Episode 318: Beefin' in Real Time (Feat. Jhonni Blaze)

Somebody cut your ass. They expected me to eat? Oh you don't expected I shall. Who gave you the right, Jessie? So how does one do that, Jessie? Ask you for it? Or does he try to like position? I don't know, because when his lips fixed to say, but I was out, So he literally asked you like he didn't like put his leg up or not get through? My boy got to see it through. I'm not doing that. You've never done that, not even if somebody you loved. By accident, Yes,

by accident. I was just down there, never on. It's nasty it's not dasty, you know, when it sects, anything's go. But it's the shot of seeing a man put their legs back there, like what if it just gets doggy stock on his side? I think the side and lay on your side like you fucking like you got cramps back morning side. You know that used to be my ship, to be all up in a man's ass and um, I used to like for the guy to be sitting like on a couch. You don't want school all the

way to the end, you know, you school school them. Yeah, yeah, I know about that position, but I haven't done it in a while. I can't better not being a white better not be a white couch, I know that much. It's been a Johnny Blaze being the lover that you are. We have some fun topics for you today. So we do want to congratulate you on your new music because

you've been putting them out. Yes, first off, let's talk about the song Toxic that you have an n Ellie Chocolate and you talk about, you know, seeing um your ex with a girl and at first she felt like it didn't bother you so much? Right, So do y'all still have feelings like when you see your ex with

another girl, even if you think you're over him. Look a question right now, Right now, I'm cursing out somebody saying the next time I see you with a bit, and I know it's your birthday in two days, I'm going to jail. But if that's your I don't get a damn okay. But so do you feel like that about all your actually the only especial just that one, okay, okay? So what does that mean you want him back? Oh no, we were still together. Oh no, he is my ex. But I don't believe in that word. So he's just

gonna have to do with it. I want your mind, your mind forever exactly, Like how you how you do that to me? Like what's the girl from Don't Call Me White Girl? Like why are you being aware to me? But sping? But the hand on that one hand on front by talking about why are you being weird? Are you? That man had me racing with his damn daughter? After two weeks? You know what I mean? Is this personal? Mine? Mine? And to listen until Christmas coming and then what I

don't know, I'm a gemini. We moved differently, I don't know. Uh, look at t G the other Gemini. Look she knows. It's like I might have a different character by then it might be like, fuck you, I'm cool remember him like torture them and then be like I don't even want you to It's cool. No, but keep it real, ladies. Okay, so let's talk about your everybody's excess on here, right, Like do you feel away when you see your ex with somebody else? Or what about if you even know

the girl he's dating. Now, I couldn't care less about my ex and what he's doing and who he's doing it with. Yeah, I don't care about my excess like that. This is for me. It's a case by case situation. Um, my last ex. If I see him one another girl, I'll probably laugh out him because he could never get anything better than me. But um, like my son's father, I'm like ecstatic he just got married and had a baby. Yeah yeah, so I'm really you know, happy for him. So it's a case my case. It's a case of

my case situation. Shine for me. I've been looking at some of my exes though, and like certain like women ain't Yeah, I'll be looking like but I also be kind of happy, like good because you know how you know it ain't going well right exactly, Like, yeah, that's not the one for you anyway, So enjoy yourself with no chain on, like clutching my invisible pearls. Bitches going it's not me this time. We'd be like one woman's trash is another woman's treasure. That part you just got

some sprinkles on it. These dumb as bitches swear ship. God, you screak this ship hard enough. It's like a Louis Luton at the bottom of the shoe. Bitch, it gets dirty like you. Also put out a song with Dresta Sean right about your about emotions, and he says on that song that he likes to make you mad just so he can see you cry. My ex doing that right now before that sounds like my art before I came to see you earlier. Boy, I don't know what

happened to my eyes. Them bitches then swowed back down because when he pissed me, I was like, you know what, I'm gonna wait till after this this interview and then I'm gonna go for the juggle. I got three phones, so now he don't know what's going on. I'm just texting from fake numbers and everything, cursing his heats out because he says things to like piss you off. So actually that song was about ex of mind and that reminds me of the X recently, like that whole window

that I can't say that. I'll go to jail now with that. Better be glad and bush your windows out. I did that, I did, and he knows it was you. Yeah, you know it was men. He's did you feel bad after? Because sometimes I feel like we do stuff and then we kind of feel bad after, Like it's you know, you know, right now, right now, as we right now, as we speak, I'm thinking of a list of ship to do to this naked right now. This sounds like it's not the right person for you. Now. I just

like tortured him. I wanna put some itch and cream in his drinking, some ship. I don't know, it's it's it's debatable. So so what what is this? What is this relationship that you have with him? Now? You guys are broken up, right, you want to talk to him. He knows how to get under your skin right when you're about to do something like that. So what's the connection? Still? I don't know, because I really do love him, I really do, but he just pisces me off, Like he

just says things. And you know, I'm like five feet so everybody's taller than me. So I just be feeling like people be bullying me and I've changed so much to the point it's like if I cried to you on I'm gonna want to fight you, and he just says ship that just don't make no sense, Like, oh, I need a bad bitch. I need this, I said, baby, all the bitch is before me was not eating, So what are you talking about? Like I don't understand that ship.

