¶ Escaping Productivity: Finding Awe
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Hello, my fellow suffering beings. How we doing today? One of the biggest ongoing issues in my life is that sometimes I feel like I'm just trudging through my to do list. There's this great quote from a former mayor of New York City, I forgot which mayor, but many decades ago this mayor coined a nice phrase, the squalid succession of days.
And if you're just in a constant state of toppling forward, uh looking at everything through the lens of productivity, life really can feel like a squalid succession of days. So today we're going to talk about doing stuff just for the pleasure of doing it. No ulterior motive, nothing to gain. The only purpose is the experience itself.
Although actually, and this is interesting, these types of activities, which again you just do for the fun and pleasure of the activity itself, can also put you in touch with awe, which is an incredibly powerful human emotion that is genuinely transformative. My guest today is Lily Taylor, who you've probably seen in innumerable movies and plays and TV shows. She was in Mystic Pizza and Say Anything back in the eighties.
Then she was in I Shot Andy Warhol and Ransom. She was also in High Fidelity, Public Enemies, the TV show American Crime, also The X Files, Six Feet Under. I could go on. The reason why I wanted to have Lily on the show, however, is not because of her illustrious career, although we'll talk a little bit about that. But really it's because she wrote a book about birds. It's called Turning to Birds and it's uh just come out in paperback. I hasten to say right here.
that you should not worry if, like me, you're not super interested in birds. The point of this interview isn't the birds per se, although birds are awesome and definitely worth paying a lot of attention to. The point is that paying attention to birds or anything really Can pull you out of yourself and can put duct tape over the mouth of your inner nihilist who's always asking, like, what is the point of it all?
So I'm very excited to talk to Lily. Before we dive in, I just want to say that it is very hard not to feel like you're trudging through life. if you haven't had any sleep, which is why over on the 10% app, we're now going big on sleep. In my experience, sleep is one of the most popular use cases for meditation apps. So next week we are adding 10 new sleep meditations.
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¶ Birding: Deciphering Sounds and Stories
Lily Taylor, welcome to the show.
Hey, glad to be here.
Glad to have you here. I know you've told this story before, but can you briefly recount how you first got interested in slash obsessed with birds?
I always knew they were there, but I hadn't noticed them. And that happened when I kind of took a break from work about fifteen years ago and I went upstate. It was very quiet. I started to become aware of things that were going on out there. It's a lot like what happened to people during COVID.
I just had it fifteen years earlier when things got kind of quiet. And that's when I realized that these things with wings actually had real life things happening and they were real. And that's when I start to notice birds.
And I mean, I notice birds to a certain extent. I live in the my wife doesn't like when I call it the suburbs. She says we're in the country, but it's the suburbs. There are a lot of birds. I notice them ambiently, but I haven't been sucked in the way you have. So I'm just curious, like what drew you in so powerfully once you started to notice them?
Hmm, that's a good point. Yeah. It's like what is that difference with noticing? What are the levels of noticing? Why did I go a little bit further in? I think, well, probably because I have had trouble meditating and I have found that. By listening, birds help me listen. Birds help me focus on something outside of myself. And it's worked for me. I've been able to find moments of peace and connect with something bigger.
Through observing the bird. And that's I think why I went a little further, out of desperation, probably.
You were having trouble finding a contemplative or spiritual practice and the birds turned out to be it.
They were like a gateway into that. Yeah, a gateway. And I think they're a great gateway in general because I think that maybe not in your case, but a lot of times they can be a gateway in that if you start to notice them, they can bring you into something that you might like. Like Clouds, like insects. Because they're involved with everything. So they'll bring you into most things in the natural world.
So if they're not your jam, just try it out and they may bring you somewhere else. And if you don't get anything, you don't have to look.
No, I wanna be clear. I probably wasn't clear. I'm not saying birds aren't my jam. I think this conversation may end up turning them into my jam. It's more that I've noticed them but never really gone deep. Yeah. You've raised a lot of like big questions about getting out of yourself and I wanna get into that quickly and soon, but I wanna stay with the specifics of birds for a little while at least.
There's this term a spark bird, the bird that like does it for you and gets you sucked into birding. Did you have one of those?
