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boyfriend or girlfriend? What is my husband? It's not about matching up like you think. This numerology and astrology, the aspect of numerology and astrology and what Irena knows about these two sciences. If I could say that, it's pretty astounding and it's really making a lot of sense to me, and I initially thought the same thing, Well, a show about relationships, I do I have to talk about mine? Where are we going with this? It's not really about relationships.

I mean it is, but it's a much broader term than what we're thinking about with that word. So I urge you to check it out. It's every we do it every Tuesday. It uploads Tuesday night or Wednesday morning. Check it out. You'll learn a lot about yourselves. Speaking of learning things, today I decided to listen to a new podcast. I didn't know that Stephen Baldwin has a

podcast called One Bad Movie. It's a great idea. He has actors come on and talk about the one bad movie they made, and they have a lot of fun in the process of doing that. They're bringing up stories on the set and rivalries and arguments and all these sorts of things you don't know happened in the midst of making a movie. I think it's great. I mean,

Stephen Baldwin is a good actor. Yeah, he's been maligned for a lot of things, not only being one of the Baldwin brothers, but of course he made some clunkers early on, like whatever was Biodome with Paulie Shore whatever. The guy's been in some good films and I don't have to tell you anything about The Usual Suspects. It's one of the best films in the last fifty years. And he's phenomenal in that. And he has a great knowledge of Hollywood, being that him and his three brothers

were all over it and still are. But Michael Madsen was one of his guests. I love Michael Manson. I have a little bit of a history with him. I remember when Rosalie and Jack came. I put them up at the Beverly Hills Hotel and I went and see them. We sat by the pool and I'm like, this is it. This is Hollywood, this is nineteen ninety seven. And I'm like, yeah, you know, this is where it all happens. And you

see actors coming and going. This is back in the day where none of us really knew about actors or celebrities politics. We just liked seeing them. And there's Michael Manson in the summertime in a thin black leather jacket and jeans with beautiful ray band, black sung lesses. Onie's sitting at the pool meeting a producer and has a script in his hand, and I'm like, this is it. This is Hollywood. Madson's at the Beverlyos Hotel pool with a glass of fresh teaze, orange shoes and a script

and there's a producer. This is a deal going down in front of us hanging out. It sounds ridiculous and trite and who cares. But now, back then, I was such a fan of the way Hollywood work, and I love seeing guys like Manson out and about I love his acting. I got to know more about Michael because years ago, god must have been ninety nine, maybe me and a buddy are at this little bar in town that we decided we can make the guy more money

by inviting friends to the bar. And you know, we got We got the the door, the door money, he got the bar money. So we had a little little urn going on there, right, And this girl walks in, attractive woman, and she's at the bar and we're milling around and the night goes on. She's getting louder. You can tell she's tipsy, and I'm like, all right, you know it happens at the bar, fight side up next door.

We start to talk blah blah blah, and I'm in my drug phase back then, and I could tell she was on something, so I'm like, uh, you know, I got pain pills in my pocket, I got muscle relaxes, this cocaine. I mean, I just was a bad time for me, and she didn't have anything. But she made the reference that, well, I don't care if you do it. Maybe we should go back to my place. I said, you're in no condition to drive. I could tell, and you know, I said, why don't we. My buddy will

take your car. You'll ride with me and we'll you know, you tell us how to get to your house. Okay, that's very nice for you. So she's in my car, we drive. My buddy's in front of me. Oh, she's behind us, and I'm driving to her home up in the Hollywood Hill's a beautiful, big house, and go ahead. There's a big pool in the backyard. And I don't have any shorts on me, but she goes, you guys can swim. We're in our underwear. I was in nothing. I was free balling back then. So I'm like, God,

I'm gonna go to the pool. Me and my buddy were in the pool. I'm naked, he's not. She's up in a room. We'll do whatever she's doing. I go up in the bedroom, and you know me back then, I'm checking people's medicine cabinets left and right. And I'm not the only one. I mean, Carrie Fisher tells stories of doing that for years. So many actors and actresses did that, not Dana Delaney. Julian Julian Margolis has copped to doing that when she was in her bad face.

