Gap the Series Ep 10: MonMon Wifes ChamCham

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Sam? And I have to note that when that Sam and Mon have sides of the bed and they stick to it even on vacation, Mon is on the left side and Sam is on the right and they stick to it even in the Isle of Lesbos. So love that for them, dude. In a second, Caitlin. You know, when I was when I was watching 9, I I think I had stopped for a moment or like looked away and I was like, OK, so cuz like you said, it like, goes through the beginning of episode 10. So then when I ended up starting

episode 10, I was so confused. Yes. What was happening. I was like, I could have sworn I'd already watched this. Like how? What is? Happening right now. I was so I. Was it's not you. It's the editing. For the episodes that went on YouTube. OK, I was like what is happening? So we're just putting it this way. I don't know which way is correct, but this makes sense to me. So this is how we're doing it. So Mon is like, where's Sam? Because I came here and Sam and Sam's missing.

So she starts looking about and find Sam out on the beach staring at water. And I have to say Sam is my spirit animal because I do this too. Like, I'm not going to lie. I like where I work is like literally near the Bay. And so when I need a minute, I literally go outside and stare at the ocean and then, like, come back and say I feel Sam, 'cause when she's upset, she's like or needs a moment. She just goes and stares at the water. And I love that. Has to be a nice little break from.

It's the best. It's I don't know how the government got this property why do actually it used to be a Fort but yeah so it's yeah it's actually strategic good property but absolutely gorgeous. Other thing Sam, the way she

puts spice she spices her food. I also feel that because remember like back when she goes on the date with Kirk and they get like they're like Ma and choose the food and she takes them for like pot Thai street food and like Sam pours 1/2 a kilo of just like hot pepper on her food. Yes, I feel. I feel that Caitlyn can attest to that. I also. Like she Yeah, she tones it down when I visit. So I feel Sam. Yeah. So she's like, let me stare at the ocean because I'm.

I'm having a moment. So Mon's like, cute. And then she goes out there. And the beginning of this proves how much Mon loves drama. I think it's one of the reasons she loves sand. Yeah, she gets through the wringer, but she loves the drama. So she doesn't just, like, go out there. She does it in a completely unnecessary, dramatic fashion. She goes out onto the shore online with Sam 10 yards away from her, and just stares at Sam for a solid minute before Sam

notices Mon's there. And then Mon's like, cool. And then she like, is it the stalker in Mon? Who knows? And she's like, let me just stare at you while you don't know I'm here and then I'll like come on over. And then she like, wraps her in a hug, which is very cute and says good morning darling and all that kind of stuff. But just the. Drama of standing 10 yards away from her and staring at her like a stalker. Mom hasn't given it up yet.

I think that maybe she's just taking in this moment and wanting to paint this. Picture in her head of how. Sam looks on the beach because she never gets to see her in this setting, and she probably looks a little more carefree than at work, so she just wants to just take it in. I'm surprised she didn't snap a quick photo for her stalker wall to really capture the moment. You know, I feel like she wanted to, but she's like, damn, my phone's in something.

And then Sam. Noticed her and she's like. Shit. All right, I guess I gotta go over there. I do like the the screenshot that you have I I like such the shot of them so far apart it looks it's a pretty like it's it's almost the the. 3rd's rule. It is the third's rule, yeah. Why is to show that they're still divided? I don't know why. Like aesthetically it's pretty, but like it's pretty is my question. It's pretty. Maybe that was. Maybe that's the why?

It's it's like the positioning equivalent of a crossfade is my assumption. It's because they could, yeah. That's that's what the girl is. Why did they do so many Dutch juts 'cause they could? Yeah, I can't read too much into the cinematography, 'cause I feel like it doesn't actually have a meaning. They're just like, no, pretty and I'm sorry. And the most you could do is the the outfits, yeah. This is this is.

A cross fade basically. So I just had to point it out because I think it's hilarious and. No, this one's better than a. Cross fade it is. Better than a cross fade. I will say that it's pretty. Anyway, so that happens. And they're more they're beginning of their mornings. Very, very cute. And then Sam, now that they're here in Lesbos, is like in her boyfriend era for this whole trip. First piece of evidence? The outfits she wears here,

ma'am. We've mentioned she's mask coated in her behavior, but she fully steps into it for this trip. Good for you, Mon. You got eye candy on this trip. And then she's just more chivalrous than normal when it comes to Mon. Like she's constantly, like, doting on her, kissing her hand, things like that. Doesn't let go of Mon like ever. And she's also instantly jealous of anyone that remotely has a

chance. With Mons, it's very boyfriend Asia. So the two of them, like, leave the beach and they head over to wherever breakfast is and they catch The lesbians that own the inn are just, like, casually making out in front of their brunch. And like, Mom and Sam just kind of watch them for a minute until they figure it out. And then they're like, oh wow, they're like, why do we? Always get caught. When we're in the middle of, like, ladies, you're out in the

open in front of their brunch. So funny. They're not very subtle. They're just constantly all over each other. They're like, wow, people are always interrupting us. And like, well, because you're doing this in front of people all the time. And also, you're working, you're in public, so you're in your public on your in on the clock. So they don't have an HR at this end. They did away. With that they. They they promote fraternizing of the employees. Highly.

Yeah, we don't meet other employees, but I'm sure they're cool with it. All right, so Speaking of being out in the open, Mon, when they sit down for brunch, Mon is watching and she notices that Cher has a wedding ring on. And the two of them, basically the couple explains that they basically married each other to like as a commitment ceremony,

not a legal ceremony. Because as we talked about previously and they confirm in the scene at the point in time this was shot, same sex marriage in Thailand is not a legal thing. And they also note that like they mentioned the elders and what the elders think. So elders, being like the Grand Man's generation, basically, they're not super accepting of this modern, modern take on marriage, basically. But Sharon and Risa were like, well, we felt that our love was important to us.

We didn't want to bring anybody else into this. So we did this for us because that's who matters in the marriage, the two consenting adults, right? And they don't want to keep this a secret. So basically, like, they're echoing the sentiment that Sam expressed him on before they left on the trip when she was like, I want to show my affection to you in public and

treat you with respect. And that's basically what Sharon and Risa did with their like commitment ceremony that they're labeling as a marriage because that's how they view basically their relationship, which is meaningful. OK, so while this is all sweet and great and I love it, Sam and Cher are in the same space. So this conversation quickly devolves into another big gay energy measuring contest between

these two. Because Sam tries to out lesbian Cher by planning her and Mon's wedding in front of all these people, to Mon's surprise. And she's like, it's going to be a grand affair. It's going to be like 1000 people. I was like, Sam, do you know those people anyway? And and then she's like, oh wait Mon, do you want that? Do you want all of these things that I'm planning? Because she's been planning the wedding for a while, I. Keep saying that.

This came out of this didn't come out of nowhere. Sam's been thinking about this. She's just cluing Mon in on it. Mon. Like, if you watch her body language. Once Sam pivots into this, she immediately like shrinks and gets very small. Because Mon still has issues to work through when it comes to Sam, right? No more eye contact, she shrinks

into herself. And like, First off, she's confused because they've been dating for less than a month #1 #2. I think the thing that really gets to her the most is that Sam's behavior and pivot into this conversation feels like she's just competing with Cher, which is what she's been doing the whole time, that they're those two have been interacting. And then #3 Ma just learned 2 seconds ago from this couple that like, love is love and fuck

the haters. So like this is all seemed to come out of nowhere to Ma and she's like, I didn't know this love was possible. And then, like, here's Sam proposing. She's not even proposing, like presenting the wedding. Yeah, she's. Presenting the wedding. She's like, I got a caterer. Like, I I know you're a sigh. So I'm starting the dress process. I was like. What the fuck? Like what? What's happening? Like they pivoted into Fantasyland very fast from this trip so I'm on declined.

She's like, no Sam because it's feels inauthentic and kind of kind of came out of nowhere. But also what Mon vocalizes is I'm not good enough for you because Mons is still very much, like, aware of their social statuses. Which is partially why I like in the prior episode when Sam was like, I'm gonna hold your hand in public Mons like me, a peasant, a mere peasant. You can't hold my hand. She's still very much aware of that.

And she's like, you are the Princess and should marry a Prince. And like, you can't marry me, like, that's insane. I'm not good enough for you. And then I love when Cher pipes in and she's like, you're talking about this. I'm looking at the honorable lady. I don't see, I don't see it. Like, why are you putting her on a pedestal? She doesn't have wings. She's not glowing. Like, she's not divine. She's just some dumb ass.

Like, are you really declining because her personality is awful, 'cause that makes more sense to me. And like, I love that Cher is just like, trashing Sam immediately. It's so funny. But the thing like also to keep in mind is that Sam is paying to stay there. I know. They're. They're so similar, Herge, because Sam would do this too if she owned it in. Uh huh. Well, what I was going to say is it's funny how quickly Cher is like acting like Sam's friends. Oh my God, the. Team with all.

Of this, Yeah. Yeah, exactly. They would all, they would all say this. They'd be like she's crazy. Like, what are you talking about? Not nothing special. No, it's. If it was Sam's friends, it'd be mine. You're too good for Sam. Please. Like, they would say that in front of Sam. That's basically what Cher say. She's like, I don't know why you're putting this woman, this woman, on a pedestal. Have you met her? She's so weird, so funny. But also, yeah, she's your customer. This is.

They don't have an HR department. Obviously. Do they have a Yelp reviews? I know, right? Well I think all it's on like the queer Yelp. So it like it doesn't matter how good it is. It's a queer haven. We're just going to go anyway. That's fair. Sam is going to go leave a terrible if Sam wait. Sam only knows how to use Facebook. Let's she doesn't know he's Yelp. But if she did what a review. I would love to know. What do you think in the comments what Sam's review of

this in would be? Because I would love to know she'd be like hate the inner owner. Great for a wedding. Beautiful atmosphere. Innkeeper could have an attitude change. Yeah, should be fired. She wouldn't even write a review. She'd be like just. One star. One star. Nothing else. Fucking Sam, I would just, yeah, I would love to hear that review. No mom would be over her shoulder. Be like. No be nice. That's why it would be like dot dot dot but beautiful.

For a like, they would both their they would Sam's initial take and then Mon's like niceties would both be in the room. You're right. That would be Mon holding the gun to Sam be like, say something nice. Sam. They're like, fine. I guess the ocean was calming. I don't know. Anyway, OK. So basically, OK, so bottom line is that Sam proposes and she's

being serious. And Mon's like, no. So Sam is crushed because, you know, she's been thinking about this and is like, wow, OK. I've been, I've been putting it all out on the line and here and you're not willing to like, meet me at, you know, So she's like, I'm just, I need to get out of here and just think. So she leaves to go, like, stare at the ocean, 'cause that's what cops her 'cause like. I think for Sam a lot of this trip is like fantasy.

