Episode 242: Headlock Cover-up (Feat. Tammy Rivera)

see where you are right now in your relationship, you know. Yeah, congratulations on everything that's happened, you know, thank you, thank you, And a new show because I love it. Thank you. It's good. Actually, I've been watching this ship like I wasn't recording. I was like, were you so authentic and you're being yourself when you're having not time? You don't even remember the ship that you're saying or the conversations. All right. I feel bad making you work though, because

I know you've been doing a lot. So how are things now? And all you at the bar? How you get to the bar downing the room kitchen she got the library, the bar she got it off. Pop them over there. You know, I've seen a bar like this when I was out and I said, I want that in my house. So I recreated fire. I love it. I'm getting one built now in the basement. Nothing like that right now, though it's a mess. That's fun though, like all the house really like getting stuff done in

your house. I think that's really fun, like when it finally happens and you have all these ideas and you get to Yeah, that part is, but it's not fun though, not getting to work down. They don't get funny too. It's time to decorate, like when you're still going through like the knocking ship down and rewiring and you know what I'm saying, It's like I had to rewind my whole house. So I kept coming in and I'm like,

dare these workers here every day? And I don't see no damn progress because it's not cosmetic and Loki feel like you're doing the work is so exosted. I've been bad as how I'm like I can't. And then when your house is I'm the type of person like, well, my house is not together, like everything else is out of place. But I was saying, like I don't understand how female like the younger generation and these young girls,

I don't get it. I'm sorry, but you I ain't never been a type of I can sleep on the door mattress and how hella bad. I just can't live like that. Like my ship has to be furnish comfortable, you know what I'm saying. When I bought this house, like and it wasn't completely done, I was not at ease. But like the first night that I moved in, I think I unpacked like everything that I could possibly unpack. I needed to have everything kind of in order because

I just wasn't comfortable. Even when I come home at night if I had a long day, but there's like laundry on the bed, I can't go to sleep, right Yeah, no, I feel you on that. What I'm trying to tell you, it's a struggle. But what that house, Tammy, I've seen that you said that for you in a marriage, right, sex is like thirty important for waker is like important?

Oh yeah no on some real stuff like people. I don't get mad I'm telling you all this, but like if I really I have learned and it's like scientific studies that I have done on my household, Like for real, Like if I was to get off, get up and just suck his day like he will be his day is so good. Like he'd be so excited, like he like had a great day and he got energy and he's so happy. Girl, if I wake up and getting

some booty, his day is great. If I don't give him that for a few days, he got an attitude. He walking around, he got to smoke all the blood. I'm like, goad, he'd be stressed out. It'd be stressed. I'm like, and I'm asking him like why does this? But why He's like I don't know. Like if you really just blew my sock every morning, I swear to God,

we'd be good. And I'm like, you gotta it sounds easy, but that's a lot of work every morning to be blowing some ice socks off, especially because you'd be in the studio at night. You got your daughter, your raised, and you got the house to take care of exactly Like it's a lot. And then I, girl, what I have start doing? Like when he's like trying to get it and I don't want to, I'm like a Charlay and then he like his whole ship. Oh yeah, I get my daughter name and be like, why you play

so much down? So dammy. On the show, y'all was talking about kids and stuff like they're having more kids. Um, you said, obviously you juggling all these other things, but how close are you to like really going forward and to working on that baby. Um well, I'm definitely I'll be thirty four until lot of thirty. If I turned thirty four this year and tom is the clock is ticking, you know what I'm saying, Like you don't even realize how fast like that ship comes. Like I'm like, damn,

I'll be thirty four this year. That means I have a year another year before I'm thirty five. And that's like you know when you're that's when you're talking to your clock really starts, you know, clicking. So at the A at this at this point, I happened. I can't bullshit. I have to do it. Like I've started taking certain herbs um during the it's quarantined. I haven't been more so focused on how I feel like when we focus on having a baby, it's like when you get disappointed.

So I've kind of been like just taking my like not trying to think about it like we do it when we do it. But I'm taking stuff like internal, you know, prepare myself internally by taking certain herbs and drinking certain tonics and you know, uh, you know, just doing a lot of natural health stuff. Even stopped eating meat for like six months. That's happened, you know, And everyone says that. So I've been who you want come in,

come and say, I walk this little girl. Please tell me why she has a way train on, but I'm trying to figure it out. The damn train of phone over her. What do you believe? Girl? I'm trying to tell you it's like a double zero crazy but um yeah, so like we've been trying, you know, in in terms of that way. But I want to give him, um before I try any alternative routes, like any like uh like in vitro or anything like that. I want to give us the opportunity because I feel I'm a firm

believe in God. So I do feel like isn't God's time? And you know what I'm saying. So I just know that my talk, my clock is taking and I don't want to wait too late. Yeah no, because then it gets a lot more difficult. They have the ovulation sticks too, so you can see, like when it's the prime time, you pee on the stick and see what. I don't know if that really works to me because my period is so all over the place, like that's the shows,

like I guess the hormones or whatever. So when you pee on it, even if you're periods all over the place, it will be like these can tell you with the dates, Yeah, this day is the day you should try it. Yeah, I got to try. Even my going to be bound me stuff, I'm like he started buying me ship like she mean, like I think the whole family is really waiting.

