Episode 257: Taste the Rainbow (Feat. LisaRaye McCoy)

get right back to it. Because I think just twenty four seven watching the news and being involved, and I saw you were out protesting with TiO the other day and that you've been very active and on the front line. So how is your state of mind right now? I'm

in and out like everyone else. I'm torn because when I do get ready to dance or laugh, almost full of loop ulty from doing so, because it's almost like it ain't nothing to level about right now, and it's nothing to play with right now, because it's serious right now. And then it's like it's people and then you get into that ball of emotion and then you can just make yourself sick with me just crying all day or

just being so emotional all day. I have my grand baby again, so you know, I heard her saying, God, God, crying again, you know, and that really kind of made me snap out of it and say, oh, I don't want her to feel that. I'm just having so much

pain and I'm in so in sorrow. And she's only three, so I can't really explain to her in depth what is really going on because we had the pandemic, was still in the midst of that with the corona you know, virus, and so I was telling her we're not going outside because the germs are outside. So to explain that why she can't go to the park or go to Chucky Cheese no more, which I got, you guys probably heard that Chucky Cheese is around anymore, and I need to

tell her that, you know what I mean. So I'm just um feeling what the world is feeling and knowing that it's not a time for us to stop, because we have to still apply the pressure. They still have to know that this wasn't a one time or a week time doing that we're tired enough to keep going and we want some answers. We want some justice, and that will not and cannot happen if we just um just stay where we are, you know what I mean.

We have to keep going. A matter of fact, we're doing another protest to t O and myself on June here around the stadium. So you know, we did it last week and it was great. I felt a part of which is what I wanted to do because I wanted to to feel the exhilaration and the excitement of the people and be in there because I kept reporting from it on this side, keep thinking, yeah, right, everybody out there while you inside reporting for and it was

like that, do nothing. That doesn't make you part of history. And I wanted to be a part of history. I want to pictures. I wanted to be able to show my grand baby. I wanted to be out there and feeling. I wanted my voice to be heard. I wanted them to know that I was on the front line with them. I wanted them to know that I believe in all black lives matter. And it's like I said before, all

lives matter. We know that, we know that, but we're saying right now because of what we've gone through and going through, Black lives matter because they're not doing other lives the way that they're doing our lives that you don't. That's like our lives don't matter, and that's what the real issue is. Yeah, and it seems like no matter what, like you would think, right now, cops will be on edge, like I gotta make sure that I'm doing what I'm

supposed to be doing. And it's mind boggling that they can still go out there and committing crimes total opposite, like what happened in Atlanta. You knew people were filming, you knew people were hollering at you, you knew people were watching, you knew that we would have witnesses, but you didn't care if this man. You didn't even stop him for anything traffic. He was driving. He was wanted

to sleep off his drunkness. He was like, yeah, I've been drinking and yeah I had a few drinks and I'm just a couple of blocks away ox and I can't even walk. I can leave my car here. He said everything. Yeah, that he was a criminal, he robbed a bank or something, right then he just shot. What was the crime? Crime? Like, what was it really made you shoot him in the back because I thought that was against the law. I thought you could not shoot

it against the law. And aren't they trained to be able to target an area where it's not gonna kill, you shoot me in the arm something like you know, you know what I heard that when the officers use their gun, they are trained to shoot to kill if they're gonna use their gun at all. But he had a taser. They tased people all the time, and they felt like if they felt like a taser is a situation that is, you know, a matter of like the death,

and they shouldn't be using them. Yeah, And I think that that was that he took the taser from him, but the cop had already let out the cartridge that was in their taser only has one cartridge. So so what they were saying was that the police officer knew that he could do nothing, that the that Rashad could do nothing with the taser, so him shooting him was crazy. It's like we've seen police chase before. Movies are about that.

How about cops. It's a whole show that's about police chase, saying, so, why does it always resort resort to murder like I just don't understand that how that's the first thing in your mind is like, oh, let me kill him because he was junk driving. That's not that man did not kill anybody. That man, you know, and that's not even up to them to say who lives their dives. Even if that man did kill somebody, he has the right

to a child, you know what I mean. And that's how we are in such an uproar because we see the difference, and that's what we're saying, we see the difference on how you treat us, because I don't know if you gotta all the video with the white guy took the police baton, be still, what god they called was chasing the police. Not one time did he shoot his gun or warning bring out his taser, Like no, this that happened. And I was sitting there watching it like this is crazy, right, And you want to try

to tell us that there's no difference. Come on, we're not foods. And I just went on to make sure we got that out because I know we are still doing lift service during this time, we took like a week off just things got really heavy. But you know, that puts things into perspective because then NICKI Mnastika shot at you on a song and it's and like you said, there's so many other things happening in the world right

now to be concerned about. So and I spoke to you on the Breakfast Club and we talked about the whole thing, which was a lot of people. You know, what you had to say about the bar is very mature answer. It is what it is. But now, how

did you feel knowing that she actually said something about you? Well, first of all, I said, oh, a man, and in a song again, that was the first again, and I thought, you know, because people try to make so much of it, I would say that was a great bus this move because she has to stay current and because if someone she feels has taken a shot at her, her way and her retaliation has to put it in a song.

