Cold Open I just heard the duly-elected President of these United States... Donald J. Trump... brag about dropping the atom bomb. On Hiroshima. My god. Steven Colbert? Jon Stewart...? Once, these guys were subversive... were daring. But... But with troops still in the California streets and missiles in Mid-Eastern air... Haven't comedians become nauseatingly... tone dead? When the Comedy stops being funny… We're in deep shit. Especially anybody different. Like, say… autistics.. [music theme] Int...
Jun 28, 2025•13 min
Cold Open You wanna pathologize me? Knock yerself out. Faithfully counting every leaf marked "deficit"… But missing the whole damn forest we know locally as "Survival." [Doc? You Got Us All Wrong, Pt 1: Autistic Resilience] Intro You're listening to AutisticAF Out Loud. One voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Season 5, Episode 5. “Doc? You Got Us All Wrong, Pt 1: Autistic Resilience.” Deficits… or strengths? Survival… or thriving? Pathology… or inborn, natural autistic behavio...
Jun 19, 2025•31 min
Cold Open CBT…? Never worked for autistic me. So, look, we KNOW masking doesn't work. Or FEAR. Or PAIN. We’re dying from them already. That's all the words we need. [Music] Intro You're listening to AutisticAF Out Loud. One voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Season 5, Episode 6. “Doc? You Got Us All Wrong, Pt 2: CBT…? Never Worked for Autistic Me.” Abelist agendas. Bad research subjects. Bad data. Bad therapy. There’s the whole story. An experimental multi-part series… around...
Jun 19, 2025•16 min
Cold Open You wanna pathologize me? Knock yerself out. Faithfully counting every leaf marked "deficit"… But missing the whole damn forest we know locally as "Survival." Intro You're listening to AutisticAF Out Loud. One voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Season 5, Episode 5. “Doc? You Got Us All Wrong, Pt 1: Autistic Resilience.” Deficits… or strengths? Survival… or thriving? Pathology… or inborn, natural autistic behavior? We turn the diagnostic telescope around. Let’s focus...
Jun 19, 2025•16 min
Cold Open [into silence] Friend, I haven't done this before. Usually I talk autism & neurodiversity with you. But I'm very concerned about events unfolding this weekend... I've seen these patterns emerge before. In other countries. Authoritarian countries¹. I have no plan of action to suggest. It's happening too fast for me to process… in my slow, deep AuDHD² way. All I could think to do… is share my concerns with friends who care. [Music 8 bars] Intro Welcome to Trigger Warnings… a new proj...
Jun 09, 2025•7 min
Cold Open (into silence) You love Dune? Like me? Frank Herbert is dead... wrong. Fear is NOT the mind-killer. Denial is. [Music ] Intro You're listening to AutisticAF Out Loud. One voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Season 5, Episode 5. Attacks on neurodivergence, facing our fears, finding our strength. Today we're talking threats, resistance, and the power of a hundred million voices. Just one autistic elder's truth. I'm Johnny Profane. Content Note: political violence, euge...
Feb 24, 2025•16 min
Cold Open I was not born to be pitied. I was born to raise Hell. Autistic style. Intro You’re listening to AutisticAF Out Loud. One voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Season 5, Episode 4. Breaking mirrors, dancing at the edge of noise, raising autistic hell. Autism, Neurodiversity, 3 Poems... and 3 Rando Manifestos. Just one autistic elder's truth. I'm Johnny Profane. Content Note: trauma, sexual assault, self-harm, rage, transformative therapy moments + experiences & opi...
Feb 05, 2025•15 min
Full podcast with links to available poster artwork: https://johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/p/podcast-every-clock-is-a-handgun-2ee Sensory-Friendly Discussion & Summary: https://notebooklm.google.com/notebook/30720fb4-dab4-48b9-873f-90ec1ac03b88/audio Transcript: Autistic Spoken Word: Every Clock Is a Handgun Pointed at My Head This spoken word on my autistic experience of time contains triggering topics. If you are sensitive to frank discussion of abuse, I created a sensory-friendly audio ...
Oct 16, 2024•3 min
Hey! I’m Johnny Profane… back after a 6-month bout of the "shys" to launch Season 5 of AutisticAF Out Loud. Missed you guys… But I'm here now, at least for the moment... Let's do something great with that moment, shall we? This seems like the perfect occasion to talk about Time… and how it passes. A crucial topic… whether you’re autistic or ADHD, wonder if you are, have kids or a loved one, work with some, or work to support us… I want to give you my experience of autistic time. Which is not cha...
Oct 05, 2024•33 min
An Example of Exclusive Subscriber Content… Raw, Real, Authentic. I’m letting my one austic voice do all the talking this time. I kinda like that. AutisticAF Out Loud - One Autistic Voice. Hmm… Here’s my first thank you. My first real attempt at being live on camera. It’s an autistic thing. No mask. No cosplay. I explain after you hit the button…. Anyway, this one’s for you. All the subscribers. You were here before I had the spoons to make it happen. Now that I’m on the mend, I intend to make t...