But then I also another thing, like to be honest, that I'm kind of worried about is my weight is so up and down that I'm kind of scared because I'm like, I'm not want to be no big gass bitch after these babies. Like I'm already think it's a motherfucker like and I'll be up one day, I'll be

down the next day, you know what I'm saying. So that I'm really like that really is a determined back from I think we all know the struggle over here I'm trying to tell you one day you'd be looking and found this ship like them, then that's you're either taking your head big again. You were like you like how the fund did that game turned down from one piece of game all we are locked in the house and locked down, and so it's a lot of yeah, sitting at home eating, having drinks and how they set

home for you. And I know you said you that you had coronavirus. Uh, girl, Uh, can nobody tell me that I didn't? Honestly, Um, I came we were doing press for our show in l a uh in New York. I had a meeting in New York with from Network, So I literally went from from New York to l A and then from l A is when they had the lockdown, so we had to hurt him fly out before we got stuck in l A. So when I came home, I was kind of like, you know, like

kind of tired and fatigued. But I'm always like that because I'm I don't take vitamins and stuff like I should, so that I wasn't alarming. But I went out to eat with one of my friends. She kind of dragged me out of the house. She was like, let's get something to eat, and don't get something to eat. Who was supposed to go to a lounge afterwards? And I got this headache that was like unbearable. So I was like, yo, I can't go out like bach. My hair hurt so bad.

And she thought I was lying. She's like, oh, you don't never want to go out, and I'm like no. So I literally got home. I told my husband, I'm like, yo, my body feel crazy. I'm like, you know, He's like, just laid out, take an advil. I laid down to the adel. I woke up the next day and my body was in pain. I had a fever. My head felt like I just girl. It was the worst heada guy ahead of my life. My spine like the back

of my back. I couldn't even bend my head down because it was like my spine feel like I was twisting my spin. For five days, I was in the bed. I didn't get out the bed. I couldn't get out of bed. Yeah, I was so sick, but then with really I didn't Even then, I still didn't think I had I just thought I had the flu or whatever. So I was like, you know, I'm just sick whatever. I didn't even think about it. What really was a determined in factor of my friend who I was with

the night. She called me three days later, like three days while I was in bed. The third day she called me. She was like bit. She was like, I never get sick. She was like, I feel hard with like my hair hurt, my body eggs. So she was going through the same thing. So two days after that, I got better, um, and she was sick for another two days after that. But then I text her what I realized, it's probably two days after I got better if I broke this either and everything. I could not

smell or taste anything, like definitely I couldn't. And I didn't have any congestion like I wasn't congested. I meant I was breathing out my nose. I didn't have any any um like uh yeah, no flem none of that. So it was sucking me up because I was like, I didn't realize that I wasn't tasting or smelling anything until I didn't realize I wasn't smelling anything until I went to go eat my some food and I was like, why the funk I can't taste my food? So for

like a good five days. I couldn't taste the smell anything. And then I've seen a basketball player. He tweeted, has anyone lost their tastes and smell? And when he said that, I kind of freaked the funk out. I was like, I was scared and ship. The crazy part though, when my first got sick, my husband, him and Charlie was taking black tarnet. He was making her drinking my d it tastes like dirt, and Charlie drinking every day, and Charlie was crying, she was busted, like I don't want

to take this. Why I gotta take this? And usually I was like leave her alone, but I was like, I'm sick, and he was like, I don't even what your mother say, You're taking this ship. So they took black tarnet shots every day I was sick. Do you know neither one of them got sick. My mother, who came over to take care of me every day while I was, she was worse than I was. She had like congestion and yeah, and I was so scared because even though my mom looked young, she had young She's

still sixty years old. So it kind of you know, I was getting up like every I don't even get up in the morning. I was up morning, I was up breakfast, lunch, and then I was making sure she got in the shower. I was making sure I fed, how I was putting the hot like. I was just like at her back and call off like a whole. And my mother she's like a very uh spirtual woman, so she was like, I'm not claiming this ship. I don't got that ship. That like, that's how my mom.

Your mom is dope because I see her on the show. I just wanted her to cook me and play the food she'd be throwing down. She can't cook no American food. I don't think you have to cook at Jamaica fool, the Spanish fool. I'm like, perfect, that's good. That's all she could perfect. So what's so besides that? What's been going on in the house, Like with you guys, you know, being in there together, quarantining together, and then the romance happening or is it Like, to my surprise, we haven't

been arguing at all. No argument. That's a good thing. But I think we haven't been arguing because this Nick is on the game argue with seven year olds around the world. Like I heard somebody like, oh, you sound like a girl. He's like, nik A shut up. I see a walk like that is a child, Like why are you arguing with a child? You know what I'm getting up to. I mean, he's on the game all day. And there's a lot of other rappers and influencers that's

on the game. Like they literally like, yo, get on the game right now, Like he be on the game all gay mall, but what are you doing? Are you watching any like TV shows? We've seen you doing some TikTok videos. Yeah, all, I've been watching his nextlace. I think I don't watch every movie on Netflix, girl me to give us well, go to Hulu. Hulu got some really really good stuff. I watched mcmillions on Hulu today. Now I'm telling you watch High Fidelity with Zoe Kravin