Baby built like a little twizzling you're talking about. She better. I don't understand none of this ship. So it just makes you it's like you, I try to look at all the things that was great, and then he'll do something and I'm like trying to work it out and just like be peaceful, and then he starts talking calling me names and ship and I don't like that, so we just end up fighting again. It's like, weird. If he could just talk to me the right way, then

we'll be fun. See I'm not with the economy names now. When you say coming like man, like, who are you calling the bitch? Like like what we do? Like you want to get beat up. That's one thing I went through a lot with the last guy I was with, but he would never call me out my name. He would do crazy ship like um, probably worse than calling me on my name, but he would like anytime he if he calls me a bit, I know he's super mad, like I got you, I got your vain pop your

side right now. Wow you like it's it's a little tip at tat ship like I'm going to be subdy, I'm gonna be doing this. I'm gonna suck these ditches. And then when I go ask it, and I'd be really wanting to turn up and ship. Then it's like, man, you swear I'll be doing something like, man, this ship is so that makes me like it's not coming out of your brain. He's saying it out of his mouth. Now. Now in Vegas, on that little street, you know, the

street that's ever lasting. Before you get to the other part, you see a bunch of this is now you stuck out there because you got sugar and in your tent. This sounds like a very emotionally abusive situation. For you and I know sometimes and that's some real ship though, like it really does because it's it's not cool like it it gets so fushted and I'm such a sweet person, like I'm a really really good person. I don't cheat.

I could be confidence that I've never cheated. I don't even know, like I tell on myself probably like and then like if I'm in a relationship because he knows I'm my sexual like my like it's a girl, so it's like that it's not like another guy. I don't cheat, Like so I don't be understanding why I get cheated on. And I'm like I don't understand, like it doesn't grasp it.

That's where the anger comes from, Like I wouldn't do you how you did be so when you do stuff to me, it's like damn, like I gotta go full throat on you because you really for no reason. But why do we stay with people who cheat? I don't know, because that's another thing. Sometimes you gotta treat people how to treat how You have to teach people how to treat you, and they gotta lease a good thing. I

feel like I had. I feel like I had a hot tolerance for guys like I accepted the fact that men are mad and sometimes they make mistakes and blah blah blah blah blah. But if I'm not damning with that, humans mistakes though, it's not just men that make the stakes humans, and I felt like a lot of times that behavior, we felt like it's we justify it by saying, well,

men are men, men will destiny back. But if somebody really cares about you and loves you and then they keep on doing things to her too, then that doesn't seem like a great situation. And you can't keep on excusing somebody just because they're a man. And that's what men do. They love using that as an excuse. You know, that's and you guys know, I was very like, oh, you know, he was bored, she was trash. It doesn't even matter. I know he loves me. Blah blah blah

blah blah. But I ain't done one none of that ship. I'm not even saying what a guy who has a lot of girlfriends like as friends. No, we're not doing that. When do you need girlfriends, I'll need friends. Yeah that's super weird to me. Yeah, why you got so many friends? Girls? Exactly. You don't gonna you don't show what you want to win. No, guys like no, no, no, I don't. I don't like my g t A partner, my grand theft auto partner,

and she's my friend. We just be playing video game. Bitch, you don't want to hear this ship you'll both do exactly Like so if but what about the other side. Do you'all have a lot of guy friends. Yeah, but I don't hang out with them. I don't be dealing with them. I don't be going over their cribs and ship. I know, I know a lot of guys. You know, I got a lot of guy friends, but I don't long with them. Like like you're gonna tell me with

my girlfriend, we're going to eat my home girl. Okay, So the really is you can't have friends, you just can't hang out with them. Yeah, I mean you could be right with right, Yeah, like you could be cordial and you know, like group hangouts where there's a lot of guys and a lot of girls. That's fine. But like one on ones, me and my homegirl have going

to have a drink. She's going through some problems. So what all right, I'm coming ill, I gotta he needs a girl's perspective on the situation as well, Like, no, I'm done with all of that. And honestly, and I think it's kind of weird for a guy to not um to not have a lot of guy friends, like to be working in a certain field and not be friends with the people that they work with. I think