I've heard nightmare stories. In fact, I when I had in my house, I had a small bathroom downstairs with a medicine cabinet, and I put a bunch of marbles, fifteen twenty marbles in the bottom shelf. I never opened that medicine cabinet because there was really nothing in it, but I wanted to see who would open it. And

it was very embarrassing. One time, her friend was at a party at my house and went to the bathroom and opened the medicine cabinet, which she don't need to do in someone's house, and I hear all the marbles filling on the sink. It makes an unmistakable sound, and you know it's embarrassing. But oh, I was just looking for a toothpick. Whatever the fuck they say. It's all live. Everybody's looking for a description pill bottles. I get it.

So I go to this woman's house and I look into a medicine cabinet and I see bottles of medicine with the name Michael Madson on it. What I said, are you married? No, I was some divorce from who Michael Madson. Like, Oh my god, I said, I love Michael Madson. So now I'm with Michael Madsen's ex wife and my buddy's in the pool and her and I ended up having some fun a few weeks later for a couple of nights. But Michael heard about that, and I approached him at a party one night and I said, look, man,

you know, I know you heard that. I'm I see your ex here and there, but don't think anything. I'm not treating her badly. She's a nice woman and we have fun. Blah blah blah. I don't care. Man, It's okay, A jay. I know you know, I know you're not that kind of guy. Typical Madson to kind of talk, and I love listening to him talk. You're gonna bark all day, little doggy, You're gonna bite that reservoir dog scene was amazing where he cuts off the cops ear

dancing too, stuck in the middle with you. That scene they want to cut from the movie, and Tarantino told producers wantin said, we keep that of the movie. You're losing every female. They get a storm out of the theater and Tarantina was like, I'm not cutting it out. It's not I'll walk away from this deal. That's staying in the movie. Harvey wimsthem is wrong. It's a fantastic scene and it made that movie so much better than what people assumed it would be. But Madson was always

a cool guy with me. So I'm listening to his show and I know, I know because of his ex. We were in contact. We talk here and there. Like when Steve being the big billionaire democrat donor and Hollywood producer, committed suicide. I was on the phone with her because she was close to him, so she gave me some

information about his death. And when was I going with this? Oh? So, you know, I just love when Michael Manson has stories and his ex would tell me certain things and it was said, you know, I learned that his drinking was so out of control and just was wrecking his life and no matter what girl he was with, or his new wife or whatever. He would always call his first ex wife and you know, ask her for help, what do I do I need help? Can I sleep over on the couch? And she would take him in, even

though she had a boyfriend at time. It just was like, this is Mike always going for some shit. It's just strictly Hollywood stuff. This doesn't happen in Tennessee or West Virginia and happened in Hollywood. So I'm listening to Michael Manson on Stephen Bodwin Show, and you know, he's telling some great stories about all the great actors of that generation. And you know, I'm listening going like Mattson is such a different ilk. If you look at the actors now, the Timothy Scharlimetz.

you can hear his voice. Man, the drinking and the smoking. He sounds so bad that that great movie star voice is now so such a It's like he's gargling with gravel. It's just bad. I feel bad for the guy because he really has had a problem with alcohol and smoking. And you know he lost his son to suicide not too long ago, and he tells some great stuf or is he he made Donnie Brasco or Johnny Depp And you would think like, oh, these guys must have had a ball on the set. I loved that movie and

I loved what Michael Madson brought to that role. But he told Stephen Baldwin, no, I don't think Johnny was up to that task. And seems like what because none the material was above him. He just it didn't look real. It didn't look like he would be a guy that could infiltrate the mob and just play an opposite Paccino as Lefty Ragario. He's like, thank god Pacino down played his performance because if he did a real Pacino, he

would overpower Johnny Depp. And Baldwin is going no, and I'm listening and going come on, man, Johnny Depp was great in that role. Not according to Mats and then he says we didn't get a law. Oh what happened? Well, these guys were playing real life mafiosa's who did some bad stuff back in the day, and some of the remaining mafiosa heard about this movie. In fact, I wrote about this in my column when Donny Brasco came out.

