's a really good point that the most dialogue we get from Oom for a while is the child Oom.

That's a really good point. Well, because like this is the it's because this is the Oom eye knows and we're this is all eyes journal entries, which is that's true. So it's still skewed. Absolutely. It's not actually what we get it. We get. OOM later. And it's why I have so many unresolved feelings about OOM because we're seeing OOM through eyes perspective, yes.

See, not only in this show are we really have to keep in mind the culture and differences like that, but now we have to keep track of whose point of view we're in, especially later in the show. Right now we are fully in I's point of view. OK, so I is telling us through her journal entry a time when she was little and her mother is reading her a bedtime story. And UMM is absent from this reading because UMM is sick in the hospital.

And we enter the scene when Mom is reading the line and the Prince and Princess lived happily ever after, which this episode is like the theme of fairy tale, basically. And I I thought this was an interesting memory because remember, this is I's journal. So I remembers this moment. And I think it's really interesting that this is the story bedtime story she's remembering because later on she's in this episode, she's going to start calling Mae her

Princess and all this stuff. And the novel she ends up creating at the end is about a Prince and a Princess. And it's like the stand in for her in May. So I think it's it's really interesting that like this is the story she remembers as a kid. I mean, she was always just trying to escape maybe just once that fairy tale life. I think that I just always had a really creative brain and it just she didn't realize it. That's true, but that's a good point.

Escapism because like what what's going on here? Her her response to the story is really interesting and and revealing because mom finishes reading she's like, oh ah, you're still awake you're supposed to fucking fall asleep. That's why I read this story and I was like, well I wish that I'm sad because I wish umm was here to hear the story with me so I think this is really telling because at this point I misses her sister and just wishes her sister was here It's not about

the story. She just wishes her sister was here to hear the story with her and it's again it's about a Prince and Princess which later becomes I in May. And like again, UMM is third Wheeling the whole time. Like poor, Umm, you know, poor. Umm.

I seriously more UMM, I love UMM, I feel so bad for UMM but this the whole this whole scene with with I and the the Prince and Princess stories just admit and the way she's it's not about the story, it's about that she wishes her sister was with her to hear the story. It makes me wonder if part of the reason that I love stories so much because at this time I really loved stories and that's something UMM confirms later.

And I wonder if I loved it because she's like it was a way to bond with UMM because the thing she's like I just wish UMM was here. It's not about I don't care about the story. I wish my sister was here. So it's almost reads the scene that I doesn't enjoy the stories as much when she doesn't have someone to share it with.

And later on, like her love of like in the present, when we go back to her and navigating the Doom shenanigans with May, her loves, her love of novels is really rekindled because May initiated it in the last episode where she used stories as a way to bond with I. And then later on when we get an Oom flashback, we learn that Oom liked stories only because I liked them. So it's like stories become this way that people bond with each other. And I think that's beautiful because that is what

storytelling is like. Storytelling is a very human thing that's been going on for thousands of years. And and it is a way that humans bond with each other. So I like the way that's woven into this, into Pluto. Yeah, that's a really good point. It's also another thing of if not if we both talked, like, we could have probably found something else to bond over to. But yeah, storytelling in general. I mean, that's why we're here. This is how we bonded.

And this is how we're bonding with a lot of audience members, too. And I mean, the media is powerful. Yeah, I know the Chow's novel brought us all together. Let's be honest. Like, that's why we're here right now. We are brought here today by Chow, by Chow Chow and her novels. No, it's really, really true. OK, so then after that scene, we cut over. We're still in the flashback with little baby, little baby

twins. And then we cut over to the hospital where UMM is and dad is there watching over UMM, Mom brings I they sidebar, they get no wines. These people like it's just like the parents are so unimportant. Well, actually, mom read the read the the story, but dad gets no wines. Like they were so unimportant at GMMPV. They're like, no, you don't even need lines. Do they have names who knows that were spoken out loud? Did they pay these actors less? That's all. I was going to break that up.

It's mom and dad. This is Disney, Mom and dad. Yeah, it's Disney. This is Disney. We're going to off them. So get a sash. OK, so I tells us in the voice over, which is again, remember voice overs for the most part are her journal entry. She's telling us that UMM has spent her entire life in and out of the hospital. And we don't know why UMM was

ill exactly. It's not super explained, but I imagine that UMM had some kind of like chronic ailment where she would cycle in and out of like good health, bad health. So that's why she was like in and out of the hospital. But what? But that aside, what this is establishing is that UMM was quote, like the weaker sibling because of this ailment she was living with.

And therefore she needed more support because of that from both her parents who are doing these like, trading shifts at the hospital and her big sister, right. And to eyes credit, like even when she was young, because this is baby eye like without any kind of complaint or resentment, she willingly adopts the role of supportive older sister for

room. Yeah, I think definitely from having to be there for her sister growing up that had just rooted her need to take care of others and make sure they're OK before her. I and this, I know this is going to be like a skewed viewpoint, but I in my experience, I've always heard parents and adults say like, make sure you take care of your sibling, like help them and do this. You're going to do all this for them.

So I wonder if she was kind of pushed into that slightly, like not like you have to do this for her, but then she just took on that responsibility. And then it could also be that she was shown praise from that and respect at maybe from like the grandma or something like that, where it caused her to subconsciously keep chasing that approval from those people, so from like parents or grandma. And that just reinforced her need to take care of people even more.

Yeah, definitely. This seems like it was a very formative time for I because that's partially why she remembers it so vividly. And this like, seems to be at least these flashbacks seems to. It's kind of explain how you get adult I in her personality. So I think that's all super valid, what you said. What's also interesting because especially at this age, you remember things vividly. But I know some of my stuff that I remember vividly was dreams

that I had at this age too. So like, that's like another, we won't get into it, but like, it's like, how much is she actually remembering? Or what has her brain made a memory or a fantasy? Because as we'll come to see, eye is a eye is a natural storyteller. And she's pretty fantastical in her stories. So it's possible that this is, you know, fabricated to a degree because she's remembering it like 20 years later.

So very valid. OK, so all right, so we get this sweet moment in the hospital with the family supporting UMM, and then GMMTV decided to get the death roll going by taking out I and Umm's parents in the next heartbeat. Immediately, immediately, they're just like, hey, look at how sweet this family is death. And it's not who you think. It's not the person who was in the hospital. Well, thank you first of all. But I guess the parents get to go then. Yeah, parents are first of the

death roll. And so we shoot over to their funeral where Baby Eye and UMM are huddled together crying. And it's pretty significant how they're positioned. So like, UMM is leaning all of her weight onto I, and I has her like arm wrapped protectively around UMM, showing what their sibling bonding was like this at this time. Whereas I is the support system for UMM and like willing again, willingly and not resentfully does that.

And because they're at a funeral, they're both wearing black because that's the, the morning color and, and Thai culture and pretty commonly in a lot of cultures. But I, I, I want to point out that they are wearing the same color and I understand it's because it's a funeral and like that's the color you wear at the funeral, but which makes sense.

But like for I and UMM, they are very consistently and contrasting colors, like very consistently throughout the season or throughout the series rather. And and we never see them matching. Their parents were not like the kinds were like let's match our twins. Like no, the twins were always

opposite colors. And I think that if you, you know, as we get into the scene, the scene is like really like where the rift starts between UMM and I. So I think that the fact that they're in the same colors adds a layer to the scene that really, like, reinforces, like this was the last moment where I and UMM, were on the same page before their sibling bond fractures. And that perhaps is another reason I remembers it so distinctly. That's plausible there.

It's also the same exact shirt. I mean, it's just a T-shirt, so. Yeah. But still. All right. And then. And then the adults show that they're trash. So some randos, why are they even at this funeral? Some randos are at the funeral and they're loudly talking trash about their family. And basically they're like, well. The reason the parents died is because of boom. Basically they're like they had to take their sick child to the hospital or whatever the fuck

and like what the fuck was this? They're like loudly saying this by the children in the funeral. Like, I'm sorry, not people, the the little children even make sure to look at them. How do you not notice these little children who are the children of the people's funeral that you're at? Like, I feel like you'd be more in tune with, you know, the children that are suffering right now because their parents are dead. They're looking at the kids when they're talking. It's not like they don't

recognize the kids are there. They look at them and give, like, judgmental glares towards, umm, OK, yeah. They're just trash. They're just trash humans. And you know whose fault this is? GMMTVS, because no parents die in this novel. So they decided to give us this scene for extra trauma, OK. OK, but. We do need to talk about something else really quickly and that is the fact that they say I heard the car was overturned while taking the child, their child to the hospital.

So it makes it sound like UMM is in the car and I'm just confused how the parents died. But UMM is sitting here and she seems fine, mostly physically. And that is an amazing question I do not know the answer to because this is made-up. GMT made this up to get rid of the parents, basically cause more trauma between the twins. Yeah, I know that's a great question. It could be that like, I don't know, something weird happened. Maybe like they smashed into

something. So the front, everybody in the front was harmed. The back wasn't harmed in the car. Or it could be that like the translation is off and maybe they were on their way to see UMM who was safely in the hospital, which seems unlike well, maybe Grant Mima was there cuz like they they seem to always leave somebody with her cuz she's a minor. Yeah, maybe cuz I'm like maybe they followed an ambulance. And again, only in my maybe experience, one person can be in

there. So maybe grandma was there too and went and said parent and like the parents were following. Yeah. But if anybody Ty speaking, can just let us know if that translation is fully correct or if there was like a gap there, that'd be great. The gap. Yeah, just let us know. Sorry, I knew I was going to get you. Yeah. Overtime.

OK, but here's let's go going back to the randos who are loudly saying all this stuff while looking at Umm and I OK, so I think that that gives us the next part of the scene, which is the meemaw appears and then we get the seat because this is eyes journal entry where she comes in and it's like, Oh my God, umm, it's fine, it's totally fine.

Umm And she like pulls umm into her body and like basically rips her away from eye because I and umm were like, you know, I was holding on to Umm. And then grandma removes eye from Umm's grasp and they let go. And this eyes sad little voice over. It's like today we let go of our hands was like the turning point of my life and that was it and this and that and like little eye looks so dejected and trauma advertised by this, the letting go of her twin sister, which yes, sad.

And I think that this was totally inadvertent because I think Meemaw overheard the randos being like, wow, umm, you killed your parents. And so she comes in and she's like, no, umm, it's not your fault. Like I think that's what Meemaw was doing and that's why she was so focused on umm and not I because like umm, heard these randos being like you killed your parents. So I think that's what happened in the scene.

But I missed all of that and was just like, wow, she took my sister away from me and doesn't love me. But I think that's not what Meemaw was trying to do. I think she was like, fuck those adults. How dare you say that in front of oh, like she should have yelled at those motherfuckers. Oh my gosh, I wish you would have just slapped them. Hit her with it. There's a time you were too polite. You need to slap more people. We're such Americans, we're always advocating for those people.

I know the amount of episodes we have like just slap them. Just slap them at the telenovela. They would also get slapped or like they would drink all that. True, that is true. Something trip them by just could you imagine Meemaw just like everybody's walking and like just slightly puts out her foot and then they stumble. That was super funny. I actually see that just randomly. OK, but.

I just, I feel like Mima could have at least put a hand on Oom just to be there for her to you mean I but yeah, I sorry. But again, in Mima's defense as well, for this whole situation, she is also grieving a child here. Yeah, exactly. She also hasn't had to parent children and so long and like doesn't know what like this will be a defining moment for I you never know what a defining moment in a child's life, which is terrifying when you're in

charge of children. But let's go back to when they took their like they got separated in their hands because little baby child I Oh my God, it's just looking at her hand. That part broke me. It's so sad. It is the the only comfort that she had in this moment was taking care of her sister. Yes, so that was her like, oh, that's my role, I have something to do right now. And I'm sure that was part of a distraction for her.

Now she has nothing and she's just left without, like, cold, because now she doesn't even have the warmth of, umm, leaning against her. And it's so sad. It's so sad. Yeah. I just. I mean, I think that's why I remembers this so vividly, because this was a defining moment for her. This is when she started to feel like the Pluto of the family, right? She's there, but everyone forgets she's there.

Good job. Ciao. And I think that the other part from I is like, this is really the moment where she started down the path of self-reliance because she saw that like grandma now or, you know, their one living relative is solely there for umm. I think that's what the message she got from this. And she's like, oh shit. Like I'm on Maya. Not only she just lost all of her parents, but like, yeah, now her sister's being taken away from her.

So I is kind of being told indirectly like you're on your own kid, like good luck, whatever, no hugs for you. And so I think this is also when the seeds of envy. For. OOM start planting an eye because I is being denied what she wants most, which is love. And it's all all of it is going to Oom.

And that's what's going to make the May stuff really complicated because I is constantly like I feel this for me, but it's really for Oom and all the love in her life has always been directed at Oom. And like that resentment really started parts here with the eye and Oom and like love from other people basically. Also in a way it was I not feeling like she was enough to take care of boom, because now me in law had to come over and comfort her.

So she's like, oh, was I not doing it well enough? That's true. There's so much going on there. I know porn never know the eye how a child processes things too. And we're not I'm not going to get into Umm's perspective when it comes to the scene because later we will get Umm's perspective on this whole scene. So we'll just stick with meme on I for now and just move on with the anything else about the scene before we move back to the present. OK, cool.

So let's go back to the present. So if you all recall from the last episode, which was 10 hours ago when we were recording this, basically I slept over in May is by accident essentially. And it's the morning after and she got that call from Jan. And so she's out in the hallway and they had that conversation where Jan's like, girl May is super suspicious. Maybe she caused the car accident.

And so Jan explains in this scene that like, listen, I she is like an unofficial detective and she's like, I was hanging out. What was she doing? She's like hanging out at the police station somewhere. And she's like, I overheard the cops gossiping by the water cooler. No, actually she was at the funeral again, over like lingering with cops. And basically the the police think that this could have been

an accident. I mean, this could have been intentional and not purely accidental because there was a phone call that happened and Paul's family is real hell bent on keeping this thing quiet and everything just seems kind of suspicious. OK, OK. But people just need to shut up at funerals. That's what we're getting. Literally, that's the whole lesson of the episode. Like just shut up. Why are we talking about stuff at a funeral? You go there. Actually, you know what?

I have never been to a Thai funeral. In my experience with funerals, you go there, you try to make yourself feel better and comfort the family, pay your respects and get out. You don't sit there and be like, oh, it was definitely this person's fault. And you know, this could have all been avoided. There's something nefarious here.

Oh, why are the cops so Willy nilly talking about the I guess maybe they were talking to Meemaw and maybe that's what it was because I was like, who are they talking to? It had to be a family member. They were divulging this. So maybe they were talking to Meemaw, but like the way that funeral's not the place to have this conversation. But you know, no, no, because the family members as well, right? It just seems rude to me, Ma.

But again, this is all GMMTV's fault because there wouldn't be a funeral if you stuck with the novel, which I'm glad you didn't because you're GMMTV and you, you got this. That's fine. We love you. You got this. OK, so let's go back to Jan and I. So Jan recruits I into this investigation she's got going on into Umm's accident and she's like gives I an ultimatum basically.

And that's what gets I to participate where she's like listen girl, if you don't come to the police station, you're the worst big sister in the world. And we all know that I cannot resist that and will never abandoned her big sister duty. So that means she'll show up, which is also a terrible threat. Like come on now. Stop ruining eyes mental health every single time. Listen, it's like Jan is Oom's paying or she's like, I'm ride or die for OOM. I you're just here because I

need to help OOM. And that's so like, yeah, she's more insensitive towards I. Come on, we're here for I right now and we are here for I right now. I mean, look at her. How could you not be so swoon for ioon? That's what we say. That's our motto on this podcast anyway.