that's weird. Yeah, that's weird. I don't like that, Like if you have too many friends as girls, and then like then if you don't have no guy friends at all, like what the fun is? Like, what the fun you be doing? What you doing? What you like? I feel like them you see, like in New York, like just kicking a rock around, like trying to see how far

it is, but we're gonna rock. That's I don't with these New York guys bro's and put little black docts around they thinking it's a soccer ball like this shows now listen, I pulled out some of these cliches that they have about love, you know, these little love sayings, and I want to see if you guys think this is true, and if it's not true, how would you rephrase it? Okay, money can't buy me love, that's the

cliches that's true or false for me? You know, you know I'm a I'm sorry if I didn't mean over talking, but I'm not bad. I guess I'm a Gemini, right, So I don't know. It's not even a zodiac. It's just me. I am over loving. I don't know how to stop loving. Like I've tried to be like this mean bitch and I don't know how to do it. So it's like I've met people that try to like buy me and give me money and stuff gorgeous help, but it would turn me off. So it's just like

I couldn't stay with somebody. Actually I did stay with somebody. They used to whoop my fucking ass and had a lot of money, and I just couldn't. It was just like the money wasn't enough for me. It's like, Nigga, you verbally abused me, you physically, it's just too much. Even if it was if you take out the fighting and the beating, it's just that person in general, Like it's not there's no money in the world for me. I just couldn't do it. Maybe that's why I suck

it ship like that. You know what, it's really hard a lot of times for women to leave an abusive situation. So I wanted to talk about that a little bit because so many women are involved in that, and a lot of us have witnessed that, and we're always like, why didn't she just leave? Why can't she just leave? If he does that? So how did you manage to get out of it? And how long did that take? Your years? Because I went through one. I was the girl that you know, I was dancing at that time.

I was like nineteen twenty and he had all this money and I was like, why don't you save your money? And he'd be like, you don't know what you're talking about. I know what I'm doing, just buying girl stuff. You're my favorite, Like he treated us like ice cream, That's what he would say, You're my favorite. I came, so it was just the mental talking, like the disrespect on how he's seen women. And then I was young and

I just got tired. Like the last strike was I almost went to jail because I was pregnant at the time, and I ended up miscarrying because I was so stressed. And I ended up going to my club because somebody called my phone talking about someone may here. What you'll do. I went in there and tried to fight and end up getting three months in jail because I pushed the girl down the stairs because it's anger because of a person beating my ass all the damn time. But then

he praising all these other girls. So I was just like, I don't want to be this girl, Like I don't want to be angry at people that don't even know I exist because some other never told told them about me. So why does that person need to get beat up or fault because of what this person does to me? And it just got tiring. It takes a long time for me though, like you gotta really beat me down. I really feel like my last strike was him getting people pregnant. He told me he had two kids. You

know how many kids? He asked, nice? Right now everybody's club, and it hurt. Oh, no, girl, I'm going to strip club and go and get dressed these bitches in order to get in his section. I'm like, why does these extra girls in a section? Because you know how how how the strip club goes a couple of girls. But it's like I don't know these girls, so and I go and look, everybody got his fucking name Taddy. You gotta get his fucking I'm sitting here like bro that you know, like when I tell you I was so

fucked up. I was like, yeah, this is not right, like things. And then when I found out the babies, I think that's the thing with me cheating on me and then the babies and then fighting me is like that was a lot and a lot and a lot. Yeah, it was too much. So it's like one relationship that seems like we had a cult or something. It felt like everybody, everybody wanted him for his money, and I

was like, really the girl. That's probably why they didn't like me, because I would tell him like I'm telling you what you're doing or whatever you're doing. I just know because I would see the police and stuff, and I'm just like it's not cool, Like just save it and do something. I know what the funk I'm doing. I was one of those girls. So now he emailed me one time, this was like three years ago, and

he apologize. I said, I have to stop emailing because I'm never gonna email you again because what you did to me was so foul and you wouldn't be in that predicament if you listen to a little old nineteen year old me at the time that was telling you just invest in a fucking dunkin donuts, put a million dollars to McDonald's, like as a black man, like do something besides what you're doing. Them girls don't give a

damn about you, like, and it was just overlooked. So that's kind of how I got it, because he got he got locked up. But I was already kind of like done, like it, were you ever cool with any of the other women, all of them because I didn't know they knew I didn't know. So I was a dizzy one, like, hey, come in a section because you let me in your section and none of that. And I'm like, why does this person have that name on them?