Lit Fires Everywhere and watching Little Fires Everywhere? Is that a movie or show? It's a show, a series, both of them. Millions about the McDonald's monopoly game, how they rigged it. Yeah, but this these other two shows we're talking about, is more towards our genre of life. You want to know, y'all know, I'm all into like murder. I was watching about that big Max and how they'd be stealing the money from the love like crime. Uh see,

I like, you know, what's so crazy? I've been watching this movie and all my friends they not listen to me. It's a really good show. It's like a short series on Netflix, and it's called Godless. It's a cowboy show. But I love cowboy movies, which is that's random. Everybody says that, what's it called? Though? Let me, It's called Godless. It is so fucking good. Though, Dammy, we're gonna look at it. We're gonna wrote it down. It's really good,

I promise you. But every time I said it's a cowboy they'd be like, bitch, I'm not gonna watch my cowboy movie. I'm like, no, I've watched so much stuff that I never thought I would watch in my life that I mean to you know what, I couldn't get into. I try to get into that that show, you, I can't get into that whack. I only watch it because everybody else watched that, and I thought it was whack.

That show. I'm sorry, y'all gotta watch it because that guy was so crazy and there's people like that for Real and Psycho. Yeah, I couldn't get into it. I was like, this ship is mad. Watch parents site, y'all ever see that? I got that. I think I saw that it was. And that's like because I watching Narcoes and you know they have other subtitles. I had to stop watching that ship because I'm like, there's too much subtitles. But for Parasite, it's like I when I tell you,

usually i'll play a game. I saw that. That was good. It was good? Right, it was? That was really good. Yeah, it was good. See, so now you gotta listen. I'm like, damn if people be using the funk out me. You know that's a fact because you never know what people do. That's how people get cat fish this stuff. People just sit and watch what they're doing, and then they'll come and and just pray on the things, your weaknesses. You

know what I watched last night? That really, I mean, I don't even know why the funk I watched because I kept saying I wasn't gonna watch it. The Gabriel, Uh that's so sad. Oh yeah, watch too. I was so funny, you know what, And everyone's like it's so sad. Yes, it was sad, but I was angry, like I was sold. It didn't make me and you. I cried when I say I cried over anything, which I was super proud of myself because I didn't cry that much. Last night.

I cried a little bit and a lot because I was school with anger, like I just couldn't understand, like if I'm a fucking teacher, Oh but you're not going home, like you're coming with me? Like how to hell you let this little boy repeatedly go on home knowing what's going on to him? Oh? I know, d Like I started watching it every day though, by the way, like as schools, like teachers, I feel like they don't know

what they can do. I do fault her too. I fall all the motherfucker's because I I just feel like I could be walking on the street and see a child that it looks like she's that they're abused, and I know me and I know my heart, Oh you don't you wanna wait right here because I'm about to figure out what's going on. I can't as a mother, It's like you know what I'm saying, if you said your mom like yelling at her kids, like cursing at

her kid or something like that. Do you say something or you just keep it moving, like oh I am not. Now if you cursed, how to give you up? Because I curse my mind a lot of people. What about it would being the kid outside? You know how parents used to roll up to the school and I do that too. Look where Charlie was younger, I swear to you. She was like four and we were at Walmart. I will never forget. And she wanted something out the thing and I was like, no that lord Niga fell out.

When the ground start kicking, smack the ground. You wait too, I get your ass out this door. Like I couldn't even because I always would talk about people parents like oh girl, they're bare their kids bad. I whoop her ass.

I told her asks up. And actually, when I was in the parking lot whooping her ass, a white lady walked past and she was like that is child's because I'm like, bitch, I will beat your ass Like yeah, yeah, Like, don't tell me about just claim I. You don't feed her, you don't clothe her, you know what I'm saying, Like I don't get into a ship like that. But now it's a different one thing I don't like. I don't like for men to hit girls, whether it's their daughter

or not. Like I don't feel like a bad president. Yeah, I don't feel like mentioned with because I know something like oh I speak my daughter, but I just don't mother should do that, right, because I feel like men don't know their strength to that kind of strange kind of gives that pressure for the little girl, like oh, it's okay for men to hit you, right, Yeah, I don't agree with that spinking about it's okay for men

to do right. We're talking about only fans a lot, and how there's so many people going on only fans making their coins right now, is it a problem? Right? If your husband is following people are only fans, you know, it's what's only fans? Girl? You know now you'll be telling So I'm on there, So let me be the one day. Hold us one there, No, no, no, no, hold on, let's not start nothing. See him up there.