No, I didn't. I opened the book saying, you know, there's a term in the burning world called a spark bird and I don't have one. And I wish I did. Because obviously right now would be a perfect example of how that's just an easy little thing to go to and I don't have one. And that's kind of a lot of my story is like I'll stay with birds. Sorry, I keep going off into deeper things, but
No, that's fine. That's fine.
I'm sorry. I have to stay simple.
Don't stay simple. Do whatever do you. Okay.
My path, I don't use that word much, but has not a lot of white light experiences. It's it's more like of the I guess the kind of garden variety as they say, or the um non exciting.
Or gradual.
Very gradual. And so the bird thing happened for me. I mean, I think there was a moment where I heard a bird in a specific way. It was a blue jay. It was really loud and so it caught my attention. I finally was like, what is going on? Oh, I see. There's this. Okay, what's happening? And that's when it's sort of something happened where I was like, wait, you're you're not just like generally squawking. There's actually something behind that noise. There's like meaning there. Wow, you're a bird.
And so I had a little I used
Yeah.
So that was kind of a moment not a spark moment, but it was a maybe consciousness moment.
So when you started to look at birds What did you see or hear that got you interested? Was it deciphering the various calls? Was it distinguishing among the various types of birds, like what sent you down the rabbit hole?
I started to decipher the sounds. And they became specific? And from there I started to Stay longer than I wanted to stay past that uncomfortable moment. I found that when I stayed. I saw the story. There was always a story if I stayed. For instance, I discovered the house sparrow, that little brown bird that we see all over the place, like pigeons and house sparrows. I found that when it was atop this fence post and chirping, that chirp was actually its call for an attack.
And that's when I realized that sweet chirping. Oh, those birds are so sweet. Oh my gosh, they're tweedling and No, actually that chirp was actually I think it's called the chirp of death, actually. In the That's an example, for instance, or a blue jay making a lot of sound. In fact, just the other day. the blue jays were making a lot of sound. They have a bad reputation, blue jays. They take a lot of bird seed or they bully, but they're also known as the alarm call in the bird world.
Sure enough, in Brooklyn, I heard in my backyard the Blue Jays. I went, stayed longer than I wanted to, and then I found the Cooper's house. And it was very quiet out there, besides the Blue Jays, very quiet. When I looked outside this morning, it was like as if it was a ghost town out there, tumbleweeds and stuff. It's cause the Cooper Hawk's around. I couldn't find him, but he's around.
¶ Connecting to Life's Deeper Meaning
So it's like you've tuned into this whole soap opera that's surrounding us all the time that most of us are just missing there's all this good plot happening. Exactly. And we're ignoring it.
Yeah, and I guess ignoring almost feels a little too I I don't wanna say like ignoring, I but I guess in a way it it is, but it could also be just not realizing. The hope is that once we start kind of going into that world, that parallel universe, that it's always there. And that's what I realized when my little sabbatical was over, that I realized that I could tap into that. Power of basically survival. Not even a desire to live, but it's the will to live, which I need sometime.
Not that I'm always wanting to die or something like that. It's not like that. But sometimes I just need a little oomph, a little bit of a, yeah, that's why I'm here. You know, that kind of thing.
Wait, unpack that a little bit. So paying attention to the drama of the birds, this kind of like secret society that's all around us that we are missing out on somehow reinforces. what at times can for you be a sort of nascent will to live but dormant.
Yeah, like for instance, one of the things that I do is I go up to the top of the Empire State Building at nighttime in the spring when the winds are from the south. Because birds from in the spring are traveling from the south to the north. And they're traveling to make life, basically, to breed. They face many obstacles as they come.
death. A lot of them die. They don't make it. Anyway, when I'm on the top of that Empire State building and the birds are very close to me. Almost like I could maybe touch them if I was taller with my hand, you know? seeing that energy to looking straight ahead going to make life. If I recognize that, I must have that inside of me too. Or I wouldn't know it. I wouldn't know it and I wouldn't be so moved by it.
There's a saying that I say a lot in the book that I say almost every day is no contempt prior to investigation. And I think that's the thing is that what birds help me with is for some reason I have contempt prior to investigation and I don't know why. I don't know why I say no a lot. I probably out of fear. I don't know why. Why do I say no? What am I so afraid of? What do I think's gonna happen if I jump into this experience or and birds sort of just have helped me say yes.