So May emerges from the bedroom as I is wrapping up this phone call with Jan. And then I not so smoothly starts this like spy versus spy conversation where basically they're both being suspicious of each other kind of in their dialogue. And anyway, so May and I basically both prod to see if the other one is lying about something. That's what I mean by like spy versus spy. Like, what are you hiding? And I doesn't answer Mae directly because she's lying

about literally everything. So she doesn't like answer any of Mae's questions really. She just like, is like, OK, Mae, but what are you lying about? And Mae's first answer is like, well, you caught me. I was going to have the maid make breakfast and say that I did it as because I was trying to impress you. Hold on, pause. Because there is a huge cliffhanger here. Just because just to get into the theme song. And I just find that hilarious that they like, oh, yeah, yeah,

they have intense music. And then they're like, what is she lying about? And her face falls very slowly, like a job film, film like. And it increases the suspense because her face falls from a smile to like, blankness very slowly. And you're like, oh, God, what is she lying about? And then you get the happy theme music and we come back to making breakfast. Yes. And then I is like, oh, thank God they're going to say something nefarious, like I don't know, you know, I'm I own or whatever.

And then after a beat, I was like, OK, but is this breakfast thing the only thing you planned to lie to me about? It's the fact that she put planned in there gave May the lawyer the legality to kind of say what she was going to say next, because she answers in the most lawyer way possible by like indirectly answering in a way that leads I to her own conclusion versus like telling herself is a very big Nung answer where she like says things about saying stuff and

she's like, think what you want. I'll just let you think that. So may says, well, listen, I I can barely lie to you about breakfast. So like, what do you think? Do you think I'm lying to you about other stuff? Because we who've seen we have seen the series, though May is lying about so many things right now to I and she and she did plan to lie and like did she plan to lie to eye not about everything, but she easily could tell I I know you're not. Oh my goodness. See, but we don't do that

seriously. May here has all the power May knows. Does like just put I out of her misery? But I just. I find the scene so scary because we see May being so good at lying. Yes, yeah, that's the key take away from this scene is that May can lie without any trace of anything, whereas I is a terrible liar, like so bad at it. It's what makes her a terrible spy. And she like if May didn't know she was I, she would have been outed so many times.

Like now what? Rewatching this, I was like, I like especially later when we get the cousin, it's like I like she is clearly not, but like it's it's kind of hard to trust her because you don't know what she actually means. She's extremely good at it. Yeah, for sure, for sure. I mean, she's a lawyer. Her job is like play, you know, playing loose with Fry, phrase things and that that's like her

profession. So I couldn't I could never do it, but OK, so that part is like disturbing is like just like how easily Mae can lie and you have no and I has no idea. But the sadder part too, is like that how easily I accepts Mae's response where she's like, I'm not and she's like, do you think I'm lying? I and I was like, no. And then she just like gets happy and smile and like pinches Mae's nose like a child. Like it's really cute.

Like eyes response is very playful and adorable because we don't see her be super playful with anybody and she does it with with May and it's a very childlike and like pure and very sweet when she does things like that. She's very different when she's around May. She's so much looser. We saw that in the last episode at the around the pool where you just saw not relief, but just

relaxation on her. She wasn't guarded, she's not guarded around May and maybe you should be a little more considering you just met this person, but it's a pretty lady.

What are you supposed to do? She's a pretty lady that just seems very unguarded about her feelings towards Oom, and I think that that's the thing that throws off I because may just throwing around all this love and I just like, I don't know, I mean, and eyes always wanted this and she's like, I don't know what to do with it and she can't like stay guarded around that because she's so badly wants it.

And so it's easy for I to just like be like, OK, and just like accept it because like she just wants it so badly and it's it's sad. So like basically by the end of the scene, So by the end of the scene, I has ping and jab being like that girl is suspicious as fuck. I like she's a murderer. We don't know, like she's suspicious and then by the end of the scene because she's like, Oh my God, you're adorable. I's brain is basically like Janet paying her out of the line.

How could this angelic girl be evil? Like I got her nose like that was so funny. I'm like, was that damn, damn, just doing whatever, or was that I? I do wonder if they're like, all right, just be playful. And then I think it was just damn. Damn, that wasn't I Anyway, so they go have breakfast and then we shoot over to the police station where we officially meet Officer Hottie who is prim, but we nicknamed her Officer Hottie because look at her.

OK, I'm going to be honest, we so I don't kind of forget how we nicknamed her Officer Hottie. I know it was a play on Officer Hot from why I known her because the uniform, you always gotta love the uniform, but I completely did not know what her name was. Even though it's like said in here, but it's Officer Hottie. It is Officer Hottie. So we're just going to refer to her as Officer Hottie going

forward. OK, so true to her word, Jan is taking the UMM investigation into her own hands by trying to cosplay as Umm's relative so that Officer Hadi will give her at the incident report. This was so ballsy of Jan does so many like ballsy things throughout this series where it's like girl, you're a fortune teller like what the fuck are you doing breaking into police stations? Like she's so ballsy. The confidence that she has to

have here half this shit too. Like, no confidence, No Fear of embarrassment, No, like, just all in one track. Yeah. She's so ride or die for UMM, which like, makes me happy that UMM has somebody who's willing to, like, literally break the law constantly on her behalf. Like, that says a lot about their friendship because we don't get a lot of their friendship. But that speaks volumes based on Jan's behavior because she's doing this for UMM. Or maybe she wants to be a

detective. Who knows? No, that's that's the spin off Officer Hottie and Jan, Detective Jan is the detective in training. No, I wanted the spin off where it's like the psychic and the detective thing because she's a fortune teller. Like she could use her powers to like help solve mysteries like that would be great. I'll starting that out there. I would watch that. OK, so Officer Hottie, you get the sense from the scene that she's somebody who follows the

rules very strictly. So she like calls out Jan for like literally not being related to umm and she's like, you're not getting this case file that's illegal. But Jan is super undeterred because she's super psychic detective and she's plays her whole hand where she's like, listen girl, I know that the police got this real suspicious number that they're investigating that called Paul and umm, right? And that could have been a trap, right? And this may not have been an

accident, right? Am I right? And Officer Hadi kind of like doesn't say much, but she reacts in a way that shows that like she's also suspecting that this whole thing something that something weird happened with Paul and Ohm. But it is also surprised that this rando knows all this classified information. She's like, why do you know this? Because your Co workers don't shut up at funerals. Literally it's your Co workers fault and James knows you as

fuck. So basically Jay gets nowhere with officer hottie and then I shows up and it's like I'm actually her fucking sister. Give me the God damn file bitch. And I love the way I saunters into this room and then casually like hands the ID to officer hottie and then proceeds to stare down officer Hottie. The whole scene like this was so unnecessary but and very entertaining to watch. I do this power move with officer Hottie.

So I like get the sense that I as somebody who doesn't like authority or cops face the way she behaves in the scene. I feel like something happened with cops. There was some incident with a friend group and well, I wonder if it's like it goes back to like Ben's accident and the way he got 0 justice and that made her hate that whole thing. Authority going forward and like the, you know, law and stuff and lost respect for like poor authority.

But like damn, I why? Also when she pulls out the ID, something that I brought up in the reaction video is that there was a chip on it. So in America, what I know of, we only have credit cards with chips right now and that's so we can pay with things. So I'm like, why does their ID have a chip? So I have learned that the, the chip, so that card is a smart card and it houses their fingerprints. And so you can verify your identity a lot quicker through things.

So that's why there's a chip and it's like a very secure system where you can't like skim it. If America had something, we'd just be stealing identities left and right. That's why we have shitty IDs in America. But. Yeah, I just. Scam country. I thought that was very interesting that everything is on this ship there National ID.

Yeah. All right, so after officer ID, Officer ID, Officer Hadi confirms that ID she's like, OK, I guess you're I the three of them jump into the case file because she's like, OK, now I can legally tell you because you're the family member. So officer Hadi is like, listen, the call you mentioned is super suspicious, but we don't have any definitive evidence that this call is even related to the

car accident. Like scammers call all the time and the amount of phone calls I get that are just nonsense scammer calls is absurd. So like she's like, they could have been that you don't we don't know. We have to investigate more, hence the investigation. And then I get super triggered by this answer and she starts aggressively grilling Officer Hottie. And I points out that she's like, but like, listen, it was their wedding night and they left the house after this phone

call. So like, the phone call must have been really important to get them out of the house. And like, I, you have no idea, sweet summer child, but how important that caller was. Seriously, it still could have been anything. It literally could have been anything. And that could have been super unrelated. But I understand where I is like worried about her sister grasping at straws. But yeah, could have been literally nothing just once.

And as yeah, but as I is grilling her officer Howdy looks super uncomfortable because I get the sense that she is getting a little bit triggered that I is basically calling her incompetent in this in this scenario. Because. And that gets confirmed for me because like then some male officer shows up and it takes the file and was like, it was an accident. See ya. And then he like left, which was super suspicious to me because like she's the family member.

You're supposed to tell her shit and he's not telling her anything just like let it go. And then he leaves and I like looks to Officer Hottie where she's like, explain officers who was actually in charge of this case. And Officer Hottie looks like a little shifty eyed. And then we get crickets. Like no one says anything. And if you look at Officer Hottie's body language, she's like hangs her head low, like she looks defeated.

So I get the sense that she experiences workplace harassment slash prejudice as one of the few, if not only female officers in this precinct because we don't see any other female officers. We only see all the men. OK. And this man comes in as basically like, don't listen to her. This investigation's closed because I said so. So. And he like explains everything as it's been told before, like it was just an accident and all

that. But her face while he's saying it, you can fully see that she does not believe what he's saying. No, but she's not allowed to speak her mind. Now, if this is Jen, she'd be like, bullshit. Yeah. And it's like she looks like she's being overruled. Because if you look at the scene, we get this like, kind of like wide shot of them where like I staring down the man that shows up. Jan looks dejected. Officer Hadi's got her head hanging low.

And then the officer, the man officer that comes in is literally like his head's out of frame because he's towering over all of them. He's like, he's the authority figure here. Listen to me. Because I said so kind of deal. So it makes Officer Hadi seem really small in her, like, workplace. And like when we jump into the team, she seems like somebody who's really competent. She follows the rules. She's doing all the things she's being suspicious of suspicious

shit. And then here's this man who's like, this investigation is over because I said so, like Officer Hadi deserves better, is what I'm saying. Was he one of the officers at the funeral? And he's just like going back on anything. He just doesn't want to deal with the paperwork. Listen, that is a very plausible. All right. So then Jan and I, dejected, leave the police station. And Jan reasons with I that Paul's listen, Paul's parents are powerful.

Like if there's something suspicious is going on, they would insist on an investigation. You're so close, Jan, because they're all so powerful. So they probably would do whatever's in their power to protect their family name if some shady shit went down also. So like, let's remember that reputation's important in prominent families, right? But I anti authority, I cannot let this mystery phone call go. So luckily, amateur Detective Jan is like, I caught the digits from the case file.

For sure. That's illegal. There we are. I love how, like, I kind of assumes this, too. She's like, did you get the number? You got it right, Jan. You guys like, oh, yeah, I got you. OK. Would I be Jan if I did it? But they're both proving that they are terrible detective slash spies because they make this phone call right outside the police station. They sure do on probably camera because there's probably cameras watching them right now.

So yeah, I makes the call, First call, no dice, nothing happened. They're like, well, fuck. So they're at this point, Jan's like, I still think it's May. So why don't we try and isolate her and then call this number and see if her phone rings, basically. So I at this stage is like, OK, Jan, I agree. So I goes back home to then start this mission. OK? And then we get a scene where we have to hydrate for lesbian Jesus because that is the only reason the scene is here.

Everyone take a minute. Just take a, just take a minute. You know I'll get whole minute though. Just a moment, a moment of silence for lesbian Jesus cuz Oh my God, the scene. So then it cuts to outside of Mima shop where I is sitting on her motorcycle and putting on her Jean jacket in slow motion, which is the most female gaze thing ever. Because like the male gaze is women taking off clothing and then female gaze is women putting more clothing on in slow motion.

We had that with Gentleman Jack, with so many other generals where they're just like, why is this more attractive? You're not wrong. I know. I mean, it was great. It was so good. Marvelous. It was, darling, it didn't. It didn't play into the plot. It was there for my happiness because this truly is the episode of I being unreasonably attractive just by existing. Like that's the plot of this episode. She does normal thing. I mean, she really did exaggerate that putting on that

was just for herself. She just like flourish. The whole that was so unnecessary. That was just, it was so unnecessary, but it was necessary for us. But I need to hydrate again for that, damn it. I also also like, yeah, also her walking into the police station also, and the way she did that also unreasonably attractive. But during this scene we also get this like low, the low angle tilt again. So she's like slightly tilted in the frame.

And I'm just my theory now is that the low angle tilt is the eye is determined to figure out what Mei is up to. Frightening. Yeah, definitely could be. Or she's just on a mission. She is on a mission. So besides this scene existing for my entertainment, it exists to show that I is shedding most of the UMM disguise before she goes to see May. Because if you look at her, she's putting on her clothing. Like last time she went she was still wearing Umm's like fancy clothing.

She's full on Jean jacket eye with a T-shirt. The only part of the UMM disguise she's actively wearing is the ring. OK, that matching ring that May never puts on only hours only eyes wearing it. Props to her. She's making it to a whole episode in clothing that she's not comfortable in, right? It does not take long. It's hilarious. It doesn't take long for her to shed the umm disguise, but it's really starting here and it's starting to get super dramatic.

So again, I then I was like, all right, let's go mission time. So she starts up the bike and then Meemaw comes out and this whole scene happens because she's worried about I and I does not clock that. So Nemo comes out and she's like, I, why are you riding your bike? You can just take Umm's car because Umm's car is the safer vehicle. First of all, that's why she's saying it. But also like I, that's the

better disguise. Because seriously, if it was you had access to it this entire damn time and you still chose the motorcycle. Chose the bike. Is it bad to drive a car? She's like, not trying to be Om is kind of the thing I is. So I she can't really be Om. I will say, though, in the novel, I was like the worst when it came to this stuff because, yeah, Om had a car and who had credit cards? And so I was just like, well,

you're in a coma, bitch. And basically took Om's credit card, like wrecked up this credit card bill. I was driving your car everywhere. She's like, no, I'm be at home. That was so funny. Let's see she's like protective of her sister at least like more so in the show because this I would never do that. Not like protective or like respectful of umm stuff like later when she gets the laptop, she's like, sorry, but I really need this. I'll give it back. Not a novel. I was not like that.

She's like, because when umm wakes up out of the coma, she gets her credit card bills and she's like, what the fuck are these bills? And I just like, it does not offer to pay back. Like it was terrible. I was really bad in the novel. So yeah, this is a GMTV version of I that I prefer who's like, no, she's like, listen, I don't want to deal with all the headache because it's probably like more gas money. Like there's practical reasons why she probably wouldn't want to take the car.

And then she's like, something happens to what I owe him and she's like, that's a headache. I don't want to owe him shit. This is enough that I'm doing for. So then I turned the engine on and then Mima keeps trying to talk to her and she's like, well, where are you going? Like, what do you do? Like, because she's worried about I, but I, it is so like the engine drowns out I's thoughts and she can't hear anything.

So she doesn't see that her grandmother is legitimately worried about her, which is the thing I doesn't think Mima's doing, you know, like caring for her. So it just shows how like not on the same page they are back to what Snake Snake not I said it's the miscommunication between these two because, like her grandmother loves her. You can see it in the scene. She's worried about her, but I

doesn't see it as the problem. All right, so then I rides the motorcycle all the way to May's house and this is the and parks it outside the front door where there's cameras. She's a terrible spy, but this is the first time she takes the motorcycle to Maze, which is important to know and again, parks it like there's garages. She parks it in front of the front door where there's cameras proving that I is literally the

worst spy ever. Because again, if the maid was soup was on the same page with Mae, she could have been like, umm, just showed up on a motorcycle Mae, like you know what I mean? The maid could have outed you so many times, but it's already a long walk to get to me in there. So you got to like pull up right at the door, right. This was ridiculous. I know she could have like hid the motorcycle. There's she did not think of high concealing her eye Ness in this scene.

She's just like whatever may can't see, but like girl, the people around her can see you, but also like we talk about this a lot too. She'll be able to hear, but I don't think I has ever thought about the other senses. Yeah, it's true because there's so many other identification factors. Well, like, literally later in the scene, she does not the scene in this episode, she does not conceal the fact that she's riding a motorcycle today at all. She just, like, gets on it and

turns it on in front of her. And it's like, girl. Yeah, yeah. It's very possible. She just doesn't think she can't think straight and that's OK. That's why we're here. You know, maybe she just once May to figure it out so she doesn't have to say it. It's true subconsciously. Maybe she wants her to be like you're not Omar you and be like, no, what are you going to do?