You know what I mean. I don't know her personally. Uh, she doesn't know me personally, but she used one of the most iconic movies and their lead actress to be able to give Paul verse in her song that makes everybody want to talk about it. They're talking about me. I mean, I didn't know I was that hot. I mean, I'm hot, but not not that hot, you know what I mean. So it's like, thank you, can you sing me some money and some residuals and I'm to a video. Girl,

I'll be in the video. I don't have a problem with her, you know. And I think her barbs is what. You know. They kind of fueled it and just took it and grand with it, you know what I mean. And I had said, where is all this coming from? You know? I just want to see unity, you know. I just want to see us be entertained by music and not have the beats and not have the mafia type of beats that has to go on to make

you feel relevant. I don't know what that is. I'm not of that life and I'm not of that generation either, you know what I mean. So I do understand that that's what they're doing, you know, to stay you know, in the press or whatever. You know. I mean, the beef means something that makes us go, let's check our social media. But that's not what I'm about. And I'm definitely not about tearing down anybody unless I have a personal beef with you myself, and I don't like that

with anybody. I got maybe two or three people that you know that. I feel like I don't have to never mention their names, you know. You know what I mean, that I have something with, but someone that is out here talented, that's doing something. She's on the charts, you know what I mean, she's winning. So you shouldn't be worried about me, just like I'm not worried about you. You know what I mean. We're in two different things, you know. So here's the thing. I don't think she

worried about me at all. I think it was all done in fun, Like Okay, you said that. I heard you said that I would do this, and I'm like, okay, but are you shot? I gotta escalated to that because I feel like plenty of people have had an opinion on Nicki Minaj her career and even heard her few with little camera. I feel like plenty of people have said things, but the fact that with you said kind

of yeah got to her. Um. Do you feel like it's like you can't really give your opinion nowadays without I don't feel like that, and I won't ever feel like that. Yeah, I feel like you always give your opinion now I can expect about Here's the thing I would love to do is I would love for her to interview me on but what I meant and what my stance is on that tality joke, I think it would be too because I would love to sit down with her, little Kim Foxy Brown, anybody, let's just get

a call, listen together. Let's get a movement together with us with old school and new school, and show everybody how we can really come together, because that's what real mature women do. And when I said that I needed Nicole Murphy to come see me, I meant that in a way that was like, let's sit down and hash this out because we don't need no cameras right now that we're about to fight. Just like it's like, come and talk to me about this. You know what I mean.

And so you know again, I've en rocked to a plenty of Nikki songs and I love her videos. You know, I don't hate on anybody because it takes a particular type of skills to do whatever you're doing. You guys, your voice is riveting where when you come on, you all snapped into professionalism and that radio voice. I don't have that. I don't even know how to get that, you know what I mean? You all have that, So you all in your lane. I just stay in my lane,

and I remember, you take a pretty good job. I think you're doing a pretty good job at that. But I just you guys know that you do though, because you all have said I'm getting a job in radio because I have a platform, I have a voice, I sound good. So that's where you all are. As an actress, I'm just like, oh, you want to interview me, not a problem. I'm just here. So something in within you all knew that this is what you wanted to do.

This is what you have to offer society, and we're accepting it because how long you've been angel of you and I've been. We go back for years and you've been we've been in Puerto Rico together. Yeah, I mean, and you're still here, ladies. You're here, you know what I mean. You're doing other things, and so you're giving people an opportunity like myself to be able to voice my opinion. And it shows that Mark can't you matter?