Well okay, you see two things there that I wanna follow up on. The first about this kind of will to live thing and then about contempt prior investigation. So on the will to live thing This is me attempting to make an empathic leap into your mind, but it's mostly just gonna be projection on my part. Many of us
kind of trudge through life at times where we're just like checking shit off of our to-do list and it can feel a little rote, a little lifeless. Something for you about tuning into the life of birds can jar you out of that rut. Am I close?
Yeah, you're close. It even unfortunately goes a level deeper into what's the point? Sometimes I wrestle with that. I was just wrestling it with the other day. There's a voice that could come in and say, like, who cares? When I say, oh guess, I'm curious about this is in my mind. Like, I wanna figure out this thing. Okay. It's like having a friend that's not very nice or something inside. That's just kind of like And that's just something I've wrestled with for years.
I guess that's the contempt. I don't understand why I have that, but I've been able to find ways to not let that get in the way of me having a nice life.
Right. I'm just trying to figure out Exactly what it is about the birds that counter programs so powerfully against your inner nihilist. It's just like their will to live. They're not having any existential crises beyond am I gonna get fucking food? Am I gonna be able to mate and get my DNA into the next species? And there's something about the simplicity and power and urgency of that. that puts some duct tape over the mouth of your inner nihilist.
Yes, but also I think what it does is when I'm out there and I am in that parallel universe, I'm seeing all the things that are happening out, even in my yard in Brooklyn, I'm seeing the bird that ate the seed from the flower that I planted, that then Pooped out that seed next door, and I'm seeing another flower grow, and I'm seeing the babies of that bird.
That morning dove that in fact on my windowsill, one of the juveniles is on my windowsill about to take off. Maybe he'll or she will take off today. But what that does for me is it makes me feel a part of something bigger. And so I don't feel as alone. I feel a part of something. And I think that's where that nihilism or that who cares, that's where that aspect is almost like as if there it's not a part of anything. Birds help me feel a part of the whole thing.
You quote E. E. Cummings, the writer who has a has smooshed a bunch of words three words into one word, and he makes it this neo logism or whatever, more than me.
More than me. Yeah. It's more than me. Yeah, I mean look, I love that I named my corporation. I mean, you know, we have to have these corporation things. I don't even know what I was like, well I guess I'll name it. More than me, you know? And I think that's one of my things. It's just maybe I've got a deficit of not feeling a connection to something. And so I have to kind of practice it every day. You know what I mean? To feel a part of.
Somebody asked me yesterday and I didn't I get these lists of questions that people submit to me before I do live streams. Yeah. One of the questions was something about hopelessness. I was rushing so I didn't have time to really think it through. But this is if you're answering the question, more than me is the answer to hopelessness, or at least an answer to hopelessness.
I think so. I think that when we can connect to something bigger. even through people or just something that's bigger than us, I think you got a pretty good chance of feeling a little better.
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¶ Birds: Living Dinosaurs, Historical Perspective
If you're up for it, a little bit more education for me personally about the basics of birds. You said something that I've heard said before. You say this in the book and in the introduction, and I had heard this said before, but I still don't really understand it, that birds are basically flying dinosaurs.
Yes, right. Do you want some clarification there or what the hell's going on? Like what
Yes.
Wait. Yes, that's what's kind of cool is birds. they discovered that birds are the direct descendants of dinosaurs. They are living dinosaurs. Like, have you seen some of those pictures of dinosaurs with feathers?
Maybe, but I forgot it.
Okay, so yeah, they were able to figure out how to test Or recreate. Oh boy, this is where I wish I was a scientist. But basically they were able to find that dinosaurs not only had a lot of color, but they had feathers. Feathers. Boy, talk about feeling a part of something. Jesus. It's like oh boy, yeah, that's not just now. The earth has been here for a long time. Ebbs and flows and
It's uh and boy do I need this now at this particular moment. I just need to read a lot more history right now. That's helping me deal with this moment of this time is history.