Like she's like nothing. That's what I wanted going back and knowing that May knows that this is I is just like one of you just say the truth so we can get this over because you're both just well, no, May's waiting for I to tell her that she is really I, not umm, that. And they think really what May it's with the big thing with May, she's afraid.

Like yeah, she has I, which is the thing that she wanted, but she can't see I, so she doesn't know if I is hanging around her because she like feels bad for her or if she actually likes her. So that's why May keeps trying to test that with I because like it's a big scary thing like she's been waiting for her and then can't like fully experience this because she lost her vision. So I think she's afraid is is really what it is. And then I but then I keep outing herself willingly.

So it's like anyway, OK, so other thing about this scene, I uses the OOMS key card to get into the main gate. So that's important because nobody is alerted to the fact that she came here. So she didn't buzz the maid. She just let herself in basically, which is important. And also under their key in their relationship, umm and and Mae like umm had a key to the house. Like again, like what the fuck was their relationship? They had engagement rings, a key, and then we learned the

relationship was like nothing. It's like weird that they had all these things going on, but it's also weird that I found the key card before and then still continue to not use it. I know she's I and like not good at this. Umm, had a key card. Then you you don't think that whatever. But when she uses the key card, there's a little there's like a slight smile on her face that she was just like happy that it worked. This was so cute. She's like, yay, I'm a good

detective. Yeah, I'm a good detective. I successfully got into the building. And then you start like, it's too bad they don't have the soundtrack to like mission possible to get the. And then when mice like, breath the key cards like, like the gate open. Yeah. I mean we're about to have a hero moment so got to get that soundtrack ready. Protective girlfriend.

I yet again. OK, so I makes her way through the gate and then gets to the main entrance and upon entering the door into the mansion, she hears glass shattering on the floor and she whips around the corner and finds a strange man who's got his arms out towards May. And without thinking, this is what she sees. She's strange, man. Broken glasses, puppies in trouble. So without thinking, I runs into

the room and pushes the dude. Like Mandy holds this dude and pushes him away from May and starts yelling at him. She's like, who the fuck are you and why do you have your hands on her? Get away from her. Yeah, she may not be a great detective, but she is a great protector. She is. That was so effortless, the way that she just flew in there. That was her instinct. She did not think. She just acted. That was her instinct. Was protect May. Like that was the instinct.

This man who's bigger than me, she just attacks him. Well, yeah, she's not going to think about anything else. There is just protect, May, protect. And then you got to cue the song Grenade by Bruno Mars, because this girl definitely would catch a grenade for May. She absolutely would. On Day 2 of this, yes. And then effort. I'm just picturing it right now. She just catches it and just diffuses it with no effort

whatsoever. I don't know if you can diffuse it, Grenade. I don't know anything, but I can figure it out. Yeah. With no knowledge whatsoever. No, none of that. OK so when you know the full story, this is actually pretty reminiscent of the first time I met May. Like this is literally what happened the first time they met May was being bullied and I without doing any context, shows up and like gets the bullies away from May.

Only in this context, she knew who May was and was more emotionally invested in the person being bullied versus just being like, fuck you bullies. I'm looking for a fight. You guys look like my type and then like beats them all up and like she basically is doing the same thing. So here's I 20 years later has not changed one bit. The proof is right here. Thanks for pointing that out because and and Mae's like, Oh yes, this is the this is definitely I who I wish I could see this.

She is true to herself. She's into this I big time. It is a crime. She can't say this because yes ma'am, this is your fantasy. This is your first meeting playing out yet again. However, it's a little bit different. Instead of being some Brando's at the schoolyard, the dude that she assaults is May's cousin, Doctor Tom. And like that information comes out and I was like, Ah, fuck. And he keeps appraising I

throughout this whole scene. Like you'll watch like not just the scene, but the whole sequence of scenes that happens where he keeps looking at her and like kind of sizing her up and stuff because spoiler, he knows she's I and not boom. And he this is ton meeting I legitimately for the first time. And like when you watch the whole series, you realize that Mae talks about IA lot and like, so this is him meeting I and she assaults him. So that's interesting.

But like to protect May. So OK, he gets a sense of her character in the scene, but being like, oh God, man, what are you doing? So from his point of view, he's like, OK, I is protective of May. Like she did that again instinctively and that and I assume May has told him the first time they met and where I did the literal same thing. So he's like OK this must be I cuz she's acting like the I may describe to me so that's legit. Also he knows ooms at a coma cuz he's a fucking doctor at the

same hospital so that's ton. But from eyes point here she's like oh fuck I just assaulted her family member like fuck like if I was oom dating her I would know this and I just like assaulted him like he's a stranger. So things get really awkward after that poor eye, like poor eye. This looks like well fuck, how do I I thought it was being a good spy. I like got in with the key card and I was doing all these things and then I assault her family member. How the fuck do I get out of this?

Because this looks really bad as Om OK. But like the other thing too is I think she was wearing more eye friendly clothing because A she hates wearing oombs clothes and B she's like well Mae can't see which is fair and then she comes in and meets the family member who can see what she's wearing and she's clearly not so she's like fuck Like seriously how do I get out of this? This looks really bad. But then May saves her because May is like May is having the

same thoughts. She's like fuck, I just like probably completely blew her cover as OOM. I didn't tell Todd about I was meeting I he's going to be like what the fuck is this? Your OOM is in a coma. So May is like also he might ruin the whole thing by saying something, right? I'm getting somewhere with her. I kissed her like all these things are happening and I was like, well, you see, The thing is and I was like, Tom, This is why I never showed you umm, this is I was afraid this shit would

happen. So you are afraid that glass would break and she, everybody looks confused. Everybody's so confused. Tom's like really made this is what you're going with. It's so funny because like I was like, Oh my God, she's saving me. Thank God with this lie because I had nothing. And then Tan's like really made this is what we're if this is what we're going with as the story. This was so funny, but at least he goes with it. He definitely goes with it. Like, you know, he's a good

sport. He's a he's made as ride or die. Before we get to that, I I do want to point out that I does apologize to Todd. So it does go to show that like she's the type of person that is capable of admitting when she's wrong, which is a big character trait because, you know, not everybody is easily capable of that. So that that's speaks to I's character that a she's protective of. Maybe she's like willing to admit when she's wrong. But this was so funny.

The way me is like time. This is why you 2 have never met because of this. And he's like, OK, OK. And the fact that she can't even like give silent cues to him too because she can't look him in the eye or anything. He's just like, OK babe, that's the bullshit story you want to go with. I'll roll with the bullshit. So then he pivots the conversation. Like the reason he's here is he's here to kind of surrogately look after her in a way. And he takes her to doctor's

appointments and stuff. And he's like, OK, May, let's talk about your family because also your dad sent me here because we'll find out his back story later. But he's partially here because of her dad as like the informant on what's going on with May because we'll find out that May and her family are not on no, no webcam, no thumbs up. They are not on speaking terms. If you're listening. Tiara's love Cam does reaction sometimes depending on her hand

gestures. So they just give the thumbs up. Just give a thumbs up. I didn't mean for that to happen anyway. So he's like, listen mate, I'm just really worried that you can't function outside of this house and maybe not even inside the house because look at the broken glass. Like, if I wasn't here, you could have hurt yourself, it sounds like.

And then Mae gets pissed off and like, defensive and she's like, well, if somebody hadn't moved it from its usual spot, I wouldn't have fucking knocked it over because I know everything in this house. Like, like basically this house is like her controlled little environment. And so she can navigate really well without her sight because she's designed it that way. There's like scented candles that help her navigate. She's basically mapped, mentally

mapped the whole place. So when something is out of place, she can't anticipate it necessarily. And then so that's why he's like, girl, like the world outside this mansion is not by your design. So like, I'm worried that you're here by yourself and you need somebody to like, take care of you outside of the house who can take you out and look after you, but make it super defensive.

Because it's almost like he's reasserting to her that like, she's limited because of her disability, whereas Mae worked so hard to like, prove that she is not useless because she's disabled. So it's almost like he's throwing that in her face a little bit, which is fucked up. It is. And her arguments here are extremely valid. Because again, yeah, this is. Her house and he is the reason that it broke in the 1st place. So you can't use that argument when you're the reason that she

didn't know where it was. And like I get your but I get like the you can't control the outside environment, but this is the environment that you're using as the excuse and this is her controlled environment. Exactly it is. He's obviously not a lawyer like she is. Yeah, I get that he means well and he genuinely cares about her and is like kind of a ride or die for her. But the way he comes off in this, in this whole scene is that like he kind of puts her down while he's doing it.

And I don't know that that's intentional, but that's how it reads. OK. Because we're seeing this from eyes point of view, because then the camera cuts to eye and eyes like, well, this is awkward that I'm in the middle of this family drama that I didn't mean to be in the middle of. And she's like kind of getting Privy information into May's life that May hasn't told her about yet, which is like, she barely leaves this house now that she's blind, even though she just went abroad.

And then and then he starts talking about May's family. And that's where things get a little weird again, because he's like, hey, you should just move back in with your parents because then, quote, someone can take care of you and take you out into the real world and and take you to your doctor's appointments and do all those kinds of things.

And then the in the same breath insults may by saying, well, then if you were at home, you wouldn't be so obsessed with this stupid international lawyer association. This was the most fucked up thing that he says because she's we, we come to see why she's doing this and how passionate she is about this association that's trying to do good stuff in the world. And then he shits all over it in this conversation, which like dude, like this was so weird

coming from him. First of all, why is it a bad thing for her to be obsessed with like just like it like she wants to help people, right? Why is that a bad thing? I don't know. Women aren't allowed to have interests or act on behalf of themselves in that family, apparently. I know this reeked of like, her father and not him kind of in this conversation or like, maybe his misogyny was showing. Yeah. But also like, she's a fucking lawyer.

Like, why would it be weird for her to, like, get involved with a lawyer association? Like that's the least. Weird. Thing ever I know it's so not weird, but I guess what he's saying he's like you're throwing your you're obsessing over your job and not living your life might be what he's trying to say, but it comes off as him belittling and being, you know patronizing to her basically, which that's the whole conversation.

Yeah is the whole conversation. And once he like hoax at the lawyers association that I think triggers may also like the most because then we cut like get like a wider shot and you see may like start to reach back for I like for support like cuz she was like by herself, like taking him on when this conversation.

And then this is when she reaches for I. And I do wonder if she did that because they're discussing her family now and if that conversation is difficult for her to have because there's a lot of bad blood with her family. So meaning like this is a hard

conversation for May to have. So she's like, I need my emotional support lesbian or if she was reaching for I because she was afraid I is going to hear all this shit about her family just like and like disappear because this is actually truth about May that's coming out in this conversation because all the conversations she's had with I were like coded in layers of like umm and I stuff. But this is a direct conversation about May.

That's like truthful information about May that's kind of out of May's control because Tana's just saying stuff. And like you said, she can't cue to him and be like, shut the fuck up. He's just talking. And so like, I was hearing all this shit about her. And so I wonder if Mae's like, please don't leave me. Please don't leave me. Yeah. She'd up to this point, she's done a great job of not really

giving anything away. I'm like I But she doesn't give up personal stuff about herself because, first of all, she's a lawyer. She knows that anything you say can and will be used against you, even in courts of love. Yes, love, great job. See, that was beautiful. Thank you. Thank you, thank you. I also wonder now that you bring that up that like if you think about it, all the conversations that they have had her like May and I in the present time have all occurred in May's house.

And like you said, this is her controlled environment. So May is very much in control in this house. She's even controlling all the conversations except this one. This one gets out of her control because of Todd, the wild card that comes into the conversation.

And so like she can't control the direction of this in front of I because she's been curating all the shit with I because she's like I know she's I but but we have to like ease I into this because the first time I met I and kissed her, she fucking ran away and was searching in her car for two days, like you know what I mean? So she's like this has the baby steps with I. She gets spooked. It's a big car, May. Yeah, it's big car. And here's all this dirty laundry coming out out of her

control. So I wonder if she's like, fuck, don't leave, because then she gets real truthful about her family after she like literally has a death grip on I's hand. So May basically expresses that like she's super against moving back home because she's like, who the fuck's going to actually care for me, Tom, when I get home?

Are people actually going to Take Me Out or are they just trying to like get me under their roof so they can control me versus like I'm amazing control in her house, like has control of her life and can do this lawyers association thing, which I think her father would fucking hate that what she's doing. So he hates everything she does. Yeah. But I think that's where all this vitriol from Tom is coming from.

It's from the dead. And so she's like, sure, Tom, I'll move back home where my father is ashamed of my disability and her queerness. So like, basically he wants to hide her and control her and so the to preserve his reputation. So like that's Mae's family, which is so fucked up and it makes her seem like weak, like he would weaken her by going home. And she's trying to be strong in front of I because I is the inspiration for her to stand up

for herself. So I think that's why she like, if you watch her when she's delivering the line about like her father and him, like basically putting his reputation above his family, she like grips on the eye a little bit tighter because I think she's scared like, you know, because like her upbringing made her weak. And, you know, she kind of made this like silent promise to eye when they first met that she would stand up for herself and stand up to bullies.

And her father is a huge bully and she's clearly still kind of afraid of him a little bit. And I think that kind of comes out a little bit, but to eyes credit, I doesn't know the context of any of this because that's Pluto the series. And so I but I senses Mae's fear and unease and she does like put her hand on top of Mae's and like grip onto her even tighter to show me that like, hey, like, I'm here for you, I'm supporting you. I'm not leaving.

So I think that was a good move on eyes part to kind of like sense what Mae's feeling and respond to it and gives Mae what she needs in that moment. She does that a few times, like putting her hand on top to make sure, yeah, ground her. Yeah, she's I can't cuz like you said, she's fairly good at being the falling into that. I'm supporting you roll without thinking. And I think with that kind of courage from I may decides this conversation is over.

And so she basically tells Tom to fuck off. And then she leaves before he can take a breath. And she drags I basically away from him. And so like, she's navigating around the coffee table past Tawn because this is her controlled environment. She knows what she's doing. She's in, She's in charge. But once I's brain registers what's happening, she switches back into like, oh, shit, yeah, I have to support her.

And she gently stops May. And then like long enough so she can get in front of May and then like lead May away from all the furniture because that's what I does. But the the brilliant part or not brilliant part, The amazing part is that may let's I do this, which says a lot about how much may trust I because in the conversation with Tom, she's trying to be like, I'm self reliant. I'm fine, I can. This is my house. I can navigate it as long as things aren't moved.

But then I just like, no, let me lead you out of here. And so if she was really trying to win that argument with Tom, I feel like she'd be like, no, I I got this. But she let's I do it. And it could because she's shaken by having to like, talk about her family, to be honest. Yeah. And both of them are fairly different when they're with each other.

Like it's not just. I may for sure is a lot more willing to be guided and sorry yeah taken care of even though she is portraying that she is self reliant and she is but I as someone she's like OK, well I want you in my life. I'm fully here take care of me. I am here for you that and like literally any excuse to touch I she, she takes that. Human Tattoo. I mean, you say no to. Being. Taken by the hand, like yeah. You you just take the hand and you're like, OK.

You're OK, Let me grab onto you even harder now. Pay just both hands now. OK. And then we learned in this conversation that May is absolutely not going to that doctor's appointment that they set up for her. So when I watched this the first time, I'm like, are these nefarious doctor's appointments

like what is happening? But OK, so Tom says that we have a doctor's appointment and I just find that so insane that like the controlling nature in this sentence of saying like we have a doctor's appointment, like he has to be there and like can't trust her to go on her own. Like it's just, it boggles my mind like how controlling and the audacity to be like, oh, like, no, it's the both of us. Yeah. It's kind of like with her disability, she's being forced into being codependent on other

people. So like, I feel like that must bother me on some level that like he has to take her to the appointments cuz he has to navigate her there. I'm a sucker minute. Like the whole thing is that they want her to come home so they can control her, which is way worse than her being able to control her own environment. I yeah, cuz like now they're going to be watching her every move, choosing everything for her. She's going to be, I would say. Baby.