Like from reality to fantasy because they can just live in this little haven outside of like the real world away from like the grand man. All the pressure kind of all that stuff which was the point of them going there. So like escape reality and like here's reality coming back in with Mon who like Sam's like, let's just do it. Let's do what we want to do. And Ma's like, no, but like real life, Sam like real life. I'm a peasant. You're a noble woman. That can't happen.

So I think Sam wasn't down with that on vacation. But but. I'll. Yeah, go ahead. The The big thing is that it looks, even if she didn't mean it, to be like Sam was competing with Cher, Absolutely. Mon. Like probably doesn't feel like it was being genuine. It like it was just to compete. And she also wants to have these conversations together, 'cause, you know, like normal people do. They probably never even talked about marriage. I mean, like you said that Sam was planning in her head.

In her head, yeah. And Mon is just sick of Sam taking the control. She's like equal. That's. And then it doesn't help her to feel like she is equal to Sam because it is putting her like she has more control. Yeah, and and and honestly, like, controls one aspect. But really, like Mon is just way too aware of, like, the quote, the gaps, right. She's just like, well, we can't in real life. We're not equal. She's like, I I'm a commoner.

You're a noble woman. And then we're about to get into the conversation with like the two lesbians where they where money comes up and Mom's like, I don't. I have remember when they first get together and mom was like, do you want to date me? And then she goes into the conversation where she's like, I have no good points. Like because like in this world where you're courting nobility, like what the grand mammoth looking for is the points.

That's why she's always like, I did the background check on this person. I approve of them because she's going through a checklist of like, the good points that the person has. Like, not who the person is. It's like the points comes from a good family has like a stable business like property, all of that stuff. Mom's like, I don't have any points. Like I can't compete with your suitors. And Sam tells her right then and there and she's like, Mon you're

the best. Like none of that matters to me, basically. But it's Mon can't separate the like I I feel like Mon can't like take that seriously from Sam she's just too much like I don't deserve you like and she constantly is getting reinforced that she doesn't and then so for Sam to come here and be like let's plan a wedding fit for a queen and mon's like I don't how am I gonna afford like she she doesn't feel like she deserves any of those things based on like the reality of who she is too.

So I think that's another way that she, like, feels shame a little bit being with Sam, whereas Sam doesn't think about those things because she why would she? She's always had money and all of that stuff, like, you know. Yeah. Man, you're you're a woman. You get all the points right. That's what Sam is saying. She's like, look at you. You have more points that you know what to do with. Yeah, exactly.

It's like fantasy versus reality is really what this conversation really boils down to. Yeah. And I think Sam is very much like, I just want to win this argument. But also, would you marry me? Yeah, exactly. Bon is like, whoa, I don't know, 1000 people. Like, how are we going to like, I don't have anything to contribute to this gigantic fancy wedding. And Sam's like, wait, wait, wait, no. But I I just, I'm just wanting to marry you. Like, what are you talking

about? Like, what is happening? And they're just exactly what you guys are saying is like, they're just not, like, communicating. They're not. They just keep missing each other with like. But also this conversation comes out of absolutely nowhere. So like for like Mon was not ready for this conversation and then to have it come out of a big gay energy measuring contest with Cher.

Like I would say no to be like well let's go talk in private because like what is this It's very weird from Mon's point of view it to be like how did I get into we just came for brunch. How did I get into conversation about planning a royal wedding? Like, yeah, just happened. And like the the shitty part too. Is that like Mon is the one who's very conscious of like, the reality of their situation.

Sam is in the fantasy. Because Sam, you still haven't, like told the Grand Man like all your obstacles are still there. Sam, for this to even happen is are you not inviting the grandmother to the wedding? Like, how's that even going to happen? Like Sam's not thinking about any of that. She's just like, tunnel vision. She's like, I love Lesbos. She's drunk the kool-aid. She drank the holy water for lesbian Jesus.

She's not thinking clearly. And I think Mon is like, hold on, Like, actually think about what you're saying because, like, obviously Mon does want that. But, like, to have it come out as an insincere that would crush Mon because she values honesty from Sam. And so this feels insincere, I think, to her. And she's like, Sam, this can't happen.

Like, you know, Yeah, so it's kind of it's kind of shitty and like, that's why I like the conversation when so so when Sam Mike drops and gets out of there, goes to the beach, Mon sits there looking all sad 'cause she is. And the lesbians are like, well, this is kind of this is, this is your fault share. So let's go console this little baby gay who's all upset. They're good queer elders.

I do love them. So they console Mon and it starts like playful where Cher's like, so that car you have, like, obsessed with the car. Obsessed the car. She's like that car. It's a hot car. Tell me about it. And Iman tells her that it's, you know, it's Sam's. Obviously I don't have money for this car, and it's Miss Duan. Penn, I think, says it.

And I love that Sam names inanimate objects, 'cause that's something that I do. So I had to find that trait endearing from Sam and apparently brave quail. That's the name of my vacuum. Your vacuum. My. Yeah, my Roomba. Oh, your Roomba. OK, not just this. I'm like, no, OK, brave quail. That's still odd, but I'll take it for a like, a thing that moves itself. Sure we love. That thing Skull was actually alive. I just wanted to get out of. Here. Anyway, so I find that really

endearing. And the other thing I love is that it's very where the name came from. It came from like a song, which again, is very Sam. She takes things from media and just like incorporates it into her life. And I just. I love that character trait. Not only does she name it, it has a last name as well, and it's a long. Last name it is. That's why I just used the first name. Yeah. Yeah, very cute. And it comes from a song, which is just very Sam like TV. She always pulling stuff for

media and I find that adorable. That's relatable, too. Exactly. Yeah, it makes Sam. It's a cute character quirk that she has. OK, so anyway, they're talking and Arissa is like, Oh my God, Cher. Cher has not showed up about this car since you guys rolled up in here last night. And she's like, I guess I got to buy this bisher car, 'cause she wants to name it like her own thing. And OK, 'cause she hates Sam's name. She's like, wow, weird. Yeah, it's Sam.

Leave her alone. And poor Mon is just sitting there. And she's like, well, it must be really nice to just be able to drop big money on your girlfriend whenever you want, 'cause like, again, this is where Mon is insecure. Like, we've talked a lot about how Sam is insecure, hence the big gay energy measuring contest of the Cher she keeps having. That's Sam being insecure. This is Mon's big insecurity. She's like, she says it to in

this conversation. She's like, I would love to get Sam, like lavish gifts to show her that I love her like she's always doing to me, but she's like, I can't and I could never be in that position to do that. And like that has to hurt so badly for Mon because it's just like you're constantly. She's constantly like reminded that she is inferior in that aspect of their relationship, while Sam doesn't care about it. Like Mon is very much aware of it.

Because they they. Do come from different, like coming from different social situations, like you're more aware of money when you don't have it versus Sam, who always has it, does not think about it, doesn't cross her mind, but Mon can. I don't think Mon can get over it because it's she's like, it's again, reinforcing that. Like, I would love to buy Sam a car, like you're buying your significant other a car, but I could never do that. Sam doesn't pay me enough. Right.

But all she wants is her lips. Right, right. Exactly Like Sam doesn't care, but Ma is just very aware of that. And so, yeah, I think that's just unfortunate for Ma. But I so I empathize with Ma in this, this moment, you know? Money is difficult, huh? Money's. Difficult it is. Because no matter what, money is power and you never want to have that person, like be able to use it in a fight or something, yeah. Or even to just divide you like

Mon says it here. She's like, I feel like a sugar baby, 'cause like Sam's always buying me shit and I can never repay it. Like, I can never get on equal footing with her when it comes to this, it's always going to be 1 sided. So yeah, I feel like that's really shitty for Mon, OK, then she points out. And then she tries to like again. So we mentioned last episode, Sharon and Marissa are clear they're foils to Sam and Mon. It's like what you could be.

This is fantasy world where they're at. I suppose they're like, this is what you could be if you guys just follow your hearts or whatever. And so Mon's like, yeah, I see that and that's all great and stuff. But she's like, I don't feel like we're the same because you guys clearly own this business together. So you guys are equal, right? Like because like, let's look at Sam and Mon. They're not Co owners of the company of diversity. It's like Sam's the owner. Mon's an employee.

Like, again, in balance, right? But she's like you guys look like equal partners, right? We're not there. And then the truth comes out and they're like, well we're not equal either. She's like this bitch right here that wants the car. She has all the money, buy her own car share. What the hell? If you have. All the money and so like basically they're like, but we didn't care about she's and Rissa's like, well, you know chairman a lot of like sacrifices for us to live this life.

Like she would have to give. She probably gave up like a degree of her social standing, her wealth, whatever, so that they can create the Isle of Lesbos together and run this in and be equal. So to me, if they're set up as a foil that's demonstrating that, like, for Sam and Mom to work out, Sam's going to have to give up some of her privilege and, like, make a sacrifice to be with Mon. Because so far, Sam has not. Yeah, she broke the engagement with Kirk, but was that a sacrifice?

That's all coming from the grandmother. So Sam still has to make that step before this can even become remotely real, like in the real world. And I like the part where in this conversation where Mon's like, OK, that sounds great and all, but like, now that you're married, do you guys have any problems? Has everything been solved? And Sharon Risson are like, oh, hell no. They're like we got 99 problems,

but class is a main one. And they're like, you know, we started from different social, you know, classes. But like, we don't care about that. Like money can't buy love is said in this. And like, that's the whole crux of it. And that's Sam's whole dilemma, right, Like and and I think that that's the thing that Mon. I think Mon need to hear that because that is the thing that she can offer Sam that Sam can't

get with money. Like hence why Sam has been like a contrarian nightmare for a decade and so isolated and lonely. It's because that is the one thing she cannot wield her power and influence and money and title and all of that stuff. She can't get it it it and and or or she could but like it would be Kirk where it's like it's not authentic or reciprocated or genuine. And so I think like it's important for Mon to understand

like she has value. It's like you can give her something she can't buy like the woman that can buy whatever she wants, right. And so I think Mon is like enamored by this and like feels better after hearing this and then she's like can you guys tell me your story because like you guys are so cute. I want to know what happened and apparently their story is full of romance, drama, comedy and a

bit of horror and idle factory. I'm just gonna throw this out there, Risa and sheer story sounds like it would make an amazing TV show. I'm just saying like all the elements are there. Romance. Drama. Comedy. Horror. A little bit of horror. And they they've done it all, apparently, and I would like to see it. Personally. I love them. Yeah. Yeah, Just throwing that out there.

So at the end, Rissa gives Mom this really sage advice where she's like, look, Mon, I think you need to just sit for a minute and kind of reflect on how much you actually love Sam. Like, how much do you love her, really? And then if it's a lot, like, go follow your heart because basically, like, you deserve to be happy. And, like, if you don't really love her, then we've met her. Maybe cut your losses and run. She's a lot all right. So mine is left with that sentiment.