Yes. Definitely history in terms of hopelessness, history really helps me to view all of the noxious events in the news with some perspective and context.
But back to the nihilism,'cause I I have that too occasionally where Just to step back for a second, um at New Year's Two thousand twenty five, I interviewed an amazing Dharma teacher named Vinny Ferraro who encouraged me to do something That I had heard about a million times but never actually done, which is that in the Buddhist tradition there's something called the five daily remembrances.
The Buddha recommended that you call these to mind first thing in the morning and right before you go to bed, I believe. And they are my body is gonna get old, my body is gonna get sick, my body's gonna die. Someday I'm gonna lose everything and everybody I hold dear. The only real possessions I have are my actions. So I've been doing this really consistently. The point is not for it to lead to some nihilism, and I know that and but there are moments of like, okay, well
Well why the fuck would I do X? I'm gonna die anyway.
Yeah.
So I'm just curious for you, like as somebody for whom this nihilistic streak is quite prominent and salient. What is it exactly about realizing? Oh, I'm part of this long flow. of events, these little feathered creatures in front of me are the descendants of dinosaur who roamed the earth tens of thousands of years ago. How does that get you to do X?
Yeah, very good question. And this is great too because it really makes you distill or makes me having to dis distill and articulate of belief. I think what it does is it brings me into today. You know, it's like that great not Sanskrit, it's uh what does it look to this day? Uh, for it is life the very life of life. In its brief course lies all the verities of existence. the pains of existence, the pains of something. So look to this day for it is life, the very life of life.
And I think that what you just described, the connecting back and feeling a part of, helps me look to this day. for its life and to just stay here today. And that's all I have to worry about. And not get overwhelmed with tomorrow. Because like why am I here? Like I'm not just here to trudge. I hope not. I mean, I would like to make it more than trudging. I would like to have more meaningful experiences.
And I can do something about that. And it is up to me to make the meaning. Because the meaning isn't gonna make it for me. I have to do it. And that's up to me. And then why else am I here? And I think a lot about my deathbed to help me think about how to be more now. What are some things I want to feel like before I've died? And I do want to feel like I gave it my all. Hm.
I think that's exactly it. the five daily remembrances or just thinking about death generally, nihilism would be a pitfall in that particular path, a wrong turn. It's really about introducing urgency and vividness into the right now to counter program against our deeply wired tendency to trudge. Yeah. And I think about it for myself, it's like I've got limited heartbeats.
How do I wanna spend this time? And I wanna be doing things that are meaningful to me and the meaning comes from the interconnection.
That's right.
I'm not like wearing a hair shirt and saying I should never meet my own needs, but my needs are like in this web of everybody else's needs and like there is the truth of enlightened self interest. I meet my own needs by being useful to other people and so birds or whatever it is that floats your boat gets you into that space and out of well what's the next thing on my to-do list?
That's right, exactly. And there is beliefs that focusing on something outside yourself maybe bigger than you, I don't know what that means exactly, but that's got something more going on. Can it create a feeling of Something. Sometimes ah ideally. Yeah. You know.
¶ Biophilia and Awe's Moral Impact
Well let's talk about awe because awe's really important and powerful. Just a note to the listeners, we've done not a few episodes on awe and so I'll drop some links in the show notes. The kind of preeminent expert on awe is this guy Daker Keltner with whom I've done a bunch of interview, so I will drop some links to Daker in the show notes. But anyway, back to you, Lily. There's a term that you talk about in the book biophilia. Yeah. Can you say more about that?
Yeah, Eo Wilson came up with that. It was a theory he came up with, and the great entomologist uh a lot of breakthroughs with ant. He believed that we are hardwired to respond to the natural world. And that all that's needed is for it to get activated. All the wiring is there, ready to go. And that's his theory. And so that's the good news. I see that over and over. I find this thing I like to do or I don't like to do what am I talking? I when I'm looking up
at a bird. I do find that the human being walks past me And then they start to look up.
Mm-hmm.
And I don't exactly understand where this thing comes from'cause it's deep sort of hardwired thing. I thought maybe'cause things jumped on us from maybe when we were like on the savannah maybe the leopards and stuff were in the trees or I don't know what we needed to look up to as an instinct. But anyway, I find people do it, but I think it's also because there might be something living up there. And not only do people look up, but sometimes they'll even stop. They'll ask, what am I looking at?