But if you're babied, you're kind of like cared for, right? She would still be neglected, yes, neglected baby, but still have everything controlled for her. And it's just yeah, this whole scenario is just terrible. I do want to take a second to back up because this whole scene is focused on May and Tom because that is what's going on.

But in it, there's this brief interaction between the maid and I and the maid tries to put the house shoes on I and I just refuse it. She's like, no, no, no, I got it. And because of what we talked about in the last episode of I just like refusing help in general and not wanting to burden anybody with helping her. It's just another show of that pattern. But May is now able to wear her down because, you know, May, she's persistent. And really, I needs that.

I needs to be taken care of too. So again, they just complement each other so well. Yeah, that's a good point. I also wonder if with the interaction with the maid, there's like a class, there's like a class system thing playing out because Mae is a rich girl who's had servants her whole life and would be used to that behavior, whereas I is of the servant class and be like, this is weird. Please don't put my shoes on. I I like I'm nobody.

That's that's fair too. We've a lot of the shows we've seen that dynamic, but we haven't seen like the servant class really interact with each other too much. So like we haven't gotten like the lead being not the Super rich one. So it's I mean, the show is just great. I love it. The show is so good. All right. After that, May take lead's eye to her office and we get a glimpse of where like May's workspace is.

And I just before we jump into the scene fully, I just want to talk about the decor because I think the decor is important for setting up who May is And it also kind of plays into the scene a little bit. So first glance it's like kind of a dark room and it makes like all the color pop. So she has all these like gilded edged books, like something a lawyer would have. So emphasizing she's a lawyer, well read, there's posters on the wall of her travel locations, so like Scotland, etcetera.

So showing she's wealthy, right, and has travelled all over the world kind of thing. But behind Mae's desk is what I find to be the most interesting piece of artwork, which is a side profile of the statue of David, which I actually got to see in real life. And it's fucking huge and really fantastic. This is one of the greatest soul sculptures of all time. Just like how it was done and how beautiful it is. So, but if you don't. But it's more about the imagery than anything else.

So who's David? So this is the Christian myth of David and Goliath. And basically it's a little mortal. David takes down the bigger batter, Goliath with a sling, basically. So it's a it's a story about using your wits to defeat a bigger enemy who's all like Brown and, you know, muscle and that kind of stuff. And it's like an underdog story

basically. So if you think about it, May is a lot like David. She is the underdog in the story and like society now due to her disability because like, you know, think about the conversation. We just have a ton, right? Where he's like putting her down and being like, you can't do stuff on your own and blah, blah, blah. So it puts her in this underdog position where Mae has to use her intelligence and her wits about her because her cleverness is her glitter greatest weapon,

right? Just like it was for David. That's how he beats Goliath. And if you think about it, like, I also can kind of be read as like an underdog because I think I think she's one because she feels like the outcast in her family and like, quote the dumb one. And no one thinks she can succeed in anything meaningful. So in a way, they're both kind of underdogs for different reasons. So I think this is a clever portrait to put in May's office, which is like her private

sanctuary, too. People don't typically value St. smarts, no. And I, I like puts them on display in this conversation she's about to have with May, which is kind of fun. So upon entering the room, the first thing I does is ask May about the International Lawyers Association. And I love that she does this because she just learned a bunch of new stuff about May in that conversation with Tom. And then she's like, what about that lawyer association he brought up?

Because that's showing May a general genuine interest in one of May's passions. So this has nothing to do with the mission, right? This has nothing to do with like, who is May? She's like, what's this thing you're putting all your time into? Tell me about that. This thing you're obviously passionate about. Yeah, I love how. Out of everything, that's what she chose. That's what she chose to ask her about.

Exactly. It says a lot about I and that I is genuinely interested in may the person, not just the mission. Also who? Cares about the family stuff. She has her own family shit too. Well, like what's she does? Ask me about that later, But she he or she's like, tell me about the the your interest first, not the messy family stuff, because she, you know, she got a good sense that May was distressed by that part of the conversation.

So like, again, I the empathetic person is like, tell me about the thing you're you're passionate about, not the thing that makes you upset. Which? Eyes are very empathetic and good at reading people is like the bottom line. But instead of answering that, Mae detours the conversation and asks if I think she's useless. And I was like why would you even ask me that? Like like the first thing she says why would you ask me that?

Because she's confused. Like everything that I have seen about Mae does not scream this woman is useless. In fact, I is so impressed how capable Mae is. She's like, I can't it makes her friends be like, how is she blind? She's so capable of stuff. So like it's like the opposite is what I was thinking about May, which is like the irony of those.

Do you think it could be that the this whole thing with time, not that she would think that she is useless, but like put that like slight doubt in her head. So she was kind of asking I that to build her up again. From May's point of view, you mean? Yeah, I think that Taun is in her head right now for sure, because he thinks she's useless in a way. And her dad thinks she's useless. So I think that got under her skin.

And then she doesn't know genuinely how I feels about her when it comes to this, when it comes to the pity of her being blind. So I think that's the test here with I She's like, do you think this about me? Because I think Mae senses that I doesn't, but like, she can't confirm it 100%. You know what I mean? Yeah. So I think that's why I may pivots. And she's like, I am asking like if you think I'm useless because I'm blind. Like she flat out clarifies that.

And I reassures Mae that she does not think that by getting super real with her and is like, well, nobody's perfect Mae. And then before she continues to watch, I like sigh and looks like contemplative for a minute. Like she's trying to think like how real do I actually get in this conversation? Do I like be real as umm, or do I be real as I this is the most she's thought about that at all. Yeah, exactly.

This is like, yeah, exactly. She's actually thinking about like, like how do I approach this? And she does approach it as I honestly like it could be read as umm, but like not really. So she kind of looks around the room and she's like, yeah, you do have the blindness thing going on. But she's like, you're wealthy though. And because you're wealthy, you have power. Whereas like, I'm poor and so I can't go to Scotland on a whim or like afford this house or

things like that. And in some ways that makes that means I can't do a lot of things because like wealth prohibits me. And she's like, does that mean I'm useless to you? Like I, I can see, but I don't have the same opportunities that you do. Am I useless? Is what I says. And May sits with this question for a second or so sits with this answer. And then she smiles and her replies. We think exactly alike.

And for me, I think this conversation and I's response to the previous conversation with Todd are proof that I is in fact the person she loves. Because she's like, you think about this, the way I think about this, which is to see past the surface and like look at the person and be like judge that person for who they are kind of thing. She's like, I do the same thing. So I think this was really reassuring to me and like this was a test for I to be like, are

you actually? Did I make this fantasy up in my head about you? They met once and you know what I mean? And like May's been heartbreaking, this love over one exchange. And I think this is a confirmation for me to be like I was right. It is you like you are like I was right about my feelings for you because you are different

from everybody else. And here's the proof right here, the way you answered this question, this is a lot to put on one meeting because like you, just you, your whole life literally changed because of that one moment. But I mean, I does like give her advice that she stuck with that did change her life. So it's, it's that more so than that she saved me the damsel in distress. It's that advice I gave her. That's fair. I is using a great therapy technique here.

So she is relating to herself, but she's basically, I mean, again, she May is trying to see where I is. But to I's point of view, it's kind of like May is just making sure she doesn't think she's useless. So she's like, what advice would you give a friend? So she's putting herself into the shoes. So she's like, well, what would you tell me? So there's your answer. And I just thought that that was

very. Cool. I mean, I guess I could have been a therapist maybe no. So maybe I also wonder if I is also feels insecure because she is, you know, lower class and is a delivery driver and like here's May, the well accomplished lawyer with all this money. And I wonder if she's kind of like, are you going to judge me for that? And I wonder if that's like the undercurrent of her question as well. And May doesn't judge I for

that. Whereas like you come to see everybody in May Circle who sees eyes like who let the trash in, you know what I mean? Yeah. May doesn't do that. That's a good point too, because even like umm was with her, but umm, even from the scenes we got between them, like look down on eye. She's like I'm out there flying around all these places and you're just here doing who knows what and your delivery drive. Yeah. So she is different than her

sister too. So yeah, because UMM fit into May's social circle a lot better. Because UMM had money. Not the May's level of money, but UMM had more money and like dressed the part of somebody who had money. She was educated and that kind of stuff. So usually she has more in common with May on paper than I does. But you see, like that's not what matters. It's like get past the cover of the book and look at the actual text. And it's like May and I to May's

point, we think alike. And that's more important. Like they actually are more compatible personality wise, not just like what's on the surface, which may be another another thing GMMTV slash Chow was trying to get out with the story, which I like. OK. And then so May after testing I and is like you passed. I do love you. She goes on to actually discuss what the International Lawyers Association is and how she got involved. And this whole thing was purely

written to the series. And I love it so much because spoiler in the in the novel, May was not blind for that long. And this whole the whole time she's with I, she's faking, she's blind. Oh my gosh. So when we were watching it, I was right. Yeah. She so like all these conversations were like Pan Pang and Jan are like, I'm pretty sure she's faking this shit in the novel. She was absolutely faking her blindness with I, which was

just. Thank you, GMMTV. Yeah, no, they, I like the way they did it. They're like, we'll make her actually blind, give you a disabled character. Like, let's go into these into these things. So yeah, thank you, GMMTVI. Like, the substance of this, especially this explanation. So basically what happened was after May became blind, she gained a new perspective of what life is like living as a

disabled person. And she saw a lot of injustice just in the way the world is structured, the legal system, all kinds of stuff that marginalized disabled people, whether it's intentional or not. And so she decided to use her power as a famous lawyer to make the world a better place by improving human rights, basically. And she's telling all of I this. And when and when she does, she, like, migrates behind her desk, right?

Because she pulls the file out of the drawer and, like, hands it to I. But the image of what's happening here is when she's behind her desk, you have the portrait of David hovering over her shoulder. Because in this legal fight, this, this group she's joining is like the underdog group, right, Who's hoping to make things better by changing society, which is a Goliath. You think legally that there's so much power in government compared to like this small group of passionate lawyers?

So I love the imagery there of David. So good choice. Props. Love it if it's into the scene really nicely. Also, everything we learn about this association just makes Ton look even worse for saying that she's obsessed with it. Literally, it's a good thing. At that point we don't know what it is. I mean, first of all, it's still plausible no matter what it is for her to be involved in it because, you know, lawyer. But now it's just like, oh, you

don't want her to help people? You're a really terrible person, which I think really is a reflection of her dad being a shitty person. But yeah, it makes him look awful, honestly. So May, this is my favorite part. So May shares the brief with I, which is basically like her road map for making Thailand a better place. Basically, she's like, I'm trying to get support so I can specifically help the Thai disabled people make life better. And then I like, scared gimps through it, basically.

And like, she's like, yeah. And like, let's be real, she has no idea what any of this says. But like, like, I think I just, like, this is a good thing that May is trying to do regardless of what this says because I don't understand legal jargon.

And I love that. I is genuinely impressed by what May is doing and trying to do. And I think that by May sharing this with, I really does assuage her suspicions about me being nefarious towards anybody, including, um, and Paul, despite all the weirdness and the missing puzzle pieces with that whole thing, she's like, how could this person who's like obsessed with human rights be this evil person that like paying a Janner trying to paint her to be? It's not. Adding up.

No, the math's not mathing here. I mean, apparently gays can't do math, but this is pretty gay is trying. These gays are trying. But I just genuinely love how impressed I is because she smiles and just tells me he's flat out like, this is really cool. Like what you're doing is really cool. Like you're cool and May's face lights up instantly because her inner child must be doing cartwheels because Oh my God, I

just called her cool. Like I who is like glasses like you need to get like stand up for yourself. It's also cool in the scene. Like this must be so validated to like inner child May. That is a great point. But also it's someone's finally giving her a validation. Yeah, in general, because, you know, no one in her life is really like, oh, this is a great thing you're doing. So there's finally someone is like, I see you, I see what you're doing, and it is a good thing.

Not that she needs to, like reassurance, but, well, yes. But to have it to be, I must be, like, doubly validating. And this whole scene, ladies and gentlemen, ladies and gentlemen, is a lesson in peeking. So some people peek in high school and some people glow up in adulthood. And May is a glow up girl. OK, That's what the story is telling us. Boy, is she ever. She became cool as an adult who was a little nerd in high school. So it's all the nerds out there.

BMA yes, you can do it. You can do it all right. So then this cute moment happens and then I follows this up with is there anything else I don't know about you? Yes and glue up May who just got told by her crush she's cool decides to shoot her shot with I her like and like this made me wonder I'm like I like in May's mind what is I like? Is I like her fake girlfriend? Like what is this situation ship in May's brain? Like what is it that's valid?

I, I didn't actually think about that because, you know, I is just wanting to think that May is her girlfriend, right? Because she has to be. Umm. But now there's no excuse for May. So it's like if we were just coming into this right now and just had like some of these facts, it'd be like May is toying with I She is in a way, yes, but but like, because she wants her. But yeah. So yeah, I don't know what she would like. I mean, yeah, you know what? She's probably like, Yep, this

is my girlfriend. Yeah, right. Like in her brain, she's like eyes my girlfriend. Yeah, exactly. And whereas like, in my in eyes brain, like their trope would be like fake girlfriend because I'm pretending to be OOM. So like, this is not really my girlfriend. She's my fake girlfriend. Like to act like she's my girlfriend, but she's not my girlfriend. Where's Mae? I think you're right. And Mae's like. Umm, is my wife or this is my wife? Like, let's just be honest, I is mine.

I has no idea. Eventually this will resolve itself. Yeah, yeah, eventually. But I was just like, at this point, how is Mae categorizing their situation ship? That's what I think in her head, she's like, eventually this will be all fine. We won't have to deal with any of that anymore. But this is this is. Yeah, this is happening. It's happening. This is happening. OK. It's happening. It is happening. So OK, so glow of May, what does

she do? She leans over the desk towards eye, like getting into her space and basically tells her, well, here's something you don't know about me.

So you just learned in the previous conversation that I don't like going out, but I do like going out as long as you're with me, which on the surface, like eye starts panicking because on the surface you can interpret this as like I, I like leaving the house because I feel safe with you Or option 2, which is I want to go out on a date with you is what she's saying. And like, based on I's additional reaction, her brain goes to option 2 and she's like, Oh my God, is she asking me out?

Not I mean, umm, me, umm, and then me manifest these thoughts by repeating and being more clear, like, do you want to go out with me? I'm actually asking you out. I because I'm not confident you're you're getting this. She was like can't hear you or read your face. So like, let's go out on a date. I is what I'm saying. See. My brain for some reason was like this is her asking her to be her girlfriend. I'm like I mean they're together technically right now.

I don't know. This whole relationship is very confusing. It's sure is that's half the fun. So good news, like, but this is at minimum it's May asking I out on a date basically. And adorably awkward eye flirts right back with May, which is great. And she just goes into a little like nickname mode where she's like, as you wish Princess.

And she does this like gentlemanly body language where she like, sweeps her arm across like, like she's being chivalrous to a woman who can't see her doing this. So like, it's like, there's a lot of things going on here. So #1 the nickname. So the Princess nickname, which I'm convinced I has been calling May in her brain for quite some time and it just like comes out naturally in this moment. It's such a like fantastical, playful thing.

And then she like goes into like princely mode where she's like her their body language, like she's play like playing along with this thing with May and it's playful. And I is again, rarely playful. She's only playful with May. So it's really cute that she just like defaults into this. So this is I being I, not I pretending to be umm. You can tell by the fact that she's being super playful and

stuff. So like when May asks her out, she's like, yes, go out with me. I is basically the body language read. I do love that. I mean, again, she it's not that she's like forgetting that May is blind. It's just like what she does. It's what she feels in your body language. Yeah, it's cute. It is. It's very cute, but it's just, I don't know, she understands that she it's not getting across. I don't think that part has

clicked. No, I think it's just I feels this, therefore I is doing it in the moment. It's it has nothing to do with like what? Like she's not doing it for to impress May. She's doing it because it's what she feels, which is the bigger thing. So it's a betrayal of eyes feelings in the scene, the way her body is kind of responding because it's not for May's benefit because she cannot see her. It's eye just feeling this and doing it. Yeah. All right. Anything else about that scene?