I mentioned that the director better get things right because the people he's portraying in this movie, some of them are still around and they're not going to be happy if they're portrayed as punks or pussies. He better get it right. I thought he did. But there was a point where some mafiosa. It was a party one night at the I forget where, but some mafiosa approached Madson and said, look, man, you're playing my friend. You're playing

my brother. You're this, you're that. You better get it right, you better get you know, Johnny Depp is playing a rat man. He rat it, you know. We this kid needs to learn a lesson, And Michael's like, what do you mean? I'm not what am I going to do? So these crazy mafiosa guys come up with this rubber rat, a very a rat that was rubber but look so real because of that a little It was battery operated. It was rubber, it was big, and when you said it in the room and press the battery with a button,

it would move like a real rat. So at one point of the night wherever they were hanging out, the mafia guys put this rubber rat in a room that's empty, and Michael is talking to Johnny and says, I'm want to show you something, and he shoves Johnny in the room and locks the door behind him, and it's not very well lit in that room, and Johnny is watching this rat walk toward him and he's screaming, I mean, if he's anything like me, I can't stand this side

of a road that big anywhere near me, even a mouse, I can't stand. I'm standing on a chair trust me, and Johnny Depp never got over that. He didn't like that that that's what Michael Matson did, even though the Mafia put him up to it. You know, he would never know things like even to the point where when when they wanted Michael Manson to read for Donny Brasco, and he said something that I wish I had the power to say because I feel the same way. He's like,

I'm not gonna read. What do you mean I'm not gonna read for the movie. You guys know I can do this. You know my work. You know I can do this with my eyes closed. What I would have to read. I'm gonna give you a shitty reading and you're gonna be confused. I'm I good for the part. You know him good for the part. I love that rationale. So they said, well, well you at least meet Al Pacino. He wants to meet you, and I guess size him up to see if he's good enough. Because Michael had

a good part. Was it Sonny Black or Sonny Red? I forget what Sonny you want? I think Sonny Black. It was a real character. So he said, yeah, I'll meet al Pacino. So he meets Al and right away the only thing Al says to him to read the book. Reread the script. Yeah, I read the script. Read the book. I read the book. What do you think I like it? I like it good. Oh by the way, yeah, uh,

you got no birds in this movie. The point was that in the movie, Michael Madson's character was gonna have pigeons on his roof like a lot of people have in the tough world, the tough guy world, like Mike Tyson. Some mafia guys would do things with pigeons on their roofs. Right in the script, Michael Madsen's character had the pigeons. This is how crazy Hollywood gets. Al Pacino reads the script and says to the people making the movie, I want the birds. He look at the birds. I get

the birds. So he tells Manson at the meeting, you look at the birds. What do you mean the birds? I get the birds? No birds for you. Matt is like all right, you know, and Al reports back, I like him. Hire them, and they hire them. That's how crazy Hollywood can get. Al Pacina wants the birds. Michael Madsen's not gonna read. It's not how nutty things can be. To put together a movie. It's just you wonder why things don't get made, what's the hold up? What's going on?

All stupid shit like this. Another podcast I caught, and I really I'm gonna try to make it my point to see this more, but or to listen to it more. Have you checked that Army Hammer's podcast? I forget the name, but just look it up. His mother is a part of his podcast, and it's great because she's so horrified and disappointed in her son. Not because of the alleged catibalism and then his marriage falling apart because of his

cheating and carousing. No, she's horrified that her son, one of the heirs to the armaher Armenhammer, you know, Riches, is living in a rent controlled apartment building in Glendale, which if you're in Hollywood living in Glendale, you might as well be in you know, Mississippi. I mean it's not that far, but you don't consider people in Glendale to be part of the business unless they're behind the scenes.