And I say I'm looking at these four blue jays. And we stop and we both try to figure out what's going on.
How often do those conversations turn into I loved you and Mystic Pizza? Oh a lot.
Oh a lot. A lot. A lot. What it is usually is Wait, do you walk do you live in nope, movies and TV. I go right to it. Movies TV, that's what it is. And then they're like, wait, do you know I'm like, I can't name'em all. It's in the Rolodex of the vault. You'll go in there, but for now, let's keep looking at this bird.
Yeah.
Here's another example. For instance, I took these kids when my kid was in grammar school, I would take her class out for uh walks, bird walks. And it's ten minutes to the park, ten minutes in the park, and ten minutes back. That's the whole thing. It looks like the kids aren't even taking anything in, you know? But midway through the year, one of the moms comes up to me and is like, Oh my God, DJ, he's obsessed with birds now. He wants me to always keep feeding the birds outside. What happened?
And then another time a mom called me. She said, I'm calling you because my son said, Call Maeve's mom. She knows about birds because a bird just flew under our window. So you could see how that little opening, that little ten minute walk or thirty-minute walk. Something happened to two of the kids. Something kind of got in there. And I've seen that happen a lot.
the aforementioned Daker Keltner who's a author and scientist at UC Berkeley, I believe he once told me, with apologies to you, Daker, if you're listening, if I'm mangling this, but I believe he once told me that evolutionary psychologists think that the societal function of awe, or at least one of the societal functions, aside from the fact that it feels really good to feel like more than me.
One of the societal functions is that it induces moral behavior. Oh that once you start to feel more than me, you become a better citizen.
Huh.
Which makes total sense.
Yeah, so all of a sudden these kids are worried about the birds flying into the windows. Yeah. Because they've gotten a taste of more than me.
Wow, so that ought to oh that's fantastic. I've got to read more about that. It's not like a chemistry thing. It's more just like a societal thing that we all kind of share.
I think it's all of the above.
Oh, wow.
Wow. And again, I apologize to you if you go do your research and realize I'm full of shit.
Are you kidding? Look at all the things we've got going. It's a miracle we can even talk at all about any of this and make some kind of sense. But you know what's so interesting about awe, the root of it, is I think it's. Thundering. I even think it means painful. Because you know something, sometimes when I feel aw, I do start to tear up. And it hurts sometimes because sometimes that unbearableness of being alive is sometimes harder, at least for me to handle than um
anxiety or fear or whatever. It's like I don't say the word awesomeness because I I really like to reserve it for special moments. I don't like to But I feel that awesomeness of being here. It's like I can even feel it right now. It's overwhelming.
Maybe our anxiety and fear is just trying to prevent us from looking at the awesomeness.
Mm. Yeah, exactly. It's hard. It's hard to love. Why are there so many intimacy problems? What's so scary about love? Why are we afraid of going deeper with another human being? Why? What do we think's gonna happen? Some little small part of us is very scared of something.
Yeah, and and this kind of goes back to you and we haven't used this word yet, but I in my research on you you've used it to describe yourself. But like your introversion, your occasional shrinking back from life. Yeah. I don't think it's a coincidence. that it was this doorway to awesomeness to awe that turned out to be a kind of lifeline.
Yeah, right, exactly. I need that lifeline. Some people just have either more of that chemical in their brain or they have more of something. that they may not have to work as hard as I do with trying to stay somewhat spiritually fit.
¶ Cultivating Attention: Listening and Investigation
Speaking of spiritual fitness, one of the practices you talk about in the book for which there are lots of scientific studies and evidence, much of it actually done by Dacker who keeps coming up. You talk about something called awe walks. Can you say more about like how those are done and what the evidence is for them?
Yeah, I can't remember the name of the scientist who conducted the study, but they went out for like five minutes. And the participants basically just were kind of instructed to focus on something outside of themselves. And over the course of time the participants started to feel better.
It's in the introduction. I don't wanna fuss around with getting the name and all that, but it's all there if you wanted to put it into the notes,'cause it's some interesting scientist who came up with this study who was able to prove some stuff, and I tied that into paying attention. Which is You know, attention is interesting because when I learned what attention meant, the root of it, which is stretching, tension.