Meanwhile, we cut over to Sam, who's sulking by the sea. And she gets a call from the grand man. And the grand man's like, Sam, I'd like to see you today. Can I go? Smoking by the Sea sounds like a great movie title. Right. That alliteration. Thank you. So that's Sam's movie. So the other way, the grandma was like, I want to see you today. And Sam's like, well, I'm not. I'm not. I'm not in Bangkok right now. I went on a little trip with my friends, my lady friends. You remember them?

You hate them. And the grandma's like, why isn't Kirk there? And I'm like, has Kirk and Sam ever gone on a vacation together? Like, ever? Why would you ask this? Like they don't even go on dinner dates. She was trying to figure out if she's lying. But why would Kirk? Even. Be there because she expects them to be everywhere, because they're going to get married and be so happy together. But. Kirk doesn't even have dinner with her when they're in the same city.

So this was a really weird. Ask that we're like, of course he's not with me, he's never with me. So anyway, that's kind of beside the point. But like, it doesn't matter. Her answers don't matter anyway because the grandma knows she's lying and who she's with.

And really, this is just a test of how loyal is Sam to me, because that's what their relationship really boils down to. She's trying to see if Sam's still going to be honest with her and Sam is not and just hangs up and it's like, I'll see you later, OK, bye. And she looks very unnerved at the end of this conversation because, I mean, she wasn't expecting this, but she should be, because I think that deep down, Sam knows she has to have this conversation with her grandmother.

And it's getting to the point where the final boss battle is like, on the horizon and she can't avoid it anymore, like it's coming right? And So what does that what does that do That with the impending awkward conversation with her grand grandmother that leaves Sam to really figure out, well, is battling my grandmother really worth it? How much do I love Mon? Right. So it it's So by the end of these two scenes, I went back-to-back, like Sam and Mon are really left with the same

point to reflect. Like, how much do I love her, basically? How much does Sam love Mon? A lot. Pintetio. Yeah, I know. Really, You don't want? To say your point. All right, I'll say it. So I mean, it is. It is a good thing that she didn't pretend like she was with Kurt. Kurt. Kurt. Oh my God. We hate him so much. I mean, we don't hate him. We such an afterthought. We can't even remember his name. Kirk. Well, what? Because he was sitting right next to the Grand Mam? I don't know why.

I don't like calling her that, but even though Sam respects her grandmother, she wouldn't want to give her that satisfaction of thinking she actually likes Kirk. Yeah, no, I totally agree with that and like. While. We I get on Sam a lot for like not actually having this conversation with the grandmother like earlier. I think it would have been very insincere for her to have it here on the phone. Like it's very much I need to be in person with you before I have

this conversation. Like, she could have come clean and not lied to the grandmother. And I feel like a part of Sam wants to do it, but, like, on the phone, this isn't a phone conversation. So. Well, yeah, the grandmother's like, yeah, she's lying to me. I don't think Sam would have been honest in this moment out of respect for the grandmother, you know, Like, this is a big conversation. It's not a phone conversation. It's an in person conversation, you know? Yeah. So that's that.

So yeah, Like Caitlyn said, Kirk, the weasel mole is with the grandmam and they're conspiring shockingly against Sam. Yeah, he's so spineless. It's cold here. That's 'cause we went over to the grand man's house. It just, yeah. It's cold. It just got cold. So anyway, so they're conspiring and the grand man basically calls out Sam's cheating for what it is it was finally somebody said it, 'cause she is, she absolutely is. But Kirk is very much like, well, you know, clearly Mon

makes her happy. I've never seen her passionate, ever. And here she is like throwing me across fountains and shit. Like, she's clearly very emotional and happy and he's like, so as long as she's happy, I'm cool with it, 'cause, like at the end of the day, he does care about her. Like they've been, they've childhood friends, they've been friends for a very long time.

He does care about her. He's not innocent in any of the stuff he does to like, ruin her life and like quote help her by taking away her choice and doing what's quote best for her. But like, he does care about her, you know? But then again, the grandma only knows about all this shit because you went to her. Kirk. We're here because of you. Let's not forget that. I don't know why I didn't realize that. And I was just trying to figure out how she found out. Yeah, so that asshole. Yeah.

This shit's all his fault. That's why he's like, I'm cool with this. I'm like, Are you The second you found out you went straight to the grandmother? If he truly cared about Sam, then he would never would have told the grandmother, right? Exactly. Also, that was never his secret to tell you don't out. People I know, I know. I know. I don't know. He's a stupid puppy. Well, I don't think he actually outs her because in this conversation with the grandmother, she's like, who is

she with? And he's like, you need to hear that from her. So I don't think he does out her but he he does, he's like she's cheating on me so like this bitch but clearly is like I'll find out she's the fucking mafia here. She's like, I will take care of this. At the end of the conversation, I'm like, oh. God, she's going to. Call a hit out on Maun again. I mean, that's what it started looking like. Right. I was like, shit, she's going to kill Maun's family and like, all

this stuff. And she's like, you just sit there and look pretty. Kirk, do exactly what I said. Since you're a little bitch about this and you're not going to take care of it, I'll take care of it. Just look pretty. My little puppet on my puppet. Strings. And I was like, well, damn, 'cause like, yeah, I got mafia vibes when she was saying this. And like, Mom and her family are fucked. And I I always wonder in the back of my head, did she do this

to Ice's family? Because she was ready to kill ice in the hospital. And I'm like, and song's dead. I'm pretty sure she went after that girl's family. I was expecting mob people to be hiding in the shadows, yeah. I was expecting them to get back from the trip and Mon's family, like, the house is burgled. Like somehow they lost their jobs. Like, yeah, someone's in jail over like something petty. Yeah, I was.

I was expecting her to go after their family, 'cause that's what people in power do, so. People in power are weird. People are. Weird. Humans are weird. Speaking of weird, Sam is still sulking by the sea when Mon catches up with her. You OK, Caitlin? I stuck my finger in this and now I'm trying to get it out and it's like cutting my finger do. You need a second? Oh. I got it. Oh my God, that that hurts. So why is? Everybody bleeding during these episodes. No blood yet.

Continue. Sorry. So Mon find Sam. She wants to forgive her, but Sam's just like, I can't with this right now. Because like I mentioned earlier, Sam feels like the relationship is very one sided when it comes to like, acts of affection. Because while Sam is terrible with words, she's amazing with showing Mon. She cares through her actions and she's like, listen, I've done all these gestures. I broke up with Kirk.

I took you here. I've been doing all of these things like big things to show you that I love you. And like, I'm not getting that from you basically. And and for and while Sam has a point for Mon to hear this, she's coming off the cusp of the conversation she just had with the lesbians, where she was like, I would love to spoil Sam in the manner in which she deserves, but I don't have the means, the money, or any of any ways to actually do that.

So this is kind of like a kick to the gut, really, for Mon where she's like, I'd love to show you, but how the hell am I going to show you? Like you know, so I don't think Mon knows what to do here. She, you know, she has no fiance to break up with. She doesn't have conservative relatives to battle with, she can't whisk her off to the real Isle of Lesbos cause a she hates planes and B she doesn't have money. So, like, what is Mon really supposed? To do in this situation. Jumper. What?

Jumper in bed. I mean, yeah, that's all. That's what Mon has. Mon has the love card, but that's about it. So yeah. Anyway, so again, we've been. I've been over this. But part of the problem is like, Mon again doesn't believe. I don't. I think on some level Mon doesn't really. This relationship is real. Like I think she spent so much time fantasizing about Sam that I think she's having trouble accepting the reality of Sam and like how much Sam actually, like, loves her.

I I think she doesn't quite grasp it. But, like, to Sam's credit, like she keeps doing things that very much shows Mon like loud and proud. She loves her. And like, I mean she ditched her title to come on this trip Mon like she's she's trying to like even the playing field. But I don't. Know. I mean, it sounds like their love languages are different. For sure. Like so Sam's is definitely like her. What she wants to do is like acts of service and like

physical touch, I guess. And then Sam is like, I need words of affirmation and that's the one thing that or mod needs words of affirmation. And then Sam is like not about the words she. OK, she tries. She is getting there. Once she can say the words, like in the next episode she says all the words. Once she's able to do it, she does do it. But she's just like she's very much like I I I I can't. I don't know how to say the words so I'm just going to show you with things. So she's trying.

She's trying so hard to like show Mon Sam's Sam. Sam is a touch starved person though. I think that physical touch is her like, big thing, which is why she's always touching Mon. That's for her more so than for Mon, I think. But yeah, words of affirmation is Mon's love language and it's the one thing Sam struggles with. But she she does it for Mon.

Like she gets there eventually. And like, again, she's like telling Mon she's being very honest, like here, but it's just like, yeah, Mon's on in a good head space for this conversation, honestly, because she just, she feels unworthy at the end of the day and like this relationship isn't real, I think. So she needs to she needs unpack, unpack that. And so she tries to, like, apologize to Sam, but then gets interrupted because T and Yuki are here. And I really don't understand

why this happened, right? I'm like, OK, well OK, they obviously didn't plan this because they were like, is that who I think it is? I think they just coincidentally showed up. My question, did Sam find out from this? Find out from T about the Lesbian Inn. Or did they have a tracker and was just like, OK, let's go see what the lesbians are up to. No, it's. I see. I feel like T brought Yuki here for the weekend. I thought they knew that they were gonna be there.

I don't think they did, 'cause when they get when T gets out of the car, she's like, is that who I think it is? Like, I don't think they knew. I think, like, this is just where you bring your girlfriend on a weekend. I think T told Sam about this. OK, you know what? They probably had a conversation, T said. I'm going to bring Yuki there this weekend and then. Sam's just like oh that's a good idea.

I feel like. I feel like this came out when they were on having the the sex talk for like 10 hours when they fell asleep and T was like OK and then you bring if you want to really have amazing sex you take her to the Isle of Lesbos and like went in detail about this in and how romantic it is and how you can just be yourself and Sam files all that shit away. She's a long term planner, pretty sure TO told her it was a while ago and Sam was like got it Anyway I just find it really funny.

All the queers are like converging on this. All of them are converging in this one location which I love. Yeah, Jim's probably. Sad that she's missing. Oh my God, Can you imagine when Jim finds out that they were all here without her? And had a piss. Well, we're getting to and had the ending scene. Oh my God. Well, OK. Jim is cool with Mon though, 'cause she said that before. She's like, if anybody else was dating Sam, I would. They can catch these hands. But Mon, you're the exception.

That's fine, I guess. But Jim would. Jim would have been. So where was Jim T? He could have brought her. I I want to bring up while we're. Here I kind of I didn't know you guys didn't know. I wish I brought it up on while we're filming. But have the actress who plays Jim was supposed to be Mon like that? Just that's insane. I love it. Thank you for whoever told me that. That's where all the jealousy comes in from Jim, when art imitates life. OK.