But I will say that when you say come see me, they're probably thinking of that scene, that famous scene where you loook as So when you're like come see me, they're like you know, I'm not saying that. I can't you know, say it that way either, because it depends on which way the conversation go, you know, but is it fighting worthy? No, I've been divorced for ten years, you know what I mean. It's like I'm not concerned about him in that manner at all, or her in

that manner, you know what I mean. It's just that you ended up you end up talking about things like this to add your side of the story, you know what I mean. You end up talking about it because somebody else has brought it up, so you want to clear the air or at least add to it, you know what I mean. And and that's all. But if I ain't got another ever mention, how again, it won't

cost me up. Well, let's talk about some other things, Lesta Ray, because you tell we came up in a time without social media, where we didn't have to worry about going out, who he was out with, going on vacation with people, and things like that. So now things are different. Obviously people can't get away with that. Do you think that times were better when we didn't have social media and we were able to move around? I think definitely the privacy issue is what is the biggest

thing that makes us go what the heck? And I don't get how people want to be so in your business where they're like, are you dating him? Are y'all married? Did y'all go on vacation? Because when you're dating someone and you're liking someone, that's in a time in your life where you're blissful and you're happy and it should show on your face. And so everyone of you in counter says, WHOA whatever you doing girl, you're doing it because let me rub up against you. I want some

of that. It's like when you see love, it's just automatically stopping, just go. It softens you, you know what I mean? So all of us wants that unconditional love. Right now. I'm just gonna get you from my granddaughter, you know what I mean. But right now, that's just what God has for me. You know what I mean? I know your m Let I know, come on, because I felt like young and all of young to all the way old. Everybody has had a crish crash on Lisa right coming for me now, you know absolutely, but

she had to back up the show. Now, But is it something that or that person? Right for me. You know, I'm in the middle of brass room businesses that I am building. I know me. You can take me away like how gone, and I'm like, I'll be back here, you know, and that I can't do right now. I can't do. But my body and my spirit may want to take off, but God is saying not right now, because you know you and I know you, so I'm gonna makes you that you build. So whomever comes into

your life, they're not coming to fix me up. What time I need him to help me in this particular, you know, part of my life because you know, we already come with baggage anyway, you know. I mean, I just don't really feel like it's fair to come into somebody's life when you just gotta fix them up. And that's not to say that we're not building together. But I want to come to the table with what I come to the table with, because I'm asking him to

come to the table with something. So if I bought the table, you need to bring the cheers or something. You know, how does that affect your relationships? Like moving forward? Obviously you were married, like you said, it's been ten years or whatever, but you know very that was a public breakup, and y'all went through a lot of things. I know you said that you and Michael Missic are still cool with each other, you know, to this day.

But how did that relationship affect I know, sometimes we do, like you said, carry baggage with us into other situations. So how did you come to forgiveness, you know, when it came to him, and how does that affect you even to this day. First of all, the forgiveness came later on. I was broken when I came back because I came back with no money, no subtlement, no alimonia.

I just left, you know what I mean. And then he had to go through a trial that he's going through now, and so they tried to pull me in that. So it was part of me that was like, who am I and I still Lisa Ray the sex symbol? Do I reinvent myself? Do I go back to what I know? Like I was a little bit all over the place, and then having to get back in the business, you know, so I was a survival boat, you know,

and so I had to get over that. And then as people were staying with you gotta you know, forgive him, And it was like I'm a new Christian. I'm not there yet, you know what I mean. But I had to to take away the guilt that I felt, and then I had to own up to my responsibility, you know what I mean. I had to remember the things that I did that could have countered what he did. Or for every action, you deserve a reaction, you know

what I mean. So I was like, Okay, if I wouldn't have did this, he probably wouldn't have done that and done that. You go to that in your relationship because one thing is for sure, you don't want to bring all of that to your next relationship. I want to know who was that, what was my fault? So I won't take that to my other relationships. And so after I was able to do that, and I think

the time and the distance also dictates to that. And I just sat down with my vision board and the goals that I wanted to you know, in the growth, my maturity kicked in. It was like, now, you know, you couldn't did that better than that. You know you thought you was just hot ship and just kept it moving,

and you know what I mean. And so now, which is why it's important for me to use my platform and my voice and which your way that's mature now because we do need love, and we do need loyalty, and we do need unity, and so trying to tear down anybody right now in this climate should be forbidden. Right now, I met there, So how did you guys have a conversation even after all of that, Like you feel bad that he ended up going to jail, right, did you? No? No, No, he's still going through the trial.