It's a subscription site where people could subscribe to your account and you can post anything you want to post, and they paid it, and then they also pay for paid per view videos, which is like a deal that they pay a price to see. So the taboo. Part about it is it's so much porn going on there that everybody think it's porn like girls is on they're really like fucking sucking dig heaven deal those shows square

and playing with themselves. But then you have people like me and our other whole stephany who is in here right now that we are just it's like the stuff that girls post on Instagram. I put on my Only fans, like, I'm not you're not gonna see me working on my Instagram. You're not gonna see me and the throne with my ass up on the kitchen, singing in the bathroom sink, like you know, you're not gonna see my body really unless I'm gonna be But on my Only Fans you

can pay to see that type of stuff. And then the PPPs I do do a little bit more and my playing with myself. It's very sexy. Basically, Okay, you're being sexy and you're sharing that sexy side of yourself with people who are paying for it, versus doing it on Instagram. They're not paying for that. A lot of the girls the only fans pages now, so guys fell like see them you could chat to right and it's yeah,

you just it's just like an Instagram account. We got a d M, it got a story, you got a timeline, but just is getting houses off of the money that the money is the if you go, if you got to write prong calls, the money is really good. Yeah, you can do anything. You can do, cook at glasses, you can do makeup tutorials, you can do and you want to do it. No one's doing makeup and and and cause are wrong with society. But there are people on there who are fitnesses, models who are making like

Google money. You know, I don't want to do what they're paid for to see on me. But was up there, Yeah that was the question. So it's like if you stop he was following certain women are only fans with that bother you. But they and they can d M and do all of that stuff. I mean like this is just like Instagram that ended a fucking day. It's kind of like the same day. So for instance, say paid to see them and listen content and explicit. Oh so he's been in a coin to follow them and

see them. But when the money come involved, it's a problem when you're looking nigga. Look, but when you see it. When you got this story, I said, oh problem with that random tips to the girl. You can tip pictures, you can tip posts and and he he bet up pay to see this ass, But you don't go to the strip club though with him right and spending month. No, I love going to the strip club with him, like I love the strip club, like we go and usually even in Atlanta, like a lot of this, you know

strip clubs Atlanta. When they when they come when I come in, they kind of the girls kind of know I'm very chill vibe. I I chill with them. I smoke with him, drink with him. We tip them and he'd be doing his own thing. I don't like because they've usually coming from they have like you know, as

a stigma with women. I have to tell like a lot of my very friends like David thinking like oh the strip club, you know, nig I'm like, listen, the girls the strip club are very respectable, honestly, Like when I go there, they don't never they all like, oh

that's him. Yeah, I mean I just seen girls strip club end up customer like it might be a new girl that might be like on some other ship walking there, like bitch, get on his face like his wife and she you know what I'm saying, Like, you know what I'm I never had no problem like that. There's been times I don't to my friends strip club and he'd be all on the other side talking to a girl my friend like bitch, I'm like, girl, leave him to funk alone, like we are you going? He can't go nowhere?

Like but yeah, I just I love a strip club. I don't have no problem with that. So what is crossing the line then? Like, what is taking it too far in this your club? Are you like all right? Chill? Well, he don't like lap dances anyway, so he usually get more jealous when because the girls be on meeting more than they be on him. Yeah, so he'd be kind of like like one day it was when I was lit, I was done, and it's one girl. She was like,

I'm leaving. What y'all don't like? Girl? Come on? Because I was all drunk and show he's got what the funk you not? I'm like, like, the way, what if one of them was to start giving him a massage across the club? You go, we do that, We'll be doing that. We have a they have massage girls in the strip club. So and then some of these strippers they'll be making the extra money for the massage. So you they have been times I don't walk in and

he's getting massage. I'm like, oh, bitch, I'm next, like because I don't know, but you know what a lot of my friends. It's so crazy because I think people got this stigma. You know, people don't really know you, like they have this like even when we did Merge Brood camp and the end of the Marrige Crew camp, they they added this whole fake scene to make it's not like I was mad and walcome home to a girl inside of the club when really I was arguing

with security, had nothing. Yeah, so and I only and all my friends called me. They're like, bitch, I noticed this fake is fun because you don't even I don't give up like we I don't care, Like that's one thing I'm not like. I'm not like that, Like I'm I'm the bitch that be like, oh come on, bitches, Like oh, I was like, yeah, my hub, Like it's shilling the funk out, like you don't feel like I'm the more open one, like the more free one, and people would think is walk up. But there's me saying me,

are you down for the three something? If he would give me one, bitch, you won't give me one. Remember, you don't remember She kind of hinted that wanting to do it before. It still has not yet. He's not sharing that booty and that's I think it's so selfish because Nigga, you had Joe find your whole career. You've had three or four bitches, you have had your whole little fine and I've been at home being a good little wife. So you're in the studio every day, now,

how is that like working with your husband too? Because he usually even alone when I in the studio, he only come here to funk with me. But um, usually I don't like when I'm in the studio he give me my space because you know what I'm saying. He'll come in there sometimes like if songs ain't done all time and he's like, what's going on? Like, but usually he give me my own spaces. Only when it comes to the business side, when he usually get in, like

get into everything. You take your personal when he's telling you things because that's your husband. At the same time, sometimes I do I ain't gonna cap like nigga, Well you wrap nigga. That's like that's different. And he's like, it's the same thing. But I'll get into it because I'm like, it's not the same thing because you can go up there and hit your little your ad lips and you can wrap you wrap. But it's like we're singing.