Anyway, so Speaking of conspiring Mon behind, Sam's back conspires with all of the queers to wife her. And I love that. Like, it's night time and like, everybody's like, here's the plan, go do your thing. So the the in owners are all like, everybody's got to get in their best clothes because they're about to have a wedding. Sam has no idea. And so I love that they're all over each other like these two when mom shows up. And I love that they're just like they're like we did

everything you wanted. Mom, we're all ready to go. How many queer, spontaneous queer weddings happen at these? And I have to imagine it's quite a bit, 'cause they were just like, we're ready to go. We have, we've done this before. They seemed very versed in what's happening, yeah. I have a side note for this one. Gay marriage is now legal in the real Isle of Lesbos. I wonder how many spontaneous weddings will take place there. Now I. Imagine so many planned weddings are going to happen.

That's where Milan and Sam should go. OK, But I think it's really adorable that literally everybody's in on this plan. And like, once Mon starts setting stuff in motion, Yuki, like, winks at her. It's the cutest thing. She's like, yeah, let's go. And like, the whole time they're like conspire. It's very cute the way they just conspire against. And Sam is oblivious because it's Sam. So freaking cute. OK, so the way Mon sets this in motion is she has to she's she knows.

She knows how to play Sam. Mon's learning, OK? And Mon's really good at this. So she, like, waltzes in to, like, they're having dinner outside. And she, like, kind of waltzes in and then, like, winks at Yuki and then, like, plays damsel in distress. She's like, Oh my God, my ankle or whatever. And, like, falls down. So sure enough, that activates boyfriend Sam, who runs from the dining room table over to Mon and, like, immediately. It's like, are you OK?

Do we need to go to the hospital? She's, like, brushing dirt off of her doing all these things. I think Mom was like, wow, OK, I knew you were going to come here, but like this, this like, knight in shining armor thing is really doing it for me. Sam, 'cause she likes kind Sam. This is peak kind Sam. And she's like, oh, OK, I should follow that in wooded areas more often, 'cause this is great. She's also probably like, OK, calm down. We have a We have a mission. I think.

I think she forgot the mission. She was like, we should go back to her room. I mean, Oh yeah, the right. Sam. I did this for a reason. Anyway, So she's like, confesses to Sam. She's like, Sam's like, what Do you wait, does it hurt? Are you OK? And she's like, no, I'm fine. I was faking it because somebody was mad at me and I had to prove you weren't mad at me because you came and rescued me. And Sam's like, God damn, I think she felt played for like a

second. She's like, she tries to, like walk away. And then mom's like, no, no, no, no, like. And then she, like, kisses her and, like, Sam kisses her back and they're like, OK, you're not mad at me. Great. And then the peanut gallery's over. It T's like, Sam, can you stop being a grumpy son of a bitch? Just get over here like this is we're having this beautiful night. Like, stop being an ass. Which I love. Oh, the friends. They're so funny. It like it wouldn't.

Be the same without them, right? I'm glad that they're there because they're just, they're the best. But just like like they're having a cute moment. And the way T's like I need to call out Sam. For being a Dick, yeah. It's so funny and I have to say that this inn is like should be 5 stars on Yelp because this dining area is so cute and the way they set up this like whole dinner thing for them, it just it looks like a fairy tale the way they have like the twinkly lights.

I think it's. The only people staying here, right? Did Sam buy out the place for her and mom? I can see that. They're like, we know they know each other, They're the only queers in the area. It's fine. At like, tea calls and she's like, oh, I want to get a room. And they're like, it's booked up and he's like, did someone name Sam the rooms? Like, yeah, like I know that bitch give me a room. I told I should have told her about this place anyway. She's paying for me.

Yeah, no, yeah. I want her guest list. Don't worry about it. Yeah. No, that's what happened. That's how they ended up there. And they're like, Oh my. God, you guys are here. Who knew? All right. Anyway, this is very cute. And then they have this just they it starts off with them just having like a queer dinner together. And it's just it's very cute and sweet and I just, I love it. The whole thing is cute. It's. So cute and beautiful. And just. I love that Sam's oblivious.

All right, So before we get into like the wedding and stuff, the prelude to it. So Riss is explaining that tonight's really special. Hence, hence why everything's all cute and beautiful. It's because it's a special night. It's the LOI Cratong Festival, which is a type of Lantern festival and Cher Festival of lights. Yeah, And Cher tries to like, run with this and be like, I know everything about every festival in the world. And like, she tries to like wax

poetic about like the symbolism. She's like the. Fame is knowledge and it brings us good fortune and like you know all the stuff. And then Sam is like enough with the folklore nonsense because she just can't help it when it comes to out topping share in public and she just she just can't. And Cher's like, Oh yeah, I'm the expert on festivals and shit. She's like ask me anything Sam, I'm better than Google and Mon is immediately like, Sam, don't you fucking dare.

I will leave you right now. She tries to like give her food. She's like eat this instead. Shut up. The screenshot here though she's like that, her face is like I'm not playing around. She's like, don't you fucking dare. Like she doesn't say anything but the way she looks at Sam, she's like, I will leave you and Rosa's the same way too. She's like, for fuck's sake, Cher, can we just have one nice dinner without you fighting random strangers? How many should guess?

Has she, like, fought for power? Right, I'm like, why are you in the in? Business dear. Maybe it's theme like it's the theme of the inn is like the host will top you or out try to out top you what? Is that as a brochure? Yeah. Why would Sam look at here? Aren't she? Sounds like absolutely odd. Sam likes a challenge. She does, yeah. That's true. That's true. Not from Cher though. Apparently not. OK, so Speaking of Mon, we then

get to the impromptu wedding. So after after dinner it settles down, everybody couples up and they they make their wishes, release their lanterns, and it's very beautiful and very cute. And we cut to like Mon and Sam and Sam's like, well, what did you wish for Amman? Which like aren't you not supposed to say what you wish? I don't know how this works with like, Lantern festivals, but usually it's like you have to keep the wish to yourself. Anyway, Sam's like, what did you

wish for Amman? And Mon's like, well, I basically she's like, I wish that I did all the right things. I I wish that what I'm doing is right, is basically what she says, which is to wife Sam in like 5 minutes. And Sam very adorably admits later that her wish was that Mon's wish came true. Which is just the cutest. Fucking thing ever. And like when Sam has game, it's just like, God damn it, Sam. Like that was so. Smooth like. She's adorable. I just. I can't.

She's a dumb ass. But, like, she has her moments where you're like, wow, OK, Mon is a lucky woman. So Sam hears this that, like, you know, Mon's basically saying I'm hoping what I'm about to do is write And Sam's like, what do you mean what you're about to do? And mom's like, close your eyes, Sam. And Sam is like, yes, Mon boss and closes her eyes and then everybody does their thing. Mon's like let's go. And so every flower crowns are produced.

I must note that Mons has little pink flowers in it. Sam's is pure white. And by the time Sam opens her eyes, the winning has begun. Magic. I love that. Like tea puts the crown on her head and then once she opens her eyes, she's like, what is the Why were you not like? What is this earlier anyway? It doesn't matter. It's Sam. She's not the brightest, but she tries. So I think it's interesting that in the scene, like, OK, so Mon

knew this was going to happen. Not that she was going to come to Lesbos and wife Sam, but that this particular moment was going to be a wedding. Sam had no idea. So I think what they're wearing in the scene is actually really

interesting. Mon elects to wear all white, which means she brought a dress that's all white, which is weird for Mon. But here we are, and she has like a pink ribbon in her hair, but like mostly she's wearing white, which is like a neutral color, not her main palette. This is kind of atypical attire for Mon. Contrast that with Sam, who's mostly wearing white, which she doesn't normally do. She's black pants on, but she's

mostly covered in white. So it's almost like the two are like color-coded as like, not themselves a little bit. They're wearing atypical colors for them. Maybe they borrowed, but it's. Also, the festival of lights, so maybe you're supposed to dress lighter because everyone's in lighter clothing. Did they know there was a festival of lights when they were gonna go on this trip spontaneously On this trip? I'm saying no. I'm just saying reasons Sam Sam chose to wear white.

I'm just saying. My guess is it's borrowed and multiple people have worn these. Yeah, I think Mon's outfit is not hers. I agree with you. I think Mon borrowed this because she's like wedding and they're like, great. We have many. We've. Been before, yeah, I think. That's borrowed. But the fact that Sam wore white, she chose that, not knowing what's going on, that's. Boutique in the inn. Huh. They have a whole wedding. Boutique in the inn. They do like, OK, here's your options, right?

Exactly. There's like. Well, we have these flowers leftover from our last impromptu wedding, the flower. Crown came from another wedding. Exactly, exactly. But the symbolism here I do. I like that they get to redo the wedding later when they're in their own colors or what colors that they choose to wear, which will get there when we get there. So I kind of like that this isn't their actual wedding. Well, this is basically what they feel like they have to do.

Well, I mean visually it's wear white so they are still living for other people. Their actual wedding is when they could be themselves and not care about others opinions. Ding. Which is why I'm glad they get to do it later. Good job, Caitlin. Thank you. But all of those that you're. Welcome. This, it doesn't diminish from the fact that this is romantic as fuck. So Mon in her cute little feels Oh my God, she's so nervous. Is this is the cutest thing ever?

Like because again, she's like, I hope what I'm doing is right. I think she's petrified and scared and is just like I hope this works. And she gives Sam this beautiful speech about how love is real in all the ways. And then she proposes to Sam who accepts. And Mon has these cute little matching pink rings for them to exchange, which cute because it's Mon's color that's now going to become their color. But also it's the style of the bracelet also, which I really like.

So it's a way to like, again, engagement wedding jewelry, which is very, very cute. And my favorite detail from the whole ring exchanging piece is that Mon is so, like, scared and like jittery that she struggles to put the ring on Sam's finger. Like it takes her a while because she's so shaky. But when it comes, Sam's turn, like Sam is like the steady one in this scenario. Sam didn't know. Sam just like walked into her wedding and had no idea.

But yet she's this like the rock in this whole thing, which is just poetic cinema. I just love. I love that it's like very Ying and yin and Yang for the two of them. And it's just so cute and perfect and I love it. It's very sweet. Yeah. Yeah. And then there's a song that plays during the wedding that doesn't play anywhere else in the show. And I don't know if you guys know, correct me if I'm wrong, it sounds like Free and Becky is singing this song.

Do we know any of the lyrics from it? No, I think it only happens here. It's another one of those like one and Done songs, but it sounds like the two of them are singing it, which I hope because that would be very cute if they sing. The wedding's on here, but it's definitely a duet between two women and it sounds like them. It's not important. They can, they can comment below, but you can look it up if you want to. OK.

All right, the rest of the wedding basically is just a bunch of cute dancing, kissing, and just general queer joy from everyone there until these assholes T and Cher throw Yuki in the pool. Bad for Yuki. Like she's just like chilling on a float. And then these bitches come up and just like, throw her in the water in front of Sam and Mon, who then laughs. So poor poor Yuki. She's the the butt of all. Yeah, poor Yuki. Yeah, like you're not dragged into this friend group and. Right.

