Trying to turn over a new leaf when you're over fifty high. This is fifty plus. I'm James Lot Junior, jail dream Medium. The last few years, I've been trying to take all the wisdom that I've cared, I cared, accrued, accurd, I don't know what a word is that I've gathered all these years and put it to practice, No, put it to use. It's hard sometimes because something else happens. As you get older, the more you learn. At the
same time, the less you care about certain things. So you're like, Okay, I'm trying to get upset about certain things. I'm trying to be good, not get upset. Blah blah blah. Then there are times you're like, I'm gonna say what I feel cause I guess I can do it now. I'm old and I don't care what you think. Those two things don't work together. You have to find a way. Well, you can do one or the other, but we can't we do both. If you're trying to turn your leave
them believes can be heavy. You can be trying and turn it over, but I'm telling you it's hard. There are things I want to say to certain people and I'm just like, no, James, I'm trying to hold it down and not cause any drama. Because as you get older, if you're a normal person, you want less drama, so you try to avoid it because you don't want any drama. You don't want any drama. I want going on. You have time for that. You're busy and things going on,
or you're more relaxed. But then things keep happening. Of course that's what life does. Life be life, And as young kids say, I really don't say that, but who knows, things keep happening that test your your thoughts on happy. So you're like, please stay I got to my friend the other day. I'm trying to stay calm. I stay calm. I can't tell tone through text, our messages. Try to look at actions, did you try to look at That's not easy either. Meanwhile, back in the ranch, you really
are trying to have a nice, relaxed life. And I would say for me, I don't have any drama. I really don't. I don't have any drama anywhere, not with anybody. I have a small group of friends. Some I see all the time. Some I already talk to you. It's all good. I don't talk to half of my family. It's good there too. I try to find solutions and be a pro problem solver. And when I'm trying to find solutions, I try to find the one that's the
most effective and least dramatic at the same time. On the inside, I got all these feelings that are dramatic and pushing to come out. But we say no, no, no, we do not do that. You stay inside because they will not help anything. It may feel good at first boot turn somebody off does feel good sometimes, but what is your What is the outcome that you really want? You want to be effective, so as you get older,
you push them down. You don't always say what you think you want to say, and you try to work around to a solution that's better. Sometimes life happens and you don't gotta say nothing. A trash takes out itself, the problems just go away. Then sometimes people ghost you and things go away and you're like, what happened? I don't know. Getting older is such a mixed bag in many ways. I love it. I know what I know. I am smarter than I was when I was in
my twenties and thirties and forties. There are things I've learned, I've survived, There are things a better person because of it. But also I know too much too and I can work against me, and I'm trying to hold it all down. It's that inner turmoil I think we all feel in our fifties. Some people are some people are really good at managing it, and they just go through there the second the golden years golden and some are fighting it on their way out. M