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It's just a place to enjoy queer content and know that you're not alone and connect with other people who love the same things you do. All links are in the description. All right, so jumping over to Part 2. So May and I agree to go out together and so May in the prior scene was in her night dress, which kind of important. So like basically Todd woke her up or whatever had this whole fight. So May's like I have to like get presentable for outside.

So she goes to take a shower and then May or May I is like hanging out in May's room, I think, or just whatever in the house. And so she's texting Jan mommy does this and she's like, listen, Jan, I'm going to take her out or whatever. And she's like, but you know, my cover was almost blown because her cousin showed up and Jan's like, were you smooth about it? And it's just my favorite part. Eyes never smooth. And she's like, no, but luckily umm didn't know him so it was fine.

And then Jan's like that's real convenient girl. But when Jen asks if she was smooth about it, eyes response is smooth. My foot and I just I I loved I died at that response. She's like, no, no, I was. Not at all. The least amount of smooth you could be. At least eyes not delusional about her spy capabilities. She's she's not. Yeah, it's a good thing. It is a good thing.

OK. And then I admits that, like it basically, once Todd showed up, she's like, I honestly wasn't paying attention to how, like, smooth I was being because her whole focus was on protecting May. And she says it like in the text to Jan, which again, revealing. And Jan's like, I'm still not convinced that like this woman isn't setting you up. I think that you were came off as smooth because she wanted you to because, girl, you're a disaster. And I still think she's behind

all of this. OK, Yeah. So why I I'm just very curious about why May making I look smooth because she's behind. Like I don't understand how that would help. So in the conversation, I didn't write it all down, but like in the conversation, basically Jan says something like I basically like she was insinuating that like May, no, she's I and not umm. And she's like, well, if May is trying to pretend that you're UMM, then it's in her benefit for that discussion to go

smoothly, which was true. It is exactly what happens. That's why May jumps and he goes, This is why I never let you guys meet Tom because that's exactly what happened. But I is not not convinced that Mae knows who she is and she's like, that seems extreme and weird, but this is a child porno novel. So that is what's happening. But basically in this conversation, Jan's like no girl. We need to like we have the

phone number. We need to catch me with the cell phone going off when somebody, when one of us calls this number, we have to like confirm that she's not, she is or isn't involved in this based on the information that we have. And I is like, listen, girl, I've been spending actual time with her. She just learned about the International Lawyers Association thing. And she's like, it's not her. I'm taking her off the fucking

list. Like I decide that unilaterally she's no longer a suspect because I said so, because how could this angelic human be a suspect? Like all the things that I is actually learning about May does not add up to her being nefarious. So that I was like, fuck this Jan. Like you don't know her. I'm getting to know her. I'm telling you she's not evil. So take her off the list.

Let's stop going down this road. And we cut to Jan's reaction to receiving this text and the just confusion and disbelief that I has the audacity to just cross her off the list because Jan's probably thinking that because she's pretty, but there is a lot going on that she doesn't. Well also like Jian knows that I that Nae knows this is I. So like this conversation is funnier because Jian is basically being like girl, if she didn't think you were umm, which she doesn't, then like

this would play. But I was like, no, no, there's no way. We. Really got to make that murder board because everybody, I mean, the the answer is that everybody knows everything except I and Pang. I'm paying. Yeah, I'm paying. I've no idea what's going on. Everybody else knows. So that that is true. It's weird that Jan is still playing along with us. Like a Jan could have been like, girl, she knows her eye. Like, why is Jan playing along with us?

What is her benefit to playing along with us? Is my question a mini sode? Oh, Jan. Just Jan's point of view of some of these things because Jan really could have given her more information so many times, especially now. Like what is the benefit? I guess the benefit is like, I guess Jan, the reason she plays along with this is because she's like she knows the history of umm and and May. And I wonder if she senses that May is the one that called and it's like, did they get into a

fight? Like was made jealous? Like what happened? Like what was that conversation with UMM on her wedding night? Why the fuck was UMM calling May on her wedding night? Like, I wonder if Jan is like freaking out and can't really say any of these things because she's like, well, if May is involved, like we have an inside man with I, and if I's cover is blown, then we I can't investigate Mae on Umm's behalf. So I wonder if that's where

Jan's kind of coming from. And like, she's basically trying to warm an eye covertly to be like, girl, she knows more than you think. You know, you need to be fucking careful and eyes like, whatever, She's perfect. Jan. Let's stop investigating her. Yeah, that's that's true. All right, so that that is

hilarious. Yeah she's like it's kind of hilarious trying to lead the horse to water right now, but it does make sense cuz even if she told I and like still tried to get I to be undercover, I is terrible at being undercover yes. So nothing would work. No. So that's no fair. No also she's probably like I because she is a rider diaper oom. So she doesn't really know out and left things too. So she's probably like hands off of like don't say the least amount.

So I don't ruin anything for UMM as well. Yeah, because again, she's also trying to like, I guess the other thing with Jay, I guess the other weird part of this is that Oom sent I to break up with May being like once I once I sit, once I says those words, then May knows I sent her there. So I guess if like I doesn't do that, then like then like Oom's wish is not being fulfilled and like Oom's sin can't be resolved. I don't know.

This whole thing is a hot mess basically, is what I'm saying. And there's a lot to think about, yes, but we stopped thinking in the next scene because I, I, I text Jan and she's like, investigation's off Jan, whatever. And then May emerges from the shower to put lotion on her legs. Yes, let's get into the scene. So let's get into this. May comes into the room. I. Puts her phone away very quickly. And again, I she would not have noticed you were on your phone to begin with.

No, but I think it was more so the guilt of talking about whether or not May was involved at all in this. She's like, oh, I just, she wants to put it all the way. She doesn't want to think about that part. She just wants to be with May. And then I seems to get panic slightly because, you know, the pretty lady is now just in a bathrobe and all I can do right now is stare, which is typical

for her and is a possibility. Like, again, this is a great opportunity for her just to stare because I doesn't. My gosh. Mae doesn't know she is, but she is hoping she is. Listen, this entire scene is an opportunity for everybody, OK? Because I'm convinced Mae did this on purpose because she could have done this in the

bathroom. She could have put on lotion in the bathroom, but I think she did this came out into her bedroom, sat on a chair and did this because she was no, she either knew or was hoping I was like still in the room because she left her in the room and Ajit, she was hoping I would still be there waiting in the room. So this is all this is part of May's flirting game that she started in the and she started in her office where she was like, well, I'm going to ask you out on a date.

And then she's like showing all she's doing all the things she can do to be like is to get I interested in her basically. So this is part of her flirting. So May's flirting seems to have a theme song because the first episode she was flirting by trying to take care of her and bandage her finger. This one, she's putting lotion on her legs. And then we hear the Love on the Brain song music underneath

again, because Rihanna's back. Yeah. Also back in the flirting, Rihanna's here for the flirting. This scene really could have been a great product placement scene. Seriously, that would have been so organic. Seriously, if they had a lotion partner, this would have been great. But I think we, I think it had to be lotion because I don't think they had like a brand deal with any kind of lotion. They had like face cleaning products. And then noodles. It'd be really weird.

She came out with noodles. I mean, I'd be into it, but it'd be kind of less organic if she was just like, I need a snack. And now that I shower anyway, so yeah, a snack in the bedroom, I is immediately a goner. Like immediately. Because she comes in and to your point is like, Oh my God, robe, which means there's no clothes under that robe or there's limited clothes under that robe. So she freezes and she's like, OK, And then May has the lotion bottle.

When she opens the lotion bottle, I puts together what's about to happen and like starts to gay panic immediately. And then you watch her gay panic more and more because she's like, Oh my God, an ankle, Oh my God, a shin and then a thigh, 2 thighs, Oh my God. And like I like fucking panicking. And but then like she's like, she doesn't know I'm here or whatever, I'm just going to

watch. And she like very intently is like watching may put lotion on her legs and is just enjoying the view because I could be a gentlewoman and leave, but she doesn't. And since she uses her own cosplay privileges to like, watch this play out until she finally just starts like shaking herself back into like, you know, being present. And this is like, what am I doing? What am I doing? I will tell you what she's doing.

She's continued to do what she's been doing this whole time, which is giving yourself what she wants just enough before she has to bring it back to the mission. Like knowing that she can't fully be present because this isn't what she thinks. This isn't for her. And like in this case, it wasn't pretending to be. It was being respectful and telling her blind girlfriend that she is in the room. So like no snap out of it.

You have to let her know that you're able to see her and she doesn't have to do any like she could make any sort of noise to alert Mei. It doesn't have to be actual where it's like you can panic all you want just make a sound like put your phone on the table. Anything that would alert her, she does silently gulp while she's staring at her silently, silently. So that doesn't even help. But hilarious. She didn't want to get caught. She's like, I like what's

happening right now. But in her defense, she does catch herself fairly quickly. Like she does stare, but she could have let that go on longer. But it's going to go on for quite some time. But yeah, you're right. But yeah, like, Mae only got to, like, a shin and a calf. She didn't get to both legs. So before I was like, I'm here. Then you, like, kind of see her debating internally. Like, what do I do? Like, I know I have to tell her, but like, how?

Like, how do I let her know that I was watching her, Right. Like, this is getting more awkward by the 2nd. What do I do? Yeah, it's really funny. I she's just so adorably awkward. I swear to God. It's so funny. But yeah, I love when she like alerts made her presence. She's like, yes. And then she gets up and starts moving around. Like, what was she doing?

She would be like, I just arrived May May, who knows the complete layout of this room and I is coming from the side of the bed where the entrance to the room is not so like she was obviously in the room the whole day. Like there was no playing this off, is what I'm saying. Yeah, yes, there. The way she comes over, like she is making like talking, wow, she's walking over. So there's no way that May wouldn't know where she's coming

from. I mean, which is only an issue if May wasn't expecting her to still be there, which is not the case. And that's also like kind of the whole plot of the show. Like it's only OK because May knows what's going on. Yes, May consented to I watching her put lotion on her legs before I consented to it. May consented to I literally yes, she consented to all of the stuff with I. And it's obvious because May is

completely unfazed. Like when I is like awkwardly like I'm in the room May basically by making noise, Mae just keeps rubbing the lotion into her legs like it's it's super normal. Like this is totally normal. Umm umm does this all the time. She doesn't get startled at all. No, but I do wonder like internally is Mae nervous at all? Because I is like seeing more skin on display than she's ever shown.

Like she's basically showing I like her lower body essentially like for the first time and she can't gauge the reaction. But like I wonder if she is a little nervous to like actually go through this. I mean, she's clearly confident. It doesn't show it, but we've all seen she's a good liar. So like this is a poker face from May. But now that you say that, we do get to the point where they she laid down in bed with her the first time and she was she looked nervous. So that's what I mean.

That is very important. She's getting more vulnerable with eyes. What I mean? And like, I wonder if Mae is like nervous a little bit about that. She definitely doesn't show it though. But but I again, to your point, how do I handle this sexual situation? So Ma, I decides to pick the most least sexual thing ever to bring up and she's like, tell me about your dad, Mae. Tell me about your family. Like I this. This is the best time to bring that up, right?

Yeah. She's like, let's put cold water on this whole situation. Tell me about your family, which seems to distress you. That's why I think it's really funny. Again, she didn't bring it up earlier. She brings it up now during this, like, sexual tension moment. That's when I was like, your family. May May has to be like, darn it, I I was over here really trying. She's flirting with her. She's like, damn it, why would

you do this now? Because she flips again, flips the conversation around really fast. Be like, no, May or no I we're going to go out on a date. This is date talk, not family talk. But May explains that her dad doesn't handle it well, that she has a girlfriend and that's why you're a secret. OK So she says he doesn't handle it well that I have a girlfriend that's why you're a secret. So unless I'm not remembering something, it's interesting choice of words because, and it

may be a translation error too. If the dad knows she has a girlfriend, but I as a secret, that means I'm trying to figure out the right words to say this does this, Is this making sense? It does. I think what you're saying is like she because it's translated in present tense, like I have a girlfriend, then that means the dad would know who she's dating. And so if she's saying you're a secret, it makes it like less

possible and not it's OOM. Yeah, but I wonder if it's like, again, a translation thing to be like, he doesn't handle it well that I'm. I date women. And so like, that's why our relationship is secret. That's what I was thinking. Like it had to be something like that. Yeah, but also like or it could be a tip to I that like, our relationship was hidden for this reason. Because again, I is like, why

did UMM never mention this? So I wonder if like this is more of a more of information for I to put the Umm Mei relationship into context to be like, we were closeted because of my dad, who's obviously very powerful, you know? Yeah. Thank you for your insight. But yeah, I again, when May is like spoon feeding her information, I does not put it like does not think it's weird that like she's explaining their their quote relationship in explicit detail. Be like, well, remember Ohm?

I was like, I I remember, I remember got it. That's a really bad spot. I. That there's no doubt about that I know. However, May is really good at what she does and she. Starts. Talking in double meetings again and she says and our relationship hasn't been great lately, which causes I to ask for clarification be if May is talking about the relationship with her father or with her. I mean, the answer is both. Like the answer is yes.

She says that yeah. And then she keeps kind of going with like she being May with this kind of comparison where she compares her relationship with her father with the relationship with umm, and it's like kind of frightening a little bit, but like we'll kind of go with it. And her explanation is basically that the relationship is strained and awkward after the truth is revealed, which is true

to both relationships. Like once the truth of who May is comes out to her father, their relationship gets fucking weird and toxic and more toxic and terrible. Same thing with UMM. Because when the truth of I'm in love with your twin came out, shit got real awkward. Awkward with UMM and I do wonder though, like when oh is it? I asked her something about it and then May says you never like telling me the truth. And then I do wonder like who exactly is May talking about in this line?

Because again, this is all double meaning, like if she talking about. Boom. I herself because like, no one's telling anybody the truth in the scene. She's talking about Pluto the whole show. Pluto. Yeah, exactly. I mean, she she's definitely enjoying playing with her words because for sure, again, I is not telling her the truth. She knows that. But again, no. One's telling the truth.

No. And that's so like, yeah, so this like on the surface, this line reads us like it's about umm, like umm doesn't didn't tell her the truth. But I also wonder if like, this is like some information for I again, to put together the UMM and, and May's situation because I has been like wondering, like I has been on this journey of learning all of these secrets about her sister and being like, what the fuck? Umm, you never told anybody

meaning me about any of this. And like, here's me being like your secret. Your sister was super secretive. Like, yeah, our relationship was secretive because of my dad. But then like UMM was never truthful with me. That's a lot for I to learn about UMM, you know, cuz like she's been suspecting that umms had secrets and then like to have the girlfriend confirm it. That's something that is that's

true too. I feel like there's still guilt there for herself because she knows she's not telling her the truth for sure. And it's just it's very layered. Exactly. It's very layered, which is fun. So then May continues the flirting and when I asks I can't can't get over the fact that UMM told May to fuck off and then she came back as UMM to like break up with her and May immediately forgave UMM quote for run for like leaving her

basically. So I asked again, she's like, well, like you forgave, UMM, basically after you, like I told you to leave or whatever. And May again at this stage, May, I was sitting on like the edge of the bed and then May was sitting on the the chair where she was putting the lotion on. And so I was like, well, Beasley, you forgave me so easily. Like it's still weird. May gets up perfectly, locates eye on the bed and then like leans into eyes space and puts one hand on eyes thigh for quote

balance. Well, yeah, they are, because the thigh is much more stable than the shoulder. She had one hand on the shoulder. She did both. But yeah, you're right. Because you need all the stability. I thought she all the stability hand and then put left hand on the shoulder, right hand's on the thigh. So eyes trapped, basically. And then she tells I the reason she could forgive her so easily is because I love you.

OK. And then I who's been suspecting that a lot of love is coming from May, like gets that verbally said out loud aloud and confirm. And I just like melts in that moment because like I said, like May's love has been this constant or undercurrent in every interaction that they've had so far. And that is the thing that has clouded eyes judgement since the very beginning when it comes to May.

It's that love that she feels constantly and at this point she is clinging to the fact that this love for like, boom air quotes. But in this scene, it's so hard and near impossible for I to like not feel the actual love May is directing at her. Especially when the bitch has got a grip on your thigh. Like I was a guitar in the scene. That's really what it was like.

She's like, I'm going to have you as close as possible, hands all over you, intimately get you to realize I am speaking to you. And what I'm saying is that May has mad game and I falls for it every fucking time. Every time.