It's not our normal state. It shouldn't feel good. It shouldn't feel comfortable. In fact, in the dictionary, it's even says paying attention especially with the mind. reaching for something, especially with the mind.
Even in the phraseology, paying attention.
Oh, that's interesting. Oh, I hadn't even thought of the paying. Of course. Thank you. I had kind of skimmed over that word and just went straight to the attention. Right. Why did they come up with paying attention? Right, so it takes work. It's hard. It's not meant to sustain forever or it wouldn't be a stretch. Because a stretch means you're extending. So it's okay when I can't like on stage, why aren't I in the moment for the whole play?
What's wrong with me? Why am I completely out of the moment? Why am I thinking about dinner after the play? Why am I thinking about how well I cried in the last moment or how well I didn't cry? And almost kind of getting down on myself when I especially when I was younger. Or even why can't I stay with the bird more? Why am I always going to something else? It's like because it's hard. Because paying attention and listening isn't meant to sustain indefinitely.
So go easy on yourself. And all you need to do is get back up again or get back into listening. And that's why I love listening, because it's very actable and it's something I can keep doing even if I stop listening. And as an actor, listening is the most important thing. And that's one reason I keyed into birds a lot, is because I found I was using the same skills as with acting, which was mostly listening and investigation.
Quick interjection and then I want to follow up on that listening and investigation thing. Interjection is that the lead author of the study was a neurologist named Virginia Sturm. And that's in your book. Can you say more about why listening and investigation are such key parts of both birding and acting? I I imagine some people listening to this would be surprised because we think of acting as talking.
Oh, right. Well that's a problem, exactly. And I find when I'm with an actor who's just talking, and not listening, there's not much going on. There's nothing very it's not very interesting. Because the listening was God, boy, I'm having to really articulate some deeper beliefs and words here. Like, wait, what does listening even mean? I have to think about that. But I just know that again, listening it is focusing on something that's not me.
And it's oh, oh, oh, I know. Right. Yes, yes, yes. Here's a great definition. A neuroscientist said, Hearing is the sense, listening is the skill, and the difference between the two is paying attention.
Huh, I like that.
I do too. So it's more than just the sense. So when one is listening, one is using other things, you know, that you can't put words to or whatever, but it's like You're having to focus on something that's not you. The other actor is what's giving me the food. That's where all the energy is. It's not for my backstory or my memory or this is for me. Some actors are great at summoning memories and doing stuff that has not worked for me.
But for me, I need to focus on the other actor. I need to listen and get that food and that's gonna inform me. That stimuli is gonna inform my next Listening, I go in and out. And that's okay. It's very difficult to listen perfectly and for long periods of time. So you just get back, you start to listen again. I'm like, oh shit, I'm not listening again. Fuck, I known I didn't hear anything they just said. Oh Jesus. Okay, that's okay. Just listen again. And then I zone in again.
And it's the same with the bird. I love investigation because I feel like with acting, I feel like an emotional detective. And I feel like what I'm doing is I'm very neutrally following clues. within the script. And what I love about the word investigation is that the root is vestige. And it's the outline of the thing. The outline of the thing is what you're following, not the actual thing itself.
So you don't ever really get you yeah, hopefully if you're a tracker and I have tracked and it's very difficult, you get to the actual thing you want to find. But really what you're observing is that outline of the thing. the vestige and you're observing it deeply for any clues and then you go to the next clue and the next clue and then you have this whole story from that investigation.
¶ Flexible Meditation for Well-being
Just a quick note that came to mind when you were describing listening, and this harkens back to your earlier statement that you're no good at meditating. the core rule of m in meditation, which is my central job on the planet right now, is just to remind people that when you get distracted, that is not a failure.
Waking up from distraction and starting again is the whole point. Yeah. And that that's proof of success. And so it's the same with birding, it's the same with acting. It's hard to pay attention. So we're just building the muscle by doing the rest.
I have a question. So when you started meditating, did you ever feel worse after meditating? Did you ever go into like difficult areas of your mind that were actually kind of Very, very, very difficult.