And not only that. The first podcast I listened to, he tells his people, and it was a very bad episode. That cuts were bad, the edits were horrible, the sound was bad. But he made no bones about it. He's like, this is all I wanted, this is all I can do. No one's hiring me. He'll get work. I'll let him fool you. He's tall, handsome, and he's got a name. He'll get plenty of work. But he bought a couch that day on Facebook marketplace that was really cheap, and

that's where his mother was sitting. She looked like she was sitting on a pile of shit. That's how she is. She's very snooty, nose up in the air. So I don't know what's going to happen with this podcast. I know the whole world. Everybody in the world has a podcast. There's good news about that. In bed I told you last week. I was happy to hear, and I'm happy to know that people have really admitted that podcasters had

such a huge effect on the outcome of the presidential campaign. Yes, you know, you need to find people who worked in the media who were independent journalists and not rely on the networks and the cable networks, but find the independent journalists. And they really made mention constantly of how much podcasters helped Trump. And I love that because I wanted to do that when he began to run years ago. That was my goal. I want to help him. I want

to make this happen. And if you look back to back in the late eighties and only nineties, when I was covering the beat and you know, writing about Trump, often, I was writing about him because he would tip me off to another story, and as a payback, I'd put him in the column because he was in a basketball game, or he ateed some restaurant, or he bought a new building. That's how you pay people back in the trade. It's

very quid pro quo. So I had a hand, as did many of us in New York gossip columns and such, of making him famous to the point where he became a TV star and if he's not a TV star on his show The Apprentice, I don't think the rest of America knows enough about Donald Trump's one day he can run for president and win not once but twice.

So I think, well, I know I had a hand in the first, uh, the first the first spurt of Trump becoming a person of interest and then president, and I think I had a hand in the second go round, and I'm proud about that. I didn't know that would be something that I look back on and like when I began these podcasts. But I know that was a goal of mine, and I'm glad it happened. This story, you know, I just I see these things that I

have to comment. Kim Kardashians getting a lot of shit for people saying she's making a mockery of religion because she posed half naked while wearing rosary beads. This hypocrisy bugs this shit out of me. The other day there was pictures of herself posing in some all white one of her skims collaboration with the adult chain Gabana. She had a cotton bray boxers shorts, lace leggings, and she had rosary beads and a cross around her neck, and her hair was long and black and parted down in

the middle. She looked great. At one point, there's a picture she pulls her boxer shorts down a little bit, exposing that not her pubic area, but it was not. There was no hair showing, if I want to be blunt, but her boxes were pulled down a little bit, and that got some people being very upset, very distasteful pictures. My word, I don't feel right with the Rosary there and this type of photo shoot. People are saying, why is she always wearing her across but she's half naked. Listen,

you gotta stop. You know that priests wear rosary beads when they give boys head, right, you know that this is not a big mystery. They're either wearing them or they're in their hands wearing a cross while being half naked. Would you make a mockery out of other religions too? Okay, I mean, just do the research on Look, Madonna did this years ago and rolled around the floor on the MTV Awards or the VH whatever it was, and caused a worldwide Oh what, I can't believe she's doing this?

Why do we get this way over religion? Don't play with the Holy Rosary? You know, when I went to Rome and been there twice, I've been to the Vatican, walked up the steps of the Cupolo all the way to the tippy top, and you look out on that roof and you see how the architecture of Rome and the people, how they put it together. It's beautiful what they did. I mean, it's absolutely gorgeous. But I also remember being in the gift shop at the Vatican, which

I think is tacky as all hell. And I got a lot of shit for this when I wrote about it in my column that the Vatican has a gift shop and I use the word gaudy. There are a lot of things they sell that were gaudy, and boy did people come down on that word. And you can't talk that way. Do nothing of the Vatican is gaudy. The Vatican, Michael Jackson, and scientology. Those are the three areas that you don't want to make fun of because the fans or the supporters of those three things are rabbit.

