All right. Anger is okay, Resentment is okay, Being tired is okay. Being irritable is okay. I am as I'm walking through this journey of caregiving. All these things are okay. I'm James lo Genius is fifty plus and I've been sharing my feelings with you guys. I will be doing a caregiver's private Zoom mental health check in sometime in June. I'm working on that. That's from the fans asking a whole you do that. And I love,
I love doing mental health stuff. And I'm but a little support for us and for others who are going through even deeper stuff that I'm going through because my stuff is not nearly as you know, there's no pay Olympics or anything. But just I mean this, folks, I know we're going through I mean twenty four hour, major long term stuff. But yes, I there are moments of frustration and resentment and anger and intrusion and and it's the
only body tell you it's okay to have those feelings. Um, it's okay to feel them, and it's okay to acknowledge them and recognize them as they happen. Um. The thing that I personally don't want us to do is to live in them. You don't want to live in them or have the manifesting ways that are not healthy. But the healthy part is you're human and stuff comes up. Um. You know, I have a strong belief in God, and so I do pray a menitate to him, um, and
and so it has helped him many I mean totally helped many ways. But you're also human, and sometimes when you're tired, just physically tired or mostly tired, mentally tied and just taking care of whatever it is you're taking care of, and it can just they can have some long term effects. Um. But for you at home, whether it is turning to God or turning to whoever you pray to you or if it's just you know, for you it's a good book or a good series many series or you know, our
friendships or whatever, our time by yourself. You need to find that also because you have to find some way to walk through it, let it go through you, and then let it go out. Um. You know, no one's immute to every human, you know, human. I haven't ant my own faith that I know I can talk to her but anything and my friend flow. But I don't talk to him about anything, and I know I can go my brother. We we're in it together. We can express
our feelings each other without judgment. These folks just let us, you know, let us sometimes you just want to vent. They know, they understand that you're going through something. My own faith actually was a character of herself, so she even understands on some level what's going on. Um and then she just sometimes just less me, just less we say it, lets me say it, and then she offers support. And then flobals like, well, just you offer support, and you know, it's like it's kind of
nice sometimes just to get it out, best to get out. They're fine, and then then usually I'm fine, and after that, I'm like, Okay, I go back to whatever I'm doing. And my analysts girls comes from a biblical play, so she we're going buying some scriptures or you know, there's little things, but she acknowledges my feelings. And there's some folks who will and they they don't mean harm. They will try to downplay it, like you shouldn't feel that way, and you know it's not good and
you don't do that. I know feel it. I'm sorry, I'm getting permission, feel it. Let it out. That's the better part. Let it out, because I do not want to have that effect my caring of the person I'm taking care of, in this case, my mom. So I don't want it to go out on her and my brother. I told that all the time. But oh yeah, do I get angry and I'm said sometimes or whatever, Yes, am I tired? Yes, I've been tired since January, since December. I don't even know. I was just
just constant tires. But I have just been handling everything. I end up coming, vacation coming, which is a great thing also, and I'm getting some of my life back now by I'm doing the things that I that I loved. For a while, I couldn't do. I didn't fit in, couldn't I'm a creative, couldn't do what I love. And that's sometimes sometimes when you're feeling like you're just you're kind of as a barrier to that. That could be also rest of resentment comes in. The anger comes anger at
yourself, you know, anger situation. It's completely okay. You gotta cry, cry through a tanition, through a tanient and private sure do that. I feel like it's all good. But then find a way when you talk to somebody, go to support group, find a trusted person. Let's get it out, put it, get in perspective on some level, Um, if you need that, and then we got to move on from there. And now there's times where there is nothing to talk about. It's just like
I need to get that, I need to vent this moment out. I'm frustrate this moment. Get it out done. And sometimes that's simple, and sometimes say it takes a couple of days. Um, you know, and everything's complicated if you're taking care by you're taking care of someone you love or someone you have a complete relationship with. Sometimes it's everything's just complicated. It's
just get it um. And if it's your first time doing this, there are complicated feelings in that too, and new things also And I've learned. So I said, I'm gonna write a book on the kind of stuff planned on this from my experience because I think, um, they could happen to anyone who may have a loved one that they may to take care of. And it's just something that I feel like there are things that I wish I had known, but I wouldn't have known until I went through it, um,
and I'm very I'm a realist. I talked about it for real. Um, it's good out there. But there have been but also at the same time, there have been some funny moments. My my aunt Cynthia, my mom the other day was sitting and talking about their friendship, their long term friendship, and that was we were laughing and talking and that was fun to do that, and we had tiny that and so you just go, Okay, I balance this out a little bit. You're like, you know,
this person almost wasn't here. Um, I would have had this moment again, you know. So you then you have that elation and that and that gratitude and grace, and you go, Okay, at least I'm still laughing with this person. We're still having some good time with it, We're
still doing stuff. And then, of course my lotties have been so wonderful, and last two Fridays, people have bought food for my mom and I because of her eating stuff and also a fan boughtist Apple Fitters that she loves and so she's eating and so that to me is like the fans that have done that, I just I'll be eternally grateful. So you have that side to you, but I don't want to focus on that. That's why I
focused on that side last time. But this I just want to focus on the times you're just like I'm angry, I'm upset, I'm fed up, I'm tired, I have nothing left to give. It does happen, and it is okay, folks, It is okay, But find a way to also deal bed to at some point. I've changed. Fifty plus is everywhere and I will see you next time. To all your careers out there, I see you. I'm with you.