Maybe it's their baby's name, or why do you go to And it just kept It's just stuff start leaking out, and I was just like at that time, I was just like over then. I was really on a heavy drugs a lot and drinking a lot, and it was just a lot of those emotions and that was just difficult and I was just like, damn, like this ain't it, This is not it. I just ended up moving to this was in Houston. Yeah, this was This was the last guy I was with before I met my boyfriend

and died. That was the one that kind of changed my perspective of like love, Like I've always loved people, but that was like, oh my god, I found somebody that just loves me for me and he like everything, like just wanted me to do better, like don't go to work. Here, here's somebody to go to the studio. And I would be so selfish and be like, no, I want to go to the club, Rick Ross or whoever is coming in it is there, and and he I didn't understand. And when he died, it was like

I understand. I started to understand, like you was just trying to like this is this is real love. This is somebody to just not the money, but just somebody that just your flaws don't mean shipped to them like it doesn't matter what you because there's women were emotional. So it's like you gotta really care about somebody to really understand them and help them grow, not for just them but yourself if you're gonna be with them, And

that's what he was doing. So I just that's how I kind of learned to love right, and sometimes about my head, like right now, it's not as bad, it's not as hopefully you never get in the situation as bad as that. I never went. I just brought these seat. This ain't even my nose. I just brought this too. I ain't trying to get punched nowhere. I'm going to jail. Somebody do that ship to me. You understand jail, don't. I don't know that's the word I'll say. I would say,

I'm not. I've been I've been in a couple of abusive relationships, and I feel like the guy putting hands on me isn't what made me leave. It was more of the emotional I mean, the the mental torture. It was more of the mental torture that made me not want to be with them like I could deal with um. I'm I'm crazy, Like I'm I'm kind of crazy when it comes to man. I like to give them control. And you know, I feel like in my life I control everything, so I like for my man to take

control of me. So sometimes I would just be like, you know what, I deserved to get slap. That's like I deserve that, which is wrong, which is totally wrong. Yeah, I'm like, damn, I used to think. I used to think like like like I shouldn't slap for that, But you just reminded me of another fucked up situation. The other nigative was fighting me. I felt so bad when

you said that. That really touched me. I felt so bad to the point I saved up money when I was stripping and tried to fly, not try funk all that. We did fly to Paris at this Venice beneath Venice or some ship like that, like my Paris been where you had to take a boat. You had to take a boat to get there. I told him to save up the five thousand, and I gave him. Right, he said, bet now mind my teeth was knocked out, like under Rhanna's situation. My ship is right up un today on Google.

Like it's no joke, it's embarrassing, it's hurtful. I gotta remember the ship every day. And I'm sitting here in this fucking different country. I go to swipe my card and I'm like, like, Okay, my car is don't working because I didn't call Bank of America. Where's the money that I gave you? What money? A matter of fact, I don't even want to be here. You mean to tell me that I took all this this this connected like ten hours. Nine. You don't want to be here.

You just knock my damn teeth out. You don't want to be here. I stayed over there for nine hours. I was supposed to stay there for for three days. I ended up coming back home. We had to fly back home. He talking about something. He don't know what he did with the money. Later on I found out what he did with the money. He gave it to another bit to get a whole new apartment behind a bad Oh my god, I was. I was over there for nine hours. I cried my ass off because I've

never been over there. There's no streets, there's nothing but water. These open people that's like they really care about like butterflies and ship like that, you know, a little little Kumbaya ship. And I'm over here crying my damn eyes out. Six Like damn there, damn, there's six racks plusified that

you took, just wasted. Isn't that horrible? When you go to a beautiful place with a man and he ruins it for you, You're like absolute, It's just like I can't even enjoy this beautiful destination and because you're yes, nine freaking hours friend, nine hours intend So I'm getting no there. I'm like, we're about to you know, maybe we could fix this. I mean, it's not I felt like it was my bi fault that I got and I don't even know why. And then you tell me

that you don't even want to be here and dead ass. No, you gotta take the boat back to the airport. He went on a boat by himself and then texts me from the airport, was like, are you coming? I was wow, And that's crazy because in that's her secular vaculate. I should have just stayed there by myself. That's what I want happen to my car. Yeah, you have to America won't certify that. They won't clear it once you go

over there. And I forgot to call them and tell I was at the country, so no money that then one day the car didn't go through so the hotel wasn't extended. I was like what And I always bumped my head, but it's just like, I don't know. It teaches me a lot. I don't know what it is. Maybe I just need I feel like these men just brainwash you, and they make you feel like the funked

up should they do? They spend you, and they make you feel like it's your pull and like no matter what, Like that's a one guy was if he would get drunk and like choke me out and accused me. I'm talking with my neighbor, or um punched me in my ribs, so we get mad and just start punching me in my ribs so he won't leave no bruises on my face. And I just and I used to just be like

it's it's my fault because I let him drink. So if I would have never let him to drink, he would have never got like God, and then you get all protective because you don't want anybody to find out. And then yes, and then you don't tell your friends. You just keep it to yourself. I think the craziest thing about like a mental and I know everybody self this. So everybody's been through a heartbreak and it feels like a funeral, Like it feels like your heart like sunk somewhere.