But it doesn't bother me. Oh, I take it back. When I was looking at the pictures of the article, I wanted to zoom in, but I couldn't. That offended me. But what do you wanted to wear? Should she wear a minora? What should she do? And after people trying to shame her, trust me, don't even go to church? Okay, So you know, I just I can't take that stuff. But look, I look at Kim Kardashian and I think we've lost sight of Don't get mad at me. She's

a very beautiful woman. I mean, she just is. There's a lot there to make fun of anybody who's as themselves for so many years of their daily life and routine. Any one of us would be maligned. But you just can't look past the fact that she's a very attractive woman. She's now basically raising those four kids. I'm not saying on her own. I know she has plenty of help, but if the father's not there, Kanye is just doing

whatever the hell he's doing with his other wife. But just for shits and giggles, and for the fact that anyone offended by these sorts of pictures, you know, I'd love to say, I'd love to see Kim Kardashian just put her toe into the Only Fans pool and watch how many millions of dollars she will pull in per day, not a month, per day. Kim Kardashian would crash that site. And if she could crash it, what the hell do

you think Taylor Swift would make on it. I know she'd never do it, but she would be the first only fans billionaire, but make another billion and only fans not counting or torn her songs and everything else. She would just blow it up. I wouldn't want to see Taylor Swift naked. I'd rather see Kim. Have you seen these girls? There's so many girls and only fans. I've seen this article. I don't subscribe, but there are articles on these women. You see their faces, there's interviews there

on podcasts. Some of them are no better than a six, and they're making millions of dollars a month. They're earning more than some Hollywood celebrities. There's a chick named Sophie Rain who is adult star. I don't follow he up, know nothing about it. I've seen her, nothing special. She revealed recently the amount of money she made on one year and only fans. It's tens of millions. Another one, Camilla Arajo, a youngster making millions millions, And they asked,

how did you feel when you saw that? And one girl began to tear up four million dollars a month. Four million dollars a month. I can't. But then the person interviewing this woman says, you know these men have wives, children, baby, mama's bills and ladies. If you're seeing this, go through your man's phone, because four million a month, I promise you you will find that link in his search history.

You know what, woman, Lady shit head. You know, if you're gonna flash your tits and asks for men, don't kick him in the ass on the way out. That's not fair. If you're offered to show that to people and men oblige and pony up the dough, don't knock them for doing it. Now, Clearly, if you're doing it and you're married or you got a you know, a very good relationship with your girlfriend, you gotta question yourself

of why you're doing it. There are men who look through Instagram and that's fine, But going to OnlyFans and watching women do things, and you know, that's I agree with women, that's cheaty. I mean, especially if you're talking to a woman or watching you do something for you specifically, that's cheating. It's the kind of cheating that breaks up a marriage. But yeah, in the course of twelve months, this chick Rein made forty three point four million dollars.

That's more money than Listen am a Stone made about twenty six million. Last year. Scarlo Trahanson made twenty million for a part in Black Widow. This chick made forty three four and she's not alone. Another chick made so much money she left Karna Cop not a sexy name Kopf. She made so much money she just put on her on her page. No more link in bio, but that on X she's done. She made sixty seven million dollars

in three years and walked away. You know, this girl's got six point five million follows on Instagram, three million on X you know, a million on a YouTube channel. She's gonna be fine. I mean, look, I can't get Manethe's women. But the question is, guys, ladies, what if your daughter wanted to do it? If what if you were really strapped and things were bad, We're gonna lose the house. Uh, the cancer so and so has can't be covered by insurance. We need to go to a