He ran for two years and they called him in Brazil and so he was in jail over there for a while and then he came back to Turks and Cakos and is on house arrest now and a waiting to find out what's going to happen. So if you've been going through something for five years and going to trout every day, that's a part of your life. Bright thereness they have stolen and taken from you because you feel from your position as well, your financial your your marriage,

like everything is just driddle down. That makes you sit on your button, go did I get here? And that's when you've got your real friends are too, by the way, all those people when that was around, but what is everybody? You know what I mean? Would you let you know, your stuff is your stuff. You gotta go through your own stuff yourself. And when you realize that, it builds strength and it builds character, and then you realize, Okay, that type of pain. I don't wanna go through through

that type of pain, no motion. Let me do something different, and that's why I'm mad at my life. Let me do something different. Did you look at that as like that was his karma? And you kind of because even though you were I'm pretty sure you had love for him, but you were in a place where you were also angry with him. So I know, someone like me, i'd be like that, that's your karma, what you're gonna do

with it? You know what I mean. I didn't see karma at the beginning because at first there was the allegations of rape that took place, and so I had to deal with that as a wife. You know, it was like white and this girl is a white eighteen year old girls like, look what's going on here? But it was essential, but still as a wife, consptual sex was still like what are you doing exactly eighteen? You know what I mean? So that was like a blow,

you know what I mean? And then you know, the corruption of governmental funds that he's going through now kicked in two weeks right after that. So it was like bam, bam, you know what I mean. And so I was like, yeah, not, I didn't. I didn't sign up for all of this through all kind of stuff and my friends and my friends friends and induced you to our friends and all that kind of unfriendly stuff. And it was like, what's happening?

And I said, no, I care more about me and how you gonna treat me and how all of that is gonna reflect on me than this this life that you're trying to just give me. Because money does not buy you happiness, That is not it, you know what I mean. I was already into my lifestyle and into my money when I met him. So I was okay, I knew what the lifestyle was, but you try to take me someplace else and then you can't keep me there, but you want to treat me a certain kind of

way for that. I don't have to deal with that, and so I said no, and then I laughed, you know, and in the car apart for me, what I did see was the destruction of as it was happening. It was like, don't don't be with them, don't talk to him. Well, no, come back, okay, Well then let's talk about were you just what are you doing? How did you okay that God love Keith saved you? Like I feel like I died because it When he he and I talked, he said to me. I remember him saying to me. He says, um,

I don't know kind of curse. Yeah, we encouraged it, okay, he said, I really funked up, didn't not? And I said think yeah. But I was humble though, you know what I mean. I was just like it was like a big fall for both of us, you know. I was like, yeah, we were at the peak. You know, Turks and Keckos was booming. We were making money, we were employing Turks and Keckos Islanders. People were coming over there.

So tourism was at an all time high. Like it was doing very well, and we were doing very well for the country. And then to be stripped of all of that, it was like, what what did you do? Right? So, yeah, we had an amazing trip to Turks and Kicks. Remember we said that, We said that I'm in so nice. We had a great time. Yeah, shout out to Rogers. He um, he took a sign that trip to great care of us and I love it to call at home. You know. It's still a place that I've lived for

years and you still love it, you know. And I still send people there. You know. I need talks some Cacos Islanders. You know, some people love you, some people don't. You can't, you know, you can't be all back to everybody. I understand that. But I did my best, you know, and I did some great things for Turks and Caicos Islands and I'm proud of. I'm sure that a lot of them are proud of as well. Did I discover Turks and Cacos Islands? Absolutely not? You know. Did I

help an aid and you know, bring it to us? Yes, definitely did it. Yeah. When don't get married again, girl, I can't wait. Absolutely. I want to belong to somebody. I want to be able to roll over and not have Barney and Cookie Man and Elmo. You know what I'm saying. I want to be held, so you could say it's it's something, right, babe, I got you because I'm work better in a partnership, you know, to be able to bounce some ideas off of I'm a best

this woman. I definitely want a business minded man that we'll be able to give me food for thought, to be able to stay bag you know, I know, I know a better way. Or let me look at my roller dicks and what for you? But you could you date a guy like in his thirties, like thirty five with that marriage to you? You know? He said that what if he was popping and he had his role and he was working, And no, my daughter wouldn't have that.

What about somebody with a nine to five? We just got something, Well, we had somebody in the culture that got into a little bit of issues. Yeah, she said, Um, what she said she wouldn't date somebody with a nine to five stuff. How do you feel about dating somebody that's not in the entertainment industry that may have like a regular job. Um, it depends on how regular you speaking of. Understand what she meant by saying or nine to five because her life is not nine to five.

So just say, if she wants to go on vacation and she's over there and in Africa for a week and she decided I want to stay another week, she can because she's her own balls. You don't have to go back in to clock in, is what I'm assuming that she meant. You know, we have to allow her to be able to say that. And I feel the same way too. I don't want to have to wait for your sick days because I don't know what sick days.