It's just depressing. But what makes me kind of upset is like you ever noticed like after you feel so much better, like you really got over this person. You're onto a new person, and it makes you so mad, like damn, Like I really was sunk for a minute. Yeah yeah, you look back like I wasted my time, I wasted my what was I thinking? No, and I ain't got I used to always compare a heartache to the same thing, like you feel like somebody you know,

I'm like, why is it? Yeah, you feel like somebody died. And then you get out of and you're like what what what? Why would I like, how could or somebody really die? And you're like this, this doesn't match. And that's what happened. My My grandmother passed away June seventh. My birthday was June ten. I still had to do the music video with me and Trina and I my mind was so mess up. I just start randomly crying. But then it versus the heartbreak of me and this

person breaking up. After that, it was like it felt the same, but it didn't. It was like more of a angry with that person versus my grandmother because it was lost. You know, It's like I wasted what Why did I waste this with you? And I don't want to just get on like men like women do it too, like, which is I think it's more hurtful with women because we do it with emotion like we do it would

have been better. Could you see yourself with the woman like Mary one day before I've tried, I'm too sensitive. I can't see you being in a relationship with a girl, Johnny, I'll think you I'd up being her. No, like, like what you're doing, let's go five minute? No, No, it's weird to god, like I've I've changed so much to the point I was just telling her that I was like,

I'm a cry baby and it sucks. I'm embarrassed, Like people say something to me and I'll be like, no, you ain't have to do that, and I just start crying because it's like I guess it's because I know what I'm capable of and I don't want to be like that, so I'd be feeling if I show my emotions through this way than a person would. And it's been working. But I dated women before, and what really

separated us and it's funny. I'm kind of proud of it, but not like it's not a bad thing is that we end up always saying like it would be best as friends because I ended up being really a cool friend, like let's go to the movies, let's do this, and it don't work, So it's I don't know, maybe I just didn't try the right way or all right, yeah, but with the guys y'all up in your ass. You

can't do that though. You gotta stop because you said you change, and you can't do it all anymore because listen, honestly, you don't want no man is doing it to you. You shouldn't that because that's how that ends up throwing eggs. It's not hurtful. Nah, that's that's just a quick one. He didn't really eggs. Girl. You change, that's not so bad. You ate somebody's car, get new teeth, and you know these ships is durable, so you bite the nick and n sleep in it. At eating, I just go to

the doctor. Got a little technic shot. Let me see the video with the lady that'd be looking at her dude and and he woke up and she grabbed You're not many times I want to thank God. That's hilarious. All right. Let me ask let me ask you about this next cliche. Do you think it's true that tiny heels all wounds yes, yes, I mean when it comes to um, when it comes to love, yeah, when but I don't know about losing family members and things like that, I don't think, Um, I don't think I'm ever gonna

get over and losing my grandmother. Yeah, it's just it's just too hard. Yeah. Yeah, and she my grandmother just passed away two weeks ago. I just don't think I'm I don't think god, I'm ever gonna move forward from that. I just think it is what it is, like I

accept it. But but when it comes to love anyway, when it comes to love, I feel like eventually you're gonna get over it, Like like it's not gonna You're not always gonna be in the wrong crying over the over the manually, once we love somebody, you always love them. I agree with that too, But it doesn't hurt as

much after a while, you know what I mean? Yeah, to how you start to love the person after a while, Yeah, we are already be ready to move on and in their heads like, uh, I'm over it, And that's already a level down from the love. He was exactly, exactly exactly. I don't love none of my exes, nobody, You cold hearted and they're loveways. There's always a level of love for that person, not necessarily meaning that you are in love. I feel like Angela just cares. She really care, you know,

but if I care, that's enough. Yeah. Like I think if she was in love, you would be married like you would have you would have took her and you would have got married. And it was like, I really care about you. But it's not your withs me. It's not that deep, all right now? What about love? Love is blind? Is that true? Yes? So it looks could not matter. It doesn't matter where somebody has on the exterior.