Apr 15, 2024•2 min
Shattering Neurodivergent Stereotypes: A Raw Dialogue for Tomorrow's Generations Description : Embark on a transformative journey with Johnny Profane in this compelling episode of AutisticAF Out Loud, titled "Actually Autistic? Whatever Doesn't Kill Your Unique Neurodivergent Ass…". This conversation goes beyond dismantling societal myths and stereotypes about neurodivergence; it's a call to action for creating a more understanding and inclusive culture for neurodivergent children and future gen...
Mar 01, 2024•18 min
Autistic Authenticity: Navigating Identity and Community Description : Dive into a candid conversation on AutisticAF Out Loud, where we tackle the often blurred lines between being autistic, belonging to identity groups, and maintaining personal integrity. "Autism? It's a State of Being. NOT an Identity Group" serves as a bold reminder that autism is an inherent part of us, not a badge to be worn or a club to join. Through this episode, we explore the delicate balance between finding community s...
Feb 20, 2024•14 min
Embracing Autism's Raw Truths in My 70s Description: Dive deep with Johnny Profane into a journey unlike any other—a raw, unfiltered exploration of living with autism discovered later in life. This episode peels back the layers of daily life, challenges, and the unexpected joys found in the simplest moments. "Facing the reality of autism in my 70s, I share the gritty process of acceptance, the quest for authentic self-expression, and those radiant sparks of joy that light up the path." If you're...
Feb 06, 2024•17 min
###🎙️ Unmasking at the Late Night Picture Show: One Autistic's Reckoning * One night that demolished a lifetime of conformity * One bodacious shift... from meditation cult to liberated living * One tale of indulgence, rebellion & the embrace of an #autistic identity 👉 Click to witness the transformative night. ###👂 Tune In to Discover: * Hear the vivid recount of a night that broke all the rules * Follow the path from a monk's silence to the kick-ass self-acceptance * Wrap yourself up in ...
Nov 07, 2023•8 min
🎙️ Episode Highlights: The Myth of "You Can Do Anything": An Autistic Lens (Must-listen for adult autistics) The Hidden Costs of Conventional Education on Autistic Lives (Essential for educators) Curious? Keep listening. 👂 Listen and Learn: Step into the intricate world of autistic experiences, as Johnny Profane and Theo dissect the failures and biases of the educational system. (A must-hear for mental health professionals) Intrigued? Hit subscribe to journey with us. 🎧 Get Involved: Subscrib...
Oct 11, 2023•15 min
🎙️ Inside This Episode: • The Hidden World of Theo, a Homeless Autistic... Scholar • Privilege vs. Failure: An Autistic Perspective • The Raw Essence of Autistic Joy ❓ Curious? Keep listening to uncover these hidden gems. 🌈 Why You Need to Listen: Step into a realm where societal norms crumble, flashing a spotlight on the true meaning of autistic joy. This 4-part series on Autistic Education kicks off with Johnny Profane guiding you from the streets of university-town Bloomington to the depths...
Oct 05, 2023•16 min
Perfectionism ain’t working for me… maybe not for Autistic AF dot you, either. So here’s something, shall we say, a little “rawer” than my usual /rant… Trascript: https://autisticaf.me/2023/09/29/this-autistics-fantasy-so-he-asks-about-my-history-what-i-told-my-doctor/ #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast Listen & Subscribe: Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e Spotify https://neon.ly/p1Vay Audible https://neon.ly/vkXa1 Stitcher https://neon.ly/vx5Zn PocketCasts https://neon.ly/NLL3O Amazon/Alexa https://neo...
Sep 30, 2023•13 min
Ever been told to ‘calm down’? How’d it feel? Well, this autistic feels like exploding! : https://autisticaf.me/2023/08/26/calm-down-why-is-this-the-worst-advice-you-can-give-an-autistic-person/ #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast Listen & Subscribe: Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e Spotify https://neon.ly/p1Vay Audible https://neon.ly/vkXa1 Stitcher https://neon.ly/vx5Zn PocketCasts https://neon.ly/NLL3O Amazon/Alexa https://neon.ly/mnOeq Support the show --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters...
Aug 28, 2023•5 min
Folks ask about my #neurodivergent marriage. Umm… over and over. Like… “Is that even possible?” Gotta story for ya… Transcript: https://autisticaf.me/2023/08/18/neurodivergent-kiss-autistic-fairytale-or-fabulous-marriage/ #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast Listen & Subscribe: Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e Spotify https://neon.ly/p1Vay Audible https://neon.ly/vkXa1 Stitcher https://neon.ly/vx5Zn PocketCasts https://neon.ly/NLL3O Amazon/Alexa https://neon.ly/mnOeq Support the show --- Send in a voice ...
Aug 24, 2023•6 min
Season 3's mission? To boldly explore living authentically autistic... out loud. That first story? Carving out a safe space to be our true autistic selves... a big part of that quest. Support the show --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/autisticaf/message This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe...