But if then they get this like wide shot of them in the room and if you look at eyes, body language, it's still she's like, yes, trapped where May is holding her, but like she's leaning far as far back from May as she possibly can by like being in May's grip because the deception and OOM is still the

gap between them at this point. And I think I is still very conscious of both of those things and is like restraining herself basically from like believing fully that this is about her, even though I think she feels like it is. It's like her feelings and her brain are battling in the scene. Essentially, yes. Also this is a lot. There's a little bit of gay panic there, so much gay panic. Her hand is on her thigh. Yes, that is.

And as the girlfriend, it'd be weird to be like, please don't touch me. There's already a lot going on in her brain, but now it's just short circuiting while trying to figure out everything and it's just it's too much. It's a lot a. Lot. OK so then we head over to I and Pang talking while planting stuff in Pang's garden and I is telling Pang about how Mei kissed her the day they first met and Mei must really love UMM

to do that. And I mean if this was really the scenario she thought she was going into it, it wouldn't be out of place. Like UMM is her girlfriend even if they like she didn't even know that UMM and her weren't in a great place. Like she thought that they were together. Yeah it like again, the whole situation is weird because they were together after UMM got married and then UMM was like go break up with her for me. I so like, I think I like what did I think she was going to

walk into exactly? Like did she think that Mae hated, UMM, isn't right? To your point, as all the thoughts were going on in her head, No, the minute she saw May, all the thoughts were gone. All of them. She was probably just like I can't believe I have to do this. Didn't think about anything. Yeah. And then as soon as she saw May, all thoughts were just out and gone. And yeah. And like that wouldn't that's not really weird. They haven't seen each other in a little bit.

I I don't know. I didn't even know that. What did Jan tell her? Like he's like, what did I actually know going into that scenario? I don't think she knew anything at all. So it wouldn't be weird. It's like a kiss. But it really wouldn't. No, it wouldn't be weird at all. But she's again, this is this is I snitching on herself because she's so fixated on the love she feels from May that's there for Oom. So I it, which you know, I can keep saying is something that I is envious of.

She's envious of all this love that just gets thrown at Oom. Well, meanwhile, she's like craving it for herself and nobody seems to direct it just at her. It's always oh. And so she's just, I think she's jealous and fixated on that part of this whole fuckery that's happening with May. Yeah. It's like, it can't be her, right? That that's literally what this is. And also like, it didn't hit me that this is a flashback.

So while May in the interim of May, you know, being like, I love you and then I think what happened was she's like, I love you and then she went to go get changed and then May and then eyes having this flashback and or the journal entry. She puts it here. She's like, let me put things into perspective. May, I was talking with my bestie and so fixated on that love, you'd be thrown at me. Wow, now I feel stupid. I did not catch that. That was a flashback. Me either.

It took me like 4 times of watching this to realize this was a flashback because the next the next part didn't make sense. I was like why is I wearing the same clothes as when they I didn't see. I don't pay attention to the clothing you do. So I thought this was just another day. Yeah, I thought so too. It's it's just doesn't feel like a flashback. It's a flashback. It took me a while to figure that out because I was just like Oh my.

Did they have this conversation off screen after I gay panicked about the legs because then like it. No, because the May gets changed. That's the next step after the lotion. And so like this, the flashback, that makes so much more sense. It took me a while. Well, shit. OK, well let's continue with this flashback. So Hank seems really offended that may kiss eye the moment she saw her. Yes, like Tia. Why did I do that? And so.

Pang's like, all right, I know what I'm going to do, let's just keep going with May is behind it. So Pang asks I if May really loves Oom. Or if she. Was just pretending and continues to say like Pang continues to say that she thinks May went overboard because she's scared of getting caught. Why is it weird that she would kiss her girlfriend? Listen, right? No, exactly.

OK Jan we can give some grace to because she knows that she knows what's actually happening and that May knows this is I. But paying has no idea. I think paying is like why is paying obsessed with the fact that like May is deceiving I when May like umm was her girlfriend? It's not that weird if you don't know the history of May and, UMM, like actually like Jan does. I'll get into like, why she's like trying to do this.

But I mean, the way that she learned about it, yeah, she has material motives, but it's not that weird. The way she went about it is. It's not the right way because it's not weird. However, it's not weird. For some reason you both think. It is. Well, yeah, yeah, yeah, I don't, right? She kissed me. She kissed her girlfriend of X amount of time she has engagement rings with.

It's not that weird anyway. And of course, Peg continues on by saying if May knew I wasn't OOM, she would become a a suspect. And the look that I gives Pang, Oh my God, it looks. Could. Kill man, seriously? Oh she is pissed like how dare because now there are two people in her life being like oh this person is deceiving you? She's out for herself, she's nefarious. And I was like oh you're still

going with that theory? Which makes Fang so confused, but it was like her reaction to this and asked her aren't you looking into it yourself? Why are you asking me that? Yeah cuz she's like, she's like you're still pretending to be umm to get Intel, right? Because that is what she left Pang's apartment in the last episode saying like I am going to go back there and pretend to be umm. I'm going to figure this out. OK I so now not only does hang,

no I is catching feelings now. Like I isn't even telling her everything that's going on, which has to hurt her because I is conveniently leaving out the parts where she is forgetting that she's not actually. Right and. Yeah, you, you bring it up later in the episode, but you had me watch the music video for A Princess's Tale, the OST. Yeah, Princess's Tale. And this whole thing, like the situation is kind of like that music video.

Like she's supposed to kill her target but then ended up falling for her and losing track of the mission. Yeah, So good. And so. Pang lists everything out for her and she's like, you met her once, she kissed you, and now you think she loves you. Are you crazy? I don't like. Yes, I mean minus the kissing part. That is how it went for May. I mean, she did get life advice that changed her life but. Yeah.

Lance was really all it took. And you should know Pang like, well, it's like we'll get into it when we get to that scene. But for May it was more like somebody sees me because I saw her and was like, girl, you need to defend yourself. Like don't let them like bully you. Like stand up for yourself. Do something like she saw me as a person and like spoke to her and like nobody had done that. Everybody was like, she's the rich girl. She's just like this nerdy suck up or whatever.

And but I saw her as a person. That was the thing that changed her. And then here's I like and that's the thing that May needed at that time. And then here's I who wants and needs to be loved. And then May is willingly giving it to her. And that's that's where the conflict comes from, where she's like, but then she's like, why is it always for fucking UMM? And UMM was going to throw it away like, and she just can't

get over that. She's like, if I had this, I would never let it go. And like, here's UMM who had two people who were like throwing love at her. And she's just, I think she's pissed off at that. That's fair. But yeah, like paying, it's not that weird for she was pretending to be her sister. Is it? Is it really that weird that made of any of these things? It's not, it's really not. Pang's just jealous Pang. A part of Pang needs May to be the bad person. I agree.

Yes, you're right. Then she because if May is the bad person, Pang doesn't have to feel guilty for hating and resenting her being with I right now. Yeah, no, all of Pang's stuff in this conversation is that she's like, first of all, you kissed a girl. What the fuck? I I don't care if it was under the umm, disguise or not, Why couldn't it have been me what she says later? And then she's like mad that like here's I like completely changing right in front of her

because of this girl. And so Pang is just extremely jealous in this conversation. Like, yeah, she's worried about her friend too. She's like, girl, you could be getting deceived and played, but also she's like, what the fuck? You fell so easily for this woman. What the fuck? I like I've been here the whole time. That's what her energy is on

this scene. But you're right, and I love that you said paying needs may to be the villain because paying views her as the villain and it's like I you also have to see her as the villain. I mean, she immediately, she immediately jumped to she's the she's the bad person here because it's that's the easiest thing to it's like, oh, I'm not jealous. That's a bad person for you. Right in Pang's brain. It's you belong with me by Taylor Swift. He's like, can't you see that?

I forgot the words. Don't judge us, pooja. Sorry, Fuja. It's the most common song too. We suck. Anyway, let's keep going with this conversation. Now you have my brain. Like, I need to figure it out. All right? But, oh, can't you see that I'm the one that understands you? Like, that's basically Pang's energy in the scene. Yeah, I had something, and now I forgot it. I'm sorry. It was something about paying. Paying. Yeah, it was so. OK. I know what it was.

It was it was sorry. It's easier for paying to deal with her own feelings when I isn't really with anybody. But now that oh May's here, it was a possibility. So it's easier for her to deal with her feelings, never thinking that it wasn't actually a possibility. And so now that that is here, it's hurting her and really getting to her. Yeah. Because it's not that I is falling for somebody, it's that I is falling for a woman. And so she's like, well, what

the fuck? Like, you were an option this whole time, like that was, and you never looked at me. Like that's where this is all coming from. Which, like, relatable. Having feelings for your best friend sucks. It sucks and I doesn't know any of this is going on. No, because I never knows what's going on. Ever. She's clueless. Again, the story of the show. I defends herself by telling Pang that it wasn't Mei kissing her that made her think all this, it was the feeling that

told her it was real. And then she says I can really sense that she truly loves Oom. And I think. The reason she specifically says this is to remind herself that this love is supposed to be for UMM, though she does desperately want it to be for herself. But this is also really the first time I did something for herself. Because yeah, she has some good things in her life, but for the most part she has done things to make things easier for other

people. And this, just this once, she is actually being selfish and giving into what she wants. That's why she stares longer and didn't tell Mae that she was watching her foot lotion on for a little while. This is the first time she really is being selfish, and it's like she's taking a little bit more and more each time because she's getting a taste of actually thinking of for herself, of herself for the first time. Yeah, that's a really good point.

No, that's all very, very true. Because, like, that gets reinforced after we get out of the flashback. And then we cut back to I, who's waiting outside of Mae's closet because Mae's changing now. Because that's, you know, put lotion on, get out of the robe. And she's flipping out, obviously, because, like, Mae's naked in the other room. So she's like, losing it, OK. And she's cracking under the weight of her own disguise basically.

And I think in this moment she's struggling with her feelings for May. Yes, but also like her loyalty to Oom. So to your point, she is being selfish, which is a test of her loyalty to Oom. But also like the feelings that she's having are also new. So she's also grappling with that too. Like like what? You know, she's never been interested in anybody the way she's interested in May or had the feelings for somebody that she's having for May.

So she's like grappling with all these new things and being selfish, like you said, at Umm's expense, which makes it even worse, like in her brain. And I assume that like, you know, you brought up her feeling guilty. And I, I assume that the guilt has been going on with I since this like she's been having to cosplay as like Umm's alleged, you know, cosplay with Umm's, you know, alleged girlfriend at

this point. Even though like the pieces of Ummen may make less sense every single day, the more you learn about them, the less sense they make. And then when you when you get the truth, it makes it doesn't make much. Yeah, it still doesn't make sense. So like I think eyes are so consumed with guilt that like she cannot math that math. That's not mathing. And just as like, I don't get it because like, again, UMM didn't break up with May until after

the wedding. So that like it plays it like UMM was holding on to May, right. And that Oom was the one that was initiating the breakup. So like, which is confusing for I, who's like who was actually not in love with who? And then she meets May and feels all this love coming from May that's directed at Oom. But then when May talks about her relationship with OOM, she's like well you, we have this big fight and you told me to leave. Which sounds like a breakup definitely, right?

Sounds like UMM broke up with her, right? So should I feel guilty about any of this really? Because like UMM asked her to go and break up with May. So when it comes to like her loyalty towards UMM and feeling guilty, I mean, should she feel guilty towards UMM, UMM was like, please go break up with her. So like, there should be no build on that side. But there seems to be some of that still. That's a good thing to bring up again.

Like she was literally sent there to break up with her, so why is it a bad thing for her to? I mean, I guess because it's her sister's ex now, but she's. Yeah, but I think that. So I think there's that. But then the bigger thing that's more obvious right now is that, like, she's deceiving May because May thinks she's. Yeah. And she's having feelings for herself. And then she's like, but she's clearly in love with Oom. Even though Oom was throwing her

out like trash. She's still in love with Oom. But yeah, like, it's just something I is, is is like the devoted big sister. But then, like, is lying to May. And I think the lying to May is the part that's starting to outweigh all the Oom stuff at this stage where she's like, she's throwing all this love at me, but it's not for me. It's for umm, who didn't want her.

And what is this? Basically, there is this is such a short scene with just her alone, but there is so much going on through her head between this like guiltiness and I mean, again, when you brought up like these feelings are new, that is very important to keep in mind too because feelings are very confusing. I don't even understand who can you even understand feelings? What is feeling right? But the way she acts in this scene too reads to me as

frustration. And I think she's just also frustrated that she's gotten this far in still being pretending to be, not knowing where to go either. Which how do you. It's like when she was trying to figure out how to let May know that she was staring at her putting lotion on. Like, how do I get myself out of this? Like, how do you get out of the situation? But you're lying to someone you're falling in love with. Right. Exactly. Yeah, It's impossible. It's an impossible situation. Oh girl.

So. Mae then says Oom to get her attention at to come in to help zip up her outfit and the Mae's face when I goes to zip her up is proof that she picked this shirt just so she could get I closer to her. Yes, another way to flirt with her because yeah, put your hand really close to my back, Fill me up. I have a whole thing about this. But yeah, her face was just like yay, eyes close to me. Just yeah, cuz that was for no one's benefit. That was just amazing, amazing

reaction. Like eyes nearby. But also I look so defeated while she's zipping her up. And then goes on to ask her how she forgave her as soon as she came back. And so fixated on that, too. Yeah. And it's like she's forcefully trying to get her back into the mission because of Pang. So like, it's that flashback was just in her head. Still makes sense. The flashbacks they're playing in her head. So I need, she needs to stick to the mission, don't get distracted.

And so a lot of times that I is forgetting that she's supposed to be in this scene, she's not. So everything May is saying to her is bittersweet because, yeah, they're very sweet things, but she knows they're not for her. She desperately wants it to be about her, but she knows they're for OOM, even though they're not. But that's, no, they're not. It's just always the caveat we have to put in there because they're not, They're not so

funny. OK. And then, OK, so then May's response is amazing where she's like, well, our, you know, the way I feel is kind of like those songs on the radio. You ever hear songs where they're like love songs? They're like, you had me at hello. She's like, that's how I feel felt when we were reunited. That's also how May felt about I the first time they met also. So like you had me at hello.

It was basically May's point of view about their relationship, which really doesn't answer I's question because she's basically just like it's love at first sight for me and therefore everything you do is forgivable. Which is not a super healthy way to navigate a relationship if you really think about that. Like May, if UMM does some fucked up shit it's OK to be mad at her. You don't need to forgive her. You can talk about it like adults.

But anyway. So then after she delivers that line, she that's when she fully turns around to face I and then I gets gets the view from the front and it's like you dress up really nicely. So I this is flirting what you're doing. Like you're actively flirting with me right now. This is not part of the UMM disguise. She walked into this scenario OK after having the flashback being like she's in love with UMM, here's I actively flirting back with me. So like she did this to yourself?

So May of course flirts back because she's pleased that I finds her attractive because that was the goal all along with these two scenes. So because if you think about it, May is pulling out every power move she possibly can because she doesn't know if I is into her. She has no idea if she's eyes type.

She doesn't know that she knows how she feels and she knows that she's not in love with UMM, but like, so there's still a level of uncertainty for May to navigate, even though she's like, oh, this is the one that changed my life. She doesn't know how I feel. So it's like A and May is doing everything she can to be like, are you into me? So let's think about what she just did.

She's like comes out of the bathroom and she's like, I'll just show eye my legs really quickly under the guise of putting lotion on. So she's like, here's my legs, I'm putting lotion on. And then she's like, I come into the closet. Please look at my bare back and my bra while you zip me up. And now look at the view from the front eye. If May could see she would have bagged eye on day one. That's all I'm saying because like I stood no chance in any of these scenes.

Like May was like giving her a 360 view of everything and being like, do you like what you see? I and then I was like, you dress up nicely and then I responds as if she's into her because she is. So May wins in this scene, basically. So what does I do? I calls her Princess again. That's the nickname she just organically came up with for May. So she starts pet naming her like, I, you did all this to yourself. Nobody. This is not part of the mission. You're just doing this.

