There are times when I want to pick up the phone and send a text. There are times when I want to prove the phone and call, or get in a car and go to his house or his job. I miss the laughter, I miss the discussions, I miss the music, the shared experiences. I miss so much. And there are times when I almost forget, almost forget that he's gone. I'm James Lott Junior, and this is fifty plus an audio only episode. I don't want to cry on camera again.
I've cried on camera a lot of times in my life. I just don't want to. Even it's easier for me to do it this way if I just listen to as an audio only episode of the show. Who I'm talking about is my brother Max. Today, on January two, twenty twenty four, New Year would have been his birthday. I'm imagining everyone who cared about him is thinking about him today. He was larger than life. I knew to say, what's coming, of course, it's usually right after Christmas.
New Year's right, there's it's there, and you think it would get easier, and I yes, and I've been told grief, it takes time, right, And I just as a show it's called fifty plus and as many of us are losing family members as we get oldest. One of the things about fifty plus. By time you get to fifty plus, not everybody. Some folks people last a long time. We are living longer. But for many of us by now we have lost a friend or colleague in our
lives. There are many of us. It is the beginning of losing of siblings. For others at least one parent and mostly and almost most times grandparents are gone, and his uncles are going to go. We are living longer, necessarily saying that, but I am saying by this time in our lives, Pettic, this is fifty plus. She give be six or seventy. There are folks that are gone that were important to you. And this is just the case. It just it is what it is, right, just
is what it is part of the aging process. Max was such a larger life character that it just feels like it's he's missing, Like it just feel it feels quieter and not in a good way that he's not here. And I speak on him all the time. I speak of him all the time to keep his memory going, because that's what we have to do love you? Who are my fans now? Have no idea? Never met him. He died right after I started to see some pieces of fame, so to
speak, some notoriety and some attention. He saw the first parts of it, but he didn't see the life. Well, if he is watching him heaving, he has seen at all, obviously, if he believe in that. But I mean physically, he's not here to tell me what he thinks and what he sees. I know he was excited about something that I was doing. So him dying his birthday, me doing breakfast TV. It's all intertwined. It's a weird way me Finanti died. Everything, it's all linked
together. I miss his gumbo, I miss his laughter. I miss singing Tria Cott and Charelle songs with him. I hear songs like that, and I just you know. And today I'm supposed to it's my office day. Yesterday was home day and I was taking care of at home. Now it's office day, and luckily I'm really blew me really busy, so that that part was good. Be really busy, take care of business now. At least he keep my mind going all right, But I will miss him,
even doing very natch. I'm saying I don't think grief hops no limits are bounds. I would say, you guess somebody in your life you know for forty seven years, it will take longer than it's six seven years for you to go O my hey, race, it's just a hard day. And anybody who was, like said, anybody in my age group can relate to this fact. Unfortunately, you think of what could have been, like, what would he be doing right now? Where would he be, what would
he be into? Would he be seeing somebody? Would still be for me? Would he still be at bed bath and beyond? When you have the job you know would have if you know I would have tried to get on my shows and have showcases. It's just brilliance. When he came to Internet Star, all these things just never know because it was taken away so young. So I know, kids, I don't know what else more to say. I'm sure there's a lot more to say, but I don't know what
to say. But I guess it's gonna be silent now and fake on him, and I guess be thankful for the time I did half with him. And it sounds cliche, but I guess you have to like I do. I have lots of memories, I have tons. Those memories will have to comfort me as I think of him today on his would have been his birthday. So happy heavenly birthday. So my brother mys in heaven, and I hope you are entertaining the troops up there having a good old time waiting for
when I get there. At some points, right well, we reunited. As they say. This is fifty plus. There are video versions, of course, in the show playlist on Jljbdeo on YouTube, but you need to check out the rest of the audio episodes where you find audio streaming services. If you have a brother, call them, hug them, text them, tell them you love them. You won't be sorry.