This is why, this is why I say love is blind, because I'll get one another and I'll be like, oh, he ain't even not far on, I don't take me to dinner or whatever. After I fall in love with him, he's the most gorgeous ship in my life. That's hardful. You know. I'll be looking I'll be looking like nigga and then I'm like and then like, damn if you're sexiest, fuck wow do boyfriend, And that would be the guys. You'd be like I would never and then they remember

on TikTok, I ain't gonna do it. I ain't gonna do it. I did it. I did it. I did it. Your friend wanted it? Is that one friend? Want to remind you, like you remember when shut up bitch right now? OK? I know I don't remember leaving alone. Like, do you think that you could be with somebody and then like they their looks could change for the worst. Let's just say they just age terribly and look awful, but you

still would you would still love them. Like, I think that when you see it happened gradually, it's not as big as an impact. But if you was with the person and then they aged crazy, like y'all broke up or something, you see them for a while and then they aged crazy and you see them again, you're like, damn, what then was exactly? But I feel like when you see it gradually happen, it doesn't hit as hard. So like, what if it it's not attracted? But if it just

had attracted to them anymore, let's just say yeah. For me, I was with a guy who completely changed. When I met him. He was really clean, shaved, no um, you know, no hair in his face. He used to shave his chest a lot, and went from that. He went from that to a full beard dreads and I don't. I don't. I don't really go for that, but I like it. I was like, baby, I just love your hair. Oh my god, because I was in love with him. Now I look at him, I'm like, look at this stuff.

Harry face, Harry face. I would tell you what just took me on. The girl said, So, you know, seeing me, you'd be like, what the fuck? That gap period? That's like you see me like this and then I look eighty but I'm dirty, like it's like a whole transformation, like I got like what move man? Like? Life has been hard for you, right, right? Life has been hard. That bitch went it to the Mars. That was your

earth doing that ship you got. But have you ever been with somebody and nothing at and not being attracted to them anymore? And at first you were, but then things change and you're like not even physically attracted to them. Yes, because that motherfucking musky ass did. I'm so sious. I got just now for me. I like athletic body types, when you gain I've been with a guy that gained weight and like had a whole like bad body and the matter of like two or three years and I

was like, whoa. As soon as he started gaming, wait, I started cheating on him. I was like, all, just gotta stop, like, I'm out, I need a sex tack. I'm sorry, I need a sex back. I can't probably cheating the probably ate my mother tweak exactly. I noticed. I noticed man eate that piece of cake all up in the fridge. When I come home, I have not because he ate it. My biggest turn off. I was so checked to this man. And then I wanted to

be so honest. I'm like, maybe I don't think you're wash ain't right, because I know you're athletic, but it's something real musky, like it's like every time like you just got the shower just smelled like musk. And I'm like, I'm not putting my mouth on that thing. Like I was just so here and then like he was just too nice. So by that time, this toxic guess they came around and I was like, look, we're older, Like I can't deal with you. You don't know how to

watch your dick. I'm gonna I don't know how to I was just like, all right, I'm out. He was nice and musty ut okay. So Stephanie. Let's just say you tell the guy you wanted him to get surgery or what if he said, I can see you're not attached it to me anymore. I think I'm gonna just get some light bo gets that. Yeah, but how would you feel about that? I wouldn't like that either, because, like again, I like athletic type. I want to go see you put that working in the gym, go do

some set ups. I get lightful. You don't get lightful. I get lightful, me lightful? No, you? I know, man. I heard somebody got lightful that I know just yesterday and I was like, he didn't get a light bul They're like, how you think they got them abs? And I'm like, I'm getting my ab e etching on my fucking abs and my boyfriend Nick, you bitch get up like exactly like you don't do let me get my abs as you gonna do it. Damn y'all with the

double standards. Hilarious. I don't know about you. You're like you you can't we have anything for our guys. Yeah, I don't want my guy to go get like what either. I'm just man, I take right. You try to take the Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm fine enough. We got we both gotta be fine now right right righting the ship for free promo talking about some around I want or she got the waste training, blue bitch, I should eat like boy, you don't go to the gym, you got

the waste training in our bit. If you don't get nigger ever asked me that ship, I'm fighting. Let me borrow your waist, trader. Now what's funny is I know a girl who went and got the mommy makeover and her baby daddy and got lightful too. They got surgery together.

That's what's funny. She was, she was fine with it was his results could I don't think he got the abs, but he definitely got lightfo okay, I was it was it where he couldn't because some people they can't lose a certain fat from a certain place and they have no I don't think he just hear he a club, ned a drink all the time, so he was that was alcohol. He just sucked out a whole couple of years. At nineteen forty two, that's a whole six seven years or forty two. He just sucked that out, Just suck

out the ninety forty two Johnny Blaze. Let me ask you this, how I'm putting this sex in a relationship to you? Not really, because I'm going on three months. I'm irritated you ever had actually three that's not even with this guy you beating with man. That's why she ready to chop his ass. She ain't got no deck. And he keep talking crazy too, like saying, little ship boy, you're gonna get an invisible bitch. Beat up boy. You're not fighting girls, no more of a no man, not