I'm run a corporation, you know what I mean. I'm not a part of someone else's corporation that you're dictating to me when I have to come to work already. Um, you know, have a higher being. We all, we all do. We have someone that we work for, you know what I mean. When I'm doing my acting, I'm I'm the production company is telling me what time to be there, but they don't want me to cry. They want me to hurry up, but they want me to wait. It's like, what do you want? You know what I mean? We all,

you know, you have responsibilities. We all have responsibilities. Yeah, but you might be more flexible other times like where you can take off where like for three months time, I'm gonna just do me Well, I'm more like Beyonce. I want to hustle to match, you know what I mean? And I you don't have to call off because of the box. Yeah, but I gotta call out if I want to go, I gotta call out sometimes me too,

you know what I mean? RANDI though, you know, and if I'm not mistaking, you also have a mattress line. I do have a furniture and mattress line called l Our Home Styles, which I'm excited about that because I get a chance to put my creativity into that and give everyone a great night's sleep. And it's the first black mattress. So the company is called Sleep Black really is important nowadays because it's like sleep black with him, Sleep Black with on on the mattress, Sleep Black with

you know co asces really big right now. Um. And then the mattress is state of the art mattress, you know, memory foam jail on the one side to keep you cool in the sun. On the other side, it keeps you warm, you know. Um. And I I got into it because I wanted to create my own couch is

and cheers. I love that and you can't really find you know, you know I love furniture if I love furniture shopping more than anything all the time, and said, knowing, I'm like, where are you gonna put that I know, I don't even want to buy stuff, but I'm always looking at furniture and I'd be like like, and I'm always looking at magazine seeing how they're putting stuff together, you know what I mean, And how I can flip

my room because I get bored quick. I have my gene line, my p z I jeens that's coming out, was going to be out now, but the pandemic stopped that, you know, But I know that we're still gonna get our butts and some genes, and so I'm going to, you know, when we get back up and running, I'm going to come out with that. So that's what I mean by grassroot level businesses. I'm an investor. I'm trying to do, you know, a better portfolio than what I

did a couple of years ago. I invested in a natural pain relief bomb called Zen that has um natural herbs in it for you, and it has hemp oil, and we don't I have some of that here? You did? Yeah, I think that I'm pretty sure now I want to go back to these mattresses for a second, okay, because I think we stressed the importance of a good mattress. Because I remember I was dating this guy one time, right, and he just got a new place and you fill the springs. Yeah, and you, oh my god, you could

feel the springs and the mattress. I was like, I can't sleep here, and I don't care if you buy a mattress. Had to cover that up. But one of the things about being a real grown up is having a real mattress. And I know, like a good mattress can be expensive and all of that, but you sleep in it every single night. But wait, what does the spring mean? Is that it's older, that it's cheap, it's cheap, could be both both. Um, people don't realize and expressly's

an age thing. Young people are not, you know, considering what a mattress will do to your back or your shoulders or your alignment thing. Thinking about that, then you don't even go the good. Sometimes it's not about the soft That's how I picked my mattress. Andel with me and let me pick it like that. Now, I told you, I told you not to you what your body will conform because we got hips as women. When you play on your side, that's the worst position because you're not

an alignment. That's why they asked you to put that pillow in between your knees so you can level out when you're on your side. Remember that, I thought it was just come up behind you or a stern type of a firm mattress that has the memory phone. The memory phone is going to conform to your body, anybody, you know what I'm saying. And because I got a grand baby, you know, I don't know how much jumping

around you doing your matches. Obviously I ain't doing nothing, but you know you might need a lot of you know, spring action. Yeah, because you can't be getting it in with somebody in their mattress. It's not right. I'm sorry. That's a turn off. Yeah, I imagine. And no, Angela used to have somebody with a water bat as well when I was in college, just to age. He's the only person. He's the only person in my life because nobody even had what it best then he was the

only parent why he had that. And maybe when day will come back in style, I can't say, I don't think so. It probably feels good. You're like loading, I've never got one. I've never not that one. Do y'all want to help like that? I don't want to float. I want to float on the beach back right, I'm like that pool. That's more like. I got a mattress for the promo, like for free from one of these furniture stores in New York. And my mattress is so horrible, Like I thought she was gonna say, good, I got

black matches. I need to sleep black out of control, like I have to jump on it to break it in. I had to walk all over it. My goodness, white people over like and buy my brothers and my sisters over like, Hey, come over and lay on the back in this mattress to break in the mattress. It's horrible. It's the worst mattress I've ever So I wonder this