different part of the world to get this treatment. Just pick a scenario, and you've got your daughter there who says, maybe I can go on OnlyFans for a couple of months. Guys, I have millions of followers. Do you say yes or do you say not? On your life? I don't know. We're in this era where these women are making staggering amounts some money, I mean so much money that they apparently out earned NBA players by almost two billion dollars last year only fan content creators made six point six

billion dollars collectively. NBA players made four point nine billion collectively. Excuse me, so, what's America's pastime? Basketball? Baseball? Tits and as it's tits and as right or wrong, you can't get mad. It is what it is. Speaking of tits and ass. This stuff gets people. You know what, maybe I'll save this story and get back to what I wanted. Well, no, you know me, let me, let me, let me, let me include this, because this this got me, and I

think this, this kind of shit has to stop. I look, it's it's it's one thing in this world to make a living. Only fans or let's say make a living gonnae reality show because I've been attacking reality shows for a while, right, but they hear today. Remember what Warren Baty said. I told you the other day about reality TV's not going anywhere. It's so personal people can't turn away from it. But it's another thing. If you're on these shows and you're trying to get some press on them,

maybe more likability by mentioning your miscarriage. When a doubt ladies or couples mention your miscarriage, this is gonna make the whole country feel bad about you, and I guess they think support you or tune into your show. The Kardashians taught us this because they had a show every week and they had to come up with drama. Most of it was conceived with a bunch of producers around the table. This happens all the time on every reality show. Get a room and there's a bunch of liquor. Find

the one who's crazy, the one is a peacekeeper. Put them in the same room. Get the college street art, get the towne whore, put them in a hot Tell what's an alcohol. They do this all the time. But there are two people I've never heard of that I don't want to know anything about. These people, by the way, but they're being written about. So here I go. Because the media has deemed these people newsworthy. I can't take it. There's a show called Selling the OC never watch it,

but it's out there. The stars of the show are Geo Hellou and his wife Tiffany, and they've shared some heartbreaking news that they suffered a pregnancy loss. And this Tiffany got very candid on Instagram post last week. She said, how the joy of learning they were expecting. Baby number two quickly washed away in a wave of blood test, ultrasounds, and an er visit, all confirming that it was an ectopic pregnancy that never had a chance of surviving, and

she shared how that loss really hit hard. During the holiday season. She found herself crying to God, questioning why her precious get this, why her pressure poppy seed sized embryo implanted in the wrong place, and why she even got pregnant if it was gonna end in devastation. Okay, look, they're leaning on faith. She made it very clear, they're trying to find the silver lining for all this. But just try, try and be happy with what you have, stop leaning on what you lost. My mother had a

miscarriage before I was conceived. Roseley had at least one. I'm pretty sure, And honestly, I've been down this road before with women and wives and my most recent ex girlfriend. It happens, but I'm sorry. I think these things are between you and the person you love, not the public. That's why I never said anything when this stuff happened to us. But I can't get over how many how many times celebrity publicized this shit. Enough, we don't have

to know everything about you, gang. Don't you agree with me? Rice? Anyhow? Civil Water just a round out yesterday's show where I talked about things being looking good in Hollywood and not working out. I have to tell you, I mean, I obviously had some luck on my side. I didn't want to end the story like that. Apparently that at Horseshoe I have up my ass, according to my mother, went into effect and I ended up having a nice amount

of success in Hollywood. And this is this is the Hollywood when actors didn't walk around with their politics on their sleeves. Nobody, and I mean nobody talked about it. And that changed in a hurry. But at that point I figured, you know what, I've hosted seven or eight TV shows, sold a few screenplays. I said, let me see about getting cast in some TV shows now, right. So of course back then people knew who I was, but rarely are you given a part because of that.