You have to you know what I'm saying, stack vocals, you have to do all this, you know, extra ship. So I'm like, it's not the same. So we get into it a lot when it comes to that, or sometimes me just um, he thinks he knows everything and you know, and I'm a leo, so I do know everything. Wait, Timmy, let's get back to the three something. So how would you fail if he came to you with a woman and was like, hey, remember you've been talking about three times,

maybe we should use her. Would you feel a little different if that was the situation. Yeah, I don't think I would like that. Yeah, you don't go pick shit down like, I don't think. I don't think I'll be down with that because I feel like how to know each other and why maybe you're picking the wrong women. Maybe he doesn't. Uh, maybe that's it's like I think he's more so like Walk is very Balkas of Gemini, so he's very uh, he's like very ten people in

one Blood's start there. Well, he's very just like he don't want like when it comes to me and my daughter, it's like he gets jealous. Like it's crazy because all my friends they know him so well, so like they could come in and they could be like, oh um, he at tame, I bought you this and I'm like, baby looking. He'd be like that's ugly, and I'm like, you're the fucking hater a lot because you ain't buy

the ship. Like that's how rude. My friends know that now, so when they do stuff, they like watch Walk be hate you because he it's just who he is, Like he don't want to share us. He don't want everybody to do anything that Like if we smile it too hard, He's like, you don't still it hard and I'll do this. I'm like, let me ask you this. You talked about Walker's lips, right, and obviously it's some amazing oral sex. Does he ever do that and just that and not

have sex with you? Is he okay all the time and go to sleep that all the time the time, and I'm just because I'm like, damn, sometimes I gotta return. You know this, he does it way more than I do. You're doing good time, I said, are you reciprocating with the hickles something? Baby? That's it and you keep it moving, not as much as he doing, but I'm trying to

get better at that. I just because he always want to do it in the morning, and I'm like, nick, I just woke up my brough rocking like holding my eye like nobody wants, and then they want to do it. That's why, child, that's just man in the morning. Like we could do it before, we could do it in the afternoon. But it's like, I'm not I the morning. When I was in a relationship, we had sex mostly in the morning mostly, and you was with that you

like that. I mean, it is what it is. So you're probably you probably want of them one the one though, that's you're my friend like that. She's like, um, she don't mind. Like she was, she enjoys sucking, so she was like, I would rather suck dick than have sex. And I'm like, bitch, what, but I don't mind. I turned right over. I ford to turn over then to

be because sucking thing is a lot of energy. It is a lot of energy when they try to make you do it too long and you'd be like, yeah, y'all started hurting, hurt and right here and ship Like one day my tooth I had a really bad toothach and I just came from the document pulled my tooth out, so I had calls everything inside my mouth that just gonna say um with the other side work. I was like, oh, he did not I swear the other side when I want to got my boobs done. And I was sitting

on the bed. He was still like, well, you could just sit right there, just stay still. I'm like, yo, dammy. I wanted to talk about when y'all went to the psychiatrist or the therapists or whatever, and m Walaker said that he felt like when the whole cheating incident happened and made you stronger, he made you better and made you mean and you actually looked offended by that whole situation. Did y'all come to an understanding about what he was trying to say. I think we'll walker see a lot

of times. And it's so crazy because I watched, like to my post I think shaving posting in the comments like oh, he's a narcissist, he's this, he's that did it. I don't pay him no fucking attention Walker, No, seriously, Like, I've been with this man for going to my teen years, so I know this nigga in and out, and I know that I know when he's saying ship, when he's trying to say and how he's one of like people said, oh uh, black people can't catch corona. He says he ain't.

That comes to his mouth. So sometimes I have to go back in the defense and defend him, not because I'm trying to, oh, take off of my husband, because I know what he means and I know that it is coming off. Yeah he means, Well, he just says stupid ship, so you'll understand it. But when he says it publicly, it makes everybody else can fit it. Boy, it's just like, you know, he's like you have a friend, and you know your friend because that's like mom, that's

like my best friend. So it's like you know your friend and you like the people like, oh, bitch, I don't like her because she kind of bulled you. Like, really, she's not BUGI when you get to know her. She actually cool as fuck. Like that's like Walker, Walker say stuff that people take offense to, so to be you know, honestly his cheek and did make me a whole another

bit so he ain't lying like him. And it's not just the cheating, his uh, his inconsistencies, his all the ship that we went through throughout our relationship, throughout our marriage that most people go through, but we just went through publicly. I could never be the same bitch. I wasn't not met him because when I met him, I was kind of green. I was I was I was

street smart, you know what I'm saying. I was used to mess with with you know, street niggas and ship like that, but I don't never mess with nick in the industry. And I was twenty three four years old when I met Walker. I came very gullible, very like oh yeah, you know, like the grass is green and everything is great, and Peaches and all these bitches and my friend friends and you get what I'm said. And I had to learn a horrid way like Okay, you

can't trust this motherfucker. Can't trust this bitch because she's you know, ain't to be trusted. You know what I'm saying, like, oh, oh, he ain't doing what the funk he say? He you know, he ain't who he say he is, even though he showed me one side he was. He he didn't walk a he never came. He didn't come from like like I said, his mom. Uh, she wasn't married. Dad was,

you know, the mother and her father. So she was very She had her you know, her dad's, I mean her her brother's, all the two she was in love with, but she was never married. Um or he don't. He didn't know how a husband was supposed to be. He knew that, Okay, I want to marry you because I don't want to lose you. Was that the reason? Was that the right reason to marry somebody. I think it was kind of a selfish reason, but for him, that was the only way that he knew how to hold

on to something without it being tooken away. Everything that he loved he's lost. He lost his brothers, he lost his best friends, he lost you know what I'm saying. So he's been in the streets. He's been. He was on all kinds of ships, like people that he thought was friends end up switching up on him, So not making excuses, but I have to take all that in accountability. So him going through all that ship that I went through with him, it's like being through the fucking wringer.