is a terrible transition because we're talking about matresses. But do you and the brat your sister obviously, do y'all give each other relationship advice or did she come to you and ask you for things? Because we all know that recently she came out and she has a relationship with Judy we big booty Judy, and so that she Yeah, Jessica, sorry, did she ever call you, like, you know, can you help me out with a little bit of advice? Because she seems shy when it comes. Yeah, I was gonna say,

you know, she's private. She's a private person. I have to normally pride things out or if I'm laying eyes on her, I'll see it and then I don't take no f one answer. It's like something's going on, right. But she she handles everything. She's always been that way, you know, And sometimes that's good, you know, Sometimes you know, you still need to have somebody to kind of just all that on, you know. But right now she's happy, you know what I mean, I'm happy for you know

what I mean. I'm looking for some of that happiness myself on which side of defense on the black side, sad with the man side, Okay, just some of that. So I wasn't sure. I'm like, I love you know. You know what's so funny. Back in the day when I used to do like the black Man magazine photo shoots and stuff like that, I have a rainbow right by my bikini line that goes down and it's a pot of goal at the bottom, like for real, Okay

the colors of the rainbow. People were like, oh, I ain't known listen people, and it was like, well, hold on, don't let me over my head. I'm let me know, but I am. I love the children, see, I love Billy. I love those because when I tell you, have always gone to the shows, the drag shows where I'm walking for fish and walking from face and walk and for labels and just walking and bogging that I'm here for

all of that. I just when I tell you, I love it because it's something about them that they have had to live in their box for so long till now. They had always had their own underground world, you know what I mean, And so when you go into their world, it's like a big party of celebrating who they are. And it's something about that that's liberating because it's like, right, you deserve to be able to show case who you are and who you love and how you love. And

I always been down for that. So you know they're now up coming because poles and the category is that's my era. I remember all of that. So I'm sitting there with my popcorn, like, yes, for labels, Yes, you know what I mean. I am by this tattoo with the chase the rainbow chattoo, you guys, the car to be I'm not mad at that. So what let me ask you this, the size matter to you? Um? What if his car or his bank account? You know what, I'll tell you that his his dick is just the

size matter like doesn't matter to you? Are you like? Um, well, now, um what depends on I can't be too small, but I don't want it to be either, you know. I mean, I'm gonna talking to my stomach while I'm holding you back, and it's like I want to take it all comfortably, you know what I mean. We do many things with it, you know what I mean. It's supposed to be the you know, not the size is supposed to be the motion of the ocean kind of thing, you know what

I mean. Yeah, yeah, supposedly right, But if you're coming with you know what I mean, and I feel like you, you know, finger banging, I'm like finger banging, use three you know, pull that out like like I got some toys in you? No mean, what what has that ever happened to you? Somebody was too small and you had to be like no, okay, good, But would that be a deilbreaker? Like say, he's perfect, everything is great, and then he had like as medium sized penis that but

he can eat pussy really good. Well, wow, okay, let me say this. I had been and this is real person, I have experienced the finger in such a way that it was like was that just your finger? You know what I mean? Whoa? You know what I mean? Um? Which can if you can get off that way and you do and you're satisfied, great. I'm a body person like I love you know, the body. I love the arms and just you over me and us looking at each other like I'm into that, you know what I mean? Um?

And I think the older that I get, the more I'm into sensuality and the romance. You know, I really need to be with my friend. That foundation has to be strong, Like I want to laugh. It's other things that I want to do, just and only besides having great sex, you know what I mean. I need to be able to to to play with you in a way in which if you out of the country, we still get that here where we're not really touching each other at all, but I'm still touching your spirit in

your heart, you know what I mean. I'm that I'm not like even when I think now, it's like I'm not no longer looking for the same things that I used to look for even fifteen twenty years ago, Like I agree about six at anymore. I don't have a six pack. I just got two pac over here. It's not with me. I just want you to return to favor. I want you to pull off your clothes and pleasantly surprise me as well. So let's keep each other up

to a standard. You know what I mean. But do I want you to be Santa Claus and do nothing? The sonic clu Remember that? Remember that little ball that you used to be? Like you know, oh my god that I'm like vision, Yeah, I don't want that. You know. That's interesting because I do feel like when I was younger, for play like wasn't as important to me. I could be okay with just like just getting right to it. But then I feel like they're like, yeah, I feel like as I got older, like it has to be

more of a connection. I guess that was the whole phase at a younger age, and me too, because now, like a good kiss means a lot to me now, Like if you can really kiss me and I want to kiss you, and I don't mind exchanging bodily fluids back, and it's like and I'm in that I can look back and people take my breath away because it's like, who, I really want to do this with you? Like, wow,