Still happens. This may not be the case for you, but for many people, the primary misconception is that meditation is a thing you do to feel a certain way. But desire And that's what it is. You want to feel a different way. Meditation is like a fucked up video game where if you want to move forward, you can't move forward. The point is not to try to achieve a special state. It's to feel whatever you're feeling clearly. So that over time your feelings don't own you as much.
And
That's the key thing to understand. And so it's totally fine if you walk out of meditation with more clarity into your sadness. In fact, Early in meditation, many people are like, why am I more anxious now? And the answer is not that you're objectively measurably more anxious than you were before. It's just that you're seeing it more clearly.
And then over time, what you learn is, oh, I can handle these feelings. I don't have to feed them and neurotically re-up them all the time because I can sit with them.
Has your practice changed through the years? And where is it at right now? What is it today?
I think it's really important to have it be changing all the time. So for me, I do about an hour a day but I don't do it at one go. And I'm really flexible about first of all, if I don't hit an hour, I don't freak out, it doesn't matter. And I'm really flexible about Depending on the shape of my day, when I'm gonna fit it in and what's it gonna look like. Is it gonna be walking meditation? Is it gonna be seated meditation?
Today, for example, I haven't meditated yet, but I've gotta get in a taxi to go to the airport. I'll probably do a little bit in there and then um right before I go to bed when I land in LA I'll do a bunch of walking meditation and so it'll add up to something like an hour and
the flavors of meditation. Like there are lots of different types of practice. Mindfulness or loving kindness or like I said, walking. It really depends on, you know, what I usually don't know what kind I'm going to do until I sit down and figure out like what do I need right now?
But you have like a little um toolbox of fifteen, for instance, or ten types of
Yeah, yeah. Ten, maybe. Am I gonna do a body scan today? Am I gonna do loving kindness practice? Am I gonna do focus on the breath? Am I gonna do open awareness? style of open awareness because there are lots of phrases there. Am I going to be lying down? Am I going to be standing up? Am I going to be walking? It's just good to know there are lots of options and you can tailor it to what works for you.
See, one of the problems for me is I seem to come across more strict meditation kinds of practices. What I love about what you do is it's So much is allowed.
Yeah.
You know, you don't have to sit a certain way. You don't have to friggin' and it sounds like you do a lot of walking meditation.
Yes. Yes.
Yeah, what...
Just to be clear, when I say walking meditation, it's not as my meditation teacher Joseph Goldstein once said, it's not recess. It's not like just go take a walk. And nor is it an awe walk, although I think you could mix them i if you're doing it the right way. Sure. But you are really trying to pay attention in a certain way to the physical sensations of the movement.
any other sensory packages that are being delivered like seeing and hearing. Then every time you get distracted, start again and again and again. And there are different phrases you can use to keep you in the game. There's a different techniques you can use, like little mental noting. There are different
paces, you can go at a quick clip or you can go really, really, really, really uh exaggeratedly slowly. So just to get back to your main point, it's really about optionality and figuring out what works for you.
Now, are they all Buddhist?
Uh yeah. Okay. For me.
don't have to be a Buddhist and I could take one of those And it doesn't matter if I'm a Buddhist.
Yeah. The Buddha he didn't even talk about Buddhists. That's a later term. Do you? Cafeteria style is totally fine, just take what works for you. Don't worry about the labels. It doesn't matter.
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¶ Autotelic Activities & Urban Nature
So there are a couple of points I want to hit on before I let you go. One is we've been dancing around this point, but I I just want to hang a lantern on it. The idea that So much of what we do is, as we keep saying, trudging through our to do list. They we view our daily activities, many of us through the lens of productivity. Right. And yet there's this whole class of activity, and you use this phrase in the book.
auto-teelic activity where the whole purpose of the experience is the experience itself. You're not trying to get somewhere. Can you talk about why that's so compelling to you?
Yeah. Well, it's sort of like that thing that happened, you know, when I was curious about something yesterday and a voice said, So what? Well, the thing is is so what? Because so I can just have this experience just for the experience. That's what? I am under no pressure to take this experience into any sort of result. And maybe I've got that over my head, a little bit of like, well, what are you gonna do with it?