Mar 06, 2023•24 min
Season 3 of AutisticAF Out Loud starts off with 3 new stories: 1. Living Unmasked Is a Political Act 2. Autism, Love & My Friend Billy: A New Epic Myth 3. Faking Normal: How I Mask My Writing Disorder... to Bring You Autistic Joy Transcript : https://autisticaf.me/2023/01/07/season-3-love-politics-faking-normal-3-new-autistic-myths/ "Hi! I'm still Johnny.I'm still Profane... AND I'm still here. Finally... Season 3 of Autistic as Fuck Out Loud! Why no episodes since Fall? Major burn out. Dog ...
Jan 07, 2023•19 min
I'm autistic. And I can't DO social groups. I don't think I'm alone. So, I'm launching a hashtag. #GroupProcessingDisorder. Transcript: https://autisticaf.me/ #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast Listen & Subscribe: Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e Spotify https://neon.ly/p1Vay Audible https://neon.ly/vkXa1 Stitcher https://neon.ly/vx5Zn PocketCasts https://neon.ly/NLL3O Amazon/Alexa https://neon.ly/mnOeq Support the show Support the show --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/sh...
Sep 25, 2022•6 min
Spacing out... Zoning out... Most autists do it... to survive boring conversations, family get-togethers... So dissociation's a good thing, Til it starts screwing with living your life. Or sense of reality. Content note: mild profanity, one bleeped expletive relating to intellecutal disability. Transcript: https://autisticaf.me/ #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast Listen & Subscribe: Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e Spotify https://neon.ly/p1Vay Audible https://neon.ly/vkXa1 Stitcher https://neon.ly/vx5...
Aug 31, 2022•12 min
Wanna know what autistic life is like at 70? Joy... and horror. Transcript: https://autisticaf.me/ #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast Listen & Subscribe: Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e Spotify https://neon.ly/p1Vay Audible https://neon.ly/vkXa1 Stitcher https://neon.ly/vx5Zn PocketCasts https://neon.ly/NLL3O Amazon/Alexa https://neon.ly/mnOeq Support the show --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/autisticaf/message This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this...
Aug 18, 2022•3 min
Experimenting with a short #AutisticRave format. Let me know if you'd like to see these in the mix for #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast. TRANSCRIPT 👇✌️🖖👇 Listen & Subscribe: Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e Spotify https://neon.ly/p1Vay Audible https://neon.ly/vkXa1 Stitcher https://neon.ly/vx5Zn PocketCasts https://neon.ly/NLL3O Amazon/Alexa https://neon.ly/mnOeq TRANSCRIPT Know what I don't see on #DisabilityTikTok… #DisabilityTwitter? Talk about how the economy is killing disabled folk. See… In...
Aug 15, 2022•2 min
This episode I talk aging as an Autistic Elder. Getting finally diagnosed at 63… only to face mental decline as I hit 70…? One Swedish study pegged autistic male lifespan at 53. So I'm living on 17 years of borrowed time, I guess… so far. If you’re autistic, love one, work with some… or just can’t figure out if you are one… There's gonna come a time you worry… Real talk. About real life. Cuz they ain't talking autism in AARP… yet. EXPLICIT: some profanity, brief mentions of drug use & suicid...
Jun 26, 2022•17 min
Finally learning to create a place of safety, peace, and passionate work... Did more than keep me out of psych wards. It kept me alive. No joke. If you’re autistic, love one, work with some… or just can’t figure out if you *are* one… You really, *really * need to think about where you live... Videocast with captions: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4TAMoN0j-bE Transcript: https://autisticaf.me/2022/05/17/designing-my-home-around-adult-autism-pt-2---7-survival-principles/(opens in a new tab) #Aut...
May 18, 2022•13 min
What do *most* humans want from a new home? To entertain & impress guests. For everything else... they invented tool sheds... and storage units. Honestly...? Autistic-as-f***.me has *different* priorities. Videocast with captions: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCyhr_MrWVItlwTWODxbZR6A Transcript: https://autisticaf.me/2022/05/12/designing-my-home-around-adult-autism-pt-1-making-it-work-for-me/ #AutisticAF Out Loud PodcastListen & Subscribe: Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3eSpotify https://ne...
May 13, 2022•19 min
Her eyes. So big… Then… Bigger…. Brighter… Enormous… I can’t hear anything but a roar. Spinning. I’m going to fall… Terror. That's what eye contact *feels* like… Videocast with captions: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCyhr_MrWVItlwTWODxbZR6A Transcript: https://autisticaf.me/2022/04/28/inside-autism-eye-contact-how-it-feels-how-to-deal-with-the-terror/ #AutisticAF Out Loud PodcastListen & Subscribe: Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3eSpotify https://neon.ly/p1VayAudible https://neon.ly/vkXa1Stitch...
Apr 28, 2022•26 min
Johnny Profane's presentation to the Intersectional Inifinity Summit, educators, parents, caretakers... and autistic folks as well. A little funny. A little bittersweet. And a lotta sly insight from this former class clown...Let's kick Autistic April off with a squeal! Conference video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWu7rUtEb-c Transcript: https://autisticaf.me/ #AutisticAF Out Loud PodcastListen & Subscribe: Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3eSpotify https://neon.ly/p1VayAudible https://neon.ly/v...
Apr 03, 2022•56 min