you know what I mean? I'm looking for that because I mean, if you can't make me feel good about you know what I mean, sense, and then we shouldn't be doing it at all. Then if this your only expertise is just one thing, you know what I mean? I want to feel that I ain't mad at his experience. Let me just say that, Okay, and everybody he's been with the napew got me and all that you did bring it, come on, show me what you got, show me what you're working with, and he's not to other

women in the industry before. Would you want to know or would you want him to keep his past there? I think because I need a friendship. I think that that would just come up in conversation because he would let me know about the territory. Right, Not that I mean I have a problem or anything, you know what I mean, But it's just the who's in the room with you, because you may run into For me, I

don't like to tell on myself. I I love you crazy, I feel like I don't like to tell on myself, But like you said, when you're friends with somebody, your past relationships just come up in conversation and just it just happens like that you had the situations in the past, Did you have to cut a lot of women or a lot of friends off because you may have introduced them in the wrong situation and maybe they overstepped their boundaries. I did not experience anything like that until I got

married to Michael ms. I didn't experience any of my friends trying to come on to anyone that I dated before, or that I felt like I had to watch him or her. I so all of this was happening in this marriage, one thing after another that was just like, it's crazy, Okay, is this how? This? Is this? How they are over or? Am I being naive? Am I supposed to turn the other cheek? I'm not that kind

of person. Am I looking more into it? Is in a sense, you know, you kind of don't want to just be a runner, like, oh, you didn't want I'm out people. You gotta work, you gotta right. I was willing to do that, but now you're embarrassing me, and it's humiliating Because there were certain women there will remain names that didn't even want to come to my house, and I had to say, why not? What happened, what happened when I wasn't there, or what happened when I

went to the bathroom? Please tell me, because if it's something that has hurt you or made you feel like you're not comfortable anymore, I don't woman before anything. I need to know that. I need to know that because

you left me here with this person. So if you it might be somebody else, what it might be me, tell me what you see what I'm I'm not gonna hold it against you and so, but we're not Sometimes we as women, we don't really you know, be that type of friend to somebody because you know, you don't want to say I want to call from her marriage, or I don't want to get the middle or whatever. But I really say, but if I had some really older devons that really could have set me down and said, hey,

little hot heir chick, you hot? Now you ain't gonna always be hot? Sit down and think of you're playing? What is it that you want out of this? What are you trying to accomplish? Do you want to do? If I would have had somebody like that, perhaps things would have been different. And I'm not saying that I probably perhaps would have taken more. I would have stayed married, but I would have dealt with it different. Right. That's a damn your friend. You said it, not I, because

I've said it before. Anyone come to you, though, Has anyone come to you at that point or during that time and said, lesson, I need to have a conversation with you. This ain't right, or this was done to me? Or did everybody just kind of either back away or do it? Um? One person she came to me. She was so uncomfortable. Um. We had a weekend there, um, and she came down. I don't know where I was, but when I came back, she left, left her and her friends. And I was like, what happened where else?

You know? Blah blah blah. And then I saw her the next day because, like I said, we had a weekend full of things. And I saw the next day and I just sat down next to it and I said, very serious, I said, what happened? Please tell me, Please tell me, and her hold of me to change. It was like you could tell she was struggling, like like I don't you know, want to be in the middle like I handled it, so it's okay kind of thing.

And I was like, but you know how you start seeing rimnets of things and it may be just only two things, but that added to it, like um, and she did tell me, and it was just something that was inappropriate that she felt that it was too close for comfort, you know what I mean, Like, Okay, this could look a certain kind of way and maybe you you should know that, and so maybe you need to

move back something, you know what I mean. And so because she didn't want me to think anything, which is big, you know what I mean, she left, She removed herself on the situation. And I respect that, yeah, because that's a hard thing to do to us, because sometimes you tell your friends something and they don't believe you. The guy denies it, and then now you're cast it out even though you were just trying to look out for

your girl, like sometimes you just don't know what to do. Yeah, And I understand that too, But I I appreciated her telling me because and its everything else that I had in my head as far as just putting it in the back of my mind like Okay, I'll check got that. Got that. So by the time it came to what you all realized that Lestay was leaving, it was like you did mean you did a B C, D E F G H I J K L all lists. I'm like, I don't even need to get to Z at all.