Where's it gonna go?
Like for instance when I started writing the book, I didn't know it was gonna be a book. I kind of used that autotelic that sort of, well, I'm just gonna write for the sake of it. And see what happens. Instead of please don't pressure me into, you know, this must be a book and it must be a I probably wouldn't have been able to do it.
I just love that because it helps me follow my curiosities more when I just can say, I don't know where this is gonna go. I don't know, but I'm doing it just because it's for the experience.
There was another guest on this show recently who was talking about I think he used the word A Telik. I don't know If it's synonymous, but he was talking about doing things just for the sake of doing things. And I got a text from a former colleague of mine literally last night who was just listening to that episode while cooking dinner and heard this guy talk about Auto Telic or A Telic or whatever, you know, just doing shit for the sake of doing the thing.
Yeah, yeah.
And she had to sit down, rewind it and listen again and re examine her whole life, she said, because it was just like she's on this autopilot uh and I th I really resonate with it like this. productivity narrative we're in of like, gotta get shit done because it's gonna lead to the next thing.
Oh honey, I'm a GTD.
Okay.
Get things done.
Okay.
Oh no, I'm I'm friggin' I've got all those s systems and I've I love And I'm hardcore get things done, which is probably why I also really need to have this other thing. Cause I need structure and I need to have like heuristic I'd like to do this this week and I wouldn't have finished the book if I hadn't used the GTD stuff.
Yeah. Okay, so the last question I I well It's not entirely honest to say it's the last question because I have two questions I always ask at the end of every interview, but this is the last question on my little list here in front of me that I wanna make sure I get to. This is gonna be a little random and this may feel like a little bit of a non sequitur, but I did make a note specifically for our city listeners, that even pigeons
can be observed and listened to and there's a lot to see there because most of us tend to ignore the pigeons. So can you just hold forth a little bit about how we can use pigeons to our advantage psychologically?
Yeah, I'll text you guys a great little book I have about pigeons by Rosemary Moscow. It's a simple, sweet little book with pictures and stuff for grown-ups and it's all about pigeons. And I needed to read it because I am judge pigeons. I I I didn't think much of them. And they're actually great because they're always around.
They are a great way to focus on something outside of yourself. They're very different. So they're easy to identify. Like they look different from each other. So you can follow like X. with the black spot on the head from Y who has completely white. And you can kind of follow them and I can see them in my yard and see their stories play out and like, oh, I know that guy. I know that one from that one.
They've got some complex stuff happening. I mean they're interesting. So just give'em a shot and follow'em around and why not? If you're like waiting for a bus, why not? Better than looking at your phone.
A million percent.
¶ Book, Hunger Games, and Final Thoughts
Okay, so here are the two questions I always ask. One is were there anything any areas that you were hoping we would cover that we haven't gotten to?
I don't think so. I hope not. I feel like we've gone to a lot of places.
Yeah.
And finally, can you just remind everybody of the name of the book and also anything, you know, you're doing either on stage or on the small screen or the big screen that we should be checking out? Sure.
The book is called Turning to Birds, The Power and Beauty of Noticing. And I'm about to start the Hunger Games, which is great.
Oh. Yeah. I didn't there are more movies to be made in the Hunger Games?
Yes, there are, baby. There's a prequel. That book you see out now that's everywhere, I'm gonna butcher the name. Because I just keep saying Hunger Games, but it's really like the sunrise on the reaping. It's that book.
Okay.
It's that purple gold one. It's the one we're seeing everywhere. Okay. Yeah, that's the prequel. It's the origin story. It's great, man. I'm very excited.
Well, this was a huge pleasure. Thank you for making time for it.
Thank you.
Great to meet you.
Thank you, you too. I'm gonna try. I'm gonna try this meditating and I'm not gonna get mad at myself if I can't.
Bingo.
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Big thanks to Lily Taylor. Awesome to meet her. She's great. Don't forget to uh check out my new app. Danharris.com is the place to sign up. Next week we're calling it Sleep Week because we're dropping a bunch of new sleep meditations and we're doing the session that I mentioned at the top of the show with Carl Eye, where we're going to talk about how to boost your sleep with meditation. Finally.
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