When you come out that bit, you're gonna be a whole different material. So the only way he was gonna survive after that facts, you know what I'm saying. So not do I wish I didn't have to go through all of that stuff? M I. Of course, no one wants to go through all that heartache and headache and all that ship. But do I I look at as a blessing of disguise because it took for me to go through all that ship for me to be who

I am today. Now he knows half ship he pulled back then He could never ever play you a game lit during that time too. You know me and you hug me up with it was crazy, But it's like it took for me, and even through all of that ship, Like I think it also showed him to like damn you know uh, And when he starts saying that when we got back together and he starts seeing them d M. He starts seeing that ship and he had to look at me like, Damn, I'm a solid bitch. I I

not nothing period about it. It ain't about if I robbed with you, nigga, I rock with you, and I canna say angle, Uh, I wasn't getting money. Of course I'm gonna get money or whatever the case may be. But I'm not about to be jumping from nigga to nigga. I'm not about to be um having I just don't. I never moved like that. I ain't never been that type of girl. You know what I'm saying. I always

been about my bread and nigga. If it ain't no money in a new conversation, like if I'm not in love with you and I'm not with you the nigga who we're talking about, like I've always been and I'm it sounds sucked up, but that's just I get it. So good job to you. Yeah, you know what I'm saying. It just wasn't it just how I was raised, So I understood when he was saying that he just just coming from him. It sounds fucked up, but it's the it's the truth. I'm a whole different I'm a whole

different breed. Now there's still things that you guys do in the bedroom that you're like, damn, I never did this before. I never felt like this. So this was the best night ever because you know, I always look at it ten years in right, so that you guys haven't done at this point that you still want to do three songs. Uh, I don't think we haven't done anything besides the I don't play moround my but oh no, ain't. No,

you know whole thing for nothing, girl, I don't. We had once slip up before where you know, he was going real harm for the bat that motherfucker's clipped them bitch, and I was like, oh my god. It was the most example and I cried. I put that out there. That seems like to be like, just what the far wrong with you? And I was like it was too tight to go in. He's like, yo, it was the worst pain. So I think that kind of scared the funk out of me. So yeah, that's one thing that

that's not going down again. No, yes, never happened. Never year. I don't, Okay, you never. That's every woman. I never. I never squared it either, So every woman can you just got to figure it out on myself. So I don't want to pee on him. It's okay. When it happens, when you feel like you gotta pee, that's really so you just let it go and pee. It's not really pee, it just it's like release. But that's what it is.

When y'all be doing it and out of nowhere, it feel good and then all of a sudden you feel like you gotta pee, don't hold back and ejaculate on him. That's what that is. You give me so HiPE listen. Okay, so that's your homework during this coronavirus pandemic there, so do this think No, it's smell like pete. Nope, No, it's clearly clear. Yeah, and it feels like an orgasm because it is. I'm gonna try to ship watch I end up paying on him. Google it. It's like, ways,

is it there? Angela? What was that thing that you had that you can put down? No? No, no, it was something that made you squirt? Wasn't there something you was talking about that they made that it was designed to make you squirt like for what it's called. But you use toys, Tammy, Do you use toys? I do have a few, but I'll be scared to use them because they first of all, they make you come extreme, you too fast, and then they like take the sensitivity away.

So like when I when I would use them, like to say like if was gone, and I'm like, I want to get my thing off, and I used one, and then when he come back and do it, it's like it takes me forever to come. I've been playing

with this fucking toy. Yeah, make that dick vibrate. And then one day I had this little peek thing right actually I think was green and um it was like this little vibrated thing, and so I was like, baby, let's try something different and then you know, let's and I put the think out and he was like, so I started playing with the thing where I was doing it, he was like, man, I can't do this. Ship. It's like you gotta fucking avatar dick out. No more, I'll try.

You killed the whole mood, right, he called an avatar dick. I was like, it's not avatar penis, it's just the color of it. How about how about a cockrane Have you ever got anything for him and been like here, use this, Oh the little pocket pussy things not like it's like around his dick. Yeah, it goes around his deck. I got one of those. He didn't like it. It was vibrating, like it vibrates around it or something. Yeah. Yeah, yeah, he didn't like that. He felt weird. He's like, I

don't like this ship. That's so damn good. You don't like none of the little boys like that? Yeah, none of that ship. They're like, what the fund is this ship? Every time I buy them, he's like, don't don't play my point. I'm not right, not home in my I'm like, yo, that's I've been watching porn together. We have we have watched it together. Uh. One day we watched and we're like, okay, we'll do everything that they do in the pool video.