But this time is really interesting. So the full line that she says is you look like a Princess fleeing her palace. So there's more imagery to the nickname than just the pet name. She's gifting May. And this line struck me as really interesting. So if you take this line and couple that with in episode 1, when Mae kisses her and we get the poetry and buys Brain of like their first kiss, you know, it's more evidence to me that

Mae's eyes muse. OK, so this is something that's unconditional unconsciously happening to I where she's coming alive when she's around May and you can see it in this scene. She's glowing in this scene and literally like in the scene when she's talking to me and she's like, you look like a Princess. She's bouncing, like, on her heels, like, she's like an excited child, right? And like, we noticed a couple of times throughout this scene, like, she gets more playful when she's around Mae.

And like, the way she's describing this moment is very creative sounding. She's not just being like, yeah, you look hot. She's, like, poetically describing Mae in the scene. And the more time she spends with me, the more this kind of part of her personality comes

out. And what I love too about the conclusion of this little dialogue that they're having is that it we get a glimpse of how Mae really does compliment I. Not only does she inspire I unconsciously, she also compliments I because she plays right along with this story that I is saying on the spot. She's like, oh, you're the Princess fleeing the palace. And I and then Mae basically says, well, you better wear a crown and be my Prince is

basically what she says. And so like, she's playing along with this story that I is free, you know, fan fictioning right in front of her. And I love this because May is is basically not only the person that plants the seed plant, like reignites I's passion for storytelling. She's also is the muse that gets I to tell her own stories again.

And like, it kind of comes out of this, this the Princess fairy tale imagery she's crafting with May, which later translates to the actual novel that she writes. So I thought that was really cute and a clever way to do that. Just a really great way for them to bond to. It's really cute. Goes back to your, like, storytelling bonds you and. And they're just, they're really cute. They're super fucking cute. And then we go to where I is supposed to help Nate put on her makeup.

But first we make sure to get a shot. Yeah, we make sure to get a shot of the countless candles that are lit around the room, which begs the question once more. Who lit the? Candles. Seriously, who is lighting all these fucking candles on the Thai girl love shows? Who lights them? They're not big candles. The other question is what is the candle budget valid? But also, just a quick shout out to Patreon member White Cat 112, who asked for who lit the

candles merch. Ask and you shall receive merch coming soon. We already picked out the candles. So that's the that's the progress so far. But back to the makeup scene. I love how much I is freaking out about having to do maze makeup because she's worried about making it ugly. And it's just. She's not a huge makeup person, no. And so it's like. You don't really work with makeup much and then you're asked to put it on someone else and it's just like, I don't know

what I'm doing. I would not know what. To do, I'm like. Sure. I think this goes here. Yeah, this is I being honest because like Om is a makeup girlie so like Om would have no issue with us, but I was like, I'm not Om. So what if I fuck it up? May? What if I fuck it up? And of course, may who's just like I don't really care what you do. I just want you near me and to stare at me. And she's like, as long as I'm pretty to you, that's all that

matters. And I if I was smooth, she would have been like then you don't need makeup. You're beautiful no matter what, but I wouldn't perfect. I is not at that level of smoothness. So instead she like keeps going with the Princess thing where she tells her you're a sweet talker Princess, which like she's a lawyer, she's obviously a sweet talker.

But like anyway, she keeps running with the Princess story, which I think is important because this is just, this is another interaction where I is literally being I. Like she's not being UMM, she's being I. She's crafting this fairy tale about the two of them as they're living their life, which is a very creative minded thing to do. Umm would never is what I'm saying. And then, OK, so then I was like, OK, I guess I'll give this a shot.

And so she like this would have been a great product placement scene. I'm also surprised this wasn't. But yeah, it's they've done multiple things now in this episode that proved that they could have. They could have did. Natural product placements within the episode. Yeah. But anyway, here we are. So I goes to like do Mae's eyebrows essentially, and Mae is like, oh, OK, great, we're starting. And then just cannot help herself and like she grabs on the eye's leg again.

It's like, girl, was this necessary? And that's what I'm saying like any excuse to just feel up eye. She's like, Yep, I'm blind eye. I'm just I'm blind. I don't like she just takes advantage of that so much and eyes like she's blind. Yes, it's fine. There was no need for that other than May wanted to touch eye, which is valid. I just find it really funny that eye does not clock any of that. She's like, I guess this is what blind people do. It's just trying to fill her up.

That's so funny. It's just amazing. But, you know, it's a, it's a May gay thing. A May gay thing. Oh, my God. So of course, when putting someone's makeup on, you have to lean a breath away from their face while you're doing it. So I starts doing that. And then the OST you mentioned earlier, a princess's tail starts playing. This is the first time we hear it in the show, which is why I

brought it up here. So plays in this scene, which the lead up to this scene is the whole you're a Princess running away and my I keeps calling her a Princess. And then as the song is playing, she's like, May really did become a Princess for me. I'm putting her crown on and like all this stuff. So she's writing the fairy tale of the two of them as the song is playing. And if you listen to that song and or watch the music video,

like it's basically about this. So I'm like, did Eyes Brain manifest the song and the music video is my question. Because it's very like a story that's being told about these two women, but in a fantastical way. I mean, yeah, because we hear like journal entries going on underneath scenes like this. So maybe that's that's a really good catch too. Yeah. Because like you said, like what was it about? It was about like my duty is to like take out this woman from

I's point of view. And then like she does it because she falls in love with her and like gives up the mission. And it's basically like literally what ends up happening with I in May. And I think what the first, her first novel was about in in the show, I say in the show, because in the novel it's another story and we'll talk about that later. But yeah, by the way, I was not ready for this music video and how it opens. Oh, my God. No, my, yeah, my first thought.

Oh, my God, Theorists want me to watch it. So I watch. I'm not a music video person, so I don't typically watch these things. And I immediately when it started, I'm like, oh, and then I was like, what in the bodyguard AU is this? Yeah. So if you haven't, we won't spoil it. Go watch the music video because you're I wasn't ready for how this opened. And I was like, what is this? Where is this show?

But then it's like, I'm like, I'm pretty sure this is eyes brain manifesting her and May's story as a music video because it pops up here when she's manifesting that story about them. Anyway, you're welcome. If you haven't seen it, go watch that music video. It's fantastic. It is. OK, so back to the scene. So during this makeup tutorial, I guess I starts mentioning mentions in the journal entry. Basically that's the voice over it that May became a Princess in

her mind. So like a Princess is like special, precious, powerful, coveted, all those kinds of things. And she might, she clarifies, not because she's hot and has money. That's just a bonus. It's because May has this rare virtue that I hasn't hasn't encountered in another person before. So it's like, again, confirmation that like I see as May, like for who she is, it has nothing to do with like how May looks on paper like the superficial stuff, like it's about who May is as a person.

That's what I is, like, attracted to and cannot get out of her head. But I like, wonder, like, what is the virtue exactly she's talking about? Because she doesn't elaborate on that. That's a good question. Yeah, I'm not entirely sure what she's talking about. I think it's like, it could be May's kindness. May's like willingness to like express love that, you know, a lot of people don't do her

vulnerability with. I like, I'm not entirely sure what exactly the virtue is, but yeah, I mean, I don't know what she. Means, but The thing is. May's not fully being herself with I because she's not. She's telling her everything so. I don't. I'm like is. Even what she thinks right now. True. I mean. OK, so I'm going to be stupid for a second. Can you tell me what virtue means? Virtue is like a quality. OK. So maybe just like the strength she has.

Like the strength. Keep going, they gave. Me that may has a lot, which I if that's what the virtue is. The irony is the strength came from I so eyes in love with herself. You heard of your first one, but it could be that her strength may had to want to take on that enough to change and be that strong person. So it easily was. She just needed that encouragement, right? I was her muse in a way. That's what makes them fun. I was the muse to like defend

yourself. And then I and then Maze eyes muse to like be creative. So OK, so that's what they need. I know they're compliments which makes them fun. So in this scene I for sure has feelings for May. Like she cannot stop smiling. She's so focused on May she stares at her lips for like at least 10 seconds and it's so obvious that shame May can't see. And she says in the the voice over that she was starting to believe that May is a gift that UMM gave her, which is true.

And the full line is without realizing it, I became selfish to your point, caught up in the idea that May as a gift a boom had given to me. I mean, and again, it literally happened. And it's still insane that that is what happened. I know I can't get over that that is actually the plot, but it is my favorite part of this interaction. There's a lot of fun stuff in here, but my favorite part is when I start staring at at when eyes, eyes gaze drop to May's lips.

She's not even doing anything with the makeup anymore. Like the makeup is just like she's not even doing anything. She's just holding it against May's hair, and it's just staring at her mouth. And it's like, girl, maybe that's her way for May to because, like, May can't see her staring at her lips, but because she stops, maybe May can. Well, May can't feel May, can't feel her putting the eyebrow makeup on anymore. So, like, I just stopped and it

doesn't say anything. Yeah, it's confusing. But I don't know if she'd still sense that she's close because, like, she didn't, like, go away or anything or shift anything. So she's still staring at her. So I'm like, maybe that's her indication that oh, maybe she's staring somewhere else. Then I think that's what May is left to infer. Cuz like, like again, like the brush is against her hair.

So like, May can still kind of feel eyes near her and I think her hands resting on her chin for like, precision and like, no eyes, just staring very gaily at May not doing the makeup. And it's just what an icon because like, girl, like, what was that? And then May that has to be must know. That has to be so frustrating for May, though, because yeah, she might know, but she can never know for sure. Exactly.

Oh, exactly. And it's just amazing that May, who must be dying to know what I is doing, cannot know. And, like, she doesn't show it, though. She doesn't. If she's frustrated, she doesn't show it. Which, like, the amount of control and restraint from May is remarkable, if that is indeed what is going on with May, which it has to be. And like, I isn't very good at really communicating how she's feeling. She's very body language.

Yeah, she can't, but she's very much action oriented rather than verbalize everything. So that is something that she would have to change and adapt to her May to actually understand what is happening. I mean luckily spoiler, I mean you know exactly because you watch the show but but also May. Is able to. See her again later so. That's helpful. But yeah, this, it has to be super frustrating. I mean, May does smile a lot. So I think maybe she's just hoping I staring at her, you

know? Yeah, I think there's a lot of hope and just being like, right, confidence in her that I can't resist. Yes, confidence is an attractive quality. That is true. That is true. But. I was definitely had to be staring at May's lips for so long because we crossfade from the scene into the next one. So the only plausible explanation is that we were doing this for at least 10 minutes, right?

At least that's valid. Like, I doesn't know how to put makeup on to begin with and then she doesn't have any thoughts in this scene. They're gone now. No thoughts, just gay. No thoughts, just gay. So they go from this daring scene where again, May doesn't actually know what's happening to I and May sneaking out of May's house. And I love how May is just walking normally while I is the one like trying to duck down a little bit so Todd doesn't see them leave.

And I mean like. May is rightfully stone not ducking because it doesn't do anything. It's not like I is crouching down very low to, like, be very sneaky. It's very slight ducking down. Also, Todd's back is towards them. I know. Does it matter? Listen, I was trying to be a secret agent. Yeah, she's mad at it. Like a better spy. Yeah, exactly. You do what you have to do. She had the initial possible music in her brain when she was doing this. And Mae's like, he can't stop

me, it's fine. Anyway. So yeah, they walk past him and then the key information from Tan is that Tan is on the on the phone with Mae's dad and basically he is the one because the confirmation, he is the one keeping tabs on her and reporting it back to her father. Sorry and but he's also like talking about her health and treatment without me being in the room.

So it's like one thing to be controlling with her present, but it's even more disrespectful for her not even to be in the room to know what you're talking about in regards to her own body. Yeah. It's the Todd is not painted as a great person or a benevolent person in this episode, No. Or at least this episode when we're introduced to him, we're led to believe this is one of the worst people. Also, like from previous shows, that's usually how it goes. So we're like fully, fully on

board with that. Yeah. All right. Then they Mission Impossible their way into the garage, basically. And May realizes that I is leading her out of the garage and she's like, wait, girl, aren't we going to take? I thought without, when you hatched this plan, we were going to get in my chariot, AKA at one of the cars in the garage. Why are we leaving? Because she she looks real, real nervous about this. And I was like, girl, that would

be again, street smart eyes. Like if we steal a car, he's going to know what we did and it's easier to track US or whatever. So we can't do that. We got to disappear into the night or whatever, like Batman or some shit. And May looks genuinely nervous when I says this and. Because. May might not be afraid to go about life normally because, again, that's part of her argument that she doesn't have

to move home. But it doesn't mean that if she can avoid an unknown situation, she's not going to like this. Yeah, like, it's obviously better for her to not go into an unknown situation if she doesn't have to. But I is telling her that it's it's necessary right now. Yeah. So for me for like all her bravado of being like, I'm a strong independent woman, like it is scary for her to go outside and be disabled in an abled bodied world basically. Like it is difficult and does

make me feel other. And all this kind of stuff that we'll get into. Like the next half of the episode is basically about like we, we get to walk in her shoes a little bit as what it's like to be disabled in Thailand. Essentially. It's kind of like the gist of the next episode, but like we're leading up to that. And you can see that Mae is unnerved by having to do that. And I think that I notices Mae's uneasy because I's body language completely shifts the minute she recognizes it.

And thanks to our conversation earlier with Tawn, I knows again in her brain knows now, Mae doesn't leave the mansion often. So she and she is an empathetic person and towards people she cares about. So I think she's like, oh, Mae is nervous. I have to make her not feel nervous. So like, to your point, and you know, Nam Tam is a full body actor. So what is I do in this situation? So she shows May with her body language again, May can't see, but this is a reflection of eyes feelings.

What I does is she gets low, like she gets on May's eye level, even like slightly lower, but she's trying to get on May's level. So she leans close until their eyes are level and takes both of May's hands to like show her with her body. Like I, it's like I'm. It's like I'm with you is what she's doing, like with her body language, by grabbing her hands and getting them at eye levels, being like, I'm not talking down to you, I'm with you.

I'm on your level. Like she does that with her body, which she can't make, can't see. But yeah, she's making sure that they're on an equal playing field. Yeah. And because part of it is I here is telling May what to do. And she doesn't want to want May to feel like she is undermining what she wants. She wants her to know that that she does understand where she's coming from. Like just This is why they they can't take the car.

So by her doing this, she's, she's connecting with her and making sure that she knows that she's coming from a good place rather than the controlling people in her life. They're like, no, you can't do that. Yeah. Because yeah, I, it was a good point because I just saw what her family is like. Her cousin seems controlling, the dad seems controlling. So yeah, I is trying to separate that and be like, I'm not trying to control you. It's just that I'm a street

smart in this scenario. Please listen to me. It's basically what she's doing, which is it's really sweet coming from I and after eye does that we get this really quick shot before May starts responding where a where May leans into eye space and the shot is basically very washed out with this white light. And it's real quick before we like go back to like the other shot we're looking at. And it to me, it feels like this dreamlike quality. Because this is part of the fantasy, right?

That's like the, you know, think about it. It's like I got the Princess, they snuck out of the castle past the guards and now like they have to just get past the gate so they can go on their magical adventure. And so it looks fantastical because that's the lead up of the story. They're going on an adventure basically according to I's brain and May jumped into the fantasy with I and and it's basically like tells her like with you, I'm willing to go anywhere, which is true.

And you know how fantastical to hear. And then I is like the biggest confidence boost ever, which is maybe so being like I trust you implicitly. I basically, which I don't think anybody really trusts. I like or she doesn't feel trust. It's like full trust from a lot of people. So like this meant a lot. This person who cannot navigate outside of these castle walls without her is basically saying like, but I trust you to Take Me Out there.

Like that's what a level of trust that she's feeling. And so I smiles and then I love the way she gets all playful when they're going to leave and she like, turns around like a soldier, like a knight or whatever in shining armor. Like it's May's arm and it's like narrow, narrow hallway. Let's go like and like leads her out with all it. She stands up straight for like the first time ever. And it's just it's really cute to see. I respond to that from May and it's just May telling her like,

you know, I trust you. That's all it took. And it was like, I like, like, glows the minute she hears that and just gets all playful and back into, like, the knight in shining armor, which is really cute. It's kind of like, I mean, the way you said that, like, no one really trusts her. But with May say yeah, fully. And with May saying this one thing, it really changed her demeanor, like going back to how you were talking about that.