You still have to ace whatever it is you're doing, whatever you're going after. And I mean I got some crazy direction from people who brought me in to read a lot of times, and I mean a lot of times, people in charge of hiring or casting would tell me. Just be A do your thing, be the AJ we see, you know, be the guy you are. I've always was given direction like that, just do AJ stuff. What like when I got hired to call female n Anda fights in Florida and different states, and they're like, okay, I

don't know much about and doesn't matter. We want you to be AJ, all right. So I was AJ. It's very strange how I'm happy for it. Even with a high stakes poker. Just be you. If you don't know all the rules to folk would just say it and just be you. Be funny, be irreverent. Okay. But when I have to go read and be someone else, I began to see, I don't know if I like this, you know? And I love immersing myself in the part

and being someone other than myself. I love that. So I went out started getting some parts here and there. I did an episode of Numbers. I did some soap operas I think almost called almost called passions. I forget what almost called Loving I Thing and Passions. The third one was one that was more popular that has been out for years. I forget the name. I never watched those stupid shows and remind me never to talk about what it's like working on a soap opera. It's it's

so boring, such solitude. You get there at five am. You get hair and makeup, then you just sit. You get some breakfast, you get your signes of dialogue. You sit, or you're laid down in your trailer and wait for them to call you. Eight nine, ten, oh, ajma, ready for you. Someone comes to get you in a room. They're walking with you. There's a walking talking on their hip, there's headphones on their head. I've got talent. Now I'm making my way to set with talent. Talents with me,

no one, No one has names, just talent talent. They treat you like it made a gold. Talent's coming. You meet the director, you talk for a few minutes about what he's looking for. Great, you do the scene, it's a wrap. You leave. It's so boring and uneventful. You leave. You go all right, it's a thousand dollars day. Now what do I do? Two o'clock in the afternoon. You don't feel like you work. You don't feel like you did any special. That's a strange thing. Strange. But then

I began to read for crime shows. Right, I was telling the kids about this. The other night, after Thanksgiving dinner, we were watching a couple of movies on Netflix. One was called Don't Breathe Two. I love the first Don't Breathe. The second one ain't shit. Then we watched some thriller called Nowhere See Nowhere about this chick stuck in a storage bin that's floating and sinking in the middle of

the ocean. I won't tell you any more than that, but I'm looking at the acting, not the woman in the storage containing She was great, but the other people like in Don't Breathe too. I'm showing my kids shitty acting. And I said to you, guys, this is why I stopped reading for TV shows. Now. Look, I love to read for sopranos or Tulsa. King said, some shows I love that are done right, but the majority of them are just cookie cutter bullshit. They know exactly what they want.

It's like making donuts. It's nothing special, you know. It's not the TV shows I grew up learning the business about or loving. So I'm watching this actor and I had to stop it and go, guys, look at what he's doing. He's trying to coax somebody out of their home and obviously this guy is with people who want to harm this person, you want to kill him. And he's going, he's speaking into a doorway where he knows the guy is and he's like, nobody here to hurt you,

just me. Just want you to come out talk to me. Now, that's what stupid casting directors and stupid directors want because they think you're dumb watching TV. So the actor's got to act like there's nobody to hurt you, which everybody in the world knows at that point, Oh, there's someone that had hurt him. It's stupid. It's it's no one talks that way. You can hear it. Why is it accepted as acting if you didn't want the guy to think there were people with you and say, listen, man,

I'm alone. There's nobody with me. Man, just come out and talk. I swear to God, there's nobody here. That's how you sell it. Not nobody need to hurt you, Just come out. The fuck. I can't keep going out to read for shit like this, so I stopped going. I'm like, I want you guys to see me on TV like that. We don't care, and kids don't care. They just they just they don't care. They're happy that they can get an uber or get ober eats, or you're at the basketball game, or you help with the homework.