even invisible one, not an invisible One's gotta get that lick. Boy, I see one right now. Now. It's more like it's like I just get frustrated, Like right now he's doing it on the phone. So far he's winning this text workers, I'm on a very important call rather than his ass. But it's okay. When I get off here, I tear that ass up. Matter of fact, I'm a multitash. I'll go em all right, I'm going him and I see a lot of blue lucky that we're like, get real funny,

but I don't understand. And look a look at all that. Listen, you're so lucky, you know, as the video video messages you cursing him out much a little bit. I I cover nothing. I trying to hear a ship that was great. That was great. So look why y'all was talking right, you know when you see me going like this, when I'm like, that's what I was doing it. Oh, this is great right now while you doing right right in real time, in real time. This might be at first.

Do you guys do FaceTime sex? Damn No, lowly out here, so you ain't been doing nothing, Like I'm really not doing that. Then it's kind of I'm really in love, Like I'm like weirdly, like it's weird but you're single, but you're in love. Yeah, it's like it makes me I want to talk to nobody. I'm just like, but it helps me deal with I just put it to my music. I'll go to the student and ship. But he knows that that's the thing and that he said ship have pissed me off, Like I gotta restraint on

on you. I said you said that sixteen times in one weeks. I don't see ship, no, But that's that's how I feel too. When I'm in love, I don't even want to be with no body off. Yeah, like they say things just to piss you off. And I know if I would have posted like a guy, or if I would have posted, then it would have been like, Okay, this bitch don't care. But it's been like two months and he's like, I know he sees that, like she's not posting anything about it. He don't do it either.

You don't. He don't post any girl, just be talking about me. All right, let me write the next message. I'm gonna tell you what's right, Go and write it. You're ready. It doesn't understand my face. Now hold the funk up a minute, all right. Go hey, okay, so you have to say I don't want us to keep going back and forth. Come on, write it. Hold on, let's see. I want to see how he responds. I suppose see how you responds. I don't want us to

keep going back and forth. Clearly, I'm acting like this because I care about you and I don't know how to express myself. Can we just please start playing these games? Oh? Angela, you're so much and wonderful. I look at you so far. I got passed. I don't want us to that's it. That's I don't want us. I don't want us to keep playing these games. Keep playing these games? Um, what

did I say at the end of it? I'm acting this way because clearly I got it, clearly because I think right and I don't know how to express myself. I heard you, and I'm taking those myself. What I wanna you do realize that this is a virgo best way to flag Burgos all the worlds. Angela just said you waved the white flag. Did she send it or did she send it? She wrote it myself? Come on expressing myself, and then I feel like I don't know if I want peace. I'm so proud of your girl.

You don't know what to say. Now you're gonna be bugging like, wait, wrote this? You just confused him. It's what you did to me. It goes, No, I've done this what No, ain't this? No, he's gonna write that, Go eat some acid and then you're gonna write back, I'd love to eat some ass yours. Nah, you try to get me back. He ain't right there? How's out he think it is? One second, you just sucked his whole hat up like a right, you don't know what

we don't know what to say right now? Yeah, No, it's it's too fast, Give him some time, let him think about it. Yeah, put it down for a second. So what you don't know it? Dot dot dot the docs are covering the doctor dot said, don't get me in all right, let me give you, let me give you one more cliche. Will be ready for this message to come back in. Okay, alright? So which one is true? If you had to choose, absence makes the heart grow finder or out of sight out of mind? That depends

on if you in love or not. If you in love, then make the heart grow fonder. But if you ain't in love, then it's like nicke, fuck you? Where you been? On to the next Wait, so you said being away from people is absence makes acsence high growl finder or sight out of mind? Which one is it? I me with Gig when you're in love girl fonder, but when you're trying to get over it, out of sight, out

of mind? I see him, I see him, That's what I'm feeling, Like I haven't seen so I haven't seen him do that, Like I haven't seen him like just be hopping around to different girls. I don't be seeing him doing anything. So and then like when was the seventeenth Like a week ago, and I know, like men when they showed their emotions, like he got on the phone, he was like, I know you're going through stuff. You know, I love you, mind you. This was two months of

us fighting. He finally gets on the phone with me because we've been texting, and he's like, I love you. You know, I love you. I tell my mom I love you. Um, if you just you know, if we could just you know, work it out and you get help, because he feels like my temper no no, no, no, he didn't say that word yet, it was temper. Yeah. He was like, it's just when you get mad at me, like it'd be too much. And I really want you