I's advice to May like changed her trajectory in life like this. They again, it's just been going back to their they complement each other. They're they really make each other better. They do they don't knock each other down like some relationships. So while these two are heading to the bus stop, we go over to I actually don't know which whose place we're in. I think we're at Pang's place and like Pang is still in bed sleeping and Officer Heidi's

like girl, I got to go work. But this is where we learn that Officer and hottie, Officer, Hottie and Tang are together, which mind blown the the first time we watched it. OK. And like it starts with pay with dogs or hottie being like checking Pang's phone. So like they've been together for a while.

That's like level of dress. And she checks the text that comes through and it's from I and I was like, I'm going to take Mae to your shop because there's lots of trees and I was reading this and I was like, is I taking her there hoping may would like run into trees, like to test the blindness, Like what was like the like when out of context, the text reads is really weird because in Pang's brain, they're still doing the is may and nefarious. They're still kind of like

paying at least is on that page. But I was like, I this is a really weird thing to bring up. So it kind of like, it could read like that from Pang, who still thinks May is suspicious. I clarified later in the episode that's not why she said that. She's like, I thought trees would be peaceful. But like, when you read this from Pang's point of view, she'd be like, oh, yeah, yeah. Testing the blindness. Got it, Got it. I because like, this is so

weird. The way she phrased it with no context, the wording is just weird in general. But I. I have to say this. Is another moment where I've watched this multiple times and momentarily forgot about that That was the second scene. Yeah, I know me too and I was like I keep not reading the lots of trees line yes, and I and so when I looked at the note I was

dying. I was like Oh my God, I and right now I mean it does seem to pang that it's like eyes way of proving that she didn't forget about the mission. Yeah, exactly. Or at least that I is playing the double agent and and like she's she could be just making Pang think that, which, you know, still could be. And then she could just be like, Oh no, it was, they're peaceful.

But no, I do feel for paying a bit when she she learns that I is taking Mae to her shop because that again, I doesn't know about paying her feelings at this point and is doing, Oh my God, rubbing it in so bad. I know that from paying's point of view, that's what it must feel like. Yeah, it's just, it's just so. Rough like she now. She's like, fully flaunting it in front of her. Yes, that's what it feel must feel like for paying anyway. Yeah. So that that's really shitty.

And then basically paying gets really absorbed in the mission because like you said, May is her enemy for many reasons. And so she's like, OK, I'm going to prove this. I'm going to get into this bowl. And then poor Officer Hottie's, like, I don't even know what the fuck is going on in this conversation, but she's like trying to engage with paying and like be affectionate and stuff. And like Ping ignores her. And it's like Officer Hottie deserves so much better as a

character. And that was, I will stand by that. GMMTV, you did her so dirty in the show and she deserves better. That is very true because Pang doesn't give her the time of day. No, we and we never see Pang and Hadi at a place in the relationship where they are both in love, that the rift is always there from when we see them and

in the present. Yeah, yeah, in the present and Hadi, it just like it seems like is the filling the gap for her feelings for I and Pang does at least let Officer Hadi in on the theory that she has that May is pretending to be blind. So she is very, very convinced about this theory that she's willing to tell Officer Hadi, but just other people in general like this May. May is pretending.

I love that Officer Hadi's like, this sounds like a fantasy because, yeah, it sounds made-up and fantastical, but then, like, paying is clearly fixated on this. And I love that. Like, poor Officer Hadi tries to be like, the supportive girlfriend at the end. And she's like, well, I hope you find whatever it is you're looking to find Paying. I hope you're happy with whatever happened. You mean that sincerely? She's being sincere about it. She's like, I hope this works

out or whatever. Like, love you. Even though she clearly doesn't get it. She's like, this is weird, but whatever makes you happy, I guess. Yeah. I mean, Officer Hottie, again, I feel bad. Just you, you deserve so much better. I focused more on Officer Hadi in the scene because we know we just saw, like, Pang and like, what's going on. Yeah, fair with her. So at one point, Hadi keeps grabbing her own arm. It's it's you see it twice, and

it's very quick. But grabbing your arm is a sign of anxiety or uneasiness, especially if it's tight. This. The way she does it, it kind of looks like she's holding her arm loosely, which could signal a need for comfort. Which is definitely plausible considering that she repeatedly tries to get physical affection from Pang. But again, Pang is too focused on the mission she's making up for eyes lack of focus. On the mission. Yes, both are not good.

I mean the eye situation that's more complicated, but being absorbed into this is not going well for their relationship. And she puts her arm on her to be connected to her, like try to like break her out of this focus that she has on her phone and the conversation with I. And she does keep her hand connected most of the time while she's saying goodbye.

And she also has to remind Hang that she is leaving multiple times because Hang barely reacts to her saying goodbye and that she's leaving that the physical touch, she does not react at all. So it doesn't seem like Hadi is getting like any comfort from her in general or any physical or emotional intimacy from her. So she's she's alone. She is alone in the scene, even though she's right next to Pang because Pang's too wrapped up an eye. Yeah, that hits the nail on the head.

Like I just, and, and again, seeing the seeing the scene earlier at work, she also seems like she's alone at work too. So I just feel really bad for Officer Hadi. She just feels she's a Pluto character. Again, she's a Pluto, which is unfortunate because she deserves

better. And Speaking of Pluto, So the last thing I kind of want to talk about with the scene is I want to talk about the concept of orbit that I brought up in the first episode as it relates to like the throuple that should have been which was paying officer Hadi and Jan. So those three and how orbit plays into their relationship with each other. So in GMFTV land the end game ship is Pang and Jan. None of this happens in the

novel. This is a purely GMFTV thing and the reason we get to Pang and Jan as the end game ship for GMMTVS version is that these three characters are all orbiting each other and the Pluto's of the show, Officer Hiding and Oom are the ones that bring everybody together. But they get forgotten in the end, which is so sad and heartbreaking. But that is literally what happens and it's very subtle with this relationship here, the orbiting thing, but it does happen.

So think about it. What we know up till now is that Jan is Oom's best friend and her best friend gets into this possibly shady car accident. And Jan has been Umm's best friend for years, which means she's been peripherally in Eyes Orbit, OK? And Eyes Orbit contains her best friend, Ping, right? So they've been like on the periphery of each other for a while, but then so they don't

naturally interact. So then what happens is like Jan goes after Umm's car accident case and the person in charge is Officer Hottie, right? And Officer Hottie is dating Jan. So then I mean, is dating Ping. So then like she brings like Jan into the mix with Ping a little bit because so then they're kind of like orbiting each other a little bit without interacting. And then you think about like, yeah, I and her best friend Ping.

OK, so then I gets brought into the mission with Officer Hottie because of the whole like Car X that thing, and then through I pain gets involved in Umm's case, hence her investigating May, which is her girlfriend's case. It's weird. They don't connect the dots in the scene that I'm talking about your case, but like, again, because they're orbiting but not like really colliding with each other, nobody's colliding and colliding is communicating, OK?

And then by meddling in this case on AI's behalf, she then gets brought into Jan's orbit. And that's how Pang and Jan like interact. And then they start interacting more and more because AI is like, you need to help me with umm. And then like all of those shenanigans. And then they start like they start interacting and then Officer Hadi gets brought more into and like just the way these two keep like all these three of them keep like orbiting each other.

And then like eventually Officer Hadi gets like kicked out of the solar system and it's just Jan and ping Pluto. She's Pluto, she's another Pluto. Which is why I was so convinced that Officer Hadi and Umr going to end up together because I'm like, they're two Plutos that would get each other so well. And GMMTV did not give us that. But I wish they did. This sounds like an orbiting murder board. The aura. That's. No, it does.

But like it's just fun to watch like their storylines and it's like they get close to each other, but they don't ever quite meet and then eventually they meet. That's what I mean by orbit. You can just see the way like they were in the periphery of each other's lives but didn't realize it until like pivotal moments where like they come into contact like Jan and Ping and are like, oh, and then they

don't like stay there. They like go back out and then like eyes like, no, no, no, back in the, umm, drama and Officer Hadi's case. And then they come back and like, that's how they kind of keep meeting each other and interacting. So it's like interesting to see that that's that like orbit concept. Yeah, true. And to even show the orbit more is with the next microscopic scene we get is with Jan texting I how she's going to see Officer Hottie again.

So we just got the Officer Hottie and Pang scene. And now. Exactly. That's what I mean. These back-to-back scenes are orbit. Yeah. You're just like, yeah, exactly. It's because Theor is so good at seeing things like this. GMMTV did this shit on purpose and their screenwriters are brilliant. So from the orbiting with the throuple that's that's that's

that's a messy situation. Later we go to the bus ride and so back to I and May. They are waiting for the bus and as the bus is approaching, there is a handicap accessibility sticker that is conveniently placed on the windshield. So it gets bigger and bigger in the frame as the bus gets closer. And I just thought that was interesting. And on this bus ride we see the biggest reason that May didn't want to deal with the bus and wanted to just take the car. And she tells I that she doesn't

like riding the bus usually. So the ticket. Person comes up and I tells him where they're going. He tells them 40 baht is the price and that it's half, half price for the blind. And I love that he has to say that really loudly in the bus. Like, I mean, it is for the audience to know and like this whole conversation to happen. But. OK.

And then he asked for May's disabled person ID, which May refuses, and she argues that he can clearly see that she's blind, but he tells her that those are the rules, like he needs to see the ID in order to give her the discount for the ticket. And because there are lots of cons these days, which is valid because people do take advantage of things like this and they will take advantage of anything

if there's a loophole. Lawyers, I was aware of that, but she's also having to deal with this on a daily basis of having to prove that she is disabled. So Mae is like, do I look like a con artist to you? And I love this line and the why she says this because this is bringing us back to the topic at hand too and really sums up this entire episode because it reminds an eye of her mission once more too. And while May is saying this, I puts her hand on May's thigh to comfort her and part of me

thinks that I is uncomfortable. This is the first time I is experiencing what May has to experience out in public. And also May isn't afraid to have this confrontation. So I feel like she's just, I doesn't know how to act in the situation because for her it's easy to just be like, Oh yeah, here's my ID if someone asks for something like to verify age or anything because that's what she is used.

To but this. Is me having to prove that what she is telling someone is true what she is like physically disabled like the words have left. It's like so OK, so think think about it like leading up to this paying her best friend is still on this thing of like, I don't think she's really blind. I think you're being deceived. So then to go into this interaction where what May is going through is pretty humiliating actually, and least that and that is how May feels about it.

And I think I can see that or sense that a little bit that like May is really agitated by this. So why on earth would she pretend to be blind to then put herself in this uncomfortable situation that makes her uncomfortable? So I think the whole Ping Pang's theory is going out the window more, even more so in eyes brain

just watching this interaction. And then I is accidentally ableist after the dude goes away and she's like, well May is it really that bad to show the, you know, the stable person ID card? Cuz like you would have got the discount that interaction would have been avoided if you had just shown the card, right? Like show them your papers basically is what she's saying.

And I love this conversation because it goes to show through I's point of view how able bodied people take for granted how the world is easier to navigate in ways I doesn't even realize. Like show me your papers. Like that's very invasive actually and kind of fucked up, right? Because that's exactly what May says May's. Like do you have to show an ID to prove you're not disabled? Like people don't believe you or you have to show them your papers.

Like that's a second class citizen thing is to like, show me your papers, right? Like that's what Mae's really getting at here. And what I love about AI's reaction to this is she sits with what Mae says and like she listens and then processes it. OK. Because I don't think I again, as an able bodied person who's probably never interacted with another disabled person, eyes never seen the world through that point of view. So it's just like you don't know what you don't know kind of

thing. And so eyes like, huh, like thinking about this for the for the very first time, which I assume is probably what happened to me when she became blind and had to start experiencing the world first hand as a non able bodied person. I was like, oh shit. Like look at all these hurdles I didn't even realize were right in front of me because I never saw them because they never applied to me. It's like that privilege thing. You just didn't realize you were privileged.

And that's like I was learning that in this moment. Yeah. It's kind of like a you can't know what you don't know. Like they you can't live that. So you don't really know how their lives are. But with being able to see it first hand, like there's no denying that May's point is incredibly valid. Yes. And after this, I glances at her phone that's in her bag and then try, is it made? OK, It just May. Yeah, it's May's bag cuz she's carried. Then let's throw that whole

thing out. Yeah. So basically this is like back-to-back to the mission shot because why is she here? Because they're, again, the plot with Jan is to call the number from the police report and prove that it was May. So she's figured out a scenario where she has May's phone and she's checking it to be like, is Jan going to call? Is it May?

So, like, again, but it's not adding up because, like, if May was bullshitting all this, why would she put herself in the situation that makes her uncomfortable? And like, she has a legitimate. But like, it could be that, like, she doesn't have a disabled ID's card and she's lying about it and being defensive. Like if it were paying in the scenario, she'd be like, bitch, you don't have a card. Like, you know what I mean?

You're faking. Like, you know, Penguin handled this situation very differently if it was paying in May. Yeah, my first read was that I was like, oh, she doesn't want to show it. Maybe she isn't blind. But I mean, there's just so much going on. You can never know exactly what a character's thinking because they're not going to say it out loud. It's very we're, we infer a lot on the podcast, just so people know. Yeah, but we use body language

and other stuff like that. Yeah, but we will you know, the drama of is mayor isn't she blind will continue when we get to the next part when paying does show up and we get a different different scenario. But that concludes the first part of episode 2 of Pluto the series. You're welcome for this lengthy episode. Hope you enjoyed. Before we sign out, I think it's time to discuss Taylor Swift songs.

So the two that I came up with that fit for this part of the episode are today was a fairy tale, which is eyes Brain. Eyes Brain wrote that when Mae asked her out, she wrote that whole song Today was a fairy tale like that's then she calls her Princess, all that stuff. So that's eyes brain and then I have to give it up for Mae. Her song is fearless because in my best dressed fearless because she stands up to her cousin she was honest with in front of I about her family for the first

time. She's truly honest. Her flirting hardcore with I fucking fearless and then her literally like put getting her best clothes on to go out on an adventure with I in the best dressed fearless so that that fits May in this episode. Great, great song choices. I think Ivy fits this show pretty well and I want to dive into more of like the lyrics and the story later. But overall, like Ivy itself does tell a story too.

So it's kind of like how in Pluto, the I of writing her story and everything, but it's still that. Oh, she's supposed to be with this person, but I'm in love with her. It's just a whole thing. It it does fit, but you have to read into the lyrics more. So I need a little more time to put that together. Oh, for sure. And then Ivy, the plant is like invasive. So like that's when Taylor Swift picked the plant. It's like it grows without you

wanting it to or not. So that's a good way to represent like eyes feelings, like the eye. It's like now I'm covered in you. Like you see it in the scene. She's like, I know I shouldn't be feeling this, but here it is. And it's growing and growing because it's constantly against my will. And like her sister is in a coma right now so can't even she. Sure is. It's just there's so much going on. That's a good one. That's a good one. That's a good one.

OK, so looking forward to your analysis on that in a later episode. Wait, last one, because you said it earlier. You're on your own kid. Yeah. With baby eye. That's baby eye. Yeah. Seriously. All right. Big gay energy award. I'm giving it to Mae and her flirting, cuz. Good lot. Yeah, that's good. She's like, here's all of my skin. What do you think? I they have the sequence of that that also I walking in with her like saying what about me? You have to give me the case

file. Oh, my God. I with Officer Hottie and then I putting on her jacket before she gets on the motorcycle. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. Oh my God, so many awards. We talked. So much in three hours. All right, so the answer again is Nam Tam. The answer is named yes. Being unreasonably attractive, Yes, this is your fault. OK, so today's secret word is a secret phrase because I could not figure out a word that would fit right now.

So today's phrase that I want you to use in a comment or review, the review would be funny too is who lit the candles? Yes, who lit the candles. This applies to any Thai girl love show and the 100. So the 100 whatever yes Yep. So let us know who lit the candles. I would love to see how you construct that. Get your inspiration from I Give us a story and until next time, hydrate for lesbian Jesus and get it up all over the place. Bye bye. And with that, we've been Big Gay Energy.

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