You know what I mean. And so that's what made me go no, let me just bow out gracefully and keep moving. What kind of guy are you looking for now? What you say if you have to talk about what qualities you were in a man, well they kind of gonna only want ice for me. Um, I definitely need a god fearing man. I want you to keep our house and our spirit in order. I want him to be able to pull me back. I'm strong, as you

can tell, strong personality, very opinionated. Um, but I've been wearing the pants for the last I don't know ten years, and I want to relinquish that control. I want him to wear the pants and I can put back on my skirt because right now I provide for my family. I want a partner. I want a business partner. I want someone fun that has swagged that when I look at him, the way he dressed, the way he smelled, the way he walks. Threkes me go. We ain't gotta go, baby,

Let's take our clothes off. Um. And I need someone that don't take theirselves so serious. You know, I'm not the most maturius fifty something. You're all woman, you know what I mean. I'm around here going behind doors like booming like you know, I'm that kind of chick, you know what I mean. So I want to be able to travel. I want to be able to you know, no baby mama drama. I don't want to help these kids all over the place and with all of this, you know, I mean, I won't just grown love grown.

I can see you with like a comedian. Yeah, that would be right now, I think because amazing. I think she has a you know, it's some candidates for sure. Oh my god, girls, if you look something, I'm I'm gonna dance at your wedding as old people say, I'm a dance at your wedding, right. Yeah. And I need somebody that you know from their history. Their history speaks to you because you know what they've been. You know, if they've accompassed what they've done. Therefore you to be

able to say, yeah, now sounds other team. You're gonna know how to handle our business and where we're going, you know, because I'm not done And no sounds of a tent if he's a businessman. Businessmen like to build things. They like to see things come to fruition. And when they have someone that they're dating, they love and they care for and that's doing something they want to get into and make her succeed just as much I need

that ye need. And let's not forget the House Divided. Okay, we gotta people watch you on Season two of A House Divided so they can check that out. Now comes on Thursday, and you can watch all the episodes at one time. Now second season, I have been added to the cast. My character name is Alexis and she is a force to be repon with. I like the show.

I like the storylines. Like you know, when you get a gig, you go in because as an actress, you're like, Okay, this is one other thing I put on my resume, But it's another thing when you really like it, and it's an easy fix when you go into work and you don't feel like you're working, you know what I mean? Like the cast, you know what I mean? Like that's what I've vowed to do from now on, like really not touch anything that I don't want to touch if

it doesn't move me in some type of weight. And besides the money, you know, because like I said long time ago, all money and good money. I know that's right, all right, And listen, when we all open everything back up again, you gotta do another trip like you used

to do. Man, right, Yeah we did. We had a ball and I think that once we get over the COVID and know how we can all come together and reunite and figure that out, then I'm sure that we shouldn't could I think everybody's gonna beaching for everyone, like,

can you do this right? Let's celebrate this because now we're gonna really help to count our blessings because we're making a little bit of stride, but what we're trying to achieve is gonna be major, and everybody's gonna be be able to celebrate after that, God willing, I got one more question for you. I want to know why, because I was excited to even hear this rummer. Um,

you turned down the housewives. I could really see you, you know, I would want to see more into your life and stuff like that because of your opinion because you're self opinionated and you have something to say. What made you just say like, no, I'm not good for that because I'm still working on me and my temper with the Lord and um, I it's very hard not to be set up, and I don't set anybody up.

And so if you feel that you need to do that and two for ratings or to make you feel good or any of that, I'm just not that chick at all. I'm not. Again, we don't need the cameras to talk about whatever you need to talk about. But you try and affront me, and you know it wouldn't be nor most show if you're over Yeah, I would need to be on it. And I just don't believe in that. I just don't believe in that. I really don't like I'm an advisor to a lot of people.

I'm a mentor to a lot of people. People respect my opinion because I have a lot of experience. I've been through a lot and I'm not a young chick anymore. So I learned from the pain that I've gone through, the that my mama told me I am. I hear myself saying the same dog on thing to my daughter and my granddaughter. So I'm like, and I'm still in that middle part of being cool. Still, you know what I mean? Now you yeah? You still. I just feel

like you're coming to me like that ra rack. It means that's a problem, and I'm gonna want to help you with that. I know that's right. I feel like they might be a little nervous to come that. You saw that. All right, well, at least Ray, thank you so much. We really appreciate you. I appreciate you, Loureale and Stiffany Angelo. Alright, stay safe you too, alright, take care of good love with that man. Thank you girl.

The list Angela, I got you, I got you. I just gotta I gotta just a background checks first, make sure you got a gun. I need one because I can't get one. I don't think you need one. By