to like see see see someone, but see them. Remember when I told you I don't see the psychiatrists at the other Yeah. So he's like, you mean to really like do it and I refused to. And I think that made him upset because he was like, if you love me, you'll do it for yourself, not even me, Like if you love yourself, if you love me too, And I didn't want to do it, and I think that's what set him off, Like he flipped, so well that's what that's a reginal request right, because you think

you you also believe you have a bad temper. Yeah, and it's like you're trying to it's like you bullying me, but you don't see the things that you're doing, like you don't think maybe you need help too. So it's like us being away from each other like this, Like he'll say that you don't care about me, I'll never see you again. I don't care about you, and then it's it's you still respond to me, even if it's a fake message. You can if I do my little

fake tech message. He was both, ya, both probably need help, but there's nothing wrong with you recognized. Yeah, but I need this thing. I admit it. I'm like, you know what, I'm still growing a hell of a lot better from before, but yes, I do need to grow. But he will not admit it. And that's what hurts my feelings because I'm like, damn, like, even being away from him so long, I thought maybe I would have like got over him

and then start dating. That's why I said, like that, when you're in love and you distance, I feel like maybe this will grow us and maybe we'll get right. I'm sure speaking of that, Oh damns, I'm telling you fuck his hat uf. He's thinking like should I be nice or shout? I don't know what to say being mean to me? No? No, just let it let a bread, let a breathe. He's trying to figure it out. He's like, wait, did somebody else write this? Well? I just saying something

to us while we wait for him to text. Brought to you back sinking that take my shoes off. She gonna realize that they my sisters. Oh damn said mother fucking feet will fit these bitches. He hurt want those first because my feet look like hands. Oh no, Jo, you can pick Damn do my feet look like hands? They kind of do too. I bet you he can't do this lines with the fucking feet. I'm gonna put this only fans baby. Oh they're gonna go crazy, y'all only fans side, And you know you did. I believe it.

I did. I did. It was like for a new minutes or two minute long video. He just want baby on your only feet. You don't know that's what they'd be wanting, like past the baby, like they want everything one baby, or send me a video of you baby or you on your side. Yeah, no, no music I want to hear your hands. Yes, don't make no music because I want to eat. Can you eat this food and just have like you know, like a big it's the reader ship big shirt on it just smack through

the audio. I'm like snack. You want to hear you shout out to only fans, alright, only fans only get of the it only get rid of the porn and the masturbation. Like I'm good. Yeah, listen, I can still post my little titty things. Yeah, I mean, I don't want to say with me and g be doing. You gotta go log in and try not to find out what we'd be doing. But we're good. We're we're still gonna be good over there ain't nobody even on fairs.

Nothing yet, Johnny, nothing yet, no personal, no, no, no, marri alright, look, we gotta end this episode while we wait for her to get her. See you see what I'm talking about. When I tried to nice to you, you want to go and be mean to me and ship right studio still a miche looking bitch. Yeah, I love you straight now let me delete this. That was good. That was good. That was good. Alright, so listen, let's said listen, mess him. Okay, okay, all right, there you go.

She's not even said for real, she does want them. Well, here us up. Let us know what he says. Because this lip service we gotta go. But thank you so much. Listen. Put it in the music always. Okay, right, yeah, music always. You're so time into it that so many ways. I appreciate you all every time we'd be, you know, linking up this ship. Help. Yeah, it's okay. I got thick numbers. You got other numbers, don't don't get on a text free burner, phone burner, phone girl, six numbers to me, chee.

It's like, I got numbers. You want to block me out out the number? Oh my god, she's so, he's like, what the guy? I wanna know? We're gonna take a post, so please hit us up on lip service on our Instagram page. Do guys like this or do y'all not like this? I'm here? They like, yeah, let's see, let's see. Yeah, you guys, we're trying to see something. What do you say?

What do you say? What do you say? He said, you tried to kill my name out here, And that's why I'm not gonna with man right now, right now you see, you see, it got a little sweeter, it got a little you're seeing Angela. That was some good advice there. That's why I always go to Angelo when I'm sure. I know Angela could comfort me. I don't care. I didn't tell the whole story. So this is after at it is his number out. And then I tried to bleach his clothes, so it might not be good.

He might, I'm talking about it. Give him some time. They get like a movie right here on streaming. I don't know what to do. Oh my god, Like Johnny told that she doesn't change. She's not doing this stuff like this no more. You know, you know what it is. I think I just know my carecter. Sometimes I exaggerate my stories. I just like making people laugh. It just he's so funny because it's like I'll be trying to

make the best situations. I'm really sad right now, but I'm like, if I just laugh it off or whatever, LA after the pain sade my dig because this ship was funny, or he didn't text me, Uh what do you say? Now? I love you know? He said with my name in public? So that was war, all right. I gotta get to work okay, alright back, get the work Girl Right by Girl Lift Service