She thought she was going on a romantic weekend with her girlfriend that gets thrown in a pool by these elder queers. And I'm like sons of bitches. Any other thoughts about their wedding or the injustice of what happened to Yuki? No, I mean, they forget they're married later anyway.

So 100%. Anyway, 'cause this is all ceremonial and it's very cute and it's it's the more like the Grand Gesture. Like Sam was looking for the Grand Gesture for Mod. And like, my mom's like, I can't buy you a car, but I can give you Maya dying love. Basically, that's the only currency I have, is like my love for you. Basically it sounds like, great, that's what I wanted. This is the best.

So the next day, like, they emerge and the queer elders are just beaming at them, 'cause like, they're so proud. They're like, look at the baby gaze. They figured their shit out. I love that you call them queer elders. They are queer elders because they're further along in their queer journey. They're already married. They're only in. They said fuck the haters and like they're just living their best lives. Like, and they're they're here, they are facilitating A queer wedding like.

You're my queer elder. Thank you. Everyone needs one. We all need, we all need a guide, you know? Shouting. All right, so the happily married couple wanders about Lesbos, and somehow husband Sam is even more affectionate than boyfriend Sam, which is insane, because boyfriend Sam was

already very affectionate. So during the morning stroll, like again, Sam does not let go of Mon once, and she's just constantly just doting all over her, treating Mon like the Princess she deserves to be. She basically like again, will not let go of her hand. She plants little kisses on her constantly as they're walking. She volunteers to take selfies with Mon. Since when? Since when? Who is this woman? Like, wow. Well, she learned to use Facebook and saw photos of everybody else.

And she's like, well, damn, I need to post photos of Mon. Like what A step up from like their first date with the with the photos and Mon's like, let's take photos and Sam's like, absolutely. I hate taking photos. She volunteers to do like she's taking photos of Mon first and then she's like let's take photos to get this was Sam's

idea. So this is like again evolution, the evolution of Sam. And she's like, no, I want to remember this moment with you, which is very cute and sweet, and she doesn't normally do that, so. Well, I just love to see it. I love to see her, her evolving. It's really amazing. Her character growth is insane.

Mm hmm. Part of me, I believe when I was watching this scene the first time, I actually had like a different reaction to this as it like, yeah, it looks cute on the surface, but to me it was a Sam knows that things are gonna change when she goes back. Like, she's like because of the conversation with her grandmother that happened. So I was seeing this as she's trying to overdo something so that Mon isn't noticing that something's weird.

I don't know. I mean, maybe that's not what's happening, but when I was watching this, I was like, this seems like over the top for how Sam usually reacts. Like a little bit more. I don't know. I so I think from Sam's point of view, she's like, you're mine now what? Whatever you want one. I told you everything. But what you're saying to me, it's like, as the viewer who's been traumatized by queer media, I'm like something bad's about to. Happen. This is too. Cute. This is way too cute.

This is for me to remember when things get sad. I think that's. What it is? Maybe. I think that's what it is. 'Cause I don't really do. Go ahead, sorry. I said I don't think that Sam is thinking about the grand, the grandmother, based on how she deflates when Nung brings her up in a second, she said. Oh yeah, the grandma I don't think she think about. It she tries. Not to think about it exactly. I think she's just like Mon loves me. Like she's in the again.

She's been planning the wedding. She just got her wedding. She's husband Sam now she's she's not thinking about she's not thinking about the grandmother. She's like what can I do next for Mon? Like she's. I'll take pictures of her she loves look at her. She's taking pictures. Let's take them together. So maybe I was feeling this is you feeling? Yes, this is a Toronto. Attack. This is what queer media has done to us. What? Because it's never happy like this.

Not yours. Being heavy, like something bad is good. Which it does. Which it does. So it wasn't. Wrong. You're not wrong. You're not wrong. It's like this is too happy right now and it's early in the episode. Something bad is gonna happen. It's early in the episode. Right. I'm always like. It's gonna get bad. So yeah, let's keep going. OK, so let's let's get to the bad stuff. All right. So anyway, as they're strolling

about, they run. Into. Nung Sam's oldest sister, who's still alive, who's apparently a beach bum, and she's just like chilling, selling, kitschy art or whatever the queerest looking. Let's talk about. Let's talk. About this, hold on, I came up with a theory in my head. What if Song still alive and they she like, paid the doctor to fake her death so that way her and Ice could be together forever, but she just had to traumatize ICE first? And have a funeral I. Talked.

About her funeral. Caitlin Yeah, I know. Just pretend like it's a closed casket. I mean, I'm fine with that. There's a. No lesbians were harmed in the making of this. Show well now they weren't. Cause Caitlin changed. The. But Speaking of queers so Nun mentions that she's like because Sam's like what are you doing here here as in the Isle of Lesbos what are you doing here

Nun? And she's like yeah no, like I I basically travel all over the world and like when I run out of money I come here and save up some money and then I go travelling again. So this to me this tells me that like she's shaking up with some queer on this island and they have some on again off again thing where she's like I'm broke

take me back in and. Maybe she has this, like, relationship with Cher and Risa and, like, she's just like, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, Like every once in a while just comes back, like, because it looks like she's staying there. Yeah. So maybe they're. Less I mean. Again, who's to say that Cher and Risa don't have queer employees and one of them is shaking up with none? That's true. She's checking up with so many queer on this island cause no

straight people are here. So, like, what does she? She says. I keep coming back here, so there's that. So then she keeps telling us. That so then Sam's grandmother lost with all of them. They were all queer as the. Fuck. And she was always gonna lose. There's. ATV show there's a book. Actually. Oh, a book. So. OK, yeah, it's gonna be ATV show. There's a trailer out there. Yeah, OK. Yeah. But the actors are changing because contracts I think. I believe that's what I read,

but. Yeah, but yeah, so it is Canon. Right, canonically. But like, without knowing that they're telling you right here, Yes, that none of Sam's sisters are straight. None of them. So yeah, if you follow The Adventures of Nun, apparently she's yeah, has queer adventures in another book. Slash soon to be TV show. So anyway, Nung and Sam finally have a very long overdue conversation because they haven't seen each other since she left since she was like, fuck the shit, I'm out grandmother.

She when she did that, she left. She abandoned Sam and all of her sisters and so they finally have an honest conversation about all of this. And key points to take away is that Nung's like, well, you can't blame me for song's death because Sam says she's like, well, you know when you left, all the pressure went on song and then eventually on to Sam and she's like, you can't blame me for her dying. She was weak and so this reads is really weird.

And I think, I think I know why, 'cause like in the trigger warning in the book song couldn't take the pressure and she killed herself. Oh shit. Yeah. And then in the show they made her queer and it was she got hit by a car. So like this almost reads like the book where she's like song was just weak and couldn't handle it and so she just exited her own way. That's how this more reads to me

versus like, how was song weak? Because like in the show, a song stands up to the grandmother, think it's hit by a car that wasn't. What did that have to do with anything? So I think that's, that got lost in translation. But the point is like, you have to be strong to like, beat, quote, beat the grandmother and be your own person is basically what she's trying to say.

And she says that basically, like, if you love the grandmother too much, you're going to have to give up who you are in order to, like, fully love her because that's what the grandmother wants. The grandmother wants you and her image, not who you are at your core. And see. And basically her sister warns Sam that, like, you could be next if you don't like woman the fuck up and, like, actually fight for mom because she's like, did you tell grandmother about this?

And then that's when Sam deflates and she's like, oh, yeah, I have to have that conversation. And I was like, yeah, that's what I thought. So she's like, you're going to end up like song if you don't, like, actually fight for what you want and be more like me. Basically, that's what she's saying. But I feel like deep down, like Sam because like, Sam was not happy to see her. She was just like, oh, I I think Sam feels very abandoned by Nung because, you know, they haven't

seen each other. Like even at, she's like even at our sister's funeral, you didn't come see me. Like Nung showed up. She's like, I didn't go inside because I don't want to see grandmother, but like you could have like texted Sam and be like, hey, let's meet. No, she just no contact with Sam too. So I think Sam feels very abandoned by her And Sam's body language a lot in this scene, like tells me that as well, the way she's kind of like, I don't know, she's very clearly

uncomfortable. But also Sam doesn't directly confront her sister. She's right there. She can tell her off and like, tell her how she feels, but she doesn't. And that inaction from Sam only proves Nung's point that, like, you know, Sam is she's not the brave one. She's not brave like Nung was

to, like, fight, really. And so, like, it's kind of like foreshadowing a little bit what's going to go on with the grandmother because, like, she can't even stand up to her sister, you know, not going to win against the grandmother who she has more history and more of, like, an actual, like, bond with. Because, like, this sister abandoned her, like, decades ago and she's like, I don't even know you anymore. But like her and the grandmother

have been tight forever. You know, that's a harder bond to break. I feel like Sam feels abandoned by everyone who's not in her life, even if it wasn't their choice to leave, like all the people who died who were assuming that more people die than you've actually seen, like. ISIS family. Oh, parents, yeah, yeah, yeah. She has abandonment issues for sure. She tries to hold on tight to the people she still has left. Mine is Kirk because boys are gross.

But she doesn't want to lose or disappoint grandmother because she's the last family that she has. And she would do this is about the grandmother and she'd do anything for her friends, including learn to dance for Jim's wedding and she'll when she is told that Jim is divorcing her husband because he snores, that's. The funniest thing ever. Yeah, I agree. Like at her core, like Sam is a very loving, loyal person.

And so the position that she's in right now is really shitty because she just, she wants to do the right thing. And like, I feel like no matter what she does, somebody's getting hurt. Whether it's the grandmother Mon herself, somebody's gonna get hurt. And Sam doesn't has been hurt so many times by other people. I don't think she wants to hurt people.

And so, like, that also leads to her inaction when it comes to choosing and firmly choosing what she wants or like or or what she's going to do, you know? So that's why I think she's very wishy washy a lot of the time and very easily influenced by, like, whoever she's with, You know what I mean? She's easily like a pushover to a lot of different people. The minute she's with mom, she's like, I want to do what you want. Then she goes back to the grandmother.

She's like, OK, grandmother, I'll do what you want. You know, she conforms to whoever she's with because I she doesn't want to hurt anybody and like and that's a very human thing, you know, and very understandable. Well, it also might be like she doesn't know. How? Like she's never really learned to stick up for herself or to make those kinds of choices. Or for like against people that she loves or should love kind of thing like. Yeah, but also like, she has

examples. So like, look at Nung for example. So none is here saying, like, look, I was the brave one, I was the strong one. I stood up for myself and like, what did that cost her? She had to leave her abandoned her entire family. Like she cold Turkey gave up her whole family for what she wanted. Which is insanely selfish when you think about it. Like she, like, left her little

sisters to fend for themselves. Because she's like, I don't want to be controlled by the grandmother the grandmother won't like. She didn't even try to compromise with the grandmother. She's just like, fuck this and like, left which. But that is her right? I I know, But I'm saying, like, right, Like that is a choice. She chose to do that. But what was the consequence of that? She had to give up her entire

family to do that. OK, so you can judge Sam and be like Sam, why can't you just do what your sister's doing? But, like, why should you have to give up your family for the person you love? Like, that's kind of crazy to ask somebody to do, you know, like that. That's not so easy for everybody. Like, Sam has a much deeper bond with the grandmother than her older sister ever did because the older sister was put in the she's in the pressure cooker the whole time.