What happened? And then he was like, oh no, yeah, abst for her man, but that's something you know about driving. Like all right, y'all having more or less sex during this quarantine situation. I would say more then, more than we normally do, but it's time we have to wait to uh controlly be up to like five in the morning because she's a teenager now, so she'll be on the phone with her friends all day and like, so we'd be having to trying to like wait till we

know she sleeps. She's now, so she's like kind of yeah, she's smartest hell. So like like you know, when we'd like kind of getting freaking, she was like, y'all stripling and she was like bo and I'm like, we didn't even do anything like. She was like, you'll be kind of loud sometimes too. Has your daughter ever been like I heard you last night? No, thank god? And and he girl girl, So she was one day she walked in,

she was and it's crazy because she was younger. So she ends up telling me now that she's older, she was like, yeah, y'all thought I was dumb. I knew I knew what was going on. I was like, oh my god, girl. She was like yeah. She was like he we were doing it. And when she walked in, he grabbed me by my head, put me in the head locked and was like, oh, we're slaying. I was like, you know, like he's like put me that. Yeah, I'm

gonna let me know what the is you're doing. We're wrestling up doing something like I think I was giving him man. So when he grabbed me, I didn't see her behind me. Yeah, Like I was like, what the fund is you doing like, but she didn't walked in and so she was like, yeah, that kind of like that. His worst fear is Charlie walking in seeing him exposed or and he like, when I say, it devastates him, like an even the thought of it scares the funk out have. So that's why where he's when I'm not

in the movie, he's in the mood. I'm like, is that Charlie and his whole he can't even get it back the night? You know what. He seems like such a great father for your daughter. He loves like everything about her so much. He said wanted to be a little girl. It touched me when he said he was sad that she doesn't feel like give him the hugs and it is. It's so sad because he'd be trying, like he'd be like, hey, Charlie, look, you know, do this and she was like, yeah, that's cute. And he

was like, man, I'm like he is older now. Like when he's younger, she would be all over I'm like, oh my god, what God, Like everything was so exciting. So now she's a teenager and he like the stuff that now it's like the stuff he does now was lame. And fine, so he's like man like, I don't know if he gets frustrated, he'd be like, oh, she want to do her friends, like he could get jealous of her friends and we her friends fro. I'm like, what

this might it be? Like when you were just talking about how like people just want to be friends with her just because of her parents are famous, and that's not something you even like take into considerations. You know What's so Charlie, it's crazy right for y'all call We

were just downstairs talking about it. She had gotten too it with some girls and um and the girls was you know, talking or whatever, and I was like they were talking mat it about her, like her mother, her father, like they even talked about her walker's brother who committed suicide. And she was real mad, and I was like, why are you entertaining myself? Only thing you gotta say. It's like like y'all some bombs, like y'all broke bitches whatever.

It's like, you know, I say safe bitches, but you know, and she's like that's rude, Like you shouldn't select her money. I said, what they're talking about your their family whatever. I'm sing all over the home right now, you're raised. Yeah, So she's like she doesn't and she and this crazy is one little girl who's like she got in a fight with And Charlie has only never been a fight until she got to um eighth grade, so she's never been a fight until eighth grade, and she gotta fight

with this girl. And I kept telling her, like, this girl probably want to be a friend. So now the girl really wants to be her friend. And she was like, Mom, I can't be friends with her. And I was like wow, she was like I don't trust her. Like she was like, like what she would be my friend for, like I don't even friends, Like she's she's a cancer. So she, uh, yeah, you know, I'll give you a chance. At the chance, Charlie,

M I don't like it. And you probably could relate a lot to her, because I know that your mother was saying you had situations where you know, you was a life scanned girl in the neighborhood and you got to tease a lot of girls wanted to fight you because you were the pretty light skinned girl. And now she got a situation where she's coming from, you know, to parents that are celebrities or whatever, and people are jealous of that as well, because they don't, you know,

have the same thing. Yeah, and I think with my mom, like and my mom, and she was talking about my mom is everybody you know, she's my mom chocolate. She's all you know, she ain't no light skinned black women, She's all chocolate woman. And growing up, she always raised me like you ain't You're not better than nobody else. You you know, you believe, like, don't be scared none

of these bitches. I don't give a fuck. All that red shit don't matter, Like you know, she always raised me and in the mindset like it's crazy because I hate when like a lot of our friends like did you think you chocolate? It really irritates me because I'm like, I just was raised by black woman. So that's just

how I act. Even when I would get into fights and ship and of course it probably was because I was I was trying to play myself down to hang with the girls, like you know what I'm saying, Like you know, uh what crazy thing. It was like I had a lot of come from West Baltimore, so most of my friend's mom got high. They was like drug at this day. Was like my mom used to get high too, but my mom was more Uh, she was

more selective with her ship. So my mom wouldn't be the one to go out to the corner and score. She would probably since someone to go score for her so that no one knew. So she didn't brass her kids. But my friend's parents, you would see their mom, so you knew that their moms out there. So I would