They don't care what you do for a living, especially if it's television. My kids don't care. It's just I get a kick out of it. No one ever asked Dad, what was it like in that they don't ask me that shit. Kids don't care. And for a while that bothered me until I heard like big stars say the same thing, even Jimmy Kimmel. I remember him saying his wife never watches his show or fallon, And I'm like, I used to get mad and my wife when I

began the podcast that she didn't listen. And I'm finding out that rarely does your partner ever listen to the shit you do or watch the shit you do because they got their own life. It's becoming more clear now. But that's why I stop reading for TV. That. Don't get me wrong, there's a great show out there. Oh yeah, man, I'll be I want to go. I told you, I'm not going to do it until I feel like I'm ready and I'm in shape. And I think the tide has turned in a pendulum obviously is starting to swing

the other way. I don't think that. Well, I'm pretty sure that Hollywood's not going to be Hollywood. It used to be when I was going out to read for things, and I just felt like it's phony bullshit, and uh, they're not gonna want a guy who supported Trump publicly to read for their show. But now I think that's starting to change, and maybe or not, maybe definitely, I'm not afraid. Afraid's a bad word. I'm not concerned to wear my Trump shirt around California, not that I ever was,

but now I'm especially not worried. I'm actually happy to do so. And I think all those factors play a big part in me getting back to doing what I love to do, but not for shitty TV shows. I got to be very selective. And I've told agents before, don't bother me, don't give me shit like this, I'm not gonna read for this ship not and they're like, what do you mean it's worked? I don't want that kind of work. I can't anyhow. It's like when I

did I don't want to be sour grapes. When I did the What's just what the fuck's wrong with me Graves at season one, I played the mom few boss right, Okay, Willie DeMeo put this together. Get a good cast, Jimmy Russo, Nick Tatar Uh Toro, good guys who were fun and you know, good actors, not like fancy people with big, big fucking resumes, just good actors. I felt at home there. Dan He starts going season two with different stunt casting. Yeah,

Chas palmer Tieri's great. Sure if any passed, story is great, but now you're just making another Sopranos and it's a weak Sopranos. It's not a good Sopranos. The third season you have Andrew Dice play and Shaquille O'Neal. Get the fuck at you. This is not a TV show I'll ever watch. So when I wanted to be in season two and I saw her he cast, I'm like, I want nothing to do with that. Then season three comes along and I'm like this, I don't want to I want no part of this. I don't care what the

pay is. I can't be on a show like this and see my ass and not be embarrassed. I can't. I still think that matters more. I have to wake up in the morning. And like myself in the mirror, which I rarely do. But I can't have a shitty TV show on my back as something I'm a part of. Oh no, I can't. Anyhow, I'm rambling. I gotta go to poker. I just want to get a show to you guys before I split. It's gonna be a long day that I'm out of here in a couple of days and back home and shits. But at least my

sons to get it. My daughter's with us, well, she's with Rocco now because I'm out of town. And I feel good about that that daddy finally has a place that the kids can convene and we can watch movies and eat dinner. And it's such a great thing that I've missed for a long time. And I'm cooking again, and you know that makes me very happy. And I'll be posting recipes and tell you more about that, and don't worry. Look, I know you guys want the cookbook, and you want my third book. I know I want

those things too. I do, on occasion write more recipes and include more chapters in the book in time. I think this year twenty twenty five, both of those things will be just at the point of getting him out there. But I gotta find my agent, my lit agent again and get him hyped up on the book that I pitched a couple of years ago. But it's all in motion, it's all good. Everything's happening. And I called it to my December monthly Horoscope on Relationships as a bitch. It's

never been a better time for me. So I'm gonna take full advantage of that, and we'll all have a good time and I'll have more stories to tell. And that's what you guys like, all right, all right, gang, I'm aj Benza. That was a very long, well not very long, forty two minutes. Fame is a Bitch, The Unedited, unexpurgated, whatever you want to call it show. Check out Stephen Bowen's podcast that you can stand that. It's not the best production line, but I like hearing actors tell the

truth about their past. Eric Roberts, Michael Manson, Denise Richards. There's some Bronson Pinn show, some good episodes. See I don't care I pump other people's shows because I want everybody to be happy and successful. There's plenty of money to go around, all right, talk to this tomorrow.