Whereas Sam had more years to, like, bond with the grandmother and be like the baby of the family. And like, you know they had an actual like, loving relationship until she became the focus. Right. So I think for Sam that's really hard to just be like, I'm just going to abandon you like and pretend like I don't care. She does care about her grandmother like.

So for Sam this is a much harder it's much harder for her to be purely selfish and just choose Mon. She's in a different position than Nan was in. And so like to have her sister sit there and judge her like like Sam like you just abandoned all of us. Like I'm. I'm not that person that can just abandoned my family the way you did just to just for what I want, 'cause it's it is a purely selfish act what Nung did like, really When you boil it down like, was it the right decision

for her? Did she have the right to do it? Absolutely. But it is a what she did is very selfish, like. And that's how Sam sees it. And I think that's how she's looking at her sister And she's like, I saw what you did. Then I saw what happened like, well, Sam saw the consequences. Nung didn't. She just left. She's she comes back. She's like, is grandmother even alive? I don't even know what's going on in our family anymore, you know. But Sam saw her sister

deteriorate. Like she saw the grandmother get more controlling. And then the grandmother became controlling to hurt, Like Sam saw the consequences of what Nung did like. So I think that it, while Sam didn't learn how to, like, do what she wanted, she saw first hand what happens if she does what she wants. Like, it can have a downstream effect and like, affect other people. And so I think that's part of her hesitancy because Sam really does have a big heart.

And I I don't think she wants to hurt anyone. And so but now she's in a position where like, she has to pick a lane and it's going to hurt somebody. And it's just she's having a hard time doing that. Yeah, so it's easier to shut down and ignore exactly and. Just go to Lesbos and pretend it doesn't exist, you know like

right? But like it's it's getting to the point where Sam's got to do something and just like and so I like when we get to later stages where she's like, I don't know what to do anymore I I this is situation is impossible. Like it is really shitty you know. But. I personally don't find it selfish what she did, just that she was trying to take care of herself. Like she isn't responsible for the people she left behind and who say like if she was still

there, maybe she could. Like she would have not. She wouldn't be who she is, like she wouldn't be herself. She wouldn't be able to be who they wanted her to be. So I I agree with that. I think that from Sam's point of view, she sees it as a selfish act. But from Nung's point of view, it was a this is what I need in order to be myself and to exist and to thrive and to like, even if it ends up hurting people. Like I can't, like you said, I

can't control this. Like that's that's not on me to like I can't make, I can't make that my decision based on how it'll affect other people, 'cause then I'm not gonna be true to myself, so. Yeah, and Nung definitely thinks that, which is why she's like, you can't blame song's death on me, but like you leaving did put Song in that it was connected.

And I think that part of like what where's like our point of view on this is very skewed by the fact that we live in a Western culture where like the self is prized above the family unit the bigger units were attached to. But like in Eastern cultures, it's the other way around. The self is not prized, it's the family unit, the, the country. Like you're part of something bigger.

And so the responsibility that Nung had to her family like from Sam and the grandmother's point of view is like to take care of the family. So Nung abdicating for herself is unusual actually. So, like, it is seen as selfish in like their culture that they're in. And it seems to me that like that kind of like is shifting a little bit, at least the way this the show is presented where like it's more like, hey, follow yourself.

And that's that's OK Like I. And that's why, like the elders are having this clash with Sam's generation because Sam's generation is being westernized by like our. Because like our mentality is like, yeah, and do do you like take care of yourself. But like in their culture it's actually the other way around. What she's doing is abnormal. Not that it's bad or anything, but mean, like it's atypical behavior for like the eldest abdicate their whole family.

Like that's very unusual. It's like you're supposed to sacrifice for the family and like, that's where the grandmother's coming from, Yeah. But I just. Wanted to like cover our base and make sure like anybody listening because like they might have been in a position where they needed to cut ties of family because of. But I just wanted to make sure that people weren't reading into it and thinking that we were calling them selfish as well. No, I'm not. I mean, it is, but like, it's

not. I'm not saying it's good or bad. I'm just you're putting yourself first, which is what's the word selfish means. Like, I'm not saying it in a bad way or a good way. It's just like that is what she's doing. Like she's taking care of herself first, which again is seen as atypical in that. But like, that's what the show is really trying to show.

It's like again, like the younger generation that is putting themselves 1st and saying being selfish in these scenarios is OK Like you have, you do need to take care of yourself and you you can't conform to what other people want all the time. Like otherwise you'll be unhappy and end up like song. You know, versus like, the elder mentality is like you're supposed to put the family 1st and like the fact that you're being selfish is like

dishonorable and like shameful. And like, so you're having a clashing of ideologies that are kind of happening. And it's interesting the way this all played out in Sam's family because, like, nobody had a good outcome. And so that's a lot for Sam to be like, well, I could choose Mon and say fuck the grandmother, but like, so far everyone's track record has been pretty shitty when they make

that decision. Like, you know, I don't think Sam can ignore any of these pieces when she's thinking about what do I do? Like, the woman is traumatized. Like she's trying to break the generational curse. That's what I mean. Like, she is breaking this generational curse of like, conform and be what the family needs you to be. Sam's trying to do both, I think, and I think she does this. She handles this a lot better than her sisters do. Well, the sisters are like, I'm just leaving.

Like Sam very much tries to be the mediator between the generational thinking. And I think she's the one that breaks the curse because she's like, I don't know, doesn't want to hurt any. She tries to find the compromise right, and it seems repetitive, like the cycle they get stuck in where it's like, Sam, for fuck's sake, we can you make a

decision. It's an impossible decision that you know, you know, so I think, but I think Sam ultimately was the right person in the family to be in this position. Well, it sucked. And she didn't necessarily know she was going to be like in this position later as like the only family member, you know, she was the right person for it because because of those characteristics that she has. So I have a lot of admiration for Sam. Like it it seems like it's we get trapped in this pattern with

her. But like, I think it means more than just like choose your own happiness, Sam. You know, 'cause she loves her family. Like that brings her happiness too, in a way. Even though it's like a complicated relationship. She has, you know, and she doesn't like Ice Out Nung, she very easily could have just like slapped her sister and be like, fuck you, you made my life miserable. Like you know she doesn't, She tries to be the peacemaker with

all this stuff, you know? Anyway, so Nung is like, enough with this gloom that you 3 bitches have been talking about Big Gay energy host. Let's talk about the gay stuff. She's like, you guys look like you're married. Are you married? And mom's like and Sam's like, absolutely fucking yes. This is this is my mom. This is my mom, boss. My mom. Boss, my mom, Boss. And so Nung is very proud of Sam because she's like, wow, OK, it's all of us, I guess.

Welcome to the club. What was in the water? 'Cause like, OK, this is like baby Sam. Cause like, remember her? She hasn't seen Sam in like decades. And like, the little baby Sam was always the one that just did what was the good girl? She was the good girl of the family, right? She always did what she was told and like, you know, was like genuinely happy about it and things like that. So she's like, wow, you're rebelling against grandmother

too. Like song was like, great job, Sam. We're all fuck ups. But OK, again, at this point, she hasn't told the grandmam. But unfortunately, the grandmam already knows that she has another song on her hands because she's like, had her. Her CIA agents trail the two of them and has this packet of photos of Sam and Mon, just like, talking. I'm like, how are these incriminating photos like? They're just like, But also, who's the stalker now? Mon? Got to taste your own medicine.

The grand man was stalking you, all right. And then when she's, she gets the packet. So this is the confirmation because remember, Kirk didn't tell her who model who Sam was with. So this is how she finds out she, like gets API to trail her. And then when she's looking at the photos like she looks really devastated that like, this is what Sam is doing because like, song trigger. Song trigger, right. Remember, song was the big queer.

And how did that end? She had to like watch her die in a hospital, right. That ended horribly. So I think that she has PTSD a little bit too. And I think that's part of it. But I think the bigger part of it is that, like, Sam's always been the good girl, right? Sam has always done what she wanted. Sam was going to marry Kirk. Then all of a sudden, like overnight she's like, what do you mean she left you Kirk? Like, like all of a sudden, like Sam left Kirk without consulting

her. Like you would have thought that I think from the grandmother's perspective, she's like, Sam would have told me, didn't say anything, just broke up with she heard it from Kirk, then she trails her and she's like, this is who Sam is cheating on Kirk with. Like, I feel like in her mind she's like, wow, I'm losing Sam. And and I think, I don't think it ever crossed her mind that she would ever lose Sam because Sam was always the good girl.

But I think the way Sam is insecure and clings when she feels like she's losing people. I think that's learned behavior from the grandmother because the grandmother starts doing the same thing. She's like, crap. I'm losing my one and only grandchild, my good one, the one that's always cared for me, and she starts freaking the fuck out. Because, again, why would she know? Sam learned from the best how to

hide all this shit? Like she just hit it so well that it just she's finding out right now. She's like losing Sam, which is a lot, you know. I wanted to make comment about the photos. Please do. They're so weird. They're so weird. I'm talking about the angle specifically because the IT really only makes sense if these people were like literally feet three feet next to them taking the photo. Because even with a long angled lens like they would, I don't even know like the position.

It's so it's just a weird angle. Like it literally looks like they're standing there taking a photo and like, how would they not see that? Were these photos? I'm trying to figure out, 'cause I can't, I can't remember, based on the outfits, were these photos taken outside of the company, 'cause they don't look like they were taken at the inn.

And so was it, yeah. And one of those employees get paid cause like or annoy, because noy's into Kirk and Kirk would be like, listen, sweetie pie, I need you to do me a favor. So, like, it wasn't somebody they knew and they were just like, whatever, 'cause they're not doing anything. They're not even touching. They're just standing in front of each other having a conversation. So was it somebody they knew who was just like click, click click?

Was it Jim and like Jim had it on like a computer or something and they hacked into it? Was Jim taking photos? Maybe. I mean, maybe, 'cause I was thought you were suggesting that Jim was the stalker. Jim would never conspire. Jim hates the grandmother. She's always like, come on, you gotta bring weapons when you go. There she's like. She calls her the final boss. That's why I love Jim so much. Like she understands what the grandmother is. But yeah, did they hack into her

computer? You're like, this bitch is obsessed with my granddaughter. Wow, these are a lot of photos of. Sam, well, I'm just like thinking maybe it's like on Facebook because, you know, Sam puts everything on Facebook. My God, all I had to do was just go into Sam, 'cause she changed her name. Just go find Sam's Facebook and be like, who's Mon, 'cause she very publicly was bragging about having sex with Mon and used her name. So, like, you don't need to go through all this. I agree.