trying to explain it. I'm like, which were the same, Like we go through the same struggle, but for them, they looked at how I looked and how I dressed and ship because my mom, even though she got high, she had an addiction, she made show we were straight and then she took her money and did what she did after we was good, after bills just paid, which

is hard for a person who's adicted to crack. You know what I'm saying, Like you have functional smokers and do you have you know, crackheads or whatever case may be. So when I used to get in fight and ship, it was more so because they felt as though I was better than the because of how I looked or how I dressed, When in my head, I'm thinking, like, bitch, we're in the same struggle, like we we both got

the same issues, you know what I'm saying. So my mom always but even through all that, she always by I don't give it. There's times like I went to uh sleepover and um, I beg my mom to go to sleep over and she was like, you're not going whatever the kids Maybe she end up let me go and it was like, I hate tame to sleep over and no, the girls jump me, they beat to shoot out me. Whatever I had one, I got one of them bitches. But um so when I came back, my face is all sucked up, and my mom she didn't

gonna fight even every last one of them. So growing up, even though I was like the only little mixed girl in the hood, I was still throwing blows with with bitches like I didn't because that's how I had to right, you know what I'm saying. So my mom saying that she was like and I hate when people talk to

talk mak like oh she um, you know she was shying. Oh. Everybody always say they had the light skinning girls story and the third it wasn't that that that the girls ain't like because I was light skin It wasn't just because of my hair or how I look. It was also because they felt as though I was in a better situation than them because my mom knew how to She knew how to make ship look good. You know, I can't explain it like it we feel you, yeah, like she just knew how to make it look good.

But and internally she never a lot to us. We knew what was going on. So for me, I was just like y'all thinking that I'm better than y'all, but I'm really going through the same ship y'all. Like on the surface, it didn't look like it. It didn't look like it because my house was always clean. We always you know what I'm saying. She always made sure even if she couldn't pay rent, she was find some church or something. Goddamn body donate some rent money or something like.

She never made to wear his Oh she was hustling to make it happen for you, right. So she always knew how to like clean, you know, clean her like. She never came out. She always would know how to talk. And she even though like my mom would get high, she would come back in the room with us and she was like, listen, I do this because this is this is my addiction. It's something that I gotta change,

and this is something I'm praying against. But don't y'all ever think that y'a would disrespect me because of my head ever, know what I'm saying. So in facts, and we would sit there and we were like, okay, we wanna pray together, and we would pray together. She would be high and we'd be praying together that she would stop getting hot. Like but my mom was always very open and transparent with she always you know, um, she

always kept it one hunt huh coming for okay. But yeah, so she's like, you know, she always sucking straight up and one hundred with us. So you know, like my struggle mostly came from just bitches not really knowing what the food I had going on. They just up. It looks like you got your nails done right now. Listen. I was about the ass herd because you was gonna say, send me the lady. And yeah, she was real girl. She um, she bought me her papers so she's negative

for COLDA and she came and she she did. She bought me her PA. But she was like bit talking out. She made her get tested before she got up and was so crazy. She was already saying she was feeling she was you know, she han't went through was feeling sick as well, so she would anyway. Yeah, and so she came. She was listen bit I'm negatives. I was like, okay, bitch, put up browsed, done too, tammy girl. No, he's a sucking hit bitch. These were crazy at least like from

here the micro blade. I need to go get him. Kay, my head, everything is a mess. I've been I've been drinking my I've been losing weight though. Girl, I've been here trying to swoop down. That's good. I understand. Like when I gained it goes all here. And then if I gained three pounds or three pounds, it's like in your cheeks, like what the fun? I like a damn

chick mark. And people automatically be like, oh she presonant because better you're taking time out to talk to us, because I know again, like we see how busy you are watching and you know, walking intommy everything. We've been watching you on we TV and we always appreciate you just always being such a sweetheart to us. Oh, thank you guys, and thanks for um having me today. And I can't believe y'all still y'all y'all said, which were

still working out. Absolutely. The season finale is this week too, right coming up, Yes, this Thursday is the last episode for this season. Um, so you know, and the numbers have been extremely great, so definitely because learn things, so we appreciate that, you know, even showing your dad And yeah, it was hard. It's really hard the first season trying to open like it's it's hard because yeah, it's so hard,

but I didn't know it's gonna be that hard. It was so emotional for me, like too even let people in my house when my house is in out of order like that, even that was a problem for me. But I was like, fuck it. It is what it is and we love it. Now at school, huh, Charlie is a superstar at school now, girl Charlie. You know,

Charlie's homeschool. So it's crazy because I pulled her out probably a month before this Corona stuff and he had a homeschool because she kept getting in fights and she kept getting in fights and she she that's not her. She's not like like she she ain't no pump, but she's not raised like you know what I'm saying like how I was, Yeah, I'm like nah son, like you gotta son, you know, you gotta get home. And she

wasn't focusing because she was trying to. She was super popular, but not because of she was probably because everybody knows who she is. But she has that cholice is that MS fit type of I have to like jump out the bed, where to say sweatshirt three days in the row. Don't give that's her personality? All right? Another season? Absolutely, yes, we're looking forward to it, all right, Chel you give

the whole family our love. We appreciate you. All right, Thank you guys, Thank you have with your threesome, right,