I I need to teach her a few things about stalking on the Internet. She. She does old school stalking, you know, in person you send out a. Human. But yeah, this is that costs a lot of money though. Money means what is money to her? True. So before we leave this island, didn't didn't like ask for like the phone number and then a whole bunch of money. I think that's in a flashback later. Oh, is it? I thought, I think so. I thought she asked for the phone number at least and like, got.

No, I think it's it's later. It's like a flash. She gets AI think Mon gets a call. And they made the flashback of like, Nung asking by herself. But yeah, while they're on the island, Nung's like, can I get your number? Because you're way nicer than my sister. And clearly you're married, so you have access to her money. Yeah, So I'm a beach bum and I need help. Yes, they are lovers. That means she's can borrow the money, right?

When Nung understands us, she's like lovers to Sam means money. So you're the money. Now I just have to convince you and you seem nice. My sister is not nice. She'd be like, go to hell bitch. But mom would be like. Sure. Yeah, so they exchanged numbers, basically? She asked. For. So funny. The the book is funny too, 'cause she asks Mon and Mon just gives her the money. It doesn't even tell Sam she's like whatever, doesn't even tell Sam.

She just gives her the money. Sam doesn't care anyway, so they leave Lesbos and go home. Unfortunately, and the poor, poor actually Mon good timing the next day, and thankfully not when they're at Lesbos. Mon has the worst cramps ever. So good timing Mon. That would have been really shitty if it was on your wedding trip. On your impromptu honeymoon, exactly before the wedding. The trip that you didn't know you were going on until Sam

dried you in the car, that true? Also, did Sam just have clothes in the car? Like I I I imagine she packed like an emergency bag, like with clothes. Her her clothes for her clothes for mom. Just be like just in case, just in case we need to go somewhere. Just in case things get too heated at work. Right, just in case we need to overnight stay somewhere. You never know because she's always dragging mom out of work and then they never go back to work anyway, so I thought that

funny. Anyway, so mom's having cramps and she feels terrible and her super cool boss lets her stay home from. Work. No special treatment here whatsoever. None. None. Very cute though. So Mon basically sleeps and then is rudely woken up by a doorbell and she thinks it's Sam, which she does multiple times in the show because no one comes to this house. But. Why? Let Sam ring the doorbell. Mon is still living in her Lesbos fantasy. She is. Mine is like she's half asleep,

so she comes out. She comes out the room just like pet, naming Sam left and right, and then finds the grand ma'am sitting at the kitchen table. Why can't we have nice things? Oh, that woman. So poor Mon is like, well, fuck. The honorable honorable lady is here. So out of respect, Sam make or Sam Mon makes her tea and like serves her the tea. Like it's the respect thing. And while this is happening, the Grand Mam is just like sizing up Mon and just disrespecting her left and right.

And then what I hate the most is when she calls, she's like, you're that kid, Mon. Like how infantilizing to be. Like calling her a child, first of all. And then she's like, I know everything about you. And she reads, she proves to mom that she's a better stalker by reading her and the reciting the FBI background check she did on mom. And she's like, I know about your family, what happened when you were five years old, what school you went to, your grades, I read your essays, I know it

all. And mom's like, oh fuck, this is not great. And by the end of it, the grandma basically accuses mom of stalking Sam, which she was, and coaxing Sam into a relationship that was planned so she can gold dig Sam. Which? She is not. OK, but in the defense of the grandmother, if I were to get all this information about someone that I didn't meet and like didn't know, it would seem very fishy, like she followed every single thing that she did.

She sure did. Yeah, on paper, Mom was stalking Sam for sure, and mom doesn't answer. Mom also doesn't answer her. She's like, did you plan this relationship with my daughter or my daughter, my granddaughter. And mom doesn't actually. She's terrified first of all. But like, mom doesn't answer, which like, adds to the grandmother. And he's like, I knew it. I knew it. Gosh. I knew it. I didn't need an FBI. Agent to tell me this just. Inherently knew it.

I just, I knew it. And then basically by the end of this conversation, the grandmother was like, this is all insane. What you guys are doing is crazy and only people in love do crazy shit, so but she's like, you're both women so this can't be love and that can't be what's going on here. I don't understand this. And poor Mona's just like crushed cause again. It's like first of all this confrontation should have never

have happened. Sam. This should be a conversation you're having with your grandmother not Mon on her own who's having period cramps like the worst day ever. Like, you know Mona's having the worst day ever. It's a lot. And like to have the the grand man basically like reinforce all of Mon's insecurities yet again that she just dealt with with the wedding because she's basically saying you're a child you're not good enough for my granddaughter.

Like you're she says in this conversation too she's like she's like Sam had a fiance. She had Kirk. He was perfect. Now he's an outsider and you're for some reason an insider and you shouldn't. She's basically saying like you should be the outsider Mon in this situation. She's just like reading her to filth and this, like, I feel so bad for Mon in this conversation because, like, LON has impostor syndrome, really, when it comes to Sam. That's what it is.

And like, this conversation with the grandmam does not help. It just, like, brings all that shit back, you know? Yeah. And then I also agree with like, this should not have happened. Like this is the biggest reason why Sam should have told her grandmother like what was going on ahead of time. So something like this didn't happen because this is, this is the last.

Like even in a good situation, you don't wanna leave your new partner or the first time your partner's meeting your family, whether they like, whether they're gonna be supportive or not, like to meet them themselves by like by themselves for the first time. Like, that's a lot, even in a good situation. No for sure. And like, once Sam finds out she has feelings about this. I agree with you, this should have never happened. But to be fair, at this point, both of them are being are

blindsided by this whole thing. Because while the grand ma'am is attacking Mon, Kirk is at the office attacking Sam. So like they both get like double teamed at the same time, so there's no way they could communicate or like do anything. Even if even if mom was like Sam, your grandmother's here, she's too busy battling Kirk at the office who's enacting A coup, basically courtesy 'cause this is all the grandmother's

doing all of this. So Kirk has all the employees in that lecture hall or whatever the hell it is, and he's basically going on and on. And he's like, I am here to like be righteous by the company rules and the company rule is no fraternizing. And so I am firing ya and Chin. But how did he even know? About it, that's an amazing question. Who's his mole? Was he watching the security? Did Auntie make? She had to know. She knows everything.

Did he like schmooze It's NOI. I'm blaming NOI until I know otherwise because she likes him and would tell him everything. That's why he could. He could play her, is all I'm saying. But I thought no one else knew. That's what I thought. I wonder. Security cameras. I don't. Oh no, He caught them in the parking lot. That's what happened. Oh, but I wonder if the Pi that was like tailing, cause again, they were at work when they took

those photos. I wonder if the Pi tailing Sam and Mon was like, I caught this too. I don't know if it's relevant and like caught the two of them. But yeah, he tells Sam Laters. Like I caught them in the parking lot. What was I supposed to do? I feel like this was planned and then someone found out. But conveniently that's his story, because Sam's like, what the fuck? And. Pulls him into her office and. She's like, she's basically like, tell me what this he's like?

She's like this. Is really about me and Mon I. Know it is because you're trying to be like, no, I suddenly want to follow the office fraternizing rule that you weren't following with me. Suddenly you're all about this rule. He's just like this is to put pressure on me and Mon, isn't it? And she's like, fine, I'll fire. Mon, right now. I'll. She's fired. As of right now. I just did it. I fired her so I can date her even harder now. Kirk, is that what you wanted? Which she does.

So, I mean, she was trying to fire her earlier. I. Know. She's like this. Is exactly what I wanted. Anyway, thanks for the. Excuse. I'll let Ma know she has no more money coming in. But we're married now, so it doesn't matter. But in this conversation, I do like when she's telling Kirk off. About this, she basically. Says like she says that she loves Mon too. And so I think this is a reality check for him in a lot of ways. #1 Sam's reaction where she's still fighting for Mon even when

she shouldn't be, right. According to him and the grandmother. And then she basically says, I love Mon and it's like he's like, wow, OK, this is really, this isn't just you're cheating on me for some college experiment reasons like you're actually in love with her. OK, this. Wow. I think yeah, big 'cause he looks pretty strict during this conversation. And. So then I love when she puts it. All together, she has this. Sick burn at the end where she's like thanks for enlightening me

Kirk like mic drop moment. I love it so much. But then, Kirk. Follows this up with Well, I'm just trying to be a good guy. Sam and do what's best for you, Sam. I'm like, oh God. If he wanted to be the good guy, he would tell the. Grandmother. Off and not. Care about what she does. You wouldn't be in. He was a. Mole in her life in. Multiple ways. The mole of the company and then he's the mole with her love life when it comes to the grandma and he just reports all of what's going on.

Like the reason we're in this situation is because of you. Kirk Kidder just walked away. No, you had to be a Dick about it. So after her impassioned rant. At Kirk, she just. Leaves and she's like, fuck this shit 'cause it's middle of a work day, but I don't work. And she goes home to go see Mon. But mom's not there, it's just she goes home to an empty house. She looks all. Over the house and she's like. What the fuck just happened? So then we cut over to Mon. So Mon left after.

What I was picturing her and playing Marco Polo in the house for some reason. I'd just be like Marco. No answer. Mon Mon sham sham jump. It's. It's getting late here. That's what's. Happening. We're in the twilight hours, or we're past that anyway, so mom goes to her parents. House and she has this conversation with Nop because Mom is sitting there trying to process her last scene and she's ignoring Sam, who's currently

blowing up her phone. And Nop is so sweet in this scene, and basically he he's like, you know, she's calling a lot. You should probably pick up the He's like, I don't like Lady Sam. You and we all know I am not the fan of her at all. But, like, you should probably like, talk to her. She's probably losing her mind. She is, because Sam doesn't know. Sam has no idea why Mom left. Mom did not tell. Her about the encounter with the

grand, ma'am. So he's like, you should probably tell her what's happened. That's a big deal. Like, you should probably tell her, but mom's, like, not ready to talk to Sam. She needs to process that because that was a lot. So I like in this conversation that Nop really steps up and he he's a good therapist for Ma in the scene and tells her what she needs to hear. To really?

Like Assuage her insecurity over Sam, and he basically gives her this pep talk and he's like, you can't let what she's like. All those horrible insults she was throwing at you, can't let, can't let her get to you. You know, 'cause Ma, not number one, is all about eating the rich, which is partially why he hates Sam, 'cause she's wealthy, and he's not about that. But he has the same energy when it comes to the Grand. Man which is like. The grand man's the final boss.

You need to eliminate her. She's. In the way all. Of that stuff. And I like one of the things he says and he's like, he's like Mon, I you feel like you're inferior to Sam. But he's like our true value doesn't lie in titles and all the stuff the grandmother's trying to put on you. He's like, that's old way of thinking. He's like, your true value lies in your heart, right? Which is what, like, the lesbians are trying to tell her

also. So like, and I feel like it, it means a lot coming from him, 'cause he's somebody who, like, really knows her extremely well and has proven after he finally got it through his head they weren't gonna be a thing that, like, he genuinely is looking out for her constantly. And so I feel like this meant more coming from him versus like the conversation with like, Risa and Cher at the end, you know? Yeah, definitely. No, I'm. I was putting it all together in my head.

I was stuck on the exterminate. That was pretty cool, I see. I see that I. Did say it in my head. And I know I can't read that word, not. That was not a joke for me 'cause I have no idea what's going on. It will. Be when you watch Doctor Who with us. Oh gosh. Anyway. The Evolution of. Like. Knop. And Mon's friendship is something that I I like. I'll say that two evolutions I

really love in this this show. One is Sam's character development and the 2nd is I actually really enjoy Knop and and Mon's relationship and the way it like completely shifts and goes to a very healthy beautiful place. It's just very special and I love that he. He knows. How Mon feels. But he's known for a since the beginning and he knows that it's reciprocated. Even if Sam fucks up a lot. Like he does know that Sam loves Ma.

I think he does know that. So he does like in the scene encourage her to talk to Sam like directly about this instead of letting it fester and becoming like a misunderstanding and all that kind of stuff. And he's like you know love conquers all. Ma Ma, it's gonna be fine. Just please talk to her. And so he's a very good ally in the scene. I just it's very sweet. I like this conversation with her. Yeah. Once we get the. Like, this is his second love. Is love, basically.

Yeah, exactly. He's like the first one. The first time he has that. Conversation. With her, I really start liking him because, I mean, in the first episode I was completely against him. Same he like he's. There to actually. Help Mon with her problems. But, like, because, you know Yuki and her parents were not helping. Yuki apparently doesn't communicate about relationships whatsoever. The parents are just all about Sam, and she can do no wrong. Yeah, so I love that.

She has him who, like, has seen the whole. Thing from like stalker wall to like Sam showing up constantly like and while he does not like Sam like he doesn't like Sam. He he knows. That, like, Mom loves her and that it's reciprocated. But like, I don't think he, he hates them actually, as a person, 'cause she's, you know. To him, what's wrong with the world? Is a rich woman like, she's like wielding her power left and

right. So and I do like that in the scene Mon does acknowledge that Nob is being a really good friend. So I like that they they they they come full circle with their friendship and it gets to a stronger place. So I do, I do like that for the two of them? Well, I mean, it was basically her running away from him in the beginning, so. Yeah, but like, you think about it like, you know, probably

before puberty. Like, they probably had a really strong friendship and then it got weird because hormones. And now, like, I like that it comes back to just being like a really solid friendship, you know, where she's very seen by him, you know, which I wasn't expecting. I would expect this to come from Yuki. So I do like that it comes from him. I think it's very sweet. We really don't get much substance from you. No, we get her. Crying to Som about this, her crying to Mon.

About boyfriends. And then, like we don't really hear from Yuki, I wonder if so the. Actor who? Played Yuki and I think T as well like they had conflicts with like scheduling for the show and everything. So I wonder if Yuki I I don't. I didn't read the book, so I don't know if it's if. It's. Showing at all in the book, but I wonder. If it was supposed to be.

Yuki, But they were scheduling conflicts with the actors, and so Nop ends up taking that role on and it becomes more of a like, 'cause that kind of it kind of has that same. Feeling of how Yuki's friendship. Was with her with with Mon, and then now it's that same kind of relationship, but with Nop. I can see that. I do like that it's him though, because. When Sam shows up because again she can, he can push the jealousy button with her. That.

Like, Yuki can't push. So I do like that when Sam comes back and she's like at the gate, like Nop is like physically comforting him on so that it makes Sam immediately jealous and she's like, what the hell? Like, is this why you love? I love that we get those moments because they're so funny. But. Like, I can't blame Sam in the scene because she's a wreck. Mom left without saying. Anything. And she's like, what is this? And I like that when Sam shows. Up.

We get the shot of her behind the gate, so to me it kind of depicts how Sam feels in this. Moment, like suddenly. She's an outsider cause like she's in the she doesn't know what the Hell's happening and like suddenly Mon flees and like here's Mon with nop, which is weird. And like, also it's weird 'cause like not weird. But it's interesting because like that's actually how Mon feels, like she feels like the outsider after this conversation

with the grandmother. So they're on the same page for different reasons, and I like how it's kind of depicted here and the reason why I love that this. Is NOP also? He's like, great Sam. 'S here. Perfect. You bitches need to talk. He's like, call me if this ends poorly, mod and like. They. They. Do like a staring at each other shit like him. He's like Lady Sam.

Like he just, he hates her. Like, and I just like that we get these fun interactions with the two of them, 'cause they don't like each other and like they don't hide that I like that he was the one to let Sam inside because. It shows us and Sam that he truly isn't after Mod anymore. And yeah, so, like, by opening it for her, he's like, all right, it's your turn. Yeah, I I told her to talk to you. Yeah, it also kind of shows like as much as. He doesn't.

Like all that Mon's, like that Mon that Sam like stands for or like grew up being, he's open to her being a part of Mon's. Life. Too. Or trying to be at least 'cause I think he sees that when Mom's happy, she's. Really happy like I. Think he know? Like he knows that she cares about her and that Sam does treat her well, 'cause she probably hears hears about it from the parents. He's always there, right? And they're like, well, mom bought her, AI don't know, Mom bought her clothes.

And like, Mom, she took her out to get all these things. Like, I think he hears that, like, she treats her well, like when she's not a crying mess, right? You know, 'cause, yeah, that's all he saw, all he sees, 'cause she only comes home when she's. Sad. That's why she's here now. So yeah, anyway. So now knot. 'S. Gone and so. Sam and Mon are alone and.

Sam tries to like reach out for Mon to like comfort her, but Mon like physically turns away like before Sam can touch her and like that's never a good sign, Sam, so they go sit down on. The bench to kind of like. Talk and poor mom, like, I think she's just so rattled. She just, I don't think she even knows how to have this conversation. So which is interesting because Sam does most of the talking,

which is not normal. And she's she tries to make all the excuses about why she's upset, and Sam calls her out and she's like, listen, you're you asked for the privilege of me, telling you how I feel all the time. Like I would like the same. Courtesy that you tell me how you're actually feeling, and I think that like, clearly, like deep. Down like Sam knows Mon. Well enough to know that, like, you're not being yourself right

now. Something, something's something is very wrong for you to, like, be so out of character right now. And so Sam just like, gives Mom the space to like, 'cause Sam knows what it's like to, like, struggle with words. And so she kind of, like, gives Mom the space to, like, figure out what she wants to say and just like kind of, like, takes her hand and like, holds it. And I think that that's a grounding gesture.

The two of them do a lot, but in this moment it's really important because Sam physically holding on to her like pulls Mon out of her thoughts. Like it gets her out of her like internal monologue to get more external and like get into the present moment where Sam is. And after this, that's when Mon comes clean and she. Tells her like. Your grandmother stopped by the house today and the look on Sam's face the minute she says this. Is just a. Look of just I am an utter

failure. So what you said earlier Cole, the way like when we said this should never have happened. This should have been Sam's confrontation. Sam knows that. So when Mon tells her this, she just has the her she her immediate reaction was like that should have been me, not you. Like that's what her face tells me in this moment. Like she knows but she failed because she her inaction like led to this scenario basically. And so Mon comes clean about like what?

The conversation was, and basically she was. Like, well, she told me to walk away from you completely basically. And and Sam doesn't say anything to to this. But she she also doesn't let go of Mon. In fact she like grabs her hand, like holds on even tighter. Same reflex with the grandmother. Right. I feel like I'm losing you. I'm gonna hold on even tighter. Like she physically does it here and then she pulls Sam in, pulls

Mon into a hug, right. And to me, this is Sam's way of admitting without admitting that Mon is like what she wants to fight for. You know, Mons being the keyword here that like she's like, fuck, this shouldn't have happened. And they do sit in this moment for a little bit, which again,

cute. They let them sit in comforting moments and eventually Sam apologizes like over and over and over again because I think Sam knows she she really failed Mon. Like the out of all the things that Sam has ever done she failed Mon the most in this in this moment. Because Sam knew this day was gonna come the way she knew I have to break up with Kirk eventually. She kept saying that to mom but she never was. Like I had to tell my

grandmother eventually. I think that she tried so hard to, like, ignore that more than anything else. And she was all too happy to just flee to, like, Sharon Rissa's place and like live in that bubble of just being happy. And that she ended up being blindsided by the reality of the situation, which was the grandmother found out on her own. And then this happened, right? And and then by doing so, Sam failed on because she wasn't

there when this all went down. You know, I'm really happy that Sam did keep apologizing. Because she's never really had to apologize in her life, but now that she found someone that she truly cares about and knows that she is hurting because of her, and yeah, I I just didn't understand that. Word that I. Wrote, and the inevitable, all she can think about is her, yeah. Because deep down, Sam Sam's trying. Not to hurt. Anybody you know? I think which is why like. It was easier for.

Her as a kid, to just be like, I don't need to be happy as long as the people around me are happy. So in a way, Sam's actually the people pleaser like of the two of them. And Mon's more like stands up for what she wants, which is very interesting, 'cause that's not how they read on the surface, you know, All right, but in the end, at the end of this conversation. Sam promises. Mon that they'll get through this, and she gives Mon her word. They'll get through this together.

Thoughts. Thoughts on this? Promise by Sam? Wishful thinking? And it's putting a lot. Of pressure on herself to confront. The grandmother. Which brings us to the end of the episode, because interestingly, in the conversation. At the beach when the grandmother calls her Sam was basically like, Yep, I'll come see you later. So she does. She makes good on the promise. So Sam was going to meet the grandmother regardless.

So the what the grandmother did is actually pretty fucked up because she knew Sam was going to come over there on this day. So then she went behind Sam's back and like enacted her plan the day before they were supposed to meet. So, like, to Sam's credit, she was supposed to meet the grandmother on this day, but now she's like, I'm pissed and so then she goes over and it ends. With Sam. And the grandmother like. Kind of having a stare down. She's like, I need to talk to you.

Oh, grandmother of mine. And then it ends before we can get to the big confrontation that we've been waiting for. Dun Dun, Dun Dun. Well, you do see the light source once. Again, there you go. Would this be Gap, the series about the light source? Oh. My. Goodness, did you put that? CrossFit. Oh. And there's so many CrossFit. There's. So many weird ones in this confrontation. Oh. Boy, OK, but Caitlin. Who put the? Spotlight in the grand man's house.

Mom's not there. Oh no, no, no, no, no. The grand man has people like. There. Needs to be lighting servant light on her. She's like 10 servants, so like 1. Of them is light light crew. Just lighting. Just lighting. That's. It one does meals. Other. One cleans. That's it. All right, so that concludes episode. 10. Any other thoughts? Before we close it out here, no, I have a lot of thoughts for so many thoughts for episode. 11. And we will get there and get to all.

Of it. So hope you enjoyed this and until next time, hydrate for lesbian Jesus, bye.